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mostautisticsinner · 1 year

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sits down

i am interested in the ishmael and possibly don quixote trans hcs :o

v v interested

I WAS LICHER ALLY IN THE MIDDLE OF WRITING A FIC ABOUT TWO COMPLETELY DIFF CHARACTERS BUT I SAW THIS AND GOT SO HYPE I OPENED MY LAPTOP JUST TO TALK ABT THEM.......

First things first. Ishmael intersex. I haven't pondered what condition she has yet, if I should go Full On Projection and give her what I have or make it something completely different, but either way she's always felt like Not A Girl and Not A Boy (physically) even if her birth records say one thing. It's estranging for sure! But at the same time she loves her body and is glad she's intersex

Ok onto other thangs ... I think she chose her name herself because she read Moby Dick when she was on the boat Sooo much she had SO many Weird Nightmares but it was fun for her. Just like me FR etc. Named herself after a fictional character , As you do

She identifies as transfemmasc... Would think its funny to say shes both a cis man and a cis woman but she needs to have twice the transgender swag. Shes bigender but presents femme and also mostly just says she's transmasculine if anyone shes comfortable with enough to have a Confusing Identity But Not Too Confusing with

Always always gets gender euphoria from wearing boxers. Also just more comfortable but she's simply always staring at herself when she wears them

Keeps getting impulses to cut all her hair off especially when someone compliments how long it is but she refrains. Somehow

Don Quixote also chose her name , she's a trans woman and did not enjoy her given name for years and most names just felt like they didn't fit until she settled on naming herself after, Don Quixote. Felt like it would be disrespectful to name herself after a Fixer too

Her chest is mostly flat but thinks its awesome actually. Every clothes fit her and even though bra shopping is hell on earth at times whenever she does get a good fitting one thats also euphoria babey ......

Always was like Intensely Oblivious about the concpt of being trans but Idk how to describe it. Like not that she didnt know but that she was Always just like "Oh Im a girl :)" to everyone even if they were trying to persuade her that she wasnt. Its the future old man people can change genders.....

#I dont have a lot for them two but theyre transbians thank you and goonight #Don Quixote LCB #Ishmael LCB #Inbarks #Fic was Meursang if you even care /playful

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kkukkung · 7 years

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Im crying in the school bathroom rn I seriously love wonho so much I'm in pain why is he my ideal guy in every way he's so amazing and handsome and sweet but whO CARES BEVause he don't kno me haha am I right

big mood all the time im always in pain bc he rly................ doesn’t KNOW i would let him shave off my eyebrows if he wanted 2

tardy replies as usual under the cut!

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I wouldn't even care if wonho was a high maintenance boyf tbh I'd just sit and comb his hair all day and tell him he's pretty

hdjkfh this was so long ago but i think i was mostly kidding abt him being a high maintenance bf... like he would do so much giving? but i guess the only thing he’d need is constant reassurance that his s/o loves him imo jfdhgjk... i also think he’d b someone who either doesn’t settle down ever or does it very late in his life!

annie 🌹literary queen ❤️ literally crowned with a laurel wreath! not be drum attic but this midsummer nights monsta au is so!!!! give me sistar as the four star crossed lovers then drag me to h*ll and give me this doctor faustus au i'm itching for with kihyun as faustus and k.will as mephistopheles bc i love to watch my faves s*ffer but don't let me rip until i get my much ado about nothing au with the entire cast of starship ent and a lil cameo from giriboy!

(in refence to this monsta x as shakespearean archetypes ask!) fjdshgkjs shh i lov u... why is k will as mephistopheles so Accurate esp no.mercy k will lmao. um u should write all of these? in fact if... if anyone has mx literary aus.... hmu...... i’ll n*t

another thing about that incident is that it seems like the fan doesn't think Changkyun and Jooheon undersood them?? (an extension i guess they assumed they don't understand english very well) and that's pretty problematic. it seems to me that when they didn't respond the fan assumed they didn't understand and kept repeating it, as a joke. but they literally did That to the two with the most proficient english in the group... it's rly a mess all around. it's disrespectful through and through

(in relation to that gross “d*ddy” incident from a while ago) ik i feel like some intl fans think korea is a land completely culturally and linguistically alienated/divorced from the rest of the world or something and while cultural relativism is real to some extent... the idea that koreans are completely unaware of ~outside~ things is deeply racist. like mostly white ppl think that diasphoric poc are completely Different from them? when my mum went to the states 15 years ago some ppl literally asked her if there were newspapers in china lol...

i just randomly thought of monsta x as sesame street characters mostly bc i wanna see kihyun and wonho duke it out as bert and ernie (kihyun w/ the waste paper bin on his head and wonho asking 'where's the waste paper bin' and kihyun saying 'ask me that again and look into my eyes') and also minhyuk being elmo tbh...

