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onlineproblems · 9 months

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@jjohnnyutah okay I'm out of the shower. here goes, the xfiles word vomit

i wish i remembered more of season 1 and i guess 2 but i started watching like a year ago and i wasnt sure how i felt about it at the time and sort of half paid attention to the majority of the episodes. i plan to rewatch anyway but most of my excitement for the show peaked around mid-late season 2, when i felt like i knew what was going on (that didnt last) and i understood the dynamics between all the characters.

nobody could ever guess /s but i ADORE scully. i love and identify with her repressed catholic/survivors guilt and inability to express herself and the way she puts too much of herself into a quest that wasn't even hers to start with. and then finally opens up and leaves her shell and gets to be silly later in the show with a wry, dry humor that complements mulder's goofiness.

i think the baby arc is one of the dumbest things i've ever seen (not that i've seen all of it yet, but jesus it's so dumb). maybe it's because i'm a bitter childless hag but i dont relate to her intense desire to have children and i feel like when she got pregnant the writers absolutely mauled her personality to death. ffs they already put her through every other torture they could devise, why not a lobotomy? everyone knows motherhood makes you weak-willed and stupid. i mean im exaggerating but it's because the anger is fresh lol.

I'm so so scared to watch the revival because i don't want it to warp my nostalgic understanding of the characters. i love them and want them to live forever in a little bubble in Vancouver, fighting the moth men (yes that ep was so good) and getting up to shenanigans while CSM and Krycek does his incompetent bullshit off to the side.

I've seen several people talk about Jewish Mulder and i think the idea makes a lot of sense, and didn't they even reference it a time or two in the show? like the ep with the golem? i got mad when they gave him a Christian burial lol.

i like mulder's appreciation for the beauty in the weird and how he doesn't give a shit for what anyone thinks of him except Scully. i like that he's so wrapped up in the wonders out there but is also staunchly atheistic.

i didn't want Samantha's disappearance to be solved because it seemed like such a trite ending to mulder's trauma and the ultimate mystery in his life. i guess it was a good enough solution, but her abduction was what fueled him and gave him meaning and to wrap it up with a bow felt...idk, dismissive almost. i wanted closure for him but not necessarily answers. if your life's meaning is to search for answers, and suddenly you can have all the answers to the universe, where do you find meaning then? I may not be making sense lmao

and i think that's when i enjoy the x files most, when it's not trying to package things all neatly. maybe it's trying to ask a question, or maybe it's just trying to have fun, or both, but it's not trying too hard. the mythology is too much for me and frankly detracts from my enjoyment of... it. they wanted something epic and mysterious and then couldn't make any sense out of their own cryptic bullshit.

self-contained episodes like clyde bruckman, asking a question about determinism and big stuff like that without getting preachy or condescending, are excellent.

there's a hundred other things i could say but... that's enough for now lol.

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tfw-no-tennis · 4 years

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hunter x hunter thotz so far

soooo ruth and i started watching hunter x hunter woohoo finally! we’re like 10 or so eps in so i decided to collect some thots below on what i think so far (i havent rlly been spoiled so im interested to look back on this once ive watched more)

first off i love gon sm, hes immediately so endearing...hes just a baby!!!! just a little baby boy!!!! hes just so cute and good, im so not ready for him to get put thru the wringer later on as ive vaguely heard happens

the first few episodes were really fast paced which i enjoyed and thought was for the best. the characters came thru really strongly and i feel like we heard juuuust enough about the setting, premise, and what a hunter is

i wasnt expecting leorio and kurapika to show up in the FIRST EP lmao that surprised me. i love so much how the three of them like IMMEDIATELY became a family unit in like 3 eps lmaoooo it was like ok here are 2 parents and their son bam. also leorio and kurapika having a showdown on the boat (which didnt end up happening) was a wild ride

i have like zero fucking idea what a hunter is and the more they attempt to explain the more confused i get. its honestly kind of hilarious how little sense it makes. to be clear this doesnt detract from my enjoyment of the show at all (if anything it adds to it)

oh my god fuckgin hisoka is the worst he hasnt done much but i hate him so much already. good villain writing/design so far, hes so hateable

ruth every time hisoka shows up: WE HATE UR PUSSY BIIIITCH

the character design in this show is....a lot lmao. ruth and i decided its a cross between soul eater, jojo, and one piece in terms of aesthetic. the designs are certainly unique and so many of them are just so ugly hvbjafdbdskgs it reminds me of that post thats like ‘masterpost of jojo characters who look busted as shit’ lmao

i already love this show a lot tbh like the way its structured so far has been kinda atypical for a shounen, at least in terms of fights - we really havent seen a lot of fighting yet. also nen hasnt shown up yet and its reminding me of stands not becoming a thing in jojo until p3 lmao

anyways in litrally ep1 i already loved the 3 main characters we saw...leorio is a wild dude, i love him sm, especially as a fellow medical binch who wants MONEY. like, thats literally me. and kurapika is also wild, like damn they rlly just dropped their backstory in ep 1 huh. like we rlly are jumping right into this

also when leorio said he was a teenager i was like WHAT???? just like evryone else which YEA omfg. i cant believe hes that young lmao. kurapika too

so leorio is one of those 19 yr olds who looks 40 and kurapika is the type of teen who looks like a 12 yr old

