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fair-fae · 7 years

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You know, I'm not a drama person, I don't like it, but it came up on my dash so much that I kind of had to read it. All of that nonsense could've been avoided if you didn't even take it to the public. Judging people for THEIR characters that THEY made and can do WHATEVER the hell they want with them? Oh woo ho good job, you're so popular for taking the "barrage" of it. No. all it did was prove that you're a D-bag and I've got a nice, long list of people to block now and avoid contact with.

Okay, anon. I haven’t bothered setting the record straight with most of this shit, because I know folks like you will continue to believe what you want to believe and hear what you want to hear, just like you’re doing now. But I’ll bite. You’d think all of you getting onto your soapbox about how you shouldn’t judge or attack others wouldn’t keep talking shit about a situation you know nothing about and/or are terribly misinformed about. So I’ll enlighten you with what actually happened.

A while back, the person in question got into an argument with some people on the RPC, trying to tell them that their interpretation of the lore was wrong. Rather than leaving it at that, when he effectively got shut down there, he proceeded to take a screenshot of the conversation and post it on his tumblr, complete with a rant about the people who disagreed with him, their opinions are so wrong and awful, how dare they disagree with him, etc. essentially playing the victim when he was the one to try to badger them for their opinions in the first place. He also left their names, icons, signatures, etc. in full view.I responded and told him he probably shouldn’t be trying to harass any other people about the lore considering his own character concept (thus, you would think, making my opinion on his character pretty clear). Why? Because it’s fucking true.I don’t give a shit about the lore or whether anyone follows it. Probably every single one of my own characters at least bends the lore. But at least have the self-awareness and respect for your fellow role-players to say “yeah, my character breaks the lore” or not get your jimmies rustled every time someone says “oh, yeah, his character is lore breaking.” You wanna break the lore? Cool. Own up to it. And if you do break the lore, don’t try to force everyone else into following it–especially when you can’t even admit you break lore and instead stretch the lore to try so hard to justify your entirely lore-breaking character concept. Don’t try to heckle people for presumably doing what you do but won’t admit. Granted, these people weren’t even breaking lore anyway, which makes his insistence that they were even more ridiculous.So after some excuses about how he was trying to start some intellectual discussion or something and not just drag these people despite featuring their identities and primarily just complaining about them throughout the post, he admitted he should have at least edited out their names and apologized. Great! You’d think that should be the end of it. I didn’t have anything against him at that point, but also had no desire/reason to associate with him, so I didn’t. A couple months go by. Some post comes across my dash. A girl in the community is doxxing her online ex-boyfriend in a callout post about him for unexpectedly breaking up with her because she “thinks” he was lying to her about serious issues and “believes” he was cheating on her. Because I’m a loud and opinionated person, and because that’s some heinous thing to do, I spoke out against it (via a post on my own blog without naming names, mind you, because I’m not going to hijack someone else’s post with negativity or call them out by name). The girl found it, assumed it was about herself, flipped out, and then of course I was the bad guy for saying doxxing isn’t okay. And then the person in question joins in. Not even to discuss the topic at hand, but to dredge up the old drama about how I was so mean to him and he did nothing wrong, etc. A pretty crappy 180 turn for a person who apologized and made it seem like there were no hard feelings, but whatever. Someone saw that he obviously didn’t like me, and seized the chance to try to talk shit and spread rumors because they knew he’d give them the platform. They sent him some anon about how I hate women (lmao). And of course, he published it, with no skepticism or disagreement, only more commentary about how I’m mean and awful. I went to respond, only to find myself blocked. So I went on about my life because it’s not that big of a deal, but hey. The moment you talk shit about me, especially in a venue where I can’t respond, especially facilitating some lies and BS rumors, especially after leading me to believe we’d made amends–you aren’t off limits. You don’t get spared niceness and politeness. Is that mean and petty? Probably.¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’ve never claimed to be a nice person.Now, to the horrible, awful thing I did to make this “public.” Fast forward to yesterday. I’d kept my mouth shut and left him alone. In a section of the RPC that doesn’t get a ton of traffic, largely because you have to make an account on the website and then manually opt in to this specific forum, several of us were discussing an absolutely awful person which is an unrelated story I won’t get into. Someone asked something along the lines of, “Are you guys talking about Underaged Looking Allagan Voidsent Chimera Demon Guy?” I responded with basically “No, we’re not talking about Underaged Looking Allagan Voidsent Chimera Demon Guy.” And that was it. We moved on with the conversation because he wasn’t who we’d been talking about. His name, tumblr, server info, in game race, class, etc. was all never given. No identifiable information beyond a very brief and tongue-in-cheek description of his RP character comprised of words taken directly from his own wiki, tumblr info, talk of his own character and RP posts.Someone saw the conversation, and based on our intentionally shitty description, was able to accurately guess who we were talking about and send him an anon to tell him about it. You’d think that would be pretty telling about his own RP, and this anon’s interpretation of it. He answered the anon in a long rant about me that featured both my in game name and my tumblr handle. In case you need me to spell this out for you, he went public with it first. I’ll also remind you that I was blocked, so I wasn’t/couldn’t be following him, and I was not properly @tagged in this rant, so I never would have seen it unless someone told/linked me, or someone I follow eventually reblogged it. And I honestly can’t imagine the level of