#i just had to get it out of me bc yeah i miss her a lot

[themyscirah]

Wait omg..... Jessica Cruz probably did rifle... my specialized sports knowledge coming in CLUTCH

Okay so I barely practiced and made it to regionals like once so im NOT the expert here but uh headcanoning that Jess did air rifle when she was a teen. Like idk if it would be as part of a team like with a high school (what I'm familiar with) vs like an individual thing vs like a travel/competitive team (it depends on the sitch in her area growing up) but she definitely went to some national matches (probably including JOs/JO quals like i think she was GOOD). I think she probably would have quit competitively following a bad shot at nationals (relatable) along with anxiety about competition (ALSO relatable) but still kept up with shooting casually for fun and relaxation and to hang out with friends etc.

She definitely would have shot smallbore competitively too but I never did that bc I was lazy so idk to much abt it competitively

#and by bad shot i mean a 0 #it hurts me to even think abt doing that during a match actually esp at fucking JOs #a girl on my team did that and im sure it was devastating (we never let her live it down after too) but like dang. i feel that pain #im just saying she would vibe sooooooo hard with rifle. like canonically they just said she did it but im talking air in particular #also in the panel they said six which first off. humphries bro thats TOO young ik youre trying to be impressive but youre talking abt rifle #here. if someones let their kid have a gun at 6 theres actually smth wrong with them. and not even a bb or smth wtf #ANYWAYS you guys haveeeee to understand this. jess would go so hard for rifle she would fit right in w every competitive shooter ive ever #met istg- #she would be out there on the porch 35° weather in full gear mid match crying w the rest of us it would be great #wait wait shoutout to the time i had to get smth from my car and there were like 4 ppl out there crying during the middle of standing #like i literally FEEL THAT SO HARD (weve all been there) but also like... awkwarddddddd #4 is an unusually large amount though. normally its like 2 ppl at a time first relay. with more 1st relay ppl crying after than during #gosh rifle omg this is making me miss it #<<<<freshman/sophomore me would kill me for saying this btw. i HATED practicing so bad then omg #OH and Jess would be a kneeling girlie. fave position. why ? bc i said so shut up #no but bc its my favorite position (yes i know its the worst okay. im aware of all the reasons kneelings sucks and why everyone hates it. #but you know what? kneeling hates everyone equally and i respect that) no but uh yeah ✌️✌️✌️✌️ #top 10 posts that are 80% jargon and only i care about 😘 #anyways this is canon to me now actually #like idc what you say she was down in the trenches (the range) w the rest of us #also ik she almost certainly would have shot paper but in my mind she practices mainly w electronic bc thats what i used (even if its super #uncommon and is only used at the nice ranges) if she was super competitive she would probably have driven to shoot electronic. lets just say #there was a paper nearby and an electronic scoring range a bit farther or smth #anyways yeah #WAIT OMG SHE DEFINITELY MET HER FRIENDS FROM HER BACKSTORY THROUGH RIFLE #and the dating drama too omg rifle drama was INSANE. like i was almost always out of the loop bc i never practiced and didnt have snapchat #but like the drama was INSANE. fucking wild. at least to my nerdy ass self. so her relationship drama makes total sense now okay babe fr #jessica cruz #blah

[titsthedamnseason]

my roommate cut my hair for me tonight and at first i was (secretly) sad because it is wayyyyy too short but then i realized. i literally just got the 1989 chop. like this was all meant to happen this way

#nooo bc like 😭 it is NOT her fault. it is entirely my fault #i have curly hair (maybe i should start straightening it just to fully live out the aesthetic lmao) and i made the rookie mistake of showing #her where i wanted it to fall when it was DRY #and on top of that obviously when it comes to hair cutting everyone is always doing too much #but my friend is soooo cautious and gets anxious about these things so i honestly thought she wouldn’t do enough #and would kind of ask me while doing it in increments #like last time when i had my roommate cut my hair i couldn’t even tell that she did ANYTHING #but anyway yeah she definitely went shorter than where i pointed which already was faulty in the first place because i forgot how much it #would curl up #i mean i’m actually happy because it’s been frustrating me how absolutely tangled it’s been getting so that’s a relief #but i’m mostly sad because it’s about to be halloween #and i wanted my dead ends GONE for halloween because i am being barbie. who has notoriously perfect hair! #and they definitely are but i also lost all my length #like i’m trying to tell myself it’ll grow back soon but the last time my hair was this short was maybe like two years ago #and i’ve missed my long hair so bad it was finally starting to come back #but now it’s gone again and i have to start all over ☹️ and my barbie hairstyle options are severely limited #i will probably do braided pigtails #mine

