#i was not prepared to relate so hard

[cloudysfluffs]

do you ever draw something that objectively ISNT tickle art.......but then you look at your own drawing like. hmmmmm. i know What You Are.

#is this relatable #anyway. im drawing helluva art now :] so stay tuned #like i said the piece im working on is objectively. not tickl-y. like if youre not totally trashbrained like me then it can pass for normal #but i am thinking. Evil thoughts while drawing it #(by evil i mean Lee) #im probably gonna make a sequel that IS actually tickly LMAOSHDJKFLHDFJK #prepare to not only be subjected to my redesigns but to my RAREPAIR!!!!!!! #sjkldfjhsdkf it might not actually be rare idk. but its hard as fuck to find good content for it

[itsjusteds]

I've decided that the only way I can get closure on all of the violent excitement I feel over Spies are Forever takes 2 simple steps

Step 1: Meet Curt Mega (and or Joey Richter)

Step 2: Violently shake his shoulders while failing to form coherent thoughts

Am I aware this will never happen? Yes. Yes I am, but listen I also didn't think I could draw all 55 saf characters and I did soooooo

#GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE #I NEED TO BECOME AN ORB OF LIGHT TO PROPERLY EXPRESS MY FEELINGS ABOUT SAF AND ALL RELATED MEDIA #I AM LIMITED TO THIS MORTAL FLESH SUIT THAT THE DEITIES ABOVE PUT ME IN AND ITS INCAPABILITIES ARE INFURIATING #I APOLOGIZE FOR THE PERSON I WILL BECOME WHEN I GET MY GRUBBY LITTLE FINGERS ON A DIGITAL TICKET OF SPY ANOTHER DAY #THEY HAVE BEEN ROTATING IN MY HEAD FOR MONTHS NOW #Listen maybe if i manifest hard enough my 2 step program will become possible #Eds 2 Step Program #i am experiencing violent excitement #thats the best way to explain it #its excitement but its violent #im not just pumped i need to hit something #its autism awareness month so be prepared TO BE AWARE OF ME BRO #saf #spies are forever #spy another day

[bumblingbabooshka]

The EMH's smug face ... you just know she thinks she's killing it

#st voyager #EMH #the doctor st voyager #1: I like the harried look of this one #2: Something reminiscent of how the doc in canon would style Seven's hair #in general I think it'd be interesting if the doc realized she was trans bc of how much she enjoys being seen as a woman #rather than disliking being seen as a man #'Why doesn't Seven like this???? This is amazing....I don't understand why Seven doesn't like this???' The Doctor thinks. #<- she is so close #3: I wanted to draw like...an 'extension' of her canon hair. Very basic - like it was already an option in her code #bea art tag #st voyager fanart #preparing to unleash hell on my patrons by the way (related to this) #<- it's so hard to draw the doctor's face though. everytime I do it's like 'this is just some guy'

[birdietrait]

i am going to need several days to process that album holy shit

#birdie rambles #adrianne lenker you’re a genius #still sobbing over real house #a song hasn’t hit me that hard in a while #i just relate so deeply i was not prepared #ok goodnight 🫂 i need to sleep for about 12 hours after that

[scaryinclusive]

oh cool, a diagnosed person with antisocial personality disorder discussing their perspective on life etc etc, hopefully they're not ableist!

their content: how to destroy a narcissist from a sociopath's pov.

#im so eager once ive dealt with some personal stuff #to work on... creating a space where?? #we aren't tearing each other down? #i dont think ive managed to find any audible content yet #by pwnpd or pwaspd that isnt #playing to the stereotype... playing to the needs of ableists or #internally ableist in some way #and that really kills me #there are like 2 or 3 aspd vids but No npd content #there's always in fighting somewhere always so prepared #to drag potential allies down #and for what #personal. #i just want a relatable space where im not demonised and #ppl aren't handing out guides on how to fuck me over #when im trying so hard and spending a fortune on recovery for myself

[united-under-skyfall]

