#i’m not even an adult yet

[flowersforfrancis]

What if I just locked my bedroom door, turned my headphones up and just stayed there

#i’m so fucking tired #but there’s shit I wanna do #But I love her and I’d miss her #But food #sometimes i just #i’m not even an adult yet #Everyone and everything is so tiring #I can study in bed I have files and podcasts and I even have bloody Wikipedia #If I have chocolates I’ll be good #I’m sorry I’m rambling

[darkslayers-bride]

I’m getting more white hairs 🫠

#luciana.txt 🎀🗡️ #please whyyyyyyyy #I am too young for this shit #I mean I know that redheads just depigment a lot faster than most but god.. #I’m not even an adult yet

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / family death mention / ]

Mhmm I sure love thinking of the reality where we did get more time to really know Karai and her dynamics with the bros. Losing her hit hard in the finale, but it would’ve hit much, much harder had we known Karai longer and really saw her relationships develop with everyone.

I especially would have been interested in her dynamic with Leo, as past iterations often have the two of them clash in ideals and the like while still sharing many characteristics. Two sides of the same coin, and all that. Her specifically being the bros’ Gram-Gram also adds a whole new dynamic as well.

Imagine how interesting it would be, to have Karai start off on Leo’s side for once, showing wholly just how alike the two are at their cores and bonding as family without the worry of betrayal or animosity that other iterations suffer through, only to have Karai die anyway. Their parting hug and the desperate look of horror Leo wears later on would have hit that much harder, I feel.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise karai #rise leo #rottmnt karai #rottmnt leo #I think a lot about these two in particular #and how that dynamic could have flourished #the way it was depicted in the finale is so purposefully unique and painful like #that hug man #can you imagine how much more heartbreaking that would have been if we knew her longer #not that it wasn’t already sad but we just simply didn’t know her long enough to be completely attached #also imo having more episodes with her and in general would have presented something I’ve been thinking about since the finale #so like - I like to think each bro kinda immediately leans more toward certain family members #Mikey has Draxum #Donnie has April #Raph has Splinter because this is another one that would be SO GOOD and make the finale moment where Raph sees his memories hit harder #if they had an ep or two more of Splinter and Raph together bc I really do feel like Raph respects Splinter most of the four #and finally- Leo has Karai #and then he loses her #imo? this would align with the movie even more #because it was the act of heroism that kinda killed her in a way - makes sense that Leo would initially be leaning away from that #and yet he ends up exactly like her anyway #haha sorry for rambling I just really love the interesting dynamic these two tend to have #and it’s a shame we didn’t get to see it really explored in rise #but yeah make no mistake while I’m focusing on Leo here I wanted more for all the boys and karai #Mikey’s little moments with her were so sweet and we already know how much he yearns for more family #Karai being from an age long gone would mean she’d be super impressed by literally any invention Donnie has (adult validation!!) #and could you imagine her training with Raph - with this training being referenced in the finale?

[fyanimaldiversity]

Just so you know I’m aggressively waiting for my baby IMG motley boa (Burnt Toast) to finally shed so I can show the ‘increasing melanin gene’ in action because it’s such a cool concept that fits with this blog, and not simply because I need a valid excuse to post him and force you to see him with your eyes because I love him and you should too. He hasn’t even gone blue yet, so it might take a while unfortunately.

#mod talk #boa imperator #snake #reptile #selective breeding #boas grow slower than my baby colubrids :c #I could post other IMG boas but then it wouldn’t be my sweet angel baby #to be fair it’s not even been two months yet #he barely pooped last night I’m used to colubrids going once a week #just as a reminder basically an IMG boa slowly gets darker as they shed #and in combination with motley (the circle pattern) it makes for a nearly solid black snake #with iridescence #he’s already very dark for one his age I’m told #unfortunately I got my banana ball python as an adult so can’t post freckle development since bananas gain freckles as they age #his name is sweet onion chicken teriyaki (onion for short) #poptart has the best morph of all snakes ever (palmetto) so I will definitely post her

[gh0stmew]

Am I the only one that’s a little nervous that they could be trying to build a romantic connection between Xiaoshi and Tianxi? The whole scene with the body search and how they ran off together holding hands really didn’t sit right with me 😕

I’m hoping he went with her because she told him Lu Guang is in danger or something because otherwise it just seems so out of character for Xiaoshi to try to help the person he thinks stabbed his best friend.

