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#i mena i liked it as a kid but lmao what is this ''all new! all fun! :)'' shit sdfsdfsf
the-type-a · 1 year
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Gonna give you ideas for your Duncney playlist. I don't have the energy to see if these are already on there, so I'll just drop them here. Also I'm not sure if these actually work for canon Duncney or the Duncney that exists only in my mind but EH.
-Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps (Doris Day) -The Last Time (Taylor Swift)
-Bad Blood (Taylor Swift)
-My Life Would Suck Without You (Kelly Clarkson)
-The Kids Aren't Alright (Fall Out Boy)
-The Countess and the Common Man (Anstasia)
-Catabolic Seed (The Scary Jokes)
-Two (Sleeping At Last)
-Colors (Halsey)
-Ghost (Halsey)
-Lethal Combination (The Wombats)
-Something There (Beauty and the Beast)
-A Guy That I'd Kinda Be Into (Be More Chill) -Womanizer (Britney Spears)
-Community Gardens (The Scary Jokes)
-Where Were You (Maria Mena)
-Partners in Crime (Set it Off)
-Weak (AJR)
-Never Love an Anchor (The Crane Wives)
-It's Alright (Mother Mother)
-King (Florence + The Machine)
-Only Us (Dear Evan Hansen)
-Despair (leo.)
-Wolf in Sheep's Clothing (Set It Off)
-Everybody Loves a Clown (Gary Lewis & The Playboys)
-New Year's Eve (Mal Blum)
-Pardon Me (He Is We)
-The Way I Loved You (Taylor Swift)
-Broken (lovelytheband)
-Fire On Fire (Sam Smith)
-Burn/First Burn (Hamilton)
-What Do You Know About Love? (Frozen)
-Don't You Want Me (Glee version because shut up) -Sorry I Stole Your Girlfriend (Stereo Skyline)
-From Now On (The Greatest Showman)
-Animal (Neon Trees)
-All I've Ever Known (Hadestown)
-Congratulations (Hamilton, sung by Bridgette maybe?)
-Furniture (Owen Pallett)
-Human (Christina Perri)
-Fight For Me (Heathers)
-Seventeen (Heathers)
-I Won't Say I'm In Love (Hercules)
-Like Real People Do (Hozier)
-The Good In Me (Jon Bellion)
-I Like Me Better When I'm With You (Josh Wall)
-I'm Just Your Problem (Adventure Time)
-Thnks fr th Mmrs (Fall Out Boy)
-Toxic (Britney Spears)
-We're Gonna Be Okay (Cody Francis)
-I Could Say (Lily Allen)
-I've Had Enough (Melina KB)
-A Lovely Night (Ryan Gosling, Emma Stone)
-LOSER (Neoni)
-Love The Way You Lie (Part II) (Rihanna)
-Cruel Summer (Taylor Swift)
-Lay All Your Love On Me (Mama Mia)
-Kids Again (Artist Vs Poet)
-Doctor (Jack Stauber's Micropop)
-Anti-Hero (Taylor Swift)
-Moral of the Story (Ashe)
-Love Love Love (Of Monsters and Men)
-New Light (John Mayer)
-Crash (Neovaii)
-Girl Crush (Little Big Town)
-Still Into You (Paramore)
-interlude IV (Showtime) (Zach Callison, Grace Rolek)
-Love Again (Pentatonix)
-Buzzcut Season (Lorde)
-Small (chloe moriondo)
-Don't Blame Me (Taylor Swift)
-In Fact (Demo Version) (Gregory and the Hawk)
-This Feeling (The Chainsmokers)
-Traitor (Olivia Rodrigo)
-Mine (Taylor Swift)
-Don't Do Sadness (Spring Awakening)
-Crush Culture (Conan Gray)
-I See the Light (Tangled)
-Just a Friend to You (Meghan Trainor)
-Her (Loving You) (Glades)
-School Friends (Now, Now)
-Nothing (Bruno Major)
-Strange Sight (...Tinkerbell)
-Very Good Bad Thing (Mother Mother)
-It Took Me By Surprise (Maria Mena)
-The Zombie Song (Stephanie Mabey)
-Way less Sad (AJR)
-White Rabbit (Jawster)
-Call You Mine (The Chainsmokers)
-Your New Boyfriend (Wilbur Soot)
-Pools (Glass Animals)
I can feel you judging my music taste. Half of these are insanely basic and half are theater kid songs.
Added all the ones that weren’t there!
No judgement at all! I love the majority of this selection lmao but I will say… I’m very disappointed you did not mention Niall Horan with Moral of the Story, or Harry Styles’ cover of girl crush 👀😂
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zacksnydered · 2 years
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Gif Requests
bar fighJust to keep track of what i have in my drafts or in the queue as well as requests i need to work on
@safarigirlsp 
jacques 
dream sequence - done 
black outfit talking with carrouges - done
discussing the allegation with pierre - done
talking about the new castle - queued 
part 2 with jacques
dinner and reading with latin - queued
chainmail before the duel - queued
helen of troy haha - queued
3 different versions of the kiss - queued
talking/flirting scene/margie watching - queued
walking out of the tent looking pretty -queued
flirting with margueritte at the tent - -part 1 posted, part 2 queued
getting captaincy and outdoor dinner - drafted
margueritte’s pov of the kiss and the longing after - queued
outside the castle and pushing in the door - queued
riding before the duel with hair out - queued
watching margueritte and carroughes dance - queued
part 3 with jacques
scene after the trial where he’s outside - queued
kicking ass as a knight - - queued
joust scene of them ramming against each other - - queued
hahaha pierre and jacques bitching about carroughes- posted
jacques taking his cape off and joining sex with pierre lmao  - queued
full shot of the following lines:  “I was born with neither a name nor wealth. I prepared for a life in the church.” And “The requirements did not suit me.”  And the shot of “Let them say that to me.”   - queued
orgy scene of chasing the girl and picking her up- - queued
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=IB9LYBASx-I - queued
The scene where Jacques and Pierre are talking/laughing and carroughes barges in to make a scene - queued
more gifs of him at court - - queued
part 4 with jacques
working at night with pierre behind the desk
quotes
This customer is good and strong. 
Come take some evil inside you.
You ar esaddled with a terrible burden, a cold callous man who does not love you as I do. 
No less sinful than her coveting me.
I am your friend. 
I’m innocent.
A smile and a kind word go much further than a threat. Even if you don't mena it. 
If you run, I'll only chase you. (bedroom scene)
If you run, I'll only chase you. (AFTER PARTY scene)
Nothing prevents a woman from being loved by two men. Or a man from being loved by two women. 
Hear me say I’m in love with you. 
What could we possibly have in common? / Appreciation of one another's extraordinary good looks. 
It’s not my doing. 
The wolves have not slept either. 
Tighter. Tighter. 
Come in. Take your pants off.
They paid because I had to insist.
I've heard all about you from the ladies at court. / They're...they're just boasting. 
I present myself, Jacque Le gris. 
It is I, helen of troy.
Good minds belong together.
They say she is beautiful.
Cheering with drink with a lot of snarky captions.
snl requests
I’m actually very chill monologue. 
Quotes
Baby. 
That’s hot.
Bring that ass here. 
I think we should be together. 
Thank you girls for your honesty. 
Let’s intern.
Crush your enemies! Grind their bones into dirt! Make them regret they were never born!
Aww man! I’m all out of cash!
And now you’ll die like him too!
You stupid stupid kids!
Happy halloween!
That was an awful conversation wejust had!
[popping the baloon and losing it]
Promo Request : Entry and Christmas Tree https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FTsTEc4FGgc
Promo 1 https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iBlL3DIapTQ
Promo 2  Adam with Halsey
https://twitter.com/nbcsnl/status/1221139099563831296?s=21&t=luVuNepuf5ZikbIHDJ_jzg
https://twitter.com/nbcsnl/status/1221139099563831296?s=21&t=ysa1l7iKT0NGCrUFUrQjPA
https://driverdaily.tumblr.com/post/190460984303/adam-will-be-hosting-snl-tonight-via-nbcsnl
other
burberry show entry https://driverdaily.tumblr.com/post/678582476600442880/adam-driver-arriving-at-the-burberry-autumnwinter
https://driverdaily.tumblr.com/post/634924216698929152/adam-driver-makes-an-appearance-on-last-week john oliver appearance
john oliver appearance quotes
explore the fucking space 
i hated this. goodbye.
colbert https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1miD-AWtXqk
brand new requests
adam driver in superbowl bts - updated - drafted
adam driver in superbowl - updated - drafted
adam driver after the superbowl - updated - drafted
flip shooting the pistol, walking around pretty 
flip shooting the rifle and taking the coat off
SNL Kylo with a beard - drafted
clyde walking into the kitchen looking big and pretty
Visiting Joe bang in jail. Please also include the gif of “people say that?”
annette requests
jumping rope and shadowboxing
stomping around in his robe, being aggressive, looking hot and angry and crazy
tipping his motorcycle over and staggering around being an idiot
club scene 1
club scene walking up to the rials and straightens up all slithery
dancing in the vest in the pink light 
ass flashing scene lol
annette nsfw
first sex scene
two singing into vagina scenes
bedroom scene where he’s awake and walking around touching her belly
house of gucci
Gucci funny quotes, 2 sets - with text please
Gaga- you seem too nice to be a lawyer
Gucci Library Lawyer -there are a few good ones
Jeremy irons glaring at gucci/patrizia during lunch
Al Pacino- Your son is a smart lawyer. My son is an idiot. But he’s my idiot.
Al Pacino- you should reconsider your wardrobe choices
Jared Leto- it’s chic (his velvet suit)
Jared Leto - I am bursting with creativity
Jared Leto- you deliberately hurt my feelings
Gucci- it’s like cake. Once have a taste, you want more, then you want the whole thing
Jeremy irons- you have ideas?
Jared Leto- he’s blind in one eye and deaf in the other
Jeremy irons- you have achieved a triumph of mediocrity
Lady Gaga- bravo!
Jared Leto - I want to soar, like a pigeon
Jared Leto- Why?!?
Gucci running away from cops at his house on his motorcycle in the shearling jacket
Gaga - I don’t consider myself a particularly ethical person, but I am fair.
Gucci- Don’t call me a cretin
Gaga- Our name sweetie
Gaga - don’t miss (to assassins)
persuasion
a few specific quotes :)) 
@queeniebee​
jacques
confessing to marguerite - queued
barging into marguerite’s room - queued
courtroom scene with the swishy cape :D  - queued
church scene
others
SNL - slow song - queued
Ketchup skit.
snl end https://twitter.com/nbcsnl/status/1221323251210768384?s=21&t=l58BUf7Tgr1TS_B3q5A2_A
B&W snl scene
https://driverdaily.tumblr.com/post/190124045885/a-message-from-aitaf-founder-adam-driver-via aitaf scene
https://twitter.com/bafta/status/1224036536305537024?s=21&t=xMM8hoTfSBh85HGsaHOdcA BAFTAS
THE WINK https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zTC9WPmzgYM
https://www.reddit.com/r/adamdriver/comments/ejp8us/the_wink_on_youtube/
phillip
-Running through the graveyard & mommy scene
-Kissing the redhead when she shows up & dancing with the blonde girl at the party like a slut lol
-Lifting up Tina fey and carrying her off
-Tina fey pinching his boob and then him wrestling their brother.
randy
the meyerowitz movie scene
flip
getting bitched at and sitting sassily haha 
clyde
Mixing drinks
part 2 with jacques
scenes with him with the hat and kissing the horse and others - drafted
scene hunting with pierre - drafted
him on the white hourse - drafted
more from the different povs at the castle with marguerite - drafted
the sex hair - drafted
annette 
romantic shots of the helmet kiss to carrying her in the bedroom and laying her down before the sex startsh 
shower scene 
lol taking care of the baby shirtless
being a weirdo coming out of the shower with the hood on
blowing a kiss at baby anette
acting like a puppet and then kneels at her feet and hugs anne
stripping his shirt off and getting ready for bed
gucci
Sex scene starting when they start making out, then he picks her up etc.
Bathtub scene
Soccer game scene starting with Gucci hiding behind Patrizia and then taking jacket off
@lumberjack00fantasies 
jacques 
muddy during the first battle - queued
dinner scene with carroughes - queued
the lunging scene - queued
shorter hair and in armor meeting pierre
flip
talking to ron - queued in several parts
first meeting - queued
coming back from undercover - queued
undercover with a wire - queued
tan coat and having a beer - queued
tan coat and smoking u.u - queued
and one where he was raising his hand - posted
others
super bowl ad - queued
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1miD-AWtXqk colbert - no text necessary
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=A4UmrRFAJiw - awards interview
brand new requests
flip blue flannel
flip in the truck at dark
flip yelling, manhandling, being aggressive
Leaning against the truck and then walking around with BDE
Clyde storming out of the bar and setting the truck on fire
Clyde leaning against the fence after setting shit on fire lol. Then pushing through the group of idiots to yell at Jimmy
annette
dancing on the ship 
being aggressive and killing the conductor ( especially where he knocks the conductor out of the chair and yanks up from the ground and manhandles )
@redheadedjetsetter​
clyde
Clyde walking around after being released from jail and if there’s not a lot there, any of the gifs of him in court would be great toop
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don quixote
Hotel room scene  - safarigirlsp
Slapping, dancing, kissing scene - safarigirlsp
Where he’s freaking out and looking over the balcony being hot lol queeniebee 
Hugging and Spinning with the girl (I forgot her name lol) @queeniebee 
Kissing the girl and then the sheep 🤣
Dancing and spinning and flirting with the intern @queeniebee  
Reaction gifs lol @queeniebee 
By the pond helping the girl out on her jack and flirting and whatever else you think looks good! @queeniebee (sent 10)
Leather jacket scenes from the special features @lumberjack00fantasies (I actually haven’t seen this, so if you can’t do it, no worries!)
the witch
“I am that very witch” -safarigirlsp
“Wouldst thou like to live deliciously?”  -safarigirlsp
Silence
Boat ride - queeniebee
Emo parting ways and hugging
Starving with good hair
Whatever is going on in these pretty firelight scenes
When it rains it pours 🤣
new requests
kylo ren beginning of tros
house of wax quotes
john wick 3 horse scene
australia gifsets
shirtless and being a smartass
bar fight scene
making out in the rain and sexy scene
the teaching foxtrot dance scene
riding shots
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foli-vora · 3 years
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more than words, pt.6
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A/N: Surprise! Thank you all for your patience—I’m sorry it’s taken so long! It wasn’t meant to, but life kept getting in the way (as it does) and then there was family crap to do over Easter lmao. I hope you enjoy the new chapter! There’s so bloody many of you beautiful angels on the tag list now and I’m so scared about leaving someone out! If I’ve missed you, please let me know and I’m sorry! I’m constantly blown away by everyone’s love for my little story—thank you so much! It makes me cry a minimum of 23 times a day.
Pairing: Francisco “Catfish” Morales x f!reader, bestfriend!Benny Miller x f!reader
Word count: 3.1k
Warnings: smut (18+), oral sex (f receiving), unprotected p in v sex, creampie, swearing, brief mention of alcohol, storm clouds gathering on the horizon
pt.1 / pt.2 / pt.3 / pt.4 / pt.5
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It’s hard not to giggle drowsily as rough fingertips trace over your ribs, arms quickly winding around your torso as you try to squirm away, and pull you back into a bare chest. Frankie chuckles lowly in your ear, lips pressing softly to your temple as your chest grows with warmth, stomach flipping from the wave of bliss that flows through you.
He relinquishes his hold for just a second as you turn, smiling lazily up at him as the warm morning sun shines through the gaps in his blinds and paints soft lines across his features. His smile grows as you lightly trace along his jaw, turning his head slightly to kiss your fingers.
“Good morning,” you murmur sleepily, wiggling further into his arms.
“Yeah, it is.” He replies quietly, lightly tracing along your spine, and you can hear the smile in his voice.
