#im gonna be scared to leave the house

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Jazz becoming the next big Gothem villain is such a solid concept. Theres so much to explore.

She targets corrupt mental institutions. Corrupt companies who destroy their workers state of mind so they wont quit. She attacks landlords who make it impossible for people to live comfortably.

She is the staple anti-hero of anyone struggling to get back on their feet. People should have to work three jobs just to afford a crappy one bedroom, no utilities, half bath, in crime alley apartment, with a roommate.

Shelters should be aiming to gain a profit instead of using the donations to support others.

She is tired of these big name heros leaving children to clean up messes. She has watcher her own brother wither away to a shell of his former self trying to make a change and she is sick of it. Hell she herself is a child but if this is what it takes, then this is what it takes.

Enter from the left The Manipulator™️

Feared by all corrupt. People think she has mind control or something. When she targets someone they make almost a full 180 in their ways. “She will do anything to get her way or to make people into what she thinks they should be. And she mist be stopped” cries big business.

In reality she is the worlds best damn psychiatrist ever to be known. She doesn’t force anyone to change but gives them the choice to be better. To see how much more they can be. And it terrifies them. Helps them find themselves again and to move past their troubling pasts. No force and no mind control. No manipulating. No one but those who she has helped know the truth but when they tell the truth it only fuels the fire of her being controlling.

Theres one thing also fuelling the flames of mind control. Thats the fact that every single major hero to go after her can’t. Any who approach her find themselves no long near her. Superman just wants to talk, well she doesn’t, and he is then back in his city?!? Batman is stalking her to figure out how to deal with her but once he gets too close he suddenly finds himself in the batcave?

At first they think it’s teleportation but time is passing? Theres video feed and tracking of no they just went back themselves. No response from them the whole trip. As if possessed. (Lmao it’s just good brother danny pranking his sis a little by making her seem all powerful but also protecting her anyway he can. Or could be Dan instead)

#danny phantom #dp x dc #dpxdc #jazz fenton #manipulator? I hardly know her hehehehehehe these jokes are peak for me atm #jazz snaps and does some changing of the world #vlad is funding her because hes scared of her #no good tags today boiz I gotta call my mom and the hot water is gonw #yes yes I know I know I said I hate my mother but I am a good boi and will bring her lunch today so she eats #plus my sistet never leaves the house so im offering to take her too so maybe she can get some sun light #oh I got a promotion at work too btw #not the one I wanted but meh it’s something right? #gonna be working mon-fri 10hour shifts so ill be a bit busy sorry #got a catboi danny post in the drafts for you later though so u wont starve I guess #who am I kidding plenty of dpxdc posters for yall I aint gotta be worried #oof that makes me sad kinda so im a dip

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ohhhhmygod im gonna be sick. actually nauseous and i did it to myself - there was a spider on the countertop and i Panicked, grabbing the first distance-killer i could grab. it was a grease cleaner spray. i buried it in the stuff, walked away to recover mentally, came back

it fucking fell apart and dissolved into the cleaner. i both feel horrible and im disgusted beyond words. how the fuck do i get rid of it

#slamming my face into a wall repeatedly #i cant leave it there to deal with after Sleep #bc my cats like to go onto the countertops when no one is looking #and i dont want either of them to get poisoned #but i cant rinse it into the sink with the faucet hose bc there's stuff in the sink #but idk if i can bring myself to do dishes with That next to me #and my fear of spiders is so intense that i Cannot get close enough to take care of it with a towel or somethin #im very good at fucking myself over in various ways! #if i had an appetite id lose it. permanently #what if! instead of dealing with it! i curl up in a corner and cry #except im not gonna do that ive filled my tears quota for the year & doing nothing wont help anything #sorry for venting again i just. ohhhhh this is horrible this is Terrible #if i still had my whacking stick id tape a big wad of paper towels to the end and clean the mess up that way #from a Distance! #absolutely unprompted #i wish i wasnt so terrified of spiders #they scare me So much.... #the point of feeling physically ill! and like sobbing! or panicking! and this spider was Big! #i wish they'd stop coming into the house.... i hate killing them but i cant function knowing theyre there #but i can't force myself close enough to put them in a cup and bring them outside #so now i have THAT on my counter. disintegrated spider. #life is too fucking much lately... jesus.... i should really just bite the bullet and get this shit over with #no use waiting a month in perpetual terror unease and guilt. do it scared yk yk #im tired of my chest hurting and not being able to eat! i dont like it! i need change! terrifying horrible change!