#also I don’t even think she’s an adult yet which makes it even weirder if that’s what they’re going for #idk hopefully I’m just being paranoid #link click #cheng xiaoshi #lu guang #shiguang #link click season 2 #link click spoilers

[heartkeys]

I am once again watching soul eater and I forgot how fucking soft I am over soul/maka

#soul eater #soma #soul x maka #I’m on ep 9…. #they both remind me of when I was a kid and catching feelings for the first time haha #I love this show so much #i think the reason I like soul/maka so much is 1. they remind me of rokushi #and 2. because they remind me of what it was like being a teenager #and caring about your friends so much but not knowing what to do #with all the hurt you hadn’t sorted out yet #to be that young and to care about someone that deeply when the world keeps trying to hurt them #maybe this show just feels like it takes adolescent feelings seriously and that’s why I latched onto it #and why I still find solace in it even as an adult now

[haikyuuwaifu]

Guess who’s about to get shitfaced with her father on his 50th birthday 🥲😅

#I’m going to regret it tomorrow #I’m already tired and it’s not even 9 yet #someone find an adult #I need a grown up🫠

[sunnibits]

sketches I made during work to keep from going insane

ft. babies bc I rlly wanna become one of those rare mystical people who’s actually good at drawing babies (they’re so hard 😭)

#practicing my baby skills 💪💪 they’re so cute I love babies but if u draw them even slightly wrong they look like demons or adult men #also featuring an oc I haven’t talked about yet and a back muscle study using a halsin pic as red #BACK MUSCLES ARE SO WEIRD. absolute nonsense part of the body. #they don’t look real #doodles #I’m ngl I think that first baby might be leaning towards Demon territory 😞 #ah well I try

[milflewis]

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#in a strange place today and i need to put this somewhere. i do not have a journal yet. this is it #my grandad was diagnosed with dementia years ago and the grandad i have now is often unrecognisable from the one i grew up with #and while this like isn’t fun and it is strange for him to look at me and not know me more times than he does. it has also been kind of l #lovely? #bc he thinks my granny is still alive so whenever i get to go see him i get to pretend she is too. and she is for a minute. and tho i am #glad she went before him. it is nice to say oh i’m popping in to see her after this grandad and talk about her like she’s hasn’t been gone #since i’ve been ten. my dad has spoken more to him in the last five years than he has his whole life #he was not an easy man. he was loud and friendly and hard working and funny and scary but not easy. in ways he is even #harder now. in others he is easier. #he is more of a child. this is what dementia can do to a brain. we are learning things about his childhood that no one alive has ever spoken #about. that no one knew. my dad doesn’t love him more now but he understands him better #my grandad taught me how to drive a tractor and how to fish through my dad and he has not recognised me in over a year and he #hasn’t walked since he broke his pelvis seven years ago and his muscles are nearly all gone. he is a fraction of the size he used to be. his #personality and body took up my childhood like adults on the screen in cartoons. he hasn’t dressed himself in a decade. he told one of the #nurses that after dinner he wanted ice cream plain like herself and nearly peed when she laughed and told him to fuck off #he is in there. he is himself. i know him. but he isn’t. he doesn’t know me but he allows me to tell him how to ppl he knows are doing. he #still somehow trusts me. we talk a lot about my granny and how she stayed up watching tv again last night so she’s tired today. don’t stay #long when you call in to see her? #whenever we would journey to see him and my granny and get in v late he’d ask us if we wanted apple tart and my granny would say michael. #not ur kids. u can’t parent them. he didn’t know my name yesterday but he asked me if i wanted apple tart #i hope he dies soon. for all that i will miss this. miss my dad having this. he would not want to live like this. it wouldntbe living to him

[apollos-boyfriend]

does anyone else ever think about how much evangelion is about growing up too fast and too soon and yet never growing up at all. because i do. i think about it every fucking day

#icarus speaks #asuka was SO mature for her age. and yet she never stopped being that scared little girl #who watched her mother die right in front of her. an act that killed a part of asuka herself too #and shinji. wasn’t. he was just a kid #but everyone around him told him he had to be more. he didn’t want to be more. he wanted to be 14 #but he had no choice in the end. #rei was never allowed to grow up. not really. #she was never allowed to be human. so of course she didn’t experience a human upbringing #she was an adult and a child all at once. a doll and her own person. and she was also neither. #god can u tell i’m fuckign insane about them #don’t even get me started on kaworu

[fandomfairyuniverse]

There’s abusing your power and then there’s using the knowledge that your student is at the school on a scholarship (and needs scholarships for further education) against them so that they do all of your dirty work and so that should anything go wrong the student is the one who loses everything while you get off scot-free

#every ep I am one step closer to punching that teacher off a cliff #akk is a CHILD why are these adults using him as their scapegoat #I know why they do it I just hate it #I haven’t even watched the whole ep yet lol bc I’m at work but THIS MAKES ME SO ANGRY #the eclipse #the eclipse the series

[onyx-got-clowned]

i hate Mormon girls.