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#i think one thing i really didn't prepare for w overnights is just how fucking lonely it is. like yeah 80% of the reason i took it was to #get away from customers but like. it worked. and the night shift team is v v small. there's only 4 of us and we've never been scheduled all #at once yet. and usually we're running around on completely opposite ends of the building going long periods of time without #radioing each other. and then i come home all amped up and the rest of my house is still asleep. and then when they wake up #it's just to get ready and go and we don't really have time to talk. and by the time they get back i'm sleeping #and it's my first night off and i can't fuck up my whole schedule i worked so hard to switch over to w them flipping me all over the place #so now i'm just like. sitting in the half light trying not to wake anybody up not doing anything. the only places near us open are #gas stations and i can't exactly loiter there and what would i do even if i could. and it's too cold to go for a walk or to the park #or something. and i feel like i haven't talked to another human being about something that wasn't related to work in years #and it's only been a week. #and we can listen to music or podcasts or something but our carts and machines are so loud you miss half of it. and we can't hold #super long conversations when we ARE in the same room for the same reasons. plus we all want to die so none of us feel like talking. #and just. im tired and lonely and want to sleep and im already regretting this but i'd feel bad for backing out now when they have so #few options and i volunteered for it in the first place #and then there's also like. even just doing my usual solitary thing at home feels so much more isolated bc there's not the noises #of other people existing nearby. the nearest signs of life are some coughing and then a car on the other side of the block #just. what am i even doing here. #tag ramble

[songofwizardry]

it is october of 2023 and i am watching gravity falls for the first time. living my best life tbh

#this is entirely caused by the fact that i wanted spooky octobery content #and it's too warm for me to start my ogtw rewatch #and i am vv extremely tired and as much as i would love to watch. yknow. all twenty of the shows i need to watch including good omens s2 #and ofmd s2 #and mentopolis #a 22 minute episode length is beating all those outta the park #it's so good #i can completely see why everyone loves it but also #it aired at *just* the right time for me to miss it completely? #like i was just too old for it and my brothers were just too young #and i wasn't yet old enough to go 'hmm i should watch this kids animated show that i will love' i was busy watching bbc sherlock ok #anyway #i would've related way too hard to dipper if i'd watched this at like 10 or 11 #send me your thoughts and prayers tomorrow i gotta run an oxbridge test prep session #and yes i am watching gravity falls half awake instead of preparing for that #bc i love myself too much to do oxbridge physics questions at 8pm and i have no regrets #i ramble in the tags

[theflyingfeeling]

me in the Olli/Allu delelu land trying to explain how Olli acting weird and Aleksi suddenly smoking and them secretly glancing at each other must be all connected somehow

because they ARE!! 😭 we may be yet to connect the dots, but we're getting there okay, we're not crazy 😤

(don't forget the sunglasses!! I haven't figured out how but I just know they're somehow relevant in all this as well 😤 he just seems weirdly attached to them (and the bandana around his neck which he's been wearing in literally every picture we've seen of him for almost two weeks now?? not counting the pictures taken in the pool) like, did he pay and arm an a leg for them (I'm not sure if he's worn that exact pair before? I may be wrong though lol I often am with stuff like this) and justified the purchase to himself by swearing he'd wear them every chance he gets for the rest of the year lol

#the rest goes in the tags because okay fine i MAY be just a little bit crazy sdgjsdjgsgdsg but hear me out alright #let's say aleksi used to smoke but quit because it's unhealthy #now why do people usually relapse with smoking? #for fun ig but he's said many times he's trying to be healthier. dude won't drink pepsi with caffeine in it but cigarettes are fine? 🙄 #sure the reasons are individual but at least in my mother's case it was often when she felt stressed out about random shit #so perhaps aleksi took up smoking again because something's stressing him out / making him anxious / worrying him #it could be the tour but it's not like they haven't been on tour in the US before so why would he be particularly stressed out about that? #could be something work-related but unrelated to the band. a project he had to put on hold because of the tour? #because from what i've understood the HU supporting gig happened on quite a short notice #tbh that alone could very legitimately be a cause of stress on its own. not enough time to prepare? not enough time to spend with the fam? #(perhaps if you weren't streaming every other evening...🙄) #or maybe he's just jetlagged and nicotine is his remedy of choice? #ooooooorrr it could be something related to his personal life. hard to say what though. a sudden change? general anxiety? #he doesn't /seem/ particularly anxious though but the hell would i know #so... aleksi taking up bad habits + olli's weird behaviour + secret glances and maybe low-key avoiding each other = ??? #my theory is still that they hooked up and are now forced to deal with the consequences 😶 #''how are they avoiding each other exactly?'' one might ask and worry not! i am prepared for counterarguments! ☝️ #to put it briefly: the delulu in me says so 😌 #(this applies to everything i wrote above 😂 i'm writing this just for my and y'all's entertainment you know) #ollixallu #answered asks #sparfloxacin