[roachemoji]

#bo posting #talky #ouughggough #uh mmm #ahhhHHHH #eeougiigHGHGHAHHH #I have to go to a drs appointment tomorrow #and i am very scared of going alone after that man harrased me in the parking lot #like TERRIFIED of running into him again #to the point I dont like leaving the house alone #so i asked my roomie to come with my to my appointment #but i #i think i want to go alone #i dont think i can handle it if something upsets her #when im stressed i jump into overdrive when it comes to people pleasing #so instead of putting all my energy into not forgetting to get everything i need done #im gonna be focused on making sure SHES ok #even if im struggling #thats not like on her or anything its a me problem #but the solution is either ignore it if her mood drops bc i have no spoons #or just go alone and be scared #i went alone last time and i was scared #and it turned out fine i even went to the docks #i wanna go to the docks again tomorrow and i dont think she'll wanna come with me #i know that the simplest solution rn is just go alone #but im scared to tell her that #like yeah id rather be scared and alone than have you come with me #that??? is so shitty #thats shitty right?????

[ferdydurke]

Also another thing im really scared of is like not knowing whats going on and how to do things... like with that facebook group or whatever and generally like i kinda feel like im gonna show up at the school and my main priority is gonna be not to pass out from fear. And everyone else will kinda know whats going on and im gonna have to ask them if i dont wanna feel like im flaoting in a big white void of no directions and it will be so difficult for me. Im getting lightheaded just thinking about it.

#barking #like its not that difficult to go to the deans office and ask my questions but its difficult when im so scared i want to puke. #i wish it was not scary but that is a consequence of not leaving my house for 3 years #especially when i think about how the people i meet next month im gonna know for 5 years hopefully. im way too. stupid in the head for this

[lucifer-kane]

absolutely fucking terrified rn i was probably exposed to covid bc my mom said she found out she had it today and i spent the majority of sunday with her oh god im gonna fucking cry i can't do this again

#i feel fine at the moment but im gonna take a test rn bc i don't wanna be sick. i can't do it for a third time #it's not even the covid itself im scared of (and i am) as the thing that has happened every time AFTER i had covid #each time i've gotten an abscess that ends up being the worst pain in the world #i was masked up for majority of the day other than a couple times but i am going to cry this is why i hardly leave the house anymore #i can't do it again #personal

[goldiipond]

genuinely do not know what i will do if this site dies. it is literally the only social media with a slightly tolerable design like i canot live without my insane tag ramblings what about my tags. what about skye

#skye's ramblings #plus i'll be real this site has been my only source of human connection outside my family and one friend #my health has taken a downward spiral this year especially i cant leave my house. like its fucken sad but tumblr's all i have #i need people to see my art i need a place to be shamelessly insane and autistic. they're gonna have to chase me out w a broom idont caare #yeeah theres discord but man its not the same. discords a messaging app and brother there is nothing that scares me more. than messages #this is hopefully nothing though im just talking. if the site dies mutuals can find me scuttling around my friends discord servers <3

[friendlessclown]

social anxiety killingggg me killinggggg my mind

#yesterday i made eye contact with a stranger and i thought they were gonna beat the shit out of me #and im. scared to go outside #unmgjjgkt this is why i rlly hate sad being seen as the Being Shy Disorder bc it fucking ruins my life #makes me barely leave my house and be terrified to talk to anyone even if theyre my friend #and yeah the whole thinking people are gonna kill me thing #im scared allllll the time #which is probably also due to my gad tbh that one fucks me up too