JKGHKJDF PLEASe!!!! when will something like this b photoshopped... minhyuk as elmo is... spot on... i remember once elmo appeared on a now-discontinued late night talk show program i used to watch when i was in primary school and he was like “elmo likes wasabi, that’s why elmo has no eyebrows” and idk why ive never been able to forget this????? very lmh. also this made me think of a monsta x muppets au n minhyuk is the pic of ass-gape kermit.... next post of mine will b monsta x as kermit reaction pics

Hyungkyun is such an under appreciated ship. Like, they just get each other so well? Why do people overlook it. ㅠ.ㅠ Do you have a moment that made you ship them? How would you describe their dynamic?

it’s bc they’re intp x intj they don’t rly... Understand each other with minimal effort/real communication lmao it’s very efficient. both quiet lil darlings who aren’t emotionally That Open but enjoy their own little space together sometimes?? their dynamic is like... they’re weird in different ways but they’re v chill together. u can tell hyungwon is super fond of changkyun like he has this Expression when ck does anything at all.... i think these two rly love each other’s personalities bc they’re both kind/gentle/peaceful types and their overall ?? vibe is just highly compatible... they’re absolute darlings... v soft together... i can’t think of a favourite moment but i rly rly love their birthday messages for each other last year like changkyun’s message for hyungwon was like “ur rly cool bruh ur rly such a great person” and hyungwon’s message for changkyun was rly... just him obviously doting on him n finding him cute jksfdhg i lov them a lot :(

soyou: i know how to make hair pretty :))) knetz: dirty fckn iljin why can't she be out there being being PRODUCTIVE in society by having babies and learning how to be a good wife for her future husband ://// smh how dare she be successful now when i'm stuck doing what society wants me to do but also anonymously attacking ppl i don't personally know on the internet bc THATS respectable the irony of ugly knetz is so transparent

The whole thing about Knetz and wonho's "scandalous" past reminded me of something. As a PSA to those people who are so insistent and pushy that idols aren't allowed to have sex/date/be anything but straight: Fuck all of you. You do not own these people, and if you really cared about them you'd be happy if they were happy. Like tbh, if anyone that famous and busy could also balance out a relationship at the same time, I'd be so happy for them. It really bugs me how all idols are supposed (1/2)(2/2) have this squeaky clean innocent image where they have to look and act a certain way and have these stupid fucking dating bans because once they don't meet up to that image their success suffers. Idols already give up so much privacy, and the last thing they need is millions of people scrutinizing every little thing they do. I don't even know where I started this rant from, but basically, GIVE IDOLS PRIVACY AND DONT JUDGE THEM FOR THEIR PASTS OR FOR BEING IN RELATIONSHIPS OR WHATEVER

yeth ty for highlighting the gross obsession w purity and productivity (like the first anon said -- a very confucian sort of ideal)... i don’t rly have anything else to add here i think. also i would fight for soyou i fact i would fight lmh who said she was his ideal type in no.mercy era... she’s rly one of my faves and the way she was slandered for the hairdressing thing was one of the most ridiculous things knets ever did lmao honestly yuk

u a kihyun stan now👀👀👀

im a @fhiz stan it’s the same thing tbh

ahh so i saw your tags on that jh gifset! as one of the few jh stans (or maybe there are way more than i think there are lol) i rly love his "reversal charm." he has a lot of what i lack as a person: a strong presence and a lot of confidence! i respect him so much as a person alth i rag on him a lot LMAO. sorry if this is a bit long winded but i just rly wanted to put this out there ;;

