#to like be there for them when their mom is stressed when their mom misses them

[bangcakes]

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#the boy update is that ive calmed down significantly and am once again a Human #i'll see him when i see him. im not gonna stress anymore #hes busy working like crazy anyway and i need to get a job NDNJDDNDNDMDM #like i still really like him but i think my priorities have been Fucked NDNDJDJDJDJDJD #BUT IM BACK ON TRACK. YA. #my other friends also back from her trip so thats exciting. i missed her JDJJDDJDDDD #i just..... its gonna take me awhile to ask to hang out. im just SHY and also I HAVENT FELT LIKE SEEING ANYONE DJDJZJSKSKSKSKSKSKS #but now im better... yeah i think i just needed like to be a hermit for a bit #plus i suddenly am super busy this week like what the fuck. family AND friend things. like did everyone just Wake Up all of a sudden NDJJD #like we may even see my cousins from alberta. im like JDJDD OK??? #havent seen them in like.... im gonna say 10+ years. and of course its this week that theyre here with my uncle #who ive only met like idk 3 times JDJJDKDKKDJDJD #and of those times... hes been drunk out his mind i think... 2.5/3 NDJDJD #i think hes sober now tho???? #idk. we might not even see them. my moms side is really flakey 💀 #but hes my moms fav brother and shes his fave sister so i hope they get to see each other NDJDJJDJDJD theyre only a year apart #its so weird bc him and my mom were so close but then like... lets just say Life and he moved away and ya zzjjdjdkdj #they had this like. super long like 4 hour talk on the phone a few minths ago and idk i think it cleared up like the last 30 years. idk man #my moms side is crazy. thats all i'll say #personal

[teruthecreator]

trying so hard to be normal but i really don’t think i could survive going to the psych ward and i’m rlly like. bothered my siblings are pushing it so hard

#in neg city #they were rlly like ‘we can’t force you’ but then just kept fucking talking about it #even as i’m crying and saying no no i don’t want to go i’m not going i really don’t want to #and like. idk. when ur sister gets sent to the psych ward at a pivotal point in ur childhood #and that subsequent action adds onto the trauma u were already experiencing at that point like idk man! maybe going to the psych ward would #in fact be very very bad!!! #like any time i think abt the psych ward i think abt my sister one day just disappearing from the house. i think about when the doctors #withheld my letters and i thought my sister either hated me or was fucking dead. i think about having to hide all this agony behind polite #smiles while i was also being bullied mercilessly at school and my CHOIR TEACHER WAS DYING OF CANCER #i think abt the car ride when my aunt told me and my brother that she had to go back in #i think of empty houses and missing places at the dinner table and arguments and so many fucking arguments #i cant go into the psych ward i won’t. and it just felt like that’s all they wanted me to do #and then it became well michelle how do u want us to help u? LEAVE ME ALONE #THATS HOW U HELP. YOU LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME FIGURE IT OUT #i get rlly overwhelmed and stressed when too many people are trying to butt their heads in #and i know they mean well but it just feels like they’re both gonna become mom and i’m not talking to mom for THIS EXACT REASON #idk i just don’t think they can help. i get that they’re rlly worried but i can’t let them help i don’t know what they could do #and they wanna talk about this again tomorrow so now i don’t wanna sleep bc i don’t want tomorrow to happen #but i don’t have anything to do bc i’m in such a terrible mood #i rlly wish i wasn’t alive sometimes #clearly i’m putting too much stress on my siblings and mom is probably worried sick but i’ll never kno bc we aren’t talking #i’m just ruining everyone’s life i rlly shouldn’t be on this planet anymore

[salsflore]

still thinking about This.... and i have a thing or two to say about it....

