#i think what im trying to say here is just that Damian's main love language is gift giving and acts of service

[slightly-depressed-sloth]

Little fandom vent; sometimes I get annoyed at the way fandom reduces Damian down to stabby child who only cares about himself and does murder. Like yeah while I get fandom almost always reduces characters down to their funniest or snappiest traits Damian's just doesn't make sense.

Like his whole character is about how much he DOESNT want to be those things.

Damian cares so so so much about other people he just struggles to express it bc it takes a lot for him to trust someone enough to believe they're not going to pull the rug out from under him or betray him somehow. If he didn't care about other people he wouldn't have spent months trying to find Martha's pearls in the sewer, risking his life bc there was a bounty on his head at this point and further ruining his image with Bruce (who thought Damian was just sneaking off and putting himself in danger). He wouldn't have denounced the league and everything he knew to protect a man he'd met less than a year ago. He wouldn't have purposely failed a timed test as Robin to get across the city as fast as possible (a test that would've allowed him to go out alone as Robin and given him more independence one of things Damian values very highly) instead he went over the allowed time by more than 10 hours BC he helped old women with their shopping and walked women home after they were robbed and he sat with a man he saw crying in his apartment for more than 2 hours just having tea with him. I could go on and on about all the genuinely kind things he does bc Damian's empathy and kindness is one of his defining traits actually.

And yeah he used to kill people and he was more prone to violence than the other Robins but he was literally raised in an environment where his worth and by proxy his survival was tied to how well he did murder. I'm pretty sure if you raised any child in an environment where since they were born they were rewarded for killing and violence but punished for showing mercy and told them that it's for the greater good, that they're special and that there's nothing wrong with killing if the ends justify the means they'd end up the same.

Not to mention Damian fights so hard to not be violent bc he doesn't want to be, the people Damian admires most in the world (Dick and Jon) both based their entire personality around Superman (also it's confirmed Supes is his fav justice Leaguer in supersons). Damian wants to be like them so bad and wants to be kind and outgoing and as pacifist as you can get as a vigilante. Damian struggles so much to be that person but it's not as easy as just stopping when you've been conditioned your whole life that killing is the right move and that your worth as a person and the love of those around is dependent on you doing it. He literally keeps a sketch book where he just draws out all the intrusive violent thoughts he gets while fighting villains to get the anger and compulsion out so that he DOESN'T do those things. And Damian feels immensely guilty about all of his past murders which is shown over and over. When he kills no-body (an action he did to protect Bruce) he asks Bruce afterwards how he's supposed to make amends, how he's supposed to live with it.

Which leads me onto the other thing (and hopefully the last cause wow this is getting long) even Damian at his absolute worst only performs extreme violence out of either self defense or logic to him. He doesn't do it out of maliciousness (or at least that isn't the motivating factor). His worst actions were probably in his introduction where he 1) He accosted Alfred and stole the key to exit the batcave 2) Decapitated a villian 3) Attacked Tim

So let's get background on these events from Damian's pov. Damian has never been told who his father is and has to duel his mother every year on his birthday for the chance to find out. And then on his 10th birthday he wins and then that same night he's taken on a plane to go live with this man who he's told about on the plane ride over, then his first impression of him is Bruce fighting a bunch of manbats. His mother says she's leaving him with him indefinitely not telling him when she'll be back. And then this man who he only found out about hours beforehand takes him on another plane to a foreign country where he knows no-one and he finds out his father has other children as well. He's then locked in a small room adjoining a fucking cave full of weapons and told virtually nothing with no-one really talking to him except for them telling him that oh yeah everyone you know and trust is evil and your whole world view is wrong. And then when he yells at Bruce and has what's honestly best described as a temper tantrum (BC oh yeah he was literally 9 years old until a couple hours ago) Bruce in a bid to try and control his anger (since he's not sure how dangerous he is yet) uses league tactics on Damian telling him that he's dishonouring those who taught him. So the literal child whose spent his 10th birthday being flown around the globe to be a dumped in a foreign country with a man he's never met and only knows is a good fighter with a family consisting of an unknown amount of other allies who are similarly trained and then was locked in a room after being told his whole life is a lie might be forgiven for latching onto the only familiar thing here and going 'oh! Now I know how this works'

