#i didnt even get notifs for it

[porthavens]

achievement obtained

i got anon hate

#REALLY fucking funny to me. #bro how desperate are u to reach me that u turned to tUMBLR. i barely even post here #i didnt even get notifs for it

[masonjarsmoments]

Wanted to make one of these for ages - so hi this is me

#didnt even knew i have so many videos of myself that are related to andi in some way #i had to go back through the GC snap chat for some of these and the girls freaked because I forgot they will get notifications #tumblrina #its meee #tik tok trends

[gibbearish]

its been fun watching the hbomb subreddit try very very hard to stick to the "if anyone harasses james on my behalf they wont see the light of heaven" by imo overcorrecting to "any time anyone mentions somerton ever it's because you're obsessed with him and want to pick on him because he's the villain of the week" bc its like. yknow actually i dont think people keeping an eye on his various attempts to weasel back into the spotlight and keep doing his same old shit over the last /two months/ is the same as harassing him because it's hip and fun. i think maybe those are not the same thing

#and like obv yes its possible to do both but idk #im just kinda like. 'dont harass him' and 'ignore him completely even if hes continuing to do shitty things' are um #different. those are different #origibberish #i will say though that subreddit is very good for gauging if im getting weirdly parasocial at him #like i still have yet to do that at a celebrity i like afaik because i just. Dont Like Celebrities usually #so now that i have one (1) that autism brain has finally decided to look up to im like Uh Oh Is It Finally Time #and then i see posts on there sometimes and im like. ohhh ok no i get it now #and i mean i can see why they feel that way‚ its the hbomb subreddit and Thats The Most Recent Hbomb Video #and it had yknow. immediate and impressive results #so of course people are going to a) talk about it a lot and b) talk about the aftermath as it happens #and if youre in the 'only talking about this one guy' group and that one guy has only talked about one other guy in the last Year #like. yeah . youre mostly gonna be hearing about that guy #oh parasocial abt hbomb not abt somerton i just realized how the phrasing there was weird jwhfksbfk #that being said i literally made a post like two weeks ago abt how i didnt actually know his first name so like i think im probably good #my scope of knowledge about him extends Exclusively to whats In His Videos #or well and i guess to like. patreon posts too but i tend to just dismiss patreon notifs without reading them a lot KENFKSNFMDB #like yeah yeah this show i follow posted their podcast i dont follow early for patreon subs i dont care get out of my way

[mushed-kid]

whats up whore (dont say anything weird)

heyyyyyyy

#this is so long ago i remember getting the notif #but my inbox is gucked and i cant see the medssges😔 #mush ask #see i didnt even make it weird

[artyheartz]

Is my tumblr tripping? I swear I saw a reblog from my notif but as I refresh it just vanish. Am I tripping???

#mayapost #i didnt even get to see what the notif is abt rip

[munamania]

hm feel free to tell me ur thoughts if youd like friends but basically my friends did text abt doing dinner and i was like 'im sorry i cant tn feel free to go w/o me or lmk if you wanna do another day' and ofc i caught stupid messages back just like 'booooooooooo' 'i cant till next week at least' 'what time r u busy til eye roll' and ill be honest here i fucking lied not that i should have to even give some big explanation but i was like 'well i have class till 5 (theoretically i would) and then have a meeting that doesnt have an end time' basically pretended the one from yesterday. and then i even sent a followup like 'if you guys end up just hanging out at someones place or you grab drinks or anything ill try to stop by later on' and the one sends a message back like 'do you think if we planned on a day next week you could commit to that?' fucking condescending as hell and to that i literally said 'Hm well idk' and then they were just like 'No days next week?' 'just wondering i mean bc maybe the three of us can just go and then we can plan on something lower commitment some other time.' fuck you first of all. and then a 'i get it if it's too last minute!' from my one friend um so thanks to her i guess and i sent smth kinda snarky back like 'well it's not like we had an actual commitment for any day but by all means go and ill certainly try to carve time out in my schedule some other time yeah!' and ive had the notifs muted bc i just dont want to deal with it rn. why am i not allowed to not be available why am i automatically some flaky low commitment bitch who has to be constantly berated in the chat while yall also ignore pretty much everything i say. im not doing that. and this just confirms my suspicions that they already see me in a certain way why should i have to bother when i HAVE still tried to see them and at least offer alternatives when i cant make it to things. also the semester just started like

