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sxhnsuchtt · 2 years

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Potion - Wanda Maximoff x Fem!Reader

Couldn't find a damn GIF for this outfit 😩

The song "Potion" by Calvin Harris inspired me to write this little something - Wanda takes you out for dinner and treats herself to her favourite dessert (you).

Word count: 3,081

Warnings: Dom!Top!Wanda, Sub!Fem!Reader, degradation, dirty talk, mommy kink, semi-public sex, strap-on use, edging, nipple play, finger sucking, throat fucking, vaginal sex, slight cockwarming. Minors DNI

Getting cute for a night out was not really in your chords before you and Wanda met. Back when people you knew used to attend parties or go to clubs, you were accustomed to spending your nights in the comfort of your home. And whenever someone was brave enough to dare to take you anywhere, you were always reminded of how underdressed you were for the occasion. You hated getting ready to go places with the objective of meeting new people, that was until Wanda set her eyes on you one night. She had captured your heart as well as your undivided attention and that was enough for you to be hers forever.

Just after putting your sparkly, crystal mesh dress on - way too short for your liking - Wanda enters the room the two of you have been sharing for months now. "Looking so pretty for me, baby" she says with a serene smile on her face. "Are you ready to go?"

You turn around to look at your girlfriend and your breath cuts short. Her red velvet jumpsuit with a plunging neckline makes your insides twist a little, not to talk about your eyes that immediately start wandering across her exposed chest. "Damn, she looks hot," you think to yourself, "maybe this wasn't a bad idea after all."

Wanda had insisted on taking you out for dinner on your anniversary, which you appreciated, however her restaurant choice made you feel a little intimidated at first. Without your knowledge, she had picked one of the highest-end restaurants out there, and the idea of going made you feel like a fish out of water. "Don't give me that look. You're gonna love it, trust me," she says as she traces your naked back with her fingertips, making you shiver, "and you'll be the highlight of everyone's night with that sexy dress you're wearing." Having said that, she plants a sweet kiss on your cheek and takes your hand, leading you to the car.

You soon arrive at the restaurant and a waiter guides you to your table. There are other people dining as well, however your table is placed in a more private spot. The date actually proceeds very well, not that you were doubting of that. Wanda always knows how to put you at ease and loves giving you attention, making sure she's always either caressing your hand across the table or looking at you with her beautifully hypnotizing green eyes. Her laugh makes your heart swell everytime you hear it and every second you spend with her makes you fall in love a little bit more. By the time the waiter brings your dessert to the table - a mouthwatering hazelnut souffle with a dash of cocoa powder on top - you have completely relaxed. Wanda had got the waiter to recommend her the best wine bottle they had, which also happened to be the most expensive - she did that, sometimes, just to show off in front of you - and had pampered you with any delicacy you could ever want from the menu. "This souffle is amazing Wands, you have to try it" you say while stuffing your mouth with a spoonful of it - not very ladylike or appropriate for the setting, but oh well. Wanda slowly nods her head no and takes your hand in hers again. "I had another dessert in mind for tonight, actually..."

You're taking another spoonful as you feel a sharp tip on your thigh. You immediately look up from the plate and stare at Wanda in the eye. "Babe," you whisper, a little startled "what are you doing. There's other people here." Wanda grins maliciously and rides your skirt up with her foot. You feel her pointy heel scratching your thigh, while the sole reaches for in between your legs. She keeps the straightest face while doing this, but you can't. You start looking around the restaurant to see if anyone's coming or looking your way, but at the same time you're blushing irremediably and feeling heat growing from your core. Her fingers are still caressing yours, now marking each space between them with a slow, light motion, making you think of how she's used to tease your clit before going down on you.

"I- Wanda, please," you whine under your breath, now desperately soaked between your thighs. "Please, let's take this somewhere else." Wanda looks at you with a huge smile on her face and says nothing, enjoying how such little teasing can get you so needy. "Waiter, please, would you be so kind to bring me the check? My lady here really wants to go home."

On the drive home, the two of you say nothing for a while. You're still extremely horny, but Wanda has other plans. As you tried to kiss her outside the restaurant, she pushed you away, not before leaving the trace of a red kiss on your neck because of her lipstick and grabbing your ass through the mesh dress. To your usual, you were left aching and wanting for more.