[mypoisonedvine]

i am DEVOURING everything for cillian rn and i love every single piece you put out, i was just wondering if you’re going to write for pedro again or is that chapter closed ? i hope this doesn’t come off pushy or rude, just genuinely curious

yes it doesn't sound pushy! I love pedro still so I don't want to think it's the end of that era, but it's definitely a hiatus from that era so to speak haha I still have old unfinished stuff for some of his characters that I really want to finish at some point!! thanks for the sweet words :)

#and tbh i latched onto pedro during a really hard time in my life #so i have to kinda be in the right place to pick up some of those characters again #all my works are very closely related to my life experiences in very hard to explain ways #and i found a lot of comfort in characters like joel and Marcus pike when i was having such a bad time #and that was good but im having to prepare to revisit that place again #that said i would LOVE to someday!!

[dustylovelyrun]

So, uh. Quick question - I’ve got a sister that really likes the kind of bread, cakey deserts. Sweeter foods. All that. Problem is, since she’s my bio sister, it has to be made from scratch because she’s inherited a plethora of allergies and has a limited range of food. Store bought is out of the question. I’ve just been absently experimenting with stuff like bread, bars, that kind of stuff for a while now, but - 

How d’you actually make cookies or brownies? Because I’ve tried both, and it’s coming out very consistently as what you’d expect a somewhat sweet, buttery pie crust to be like. It’s very bewildering. And even if it’s the same limited range of stuff, but different format, I’d like to be able to offer her something that feels slightly different, y’know?

#not writing related #Jasper Strikes With Their Bullshit Again #bread seems to be where I'm excelling oddly despite being a person of no patience #same with custards fruit mixes and stuff like frosting #but this is really confusing me man #i have a feeling part of it is me mixing the ingredients up #but i just dunno how i'm doing it so often if that's the case #also yo what's up? #been a while hasn't it? #I've been very zoned out! #and preparing for a housing inspection :( #words are also just hard lately and it's quite annoying because nothing feels right #I'm going to crawl back eventually I hope #just dunno when #it's may now too - #so I owe march and april's last lines I think #wait crap also - #I should mention I have no idea what either of the latter things taste like! #if that helps any #I had cookies a few times as a primary-ish age kid but I've never done stuff like brownies before #but I have my suspicions that I'm doing things wrong just from descriptions other people give #I don't actually have any personal experience in recent memory to compare and contrast and figure out where I went wrong

[loxodontadae]

the understanding i feel about cis guys being horny all the time...

damn.

all i wanna do is draw some primal boners on the wastelands of pandora. just absolute 'return to monke' horniness. "fucking like animals" kinda deal

#hrt related #one side effect of testosterone i wasn't prepared for but very much enjoy #i didn't believe people when they said their sexuality seemed to change a tad on t #panromantic demisexual might still apply except leaning HEAVILY towards men #muscles and strength is good on any gender really #but men are so mmm #big burly dudes + beards + husky voices #femme is also great but it's really turned towards primal big men #nevermind that zane is a thin guy he is also a representation of masc i enjoy #IDK IT'S HARD TO PINPOINT IT LOL #PEOPLE ARE PRETTY

[noxtivagus]

WHEN IM DONE W MY ASSIGNEMTNS FOR THE WEEK I WILL ...... !

#🌙.rambles #i am so sorry i don't know what ^ means but #BUT I MISS FFXIV #n gbf n i wna continue nier n sm other games #stupid inconsistent mental n physical health 😭😭 #no i will actively Challenge it n i will make active efforts to improve n be better #.... ! i wna . be better. 🙌 #i wna write again n read more n . fix my tumblr >.> n twt n other socmed n my rentry n carrd n #❕ i will do my best ! to fix my sleep too ! #n school first 🥹 #sembreak is in around 9 days now. friday. bday #2 years ffxiv as well so i wna play more again #i'm gna be so much more busy next year sob since i have to prepare for cets n all #esp since i'm really gna do my best to get into the top unis in my country #n after that i wna go overseas yeah. i'll work hard. #since senior year n rest of junior rn i really want to make up for everything i've lost out on #HELP IM RAMBLING AGAIN BUT YEAH #i miss playing the piano too it's been a while again;;;; #mostly just the methodology to do rn n the rest r easy ! sob ppl r struggling in chem but . #🥹 chem is one of my strengths! i can't relate. oops. sorry. n math subjects have been really easy too so far tho so that's nice #NOOO SORRY I DON'T MEAN THAT TO SOUND ARROGANT PLEASE #i hate to sound arrogant oh god i don't want to come off that way but i'm proud of most of my grades #🥺 i have everything perfect in precalc so far ! & perdev emtech #just a few minuses as a whole for philo (oversight 🥹) n r&w (group....) n genmath (oversight too sob) #i hate prac res . no like it's still mostly good but i am Not satisfied. n for filo too grrr #I AM RAMBLING WAIT NO .... WAIT BUT .. oh yes i wna fix my notes too since they're a mess >.> n othe #other misc stuff i've been meaning to get to ! maybe ! thonk #i reaaaally wna write again . wait im gna be productive again >< bye bye gn in advance tumblr #^_^ yk what fuck it ! i can be decently happy in my own way. i'll live by whatever makes me free (in line with morals n values ofc 🤍) #why do i let these things weigh me down.... i can rise n fly so much higher than them. i know better. i am better than my pain.