#unfortunately i got a couple notifs when i opened my laptop didnt read all of them but if they backtracked like. #what am i supposed to do. apologize. you guys are being dickheads #like. no one answered when i said i Might key word Might be available tmrw (today) and other than that it was kind of them #going back and forth abt a couple days during the week and then Theoretically thinking abt today #there was no plan. and to be honest yeah i just dont feel great so technically i am flaking i fucking guess #but honestly way to make someone who is borderline suicidal feel like an even more shitty person lmfao #not to be dramatic i would not. do that. and its not on them. but i can tell you i had to try real hard to get a grip last night #abby talks #so basically idk where to go from here i think im just gonna nap rn and then well we'll reassess

[lycanthian]

i need to fuckign explode

#i need to talk tohim i need to talk to him i need to talk to him i need to tlak to him but i caaaaaaaaaaaaaaant bc im too scared of that lol #it was on my mind two months ago it was on my mind a month ago and its on my mind now and it is driving me insane #bjt k dont want to say what it is because thats a can of worms of potential for people to Know i dont want #so glad the guy in question is locked out of tumblr and the other guy involved barely looks at tumblr #only fucking place i can get this thought out even vaguely #i need to talk to both of them bt i cant because i feel like i will die trying to. heart attack on the spot #as much as i dont want him to i hope he gets a notif for this and asks me sbout it #even though theres no way hed knownim specificslly talking abt him #bc at leas that way it spares me the fucking nightmare kf bringing it up to someone #and its like. objectively not s problem #if i just used my words and talked it out it would be done so fast.but the problem is even though i talk to both of them so much #the thought of talking to them abt this specific thing scares me so bad that #i think if i sent a text about it i would close discord snd not open it for 2 years #sighghhggggghhghgghhhggh ive been rlly good abt not venting on tumblr lately bc i didnt like doing it in the first plsce but #there is literally nowhere else for me to complain about this in a spacethat i am comfortable complaining sbt it in #that does not include one of the affected guys #lycan howls

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4 // Part 4.5 // Part 5 // Part 6 //

i haven't forgotten about this series just yet hopefully i'll finish it by this year. anyway this is titled "joseph is dramatic for about 20 minutes"

#identity v #joseph desaulnier #identity v photographer #unconcerned comic #modern ghost au #ok maybe i did forget about it. but then i received a notification of someone liking it so i revisited this comic series #n i got invested again. i only have till the next part planned out n i dont even think i was very satisfied with the draft #i do want to finish this though i hate leaving projects on hold #if u see me being lazy with backgrounds no u didnt /j #this was simultaneously the most fun and most torturous part of the series i think #cos one of the main ideas i had was joseph getting wick to pick up the locket and making a run for it #at the same time. i hate drawing wick i cannot draw dog. sorry wick nothing personal buddy #anyway this is done. expect the next part but not anytime soon. the goal now is to have this done before the year is over

[taeyungie]

hi ♡ i guess i'm back? 🥹

here's a little life update! i think you guys deserve it after my absence that lasted longer than even i expected it to last ;( i am very sorry about that. i miss everyone here and bangtan so much, you have no idea. the reason for all that is that for the past months i have been going through a lot of things and changes in my life. there were good and bad things happening, time flies extra fast, days melt into one and i didn't even notice the past half a year pass. although i think my absence was unavoidable in these circumstances i just thought that you guys deserve to know what's been up with me for the past months haha i have received a lot messages and reminders that people remember about me and that they miss me and i just want to send all of you my biggest apologies for leaving you for so long with no response, as well as all my love and gratitude! 🥺 i think i've been always fairly transparent on here so if anyone wanted to know more I'll leave some more details in the tags but basically I just hope that soon i will be able to become more active again and respond to messages ❤️❤️❤️ i hope everyone is doing great 🥰