#it makes me especially. i don’t know. i always feel weird about eating in front of other people — with my direct family members i’ve gotten #used to it but i still feel a bit weird about it. before it used to be due to the fact i was just scared of people in general but #now i get a little in my head about if i eat weirdly or if they secretly judge me for my eating habits (shoutout to my mom) so #thinking about comfortably sitting with them and eating [insert one of the many foods ive been craving] is nice. you know... #i just miss them. especially childe since his birthday is coming up #theres a lot of things i don’t really. Stress about? but its just like an ick #for example i used to feel super ugly after a shower bc of my allergies LOL #<- i don’t care about it anymore but sometimes at school my classmates will make (not necessarily negative) comments abt my face and it just #feels embarrassing. i mean it clears up but its still.. like ahhhh #but i think they wouldn’t mind. so thats a reassuring thought;;; theres just many silly things like how i often get #intrusive imagery and the thought of them being around to be like Hey Girl Calm Down is surprisingly helpful #or when i get really anxious in noisy elevators LOL #i just! love them so much ..... !!! theres just moments where i get anxious or literally fucking crazy and the thought of them being there #to help me?? SICKENING #﹒﹒my loves

[daiseukiis]

hii how have you been?

i miss my family 🧍‍♀️

#my mom sent me a video about once your child leaves the mom also needs them #to like be there for them when their mom is stressed when their mom misses them #and i cried for a bit bc i argued with my mom a lot #we didnt see eye to eye but i really do think my mom still thinks of me as her little girl #bc despite not being as close i am to my mom compared to my dad i felt like i had so much burdens for being the eldest and girl #so sometimes i would get upset that my brother would get some special treatment from my mom #idk now i just rlly miss her cuz i miss actly waking up to have brekkie w her #i rlly missed cooking w her b4 i didnt like it bc i thought it was bothersome but now i miss it a lot and her cooking !!! #one of my roommates are husband and wife and i helped cut up the onions and garlic for her bc she started crying from the onions #and then i just completely rmbrd how many times my mom would ask me to help her cook and it makes me miss jmy family !! #i dont rlly get homesick often but i have been in a few arguments w my husband but its like those small quarrels where we're both #tired stressed n feeling defeated like there was no wrong but mentally tapped out #i feel hella lonely tbh ion have many friends outside from me talking to my roommates or my coworkers #and i go once a month to my friends thats an hour and half away but i never mind the travel bc their family treats me well #im supposed to go today but our plans got cancelled and since the travel is far i usually sleepover we were gonna watch a movie !! #we were gonna go watch the mario movie but i might go by myself w my teddy bear #or i'll ask my coworker maybe #but yeah other than that im just trying to survive xoxo im so tired #im also getting so much free cosmetics skincare and fragrances at work that i cant even use all of it #tha shit is displayed on my shelves just cuz #but so excited for my smau heheheheh #༊*·˚ koca has heard your wish #༊*·˚ a kiss of blessing #༊*·˚ a wish upon a goddess #༊*·˚ freddie <3

[nexttothelamp]

Aight I'm ranting more

#the brain fog is thick and so is my apathy #wish i could work #wish i didnt have avoidance issues with anything even remotely reminiscent of public school 😅 #wish i had more time and more energy #wish the insurance company wouldnt bill me for not healing fast enough 🤣 #wish my wife had an easier time being alive #wish there wasnt a budgie slowly dying in kims basement #wish my mom wasnt so stupid and sad #wish i could cut the two most irritating people i associate with out of my life 🤣 #wish a person that drives me crazy hadnr changed their name to the same as my cat 🤣 #wish i wasnt too apathetic to at least play a video game til i can pass out #i have been awake almost 24 hours #havent gotten that bad in a bit #...and i still feel like i cant rant on here cuz of THEM #i deadass LIKE when people that make me happy interact with these #like the knowledge that a beloved mutual or follower read my stress and cared enough to throw a like #its just a little hey! i feel for ya man! #like the fact that anyone would care about my wellbeing in the slightest? means so much to me? #but them. they make my skin crawl. have since i was like. 18 maybe younger #i miss my grandparents #im... not invited to the spreading of the ashes. thats gonna be just the siblings #no grandkids #BUT linda wants ME to take some of their ashes to graphton #its the last place maw got to pick before she lost her mind #i'll find the grade school where they met #i think theres a river port out there; maybe he got on a naval ship there #maybe thats where he left and promissed hed come back #or maybe i can find the place where she stayed waiting. or their first house! #its... something. one more thing i can do for them #i wish i had been big enough. strong enough old enough. anything enough to be more for them