You could swear you've never seen someone looking so hot while driving like Wanda does, you think. The way she steers the wheel and handles the gearshift makes your knees weak everytime. You'd stare at her for hours if you had the chance.

She pulls down her window a little just to let the cool summer breeze fill up the vehicle and then reaches for the radio, shuffling through stations for a while until she finds something of her liking. A familiar beat comes on, and Wanda seems to recognize it as well. "In the whip on a Tuesday night, got the music high, and you by my side, siiiide..." you see your girlfriend starting to softly sing the words along the tune and tap her hands on the steering wheel, keeping up with the rhythm. "Late night conversations, electric emotions, sprinkled with a little bit of sex, and it's a potion, yeah..."

You're still watching as Wanda's right hand leaves the wheel and is placed on your thigh. While the song is still playing, you notice the same hand starting to run up your dress, gripping tightly on your skin, which gets you aroused again. In search of her eye contact, you look at your girlfriend with dreamy eyes, and she replies to that look for a fragment of a second before taking one of your hands as well and placing it in turn on her thigh. Your pupils widen and your heart drops as soon as you realize she's wearing your favourite strap underneath the jumpsuit, recognizing the girth of it through the fabric. "When did you-" you mutter, before Wanda cuts you off. "I went to the restroom before leaving, silly, don't you remember? Poor slut is so horny for mommy she's starting to forget things."

Extremely flustered, you let a tiny breath out, your juices soaking your panties, as you keep on stroking the strap through the jumpsuit. "Trust me baby- if I could, I'd whip this thing out in a matter of seconds. You're making mommy so horny. I'd love feeling your pretty mouth wrapped around my cock as I'm driving..." Wanda whispers in that raspy, low voice you love so much, before finally taking the last exit towards home.

As soon as the car stops in the driveway, you turn into an absolute mess. You know you're gonna regret this - fuck, you're totally gonna regret this - however you just can't help yourself but climb onto Wanda's lap while she's still sitting in the car. She seems surprised for a moment - you can see it in her eyes - but soon the natural hierarchy is re-established, Wanda taking control again. She silently enjoys your neediness for a little bit, groping your ass hugged by the tight fabric, before pulling your hips down on her crotch. You feel the hardness of the strap against your pulsating cunt, and start to get wetter and wetter by the second. "Grind on it, slut" Wanda commands as she grips the back of your hair and pulls you into a sloppy, steaming hot kiss. You can feel her tongue meeting yours with desperate eagerness while you grind on the strap, occasionally causing hot grunts to leave Wanda's mouth as she kisses you. At one point, you feel her hand traveling up your dress and making way to your panties, letting out a heavy breath as soon as she realizes how soaked you are. "You're such a dirty little whore for me" she chuckles wickedly and starts tracing her long fingers along your wet, swollen folds after pulling your panties to the side.

You've never seen her so rough, fumbling with her hand on your crotch, trying to stimulate you as quickly and steadily as possible. Taken aback by her eagerness, you start grinding on her hand while she grabs your ass and guides your movements. You're so horny you feel already close to climax, finally, after all the teasing throughout the night. As soon as your body begins to tremble, Wanda quickly retracts her hand from you, leaving you on the edge. You moan desperately and look up to her with tears in your eyes, almost as if you're trying to move her to pity. "As much as I'd like to, it's not time to cum just yet, baby girl" she says with a large smile on her face as she licks her coated fingers clean.

After savouring your sweet taste, Wanda finally opens the car door and slowly lifts you off her lap, putting you down with no effort at all. "I've had enough of this, let's go" she mutters as she locks the car and goes to the front door. As soon as you step inside, she doesn't hesitate to embrace you from behind, pushing her strap onto your ass and slipping her hands underneath your dress to reach for your tits. As if she hadn't teased you enough already, her hands brush lightly against your nipples, just enough to make them harder, then start pulling and pinching them, all while keeping grinding onto you with a steady motion, causing you to whimper helplessly. "Can you feel how hard mommy's cock is for you right now?" Wanda whispers right in your ear, goosebumps all over you, "Her cute fuck toy has been making her want to rip off that dress all night. Get on your knees, baby."