[ranger-kellyn]

was inspired to catch up on ladybug thanks to @gemsofthegalaxy and i'm pretty behind, so i'm just now up to the episode that introduces zoé and........y'all................👀🏳️‍🌈

#marinette babygirl............that was smooth as HELL ARE YOU KIDDING ME #load her up with pastries AND your number while inviting her to hang out?????? #and THEN SHE WRITES HER NUMBER ON HER HAND?????? #sorry all other marinette pairings this one. is at risk of taking me by storm #i had stopped watching bc i was getting a little too salty about things #bc yeah some of the writing is uh. Questionable. #but then i have to ask myself ''am i expecting adult themes//more nuance from a kids show???'' #and then just remind myself to set expectations accordingly #i missed this show #kellyn watches

[lanshappycorner]

im gonna meet my new roommate this weekend........i hope that they r normal

(ramble in the tags)

#for context last yr (or this yr . but last school yr) i had the most insane roommate #she was like an insane clean freak and she was also really loud and kept moving my stuff and I SUSPECT she even stole smth but idk #she also lied to me a lot and attempted to gaslight me to turn me on our other housemates . she made me cry multiple times </3 #i lived in an apt of 5 ppl and everyone all hated her but i shared a room with her. and the thing is that they all liked Me but not Her #so whenever there were arguments id end up having to be the middle ground like even when i went home for summer vacation #i was called over on the phone to solve household disputes bc yknow she only listened to me and i was the only person capable of not- #-like blowing up on her bc she'd say some pretty unreasonable things sometimes and my other housemates r all pretty hotheaded #(my roomie included) but i . i do not get angry like ever so im able to calmly deal with things #when i tell you i do not get angry ever im so srs i know i say shit on here but my housemates have never seen me angry even once in 2 yrs #but anyways sometimes my housemates take me out for drinks and theyre like are u sure ur okay lan how do u live with her 💀💀 #anyways yeah last yr was a shitshow i hope my roommate this yr is normal like just the bare minimum is fine #ive only ever had insane roommates like my first roommate was a party animal and shed come home drunk at like 4 am #there was even a pregnancy scare once but anyways at least i got along with her rly well #i miss her actually :((( #my second roommate tho. she scares me

[skitskatdacat63]

Portrait of wifey <3

#guys pls tell me. what are your impressions of her(if any!!) :) im curious :D #its weird i felt like she used to be the easiest for me to draw #i think now im concerned too much abt making her look handsome 😭 #if that makes sense? i used to just draw her as a quick comfort character #but now yeah idk. too concerned abt portraying her in a specific way ig #but still love her!!!!! #ive not drawn teeth in a while so thay was fun. i missed that phase of my interests lmao #i love how her hair keeps getting longer ever since i created her 😭 #probably just bcs i keep putting off cutting my hair so she is influenced #ah man I said i wanted to draw smrh every wknd but i think the picrew wiped me out 😭 #ive had ideas but nothing solid that really compels me yknow?? #catie.art. #Rüß

[emiliosandozsequence]

g-d reading the secret diary of laura palmer was such a trip. i related so much. like even donna reminded me specifically of this exfriend of mine. they were basically the same person. also donna and laura's relationship reminded me of me and hers so much.