[milo-is-rambling]

Recently every conversation with my mom has left me feeling like a child again

#y'know when you were little and your parents were upset but you wanted to tell them something you cared about and they got angry at you for #being happy and wanting to share it with them #that's been how every conversation with my mom has ended for the last two days #i just empty and emotional but I can't do anything about it cause I'm too small and young to help her #i just have to keep being around her and try to make her feel better #it's hard. it's really hard. i miss my dad #i know she's struggling but she doesn't have to act like that to me #and we had been doing so well before my brother came home and now that he's back at school it's like we have to learn to live together all #over again and I don't want to #i just want to lay in bed and cry #i feel like how I felt in middle school when I would lock myself in the bathroom to cry bc my bedroom door didn't have a lock and my family #would just walk in whenever they wanted to do I cried in the bathroom and it was always while I was crying I could hear my whole family #making fun of me for crying in the bathroom and making jokes about how I was crying again and being dramatic and stupid and it kind of #forever tainted my connection with my own emotions and being brushed off by my mom brings me back to that exact feeling #i wanna lock myself in the bathroom and cry so hard I can't breathe while listening to my parents make fun of me for crying #I'm just having a rough day and I'm stressed and sad and it's the first showing of the play tonight and I'm terrified I'm gonna fuck up #and I just want to have a good day but it's all been sucky so far #i hate it #i wake up happy and then I go to start my day and I talk to my mom and then it's like all motivation is drained from me and I want to just #get back into bed again #:((((

[jackalhadrurusluvr]

repeating my therapists words in my head like the bike message in pokemon

#i am not responsible for other people #i am not responsible for their actions or feelings i am not in control of that #if its not in my control then i need to take a step back and accept that #tw drugs #soooooooooooo my dad picked up the op of the iods. which he was addicted to for about a decade and stopped a decade ago #like if he had gotten them when the hospital offered it to him it would be whatever yk because he has suffered burns #but he said no at the hospital and stressed that he wouldnt take that poison again #his words idk anything about them #and now that we're talking about weaning him off of his gabapentin (what hes been taking for pain) #he picks them up dawg you say youre not in pain enough to take regular old medicine anymore #i am quite so very stressed about it. our genepool is very heavy on addictions and yk my mom never stopped so i Experienced it #and of course i Experienced it as a child but i dont remember any of my childhood #but i would really rather my father not get addicted to them again i think that would be really quite terrible #i confronted him about it and he said he was just going to keep them as a backup just in case #like ofc i dont want my dad to be in pain. but he cant just say hes feeling really good and then pick them up #because that sets off the “he just wants to use them for Using them” alarm in my head #but i am not in control of him i cant control his actions i tried my best and now whatever happens happens i guess #trying very hard not to freak out very hard right now (everything in my body wants to have a cheeky panic attack and/or spiral) #have no close friends/friends i feel like i can just vent to for freesies is kind of a nightmare #i miss my Friends i miss my Friends i wish i could tell them my situation and just feel like i am Supported and Cared For #being lonely is all fun and games until bad things are happening in your life and you have no one to distract you or help you

[be-good-to-bugs]

:/ why is it that things cant work out ok for me?

#the bin #i talked to my mom. mostly i wanted to know what the situation is with where they live and if ill have somewhere to go. the answer isnt #looking good. apparently my dad hasnt had any money come in since december. theyre only a little behind on their rent right now but its #not the important part. even if they do pay all of it their lease is up in may and with wll the kate payments its unlikely they can renew it #their lease is up on the same day mine is. im gonna look for 1 bedroom apartments near ehere i work. looking for a 6 month lease #because i wont have anywhere to move most likely. i can probably hold off on getting one until i know if theyre renewing the lease #but idk for sure. if i do get an apartment here then my sister is probably gonna be flown over and live with me here #in the event this happens it will mean my mom lives with my aunt again. she said to me if i moved there and got an apartment while she #lived wih her sister then she could help pay for me and my sisters expenses bc she doenst have much to pay for when living with her sister #and im sure that would be the case if i got a place here aswell. esp since my sister would be here. #im hoping they can extend the less but its not looking good. im stressed. ive been so happy to move back and not have to work and now this #i havent been this depressed in years. this additional stress is not helping :/ i miss my little siblings so much. i hate oy seeing them #once a year. even if i do end up moving there i still have absolutely no idea how the fuck im getting there. my mom doesnt have a car so :/

