#i should go to bed but i don't want to hang up w nicole

[sweetteaswift]

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#idk what's going on but i'm not doing too hot #but like i'm Not Upset and Nothing Is Wrong i'm just overwhelmed by my own brain and my own feelings #idk #i should go to bed but i don't want to hang up w nicole #it's not like we're talking anyway and i literally have my earbuds in #but still #i'm just #i don't know #same feelings from last night and earlier today i just don't know #why does my brain do thisssssss #why can we not just be chill and calm and okay #why do we have to go so fast #why do we have to feel things so deeply and thoroughly and completely #and so Soon #it's scary #okay it's Scary #because i know i'm setting myself up to be hurt and i just #idk idk idk #ignore me #i'm rambling and just #idk ignore all of this #also don't take this as we're having issues bc we Aren't it's just my dumb brain #mine