You press your lips against the hollow of his throat, nose running along the warm skin as his Adams apple bobs when he swallows. His arms tighten around you, and you can’t help the content sigh that leaves you as your eyes are lulled closed again by his comforting embrace and steady breathing in your ear. His fingers resume their dancing across the skin of your back, and you squirm when he goes just a little too close to your sides.
“You’re very ticklish.” He mutters quietly, and you don’t miss the mischievous tone in his voice.
“Don’t even think—”
Squealing sharply as his fingers dig into your sides, you try to wiggle out of his hold and laugh into his chest when he just drags you right back to him. You blink in surprise when you’re suddenly rolled onto your back, smiling widely up at him as he hovers above you.
“Good morning,” he grins, pressing a soft kiss to your nose.
“Yeah, it is.” You cheekily return his words, grinding softly against the solid mass you feel digging into your thigh. He hums lowly as he moves to your lips, dragging his hips along yours and chuckling when you whine into his mouth. “What time does Mena—”
“We’ve got time.” He all but growls after quickly looking at his alarm clock, head quickly moving from yours and disappearing under the sheets with a quiet ruffle.
You laugh quietly, poking at the lump under the sheets that moves down your body with a grin. Fingers dance along your sides again and you shriek in surprise, thrashing lightly under his touch, “Francisco!”
His chuckle is muffled against your skin, arousal settling low in your core when his lips suddenly trail teasingly along your hip. He gently squeezes himself between your thighs, pressing kiss and after soft kiss along the insides of your thighs.
“Fran—oh.”
His tongue is hot when it slides between your folds and your eyes flutter closed as you sink into the pillows. Fingers gently spread you, and then lips are suddenly encasing your clit, a whimper falling from your lips as you buck into his mouth.
He’s too fucking good at this—
His mouth plucks any remaining thoughts straight from your head as you turn to mush, body melting into the mattress as his tongue works relentless strokes against your clit, fingers swiping through the slick quickly gathering at your entrance and gently easing one, then two, inside you, curling deep against your walls and hitting the spot that had your back immediately arching.
“Fuck—”
You can’t help but grind against his hand, Frankie groaning in approval when you slowly start to fuck yourself on his fingers and rub your clit needily against his mouth. He lets you set the pace and take what you need, more than content to just lay and let you move against him.
Your climax builds gradually, the heat burning through your body and settling lowly and tightening the coil in your stomach slowly, but he doesn’t complain, doesn’t pull away like previous impatient partners. He welcomes the pace, enjoys the leisurely drag of your hips against his mouth for as long as you need, and moans quietly into your pussy, grinding his hard cock against the mattress to ease the borderline painful throbbing.
His hair is soft between your fingers when you wind them through it, and tug just how he likes, his groan in response vibrating against you in just the right way to push you up and over the edge.
You can’t help but cry out when the coil snaps and heat suddenly shoots through you, toes curling painfully against each other as your thighs tremble in his hold. He doesn’t let up when you cum, tongue moving to greedily lap your entrance and then back to your clit as he pins your hips to the bed.
It’s too fucking much.
“Frankie—fuck, stop—”
He does immediately, and you breathe in relief, flinging the sheets aside and meeting his hungry gaze the second his head is revealed. His eyes are dark as he blinks up at you from where his head rests against your thigh, a whimper falling weakly from your lips when he gently removes his fingers from you. Your stomach flips when he sticks them in his mouth, and you pull at his hair impatiently, moaning when his wet lips attach to yours, the taste of you flooding your mouth when his tongue pushes past your lips and slides along your own.
His cock feels heavy against your thigh and you eagerly reach for it, quickly lining him up at your entrance and whining when he slowly pushes into you.
He could get used to this.
You were hot around him, pussy still fluttering from your orgasm, and he has to take a second to calm the sudden urge to cum then and there. You shift your hips impatiently against his, nuzzling into his hair as he buries his head into the curve of your shoulder with a shudder.
“Go baby—”
“I’m gon—”
“It’s okay, give it to me.”
He groans into your skin, pulling his hips back and then slamming forward, thrusts sloppy and eager as he chases his release. You praise him quietly, muttering sweet nothings into his ear as he climbs higher and higher until he trembles in your arms, teeth digging into your shoulder to muffle his cry as his cock twitches and empties inside your pussy.
He stays on top of you, chest heaving as he tries to catch his breath, and you card your fingers through his curls softly as he comes down.
“Fuck.” He pants, kissing his way to your lips before carefully pulling out of you and rolling to the side, dropping beside you with a lazy sigh. You bask in the comfortable quiet that settles over his bedroom, rolling into his side when his hand blindly reaches for you.
A small noise sounds from the baby monitor next to the bed and he huffs a breathless chuckle as he looks at it. “Perfect timing.”
You giggle into his chest, stealing one last greedy kiss before rolling from the bed to start getting dressed.
“She’s not awake yet, but she’s getting there. We have time for a quick shower, if you want to join me?”
You grin at him, dropping the clothes in your hands and crawling over him, kissing him softly. “How could I refuse?”
He hums against your lips, “If you want to make it to the shower, I suggest you move before I throw that idea right out the fucking window and keep you here.”
You laugh as he gently moves out from under you, playfully swatting his ass as he walks away.
His shower is small, but you both make do as you take turns under the warm spray of water and wash. It’s not long until your lips are moving desperately against his, your back arching as it meets the cold tiles.
A noise, that sounds distinctively like an impatient ‘papa’, echoes from the baby monitor on the bathroom counter and Frankie chuckles into your smile.
“That’s my cue. Stay here—take as long as you need. We’ll be in the kitchen.”
And then he’s stepping out after a final kiss, wrapping a towel around his waist and slipping from the bathroom altogether, leaving you to relax and enjoy the hot water alone. Nerves suddenly blossom in your stomach as the sound of giggles echo through the house, and you find yourself rewashing to prolong the inevitable.
What if she doesn’t like you?
Toddlers can be tricky, and if she didn’t like you, then that would kind of kill whatever you had going with Frankie. Who would stay with someone who their kid doesn’t like?
You shut the shower off before you can really work yourself into an anxious mess and slink back to Frankie’s room, smiling when you hear him cooing to Mena in the kitchen. Dressing felt like you were about to have a fucking job interview, and you find yourself pulling at your clothes in his full-length mirror, frowning at your jeans and casual top.
She’s one, for fuck’s sake. She’s not going to notice what you’re wearing—
Shaking your head, you take a deep breath and leave the comfort of his room, following the sounds of childish little giggles. Frankie hears you coming, and smiles softly at you in reassurance as he turns.
“Mena, Ésta es mi amiga,” he says softly, bouncing a beautiful little girl on his hip. She blinks curiously at you, soul crushing eyes that match Frankie’s in depth and shade rolling over your frame before a small frown pinches her brows.
Her little face twists, lips pursing into a small pout and for a brief second, you’re terrified she’s going to cry… but then she smiles, dimple denting her chubby little cheek, and you feel yourself sigh quietly in relief. Thank fuck—
You grin at her, wiggling your fingers in a playful wave and she giggles quietly, turning to bury her face in Frankie’s shoulder as he laughs quietly.
“You’re never shy, princesa,” he murmurs against her forehead, fingers dancing softly along her sides. “Is the pretty lady scary?”
You scowl light-heartedly at him, “Hey.”
Mena giggles again, peeking at you through her fingers before she’s squirming in his grasp and running to her toys when Frankie puts her down. She calls after you with a playful babble, hands clapping impatiently when you take a little longer than she likes.
Frankie joins you on the floor as Mena bustles about, sitting dutifully still when she tries to balance a tiara on his head and accepting an empty play plate with a hum of appreciation as she all but falls in your lap, and watches him pretend-eat expectantly.
She lets you brush her bed fluffed hair with her princess comb and stays still as you tie her little curls into pigtails, giggling when Frankie starts poking her about never sitting this still for him.
It feels like home, you realise with a startle as Frankie starts on breakfast. Like you had always been here, always with them both, fitting perfectly into their little morning routine like the spot had always been there waiting for you.
Mena stays curled up in your lap the entire time Frankie cooks, bringing out book after book, and playing with the necklace around your neck as you read the stories quietly to her. You feel Frankie watching every now and then, and try to steady your rapid heartbeat each time you meet his gaze with a small smile.
Music’s playing softly in the kitchen when you go to see if he needs help with anything, Mena following curiously behind you and dragging an absurdly large soft toy behind her.
“I could get used to this.” You murmur as Frankie flips something on the stove, singing quietly along to the song playfully from the radio.
He grins at you from over his shoulder, “I hope so.”
Your stomach flips as your gaze falls to the floor shyly, smile widening across your face. He slides the food onto the waiting plates and sidles up to you after discarding the frying pan, arms winding around your waist.
He feels like an idiot, but can’t help the words as they tumble clumsily from his lips. “You make me very happy.”
Fuck. Understatement of the century.
Your eyes shine when they flicker up to meet his, your heart hammering heavily against your chest. “You make me very happy, too.”
He melts on the spot instantly, diving in for a kiss without another thought.
“Well, isn’t this cosy.”
“Cutest shit I’ve ever fuckin’ seen.”
You both startle, eyes flashing to the three men sauntering into the kitchen. Frankie’s face morphs first—his eyes narrowing at his friends as his jaw works in frustration, Mena squealing in excitement in the background at the sudden appearance of her favourite people. You, on the other hand, smile in welcome, grinning at Benny’s suggestive brow wiggle. He swipes you up into an immediate hug, fingers snatching food from your plate before you even realise his ulterior motives.
It surprises you when Santiago hugs you as well, making a cheeky comment about you still being able to walk as he helps himself to the fridge, and you flush with a flood of hot embarrassment as Benny snorts out a laugh from beside you.
Frankie stops Will from passing him, a frown burrowing between his brows. “I expect this from those two, but you? I expect better of you.”
Will nods in quiet understanding, lips twitching into a small grin. “That’s fair.”
It’s not the train wreck Frankie expects it will be.
Sure, there was teasing—more than he could keep with, in fact, but you jump in whenever he struggles with his snappy retorts, more than willing to take the brunt of both Pope and Benny’s relentless teasing, and it had his heart hammering in his chest to see everyone so at peace, so comfortable in each other’s presence... you just thrown in the mix like you were always meant to be there.
Mena gets swept away with her uncles, more than content to be showered with constant praise and attention, moving between each man with her toys until she eventually falls asleep in Will’s arms, little face pressed up against his neck as she snores lightly.
It’s nice to be accepted so quickly, so easily, by not only Frankie’s friends, but Benny’s, too. Watching them be together, picking shit on each other and laughing in the small dining room, was heart-warming. They really were family, and as Benny pulls out the chair between him and Frankie, you feel completely at peace between your two favourite men.
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Mena’s laugh is contagious as she swings higher and higher, Frankie chuckling lowly as he pushes her, watching you jump back and forth in front of the swing and make a playful grab for the little feet that kick at you.
The park is empty, save for the three of you, and you bask in the suns soft, warm rays as it beams down on you. Your phone vibrates in your pocket and you step away with a smile directed at Frankie, humming a quiet greeting after your thumb slides across the screen.
“Let’s get lunch—I want tacos.” Benny’s voice floods your ear without so much as a hi and you snort.
“Hello Benjamin. I can’t—I’m at the park with Frankie and Mena.” You laugh quietly as you watch them play, Frankie growling as he ducks and dives through the playground after the squealing toddler.
You hear the pout in his voice when he speaks again. “Well, bring them, too—”
“We’ve got a picnic.”
“Oh okay, I see how it is—rude bitch.”
“Excuse you, asshole,” you smile, shaking your head when he laughs loudly in your ear, “I’ll call you later?”
“Yeah, you better. Enjoy your shitty picnic, bitch. And you owe me tacos.”
“I don’t owe you shit, Miller.”
He’s gone before you can even breathe a goodbye, and you roll your eyes as you return to the pair going down the slide, laughing when Frankie has to shuffle his hips to fit down. Mena slides right into your arms and giggles when you spin, little hands grabbing your jacket as she snuggles into your chest.
The day flies by with more laughter and toddler snuggles than you can count, and it’s not long until Frankie’s trying to pry her greedy little fingers from your t-shirt after she passes out in your arms after her bedtime story. You follow Frankie to her bedroom, smiling as you watch him carefully manoeuvre her into her cot after kissing her gently on the forehead.
He really did glow around her, and you feel your adoration for him triple as he carefully steps back towards you, quietly pulling her door closed.
Frankie reads the emotion washing across your face and kisses you softly, heart thundering in his chest as your lips move sweetly against his own.
Lost in Frankie’s soft affections as you both stumble blindly to his room, you don’t end up calling Benny back, and you miss his call the next morning, too wrapped up in the hands that greedily grab at your body in the soft morning light.
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There’s a chill in the bar, bought in from the patrons desperate to escape the relentless rain pounding against the windows. Benny watches them all rush in, laughing as they shake the water from their jackets and move to their tables.
“Just you tonight?”
His bright eyes find the waitress placing the beers on the table, and he shrugs quietly, gaze falling back out to the dark parking lot where his truck sits alone at the far end. “Looks that way.”
She senses his reluctance for conversation and slinks away from the table, moving to take other orders.
He sighs heavily, thumb brushing over his phone screen as he scrolls through the many bubbles of his texts, stacking one on top of the other, all unbroken by a reply. Not even one—not even a call. It’s fucking Wednesday.
Where the fuck were you? It wasn’t like you to just not show. Were you okay?
But then he checks your Instagram, sees a picture of you snuggled under a blanket with a movie playing in the background, a pair of long legs stretched out next to yours with a sappy little text in the corner—‘movie nights with him
The relief he feels is short lived.
So you were okay—you were just ignoring him.
He throws cash on the table next to the untouched beer and pizza as he stands, shrugging his jacket on and shoving his phone into his back pocket. He slams the bar door a little harder than necessary after he walks through it, too angry to even flinch at the cold rain that saturates him as he strides to his truck.