[bestial4ngel]

My sister wanted to watch dance moms last night like… as if it’s a comedy… and my god is it not at all funny or enjoyable to watch. Crazy to me that it was even aired as entertainment at all considering how fuckin abusive the adults are to the children involved

#like hahaha these parents are so fuckin neglectful of their child’s emotions and is making their self esteem come entirely from winning #being skinny and attractive #the amount of ‘man up’ ‘tough love’ ‘stop crying’ ‘you have to put dance first’ etc. was insane #and hearing the moms say they were dancers from a young age or their kid ‘wants nothing but to win’ or ‘she’s a perfectionist’ or some shit #when you can tell it’s 100% the moms not the kids that are like that… just the sheer disconnect and lack of care for who they are #and ngl the teacher brought back horrible feelings from getting talked to like that by teachers in school #that shit’s awful and I can’t believe the parents would still force their child into that situation knowing the effect it has on them #eugh. just eugh #couldn’t make it through 1 episode and then cried after lmao #and the moms lowkey hating the dance teacher and having mental breakdowns over her rudeness/treatment of the kids AND YET STILL PAYING TO #HAVE THEIR KIDS IN HER CLASSES #like what the fuckkkkk your kid was sobbing after her ‘tough love’ and is stuck with immense pressure and stress about getting it right… #and she’s pitting them against each other and making the kids that aren’t as good feel lesser #maybe fucking stop ??? #I guess the problem is the parents are just as bad just in their own way cuz they don’t give a shit if it hurts the kids either #as long as they win/stay in dance/stay being the best #the teacher not letting a kid stop because she was nauseous and the mom intervening because she looked like she was going to throw up… only #to say ‘stop crying its not a big deal’ and saying ‘you never miss dance though’ when the kid is sobbing saying she wants to go home #really got to me ngl… made me fucking sick to watch #me talking #dance moms

[intertexts]

making sahlab & finishing this fuckinnnng season finale islike my white whale atp -___-

#have a stress headache + gotta get up at 5am tmrw + have a bunch of coursework for monday + my sisters #Still living in my room for the foreseeable future + i did NOT miss the genuine fucking unpleasantness of being here (trans autistic closet #& being the rubbery ducky for both my sister (trans autistic out) going oh my god mom sucks so fucking bad i hate this house how do you liv #here shes so fucking bigoted everything's so loud this sucks AND my mom's quiet transphobic (catholic) misery #& emotional turmoil abt it at the same time. literally some of the most soul shrivelling shit u can imagine like esh you BOTH r DEEPLY #unpleasant to be around this is why i was like suicidal in highschool man. even when i TELL THEM i Dont want 2 be their rubber ducky!! #txt #anyway. long hot shower & ibuprofen time. & maybe snackie or something depending on how many leftover spoons i have.

[chisungie]

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#NOOO POMU RAINPUFF NOOOOO #i didnt even watch her streams too often but shes 1st wave eng and ive always loved lazulight theyre so lovable and sweet sobs #ITS JUST HIT AFTER HIT... MYSTA MY FAVE.. NINA THE SWEETEST MOM EVER.. POMU THE LOVELIEST FUNNY FAIRY.. PLEASEEE #but gen i hope theyre all able to continue doing what they love! its no good if theyre stressing and burning out so i gen hope they can hav #more time to themselves now that theyre going but sobb they were so lovely.. i rmr when each of them debuted w their first songs too like.. #will miss them sm sobs #44597

[sastiel-is-my-serotonin]

Five years ago I didn't think I'd just be shitposting majority of the time, occasionally dropping original works, but mostly just having fun writing fics for fun while also having a crushing weight of sorrow from my family falling apart and being spread out. Having to ask for help, pushing down the guilt and shame I feel everytime that only washes away for a second as it goes to my family and doubles when I have to rinse and repeat. Five years ago I barely had the confidence to post silly stuff and no one knew anything about me really and now whenever I post I see the same three tags that I can't touch anymore because it weighs to heavy for me. And so many people are aware of my name something I swore I'd never share, I went by a different name so it wouldn't happen and it's useless now. Five years ago my family was strong and thriving, now we're barely surviving and I don't know what it looks like anymore. In some ways I'm proud of what I've become and in so many other ways, it doesn't feel like me, and I'm tired of constantly living in survival mode. Life's a beautiful disappointment.