[mabith]

What kind of mindset makes sometimes dial a cell number three times in a row when there's no answer. Like the old days, fine, but just leave a fucking message if you're an actual human.

#ugh now my sister is calling me so it might be related to a family friend who just went to hospice today #I had dreams about my mom all last night and I am so fucking depressed today I can't right now #and I say family friend but we haven't really spent time with them since 1994 #I'm heartbroken for all of them (losing one child is hard enough but now losing a second I can't imagine) #so yes heartbroken but I am struggling to eat and drink and if only someone would text or leave a message to let me prepare #I just want 20 minutes to let whatever horror it is sink in

[justinefrischmanngf]

i really need to do this work for one of my classes tomorrow but i could also just not do it and plead so sweetly with my prof after the class because i think he would be incredibly easy to get to forgive me but also i really should do it but aughhhhh also tomorrow's going to be insane and saturday is going to be more insane and then sunday i might drop off the face of the earth entirely so whoooooo knows !

#the thing is if i don't do this work tonight there is zero chance i'll get it done tomorrow because i'm doing things from 7am until 12am #and then saturday i'm busy from 8am to probably 11pm or later #and then sunday i'm going to be fucked to hell and back because i'll have nothing to do and i'll be exhausted #so i'd do this work then but it's like . will i want to be working then ? absolutely not . but i also don't want to be working rn #i want to go to sleep a little bit icl #i need to pick up crocheting again and also just numerous random hobbies #this is the only uni related thing that i'm behind in though and i'm actually not really that behind in it #it's just time consuming this thing that i have to do it's not necessarily hard #it will be but rn it's preparation stages and it's not bad skills wise #but it's almost 10pm and i need to be up at like 6/6.30am and i'm sleepyyyyyyyy

[bethanythebogwitch]

I heard it's Superb Owl Sunday so I have prepared some superb owls for you.

The barn owl is the most widespread species of owl, living on every continent except Antarctica. Their faces are shaped like a disk to help their hearing, giving them some of the best hearing of any owl. They mostly hunt by sound.

Snowy owls are the largest arctic predatory birds, They are born with black feathers and get whiter as they age. Females usually have more dark feathers than males.

Eastern screech owls have a few feather variants that make them look like completely different species.

The southern white-faced owl can increase its metabolic rate during winter to compensate for the cold and lack of food. They lay their eggs in nests built and abandoned by other birds.

The great grey owl is the largest owl by length, but a lot of that is feathers and they're actually very light for their size. Their hearing is good enough to hear rodents burrowing through snow and they can break through hard-packed snow to catch prey.

Blakiston's fish owl is the largest owl by mass and eats mostly fish. Despite the name, they may be more closely related to eagle owls than fish owls.

The elf owl is the smallest owl species, barely larger than a sparrow. They hunt bugs and play dead when caught. They like to live in holes in saguaro cacti.

Burrowing owls live in underground burrows. While they can dig, they mostly take over burrows from other animals. Farmers killing prairie dogs has severely reduced burrowing owl populations. They decorate their burrows with feces to attract bugs to eat.

The barking owl is called that because

Its nice to have a day to appreciate superb owls. Feel free to spread the love by reblogging with some more owl facts.

#superb owl #superbowl sunday #owl #barn owl #snowy owl #eastern screech owl #southern white-faced owl #great grey owl #blakiston's fish owl #elf owl #burrowing owl #barking owl #animal facts #birds #birds of prey #Youtube