#honestly... it was yoongi's comeback that made it happen. that made me have motivation to come back. i didnt expect it but here we are LOL #because for the past months i have been struggling a lot and i almost lost all the connections with my friends family and bangtan #i lost all my feelings and thoughts #i didnt miss anyone i didnt want to do anything i didnt want to be anywhere. i was completely submerged into my own head #i still am. it didnt exactly get better but.. its just yoongis impact jasbhdjdjd he made me remeber a lot #in october last year i developed a very agressive eating disorder and its gotten a lot worse at the begging of this year #and it has taken everything from me. it sucked me dry and still continues to do so. it made my mental health so much worse on every level #but im still here and thats what matters in the end right ❤️ #from the good things - after long unfortunate and very stressful job hunting i finally got a stable job 🥰 and i continue my uni so far #that's why i was absent here most of the time. i decided to focus on my life and on trying to change something and to fight a little more #after jin's enlistment announcement... it was a wake up call for me #and maybe soon i will be back on track but im taking things slow. especially that its not easy for me at all #but i just wanted you to know that theres been a lot happening here so ❤️ im not just getting bored of tumblr and bts haha #i never stopped following the fandom i never turned off my notifications from media i never stopped looking up what they're up to each day #i just didnt have time and motivation to be active. because of my health i wanted to be quiet and away from eveyone and everything :/ #even from my comfort people and activities #that sounds sad but. it's alright so please don't worry about me ❤️ I'm holding on just fine. got used to some things ❤️ trying to heal #so yeah i think thats that haha i think its enough and all basically #it may seem like very little but my life has always been very slow when it comes to big actions haha #anyway. love you all so much ❤️ thank you for not forgetting about me ❤️ #soon i will try to answer some mesdages from my inbox. please wait for me just a little bit more ❤️ im very overworked right now #but im so sorry that you have to wait so long ❤️

[werenotacoupleyesyouare]

I. i missed a crimeboys stream. How could this happen to me I’m literally just a girl

#i didnt even get the notif!!!!!! #were rambles

[fujoshiwarrior]

can u watch him while i go smoke

yeah one second

#SORRY FOR ANSWERING SO LATE I DIDNT EVEN GET A NOTIFICATION

[lavenoon]

*Sets off a stink bomb in your inbox*

-turns out to be floral scented-

so i need you to know that in my notifs, the big text didn't show, so this was what I woke up to:

and I scrolled so long to make sense of it, thinking there was another ask I missed or something, until I finally clicked on the ask and saw its full form

thank you for the room freshener though, it's been smelling like garlic and salmon after recent cooking adventures

#answer let luce #anonymous #im not the sharpest tool in the shed and clicking on a notif was too obvious so naturally i didnt do it first #in my defense i dont get big text asks a lot so its not like i need to think about it a lot #in my even more defense i checked notifs right after waking up ofc i would be sleepy stupid

[arinakaard]

You, waking up in a cold sweat from a sudden blackout after playing Pizza Tower

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CAN YOU LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE

#submission #ANOTHER NORMAL WORD RUINED #i didnt even get a notif for this lol

[literatureandtrees]

4, 8, 9, and 19 for the end of year asks please!

4. Movie of the year? ummmm i can remember watching everything everywhere all at once and i really enjoyed it. it will be my best pick because i can't for the life of me think of another movie lol

8. Game of the year? i played pentiment earlier this year and it was brilliant. beautiful art style and it was made by obsidian so the story is perfection. check out the summary here

9. Best month for you this year? april. my sister came to visit, cancer was no longer in her body and we acted like complete fools. it was awesome

19. What’re you excited about for next year? answered!

thank you!! and happy new year!

#i didnt even get a notification for this - tumblr is so raggedy #asksss

[weenhands]

i’m having a mental breakdown

#oh my god i don’t even do that bad in school my standards are so high #*gets a notification that i got a 100% on an assignment while i pace around my room thinking about how ive ruined my life #ever since i was in the 10th grade* #ughhh i feel like ive ruined everything and im not doing enough and i have so much work to complete and i keep being reminded of stuff #from my past and it’s eating me alive and i miss people i shouldn’t and i am truly crushed by the way how this entire world is it makes me #want to kill myself and i’m so serious when i say that i am not exaggerating and i can’t stand people anymore my basic standards for love #have gotten higher i feel like hiding everything about myself again i need to die im not enough but all of this comes from stuff when i was #younger why didnt i know better im actually going crazy right now i need to bang my head against the wall #i can’t even be feeling like this there’s so little time left to study i need to focus on reading but i can’t it’s so hard im so crushed by #how everything about my life is ruined dnshsjsjdbdbdsnsnddnndjfjeidhehwuddbdjsndkd

[angelfoodscake]

WHOS REBLOIGGIN MY FLAVIO ART HELP

#IM SCARED DHEHKWBWKQHAJSL #NOOOO I DIDNT EXPECT IT TO GET ATTENTION #txt #i was so scared to even check bc of the notifs i got …