#I didn't think I'd still be online so much #Thought I'd be in college doing something for me #Living the life I wanted to #I planned to cut my hair and donate it before college #Planned to pick up a job before so I wouldn't be too stressed financially #I'd be enrolled by now with my tribe so I wouldn't have to worry about the cost and could pursue whatever I wanted #I'd be someone my sisters could look up to - someone on their way to being someone they might want to be when they're older #And now I hope they live better and have bigger dreams because mine have always been small #I just know how to dress them up to make them sound important and like they mean something #Like I believe in myself and I don't #Thought life would be different #Thought I'd leave but my family would be okay - they'd still be whole #They'd still be the unit they've always been #How wrong was I #It's nothing like what I had hoped #And I can't blame them for it - none of us thought this would happen #Wish it was a lot different - I miss my sisters - I miss my mom #I miss the past so much #Even though it hurt - it never hurt like this #I'm scared to hope for five years in the future again when this is my reality now #So much more to say but I just going to bed #goodnight

[roturo]

⋆⭒˚｡⋆ SHE'S BACK!

GUESS HE COULDN'T KEEP IT IN, SO HE HAD TO KEEP IT INSIDE! ₊˚⊹♡ dilf!gojo satoru x teacher!reader

tags: smut, unprotected sex, breeding kink, exhibitionism, getting caught, he fucks you while he's on the phone, overstimulation, dumbfication, fluff, gojo has an ex-wife, yuuji is gojo's son, age-gap.

A/N: well, this was surely and adventure and maybe self-indulgent title because guess what?, i'm back baby.

It was a nice morning, he felt clean. Like his life was finally steadying. Even after some stressful weeks trying to get rid of his now ex-wife, he won the trial and kept Yuuji. Poor little boy, just turning 5 years old and he’s already facing all this type of stress. But thankfully he will not be experiencing enduring his crazy mother behavior. Which basically was a gold digger, and a bitch– Not that he would ever say that outloud, maybe with other words? Bastard? Witch? Not that it really matters right now.

He could finally take a break now, just focusing on raising his little boy, and being an old boring 31 year old dad. Life doesn’t sound that bad.

“Daddy! Daddy!,” His son went running to his arms, almost stumbling by himself- clear happiness shown on his face. Quickly, Gojo opened his arms ready to lift the young kid. “Miss Y/N congratulated me on my homework! She was pretty amazed!”

Your name wasn’t unknown to him, Yuuji was very open when talking about his favorite teacher, even though he hasn’t seen you yet- from what he’s been told you’re the kid’s favorite, including Yuuji’s. “I had to talk about who’s my hero, and I chose you!” If this day wasn’t going great, it was now. Because his son's comment just made his whole week, life even.

“Oh look dad!” The little boy pointed towards your moving frame, each time getting clñoser towards them. “Daddy, this is Miss Y/N!” Yuuji kept presenting the both of you. He was really excited to present his two favorite persons to each other- but all Gojo could think of what’s how young and beautiful you looked. He expected someone older, maybe even an old lady with wrinkles and that loving grandma vibes, but what he saw made his heart beat in a way he never thought he would feel ever more.

“Daddy? Are you paying attention?” The little boy gained Gojo’s attention back, face now looking at him again. “I’m sorry kiddo, kinda just zoned out there. What did you just say?”

“Uhh, what was it? Oh! Did I tell you Miss Y/N told me you were a very handsome man?”

“Yuuji!” His gaze moved towards your blushed face, a hand covering part of your face. “I’m so sorry Mr.Gojo, I didn’t intend to say-”

Gojo cut you off before you could continue apologizing “It’s okay, I also think Ms.Y/N is a very beautiful woman.” 