this is rly cute i lov hearing ppl talk abt their faves lovingly it rly... Heals Me. i think it’s strange how underappreciated jooheon is in this fandom especially bc he’s usually the one who catches ur eye first bc he’s so hyped by starship as being a one-in-a-million talented rapper u know? and he rly shines in mvs and no.mercy but............. y does he have the least fansites jkfhdg ?? you’re v right abt the reversal charm thing but i feel like sometimes it’s very overdone like... on lots of shows he’s asked to do aegyo when rly he should be asked to... idk... rap or dance or something?? i actually think jooheon is the most serious member of monsta x sometimes bc he seems to have a sense that he’s.. the pillar of mx if that makes sense? and that’s why he’s always pushing himself and working tirelessly like he feels very Responsible for this group, more than anyone else. idk if that makes sense!!! i love him and i want him to... unwind a bit bc sometimes he looks so stressed and tired but he still feels the need to pretend to be energetic like my heart rly hurts for him :/ this got so emo im sry i do rly love to hear that u respect him sm i love jooheon stans :(

i can see what u mean about jooheon being 1 of the most masculine. (iirc u also talked abt kihyun being that in a post a while ago) like with his face and his physique he really is striking; his body=like that slim,upside-down Y that you'd learn to draw men w/ in Anatomy 101 , but i think.. ,--not that u asked, but,, i think the jury's still out on if he's comfortable w his masculinity with the way he acts feminine lyk misogynistic comedians Can sound like dead ringers for women,? idk & i take +

(not sure if there was a 2nd part to this? there’s nothing else in my inbox so i’m sry if there was and tumblr ate it) yeth i think i meant that his demeanor is the most ~~masculine~~ whereas i think kihyun is still the most... idk... mature-masculine?? if tht makes sense, and i definitely agree w u on that second point! i didn’t think of that at the time but now that i... do... think abt it... ur right and also the way he comes back from it by putting on the >swag demeanor again in an attempt to polarise it is definitely a bit 👀👀👀 he probably doesn’t want to risk his Manly Rapper Image for real u kno? that said it’s ingrained in kpop that behaving cute --> “girly” entails that sort of “comedic” high-pitched voice + compact body language etc.... like i’m not condoning that ofc but i definitely think it’s broader than this particular case! :/ hm

maybe i'd be doing better in school if i could major in kihyunology ;~; i stan him but i def think we still don't know much about him even after all this time after debut. especially when i look at him compared to wonho who wears his heart on his sleeve (bless him i love wonho sm, gotta protect this bun at all costs!!)...but ya it just makes me wanna learn more about him like who is the real kihyun??

i want to write a kihyun meta when i have time... i feel like i Get him a bit more these days but it’s also very hard to put into words bc u kno when u kinda sorta mb get some1 but it’s a feeling rather than anything conveniently expressable gkjdhfjk.... idk if anyone wants to send in some Kihyun Thoughts + Meta feel free! :>> i don’t think he’s actually... as complex as we sometimes make him out to be lol like his behaviour is actually kind of predictable? more on his later

wait is the february comeback actually true? ugh i'm so conflicted cuz on one hand i'm excited if there's really gonna be a full length album, but i also think they need more rest but then there's the matter of getting their first win and idk i'm super psyched but i'm also worried that the boys are being overworked

i still feel like they had a comeback like yesterday lol like looking at their schedules stresses me out bc they do so much..... im glad wonho got to go to his mum’s cafe recently tho! all we can do is have faith in them rn and when it’s time... stream, buy things if ur able to, spread the news and the hype etc. i am definitely Worried abt some things like the competition they’re up against but.... gotta have faith u kno... and i feel like all active idols are kind of... permanently worked very hard but i think currently only jooheon and shownu are a bit Overloaded. also has the date been confirmed yet... it’s february already...

#i planned 2 answer more but im... sleepy...#soon... i will... catch up... and make this blog neater + more navigation-friendly #ask #compilation #Anonymous

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lucyninjawife · 7 years

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3 Reasons Why You're Choosing the Wrong Men

There is really no fine art, top secret or special potion that is will miraculously create the greatest man on earth for you. I think most women…at least I know myself, was ready to know IMMEDIATELY who my soul mate was. Who I was destined to build my empire with, have a small football team and ballerinas. I have always been a hopeless romantic.

I had my share of picking the creeps, the thugs, the caveman…and getting rid of the sweet ones because they bored me. I think it was because they didn’t drag me across the room enough. And I mean that figuratively.

There are 3 Reasons Why You’re Choosing the Wrong Men - You aren’t seeking any solid qualities - Your Qualities are unbalanced - You are overlooking his character

let me explain……

Honestly, I had a host of emotions on just how in the world how I could stop being so fickle and settle with one man forever.