[munamania]

OH MY GOD also guys. please literally go to any amateur theater or whatever that u can near u. i went to a live performance of the it's always sunny ep where theyre doing the nightman. or whatever. it was soooooooo silly and so fun and in that room i could feel centuries of people gathering in rooms to laugh together. this is what can save humanity

#abby talks #i want them to do another one... #then we went to this sketchy weird party. well FIRST we saw one of my old buddies at the show!!!!!!! #hes gonna help w my thesis film and then he was gonna come to the party but by the time he was ready we were leaving #it was crazy me and my friends were so high and we were just in this absurd house. fucking maze ass layout #so anyway these dudes r playing mario kart. i asked my friend if there were going to be mostly straight ppl there and well that was a yes #these two dudes trailed me until i found a way to perch in a corner with my friend next to me. anyway. these dudes r playing and bring up #brba bc of course. im sorry u guys know when we talk abt that show its extremely thin ice. bc this guy is ofc hating on skylar and we're #lit all like ok misogynist like. she was just a woman living her life with an insane gaslighting husband. but he Kept his values the whole #way thru... ok. anyway hes like genuinely getting mad like we can see him take pics of us and angrily type to someone LOL and them hes just #pissily playing the game. so anyway yeah then we went back outside. then left after watching ppl do keg stands #i get so scared for college girls. literally felt like i was staring daggers at all the guys around the vibes were just off. #anyway. so fun night. #the show was genuinely amazing im so excited to see the one person in my class this week. she played mac

[boxwinebaddie]

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPR3Akk4x/

crimson dawn in an alternate universe

OH MY GOD STOOOOPHLKSDHSKHD

tHE SOUND I JUST MADEEEEEEEEE

#oh my god that new perspective hc #is never gonna leave me alone #THE TRISHA PAYTAS JUMP SCARE #I SCREAMIEHLHDSKHDLDS #THIS IS SO FUNNY OH MY GOD #REAL AS HELL #COLLAB WHEN #also i will go back to answering questions soon my envrionemnt is a mess so i want to get my house all ute and clean so i can focus #undiagnosed adhd girlie thangs fml #but im really excited to answer my questions i waited all week #ALSO MY GIGANTIC HELLO KITTY CROCS JUST GOT HERE #AAAAAAAAAAAA #IM OBSESSSSSEEEEDDDDD

[acanthyme]

finally snowed for more than a dusting. went to crazy and shovelled sooooo many driveways. arms sore and i'm so cold but worthhhhhh...

#i dooo get paid for one of them so..... #and omggg i'm so embarrassed #so ok. our new next door neighbours haven't talked to us much so idk much about them #and we used to shovel the driveway for the lady who used to live there bc she was older and disabled and our driveways r very close #like. touching eachother #my bf said our roofs were kissing the houses are angled close to eachother. regardless. #so the snows piling up and the cars not there so i figure i'll at least shovel a path to the front door/garage so they can plug their car in #and i'm wearing big headphones to protect my ears from the wind / because the windchill made it -30 out of nowhere. #and i saw that their shovel was broken too!!! so of course i'm gonna shovel their yard.... #so im doin my thang. shovelling. i do it in a weird ish pattern but that's just how i prefer to do it #and i'm always nervous about being up at ppls doors when i shovel so i'm already on edge #AND I TURN TO FINISH UP AND THEIR KID IS GETTING HOME FROM SCHOOL #maybe like. 7-9th year aged. idk #younger than me of course but i'm a little wimp so i squeak like a dumbass #and just go 'sorry!' before running off to shovel the other side of the road 😭😭😭 #i would've done more if that girl hadn't scared me off.... #nice little kick of anxiety for me for today.... but.... i mean #and like. i was up in their front yard. i shovelled out a path to their compost/garbage bins so they could still put those out #i did the steps.... i must have looked like a little freak that family has like never seen me i never leave the house.......