#she was also my best friend situationship; like we never dated but we made out more than once while drunk #and i'm p sure she had a crush on me for other reasons; mainly bc she said she would be jealous if i had a girlfriend #tbh i miss being her friend but also like...she was exhausting too bc she just refused to understand the fact that i am autistic #and thought me not understanding what she was saying sometimes bc of...yknow...autism...was me just doing it on purpose #bc she thought i jsut wanted an excuse to be mean (obviously this was not at all the case) #and this led her to frequently refusing to talk to me for months on end bc of some slight she thought i made against her #and i basically had to grovel to get her to start atlking to me again. so yeah. that's why we're no longer friends lmao #emilio.txt

[elegyofthemoon]

welp! i finished catching up with 2.1 thankfully but -

#avil plays hsr #im so glad i was able to catch up before i go out of town for the weekend but. yeah. #tbh i dont have Thoughts atm about the whole quest #NOT TO SAY IT WAS BAD IT WAS REALLY GOOD !! i really enjoyed the story #and esp the way that they had decided to do the storytelling of the update #but um. otherwise i have no thoughts. i was just sitting here for the ride and wao was that a ride. #UP TO THE VERY END TOO my goodness #ill just say: there are some bits i was a little confused on but i think some processing and we'll be fine alskdjfhl #aaaaaaand some additional investigation #oh there was a bit of the story that made me go 'hahaha real tsurumi island vibes' and now i miss tsurumi LMAO #good job me. #its gonna take so much willpower for me to not pull for acheron btw. #i did try to pull for luocha before. and lost to clara which is fine aslkdjfha #i cant be mad at clara bc i like clara but i havent used her. at all. #and im trying VERY HARD TO HOLD OUT FOR ROBIN.... #but also im like ..... acheron...... #wait. i can just. i can read her character story........... #i have nothing else set for the day aside from a quick call i think but besides that. i can go get lost in penacony for a while LMAO

[bangcakes]

.

#the boy update is that ive calmed down significantly and am once again a Human #i'll see him when i see him. im not gonna stress anymore #hes busy working like crazy anyway and i need to get a job NDNJDDNDNDMDM #like i still really like him but i think my priorities have been Fucked NDNDJDJDJDJDJD #BUT IM BACK ON TRACK. YA. #my other friends also back from her trip so thats exciting. i missed her JDJJDDJDDDD #i just..... its gonna take me awhile to ask to hang out. im just SHY and also I HAVENT FELT LIKE SEEING ANYONE DJDJZJSKSKSKSKSKSKS #but now im better... yeah i think i just needed like to be a hermit for a bit #plus i suddenly am super busy this week like what the fuck. family AND friend things. like did everyone just Wake Up all of a sudden NDJJD #like we may even see my cousins from alberta. im like JDJDD OK??? #havent seen them in like.... im gonna say 10+ years. and of course its this week that theyre here with my uncle #who ive only met like idk 3 times JDJJDKDKKDJDJD #and of those times... hes been drunk out his mind i think... 2.5/3 NDJDJD #i think hes sober now tho???? #idk. we might not even see them. my moms side is really flakey 💀 #but hes my moms fav brother and shes his fave sister so i hope they get to see each other NDJDJJDJDJD theyre only a year apart #its so weird bc him and my mom were so close but then like... lets just say Life and he moved away and ya zzjjdjdkdj #they had this like. super long like 4 hour talk on the phone a few minths ago and idk i think it cleared up like the last 30 years. idk man #my moms side is crazy. thats all i'll say #personal

[neofelis----nebulosa]

one thing i will never understand is why the general consensus is that kfp 3 is by far the worst in the trilogy. not that i particularly care whether or not other people like the pieces of media i like as much as i do but i literally just dont get where its coming from. like normally when i see criticism of pieces of media i personally like i can understand where people are coming from but with kfp 3 i just dont get it. like the things people critique it for i either straight up find not to be true at all or were just as true for the previous movies. like im convinced at this point that i watched a different movie than everyone else.