Wanda lets go of your tits, leaving them sore and reddened, and guides you to the ground. You do as you're ordered and watch her as she starts taking her jumpsuit off. Her perky, plump tits are finally set free after you'd been staring all night, your pussy throbbing at the sight of them. Wanda, however, quickly reproaches you for looking without her permission. "Did I tell you you could stare?" she scoffs, now uncovering her toned belly. Just before you could reply to her question, she finally pulls the strap out of the fabric constraints, making you feel extremely intimidated by the size of it, thoughts about what she might do to you rushing through your head. "I'm gonna fuck your mouth so deep you won't be able to stare anymore with all those tears in your eyes," Wanda says triumphantly, "now open up, whore."

She gathers your hair in a ponytail, prepping you for what's about to come. Unexpectedly gentle hands caress your head and cheeks, then your mouth is pushed open with the force of her thumb. You start lasciviously sucking on it, feeling the pressure of her finger on your tongue and the softness of her skin. "Good job, puppy," Wanda whispers, her voice making you feel warm inside, "now look at me, and keep your mouth open."

As soon as your gaze meets hers, Wanda unexpectedly pushes the whole strap into your mouth without any mercy. You feel instantly gagging and your eyes start to swell up with tears, but the feeling is amazing, her cock filling you up to the brim. As she brushes the back of your throat, her hips start to rock back and forth, fucking your mouth carelessly while the room fills up with obscene sounds coming from you. You look up again to meet her eyes, but her head is tilted back, her tits bouncing with every thrust on her body pearled with sweat. Wanda pushes down on your head suddenly, causing your nose to brush against her crotch while you can feel the whole length inside your mouth. As you start gagging again, she slowly pushes her strap out, admiring the mess on your face with a satisfied smile.

"I bet my dick in your mouth has made you even wetter, didn't it?" Wanda cooes, waiting for an answer. You nod shyly, tears still pooling up in your eyes, "Yes, mommy, see how wet I am for you..." is all you can manage to say while she lifts up your dress and makes you bend over the kitchen table. "Yeah, I can see that, you're such a desperate little whore" she chuckles as she traces a finger along your soaked panties, marking your slit with her fingertip and spreading up your juices all around the fabric, hence leaving an even bigger wet spot on it.

With a quick movement, Wanda places the strap against your clothed cunt, grinding once again onto you, making sure the tip teases your swollen clit. You whimper and squirm under her until she places a firm hand on your back and presses you down on the table. Unable to move, you feel Wanda pulling your panties down, leaving your pussy finally bare after hours of teasing. "Tell me how much you want me" Wanda orders with a firm voice, pushing her strap once again onto your cunt and slapping your folds repeatedly. "Please, mommy, fuck me. I need it so much" you plead, unable to resist anymore, wishing to be filled up completely by her. Wanda finally enters your hole, stretching you out completely and causing you to let out a desperate moan as she slowly buries her strap deep into you, inch right after inch. You can feel her holding her breath, admiring the amazing view right before her eyes, as your pussy grips around her strap perfectly.

The room is pervaded by the smell of your sweating bodies fused together while Wanda suddenly picks up a quick, rough pace, making her hips clash against your ass with a satisfying smacking sound and the echo of your desperate moans collide with hers in a unique melody. "You're so pretty, detka, taking my cock like the bitch in heat you are" you hear her saying, almost out of breath, while you get closer and closer to climax. Your walls start to throb as Wanda pushes further into you, the girth of her strap filling every inch of your pussy and her rough thrusts making you bounce up and down the table.

"Mommy, please, I need to cum" you cry, a complete mess for her. As soon your words come to Wanda's ears, her pace suddenly starts to slow down, however getting deeper with each thrust, causing you to let out a desperate moan that had been growing inside you. Purposefully torturing you with this excruciatingly slow pace, Wanda picks your hair up and pulls on it slightly, bringing your head closer to hers and making you arch your back completely. As she rests her other hand on your ass and leaves a rough slap on it, she keeps pumping into your pussy, the sloshing sounds caused by the juices coating all of the length like music to her ears.

"I'm such a bad, bad mommy, right? Leaving you hanging like this, after all the ways I've teased you tonight..." Wanda cooes, her strap hitting your cervix slightly and creating a bulge in your lower abdomen. "My dumb little slut really deserves to cum, yet I'm here, using her as nothing more than a toy to extend my pleasure as much as I wish." You can hear the meanness in her voice, yet with a point of satisfaction, as she buries the whole strap into your cunt and stays inside, swinging her hips just a little to make you feel every inch of it against your walls.