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Hey I'm new to your blog and I love it!! I'm just confused though... Who exactly do you ship from atla? I've been looking through your posts off and on today and there are some posts for example where it seems like you do like kataang and then older posts make it seem like you don't? Also I have no clue what Litara is?? Thanks 😊
so i have mixed feelings on katara/aang. i know there are people who dislike it because katara is like “a mom” to aang, but that simply isn’t true. they are both kids, and that’s the reason why they’re initially drawn to each other (see: going penguin sledding). to say that katara treats aang like a son is some bullshit, and a fundamental misinterpretation of katara’s character. they are the most important person in each other’s lives, and they are best friends. what i dislike about the way their dynamic is portrayed, though, is the episodes which explore their romance (not all of them! just some of them). these episodes feel cliched and tired, employing lazy shorthand to indicate that they’re “meant for each other.” 
romance was never one of atla’s strongsuits. i would even go as far as to say it’s their weakest link, writing-wise. in a show that otherwise excels in writing three-dimensional characters, where romance is concerned, the writing falls flat. i think sokka and suki work really well together, but even then, suki obviously isn’t explored to the same degree as the rest of the gaang. i love sokka and yue’s tragic romance (because even i can be a little bitchbaby sometimes), but their buildup is definitely underdeveloped. mai and zuko getting back together at the end of the show is completely nonsensical, because zuko has done nothing to prove that he won’t continue to be a shitty boyfriend to mai, and mai deserves better. (and don’t even get me started on that lok love triangle.) 
we talk a lot about how atla (and lok!!!) is a show created by two whites, and the intense insensitivity of its portrayal of the tibetan genocide, the way in which its lore draws so heavily on hindu theology & philosophy and yet their one south asian character is a caricature, the way sandbenders are a racist caricature of mena ppl, using the name lake laogai, mispronouncing/misspelling asian names, i could go on... but i just remembered that’s not the point of this post. lmao. anyway. atla is also a show created by two men. and while i genuinely believe that katara is one of, if not the best, teenage girl characters ever portrayed on tv, there are definite flaws, as well as assumptions made, where romance is concerned. 
for example, the fact that people thought katara was in a “love triangle” with aang and zuko is absurd. i mean, i can see why people thought that. i’ve read the powerpoints about why zuko and katara should have “ended up together” because they’re like romeo & juliet or whatever (you know, how romeo terrorized juliet for most of the play and juliet hated him? we all remember that, right??), and i get why there’s an appeal. but it’s not a love triangle, because zuko was never a contender. but people still wanted to treat katara as if she was a prize to be won, and let the best man win. which is deeply sexist, plain n simple. 
audiences are romance-obsessed due to society & the media’s constant insistence that romance is the only way for a woman to find personal fulfillment (watch crazy ex girlfriend all seasons streaming now on netflix). i reject the idea that katara had to “end up” with someone by the end of the show, and not only “end up,” but “stay with together forever, marry, and have three kids with.” katara is fourteen. aang is twelve. yes they have crushes on each other, and love each other deeply, but they are kids. romance isn’t necessary. 
the love katara and aang have for each other is a fundamental pillar of the show, and their love for each other is deep and poignant. up until the moment lazy shorthand is employed to indicate that their feelings are romantic. they’re still cute, but these moments are cliched as all hell, and the thing about romance cliches is that romantic cliches promote sexism. whoops! 
the original character of li (invented by me, chell, julie klausner, and inspired by my friend’s ex-boyfriend who is the most amenable and polite man i have probably ever met) is, in essence, a thought experiment in which we provide katara the perfect man whose entire life revolves around happily attending to her needs. if she wants to spend all her time in the south pole because that is where her family and her tribe is and also she is chief which is kind of a hands-on job, actually, he will gladly move there for her. one of his side hobbies is that he is a masterclass chef, and so he cooks every meal for her. whenever katara has to deal with a bunch of particularly stubborn idiots that day, he just sits there and listens to her rant, never interjecting with his own opinions. his baggage never gets in the way of her baggage, because he is his therapist’s best patient. it’s heterosexual rights! 
at risk of explaining the joke, basically, he is what bryke (and gene yang–ugh) think katara would be for aang......which obviously isn’t in line with what aang as a character would want for katara, but she was never confirmed to be the chief of the swt either, and that’s fucked up! katara is a character with so much agency, but to make her the love interest for the protagonist, regardless of how wonderful said protagonist is, and how much he adores and supports her (which, to be clear, he absolutely does!), strips her of some of that agency by virtue of being a female character written by men. i love katara and aang, and i love the love they have for each other. but ideally, to me at least, the show would have ended on their hug, not their kiss. a romance between them can be implied, but it would have been more open-ended. because romance isn’t necessary, not when you’re in middle school, and frankly, not ever. 
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「natalia dyer & demi girl」⇾ carmichael, philomena, the junior radcliffe student’s records show that she/they are a taurus and 20 years old. she/they are studying wildlife science, living in noland and can be whimsical, patient, apathetic & unpredictable. when i see her/them i am reminded of the gentleness of decomposition, dancing naked around the flames, and whipping wind in your hair. ⇽「james & 21 & est & they/them.」
here’s my second !! baby child i love a lot ... much kinder ... a bit odd .. love of my life ... a classic ... a favorite ..
TW CANCER, TRAUMA, DEPERSONALIZATION / DEREALIZATION DISORDER ( ALT. DISSOCIATION ), DEATH, DECAY, MAGGOTS.
aesthetic.
wildflowers in your hair and bare feet against moss, binoculars and maps, madonna beating out of half-dead speakers in a half-dead van, whipping wind, jumping off cliffs and rolling down hills, a bandaid wrapped around each finger, cryptic bumper stickers and cryptids in the woods, facing the sun and letting the rays hit you, counting stars late into the night, dancing naked in the woods with nothing but fire to light your way, mismatched socks and lucky ribbons, hoarding a box of special treasures, shoplifting and diner-dashing, bleach against roots, pink sweaters paired with ripped fishnets and slip dresses with knock off uggs, willingly wearing crocs, glitter stickers, fungi and feeling one with them, lying down and decomposing, they’ll find us in a week. they’ll find us in a week.
basic info.
full name: philomena brontë carmichael
nickname(s): philly, phil, mena, etc.
b.o.d. - april 20th lmao !!
label(s): the amaranth, the halycon, the neophyte, the wanderer, etc. etc.
height: 5′4″
hometown: woodside, ca
sexuality: demisexual !!!!
pinterest ( & her family pinterest b/c they’re my most developed family uwu)
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inspired by: luna lovegood (harry potter), orla mccool (derry girls), cassie ainsworth (skins), alice (alice’s adventures in wonderland), amelie (amelie).
biography.
a middle child belonging to christopher and imogen carmichael - two stanford professors. christopher specialized in british literature whilst imogen specialized in the classics. hence the name.
the order of siblings goes as such: lysander, elektra, juno, philomena, and twins orion & valora. the deal was that everybody had a greek (or in juno’s case, roman) first name and a middle name inspired by a piece of british literature circa 1800s and under. a family of nerds, if you will.
so, clearly - right off the bat, their parents are … eccentric. they’re both in love with their respected topic, and with each other, and with their kids. the carmichael family is a happy family.
they each have their own quirks and whatnot - though philly’s always been particularly dreamy - even as a child, she’d spend hours watching clouds or caterpillars or the leaves blow in the wind rather than play with other kids. she wasn’t a shy kid - she just had her own interests.
hardship doesn’t hit the family until philomena is five and starts having splitting headaches. they’re slow at first - but as soon as she’s seeing spots and unable to walk in a straight line, doctor appointments are made.
it doesn’t take long for them to discover the tumor, though the official diagnosis of malignant ependymoma comes a month later.
it’s grade ii but slow-moving, small enough to not be as much of a threat as worried, but big enough where removal is necessary. philomena earns a scar and brings it in for show-and-tell. for two months afterwards, philly’s at radiotherapy monday through friday.
they’re lucky - philomena’s considered cancer-free by the next year. she’s babied at first - handled delicately, as if she could break if touched - but with five other children … it doesn’t last for too long.
and life continues as normal.
her personality doesn’t shift much over the next few years - she’s awfully independent for a kid, and awfully quiet - when she speaks it’s about faeries and bigfoot, about how the sky is so blue and if you listen quietly, you can hear the leaves whisper their secrets to each other. this is not odd.
she’s close to all her siblings, but she idolizes her older sister - elektra. elektra’s six years older and dyes her hair whatever colors she wants. elektra bought a knife off a seedy guy downtown. elektra threw away all of her heels and renounced god. elektra is god. her music is loud but it’s not heavy - it’s florence and the machine.
they’re opposites - elektra’s boisterous and feels loudly, philomena’s softer and feels…less. when elektra sneaks out, philomena keeps watch. they are a duo.
philomena is smart - but she’s fifteen and hates school. hates sitting inside all day. hates the same routine - day after day - it’s all the same. her parents’ routine is the same, philly feels contained and she wants to live.
elektra’s twenty-one and just bought a brand new spanking (used but not falling apart) 19-something volkswagen … van - using her entire savings account. she says she’s tired of routine, she’s leaving the next day.
naturally, philomena stows away in the back and isn’t discovered until they’re two states away and she’s got to pee. elektra nearly crashes the van in shock.
it’s an argument - philomena vs. elektra, then them vs. their parents, then their parents vs. the school, the state - it’s an ordeal. philomena switches to an online program in the end.
it hurts christopher and imogen - lysander’s not having any of their nonsense, juno’s betrayed and alone - the twins are twins. in the end, it’s alright. the carmichael family is a happy family.
philomena and elektra take their time - it’s not a road trip, it’s their new life, permanently on the road. they stop and explore often - they do odd jobs in whatever town they settle in. they dine-n-dash, they shoplift. they survive in their own way.
during particularly desperate times, they two resorted to identity theft & credit fraud - getting away with it only by ditching the cards once they’ve made it out of state.
she drops out of high school officially when she’s seventeen - they have to drive all the way back to california to deal with the wrath of their parents and to deal with paperwork, but it’s done. philomena doesn’t know what path she wants in life - but it’s not that.
it’s during this time that the episodes occur - philomena’s outside her body, philomena’s wrapped in cotton, her memories are not her own. she’s looking in the mirror and she doesn’t recognize herself. they take shelter in a city for six months, long enough for her brand spankin’ new therapist to figure out what’s wrong with her. she’s diagnosed with depersonalization / derealization disorder - they think it’s stress. philomena doesn’t get stressed. they think it’s trauma. she laughs - she never laughs.
there is trauma though, deep-rooted but somewhere inside - you just have to look for it.
you. just. have. to. look. for. it. look for it. look for it. look for it look for it look -
you were ten and she was thirteen, an off-trail hike in familiar woods in a familiar town, safe and familiar. it was your idea, to stray from the carved out paths, down creeks and up hills and round, and round again. you’re the one who spotted the scarf first, sticking up from the dirt and dancing in the wind like the beginning of reincarnation. it was not reincarnation, it was discovery. it was ruin. with curiosity drawn, you skidded down - with compliance, followed juno, followed your sister - clumsy in her steps and tumbling down quicker than you. you saw the corpse, but juno felt it. decaying flesh and maggot.
and she left juno, just like that - just five years later, when juno had finally gone to the end of her wits. philly up and left. abandoned her.
philomena and elektra leave the city after that therapy session. they do not return. she’s always been good at hiding her secrets.
three years later and her parents want philly to have a higher education - desperate for it, really - worried for her future. it’s a battle that she loses, getting her GED and applying to a local college in florida in shameful compliance.
they’re there for a year until philly gets (expectantly) expelled from the community college & the two of them are banned from the town they’d residing in up until that point. they don’t talk about it - but boy, was it one hell of a time.
they found refuge in lovell, a town that seemed to suit them well - it suited elektra’s desire to travel up and down the east coast, and it intrigued philomena enough to the point of her being content with staying. soon after, philly officially transferred to radcliffe for the fall semester & they’ve been here since!
UPDATE: another summer update! very simple ... she n elektra traveled the states again, as they always do ... like clockwork. had to be dragged back to radcliffe (doesn’t like staying in one place for too long) bt also <3 likes a lot of people here n brought them all souvenirs. it ws very nice! nothing bad.
personality.
she’s quiet but she’s confident - her voice sounds like rustling leaves, if leaves smoked a pack of cigarettes a day.
often underestimated - philly’s petite and looks like she’d fall over if a plastic bag blew too close to her. she’s independent - for the most part. elektra is the only person philly takes orders from.
has always been considered odd - weird, strange. still talks about the trees as if they’re listening, as if they’re old friends. she’s vague and doesn’t elaborate on the things she says.
believes in pretty much any superstition you throw her way. luck is very important to her. if you ask her if the earth is flat, she’ll say probably. believes strongly in bigfoot and the lochness monster. has personally seen aliens, and loves ghosts almost more than herself.
she can be amusing - whether you ‘get’ her or not, her outlook is often bright - she talks about the negatives the same way she talks about the positives. can be seen as naive or gullible, but she’s plenty smart. even if half of her education has come directly from google.
philly doesn’t laugh. a smile, yes - often, in fact - not always reaching her ears, or bearing teeth - but these are not indicators of her happiness. philly is consistently content. she thinks many things are funny - she still will not laugh.
her voice is often monotonous - she doesn’t sound dreary, she sounds far-away. her voice carries. her emotions are often unknown to others.
is apathetic in most situations. she’s hard to bother - she’s incredibly patient and enjoys the company of most - tolerates them at the very least. it’s hard for her to express her emotions, because she feels them so little that it’s very nearly not worth it. her affection is not verbal - it’s small touches and gestures of kindness, love in her own way.
is a fan of knock-knock jokes and bad puns. she won’t crack a smile while telling you them, nor does she expect you to laugh. she just enjoys them.
she owns a motorola razr covered in puffy stickers - hasn’t ever had a smartphone. she’s a fan of emoticons. her favorite is :o)
has a lot of bruises and scratches and scars - she’s often getting herself into pickles. there are always, at the very minimum, three bandaids on each hand.
she has insomnia, so she’s awake often. is often seen wandering town - even when she shouldn’t be, even when it might be dangerous. her intuition is delayed. when she does sleep - her dreams are vivid and fantastical.
keeps a box of memories - sentimental bits and pieces she’s picked up over the last few years. there are a lot of buttons and postcards, but any teeny tiny object will do.
her style changes every week - most, if not all, of her clothes are thrifted. one week she’s baby spice and the next she’s lydia deetz. she combines pieces from different styles often - she looks like a barbie clothed by a child. she feels most comfortable like this.
will either patch-up the clothes that get too worn or reuse them in some way. sometimes donates the clothes she gets tired off - isn’t minimalistic, but she’s learned to keep only a small amount of possessions.
the only consistency is her lucky ribbon - it’s pastel yellow and silky and as thin as a shoelace. she ties it onto her outfit of the day, everyday. if she loses it, she’s lost. elektra has a matching ribbon.
has no problem with minor theft - she only takes bare minimum, puts herself and elektra first and that’s how it’s always been. she tries to be good while in lovell / radcliffe - would hate to be forced out by mobs with torches and pitchforks
currently living in noland while elektra stays in their van, florence - sometimes philly stays there during the weekends.
they used to live in motels on the occasion, the cheapest room, and more often than not they’d both go home with strangers for a comfier bed and a hotter shower.
it was a common occurrence - she didn’t sleep with them - but somehow, she weaseled her way into their homes anyway. has come out mostly unscathed, on most occasions. this has been a practice ever since they’ve been on the road.
really, truly - has not slept with anybody, had her first and only kiss at thirteen with a frog. this doesn’t bother her.
will consume a n y t h i n g you put in front of her - isn’t picky.
listens to whatever they’ve picked up along the way but she likes instrumentals the best. her second favorite genre is 1990′s and 2000′s top hits. they’re nostalgic for her. third favorites? florence, of course. fleetwood mac. the bird and the bee.
loves storms - will go out in the rain and will risk her life for it.
owns a pair of roller-skates and is often skating rather than walking. unless she’s on grass - then she’s walking barefoot.
has many hobbies, and gets bored of them often. her favorite hobby is welding. she’s not certified.
also, juggling.
also, accordion.
the kind of girl who’ll do any job you give her. odd jobs are her favorite jobs. babysitting is her least favorite - but she does it anyway. has lost children before. have they ever been found? not by philly.
dyes her hair blonde often and cuts her own hair - bangs included - finds it cathartic, likes the itchiness of bleach.
everything she does is often in pursuit of feeling free, alive, and meaningful.