#the only real critique i have of it other than the fact that some of the jokes dont really land is that the conclusion of everyone in... #...the panda village just suddenly learning chi and po with no prior experience with chi does all kinds of complex stuff with it and... #...defeats kai #but its pretty in character because hes shown to be very spontaneous #and always seems to be able to figure things out in the heat of the moment #you could say it feels unearned bc he didnt really work towards it but i think it works because the power comes from his friends... #...and family working together to save him #so its kind of the culmination of the community hes created and how he has brought so many people (animals) together #so basically yeah its a little rushed but it still works #i think a missed opportunity tho is having tigress show the others how to do chi #bc hear me out its implied that while not a master of it she does know how to use it #bc when she kicks kai in the jade palace battle it actually does some damage and the visual effects are similar to those when characters... #...are explicitly using it in the movie #i kinda wish they had elaborated on it more #but i get kfp 3 wasnt really about her it was about pos relationship with his dads #me once again being incredibly normal and regular about these movies

[yuridovewing]

“oh ha ha the theory where ashfur is dovewing and ivypools father is so cringe”

#but…. my melodrama…. #real talk i like the theory but dislike whiteash. im not a believer bc i ship them im a believer bc its interesting to me #i see it as like. ashfur had a bruised ego and whitewing had had a crush on him since she was young #and he basically just. used her to restore his ego. bc hes a creep. he went to her not out of love not even as a second choice #but to go ‘’see? SOMEONE loves me so why cant that bitch love me? shes missing out on me #but he ofc wants squilf as a mate. so hes not official with whitewing he wont let her tell anyone #bc he wants her to come back to him and she cant do that if hes not available #so yeah means to an end situation. and when whitewing gets pregnant ashfur ditches her bc he wants REAL kits with squirrelflight #and whitewing is pretty sick of him but she still doesnt want to say who the dad is bc shes grossed out by him now #bc cant imagine he was exactly nice to her #and birchfall decides to be their adoptive dad bc he and whitewing are besties #and hes also in love w one of the shadowclan cats he traveled with so like lol works for him #and its not bc i want to put whitewing through that or something its bc i think the repercussions would be interesting #lionblaze and jayfeather try to be kind to dovepaw. but they look at her and see their murderer in their sisters place #dove and ivy being abandoned by their dad and only existing out of spite really. how that connects to the prophecy #and when it comes out that ashfur was an attempted murderer and they suspect hes their dad it just gets worse #and then in tbc two of the protags would be ashfurs grandchildren… they exist bc of him #and he uses both of them for his plans. may as well use his bastards for something in his eye #‘’oh but whitewing is cloudtails daughter and hes ashfurs foster brother-‘’ ashfur is already a creep lol #hes closer in age to squilf’s dad than he is to her so would u really put it past him #like the point isnt ‘’awww this ship would be cute’’ its ‘’ashfur is a sleazy asshole lets play with that’’

[despairforme]

#[ i've been a little MIA ] #[ --- and i will continue to be so xD ] #[ just having some v bad pain days all of a sudden ] #[ me looking back to my f1 gaming session: it's your fault ] #[ at least i had fun with the game ] #[ i miss playing it i don't get to do it much bc my hands hate me afterwards fjffjj ] #[ i also had to take my cat to the vet :( ] #[ she is totally fine now but yeah i was worried about her! ] #[ anyways - i just gotta let my hands rest and i'll - hopefully - be back soon 8D ] #[ hope you're all doing good guys! thank you for your patience! ] #toby post. ╱ out of character.

[whomturgled]