narcissism it takes to write a long personal post full of wangst and victim-playing every time you hear a person had something negative to say about you or your RP character (not even by name–and by picking words from his own descriptions of his character), especially a person you have had issues with in the past and who you openly shit-talked yourself prior. Who does that? Lord knows my blog would be overflowing. Not everyone will like you, especially not people you jabbed at first. Especially not with an off the wall RP concept. Especially not with you trying to pass that concept is lore abiding and just “unusual.” Especially not with you trying to tell other people they’re “wrong” about the lore. Especially not with your character being a squicky, walking fetish and immortal jailbait. And that’s not even touching other things people have told me about this person that rubbed them the wrong way. Move on with your life.However, I found out about the post thanks to the OP himself when he unblocked me just to send me the link to the post and then before I could even read/respond to the post, sent me a barrage of IM’s still playing the innocent victim which is grating enough on its own but also included him straight up lying about ever posting/saying anything about me, insisting he’d done nothing to me, had nothing against me, this was so out of the blue and uncalled for, etc. When I pointed out this wasn’t the case, that I had seen and read the posts firsthand because blocking me doesn’t prevent me from seeing his posts, he began to lie instead about the contents of said posts and pulled some gaslighting bullshit about how I had just “misread” them, all the while either willfully or coincidentally not seeming to understand anything I said to him (I mentioned him publishing the anon about how I hate women at least twice and the response was always “I never said you hate women!!” Well no shit). He kept insisting that I had “gone behind his back” and that if I had a problem I should “say it to his face” despite the fact he’d had me blocked and that I’m not a douchey enough person to try to contact him despite that, and despite the fact that he had “gone behind my back” and not “said it to my face” twice now prior, and had done just that with his post about the folks from the RPC as well.He also insisted that the tumblr post was meant just to innocently “bring the issue to my attention to clear things up” despite me having no way to see it on my own unless by coincidence, and despite him proving to be willing and able to send me IM’s instead, which you’d think could render the need for a public post moot. When I pointed this out, he promptly deleted the post, lest anyone else see through his bullshit to what he was really trying to do.After my initial response to his wall of IM’s, he sent another wall this time with more insults and accusations, and promptly blocked me so I couldn’t respond. So yes, I made a vaguepost, I know, how awful, how dare I. A vague post vague enough that only someone who had seen his post, or who heard about it from him otherwise, would know who and what it was referencing. Until he responded to it himself, that is and unblocked me again to send me more angry messages to which I responded by permanently blocking him instead because this game of blocking and unblocking sure was getting old.Cue his charming friends sweeping in to tell me to eat a dick, making false accusations against my RP partner and I, sending me threats on Discord, telling people I flashed my breasts for money, etc. And the other person? The one who brought him up in the first place who I had only been responding to? Whose name he was given, was aired in the same public post on his blog as mine? As far as I know, she hasn’t gotten any hate, probably not a single message. And I’m glad, because she shouldn’t get any, she doesn’t deserve it. But at the same time, sure seems sketchy that the person who did the same exact thing as me–and who did it first–has not provoked anyone’s ire, not even been messaged. The public post in reply to the anon who named her, even, was aimed 100% at me. Now isn’t that funny. It’s almost like this was an excuse for people who already had beef with me to try to take shots at me and pretend it was justified. It’s almost like all you anon keyboard warriors don’t even know how this started or what actually happened.And now I’m going to talk about something else. You cannot do “whatever the hell you want” with your character. RP is a two-way (or more) street. There is a real person behind each and every character. These people are looking for fun just like you, and are every bit as deserving, and your fun shouldn’t impede on theirs. We are all allowed equal parts of fun.So when people play their weird ass lolicon/shotacon/pedobait characters, who is having fun? What if the other person in the RP was sexually abused as a child and you’re dredging up terrible old memories for them and making light of their pain? What if they’re a parent worried for their child, or worse, the parent of a child who’s already been abused? What if they’re an actual pedophile and seeing you RP this is tempting them, making them think they’re desires are normal and okay? Hell, what if they’re a goddamn ordinary person who finds it creepy and uncomfortable?What if the fetishized, futa ERP avatar is interacting with someone who is trans or nonbinary or intersex IRL? What if it’s triggering them (in the genuine, real sense of the word)? What if the walking affront against the lore character talking about being an Voidsent Half-Primal Garlean Spy in the middle of the Quicksand is ruining everyone’s immersion–particularly when they refuse to play along as others respond realistically IC and try to kill them or arrest them or kick them out? What if the OP af infinitely-stronger-than-everyone-else-around-him character is making the RP unfun for every other RPer involved because their characters can’t do anything but get beaten up or bow to his whims unless they stoop to godmodding or suddenly beefing up their own character?People can and will judge your character. Those judgments are usually best left kept themselves or quietly shared between trustworthy friends. But when your character trespasses on the OOC fun of the role-players around you? Sorry, my guy, people have every right to speak up. And all this nonsense? All this nonsense was a small handful of people who were already pretty nasty showing their true colors and getting told to pipe the fuck down. A pretty good outcome, if you ask me. So, please, block me, anon. My life will be better without idiots like you in it, and the same probably goes for anyone else you intend to block. Your nameless, ignorant, anonymous presence will not be missed–or noticed, for that matter.