( like her frequent visits to the woods, late at night when the moon is high and full. it’s freeing to dance around a fire, stark naked in the cold. builds immunity )
comes and goes wherever she pleases, nothing & nobody can stop her (besides elektra). has befriended the campus witch, or as much as the witch will allow, and shrike as well. she knows to respect nature, and abandoned sites - she’s practically free to explore as she wishes, her only pride is the trust she’s gained.
the trust expands to animals as well, she has a certain knack for getting them to like her. has too many ‘pet’ rats that reside with her, alongside a baby raccoon & a few crow pals. has a new animal companion everyday, but she doesn’t contain them or force them to stay.
leaves her window in noland wide open because of this, because her window is conveniently right besides a tree with sturdy branches. good for animal smuggling, sneaking in and out, hiding, etc. etc. world is her oyster.
though her room in noland is ??? frankly a mess ??? already ??? usually keeps most of her possessions in her memory box but she’s also turned her room into a mini labyrinth of knick-knacks. very cozy, but very nest-like. think of howl’s room from howl’s moving castle.
wanted connections.
random encounters… it’s only her second semester at radcliffe, she hasn’t met everybody yet i’m sure
random encounters…in the wild… alternately, people she’s met before in a different part of the country. whether she’s stolen from them or crashed at their place, or simply shared a dinner. anything goes!
unexpected sleepover… someone whose place she crashed at after a mysterious night. a party, adventure, etc. etc. maybe they don’t even remember her staying over, maybe she hadn’t been with them to begin with.
employers… she does a lot of odd jobs! knows how to make a lot of things in many different mediums just to earn a small living.
friends… y’know … people who enjoy her presence, likes her oddness. they may not understand her, but they appreciate her. or maybe they do understand her, in their own way!
not friends… philly doesn’t consider anybody an enemy in the slightest, but some people may not be fond of her … think she’s a little too strange, or they refuse to understand her, or something of the likes.
closing in… someone trying to get closer to her, trying to figure her out on a level deeper than what she would like, and she keeps slipping out from between their fingers every time.
mom friend mom friend mom friend… older sibling figures! dad friends! take one look at philly and instantly want to swaddle n protect her.
caught red handed… someone catches her stealing or about to dine-n-dash. do they care? who knows!
late-night shenanigans… they just walk and talk at night … very relaxing … not actually very shenanigans filled…
a dealer… because she wasn’t born on 4/20 for nothing. she’s not turning 20 on 4/20/20 fr nothing. don’t fail us.
debating conspiracies… or superstitions, really anything. maybe they’re frustrated at her apathy surrounding all situations.
no likey… :( they distrust her. probably fr good reason tho … i don’t blame you
thrifting pals… no explanation needed methinks
an eventual hook-up… maybe … possibly … it’s questionable, but it could happen! can’t stay a virgin forever! (or well. she cld. we’ll see!) she’d probably have to trust yr muse a lot though
unrequited romance uwu… probably unrequited on her end because she doesn’t usually think of anybody in a romantic sense - it’s possible, but you’d have to be something special for her to like you back. that being said …
something returned… eventually, slowly. slow. it’ll take time.
maybe something returned !! eventually. slowly. slow.
n like rly anything u want !! anything u can think of i am here 2 fulfill … we can brainstorm all sorts of wacky scenarios!! she’s a thief! she’s an accordion player! she dances naked in the woods! she’s been in the circus AND a small utah county jail!
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altphilcmena · 4 years
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『NATALIA DYER ❙ DEMI GIRL』 ⟿ looks like PHILOMENA CARMICHAEL is here for HER/THEIR SOPHOMORE year as a WILDLIFE SCIENCE student. SHE/THEY are 19 years old & known to be WHIMSICAL, PATIENT, APATHETIC & UNPREDICTABLE. They’re living in NOLAND, so if you’re there, watch out for them. ⬳ JAMES. 20. EST. SHE/THEY.
hllo this is a slightly older bt not tht old like. minus a year old muse of mine tht i thought wld fit rly well into this group n i hope u guys all love her bc i love her a lot !!! anyways pls drop a LIKE if u wld like to plot because i need to know. who to plot with. there’s so many people pleathe help me out HBSJDNKFMGLH
TW CANCER, TRAUMA, DEPERSONALIZATION / DEREALIZATION DISORDER ( ALT. MENTAL ILLNESS ), DEATH, DECAY, MAGGOTS.
aesthetic.
wildflowers in your hair and bare feet against moss, binoculars and maps, madonna beating out of half-dead speakers in a half-dead van, whipping wind, jumping off cliffs and rolling down hills, a bandaid wrapped around each finger, cryptic bumper stickers and cryptids in the woods, facing the sun and letting the rays hit you, counting stars late into the night, dancing naked in the woods with nothing but fire to light your way, mismatched socks and lucky ribbons, hoarding a box of special treasures, shoplifting and diner-dashing, bleach against roots, pink sweaters paired with ripped fishnets and slip dresses with knock off uggs, willingly wearing crocs, glitter stickers, fungi and feeling one with them, lying down and decomposing, they’ll find us in a week. they’ll find us in a week.
basic info.
full name: philomena brontë carmichael
nickname(s): philly, phil, mena, etc.
b.o.d. - april 20th lmao !!
label(s): the amaranth, the halycon, the neophyte, the wanderer, etc. etc.
height: 5′4″
hometown: woodside, ca
sexuality: ??? $500 ebay mystery box. pansexual if you had to label it.
pinterest ( & her family pinterest b/c they’re my most developed family uwu)
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inspired by: luna lovegood (harry potter), orla mccool (derry girls), cassie ainsworth (skins), alice (alice’s adventures in wonderland), amelie (amelie).
biography.
a middle child belonging to christopher and imogen carmichael - two stanford professors. christopher specialized in british literature whilst imogen specialized in the classics. hence the name.
the order of siblings goes as such: lysander, elektra, juno, philomena, and twins orion & valora. the deal was that everybody had a greek (or in juno’s case, roman) first name and a middle name inspired by a piece of british literature circa 1800s and under. a family of nerds, if you will.
so, clearly - right off the bat, their parents are … eccentric. they’re both in love with their respected topic, and with each other, and with their kids. the carmichael family is a happy family.
they each have their own quirks and whatnot - though philly’s always been particularly dreamy - even as a child, she’d spend hours watching clouds or caterpillars or the leaves blow in the wind rather than play with other kids. she wasn’t a shy kid - she just had her own interests.
hardship doesn’t hit the family until philomena is five and starts having splitting headaches. they’re slow at first - but as soon as she’s seeing spots and unable to walk in a straight line, doctor appointments are made.
it doesn’t take long for them to discover the tumor, though the official diagnosis of malignant ependymoma comes a month later.
it’s grade ii but slow-moving, small enough to not be as much of a threat as worried, but big enough where removal is necessary. philomena earns a scar and brings it in for show-and-tell. for two months afterwards, philly’s at radiotherapy monday through friday.
they’re lucky - philomena’s considered cancer-free by the next year. she’s babied at first - handled delicately, as if she could break if touched - but with five other children … it doesn’t last for too long.
and life continues as normal.
her personality doesn’t shift much over the next few years - she’s awfully independent for a kid, and awfully quiet - when she speaks it’s about faeries and bigfoot, about how the sky is so blue and if you listen quietly, you can hear the leaves whisper their secrets to each other. this is not odd.
she’s close to all her siblings, but she idolizes her older sister - elektra. elektra’s six years older and dyes her hair whatever colors she wants. elektra bought a knife off a seedy guy downtown. elektra threw away all of her heels and renounced god. elektra is god. her music is loud but it’s not heavy - it’s florence and the machine.
they’re opposites - elektra’s boisterous and feels loudly, philomena’s softer and feels…less. when elektra sneaks out, philomena keeps watch. they are a duo.
philomena is smart - but she’s fifteen and hates school. hates sitting inside all day. hates the same routine - day after day - it’s all the same. her parents’ routine is the same, philly feels contained and she wants to live.
elektra’s twenty-one and just bought a brand new spanking (used but not falling apart) 19-something volkswagen … van - using her entire savings account. she says she’s tired of routine, she’s leaving the next day.
naturally, philomena stows away in the back and isn’t discovered until they’re two states away and she’s got to pee. elektra nearly crashes the van in shock.
it’s an argument - philomena vs. elektra, then them vs. their parents, then their parents vs. the school, the state - it’s an ordeal. philomena switches to an online program in the end.
it hurts christopher and imogen - lysander’s not having any of their nonsense, juno’s betrayed and alone - the twins are twins. in the end, it’s alright. the carmichael family is a happy family.
philomena and elektra take their time - it’s not a road trip, it’s their new life, permanently on the road. they stop and explore often - they do odd jobs in whatever town they settle in. they dine-n-dash, they shoplift. they survive in their own way.
during particularly desperate times, they two resorted to identity theft & credit fraud - getting away with it only by ditching the cards once they’ve made it out of state.
she drops out of high school officially when she’s seventeen - they have to drive all the way back to california to deal with the wrath of their parents and to deal with paperwork, but it’s done. philomena doesn’t know what path she wants in life - but it’s not that.
it’s during this time that the episodes occur - philomena’s outside her body, philomena’s wrapped in cotton, her memories are not her own. she’s looking in the mirror and she doesn’t recognize herself. they take shelter in a city for six months, long enough for her brand spankin’ new therapist to figure out what’s wrong with her. she’s diagnosed with depersonalization / derealization disorder - they think it’s stress. philomena doesn’t get stressed. they think it’s trauma. she laughs - she never laughs.
there is trauma though, deep-rooted but somewhere inside - you just have to look for it.
you. just. have. to. look. for. it. look for it. look for it. look for it look for it look -
you were ten and she was thirteen, an off-trail hike in familiar woods in a familiar town, safe and familiar. it was your idea, to stray from the carved out paths, down creeks and up hills and round, and round again. you’re the one who spotted the scarf first, sticking up from the dirt and dancing in the wind like the beginning of reincarnation. it was not reincarnation, it was discovery. it was ruin. with curiosity drawn, you skidded down - with compliance, followed juno, followed your sister - clumsy in her steps and tumbling down quicker than you. you saw the corpse, but juno felt it. decaying flesh and maggot.
and she left juno, just like that - just five years later, when juno had finally gone to the end of her wits. philly up and left. abandoned her. 
philomena and elektra leave the city after that therapy session. they do not return. she’s always been good at hiding her secrets.
three years later and her parents want philly to have a higher education - desperate for it, really - worried for her future. it’s a battle that she loses, getting her GED and applying to a local college in florida in shameful compliance.
they’re there for a year until philly gets (expectantly) expelled from the community college & the two of them are banned from the town they’d residing in up until that point. they don’t talk about it - but boy, was it one hell of a time.
they found refuge in lovell, a town that seemed to suit them well - it suited elektra’s desire to travel up and down the east coast, and it intrigued philomena enough to the point of her being content with staying. soon after, philly officially transferred to radcliffe for the fall semester & they’ve been here since!
personality.
she’s quiet but she’s confident - her voice sounds like rustling leaves, if leaves smoked a pack of cigarettes a day.
often underestimated - philly’s petite and looks like she’d fall over if a plastic bag blew too close to her. she’s independent - for the most part. elektra is the only person philly takes orders from.
has always been considered odd - weird, strange. still talks about the trees as if they’re listening, as if they’re old friends. she’s vague and doesn’t elaborate on the things she says.
believes in pretty much any superstition you throw her way. luck is very important to her. if you ask her if the earth is flat, she’ll say probably. believes strongly in bigfoot and the lochness monster. has personally seen aliens, and loves ghosts almost more than herself.
she can be amusing - whether you ‘get’ her or not, her outlook is often bright - she talks about the negatives the same way she talks about the positives. can be seen as naive or gullible, but she’s plenty smart. even if half of her education has come directly from google.
philly doesn’t laugh. a smile, yes - often, in fact - not always reaching her ears, or bearing teeth - but these are not indicators of her happiness. philly is consistently content. she thinks many things are funny - she still will not laugh.
her voice is often monotonous - she doesn’t sound dreary, she sounds far-away. her voice carries. her emotions are often unknown to others.
is apathetic in most situations. she’s hard to bother - she’s incredibly patient and enjoys the company of most - tolerates them at the very least. it’s hard for her to express her emotions, because she feels them so little that it’s very nearly not worth it. her affection is not verbal - it’s small touches and gestures of kindness, love in her own way.
is a fan of knock-knock jokes and bad puns. she won’t crack a smile while telling you them, nor does she expect you to laugh. she just enjoys them.
she owns a motorola razr covered in puffy stickers - hasn’t ever had a smartphone. she’s a fan of emoticons. her favorite is :o)
has a lot of bruises and scratches and scars - she’s often getting herself into pickles. there are always, at the very minimum, three bandaids on each hand.
she has insomnia, so she’s awake often. is often seen wandering town - even when she shouldn’t be, even when it might be dangerous. her intuition is delayed. when she does sleep - her dreams are vivid and fantastical.
keeps a box of memories - sentimental bits and pieces she’s picked up over the last few years. there are a lot of buttons and postcards, but any teeny tiny object will do.
her style changes every week - most, if not all, of her clothes are thrifted. one week she’s baby spice and the next she’s lydia deetz. she combines pieces from different styles often - she looks like a barbie clothed by a child. she feels most comfortable like this.
will either patch-up the clothes that get too worn or reuse them in some way. sometimes donates the clothes she gets tired off - isn’t minimalistic, but she’s learned to keep only a small amount of possessions.
the only consistency is her lucky ribbon - it’s pastel yellow and silky and as thin as a shoelace. she ties it onto her outfit of the day, everyday. if she loses it, she’s lost. elektra has a matching ribbon.
has no problem with minor theft - she only takes bare minimum, puts herself and elektra first and that’s how it’s always been. she tries to be good while in lovell / radcliffe - would hate to be forced out by mobs with torches and pitchforks
currently living in noland while elektra stays in their van, florence - sometimes philly stays there during the weekends.
they used to live in motels on the occasion, the cheapest room, and more often than not they’d both go home with strangers for a comfier bed and a hotter shower.
it was a common occurrence - she didn’t sleep with them - but somehow, she weaseled her way into their homes anyway. has come out mostly unscathed, on most occasions. this has been a practice ever since they’ve been on the road.
really, truly - has not slept with anybody, had her first and only kiss at thirteen with a frog. this doesn’t bother her.
will consume a n y t h i n g you put in front of her - isn’t picky.
listens to whatever they’ve picked up along the way but she likes instrumentals the best. her second favorite genre is 1990′s and 2000′s top hits. they’re nostalgic for her. third favorites? florence, of course. fleetwood mac. the bird and the bee. 
loves storms - will go out in the rain and will risk her life for it.
owns a pair of roller-skates and is often skating rather than walking. unless she’s on grass - then she’s walking barefoot.
has many hobbies, and gets bored of them often. her favorite hobby is welding. she’s not certified.
also, juggling.
also, accordion.
the kind of girl who’ll do any job you give her. odd jobs are her favorite jobs. babysitting is her least favorite - but she does it anyway. has lost children before. have they ever been found? not by philly.
dyes her hair blonde often and cuts her own hair - bangs included - finds it cathartic, likes the itchiness of bleach.
everything she does is often in pursuit of feeling free, alive, and meaningful.
( like her frequent visits to the woods, late at night when the moon is high and full. it’s freeing to dance around a fire, stark naked in the cold. builds immunity )
comes and goes wherever she pleases, nothing & nobody can stop her (besides elektra). has befriended the campus witch, or as much as the witch will allow, and shrike as well. she knows to respect nature, and abandoned sites - she’s practically free to explore as she wishes, her only pride is the trust she’s gained.
the trust expands to animals as well, she has a certain knack for getting them to like her. has too many ‘pet’ rats that reside with her, alongside a baby raccoon & a few crow pals. has a new animal companion everyday, but she doesn’t contain them or force them to stay.
leaves her window in noland wide open because of this, because her window is conveniently right besides a tree with sturdy branches. good for animal smuggling, sneaking in and out, hiding, etc. etc. world is her oyster.
though her room in noland is ??? frankly a mess ??? already ??? usually keeps most of her possessions in her memory box but she’s also turned her room into a mini labyrinth of knick-knacks. very cozy, but very nest-like. think of howl’s room from howl’s moving castle. 
wanted connections.
random encounters... it’s only her second semester at radcliffe, she hasn’t met everybody yet i’m sure
random encounters...in the wild... alternately, people she’s met before in a different part of the country. whether she’s stolen from them or crashed at their place, or simply shared a dinner. anything goes!
unexpected sleepover... someone whose place she crashed at after a mysterious night. a party, adventure, etc. etc. maybe they don’t even remember her staying over, maybe she hadn’t been with them to begin with.
employers... she does a lot of odd jobs! knows how to make a lot of things in many different mediums just to earn a small living.
friends... y’know ... people who enjoy her presence, likes her oddness. they may not understand her, but they appreciate her. or maybe they do understand her, in their own way!
not friends... philly doesn’t consider anybody an enemy in the slightest, but some people may not be fond of her ... think she’s a little too strange, or they refuse to understand her, or something of the likes.
closing in... someone trying to get closer to her, trying to figure her out on a level deeper than what she would like, and she keeps slipping out from between their fingers every time.
mom friend mom friend mom friend... older sibling figures! dad friends! take one look at philly and instantly want to swaddle n protect her.
caught red handed... someone catches her stealing or about to dine-n-dash. do they care? who knows!
late-night shenanigans... they just walk and talk at night ... very relaxing ... not actually very shenanigans filled...
a dealer... because she wasn’t born on 4/20 for nothing. she’s not turning 20 on 4/20/20 fr nothing. don’t fail us.
debating conspiracies... or superstitions, really anything. maybe they’re frustrated at her apathy surrounding all situations.
no likey... :( they distrust her. probably fr good reason tho ... i don’t blame you
thrifting pals... no explanation needed methinks
an eventual hook-up... maybe ... possibly ... it’s questionable, but it could happen! can’t stay a virgin forever! (or well. she cld. we’ll see!) she’d probably have to trust yr muse a lot though
unrequited romance uwu... probably unrequited on her end because she doesn’t usually think of anybody in a romantic sense - it’s possible, but you’d have to be something special for her to like you back. that being said ...
something returned... eventually, slowly. slow. it’ll take time.
maybe something returned !! eventually. slowly. slow.
n like rly anything u want !! anything u can think of i am here 2 fulfill ... we can brainstorm all sorts of wacky scenarios!! she’s a thief! she’s an accordion player! she dances naked in the woods! she’s been in the circus AND a small utah county jail! 