[nomaishuttle]

guys remind me to watch la bamba later

#nicha said i should watch it #also nichas my beat friend thank gd for nicha. shes like the only irl person ive talked abt it with #and shes like . no you arent overreacting r you crazy . which makes me feel a LOT better #im so sad shes leaving thi :[[ she keeps telling me t move t great wolf lodge with her JFNFJFBF #and she said that if i ever need a ride to a job interview or a drs appt or anything like that t just ask. shes my bestiee #she has a yojnger sister my age (18 (nicha is 25 BTW) but her sister sucks so nicha literally said I wish you were my sister instead. #common kamille w. she also said im her favorite and i get all rhe stuff on her cart when she leaves ^-^ yay #but tbh. i might frrr look into great wolf lodge bc their starting pay is $18 dollars an hour #plus its. hotel work. which is wayy easier than apt cleaning if im being fully honest #and allegedly its closer to my house sooo... #plus. nicha fiona and i thinkk nee? r all leaving? which leaves me dee and brenda ? brother i gtg im not gonna be one of 3 housekeepers. #ik theyd hire more but i just got here i cant be like the 3rd most senior housekeeper 💀 #sry 4 doxxing myself. potentially #oh also the pay here is 16 dollars an hour with literally no room for growth #brenda is housekeeping lead and she makes like. 17. #nee i think has been here almost since the place opened and she still only makes like 16.... which is insane #so ya i might look into gwl. #im mainly scareddd abt getting rides bc rn marian gives me a ride... #n like she could probably still give me a ride in the morning if im sooo niceys but likee. yk. how would i get home at da end of the day #ik i should just suck it up and ask my roommates bc kate is rly nice and prolly wouldnt mind but. gets scared... she also works closing #shifts so she wouldnt be able t bring me home. lily works a ton of different shifts so its not rly a reliable thang so i cant ask her #plus.everything. and then hal . yeah obvious reasons hes not giving me a ride LOL

[mrpsychokiller]

i life is fucking falling apart out of nowhere and i dont know what to do sbout it

#im so so fucking tired and stressed and angry and upset and i cant do anything #my cat is hurt and in pain and we cant even get her to eat even though she hasnt eaten in days #but i dont know what to do about it when she refuses to eat #and weve spent over $600 on her medical care so far and we already dont have lots of money to waste #and its all our fault snd its all MY fault for letting her leave the house #but i cant DO anything about it because even now my mom leaves the doors and windows wide open for the cats to go out snd get themselves #killed because she just doesnt fucking care and i cant DO anything about it i cant keep them safe on my own #i dont even know if shes going yo survive this or if shes gonna have long lasting effects forever #and now my computer keeps bluescreening repeatedly and im not good enough with computers to know how to fix it #and im too fucking stupid to follow instructions and i dont know what to DO #and im scared my computer is gonna die for real and then whats gonna be of me #im spending so much money more money than i even have to pay for this computer #and its one of the only good things i have in my stupid fucking life right now and i cant do anything as i watch it bluescreen #im fucking scared and stressed and anxious and i cant fucking do this #whatever sorry. rant over i just needed to talk

[violentdevotion]

I had multiple dreams last night.