:^(

#feelin like a big lonely loser tonight teehe ^__^ #thought maybe i had plans but then not n everyone else i asked didnt answer or had plans w other ppl too #n i had suggested a plans with stef but she never rlly confirmed or denied but i figured not plus im kinda sick now too but #also called her just to be like hi n i miss u bc idk im SICK n i hate being sick n the way she sounded was weird AaagghGGHHHHH #n im just now realizing maybe she also ended up doing plans w other ppl #just feels like nobody likes me i GUESS which is dramatic but . aagggghhghgh #to be fair a bit of a 180 from i love u so much lemme say it 50 times last night to i call her n say ilu n shes like uhh ok haha #anD I FEEL LIKE EVERYONES GIVING ME RLLY SHORT ANSWERS N LIKE #but i dont know if i have the energy to give a lot of. energy. ?? to expect it back? but its like #an endless cycle of feel bad so less energy or want to bug less so then deserve less in return anyway so feel worse #its kinda feeling like isolation time which i havent done in a hot minute but i tried so hard to get out of it but like . for what yknow #i got to talk to some ppl some more n meet some ppl but at the end of the day i still feel alone n alien teehee #but maybe im just bejng dramatic bc sick. and rsd with the Tones and ppl having Plans With Others #like its perfectly reasonable to have forgotten or just idk had better options or maybe bc i didnt say anything sooner buT . IDK. 😔🥺 #im sick n i hate being sick n i want someone to take care of me ugh #instead i just kinda sat here. played some OW. got mad at OW. ordered pizza to engage in basically food self harm LOL n watched some #of a show ive been meanjng to watch. jts neat so far. but yeah now i just feel like shit i guess #idk how to like. not be insane. or like. ask ppl for like. idk. reassurance or smthn or. share feelings. without feeling like i am.... bad #for doing so or itll end poorly or its excess or burdensome or unreasonable. bc it kkinda is unreasonable but idk not entirely ig yknow #and i really need to shower but i especially dont want to now that i ate food bc id rather die than look at myself naked but yea #YEAH. IDK. i feel. like shit. and garbage. and i can almost see this as being the turning point to me sabotaging my ownnpotential future #whatever ive been slowly building that i just. end up giving up now. #god i wanna call stef or pidge or someone n... ig not even talk abt this bc i dont wanna be a bother but. just hear ppl. u_u #feel like i am wanted in the world slepflsjhggbjwjr #It's My Blog I'll Use It As A Diary / Thought Organizing Thing If I Want To !!!!

[oatbugs]

they r soooo. anyway

#lol um anyway . i kissed them for the first time yesterday but it literally feels like a yr ago but it also feels like today #on a bridge at night against a cityscape. river looked like a painting...etc it was nice . and then. yh theres a lot to talk abt #so i dont wanna say it all rn bc im tired but yeah. they r . sooo. pretty cool etc etc. whatever im fine im just . angry that i dont get to #see them that often bc they live in a diff city etc. also took them to a spot which usually is like . relatively busy bc london is busy all #the time but it was cold and it was at night so there were like 0 people there. the view was so good but other things were better #also kissing smn w a vertical labret is actually just >>> #lol en ee way i miss them #im soo overwhelmed w life rn and theyre not rly helping but like. in a good way #i told my friend to lmk if he notices that im becomjng too engaged w romance to the point where im neglecting academics #and he immidiately said it. like according to him im thinking abt her too much when i should be thinkint abt philosophy too much #which is like. idk if that's true bc ik he has a rly skewed perspective bf he kind of swore off datint #etc but at the same time . wbat if hes right. omg. but also let me have this Moment #that was last week when i was forcefully taken to manchester by a university society . like we hadnt even kissed yet #i fell asleep bc ive been so exhausted and when i woke up i realised they briefly appeared in a dream i had #and then i started tearing up out of Fear bc like . whenever ive lost smn i loved the dreams were the worst #like . good dreams. were horrible. and now its like what if this turns out horrible ? but i dont wanna self sabotage bc i rly rly rly like #them . i gave them a rose and on the train home i could stop staring at their hands holding the rose #and i know theyve liked me for months and i know theyve been waiting for months but somehow its still like #what if it just fades. whatever happens happens ig. i took them a leaf compressed in a poetry book from #a book shop we found on our second date tgth. they gave me a necklace w a small vial and a tiny flower inside #its so pretty. thinking abt the way they put it on me + when they wrapped their arms around me when i was cooking for them etc etc #im FINE its FINE its OKAY . whatever !!!!! #[chroma blue]

[daiseukiis]

hii how have you been?