Uh, well. So this is how kinda you found yourself in this situation right now.

You swear it wasn’t your intention! You really tried, you really did, but how could someone say no to Mr.Gojo? And mostly because he really showed his attraction towards you. Sending Yuuji with a rose for you every day, and the little boy was rooting for his dad, because dear god- he did not shut up about him, and how happy he would be with a new girlfriend and maybe one he could call ‘mommy’ and give him a sister. 

That made you blush. 

Not only because the little boy commented on it, and was agreeing- but because it was his dad’s idea.

“You’re so wet, s-shit.” Loud thrusts filled the room, he was fucking you raw on his sofa– waiting for Yuuji’s mom to bring him back, the little boy was eager to come back and ‘see Ms.Y/N and his daddy finally starting to fall in love’

Kids being kids. But, he was right- the both of you were falling in love with eachother.

Gojo throws back his head, immersed in the warmth radiating off your walls and he lets your moans take him to another world. In a haste decision, he slips your dress over your head before tossing it. He mouths at your tits, plump and stiff between his lips, and he hurdles a deeper round of thrusts inside you. 

When you get a little too loud, his hand comes over to clamp your mouth, wolf like eyes staring back at you, “Shut it. You don’t deserve to speak.”

His thin white tee that stays a barrier between you and him does not hide the rippling body underneath that seemed to be sculpted by gods. He presses into you, grunting, using you like his personal sex doll and you embrace it, thrive from it, come to it. Your hips contract, slewing in perfect circles, before having your legs fall gradually lifeless as you arousal drip down your thighs.

“Ffffucckkk- oh baby, would you like that? Be full of me and my baby? Make me a daddy again?”

“yesyesyesyes, make me yours Mr.Gojo-” 

He pays your climax no mind,a smirk clearly showing on his face while he fucks you on his sofa- You could muffle your screams of pleasure easier here. Turning your head back to face him, you notice now he’s shirtless–taut and shiny from sweat like a large set of Hawaiian rolls–before seeing how quick he is to fit back inside you.

“Good girl.” His husky voice resonates and pushes you back into the sheets. “Good girls get rewards, don’t they?” Your poor fucked up mind couldn’t think clearly now. The way your abused and overstimulated pussy was still taking his rock hard cock gratefully inside you was making every feel giddy. A sudden noise bringing back a little part of your senses, Gojo clearly grunting grabbed his what you suppose phone, and answered. Not bothering to stop his thrusts.

“Yeah?,” His voice sounded almost like a whisper because of how breathy it was. “Gojo? I’m almost at your house- Yuuji wanted some ice-cream and bought some for you and… your new girlfriend?” His chuckle interrupted his ex-wife’s conversation, accompanied with a whimper at the feeling of you clenching on him- overstimulation clearly bringing you back to climax soon again.

A slap was heard from his part of the line, an unbelievable laugh coming from his ex-wife line, clearly noticing what was going on and then she finally heard you moan. You couldn’t keep it in anymore, and you were too fucked out to feel embarrased about it right now.

“Finish before I leave Yuuji- Enjoy yourself.” Gojo was so lost in pleasure that he didn’t even realize she hung up before he even processed what happened.

His grunts and sounds of skins slapping are all you hear as he pounds you back into the sofa. It feels like heaven beneath his weight. You were feeling flushed to the touch, but making contact with his skin was like an inferno. He was the embodiment of heat and as suffocating as that could’ve been, it melts you like it’s how it always should’ve been.

His pace eventually falters, followed by a hushed “fuck,” and he empties out into your used hole. The moment he pulled out, a knock was heard. 

“Shit. Can you walk?”

PART 2

#gojo satoru smut #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk smut #gojo smut #satoru smut #gojo x reader #gojo x reader smut #gojo satoru x reader #gojo jujutsu kaisen #geto smut #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #toji smut #gojo x you #smut

[damiens-void]

i think it's stupid I get so like "man I don't talk to any of my friends" and then I proceed to not talk to them let alone message them back when they message me JFIFBSJJDBDAJSN I really need to get my house cleaned so I can invite my friends over and we can hang out lol

Tho I think I need more chairs/comfortable seating....