You're absolutely helpless at this point, letting your whole body lean onto Wanda's, her hands torturing your tits again and again as she stays completely still inside you. You can feel your pussy stretch and throb to the point of no return when Wanda starts nibbling on your ear, her warm breath tickling your skin and causing goosebumps to form onto your arms and legs. She admires every inch of your body as she finally decides to move again, this time positioning herself at such an angle to make sure she's hitting your sweet spot. You can't help but become a moaning mess as a rush of pleasure expands through your body, the aching feeling of need finally getting closer and closer to being fulfilled. As you feel near to climax again, tears fill your eyes again, and you're so desperate nothing but moans come out of your mouth.

"You're so fucking hot when you're so desperate for me, slut" Wanda cooes, her pace getting faster. "Cum for mommy" she orders as you feel your muscles tensing more and more, finally letting yourself go to an orgasm. Your pussy completely clenches so tightly around Wanda's strap, even her can feel it, causing an excited moan to exit her mouth before giving you a final, deep thrust. Completely fucked dumb, you let yourself rest against the plain surface, while your girlfriend slowly pulls out of you and admires her work, your hole wide and gaping, already missing the sensation of fullness only she could provide you with.

Deeply satisfied, Wanda scoops you up from the table gently. As she puts your loose strands of hair back into place, she holds you up against her body, knowing that you're too much out of strength to keep up on your own feet. You feel secure as she showers you with kisses and presses her sweaty, hot skin against yours in a well-deserved cuddling mess. "Look at the state of you, mommy really went too far tonight, hasn't she? I'm gonna fix you a nice cool bath, baby, you really need this" Wanda sweetly whispers, leading you upstairs with a reassuring smile.

#wanda maximoff #wanda maximoff smut #wanda maximoff x reader #scarlet witch #scarlet witch x reader

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fr0gheart · 6 years

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album review of sweetener

okay noone asked for this. and no one is gonna read it. I just want to start doing album reviews. I will be rating each one out of 5 music notes

1. raindrops(an angel cried)

Thoughts: okay this was a really beautiful track and I enjoyed it. The raw acoustics and the tone of the voice was absolutely beautiful. I love that echoey sound in the background and it sounded like she was really vulnerable. This was really beautiful. I’m hoping Ariana releases a longer version of this

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

2. blazin(feat. pharell williams)

Thoughts: This song is a shock to me. The transition from raindrops to this is a splendid surprise. Now for the track overall I didn’t really enjoy it particularly. This would be the song I’d listen to just for ariana’s voice. Like she picked up this song and I feel like the music at the back was really tacky and I didn’t dig it. They both did a good job.

Rating: 🎵🎵

3. the light is coming(feat. Nicki Minaj)

Thoughts: This song was a banger. I enjoyed it’s like one of my favourites because Nicki’s opening hook in the song is bomb, she was the best pick for this part. I didn’t really get a lot of vocals from Ariana because she was talking through her part but I really enjoyed it. I would change how Ariana sings it and maybe dampen the political voice at the back

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵

4. R.E.M

Thoughts: It really transitioned from the light is coming fast! The beat at the back is really nice and could probably put someone to sleep. We get more vocals from Ariana in this track and she really shows a softer side to the album in this song and it’s really nice. I dig the harmonies and it’s just really well put together she really outdid herself on this track. This track is beautiful. It has a sitting on clouds kind of vibe

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

5. god is a woman

Thoughts: The first time I listened to this song. I was astonished. It was so beautiful. Like I was a bit skeptic all about listening to it because I’m Christian and I thought it would contradict my culture but it did anything but that. It actually opened my eyes. Her vocal are beautiful, the beat is gorgeous, and you can tell she really tried hard for this one. I loved it. Ariana really knows how to wow people. The video too was moving with so many older art references. Just a work of art

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

6. sweetener

Thoughts: i was really looking forward to this track. And I listened to it in shock. Like MISS ARIANA GRANDE. It was so fucking good. This is really different from her other songs. And I like that she was trying new things. Because she is capable of a lot of things and I think this just opened the door to new possibilities. I didn’t know that she could do this. Most definitely deserves to be a title track. It was beautiful and I enjoyed it so much she really did so well with this. I will definitely be twisting to this for a while. good fucking job. It’s beautiful

Rating:🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

7.succesful

Thoughts: I heard people saying that she was bragging in this track but it was anything but. She delivered a nice track with a nice dancing beat and she was sharing with us her accomplishments and she did a good job with it. She was definitely a bad ass bitch in this track and she stunted on all of us with this banger. She showed us this baller side of her and Iiked it. But they could have produced it better. This song isn’t the best but I like the meaning of it.