With the knowledge that Damian definitely decided from this conversation that the bats operate the same as the league it's pretty clear his reasoning is

1) Accosting Alfred and and stealing the key - a) I don't think you'd wanna be locked in a space by a bunch of strangers either no matter how nice the space is b) he probably assumed it was a challenge to see whether he was able to break out and a way they were testing his worth/ability

2) Decapitated a villian - once again assuming this is a test and trying to prove his worth/help his father in the mission to stop crime he was just told about

3) attacked Tim - a) Damian assumes that since Tim is home that he must be the current favourite and it's already known that in the league the way you replace someone is by killing them thus proving you were better than them. B) in the league if you were not the favourite/the best you were disposable c) the only way Damian knows how to earn/receive love is by performing violence, it's pretty reasonable that a 10 year old would try to go above and beyond to earn their new father's love (especially for a child like Damian whose always looking for that unconditional love he's been denied)

From Damian's perspective here he's being the best son anyone could want, he's doing the most past the point he'd be expected to and only being met with anger and disgust. Not to mention that from his view he's literally ensuring his safety since once again in the league Damian was one of the only people whose safety was ensured by proxy of him being the heir/favourite, we literally see them kill other leaguers as part of training.

Like this isn't to excuse what he did or say it's right but it is to point out that it WAS right from Damian's point of view and that he doesn't do what he does out of malice or blood thirst he's just a small child who quite literally didn't know any better.

(also him being mean is similarly a self defense thing, it's fairly common in abused kids. It's the logic of you can't hurt me if I hurt you first/you can't hurt me if I don't let you get close enough)

#damian wayne #honestly i feel like most ppl have only ever read his introduction and it shows #so while we're here read his run with Dick's batman and also born to kill #also supersons and gotham academy bc omg wholesome #batfamily #batfam #fandom #fandom analysis #meta #slightlyslothspeaks #dc #dc robin #damian al ghul #tbh too damians canon personality is already pique comedy without just making him a murder baby #boy is literally just a tsundere #like no he wont say outright that he likes maps and hanging out with her #but he will set up an entire scavenger hunt and detective game AS ROBIN to gift her a first edition D&D book #i think what im trying to say here is just that Damian's main love language is gift giving and acts of service

[powadeli]

deconstruction 1.1 contextual awareness/industry awareness/products/creative output.  EVALUATIVE REPORT