#I'm insane #Why do I literally never talk to anyone almost and when I do it's mostly my mom and my boyfriend #I wished for a quiet life and here it is LOL #Honestly it's not bad but I do think it's funny I'm like “oh I should talk to someone else other than my boyfriend and mom” *doesn't* #I kinda don't even know who to talk to ig? Like erm is there anyone I can call and tell them my special interests at the moment #Then they can do the same #Honestly I miss RPing so that's probably part of it and I want to write violently #everything I've wanted to write lately would be better as like a comic or something #i hardly draw anymore so a whole comic would be stressful lol #Sorry I'm fucking rambling I'm just insane

[absentlyabbie]

i'll tell you what converted me to being all-in on keeping cats indoors only:

living for a year and a half in a rural area with a sudden feral cat colony explosion on the property.

i moved in with my folks for a bit and at that time, one (1) stray cat mama had taken up residence on the property, but was too feral to let my mother anywhere near her. but especially after she brought three kittens around, mom fed her and the kittens in hopes they'd grow trusting enough she could catch for spay and neuter at the minimum. momcat stayed mean and hella wary, but the kittens would hang around a little nearer and play with my mom via long stick, but still wouldn't come close enough to touch or catch.

unfortunately, two of the three kittens were girls and started having kittens of their own before further progress was made, shortly after i moved in. and that was pretty much instant doom.

there were so many kittens. SO MANY. multiple litters. every time we turned around, more kittens.

we fed them. we hunted for and located the kittens every time anywhere on the property and would move them to a repurposed doghouse anytime a mama cat had them somewhere else, so that they could grow up human-socialized and we could spay/neuter them when they were old enough. (also it was a handy tactic to push the issue of the mamas getting more used to/trusting of us themselves. only really worked with one of them, though.)

and we watched them die.

we watched litter after litter of kittens never make it to the age they could be spayed or neutered. the moms stayed, for the longest time, too skittish to more than briefly touch, much less catch and crate for a vet visit.

it sounds like a silly joke to say i have kitten-related ptsd, but i absolutely do.

too many goddamn times i'd walk out of the garage and find the carport and gravel drive strewn with tiny bodies. others simply went missing, never to be found.

one in particular, i wish i hadn't found, and the visual literally haunts me still, almost a decade later.

i saw so many kittens die of snake bite, spider bite, wild dogs, birds of prey, hit by cars, respiratory illness, covered in fleas and eyes crusted with infection.

and we loved them all. scrimped for antibiotics if the vet could be convinced to give it to us despite our being unable to bring them in. bought flea collars and ointments. we cared for them and fed them and petted them and played with them, brushed their fur and cleaned up their little faces, put ice in their water in hot summer, rigged a heating lamp in their house in the winter.

and they died. horribly. that property is pocked with unmarked graves of kittens and cats.

all the best intentions, not enough resources, and it didn't matter anyways because the population went from three to almost twenty (at times, over thirty) in the blink of an eye.

they died and died and died. our hearts broke over and over again. the stress and anxiety wore us down like sandpaper. i think, by the end of it all, we managed to find less than 10 of them all homes, including batman the disabled kitten i found a home across the country through tumblr.

it was carnage and tragedy, frankly. and we were helpless.

it only ended because they started dying faster than they could be born, and because we finally caught the two remaining mom cats in traps and got them spayed.

the points about outdoor cats being invasive predators devastating to local wildlife populations is true and valid and important.

but i know cat people, and cat people who don't know better than to let cats outdoors. what matters to you is the cat itself, generally. the cat being happy and taken care of.

keeping cats outdoors, letting them outdoors, is not taking care of the cats. it's not protecting them. it's not giving them any happiness or invigoration that couldn't be provided to them as indoor-only pets with just a little research and effort.

they die. they get ill. they get hurt. they're at risk of predators, and cars, and disease, and carelessly cruel children and deliberately cruel adults. they're at risk of disappearing on you because someone else saw a cat outdoors and intervened to give it a better, safer life not in conflict with the local environment.

and if that offends and angers you that someone would just take a cat they saw roaming outdoors, even collared, and that it sounds like i'm endorsing that, i am, but not if you intervene and be that person yourself for your own cat.

if what matters to you is doing right by your cat because it's family and a living creature whose happiness and health and safety is important to you,

keep them indoors. not part time. always. exclusively.

edit: since apparently i need to clarify this, i'm saying cats should live inside, that they should not live outdoors, even part time. visiting the outdoors supervised on a leash or in an enclosed catio is not the same as even part-time living outside, and i am certainly not advocating against it.