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evilisk · 4 years
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Reading Len’En Profiles Part 4
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This took a while didn’t it? This is being split up into two parts since Fumikado’s profile is way bigger (with more info about other characters, including future characters in BPoHC) than initially expected. Teams, Sese, Tsugumi, Shion and Tenkai are covered in this part.
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As always, here’s a quick look on the profiles for the returning characters. 
Team Profiles
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Shrine Team:
I like how Yabusame’s profile mentions that they wear lighter clothes in Winter than in Summer yet the only discernible difference I can tell from their sprite is “Yabu choosing not to wear shoes”
I can't believe Tsuba’s profile casually reveals that they remodeled their body structure so they can't feel the cold. What the heck Tsuba?
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Slaver Team
Kuroji’s profile is such a swerve. We went from “gotta put food on the table for my siblings” to Kuroji going full “Ameyama Telegraph style Reimu” who shakes down people [youkai] for money
Kuroji having ambitions to open a school in Mugenri is unexpected
Wait, so Kuroji, who is described as being a scholar of pre-history, wants to open a school (and presumably wants to teach at it). And Keine, from Touhou, is a were-hakutaku who can manipulate history, that teaches at a school. HMMMMMMM.....
“This is kinda dangerous” lmao at that being in Saragimaru’s profile. I appreciate how this is referenced in Yaorochi’s profile (their profile mentions that they feel like they’re being watched)
It’s revealed that Saragimaru doesn’t actually know if they are related by blood which is kinda weird? I got the impression that the one who was in the dark about everything was Yaorochi, not Saragimaru. Maybe I should take another look at their EMS profile...
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Bottle Opener Team
I mentioned previously that one of the EMS profiles confirmed that Orochi was a youkai. Well Yaorochi’s profile 200% confirms that Orochi was a youkai with the line “[Yaorochi’s] a youkai very much like Yamato no Orochi” which is good to know
It’s been a while so I forgot, and ended up chuckling at, the bottle opener stuff. Especially the “Yaorochi has been training so good they’re good at the bottle opener now too!” angle
"For the sake of creativity, [Sukune doesn’t] speak like a normal person.” So that’s the reason for their accent? Lol okay
I like how Sukune’s wings are given a small explanation here. I wouldn’t have guessed that they could fly without them (I would have assumed they can’t normally fly, and that they fought on-foot in EMS)
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Boss Profiles
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Stage 1 / Stage Extra+ Boss - Sese Kitsugai
Original Opinion: While I find their in-game spellcards (as a Stage 1 boss) to be rather zany, I love this Bony Baby. Seriously, I cannot look at their sprite, with their cute smiling baby fangs, and see Sese as an adult (I think they’re referred to as “a kid” by some of the teams too). I am not so hot on EX-Sese as a design, but in concept? I LOVE IT. I think their BPoHC design (which I love, love LOVE, but more on that in the next post) is a better middle ground between  “base” Sese and EX-Sese, but I digress. Sese is 'Sese-rious’ fun!
Comments on Profile:
Interesting, interesting. So apparently Sese Kitsugai (or just “Sese”, according to their Wiki entry) isn’t their real name. They just thought it was a pleasant nickname.
It seems that without their skull, they don’t remember much (like their original name). It’s weird since they draw attention to Sese’s current skull helmet in Yaorochi’s route (Sukune can’t remove it, Yaorochi seems to think it’s special) but I suppose that Sese’s original skull should be WAY bigger than their current one.
Sese has a second profile which adds a lot more details. Apparently, they were scavenging bones near Harujion while that big epic fight was happening in Stage 6.
So EX Sese’s appearance is their canon true/”original” appearance. Boo. I honestly think their BPoHC design is way better. It also seems that without the original skull, Sese cannot maintain their original appearance.
Sese’s EX Profile has an extra ability: “something like conquering the above-ground”. That’s not ominous at all.
I cannot help but wonder if Sese originally fought Tsurubami and just got whooped really hard... okay, now I have the mental image of Tsurubami booting Sese’s skull so hard that they became dumb.
Oh and Sese is mentioned as excavating becoming a hobby for them. Good for Sese.
New Opinion: Y’know, it just hit me that Sese is *basically* Rumia / EX-Rumia but canon and with 200% more bones...
Regardless, Sese is so good. Just like the two other Stage 1 bosses so far. It’s crazy how good JynX is at doing Stage 1 bosses, I dislike most Touhou Stage 1 bosses (the only good ones are Eika and Nazrin).
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Stage 2 Boss - Tsugumi Umatachi
Original Opinion: Tsugumi is the one character I say has aged like fine wine (to me). I thought that Tsugumi being a grumpy goon, despite being a steampunk-looking, bat wing-wearing, eggplant-riding jockey, was such a strange design choice. Then I realized that “grumpy person who dresses colorfully” is basically my real life aesthetic and I totally got it. Though I outright like Fumikado more, I appreciate their personality and their fun musical theme.
Comments on Profile:
...After reading this profile, I’m not sure what to take at face value. 
Okay so first off, they were hired by a certain someone. It’s unclear if this someone is Fumikado (the obvious choice) or Iyozane (who is technically the person who put out the bounty that Tsugumi and Kuroji are following up on in the game).
There’s some reference to boke and tsukkomi that I honestly do not understand. Like I recognize the terms from Gintama, but I’m not sure what JynX is trying to say about Tsugumi as a character when they say “Ninjas!” or that Tsugumi wasn’t born in Japan.
Also, their species is “Eggplant Jockey”. I have no frame of reference for what this is supposed to mena.
New Opinion: I... have no new opinion because I have no idea what I just read. I was going to say “oh so Tsugumi isn’t Japanese” but I just skimmed their page on the Shout Wiki and there is no reference to this fact (which makes it seem like that was just an example of this boke and tsukkomi thing mentioned before)
I got nothing :/ Tsugumi is still cool tho
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Stage 6 Boss - Shion
Original Opinion: Just as Sese continues the unbroken tradition of Len’En games having incredibly good Stage 1 bosses, Shion continues the tradition of Len’En games having incredibly underwhelming final bosses 
Yaorochi and Clause both had something keeping them from being great final bosses; for Clause, its their joke character personality that lets them down, while with Yaorochi, it’s their theme. In Shion’s case, it’s the fact that they come completely out of nowhere, hijacking Fumikado’s rightful place as Final Boss that gets me all hot and bothered. (I think that Shion giving off strong “low rent Yuyuko vibes doesn’t help their case either)
It’s an absolute shame, since Shion seems to have clearly learned from Clause and Yaorochi, since they’ve got the creepy (cool) personality and the kickass boss theme. If only they had actual relevance to RMI’s plot...
Comments on Profile:
So apparently Shion is from a magical plant that can resurrect or grant immortality, it always pops up in a random place and the Senri Priests are usually supposed to cut it down when that does happen... oh dear.
Oh I see now, Shion is like Ermac from Mortal Kombat i.e. they’re a mass of souls and experiences that collectively form a new being. That’s a pretty cool backstory, actually! ...Wait, so the final spellcard that Shion has... are those like the names of the souls they absorbed?? That seems interesting.
So it goes that the souls in Shion were split at some point: the good souls formed the body while the evil souls formed the spirit. This intended equilibrium, however, was distorted by Mugenri’s barrier and instead of a split of good and evil it was just evil and more evil. Well that basically explains why Shion went from no chill to being very chill after Stage 6. Shion is mentioned as literally getting killed in all the endings (because everyone apparently went too ham). So we basically have “Evil and Eviler Shion” dying and then Harujion bringing them back as “Equilibrium of Good and Evil Shion”. Interesting, interesting.
This last part of the profile is such a mood. “[...] a good number of those voices were playing the same melody in unison, that “the world is full of malice.” “...Shion had no doubt about that claim. If their body is a miniature copy of the world itself, then they are evil itself.”
New Opinion: While I still hate that Shion hijacked Fumikado’s role as final villain, they are a way more interesting character than I initially thought. I do know that Shion is apparently a playable character in BPoHC, but have no idea how JynX intends to use them, so I’m interested to see what JynX’s plans are for them
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Stage Extra Boss - Tenkai Zuifeng
Original Opinion: I think my first thoughts went exactly like “oh god that outfit is horrible” to “oh god this fight is insane” to “oh so they’re just Tsurubami’s really, really tired friend, I dig it”. I think the aspect I appreciate most is that they’re basically the straight man character the series has been missing. Yabusame and Tsubakura are weirdos, Kuroji is a scoundrel, the Adagumos operate on weird youkai logic and Sukune lacks common, human sense.
Tenkai is your only option if you’re looking for a sensible recurring character. And this sensibility only makes the interpretation of a Tenkai who is “endlessly tired of everyone’s shit” stronger in my mind.  Beyond the personality, they have a great theme, a cool backstory and, most importantly, a really damn good shot type in BPoHC. Now if only their outfits weren’t absolutely, consistently garish. It’s like JynX heard me say “the Len’En games need more colour” and decided to concentrate it in Tenkai’s outfit which has like, EVERY SINGLE COLOUR. 
I still love my Tired Barrier Carpenter but please stop picking your own outfits
Comments on Profile: 
Okay so Tenkai is from a renowned family of barrier builders that has worked with the Senri Shrine. Note the focus on the word *builders*; apparently these builders aren’t so good at repairing barriers. Cue Tenkai getting a job to repair the Mugenri Barrier as part of her ‘training’ (at least, that’s what it seems like on the surface. It’s mentioned that this training is also an attack on Tenkai’s prestige). 
The profile mentions Tenkai pulling some prank as a way to get back at her bosses. Tenkai hating her bosses just makes tired Tenkai more and more real in my head.
From my knowledge of the routes in-game, this prank was not repairing the barrier immediately, letting the souls outside the Barrier into Mugenri and basically letting the events of the game happen (Fumikado and co. start gathering souls, Harujion sprouts near Fumikado, Shion is born, Sese transforms in the Extra etc.). I guess it’s also meant to be an excuse to test Tsubakura and Yabusame. In short, we can all thank Tenkai for the events of this game.
IIRC, I think Tenkai is referenced as being from the Outside World? Maybe? I know it’s brought up in the Kuroji / Saragimaru route. 
It’s also not mentioned in the profile I believe Lumen is responsible for punching a hole in the barrier in the first place which is HILARIOUS
Their title is of the “Old Dictators”. So basically, Tenkai is the Marisa to Tsurubami’s Reimu.
New Opinion: I already liked Tenkai, this is just cementing my headcanon of Tenkai being a very, very tired person. There’s not a whole lot to say about Tenaki since this is all just plot and worldbuilding details 
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I will finally get into Iyozane (who has a small profile, but has a large role in Fumikado’s profile) and Fumikado (who has a huge, huge profile) in the next part.
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philcmena-alt · 4 years
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NATALIA DYER / DEMI GIRL — don’t look now, but is that philomena carmichael i see? the 19 year old wildlife science student is in their sophomore year and she is a rochester alum. i hear they can be whimsical, patient, apathetic and unpredictable, so maybe keep that in mind. i bet she will make a name for themselves living in garcia row. ( james. 20. est. she/they. )
like this to plot !!
TW CANCER, TRAUMA, DEPERSONALIZATION / DEREALIZATION DISORDER ( ALT. MENTAL HEALTH ) / DEATH / DECAY / MAGGOTS / GROSS ??
a e s t h e t i c s
wildflowers in your hair and bare feet against moss, binoculars and maps, madonna beating out of half-dead speakers in a half-dead van, whipping wind, jumping off cliffs and rolling down hills, a bandaid wrapped around each finger, cryptic bumper stickers and cryptids in the woods, facing the sun and letting the rays hit you, counting stars late into the night, mismatched socks and lucky ribbons, hoarding a box of special treasures, shoplifting and diner-dashing, bleach against roots, pink sweaters paired with ripped fishnets and slip dresses with knock off uggs, willingly wearing crocs, glitter stickers.
general info !!
full name: philomena brontë carmichael
nickname(s): philly, phil, mena, etc.
b.o.d. - april 20th lmao !!
label(s): the amaranth, the halycon, the neophyte, the wanderer, etc. etc.
height: 5′4″
hometown: woodside, ca
sexuality: ??? $500 ebay mystery box. pansexual if you had to label it.
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biography !!
a middle child belonging to christopher and imogen carmichael - two stanford professors. christopher specialized in british literature whilst imogen specialized in the classics. hence the name.
the order of siblings goes as such: lysander, elektra, juno, philomena, and twins orion & valora. the deal was that everybody had a greek (or in juno’s case, roman) first name and a middle name inspired by a piece of british literature circa 1800s and under. a family of nerds, if you will.
so, clearly - right off the bat, their parents are … eccentric. they’re both in love with their respected topic, and with each other, and with their kids. the carmichael family is a happy family.
they each have their own quirks and whatnot - though philly’s always been particularly dreamy - even as a child, she’d spend hours watching clouds or caterpillars or the leaves blow in the wind rather than play with other kids. she wasn’t a shy kid - she just had her own interests.
hardship doesn’t hit the family until philomena is five and starts having splitting headaches. they’re slow at first - but as soon as she’s seeing spots and unable to walk in a straight line, doctor appointments are made.
it doesn’t take long for them to discover the tumor, though the official diagnosis of malignant ependymoma comes a month later.
it’s grade ii but slow-moving, small enough to not be as much of a threat as worried, but big enough where removal is necessary. philomena earns a scar and brings it in for show-and-tell. for two months afterwards, philly’s at radiotherapy monday through friday.
they’re lucky - philomena’s considered cancer-free by the next year. she’s babied at first - handled delicately, as if she could break if touched - but with five other children … it doesn’t last for too long.
and life continues as normal.
her personality doesn’t shift much over the next few years - she’s awfully independent for a kid, and awfully quiet - when she speaks it’s about faeries and bigfoot, about how the sky is so blue and if you listen quietly, you can hear the leaves whisper their secrets to each other. this is not odd.
she’s close to all her siblings, but she idolizes her older sister - elektra. elektra’s six years older and dyes her hair whatever colors she wants. elektra bought a knife off a seedy guy downtown. elektra threw away all of her heels and renounced god. elektra is god. her music is loud but it’s not heavy - it’s florence and the machine.
they’re opposites - elektra’s boisterous and feels loudly, philomena’s softer and feels…less. when elektra sneaks out, philomena keeps watch. they are a duo.
philomena is smart - but she’s fifteen and hates school. hates sitting inside all day. hates the same routine - day after day - it’s all the same. her parents’ routine is the same, philly feels contained and she wants to live.
elektra’s twenty-one and just bought a brand new spanking (used but not falling apart) 19-something volkswagen … van - using her entire savings account. she says she’s tired of routine, she’s leaving the next day.
naturally, philomena stows away in the back and isn’t discovered until they’re two states away and she’s got to pee. elektra nearly crashes the van in shock.