Rating: 🎵🎵

8. everytime

Thoughts: okay I really like this track the production of this is really good. but i got a little disinterested between the verses but it was stil an alright track. I liked her vocals in this a lot. This just gives me that home video background song.

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵

9. breathin

Thoughts: This is probably one of my favourite tracks. I like the production and the lyrics and I like her vocals. She does a good job with this mainting a head voice and chest voice I was dancing to this and I was really enjoying it. I really like it a lot

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

10. no tears left to cry

Thoughts: I listened to this song when it came out and I didn’t really like it. And then I waited a few days and came back to it and I absolutely love it. This song is basically not something that warms up to you but it will eventually if you haven’t heard it. I like how for her first single she showed us her vulnerability from the Manchester Attack

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵

11. borderline(feat.missy elliott)

Thoughts: This song rubs me the wrong way and I don’t know why. I like the lyrics but I’m feeling a little iffy about the product. Ariana said she asked for the song from Missy Elliott and I think Missy would have done this better. I love Missy’s line and it’s just enough to leave us wanting more. I wouldn’t give this over 3 stars because the production was really weird. But this is my opinion. You guys may still like it

Rating:🎵🎵

12. better off

Thoughts: just starting off the song is she saying armpit? I like the song and he steady beat and her harmonies are on point. I get a very r.e.m vibe from this. This is clearly about Pete Davidson and how he like got her to be wild I really dig this song. It’s groovy

Rating:🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

13. goodnight n go

Thoughts: everyone’s been saying good things about this song and I understand why. It’s so smooth and the production is perfect. She really did this and I lived for the chorus and she gives me really Calvin Harris hints with this song. Like I said the production is really good. It’s so good and I like her raw vocals in this. And it’s obviously about new relationships and how her and the person are just so innocent and it shows off how new relationships are and the innocence of them. This song reminds me of something but I don’t know what? I listened to this song 3 times before writing this to make sure I put everything I wanted to say into words.

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

14. pete davidson

Thoughts: There was a lot of controversy over this and everyone was saying they didn’t want to listen to it. but this song is beautiful. We’re really lucky to have an artist who is open to sharing her relationship with her fans and I don’t know if it’s just me but I feel like this is her secret to share with each and every one of us and she’s like keeping the song short and sweet because thats what secrets are. I live this song and she showed her emotions really well. This should really be longer

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

15. get well soon

Thoughts: Okay last song on this album. I really resonated with this song. It felt like she was asking the listeners if she was sane or even normal. She was talking about how her life was controlled and she just wanted to do this song for the Manchester Attack. imagine how much ptsd she has from the attack and her being scared that it will happen again. She really related with her listeners in this song. And I know that is said she showed herself in some songs on this album but this is the big kahuna. She really opened up not just about her feelings but what was on her mind and she showed anxiety in this song I don’t know. And the 44second of silence to commorate those who died from the attack really shows us what Ariana is aiming to be and how there is truly a new her revealing from this album.

Rating: 🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

Overrall: it was a beautiful album and I loved going on a journey with her through a soft song like r.e.m to an upbeat one like sweetener and she really bared down and showed it all to us. This is truly a new era of Ariana and I’m here for it. This is her year for new beginnings and this album is one hell of a new beginning for her. I adore you ari. Great job on this album! Your hard work is not going to go unnoticed

Favourite song(s) : goodnight n go

get well soon

breathin

r.em

sweetener

#sweetner ariana grande #ariana grande sweetener #sweetener #goodnight n go #get well soon #breathin #pete davidson #ariana grande #god is a woman #nicki minaj #raindrops #album review #album release #ariana grande album review #bb20

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jeremyhechtsblog-blog · 7 years

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Powerful Week

Tuesday

It’s 1:47 pm. My phone rings. It’s a call from Burbank, California. I’m on the fourth floor of the library preparing some slides. I let it ring.