Historically, my type was the slight thug, with a little home training. Maybe the jock…I didn’t discriminate on football or basketball. They had to be taller than me. And had to have a swag about himself. Shoes had to be right, teeth, perfect haircut (since I have always been into hair since I knew that we had hair on our heads)…. etc.

All SHALLOW!!!

Now… if you read over that, you didn’t see that I didn’t require any real qualities of him like… did he know how to read, have a job, want something more out of life..prepared to work hard to build an empire together. Yep… that’s ALL I required.

Sure that was cute in high school, but I need big girl coins. I have big girl bills and a big girl mortgage! So any man that would approach you at this stage of “Adulting” would need to come to the table with SOMETHING!!

When picking the right guy, there is either Black or White, and I’m not talking about race. I’m talking about when you’re settling below standards and when you are being outlandish.

When two people come to any relationship, no matter if they have any world possessions of their own or meager possessions. Unless they are already a hefty thousand to millionaire, you both will have to learn the art of the Blending dance. Blending is not for the faint of heart, and it seems easy until you realize the many things you will have to adopt, aside from having kids, into your new lives.

When me and the Hubs started to really blend… it was 2 yrs and we had bought a house. There was no time for us to be possessive over our money unless we planned to lose our house immediately.

I made good money as a Single woman. I had my budget together. I bought myself some shoes.. an outfit and payed a car note with little problems. The Hubs had a nice apartment too. I’m sure he was fine…at the time I didn’t totally care how he was budgeting his life. But we thought that the only thing we needed to blend was his kids, and that was the easier part, if I can be honest.

Money is sooooooo personal. Its almost, or even more personal than underwear or a toothbrush. It takes so much to make it, collect it and make wise decisions with it. And to share a bank account and hard earned money is nerve racking.

Its ALMOST normal to have some run ins with money....because some of us had to learn before we became better....BUT theres a fine line about being fiscally irresponsible, and being an active learner.

So… Mr.Right coming into the relationship KNOWING exactly how to financially independent, is about as rare as a shark walking down your street.

Personally, I didn’t mind US building our empire together… and no I didn’t want to be lacking, and I couldn’t tell you that some of those times didn’t hurt, but what was the alternative. Bottomline was the Hubs had and has a great work ethic, even when he didn’t have a specific career.

Now don’t get me wrong… if you are mid 40’s… it might not be so bad for the man to be established in some form. Like a career.

Lastly, character is so important and often overlooked. When you go into a relationship, when you are living in the midst of a relationship, it’s important to know, that you CANNOT change Him. Because if you wanted to do that, you should’ve been there before his 2nd birthday.

A person is generally who they will be by the age of 5/6. The character is the person’s makeup.. their personality. Their morals.

“When someone shows you who they are the first time, believe them” -Maya Angelou

When you sit back long enough to watch and observe someone’s character long enough, without correcting them or interfering with their flow. You will begin to really see the person at face value.

Now one thing that lives in everyone’s character is “Selfishness”. That goes for everyone on planet Earth. The first law of self is self preservation, so that will continue to pop up. But what I’m talking about is characteristics that yield fruit like, work ethic, some empathy, awareness of others, etc… Something that can produce and elevate.

Often times us women get to that time of the month, and get vulnerable. and wear our emotions on our sleeves and then there is nothing to conceal.

Going into a relationship you should show that you are human and have emotions, BUT you never lay them all on the table. It’s like a game of poker. I don’t know a thing about real poker, other than they hold this still face and they have chips. But a poker face will get you far in a relationship, so I suggest you get one of your own. And take a cold shower later if you need to.

There are Red flags all over, but you chose to ignore them. If he posses character flaws, then you need to not allow yourself to become attached and move on. A few character flaws would be… If he has kids by multiple women…. that is a red flag and character flaw because he likes to screw at any cost. Especially in a modern world of sexually transmitted diseases and birth control. Thats a PROBLEM.

If he has multiple kids and doesn’t take care of them. His “baby mama” calls and says the child needs shoes, clothes, etc.. and he is willing to take you to a nice dinner. I wouldn’t be so flattered. Because if you can’t see, you’re looking at your future.

Those are just SOME of the many character flaws to stay away from. Everyone does something out of pattern and habit, and all the signs are there. If you choose to step over those gut feelings and even visual proof, then this will be your burden to bare.

If you have any questions or comments feel free to drop me a line by emailing me or Tweeting me.

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