it’s an argument - philomena vs. elektra, then them vs. their parents, then their parents vs. the school, the state - it’s an ordeal. philomena switches to an online program in the end.
it hurts christopher and imogen - lysander’s not having any of their nonsense, juno’s betrayed and alone - the twins are twins. in the end, it’s alright. the carmichael family is a happy family.
philomena and elektra take their time - it’s not a road trip, it’s their new life, permanently on the road. they stop and explore often - they do odd jobs in whatever town they settle in. they dine-n-dash, they shoplift. they survive in their own way.
during particularly desperate times, they two resorted to identity theft & credit fraud - getting away with it only by ditching the cards once they’ve made it out of state.
she drops out of high school officially when she’s seventeen - they have to drive all the way back to california to deal with the wrath of their parents and to deal with paperwork, but it’s done. philomena doesn’t know what path she wants in life - but it’s not that.
it’s during this time that the episodes occur - philomena’s outside her body, philomena’s wrapped in cotton, her memories are not her own. she’s looking in the mirror and she doesn’t recognize herself. they take shelter in a city for six months, long enough for her brand spankin’ new therapist to figure out what’s wrong with her. she’s diagnosed with depersonalization / derealization disorder - they think it’s stress. philomena doesn’t get stressed. they think it’s trauma. she laughs - she never laughs.
she gets medication, and life is normal.
three years later and her parents want philly to have a higher education - desperate for it, really - worried for her future. it’s a battle that she loses, getting her GED and applying to a local college in a town halfway across the country.
staying rooted pains her - pains elektra, stuck in a midwest state for no good reason. by the summer before her sophomore year, philly deides to transfer to lockwood. elektra can travel up and down the eastern coast and philly goes too, sometimes, on the weekends. it’s a compromise that favors her parents’ wants above all.
school has caused philly’s disorder to flare up - a small rift in her day-to-day life even when she doesn’t realize it.
things were fine for a while - they have to be fine, because philly is always fine - because elektra is always fine, because they’re always fine and happy and content with their situation. but years of negligence had caught up with philly - and now she’s not quite sure what to do.
it began with a phone call from juno - angry juno, hurt juno - juno who has called every week for four years and has only gotten a handful of answers - and many, many handfuls of answering machines. juno who doesn’t understand why philly is like this - when she’s so hurt, all the time - when things are so much, all the time. the call ends with a reminder that they are the same - that they’ve experienced the same thing, the same thing that nobody else in their family had experienced.
juno, of course, refers to the dead body in the woods nine years ago.
to backtrack - philomena was ten and juno was thirteen when they had decided to go on a hike - a nearby trail that had been walked countless times, in a town they’ve always felt safe in. it should’ve been safe - it should’ve been fine. but philomena liked going off the trail, making her own - insisted on it, in fact. she was the one who skidded down the slope first, curiosity drawn to a dirty, fraying red scarf - but juno had been the one who had tripped and fallen, who had landed besides decaying flesh and maggots. philomena had seen the body first - but juno had touched it. juno had touched it.
after the police and the sirens and the years of therapy, juno had always wanted to talk about it - always wanted to address it, vent to the one person who would maybe, could maybe, understand. philly had already blocked it out of her mind.
back in present day - the phone call with juno had attracted elektra, who then in turn called juno and marched away, screaming match from across the country (supposedly). philly, always a little too curious, had only overheard parts of their argument. but she heard the one thing that left her bothered - a rare experience, and a sickening one. elektra had called her a child. just a kid, to be exact.
philly had stopped considering herself a child when she turned eighteen - and she certainly never thought she acted childish. confrontation led to a rift, and philomena determining that they needed time apart - that elektra should go, now, please. and she did. and philly was alone. no elektra, no florence - no more depending on her sister, just philly. alone.
a firm week before dean lockwood was murdered and the rochester students moved to huntington beach, philly had disappeared. run away, if you will. no driver’s license, just a handful of cash and her ‘pets’ set free. she’s just now reappeared, with a van she has no registration for parked outside of garcia row & in front of their new ‘dorm’.
personality !!
she’s quiet but she’s confident - her voice sounds like rustling leaves, if leaves smoked a pack of cigarettes a day.
often underestimated - philly’s petite and looks like she’d fall over if a plastic bag blew too close to her. she’s independent - for the most part. elektra is the only person philly takes orders from.
has always been considered odd - weird, strange. still talks about the trees as if they’re listening, as if they’re old friends. she’s vague and doesn’t elaborate on the things she says.
believes in pretty much any superstition you throw her way. luck is very important to her. if you ask her if the earth is flat, she’ll say probably. believes strongly in bigfoot and the lochness monster. has personally seen aliens, and loves ghosts almost more than herself.
she can be amusing - whether you ‘get’ her or not, her outlook is often bright - she talks about the negatives the same way she talks about the positives. can be seen as naive or gullible, but she’s plenty smart. even if half of her education has come directly from google.
philly doesn’t laugh. a smile, yes - often, in fact - not always reaching her ears, or bearing teeth - but these are not indicators of her happiness. philly is consistently content. she thinks many things are funny - she still will not laugh.
her voice is often monotonous - she doesn’t sound dreary, she sounds far-away. her voice carries. her emotions are often unknown to others.
is apathetic in most situations. she’s hard to bother - she’s incredibly patient and enjoys the company of most - tolerates them at the very least. it’s hard for her to express her emotions, because she feels them so little that it’s very nearly not worth it. her affection is not verbal - it’s small touches and gestures of kindness, love in her own way.
is a fan of knock-knock jokes and bad puns. she won’t crack a smile while telling you them, nor does she expect you to laugh. she just enjoys them.
she owns a motorola razr covered in puffy stickers - hasn’t ever had a smartphone. she’s a fan of emoticons. her favorite is :o)
has a lot of bruises and scratches and scars - she’s often getting herself into pickles. there are always, at the very minimum, three bandaids on each hand.
she has insomnia, so she’s awake often. is often seen wandering town - even when she shouldn’t be, even when it might be dangerous. her intuition is delayed. when she does sleep - her dreams are vivid and fantastical.
keeps a box of memories - sentimental bits and pieces she’s picked up over the last few years. there are a lot of buttons and postcards, but any teeny tiny object will do.
her style changes every week - most, if not all, of her clothes are thrifted. one week she’s baby spice and the next she’s lydia deetz. she combines pieces from different styles often - she looks like a barbie clothed by a child. she feels most comfortable like this.
will either patch-up the clothes that get too worn or reuse them in some way. sometimes donates the clothes she gets tired off - isn’t minimalistic, but she’s learned to keep only a small amount of possessions.
the only consistency is her lucky ribbon - it’s pastel yellow and silky and as thin as a shoelace. she ties it onto her outfit of the day, everyday. if she loses it, she’s lost. elektra has a matching ribbon.
has no problem with minor theft - she only takes bare minimum, puts herself and elektra first and that’s how it’s always been. she tries to be good while in rochester - would hate to make enemies whilst florence is getting repaired.
currently living in audax while elektra stays in their van, florence - sometimes philly stays there during the weekends.
they used to live in motels on the occasion, the cheapest room, and more often than not they’d both go home with strangers for a comfier bed and a hotter shower.
it was a common occurrence - she didn’t sleep with them - but somehow, she weaseled her way into their homes anyway. has come out mostly unscathed, on most occasions. this has been a practice ever since they’ve been on the road.
really, truly - has not slept with anybody, had her first and only kiss at thirteen with a frog. this doesn’t bother her.
will consume a n y t h i n g you put in front of her - isn’t picky.
listens to whatever they’ve picked up along the way but she likes instrumentals the best. her second favorite genre is 1990′s and 2000′s top hits. they’re nostalgic for her.
loves storms - will go out in the rain and will risk her life for it.
owns a pair of roller-skates and is often skating rather than walking. unless she’s on grass - then she’s walking barefoot.
has many hobbies, and gets bored of them often. her favorite hobby is welding. she’s not certified.
also, juggles.
also, accordion.
the kind of girl who’ll do any job you give her. odd jobs are her favorite jobs. babysitting is her least favorite - but she does it anyway. has lost children before. have they ever been found? not by philly.
dyes her hair blonde often and cuts her own hair - bangs included - finds it cathartic, likes the itchiness of bleach.
everything she does is often in pursuit of feeling free, alive, and meaningful.
wanted connections !!
random encounters - she’s new to rochester and doesn’t know many people - if anybody at all, so :-)
alternately, people she’s run into with elektra during their journey. whether they’ve stolen from them or stayed with them somewhere or just, ate dinner with them. anything.
someone whose couch / floor she’s crashed on after a night of whatever - a party, adventure, etc.
people she does jobs for !! people who commission her to make stuff for them. people who need a babysitter.
people who think she’s weird - and those who like it. or those who hate it. people who don’t understand her - people who do, in their own way.
someone trying to get closer to her but she keeps slipping out from between their fingers.
a parental / older sibling figure !! they take one look at philomena and instantly want to swaddle and protect her.
people who take an immediate liking to her. people who introduce her to the music scene. people who show her around town.
someone who catches her stealing or about to dine-n-dash.
late-night walking pals.
a dealer b/c weed ? a thing.
someone who gets into a debate with her about conspiracies or superstitions or anything !! someone who gets frustrated at her apathy.
somebody who just immediately distrusts her for whatever reason.
??? you don’t have a smartphone ??? cue someone trying to teach her how they work - and philly hating it !!
thrifting pals.
m a y b e a hook-up, eventually, but it’s questionable.
something unrequited, likely on their end b/c philly is … a hard egg to crack.
maybe something returned !! eventually. slowly. slow.
god … someone she just tells her entire life story to. like this meme.
i’m rly down to brainstorm and think of anything !!! dnt forget 2 leave a like :)
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NATALIA DYER / DEMI GIRL. — philomena carmichael is really making a name for themselves as a sheep. i think that she/they are studying wildlife science in their sophomore year at lockwood, living in audax. originally from woodside, california, philly is known to be whimsical & patient, but can also be apathetic & unpredictable. — james / 20 / est / she/they.
hllo !! 2/5 intros so far, ur almost there !! like saige, there has been slight alterations to philly bt they’re not very extreme uwu
TW CANCER, TRAUMA, DEPERSONALIZATION / DEREALIZATION DISORDER ( ALT. MENTAL HEALTH ) / DEATH / DECAY / MAGGOTS / GROSS ??
a e s t h e t i c s
wildflowers in your hair and bare feet against moss, binoculars and maps, madonna beating out of half-dead speakers in a half-dead van, whipping wind, jumping off cliffs and rolling down hills, a bandaid wrapped around each finger, cryptic bumper stickers and cryptids in the woods, facing the sun and letting the rays hit you, counting stars late into the night, mismatched socks and lucky ribbons, hoarding a box of special treasures, shoplifting and diner-dashing, bleach against roots, pink sweaters paired with ripped fishnets and slip dresses with knock off uggs, willingly wearing crocs, glitter stickers.
general info !!
full name: philomena brontë carmichael
nickname(s): philly, phil, mena, etc.
b.o.d. - april 20th lmao !!
label(s): the amaranth, the halycon, the neophyte, the wanderer, etc. etc.
height: 5′4″
hometown: woodside, ca
sexuality: ??? $500 ebay mystery box. pansexual if you had to label it.
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biography !!
a middle child belonging to christopher and imogen carmichael - two stanford professors. christopher specialized in british literature whilst imogen specialized in the classics. hence the name.
the order of siblings goes as such: lysander, elektra, juno, philomena, and twins orion & valora. the deal was that everybody had a greek (or in juno’s case, roman) first name and a middle name inspired by a piece of british literature circa 1800s and under. a family of nerds, if you will.
so, clearly - right off the bat, their parents are … eccentric. they’re both in love with their respected topic, and with each other, and with their kids. the carmichael family is a happy family.
they each have their own quirks and whatnot - though philly’s always been particularly dreamy - even as a child, she’d spend hours watching clouds or caterpillars or the leaves blow in the wind rather than play with other kids. she wasn’t a shy kid - she just had her own interests.
hardship doesn’t hit the family until philomena is five and starts having splitting headaches. they’re slow at first - but as soon as she’s seeing spots and unable to walk in a straight line, doctor appointments are made.
it doesn’t take long for them to discover the tumor, though the official diagnosis of malignant ependymoma comes a month later.
it’s grade ii but slow-moving, small enough to not be as much of a threat as worried, but big enough where removal is necessary. philomena earns a scar and brings it in for show-and-tell. for two months afterwards, philly’s at radiotherapy monday through friday.
they’re lucky - philomena’s considered cancer-free by the next year. she’s babied at first - handled delicately, as if she could break if touched - but with five other children … it doesn’t last for too long.
and life continues as normal.
her personality doesn’t shift much over the next few years - she’s awfully independent for a kid, and awfully quiet - when she speaks it’s about faeries and bigfoot, about how the sky is so blue and if you listen quietly, you can hear the leaves whisper their secrets to each other. this is not odd.
she’s close to all her siblings, but she idolizes her older sister - elektra. elektra’s six years older and dyes her hair whatever colors she wants. elektra bought a knife off a seedy guy downtown. elektra threw away all of her heels and renounced god. elektra is god. her music is loud but it’s not heavy - it’s florence and the machine.
they’re opposites - elektra’s boisterous and feels loudly, philomena’s softer and feels…less. when elektra sneaks out, philomena keeps watch. they are a duo.
philomena is smart - but she’s fifteen and hates school. hates sitting inside all day. hates the same routine - day after day - it’s all the same. her parents’ routine is the same, philly feels contained and she wants to live.
elektra’s twenty-one and just bought a brand new spanking (used but not falling apart) 19-something volkswagen … van - using her entire savings account. she says she’s tired of routine, she’s leaving the next day.
naturally, philomena stows away in the back and isn’t discovered until they’re two states away and she’s got to pee. elektra nearly crashes the van in shock.
it’s an argument - philomena vs. elektra, then them vs. their parents, then their parents vs. the school, the state - it’s an ordeal. philomena switches to an online program in the end.
it hurts christopher and imogen - lysander’s not having any of their nonsense, juno’s betrayed and alone - the twins are twins. in the end, it’s alright. the carmichael family is a happy family.
philomena and elektra take their time - it’s not a road trip, it’s their new life, permanently on the road. they stop and explore often - they do odd jobs in whatever town they settle in. they dine-n-dash, they shoplift. they survive in their own way.
during particularly desperate times, they two resorted to identity theft & credit fraud - getting away with it only by ditching the cards once they’ve made it out of state.
she drops out of high school officially when she’s seventeen - they have to drive all the way back to california to deal with the wrath of their parents and to deal with paperwork, but it’s done. philomena doesn’t know what path she wants in life - but it’s not that.
it’s during this time that the episodes occur - philomena’s outside her body, philomena’s wrapped in cotton, her memories are not her own. she’s looking in the mirror and she doesn’t recognize herself. they take shelter in a city for six months, long enough for her brand spankin’ new therapist to figure out what’s wrong with her. she’s diagnosed with depersonalization / derealization disorder - they think it’s stress. philomena doesn’t get stressed. they think it’s trauma. she laughs - she never laughs.
she gets medication, and life is normal.
three years later and her parents want philly to have a higher education - desperate for it, really - worried for her future. it’s a battle that she loses, getting her GED and applying to a local college in a town halfway across the country.
staying rooted pains her - pains elektra, stuck in a midwest state for no good reason. by the summer before her sophomore year, philly deides to transfer to lockwood. elektra can travel up and down the eastern coast and philly goes too, sometimes, on the weekends. it’s a compromise that favors her parents’ wants above all.
school has caused philly’s disorder to flare up - a small rift in her day-to-day life even when she doesn’t realize it.
things were fine for a while - they have to be fine, because philly is always fine - because elektra is always fine, because they’re always fine and happy and content with their situation. but years of negligence had caught up with philly - and now she’s not quite sure what to do.
it began with a phone call from juno - angry juno, hurt juno - juno who has called every week for four years and has only gotten a handful of answers - and many, many handfuls of answering machines. juno who doesn’t understand why philly is like this - when she’s so hurt, all the time - when things are so much, all the time. the call ends with a reminder that they are the same - that they’ve experienced the same thing, the same thing that nobody else in their family had experienced.