hi my name is David Chijioke Ibekwe aKa SAFARI,this nickname comes from a personal characteristic of me approaching the music,music always been a natural expression and a something coming from any feeling or emotive state of mind  i been through,another reason the connect me to this name is,the passion i have for the world nature animals  they inspired me a sense of grandeur and a connection between god and  human kind.I am a song writer originally from Nigeria but burn in Italy in the city of Assisi Umbria.I’ve lived most of my life between there an a nearby city named perugia,my parents where separate sins i was a kid and then i’ve been always travelling between this two cities.i got clear reminds about my young kid,use to play football for years,and i was very good at it, at that time thought was all my life,it was the thing was kipping me alive and out from problems.My father was a musician around his 20′s he was playing base for a music band,and i remember him playing sometimes on sundays or playing  vynils of high life Nigerian music,he been playing various, of different countries also,i remember lucky dube tapes planty,remember congolese music,cofi olamide or on the american pop soul music of sade,me and my older brother were living with my dad,and on the weekends my other older brother was coming to pic us up from dad home that were in (assisi) and he was taking us to mum home in  (perugia).my holder brother is a music enthusiast tho,and he was dj when i was younger,and at that time his car speakers where totally modified to be loud.when he was coming out the street we knew it for the loud music he was playing,he was listening mostly dancehall/soca caribbean  music and afrobeats,my mother was owner of an african restaurant/pub/club,when me an my  brother was visiting on the weekends, we was always there at the restaurant an always between people and music.i been playing football from the 5 years old till my 19.sins i was younger i always been going school and  football with my earphones,always had music on me,was listening before any football competition,buss  schooling the street.I never thought before my 17 years old that i had this natural passion for music and may was more than a listening thing.ive started writing songs at 18, started with reggae music and rap,day after day my belief about the music world was stronger,when was on secondary school been studying at industrial technical institute,but never felt in love with it till diploma.i’ve started writing songs more or less everyday for this years i where living in Italy i’ve started working with some friends,we started recording and making projects after two years of training and work,i came out with a  mix tape,and i had an amazing reaction from people,they was liked it, i was surprised and happy cause never thought that the music i been listening for all my life where what was making me feel good,was surprised someone cud ever like it,ive recorded many songs randomly in that years remember even the raw quality of all and the getting better time over time i been spending in to music,after the mix tape i’ve done an album of 11  tracks but i never released  it.but never supposed,i’ve always been attracted from Afrobeats/caribbean music but my roots coming from old school rap,soul r&b and funky jazz,i got many mentors,and i think my mains that gave life to the music im doing today are singers like stevie wonder,fela kuti,bob marley ,marvin gaye,whitney houston,de la soul,fuggies,soul to soul,2pac ,B.I.G,Erika badu, method man and many more,music in this years teached me that the listening is one of the best ways to learn,I had influeces by many different types of  music,that’s why today i can not say that i’ve a one mentor.furthermore i can not really give an identity to my style,i’ve started with reggae/dancehall music been doing some rap aswell on many songs,and the album that i’ve never relise was a well done mix of types of music,from reggae to hip hop fanky soulfull house and dancehall, had other experiences with music,im temperamentally a charismatic person and,that aspect of me helped me on all the live performances i’ve done till today..My first performance been to a event in a club called LIDO,was a freestyle  and singing competition,i’ve won the singing one,I never been in many freestyle competitions cause i never been singing in italian apart from a couple songs,was been speaking italian for most of my life so for me been difficult to sing or rap freestyling in english at that time.i was writing more than freestyling was spending most of my day inside my room doing it.for a period i been working every day,after school with my friends,ive performed many times around my city,know im in London from more or less 3 years and im working full time in a bar,i got many things to learn about music many times i feel like im waisting my time doing something different than music,i would love to work full time in the music business and have more time for focus in what i really love and i enjoy to do,to improve it with all my might and kip and make it professional..And i know that the occasions are not many but if it were given to me i’ll do my best to handle it.

IMAGE AND IDENTITY:

Being a Nigerian originally but born in Italy as many others i got my own particular identity,i can not say that i am fully Nigerian as i can not say i am fully Italian,my identity is not clare but is unique,i got a big part of Nigerian culture in me but a big Italian to.

I can relate my own identity  to someone representing my generation and  the change the world going through,no language assigned to colour,milting pot, love and unity.I can relate my artist identity to music talking  to many people in different languages,i can relate my identity as the voice of people that like me coming from different parts of the heart living in Italy and all around the world.

I want my image to be a prove of self made man,i want my image to be simple cause i am simple and i come from a humble family,I want to give power to people coming from districts like mine,big cities around the world,people from villages in Africa and in all the world,i want to encourage people and make them understand that nothing is impossible as is something I'm fighting for,i really feel part of the people and ordinary people is what i want to represent.

CREATIVE OUTPUT:

 my first experiences with music have begun at the age of 18, with the help of a friend that was owing a little studio in his house,he’s holder than me of two years and he was already in the music for a bit longer than me, i started to record  songs on rap and reggae character i had the first contact with the recording in a studio well equipped,i started to have a clear image of what i was doing little by little,before publishing the first songs i been writing and recording random songs for months,i been performing straight way,when something was ready we was looking for a performance to show what we made,so i was improving even my confidence to performance  at the first real concrete contact with the performing artist world,and i been making my confidence trying to improve and give more value on the work we been doing,especially that year we worked a lot,we been performing as well on events.we relies my first ,mix tape.when we relies the mixtape i had a good feedback from the people,and even if my music was raw still cause my singing gave me a reason to put it on work harder. 

i started to perform my mixtape around my city i been performing in different situations.in some way i feel very prepared for live performances,i think is one of my strongest aspects,after the mixtape we start working on an album called (I'm on the run).my first mixtape was more reflected to artist and mentors i was in to, like the game, jay-z  n.w.a, snoop dogg fuguess,bob marley and lucky dude for the reggae   tony matterhorn for the dancehall and others more.

bob Marley been one of the stronger motivation and a mentor for me to be a musician.I Loved the strength of his songs and words,he was unique on his kind.