Then I decide to answer because I wasn’t being very productive anyways.

“Hello is this Jeremy?”

“Hi, yes it is!”

“This is Mckenzie from Power 106. I’m calling about the internship, do you have time to talk?”

I am pretty excited right now. But I’m also kind of nervous because I’m on the fourth floor of a library so people are probably looking at me like “who does this kid think he is? Someone shut him up!” I don’t blame them. I walk down to the elevator and do my mid-elevator and the rest of it outside the library. I black out for half of it but I think I still do a good job.

“We should be giving you a call tomorrow!”

I text my friend Jeremy Morantz telling him I got the call from Power and he is really excited for me. I remember over Winter break telling him that I applied for the internship. I told him it was the only internship I applied for this semester but I had a good feeling about it. He told me he thought I would get it even with the 150+ people who apply annually, but that either way I shouldn’t worry too much about it because it’ll all work out how it’s supposed to. He was right.

Wednesday

It’s 1:24 pm. My phone rings again. Burbank, California. This time, I am expecting a call.

“Hey Jeremy, it’s Mckenzie from Power 106. So we would love to have you on as a part of our team for The Cruz Show.”

Friday

An Uber pulls up to my place and an extremely familiar face walks out. My friend Griffin is in town for the weekend. This is a guy who has been as important an influence as anyone in my life. We talk about life, love, success and everything in between, and I can always count on him for life wisdom and support. We have both grown a lot together this year.

“What’s up Hechtar?”

Griff meets John and we all go to Roscoes for some fresh Chicken and Waffles (Chicken Counter – 1). It was delicious. Still the best thing I’ve ever tasted.

We go up to Santa Monica to meet my prof, Jeff Fellenzer, who has been one of the most influential people to me out here and who is one of my biggest mentors. This semester I am TAing for his Sports, and Media Technology class. Griff is a big sports fan so we talk about the NFL in LA, Jeff’s career path and how everything we want in life is really possible. Jeff was meeting with another student before me, Ben, who happens to be a fellow Canadian!

Griff and I go to California Pizza Kitchen for a salad.. but we also split a BBQ Chicken Pizza (Chicken Counter – 2)

We go to my friend Sophie’s for a bit, we wander downtown and then I show him a couple of bars that I like in Hollywood.

Saturday

I give Griff a tour of USC campus and we walk past a lunch celebrating the empowerment of women. I ask what the lunch is for and the staff tells me we have to be registered. A lady comes from behind us and says, “come with me boys.” Sounded a little sketchy but when a woman at an empowerment lunch tells you to come with her, you follow. We go along with her and she places wrist-bands on us.

“Enjoy your free lunch.”

A big finesse move for the boys. We get free lunch and celebrate women. What do we have for lunch? You guessed it – Chicken. This time in the form of wraps. They are really good (Chicken Counter – 3).

Saturday Night

The Winnipeg Jets are in town tonight and we have tickets! Our tickets are $35 in the third level. We both wear Jets gear and meet up with my friends Alanna and Repski and his friend Brett. At the first intermission we meet up with my friend Kylie who is also from Winnipeg and we talk about how much different LA is and how we miss Greenroom (our former hometown bar).

After chatting with some really nice Kings fans on Facebook live and enjoying some chicken tendy’s (Chicken Counter – 4) we go down to meet up with Repski for the second intermission. Brett had made some new friends (after a few drinks), two older gentleman – one wearing a Jet’s jersey and the other wearing a light blue Hockey Night in Canada jacket. The guy in the Jet’s jersey knows our old elementary school gym teacher, Mr. B. He calls him Buck. Great guy. The guy in the Hockey Night in Canada jacket asks if we want to sit in their row because there were empty seats next to them. We say sure, can’t turn that down. The lady at the gate says that if we don’t have tickets we can’t go down. I say that our friends are saving the tickets for us in the row.

We walk down to row 5 and see the third period and overtime from the best seats that I have ever sat in for a hockey game. The atmosphere is electric. A King’s fan – older dad – almost gets into a fight with Brett and is more fired up about a goal than I have ever seen anyone get – regardless of their age. Jets lose but the boys win big with another finesse move. $35 row 5 tickets at Staples Center. Big plays.