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feelings-are-useless · 7 years

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Looking through my tumblr was usually my daily ritual, reading the current articles, looking at the hilarious memes, and finding great life hacks that I would utilize in the future. I never checked my messages anymore. You must be wondering “Why?” Well take that blame on a friend who is tired of me. Along with her girlfriend. When I met them we became fast friends and things went uphill from there. Sure, we had our moments of angers towards each other, but when they were making a webcomic I was excited, I wanted to have my original character posted in that comic.

That’s when things went downhill….

Somewhere in January I redesigned my OC to look more cyberpunkish since said that any character could look steampunkish or cyberpunkish. So I redesigned him to look more like a person from a cyberpunk person. I used references from Pinterest and let my imagination flow. What even made things better was when her and I were talking and I wanted to redesign him to be more hacker like. She approved the idea. Afterwards I wanted to write a story while also giving snippets of his past that would be added into his bio.

However… this turned out to be the gravest mistake I ever made..

One night when me and my so-called “friend” I shot a conceptual idea for the story I was doing be aware it was conceptual… then out of the blue. She replied saying “that your making your OC’s OP again.” That I can understand I could reduce the conceptual idea to just him being a shop owner and all. “Plus your OC kind of looks like Sombra..” she said throughout her string of replies , Wait a second.. I got the references from pinterest when looking up cyberpunk clothing not like Sombra. Didn’t you also say that you hated it when someone compared your character to a popular icon like someone from Homestuck?