i miss my family 🧍‍♀️

#my mom sent me a video about once your child leaves the mom also needs them #to like be there for them when their mom is stressed when their mom misses them #and i cried for a bit bc i argued with my mom a lot #we didnt see eye to eye but i really do think my mom still thinks of me as her little girl #bc despite not being as close i am to my mom compared to my dad i felt like i had so much burdens for being the eldest and girl #so sometimes i would get upset that my brother would get some special treatment from my mom #idk now i just rlly miss her cuz i miss actly waking up to have brekkie w her #i rlly missed cooking w her b4 i didnt like it bc i thought it was bothersome but now i miss it a lot and her cooking !!! #one of my roommates are husband and wife and i helped cut up the onions and garlic for her bc she started crying from the onions #and then i just completely rmbrd how many times my mom would ask me to help her cook and it makes me miss jmy family !! #i dont rlly get homesick often but i have been in a few arguments w my husband but its like those small quarrels where we're both #tired stressed n feeling defeated like there was no wrong but mentally tapped out #i feel hella lonely tbh ion have many friends outside from me talking to my roommates or my coworkers #and i go once a month to my friends thats an hour and half away but i never mind the travel bc their family treats me well #im supposed to go today but our plans got cancelled and since the travel is far i usually sleepover we were gonna watch a movie !! #we were gonna go watch the mario movie but i might go by myself w my teddy bear #or i'll ask my coworker maybe #but yeah other than that im just trying to survive xoxo im so tired #im also getting so much free cosmetics skincare and fragrances at work that i cant even use all of it #tha shit is displayed on my shelves just cuz #but so excited for my smau heheheheh #༊*·˚ koca has heard your wish #༊*·˚ a kiss of blessing #༊*·˚ a wish upon a goddess #༊*·˚ freddie <3

[thecherrygod]

... man i just remembered how last night i had a dream by the end of it there was a cat, and in it i said "oh she looks exactly like tigra!! are you also an attention seeking dumbass like her?" and it was so i may have actually dreamt about her

#my posts #my dreams #sorta i dont care about the rest of that one dream #..... i miss her she was the best creature ive ever met #like yeah i may be allergic to cats. yeah she did basically want to be constantly near or on top of me like a baby #which ended up with me struggling with allergy a lot. but she WAS my baby #... itd be her bday next month. and last month was the anniversary of her death. so im not really surprised #this happened once before and it was even sadder so its not the worst case scenario sdighds #but i miss her that little dumbass made it less than 3 months to be a 21 y-o cat #..... that. means shes been gone for 4 years now huh #man. #theres a cat nearby on a house that i pass when i take the bus for class and depending on the day when i come back home #her name is michy and shes a calico like she was but her face is more of the flat type and her eyes are dif color #but shes also an atention seeking dumbass and she is very sweet and always meows at me when i see her #she is making me both want a cat a lot again and also letting me live vicariously through someone elses pet siuhsug #...... idk what im doing im just rambling im trying to be a bit less sad i guess sghsiguhsg #im gonna watch some stupid videos and then im gonna return here to be bisexual over middle aged men maybe #i just had to get it out of me bc yeah i miss her a lot

[noxtivagus]

good day guess who is girlbossing once more 🤍

#🌙.rambles #me me me /lh #my sleep has been so bad lately despite sleeping early oh man it always gets interrupted T_T #i had a weird dream earlier. it was. hmm. a bit scary or wtvr i'm not sure how to explain #but i had some friends in it n it reminded me of how much i miss them all ehe #the night sky was so beautiful in that dream.. yeah we were running away from smth scary iirc n i got strangled a bit in that dream BUT #the setting felt like home #i'm out today for some stuff but i think later i might hang out w some friends? #friends i say but it's. one of longtime friends (just one bcs the other can't go :<) n then the guy who's basicslly like her bf at this poin #i havent really talked or spent time w my friends lately #i have a lot of time but i'm really not the type to reach out to ask for stuff or smth. so eh i just mostly spend time w apollo n #most of my friends r busy anyways. they have lots of other friends #i ended up rambling but dw i'm doing fine rn #i'm returning more to my old self it seems #i remember how lonely it wld be but at least i was productive #IM RAMBLING WAIT #i rlly like having my headphones over my neck when going outside <3 #kinda wanted to bring my glasses bcs i think i'd look cute but i forgor them T_T #yk i tried getting ebenholz like 3 times alrdy n no luck :c #bby come home ily #edit/ help new passport pic n all n i look so intimidating