I had a bf </3

someone in my family got bit by a zombie </3

some guy made me explain narrative structure to him </3

#ameera speaks #1 expanded) it was someone ik in real life 😔 which sucks soooo bad anyway he was at mine and we were watching a movie in my bed on my #laptop < (loser behaviour) and okay so im lying by referring to him as my bf bc we were just friends in the dream but then he started like #acting well intimate and i wasnt not into it so i was like hey whats going on here and we had a talk and then i had to sneak him out of my #house. dream 2) zombie apocalypse im in my room my nephews and nieces come in and i usher them out. the world is the samw just + zombies. #like think covid when it was dire but schools were still open? (my dream was a commentary on the countries failures to manage covid) so i #usher my neohews and nieces out and i make a comment to my sister in law like ooh im scared one of them got bit and my nephew was like some #girl bit me at school today and i told his mum and i stayed in my room and like an hour later i rang her like whats the update #and she was like oh yeah and came into my room to find my journal on zombie stuff and sge was like should i just cut off his arm and i was #idk try but if that doesnt work youre gonna have to... and she was SO CASUALLL !!!! and as she was leaving she started like picking things #up off the floor and i made a comment like your sons dying and youre sweeping and she was like way harsh tai and i woke up #that one was a commentsry on covid and also how i might be too mean to my sister in laws sometimes #3) i was in a library with friends researching smth and some asian guy sits on our table turns his back to us and talks to his friends. #then he starts playing music loudly from his phone and i move back to my table and as im walking he stops me and starts talking to some #girl on the table next to mine who he knows and is like hey i have an assignment due where i have to write a compelling narrative from my #own life ur clever can u help and she was a stem girly and went highschool with me and she pointed at me like ask her she does english #and he was like no u just tell me and she started helping him but i felt the advice she was giving was.. bad. so i interrupted like dont #you think that you should do __ instead and we had a discussion about it till i woke up. < that dream was a commentary on how useless my #degree is and how i wish it wasnt useless

[roger-paladino]

Sorry for being really slow with like. everything art related guys I have been going through it so bad

#Im so emotionally and physically burnt out rn i physically can't even talk to my friends without feeling like my heads abt to explode #this is mostly for the people commissioning me rn I can't get anything good out atm #I'm working on them but bear with me for a day or so #so im gonna. mental health break. Im seeing my dad tomorrow and saturday he's getting me out of the house so maybe I'll be back to normal #my mums bf put up cameras that alert his phone when someone moves outside and it just kicked my anxiety up so bad I literally can't handle #the idea of leaving the house and him seeing it on the camera and making a comment lmaoooo #I gotta. get over that but he makes fun of me all the time anyway (in a joking way im just sensitive) so I just expect it #and bc of that I can't leave my house more so than normal #I need to see a doctor abt my anxiety like. bad. but Im too scared of going and wasting their time since the NHS is already strained #which. also comes from my anxiety lol #its BADDDD its so bad I shouldn't be scared to go outside #I do try and force myself and its never that bad but I disassociate the whole time and I feel like im not making any progress really #anyway sorry for turning into a little vent LMAO oopsie.. #all this to say I'm very eepy and just need a second to get back on track #.txt

[chradi]

If there ever comes a time in the future where I’m like “oh yeah, I think I want another dog” Just fucking shoot me. Don’t fucking let me get another dog

#I have a terrible memory and no object permanence so im scared ill forget just how fucking insane living with dogs makes me feel #and ill see a cute puppy and go 'oh maybe it wont be that bad this time :o)' #you know. like a clown #jen rambles #we've been cleaning the carpets in the house CONSTANTLY for the past weeks?????????????????????????????? #either del will piss because he sees us going outside. stresses out???? because?? and pee #or annie has just been peeing randomly im guessing because of jealousy towards padme/marking #im gonna rip off all my hair and my scalp with it thank you #more like jen whines #my brain can literally not wrap itself around the fact that a 3 month old kitten knows to piss and shit in a box. #and a 2yo dog still doesnt know how to wait to be taken outside #AND LET ME SPECIFY. HE DOES. WE LEAVE THEM ALONE 8 HOURS A DAY WHEN WE WORK. #and no problem. but it happens when we're here????????????????? shoot me in the cock man

[theidiotwhowritesthings]

I could drag you from the ocean I could pull you from the fire When you're standing in the shadows I could open up the sky And I could give you my devotion Until the end of time And you will never be forgotten With me by your side And I don't need this life I just need... Somebody to die for

I've been torturing myself by listening to this song over and over (Somebody to Die For - Hurts), Din is in big trouble and the rumors about Pedro Pascal leaving the show is not helping 😭

I'M SORRY THE FUCKING WHAT RUMORS????

#wait wait wait #hold up #i can't handle this knowledge today #also that is the most perfect song #but also how are you gonna step into my house drop that news #AND THEN JUST LEAVE ME CRYING #WHAT #IM TOO SCARED TO EVEN GOOGLE IT