juno, of course, refers to the dead body in the woods nine years ago.
to backtrack - philomena was ten and juno was thirteen when they had decided to go on a hike - a nearby trail that had been walked countless times, in a town they’ve always felt safe in. it should’ve been safe - it should’ve been fine. but philomena liked going off the trail, making her own - insisted on it, in fact. she was the one who skidded down the slope first, curiosity drawn to a dirty, fraying red scarf - but juno had been the one who had tripped and fallen, who had landed besides decaying flesh and maggots. philomena had seen the body first - but juno had touched it. juno had touched it.
after the police and the sirens and the years of therapy, juno had always wanted to talk about it - always wanted to address it, vent to the one person who would maybe, could maybe, understand. philly had already blocked it out of her mind.
back in present day - the phone call with juno had attracted elektra, who then in turn called juno and marched away, screaming match from across the country (supposedly). philly, always a little too curious, had only overheard parts of their argument. but she heard the one thing that left her bothered - a rare experience, and a sickening one. elektra had called her a child. just a kid, to be exact.
philly had stopped considering herself a child when she turned eighteen - and she certainly never thought she acted childish. confrontation led to a rift, and philomena determining that they needed time apart - that elektra should go, now, please. and she did. and philly was alone. no elektra, no florence - no more depending on her sister, just philly. alone. 
personality !!
she’s quiet but she’s confident - her voice sounds like rustling leaves, if leaves smoked a pack of cigarettes a day.
often underestimated - philly’s petite and looks like she’d fall over if a plastic bag blew too close to her. she’s independent - for the most part. elektra is the only person philly takes orders from.
has always been considered odd - weird, strange. still talks about the trees as if they’re listening, as if they’re old friends. she’s vague and doesn’t elaborate on the things she says.
believes in pretty much any superstition you throw her way. luck is very important to her. if you ask her if the earth is flat, she’ll say probably. believes strongly in bigfoot and the lochness monster. has personally seen aliens, and loves ghosts almost more than herself.
she can be amusing - whether you ‘get’ her or not, her outlook is often bright - she talks about the negatives the same way she talks about the positives. can be seen as naive or gullible, but she’s plenty smart. even if half of her education has come directly from google.
philly doesn’t laugh. a smile, yes - often, in fact - not always reaching her ears, or bearing teeth - but these are not indicators of her happiness. philly is consistently content. she thinks many things are funny - she still will not laugh.
her voice is often monotonous - she doesn’t sound dreary, she sounds far-away. her voice carries. her emotions are often unknown to others.
is apathetic in most situations. she’s hard to bother - she’s incredibly patient and enjoys the company of most - tolerates them at the very least. it’s hard for her to express her emotions, because she feels them so little that it’s very nearly not worth it. her affection is not verbal - it’s small touches and gestures of kindness, love in her own way.
is a fan of knock-knock jokes and bad puns. she won’t crack a smile while telling you them, nor does she expect you to laugh. she just enjoys them.
she owns a motorola razr covered in puffy stickers - hasn’t ever had a smartphone. she’s a fan of emoticons. her favorite is :o)
has a lot of bruises and scratches and scars - she’s often getting herself into pickles. there are always, at the very minimum, three bandaids on each hand.
she has insomnia, so she’s awake often. is often seen wandering town - even when she shouldn’t be, even when it might be dangerous. her intuition is delayed. when she does sleep - her dreams are vivid and fantastical.
keeps a box of memories - sentimental bits and pieces she’s picked up over the last few years. there are a lot of buttons and postcards, but any teeny tiny object will do.
her style changes every week - most, if not all, of her clothes are thrifted. one week she’s baby spice and the next she’s lydia deetz. she combines pieces from different styles often - she looks like a barbie clothed by a child. she feels most comfortable like this.
will either patch-up the clothes that get too worn or reuse them in some way. sometimes donates the clothes she gets tired off - isn’t minimalistic, but she’s learned to keep only a small amount of possessions.
the only consistency is her lucky ribbon - it’s pastel yellow and silky and as thin as a shoelace. she ties it onto her outfit of the day, everyday. if she loses it, she’s lost. elektra has a matching ribbon.
has no problem with minor theft - she only takes bare minimum, puts herself and elektra first and that’s how it’s always been. she tries to be good while in rochester - would hate to make enemies whilst florence is getting repaired.
currently living in audax while elektra stays in their van, florence - sometimes philly stays there during the weekends.
they used to live in motels on the occasion, the cheapest room, and more often than not they’d both go home with strangers for a comfier bed and a hotter shower.
it was a common occurrence - she didn’t sleep with them - but somehow, she weaseled her way into their homes anyway. has come out mostly unscathed, on most occasions. this has been a practice ever since they’ve been on the road.
really, truly - has not slept with anybody, had her first and only kiss at thirteen with a frog. this doesn’t bother her.
will consume a n y t h i n g you put in front of her - isn’t picky.
listens to whatever they’ve picked up along the way but she likes instrumentals the best. her second favorite genre is 1990′s and 2000′s top hits. they’re nostalgic for her.
loves storms - will go out in the rain and will risk her life for it.
owns a pair of roller-skates and is often skating rather than walking. unless she’s on grass - then she’s walking barefoot.
has many hobbies, and gets bored of them often. her favorite hobby is welding. she’s not certified.
also, juggles.
also, accordion.
the kind of girl who’ll do any job you give her. odd jobs are her favorite jobs. babysitting is her least favorite - but she does it anyway. has lost children before. have they ever been found? not by philly.
dyes her hair blonde often and cuts her own hair - bangs included - finds it cathartic, likes the itchiness of bleach.
everything she does is often in pursuit of feeling free, alive, and meaningful.
connections to the victims !!
tatiana samuels & george craig iii / philly was not attending lockwood university at the time of their deaths, and has never met them.
hana williams / they were friends, but didn’t hang out together often. they sometimes ate lunch together, or went on walks at night together. hana had wanted to meet philly’s many pets.
christoph wainwright / philly and christoph had met through a mutual friend, and though philly hadn’t been expecting kindness from him - he had given her it, and in turn she found him interesting. a little too interesting, maybe - and they had kept talking since their initial meeting. they met and spoke often at night, for hours at a time - where nobody would see them. philly never understood why he had wanted it that way, but she respected it. even now, their ‘friendship’ with each other isn’t known by others. it’s a secret, one could say.
wanted connections !!
random encounters - she’s new to rochester and doesn’t know many people - if anybody at all, so :-)
alternately, people she’s run into with elektra during their journey. whether they’ve stolen from them or stayed with them somewhere or just, ate dinner with them. anything.
someone whose couch / floor she’s crashed on after a night of whatever - a party, adventure, etc.
people she does jobs for !! people who commission her to make stuff for them. people who need a babysitter.
people who think she’s weird - and those who like it. or those who hate it. people who don’t understand her - people who do, in their own way.
someone trying to get closer to her but she keeps slipping out from between their fingers.
a parental / older sibling figure !! they take one look at philomena and instantly want to swaddle and protect her.
people who take an immediate liking to her. people who introduce her to the music scene. people who show her around town.
someone who catches her stealing or about to dine-n-dash.
late-night walking pals.
a dealer b/c weed ? a thing.
someone who gets into a debate with her about conspiracies or superstitions or anything !! someone who gets frustrated at her apathy.
somebody who just immediately distrusts her for whatever reason.
??? you don’t have a smartphone ??? cue someone trying to teach her how they work - and philly hating it !!
thrifting pals.
m a y b e a hook-up, eventually, but it’s questionable.
something unrequited, likely on their end b/c philly is … a hard egg to crack.
maybe something returned !! eventually. slowly. slow.
god … someone she just tells her entire life story to. like this meme.
i’m rly down to brainstorm and think of anything !!! dnt forget 2 leave a like :)
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philcmenabadadink · 5 years
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cisfemale — ever hear people say PHILOMENA CARMICHAEL looks a lot like NATALIA DYER? I think SHE is about 19, so it doesn’t really work. The FREELANCER is here because THEIR VAN BROKE DOWN and they are from WOODSIDE, CA. They can be WHIMSICAL, but they can also be APATHETIC. I think PHILLY might be N/A. ( snot goblin. 20. est. she/they. )
hi hello friends ,,, i bring to u my third character and the Newest Muse i have created ... which means i’m still working on her ! so pleathe bare w/ me as i have no idea how she’ll rly truly turn out. but !! as always, give this a LIKE and i’ll come bother u !!!
TW: CANCER, IMPLIED TRAUMA, DEPERSONALIZATION / DEREALIZATION DISORDER ( ALT. MENTAL HEALTH )
a e s t h e t i c s
wildflowers in your hair and bare feet against moss, binoculars and maps, madonna beating out of half-dead speakers in a half-dead van, whipping wind, jumping off cliffs and rolling down hills, a bandaid wrapped around each finger, cryptic bumper stickers and cryptids in the woods, facing the sun and letting the rays hit you, counting stars late into the night, mismatched socks and lucky ribbons, hoarding a box of special treasures, shoplifting and diner-dashing, bleach against roots, pink sweaters paired with ripped fishnets and slip dresses with knock off uggs, willingly wearing crocs, glitter stickers.
general info !!
full name: philomena brontë carmichael
nickname(s): philly, phil, mena, etc.
b.o.d. - april 20th lmao !!
label(s): the amaranth, the halycon, the neophyte, the wanderer, etc. etc.
height: 5′4″
hometown: woodside, ca
sexuality: ??? $500 ebay mystery box. pansexual if you had to label it.
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biography !!
a middle child belonging to christopher and imogen carmichael - two stanford professors. christopher specialized in british literature whilst imogen specialized in the classics. hence the name.
the order of siblings goes as such: lysander, elektra, juno, philomena, and twins orion & valora. the deal was that everybody had a greek (or in juno’s case, roman) first name and a middle name inspired by a piece of british literature circa 1800s and under. a family of nerds, if you will.
so, clearly - right off the bat, their parents are ... eccentric. they’re both in love with their respected topic, and with each other, and with their kids. the carmichael family is a happy family.
they each have their own quirks and whatnot - though philly’s always been particularly dreamy - even as a child, she’d spend hours watching clouds or caterpillars or the leaves blow in the wind rather than play with other kids. she wasn’t a shy kid - she just had her own interests.
hardship doesn’t hit the family until philomena is five and starts having splitting headaches. they’re slow at first - but as soon as she’s seeing spots and unable to walk in a straight line, doctor appointments are made.
it doesn’t take long for them to discover the tumor, though the official diagnosis of malignant ependymoma comes a month later.
it’s grade ii but slow-moving, small enough to not be as much of a threat as worried, but big enough where removal is necessary. philomena earns a scar and brings it in for show-and-tell. for two months afterwards, philly’s at radiotherapy monday through friday.
they’re lucky - philomena’s considered cancer-free by the next year. she’s babied at first - handled delicately, as if she could break if touched - but with five other children ... it doesn’t last for too long.
and life continues as normal.
her personality doesn’t shift much over the next few years - she’s awfully independent for a kid, and awfully quiet - when she speaks it’s about faeries and bigfoot, about how the sky is so blue and if you listen quietly, you can hear the leaves whisper their secrets to each other. this is not odd.
she’s close to all her siblings, but she idolizes her older sister - elektra. elektra’s six years older and dyes her hair whatever colors she wants. elektra bought a knife off a seedy guy downtown. elektra threw away all of her heels and renounced god. elektra is god. her music is loud but it’s not heavy - it’s florence and the machine.
they’re opposites - elektra’s boisterous and feels loudly, philomena’s softer and feels...less. when elektra sneaks out, philomena keeps watch. they are a duo.
philomena is smart - but she’s fifteen and hates school. hates sitting inside all day. hates the same routine - day after day - it’s all the same. her parents’ routine is the same, philly feels contained and she wants to live.
elektra’s twenty-one and just bought a brand new spanking (used but not falling apart) 19-something volkswagen ... van - using her entire savings account. she says she’s tired of routine, she’s leaving the next day.
naturally, philomena stows away in the back and isn’t discovered until they’re two states away and she’s got to pee. elektra nearly crashes the van in shock.
it’s an argument - philomena vs. elektra, then them vs. their parents, then their parents vs. the school, the state - it’s an ordeal. philomena switches to an online program in the end.
it hurts christopher and imogen - lysander’s not having any of their nonsense, juno’s betrayed and alone - the twins are twins. in the end, it’s alright. the carmichael family is a happy family.
philomena and elektra take their time - it’s not a road trip, it’s their new life, permanently on the road. they stop and explore often - they do odd jobs in whatever town they settle in. they dine-n-dash, they shoplift. they survive in their own way. 
she drops out of high school officially when she’s seventeen - they have to drive all the way back to california to deal with the wrath of their parents and to deal with paperwork, but it’s done. philomena doesn’t know what path she wants in life - but it’s not that.
it’s during this time that the episodes occur - philomena’s outside her body, philomena’s wrapped in cotton, her memories are not her own. she’s looking in the mirror and she doesn’t recognize herself. they take shelter in a city for six months, long enough for her brand spankin’ new therapist to figure out what’s wrong with her. she’s diagnosed with depersonalization / derealization disorder - they think it’s stress. philomena doesn’t get stressed. they think it’s trauma. she laughs - she never laughs.
she gets medication, and life is normal.
it’s four years later and they’re in vermont when their good ol’ trusty van - affectionately named florence - breaks down in a town called livingstone. the cost is more than they have at the moment, and they’re stuck. philomena thinks she likes the town - but she doesn’t know about the watershed. 
personality !!
she’s quiet but she’s confident - her voice sounds like rustling leaves, if leaves smoked a pack of cigarettes a day.
often underestimated - philly’s petite and looks like she’d fall over if a plastic bag blew too close to her. she’s independent - for the most part. elektra is the only person philly takes orders from.
has always been considered odd - weird, strange. still talks about the trees as if they’re listening, as if they’re old friends. she’s vague and doesn’t elaborate on the things she says.
believes in pretty much any superstition you throw her way. luck is very important to her. if you ask her if the earth is flat, she’ll say probably. believes strongly in bigfoot and the lochness monster. has personally seen aliens, and loves ghosts almost more than herself.
she can be amusing - whether you ‘get’ her or not, her outlook is often bright - she talks about the negatives the same way she talks about the positives. can be seen as naive or gullible, but she’s plenty smart. even if half of her education has come directly from google.
philly doesn’t laugh. a smile, yes - often, in fact - not always reaching her ears, or bearing teeth - but these are not indicators of her happiness. philly is consistently content. she thinks many things are funny - she still will not laugh.
her voice is often monotonous - she doesn’t sound dreary, she sounds far-away. her voice carries. her emotions are often unknown to others.
is apathetic in most situations. she’s hard to bother - she’s incredibly patient and enjoys the company of most - tolerates them at the very least. it’s hard for her to express her emotions, because she feels them so little that it’s very nearly not worth it. her affection is not verbal - it’s small touches and gestures of kindness, love in her own way.
is a fan of knock-knock jokes and bad puns. she won’t crack a smile while telling you them, nor does she expect you to laugh. she just enjoys them.
she owns a motorola razr covered in puffy stickers - hasn’t ever had a smartphone. she’s a fan of emoticons. her favorite is :o)
has a lot of bruises and scratches and scars - she’s often getting herself into pickles. there are always, at the very minimum, three bandaids on each hand.
she has insomnia, so she’s awake often. is often seen wandering town - even when she shouldn’t be, even when it might be dangerous. her intuition is delayed. when she does sleep - her dreams are vivid and fantastical.
keeps a box of memories - sentimental bits and pieces she’s picked up over the last few years. there are a lot of buttons and postcards, but any teeny tiny object will do.
her style changes every week - most, if not all, of her clothes are thrifted. one week she’s baby spice and the next she’s lydia deetz. she combines pieces from different styles often - she looks like a barbie clothed by a child. she feels most comfortable like this.