#Vent below 😍 #They literally suck ass #I’ve been nice to them all the fucking time #And yet i never get that treatment back #For light conversations yeah #But that’s it #also the fact i do have some friends in the church #but im not someone anyone in there see as a go to friend #Not someone they would go to #I get shoved out of conversation easily #And that’s if I’m even invited into said conversation #The adults are who talk to me #But they all suck too #Exmo #exmormon #mormon vent #anti mormon #Mormons dni #Onyx vents⭐️

[crowrelli]

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#vent tw #death mention tw #okay I need to post this bc I’m. going to explode into a million shattered parts if I don’t #my grandmother on my moms side who lived with us my whole teen years. who I helped care for. passed last night before I could go visit her #and instead of IDK FUCKING CALLING ME TO TELL ME my estranged idiot sister just texts me basically ‘Oop she died 🤪’ #what the actual fuck #I deserve to hear from our mom? I deserve to hear like the rest of the fucking family? #my cousin did it right and said ‘call your mom’ but you just fucking take it on yourself?? how inconsiderate and conceited to take that away #how little do you see of me to not show basic fucking compassion?? #I will never not hold this with me every time I think of my grandmothers passing #I’m a fucking adult. I’ve lived on my own for 3 god damn years. and yet you can’t extend me the BASIC FUCKING RESPECT of letting me find out #the RIGHT WAY #I broke my no contact out of respect for my grandma. I promised to walk into a house I was fucking prisoner in half my life. #I looked past my pain and my trauma out of basic fucking human decency and she couldn’t wait a few hours to let the news reach me properly #and before I can even say my goodbyes she’s gone and this is how you tell me?? #she KNEW I was in contact with our mom again #she KNEW #I lived with grandma I HELPED TAKE CARE OF HER #I picked her off the floor when she fell I made her food when she was hungry I READ HER BOOKS WHEN HER HANDS SHOOKTOO BAD #I knew they were monsters but are you fucking kidding me?? this is so so low I’m in fucking shock #I thank my partner and their family every fucking day for teaching me what real love is #because after you live your whole life trying to love people who are only playing roles for the sake of appearance you can never go back to #the cold lifeless greyscale power plays they call unconditional love #god I just #I’m just so fucking tired

[horsemage]

I’m presenting my poster tomorrow from 9-10am please keep me in your thoughts & prayers

#I’m so nervous dude #actual adults are going to ask me questions and I won’t even have eaten breakfast yet

[heartsofminds]

being 21 is one of the most humbling ages ever like it’s always SOMETHING! literally always fucking SOMETHING!!! 🤩🤭

#this tag is legit just me complaining so ignore it lol #but my shitty brother having a shitty gf and always disrespecting my boundaries about her always being over at our apartment #her not liking me or his friends that are also my friends is the biggest red flag if I’ve ever seen one #and her causing drama with my parents and them putting me in the middle between them and my sibling #not to mention they’ve all been so mean to me lately! #also my dad’s side of the fam has been showing their true colors with me suddenly being an 'adult' but yet still too naive to know anything #and my friends using me for ranting and nothing else! 🤩 #and the guy I liked not even having the decency to tell me he’s not into me and just leaving me on seen #like what is up with people just being mean and rude??? #my heart is literally breaking and being tap danced on and no one seems to care #I’m being a huge baby about it but i have feelings too #literally need to curl up into a ball with a heated blanket and cozy pjs and a bradley there to snuggle me and put all his weight on me #but alas! i’ll have to settle for a shitty throw blanket and my pjs ripping apart at the seams #god I just love it here!!! (obvious sarcasm if you can’t tell from the nature of this post)

[2000snotebook]

Darius Deamonne hate is rooted in antiblackness idc

#Addae.txt #because y’all couldn’t wait to embrace Alador as a ‘redeemed’ father for his kids #(we don’t even know if Edric and Emira think about all this) #which is understandable because they’re side characters but still #and yet people claim Darius adopting hunter doesn’t make sense because he was ‘mean’ to Hunter in ASIAS #Lilith tried to kill Luz in S1 (love her tho) but y’all ain’t have problems calling her Luzs auntie #I’m just saying. y’all are more eager to accept parental/familial roles for the white adults of the show #but won’t even try to give Darius the same grace #because we all know if black characters don’t have the best impression when they officially debut they’re either villianized or written off #as ‘boring’ #first example is Darius second example is Gus but this post isn’t about him rn #‘but what has Darius done for Hunter’ 1) helped him establish connection with people outside of the emperors coven #hunter is intentionally isolated from everyone else to keep him from becoming ‘influenced’ into eventually ‘betraying’ Belos #by giving hunter a phone (??) Hunter slowly gains the social/emotional connections with kids his age he’d been deprived ove his entire live #2) Hunters developed a love of sewing because of Darius which becomes an important outlet for hunter