Sunday

We play some basketball at the USC gym. There is one guy wearing a green shirt who is an absolute riot to watch play. It’s not that he is a bad player, he’s an okay shooter, it’s just that he likes to shoot from half court for no reason. Everytime we passed him the ball, everyone groaned in their head because they knew a half court shot was coming. We came away with a big victory and a couple of big losses. We meet a dude named Andrew - at least I think that was his name. Great guy.

We go to Malibu with John and have a great photo shoot on the beach. I’ll definitely be posting some big Instas from it. We have fish tacos and burgers (NOT CHICKEN - WOW!!!!!!!!) at this place called Duke’s which is great stuff. We watch some football and relax.

Sunday Night

John and I have people over and host what turns out to be a really fun party (kickback – as they call it here). 2 noise complaints, one spilled drink and a frozen bottle of champagne is a successful night in my books. Some hilarious stories, but you’ll have to ask me about them in person.

Monday

We go to a place called Grinder for lunch. It is not in fact a place where people meet up from the gay dating up with the same name - instead, it’s a phenomenal lunch place. Reminds me of Sals, which reminds me of home. We talk about how being yourself and having self-awareness is the greatest thing you can have in life. And about how you can never get mad at someone for their reaction to your actions because their reaction is based on a completely different life perspective than yours.

Monday Night

Griff bought me tickets to the Clippers vs. OKC game. Griff wears his Russell Westbrook UCLA jersey and I wear Griff’s Calvin Cambridge LA Knights jersey from the movie, Like Mike. I don’t get a single compliment. We see an incredible game from JJ Reddick and Mo Buckets!!! And Russ plays a tough game without much help from his team.

We meet up with John and grab some Asian food before bed. The mushroom chicken was really good (Chicken Counter – 5). We watch some Vince Carter highlights with Terrance and then go to bed.

Griff goes home the next morning and it’s back to reality. It’s been a really good break. I had a great weekend with a lifelong homie and I had a great time relaxing. But I am so ready to get back to work and hustle towards my goals.

Tuesday

I email Power.

“Thank you, I’m really looking forward to the opportunity.”

“We’ll see you Thursday.”

Lessons:

If Something Feels Right - Do It

I was stressing a lot this week because I had another potential opportunity on the table that would have made me unable to take the internship at Power. I was overthinking about future opportunities and what would come from each of them going into the summer here, but then when it came down to it, the opportunity at Power felt right so I took the job. Like my mom texted me, everything will work out. Remember that.

Things Happen for Reasons, Even if You Don’t Understand Them at the Time

After I met J. Cruz and worked on the Chance The Rapper interview at Power, I was disappointed that nothing else came from it. But everything has a way of working itself out. I gained other experiences, put the time in, and came back stronger than ever. And it all ended up coming back around. Trust that if something doesn’t work out for you right away, whether it’s with a relationship, job opportunity, friendship, or whatever it is - that is wasn’t mean to at that time. Keep moving forward and pushing towards your goals and you will see that things have a funny way of working themselves out.

Good Support Systems are Everything

If you find people who genuinely support you and make your life better, hold on to them, because these people are rare. Griffin has been one of my best friends forever but he continues to bring value into my life and support me even from all the way back home. I don’t take that for granted. He also told me that I have a great support system around me here. People like John, Jeff, Repski, Terrance and all of my friends here support me and want to see me do well and I appreciate that more than any of them know. Keep the genuine people around you who will keep you grounded and humble. Thank you to my friends back home and my new friend out in my new second home.

And remember, it’s your life - so do what you want to do and don’t let anyone else tell you what’s best for you. Only you know. Have a great day and I’ll let you know how my first week at Power goes. Love to you and yours.

#Power 106 #Jeremy Hecht #Winnipeg #Advice #Los Angeles

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explaining my life to my boyfriend