Then came the kicker… “You have not improved with your characters since April.” She said on her last reply.

Then I stopped talking to her and blocked her,

One, was so she couldn’t see all the depressing shit I reblog onto my profile

Two, I needed time away. Yeah I could’ve stopped talking and moved away but there were two people who I blocked before saying my art was shite.

Over the course of the next few weeks I saw nothing from her, until yup my fucking snapchat… How could I forgotten I added her on snapchat. I couldn’t catch every message since snapchat deletes a message. However I caught was “So Bye, Binch”..

That’s when reality hit me… She was truly tired of me…

Back when I used by one of my friends who was famous on tumblr and used me as an attack dog. I sent her a message saying she’ll get tired of me and leave me and she replied with.

“I’ll never get tired of you…”

Seems like she’s tired of me and to add an insult to injury guess who came walking in.

That’s right, her fucking girlfriend.

She was pissed as well and tired of helping me as well telling me how pissed she was at me for not doing the right thing, and she was relentless and told me even further that I stole Sombra’s abilities, backstory, concept, etc.

First off “THE FUCK!?” I thought to myself. His past was never inspired by fucking Sombra! Plus he doesn’t even have any of her fucking abilities! He does not use an EMP, Translocator, or fucking turns invisible.

Still she complained ” but still you took her abilities and backstory and we could get sued and go to court for doing that!”

Oh for fucks sakes, I didn’t understand what concept meant, but I think she meant the idea behind Sombra or the ARG.

Finally, she told me I was out of RGBY until I unblocked her wife and apologized but I was on a ticking time bomb..

Bomb? No.. more like a fucking room of bombs…

So I had until the next day to unblock her… I tried to find a way to unblock her, be aware this is on tumblr mobile it did not unblock her which led to me to believe that she blocked me on tumblr.

However as if so.. hell hath no fury like the devil scorned.

Her girlfriend messaged me saying “so what does that prove. She never blocked you on tumblr, she only blocked you on snapchat…”

Then in a flash like a bullet aimed at my heart an insult came from the message.

“DUMBASS” was embedded in the message.

I have had suffered hearing this word before.. and now here I’am a college student an eighteen year old man.. getting shot at by an insult that I hoped I would never hear again.

I worked on getting her unblocked and sent her an apology. Oh god… I was in for a bloody painful ride.

Insult after insult thrown at me How she was tired of me, and how she and her girlfriend were the ones working on the comic, and how I should improve. I could not see every one of the messages she threw at me but If I recall she called my OC for her webcomic a

“GARY FUCKING STU”…. DO I NEED TO REPEAT MYSELF YOU FUCKING DAFT ASSHOLE! HE. DOES. NOT. USE. SOMBRA’S ABILITIES. EXCEPT FOR THE HACK ABILITY!!!

“I’m so tired of having to help your Black Ass!!!” Well I’m tired of having to listen to this fucking lecture you fucking hypocritical snake!! I think to myself

“You’re a fucking moron”….. no words… I have no fucking words…

My two friends who thought I could trust, who I thought I could be friends with, and someone I supported.. lost my respect and if anything happens to them, they don’t deserve my sympathy…

They deserve my silence.

Afterwards…. I never returned to my main blog to post anything. I’d rather remain here on my vent blog rather than look at the pain caused by my so called friends. I never asked for this, I never did, nor did I ever wanted it to happen.

Then I had a theory in my head, People in this world can get tired of you and start to attack you based upon your weaknesses. This is why there was the weak and the strong. The strong conquer the weak. As for myself I’m part of the weak. I will perish knowing good and well I died as a weakling.

No wonder why I want to escape this worthless reality. So i can avoid getting hurt.

And for those who are encouraging about to say: “It’s Ok, You’ll find others” “There are other people out there who want to be your friend...” Your right

but just imagine how long does it take for a person to get tired of me..

A day?

A Month?

A Year?

just imagine that..

#I hate my life #sad #depression #pathetic #suicde #no one cares

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