#long post #cats #indoor cats #outdoor cats #keep your cats inside

[diejager]

hear me out, your mother goes on holiday with her friends and horangi is away on some family business which means stepdad!König has the reader all to himself for like a week and he’s been crawling into bed with her so in the morning he can convince reader to let him fuck her dumb🤭

Oooh, you beat me to it! I wanted to write this but hadn’t really had the time yet! Cw: dub-con/non-con, stepcest, cheating, p in v, unprotected sex, creampie, fingering, cunnilingus, anal fingering, anal sex, thigh fucking, tell me if I missed any.

You felt your heart sink to the darkest pit of your stomach when your mom kissed you on the head and made your stepfather promise to watch over you while she was away on a month-long holiday/business party to get that promotion she was aiming for. You would be home alone with König, without your mom’s presence to mediate and busy him from hovering over you and touching you nonstop. The only “light in the darkness” of your situation was that Kim - he told you over and over to call him Kim even though your stepfather used Horangi - was gone for the week, a family emergency he said, grumbling about his past catching up to him.

He doesn’t do anything on the first day, letting your apprehension and nerves simmer in your gut, letting you squirm in your seat while he stares you down at the head of the table, his plate left untouched to watch you eat his dish. You went to bed feeling unsettled, eyes wide open until the clock hit midnight, unable to stay awake from the day’s stress.

You wake up beside him from then on, his chest pressed against your back with his thick arms wrapped around your waist, his morning wood jabbing at your ass with rhythmic throbs. He either fucks your thighs, slipping his leaky cock between them, the loud ad wet slaps of his cock; he spoons you, lifting your leg over his arm as he rocks himself into you, slamming his bulbous tip against your bruised and spongy cervix; or he straddles your legs, jerking himself off with one hand and the other stretching your tight rim with two big fingers.

You spend your waking hours around him, confided to your house and on a leash - at his beck and call - with your stepfather doing everything he can to keep it that way. He has you on your knees between his legs, cockwarming him with your hot mouth, your jaw aching and your mouth drooling over his balls. Your knees hurt, but you can’t tell him how bruised they feel because his cock sits heavily at the back of your throat and you’re trying not to choke and gag on it. It makes him proud that you can take him too, your mother couldn’t, but he wasn’t bothered by it.

If you’re not slobbering all over him, you’re sprawled across the table, back arching and toes curling as he eats you out. You flush from the wet sounds of your cunt and your moans, covering your face with your hands even when König growls at you to look him in the eye as he devoured your cunt. He laps at your folds, the fat of his tongue laying flat over your clit and pulling the hood up, stimulating the twitching nub. His hands grip your waist, holding you still to suckle at your oversensitive button and pump his tongue into your cunt, then teasing your twitching rim.

And at the end of the day, he fucks you to sleep, slamming his hips into you and growling in your ears about how tight you feel around him and how wet you were. He pumps you full of cum, one load spilling over another, he fills you with so much that it bursts from you, globs leaking out of your tight hold, yet you’re still so bloated, navel bulging with more than the girth and size of him. He alternates between your cunt and your ass, filling you in one place and making you sleep with him leaking out of you, drying and crusting over the night and looking at your gaping hole clench.

By the time Horangi’s back, you’re limping around the house, dreading the moment he comes back and cursing at every little stab of pain in your core. And by the time your mom’s back, you can’t even greet her at the door, laying limp on your bed while Horangi and König smile at her at the door.

“Ah, Schatz isn’t feeling so well,” your stepdad reassures your mom when she doesn’t see you beside them. “She’s resting upstairs.”

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