i was raised catholic, and in catholic families nothing can be wrong, divorce is wrong, any mental issues are wrong, adultry is wrong, and god so many things are wrong and the problem was that almost everything they considered wrong i had gone thought before i was even five. i taught kids for three years in sunday school, this is the first year i haven't since 2014, even when i began to question my beliefs and even when i just decided it's better for me not to have them, i kept teaching because i wanted them to have hope. i don't think there's anything wrong with believing and most people would think that because i am the way i am that i should have strong feelings towards god and that i should pray often and i just i want to focus on me i want to make things happen for myself, if that makes sense? you're dating a girl who can't function with out meds and it really sucks and i cry everytime i think about it because this is gonna be a thing my entire life because i got the mental stuff that doesn't go away. but my mom and my dad, kenny as i often refer him to as, ryan was born first he's my older brother,1998, then i was born in 2000, they separated in 2004, my father cheated on her with 12 different women, my father has been in and out of my life since and it's messed me up really bad. all he gave me in my childhood was starwars, comics, and car movies. and as you know those are three focuses in my life that keep me sane. we moved in with our grandmother in 2004 and moved into our own house early 2005 and i started going to therapy in 2005 and ive gone to it every year since, kenny was and kinda still is the main reason i go. my father would lie and say he was coming and leave me and ryan waiting st the front door for hours just waiting and he wouldn't show. he'd bring random women with him and act like they're gonna be apart of our lives and then a new one would come. in 2008 they finally divorced. 2009 my mom had joseph with my step dad steve and they got married and we moved to hburg. steve and i don't have a relationship, the only thing we really talk about is dumb and dumber and a couple other movies, and my father was still in and out of my life, in 2008 my father married a girl named megan, and we started going to their house about once every three months, my mother bought me and ryan phones when we were in 5th and 6th grade because she was scared our father would kidnap us. we kept a lot of our childhood memories at their house. him and megan split. he said it was her wrong doing. but i know it was him. megan threw away everything of ours. and dad began dating again. once i was in 7th grade i started to notice my father would take pictures of girls while he was with us and he'd hit on any female that was checking us out at a store or a waitress. it still happens today. so he still remains on and off and then we get to 2014 i started dating calvin and we had a pretty good relationship but i fucked up a lot apparently. calvin came from a family with a lot of money and he will never have to work for anything in life because his family has ownership of almost every mcdonald's in hburg. my family obviously isn't like that. i wasn't good enough for him but i didn't notice until the last three months, and he started liking another girl and she was my friend actually and at homecoming, nov.14, he broke up with me at the dance and drove me home, the week after he continued to make me believe we could fix it. but he already had the other girl coming. our one year was nov. 23 and the joker painting on my wall was something i spent two months on making sure it was good enough and i gave it to him as a early one year during pictures and that's how that went. may 22 2015 is the day ethan zander died in a car accident. he was a close friend and it still hurts like heck. the arrow on my wrist was drawn there that day by a friend and i've traced it every day since. the next guy i dated was in june 2016 and it was a long distance relationship, he lived in tennessee he came to see me twice from june- november. the first time was okay he seemed like he cared and then after awhile we were spectical of each other. we decided to stay in each other's lives but not actually date. he started dating a girl a week after we called it off in september. and that messed me up because he was overly emotionally abusive and almost every bad thought that goes through my head is because of what he did to me mentally. he didn't believe anything was wrong with me and that everyone was lying. i got admitted into the hospital the first time in september. he told me i couldn't date because guys can't resist me. but he was already dating that girl. i didn't listen but i didn't tell him i was. dated jacob in october, you know how that went, vann found out and when he came to see me he hit me because of it. i left vann early december because i told him i "fucking hated him and i have no emotional feeling for him in anyway left to make me stay" he has a lot of my art and stuff i bought him because i wanted to be a good girlfriend. try to fix things. didn't mean anything and he never sent me anything or gave my stuff back. i was doing okay after him. because i really i didn't want him and i was so happy he was gone but the emotional abuse from that tore me down to the point i overdosed on 25 of my anxiety pills after a manic episode, mac made me call poison control, he's the reason i'm here, because i wouldn't have called on my own nor stopped taking them. so they sent me to lynchburg after keeping me at rmh from 9 pm till 6 am the next morning ( which happened to be the first day of our new semester) so i was locked in a mental institution for a week and if i begin to explain everything that i went through in there i will breakdown. i cant handle that memory. from may 2015 to january 2017 i was on about ten different type of meds they thought could help me. i was finally diagnosed with bipolar and manic in the hospital. my father didn't even know i was in there or that i did anything until last month when he finally came and saw me since christmas. he gave me a bottle of vodka for christmas. he thinks that's the only way to get my attention. he treats me like a friend not a daughter. that's one of the big issues. and now i'm here, and i'm falling immensely for you and i'm happier than i've been in a very long time. sorry that's a lot to read but that's the basis of my issues.

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