Even this two guys done good part of my personal artist development,they made the first change in the rap/hip hop music they was the origin of every thing,for me and for many others.they’re the hugest example of the music i do come from.And when i remind them i like to think that if they was alive today they would have been like this.

And this artist are some of does ones that introduced me in the reggae dancehall world,especially damian marley,i’ve always love the positive vibes of the caribbean music.

i think that my product as music is enjoyable from many people of different ages and different cultures.i like to play on notes and melodies as i like to rap and change to melodic rhythmic.

401/2.1

SHOWCASE OF FEBRUARY.

with urban development in the foreground we been presenting ourselves artist knowledge and we were asked to chose images we liked, to motivate the choice and to express the essence of does, we were asked to tell about our background and  previous music experiences and influences,we been discussing about whats behind  an artist,whats the purpose and all of this here an artist is surrounded, which is very important cause many times artists are not really reflecting on whats behind them own music and we don’t give much attention to what we trying to achieve instead having a clear idea analyzing step by step.We basically did an in-depth research about our selves and how to give more value to our actions.

I am living in London for almost 3 years and i haven't  done any performance before the one of February sins I'm here,my last performance been in Italy and for the show case my thought was to take it as trying refresh my confidence with it,i wasn’t having any kind of tension about it,was just thinking had to make it. I'm working full time most of the days on the closing shift of the bar,so I'm very use to write during the night,from two days before the showcase i been finishing an exercising a song that i hadn't finish before called ‘’every day’’the song talking about a girl that comes out in the same place that I and my friends are listening to,and she is simple and beautiful and everyone seeking her attention.

i chose that song and i worked out melodies and variations for a performance contest,i been working till late morning and i came out with a grate verse and good melodies.was excited about it and was ready for the showcase.

the day of the show case before we started the performance we been trying the songs,

at the beginning i was thinking  to perform just a song cause i thought that was the time available to perform for itch of us,during the afternoon we knew we cud perform more than one song, i was preparing for the first song and when i finish to work on that one i supposed to start refresh the second one  that i’ve chose and i’ve wrote couple weeks earlier but i thought that i was all right,and i didn’t practice the second song,and it was  the one i started the performances and when my turn came in the middle of the song i choke and i lost the rhythm and i’ve song half verse and  the last chorus,wasn’t expecting to get froze cause i was feeling ready,i gave space to the artist after me and when my time came back again i performed ‘’everyday’’.it gone well,apart the mistake in the other song,that anyway teaches me to never forget to practice and refresh my own songs before a performance even if i feel more than ready.

MY OWN BRAND  2.1: 

I'm still working on a nice logo to promote with my music,my logo name is (self made)  I always been thinking to unite my music to a fashion clothing brand,i would like to do it but don't got a clear idea at the moment even if i love fashion and i care about my image as musician.I really like acting,and i think that acting is part of music I'm already thinking to make a corse and learn more to put some more knowledge in to my carrier.

MARKET AWERNESS:

my plans for this year are many,I'm starting to publish music here in London and you  can find my music on soundcloud and youtube mostly.i want top m,market my music differently even with live and short videos in Facebook instagram and other socials.

CLIENT FANBASE:

Think my target audience is people from 15 to 40′s but i can not give a limit to my target cause i think that my music in years can be likeable from people of different ages been honest can't identify without a feed back,and i think that my music is for a womans who like to dace as mans and all people who like a different vibe and emotion.think that this days people listening more my kind of music,cause is rhythmic sensual and soulful and thers many artist out there doing a grate job with this music.i would like my fanbase to follow me an like me as i am,not pretending to be loved from everyone but think that the best way to let the people know you is to be your self,think that how you're in social networks you should be in life,I'm part of ordinary people so I'm fine with that.

INDUSTRY AWARENESS:

the kind of music I'm in to today is mostly  is about new generation afrobeat/caribbien music,in my case is quiet mix with the rap hip hop religion,got ideas of music labels that cud be interesting for me like ‘’mavin records,YBNL nation,starboy entertainment,epic sony records black butter records.

my plans are to build a fan base in England and in Italy at the moment,I'm Nigerian and would like to get even the Nigerian attention and I'm working forward to get it.

401/1.3 - Tumblr  Presentation (Deconstruction of the Artist