will either patch-up the clothes that get too worn or reuse them in some way. sometimes donates the clothes she gets tired off - isn’t minimalistic, but she’s learned to keep only a small amount of possessions.
the only consistency is her lucky ribbon - it’s pastel yellow and silky and as thin as a shoelace. she ties it onto her outfit of the day, everyday. if she loses it, she’s lost. elektra has a matching ribbon.
has no problem with minor theft - she only takes bare minimum, puts herself and elektra first and that’s how it’s always been. she tries to be good while in livingstone - would hate to make enemies whilst florence is getting repaired.
they’re staying in a motel, currently, in the cheapest room they could get. philly will still visit florence. will sometimes go home with strangers purely to take advantage of a comfortable bed and a shower with better pressure.
it’s a common occurrence - she doesn’t sleep with them - but somehow, she weasels her way into their homes anyway. has come out mostly unscathed, on most occasions. this has been a practice ever since they’ve been on the road.
really, truly - has not slept with anybody, had her first and only kiss at thirteen with a frog. this doesn’t bother her. 
will consume a n y t h i n g you put in front of her - isn’t picky.
listens to whatever they’ve picked up along the way but she likes instrumentals the best. her second favorite genre is 1990′s and 2000′s top hits. they’re nostalgic for her.
loves storms - will go out in the rain and will risk her life for it.
owns a pair of roller-skates and is often skating rather than walking. unless she’s on grass - then she’s walking barefoot.
has many hobbies, and gets bored of them often. her favorite hobby is welding. she’s not certified.
also, juggles.
the kind of girl who’ll do any job you give her. odd jobs are her favorite jobs. babysitting is her least favorite - but she does it anyway. has lost children before. have they ever been found? not by philly.
dyes her hair blonde often and cuts her own hair - bangs included - finds it cathartic, likes the itchiness of bleach.
everything she does is often in pursuit of feeling free, alive, and meaningful.
wanted connections !!
random encounters - she’s new in town and doesn’t know many people - if anybody at all, so :-)
alternately, people she’s run into with elektra during their journey. whether they’ve stolen from them or stayed with them somewhere or just, ate dinner with them. anything.
someone whose couch she’s crashed on after a night of whatever - a party, adventure, etc.
people she does jobs for !! people who commission her to make stuff for them. people who need a babysitter.
people who think she’s weird - and those who like it. or those who hate it. people who don’t understand her - people who do, in their own way.
someone trying to get closer to her but she keeps slipping out from between their fingers.
a parental / older sibling figure !! they take one look at philomena and instantly want to swaddle and protect her.
people who take an immediate liking to her. people who introduce her to the music scene. people who show her around town.
someone who catches her stealing or about to dine-n-dash.
late-night walking pals.
a dealer b/c weed ? a thing.
someone who gets into a debate with her about conspiracies or superstitions or anything !! someone who gets frustrated at her apathy.
somebody who just immediately distrusts her for whatever reason.
??? you don’t have a smartphone ??? cue someone trying to teach her how they work - and philly hating it !!
thrifting pals.
m a y b e a hook-up, eventually, but it’s questionable.
something unrequited, likely on their end b/c philly is ... a hard egg to crack.
maybe something returned !! eventually. slowly. slow.
god ... someone she just tells her entire life story to. like this meme. 
i’m rly down to brainstorm and think of anything !!! dnt forget 2 leave a like :)
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the-last-airbadger · 5 years
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My 2018
It’s time for my annual evening of reflection everybody! The moment you’ve all been waiting for! It feels kinda weird to make a post like this because I feel like I haven’t done this kind of thing in ages, but it’s tradition and I like making these, so I’ve got last year’s post right with me and I’m ready for some reflection!
The Beginning of 2018 vs. Now Honestly, I don’t really remember much from the beginning of the year? I just know that I was working as a postman back then and that’s basically all I did during that period. It was cold outside, I disliked my job and I was unsure of which subject to pick to study in university. I also had some pretty bad dysphoria days around like... march? I don’t really remember. It wasn’t all bad though, I already felt a lot better than the year before and I was optimistic that it would get even better in the future. 
Best things about 2018 The very best thing to happen this year was my top-surgery. I’d been waiting for the moment I got my surgery for more than 2 years and the dysphoria became increasingly harder to deal with. On top of that I was constantly scared that something would happen that would cancel or delay my surgery. Not being able to get surgery was my #1 fear. Now, I finally can put that all behind me. I’m not fully healed yet, I still need to wear stickers to make my scars less visible, but I haven’t felt any dysphoria since my surgery. I’ve honestly never been this happy with my body. I’m still not perfect and still waiting for some testosterone changes (hurry up beard) but apart from that I am actually.... done... with my transition... whoah
The second best thing of the year was starting university. I honestly love going to school everyday, and I’ve already made a lot of new friends. I even don’t hate doing the homework, and I’m actually motivated to work hard and succeed. University has made my life so much better and I honestly haven’t been this happy since 2015. Bless uni.
Another thing that comes to mind (or things, really) is all the people I saw live this year. I saw Paramore in january, Markiplier in feburary, Evanescence in march, Dan and Phil, Ed Sheeran AND Queen in june, Jacksepticeye (for the second time) in October and Maria Mena (also for the second time) in December and every single one of those events was amazing. I crossed a lot of things of my bucketlist this year haha. Now all I need is to see my favourite kpop groups live (but I’m going to Day6 next month so I have high expectations)
There were more good things this year but they were mostly minor things. SHINee released some amazing music, LOONA debuted, I got into Stray Kids and Seventeen, discovered lots of great music, I (finally) quit my acting class after nailing the main part in our last performance, and I got my driver’s licence. I started driving lessons is Feburary, then had my first exam in june, failed it, took a small break, started again in october and finally got my licence in november. I hated those lessons with all my heart and they really depressed me, so when I finally passed and got my licence, I threw the biggest party lmao
My resolutions for 2018? So here it is, the moment of truth. I don’t even remember last years resolutions and I purposely didn’t look them up so this would all be a fresh new surprise. I always love looking back at these. That’s like 90% of the fun of making them
finally decide what to study - I’m studying English language and literature in Leiden right now and I have tests next week haha
Get Top-Surgery - Did That. Hell yeah
Write at least 100 pages of a story - I have written a little more than the previous year, but I still don’t think it’s more than 10 pages... that’s dissappointing.
Accomplish my reading challenge on goodreads - ...another fail. But! I read 24/35 books this year and that’s already 2 more than last year so there’s progress. We’ll get there eventually.
Start University - You already know the answer to that
Make new friends - Did that too! I’ve got a group of friends from university and they’re awesome
Quit my acting classes - Another success!
Learn how to drive - Even got my license ;)
Improve my drawing skills (maybe make a comic?) - Hmm I didn’t really draw much this year, and I definately didn’t make a comic, but I still think my art has improved slightly so that’s kind of a win?
Reach 300 followers on tumblr - BOI. DEFINATELY DID THAT. I’ve got 812 followers as I’m typing this right now.
Get more than 20 subs on Youtube and consistently create content for my channel - I’ve got 27 subs right now, and I’ve posted every single week. I was only late like once or twice in a whole year. I think I can call that a success.
Learn Divenire on the Piano - Ouch... still only know half the song. That’s a failure.
Dye my hair - Sadly, didn’t do that either. Hopefully next year
Continue to shower every day - I think I only skipped like 5 days in total so I’d call that a success too.
Start working out/exercising regularly - ...fail
Get new glasses - Success!
Expectations for 2019 Oh, I haven’t really thought about this. I kinda just expect a year of going to university and living an average but calm year. I know I’ll have 3 weeks off in january, in which I plan on reading a lot of books and just chill.  I’ll also go and see Day6 live in january (I’m so excited holy shit), and then in febuary my mom will move, so I’ll get a new house. Then I’ll probably pass my first year at university and start my second year. And that’s about it. Oh, and I’ll probably go on holiday to Sweden in the summer, but there isn’t much else I expect. I just expect a chill and happy year to be honest. It would also be great if I got a boyfriend/girlfriend but that’s more a wish than an expectation lol
2019 Resolutions?
Dye my hair (let’s give that another go shall we)\
Get a good haircut
Get a tattoo
Move out of my parent’s house (that’s a bold one)
Accomplish my reading challenge on Goodreads (I really want to accomplish that 35 books goal, it’s starting to haunt me)
Get tickets for A.C.E.’s concert
Get swol 
Communicate more with the people around me
Don’t let other people’s opinions shape my actions
Pass my first year at uni
Go swimming (I haven’t done that in 3 years)
Grow a beard (plz universe)
Learn how to make flipbooks (it looks really cool)
Learn how to knit (I really wanna make my own sweaters)
Read books on storytelling and learn more about how to tell a story
Develop my story more
Write at least 100 pages
Spend more time with my friends, both new friends and old friends
I think that’s it for this evening. I hope this was somewhat enjoyable to read, and I wish all of you an amazing and happy 2019!
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fart-gate · 4 years
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SG1
Season 1 episode 7
"COLD LAZARUS"
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- stargate said lets make this planet the ugliest yellow color imaginable and then did it legends
- pretty crystals🙌💎
- btw what is their job exactly? Are they paid to just........check out other planets or what
- this crystal is definitely alive
- maybe dont touch the strange crystals on a strange planet
- what did I just say
- 2 jack!
- not Jack???? Very much not Jack
- "am I using this right?" Daniels first experience with a walkie talkie
- im just gonna call this guy Not!Jack since I dont know who or what it is
- what does "sg1 is on stand down" mean? They cant go on another mission?
- oh god jacks son :(
- sams an auntie!
- they cant even tell its not him lmao guys....
- daniels onesie
- sams face when she finds out about his son 😩 you dont expect it! He doesnt act like a guy that went thru that trauma
- tealc wants to see earth!! We love a curious boi!!!
- Not!Jack said no :\
- I love the casual conversation Daniel and Sam are having while doing sciency stuff
- uuhhh???????? Not Jack is going off base not good
- hes ??? Going to harass jacks ex wife and I am uncomfortable
- well this is heartbreaking. Cant believe she had to go thru seeing again and its not even him
- his son is dead ya dumb alien!!! Figure it out!!!
- tealc my guy.....if you want to learn about earth....the news is the WORST possible option
- "your world is a strange place"
".....so is yours"
Daniel I swear to god
- is real Jack still lying on the ground on the sand planet lol
- why is Not!jack like really sad about real jacks son
- wait im curious how long has it been since his son died? Like a year and a half maybe?
- actually seeing the memory of his sons death. Tears are streaming down my face
- LMAO Sam and Daniel doing illegal experiments like enthusiastic high school chemistry students
- the goaulds are the culprits
- YO THE CRYSTAL CAN TALK
- "captain-doctor, tealc!" Daniel pLEASE just call her Sam
- "holy hannah" Holy Hannah Batman
- JACK COMES THRU THE GATE LIKE WHATS UP
- is Not!Jack somehow turning into Jack
-oh shit hes got lightening coming out him
- crystal lady says pls leave us alone
- a mass grave :( rip to all those crystal people
- the name of the crystal people planet is P3X562
- haha tealc trying to take his weapon with him bc the news scared him
- Jack going back to the hospital where his son died NO NO NO NO
- RDAs acting skills are SO GOOD
- SARAH IS SO CONFUSED SAME SIS
- "are you alright?!" ❤❤❤❤
- oh no he just wanted to help 😩 he didnt understand
- oh god its his kid
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- when Sarah sees charlie
- "we were pretty great together werent we"
"The greatest"
- bye crystal person! Sorry for the trouble go back to sleep
- "I'll be back" IT BETTER BE YOU THIS TIME BUDDY DONT MAKE ME DRAG YOU BACK THROUGH THE GATE MYSELF BECAUSE I WILL
Jack Oniell whump: thrown back twice, unconcious, not!jack , electrocuted ? , weak , out of breath,
Daniel jackson whump: jumps back in fear/surprise (less than a minute)
🎶listening to Leaving You by Maria Mena🎶 for Jack and his wife splitting up after charlie died :(
🎶listening to For The First Time by The Script 🎶 in honor of Jack and Sarah still being friends even if theyre not together :)
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debuendiente-arch · 7 years
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A Chicanx comments on a post about writing Latinx characters:
1.  Something that was not mentioned in the original post, but that needs a lot of emphasizing: Latinxs are a diverse ethnic group that make up a large part of the ���New World”. Some of the Caribbean, all of Mexico, all of Central America, and most of South America make up Latin American countries. 
Each country of Latin America has its own history, its own specific culture, its own Spanish (if Spanish-speaking), and so the first thing to keep in mind when writing a Latinx character is their culture and country of origin. 
Latinxs often do not think of themselves as Latinx first and foremost: they’re Mexican (Chicanx for those born in the US/particularly California), Colombian, Puerto Rican/Boricua, Dominican, Guatemalan, etc. If they are indigenous, they may not think of themselves as Latinx at all, but rather as their indigenous group. 
2. The use of Latinx (sometimes Latin@, Latine if spoken) is an attempt to be gender neutral in a gendered language, to be more inclusive of nonbinary people and also to not default-male when addressing a group.  
3.  It takes like 5min to explain the difference between Hispanic and Latinx. (Or the simple version of that).  Hispanic refers to those of Spanish descent/connection---which includes Spain itself as well as its former colonies (excluding the Philippines??). Latinx on the other hand, refers to those from the region known as Latin America. Another difference is that, IIRC, the US came up with/used Hispanic for census reasons while Latino/a (or Latinx, Latine) was something that Latinxs came up for themselves. Also, it includes Brazil. 
4.  Fatphobia is still a thing in this culture (obv).  I have not seen a skinny “shapeless” girl receive anywhere near the same aggression that my culture gives to fat women, regardless of “”shape””.  
5.  Spanglish’s wiki page describes it as “a name sometimes given to various contact dialects or creole languages that result from interaction between Spanish and English used by people who speak both languages or parts of both languages.“  Honestly, this whole page is a great read to get some general history and basics down.  
         a. Spanglish can totally be half a sentence in English and another in Spanish, especially if you’re speaking with another person bilingual in both languages.  
         b. Spanglish is also the use of loan words, calques, semantic extensions, etc.  
         c. Spanglish is looked down upon, esp by speakers of Standard Spanish, as a corruption of the language, or a “raced language”, or “lower class” than Standard Spanish.  
6.  There is nothing wrong with a character that has a “”stereotypical name”” as long as the rest of the portrayal isn’t stereotypical garbage. Maria is a common baptismal name for Catholics and in the context of Mexican Catholics (don’t know about other countries), is sometimes the first part of two names with the person going by the second name (or a nickname) among family, but maybe be called Maria outside the home because it’s “”technically”” the first (legal) name. 
This is more common with immigrants and older populations, at least in my family. Similarly, “”common surnames”” are common for a reason lmao. So what if they’re a Gomes or a Dias or Fuentes? It’s not a big deal!!! 
But yeah, sure, you don’t have to limit yourself to traditional names, it depends on what the parents would name their kids. You don’t even have to limit yourself to traditional Latinx surnames---again, it all depends on your character’s history and context.  
7.  Latinxs come from all sorts of socioeconomic backgrounds, whether they remained in their country of origin or they immigrated. There is nothing wrong with portraying a Latinx of any particular socioeconomic background, but be very careful of contributing to poverty porn and treat all backgrounds with the respect they deserve. 
8.  Latinidad is an ethnicity, not a race. Latin American countries are as racially diverse as places like the US, Canada, etc. The demographics depend on the history of the specific country. Nearly every post talking about Latinidad wants to go on and on about the diversity of white Latinxs, but fuck it. More importantly, there are Afro-Latinxs, indigenous people, Jewish Latinxs, MENA Latinxs, Asian Latinxs, mestizx/mixed race Latinxs. 
9.  Also not mentioned in the original post is how Latinxs, to this day, have their communities plagued by racism and colorism. How we’re also not all Catholic or even Christian---Jewish and Muslim Latinxs exist, as do those of different religions. 
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