and KILLUA i love him sm also....hes an adorable assassin catboy and hes perfect. i love how quickly he and gon hit it off (tiny bfs.....) and how hes just like, this extra as hell 12 yr old with a SKATEBOARD and ASSASSIN SKILLS and then he sees gon and is like guess im gonna fall in love

i gotta talk abt gon again i just love him. hes so polite and cute and kind and good, i just love him...wht a good protag. his motivation is just wild too, hes like well my dad abandoned me to go off and be a hunter (which he isnt even mad abt, what a nice lad) so im gonna do that to see what the deal is

i love how gon (just like the audience) doesnt really know what a hunter does/is and just goes into the exam totally blind lmao. also the fact that his skills seem to include jumping good, being speedy, having the energy typical of a 12 yr old, being a weather sniffer, being nice, and having good instincts/constitution as a result of having eaten random grass and forest shit growing up...amazing.

is this gonna turn out to be one of those things where its like, wow theyve been using nen this whole time without realizing! tht would honestly explain a lot lmao

i really enjoy how like....semi-normal the power levels are rn? while also being all over the place and wack as fucks obvs (like hisoka dissolving that guys arms in his first appearance was A Lot, as well as all the card stuff hes done..). like the part wher that blue guys (evil franky one piece) punches the ground and it leaves a crater and everyones like !!!! wow wtf thats unnatural! that literally threw me off bc that kinda thing is so normal in anime lmaoooo. but i like that thats the starting point bc it leaves a lot of room for power escalation w/out it getting too out of hand

specifially our protags are starting out pretty low on the Shounen Badass scale - especially gon (and leorio, tho i kinda predict he wont be as fight-y? what with him being premed)

i find it kinda hilarious how killua hasnt done too much (aside from murdering those 2 randos in like half a second) despite being so clearly skilled...like when they have to do the 5v5 fight thing in the tower, i wouldve thought hed be the first up cause hes so badass but nope

actually thats what i find interesting - i was expecting all 5 (or maybe 4, we’re in the middle of leorio’s ‘fight’) of the fights to be physical smackdowns but so far nope, theyve been very cerebral. that bodes well, w/how smart the fights have been, bc i doubt the fights will get stale tht way

tho they might be kinda frustrating sometimes - there are times when u DO just wanna see a good ole fashioned shounen beatdown yknow. but we do get enough of that now (and im sure we’ll get plenty more) to satisfy (like kurapika decking fake-franky)

oh also the opening. its so charming and cute and i love the song...its also so hilariously basic and classic - like one of those typical 2000s anime openings where theres stock run cycles of all the main characters and theres a little animation of all the characters fighting together (and that fight doesnt actually happen, its just for the op)

also love that leorios the only one who doesnt fight in the OP, instead getting saved from death by gon lmao. im curious if he’ll end up fighting at all (i assume a little?) and if he’ll use nen (probably healing type nen?)

also i already wanna fistfight ging for abandoning his perfect angel son. also leorio is literally gons dad already, they even look alike wow

that guy hanzo has done basically 0 things so far but i rlly like him already, im curious if thatll change. also sorry for calling u ‘hanzo overwatch!?!?!?!’ upon first viewing my guy

tonpa is str8 up so annoying pls leave u pathetic loser

tho it cracked me up when he and Evil Mr Clean were facing off and starting getting all detailed/shaded and i was like o shit is he actually badass. are we abt to see like a nen battle or st. but no....lmaooo

i found it interesting that leorio didnt really admit to wanting to be a dr at first...hes such a good dude, he kinda just let kurapika think that his motives were superficial and greedy when in actuality theyre selfless

also wanting to be rich can be a rlly interesting character motivation and i love when its done right

oh my god i cant believe it took me this long to mention the hilariously edge ED....like holy shit, its so 2000s, the song sounds like its been re-recorded like 40000 times bc of how bad the audio quality is, or something, idk how to describe music but its hilariously specific in tone and its rlly funny to see shots of the main characters smiling while this screamo whatever plays in the bg....wow.

also s/o to killua for being king of edgy with that ‘tear of blood’ shot

i rlly like how much of the plot, especially the early hunter exam stuff, is moved along simply by gon being a good kind polite boy.

love the fact that he and leorio and kurapika (and later killua) all team up without even saying anything...i love that, most shounen would have them be like ‘che, i cant team up with anyone, i have to prove myself ALONE or my victory wont be EARNED’ or w/e idk. who knows that might happen later but rn i love how they all effortlessly work together (and how they all contribute - without each other they would have all failed at different points)

oh man also killuas first appearence was so funny when he drank a bunch of tonpas poisoned drinks and was like [smirks] tch, loser, im immune to poison. get dunked on. [skateboard away] i love him so fuckgin much

omfg that part where killua looks all shoujo/kawaii and is talking abt how hes gonna kill his family or w/e and gon is just like ^_^? i love they

HOOOOLY FUCK I ALMOST FORGOT, BUT 65% OF THE REASON I MADE THIS POST WAS TO MENTION HISOKAS THEME LMAOOOOO his music being like fuckgin, spanish guitar/traditional mexican type music is sooooo goddamn funny to me for some reason, like the first time it played i was like ok whats going ON with this spanish guitar lmao but then i figured out that its his theme and god thats so funny

hisoka is also so fuckign jojo like he could so easily be in jojo. he and dio would be the fakest best friends ever and would constantly try to kill each other on the lowdown and shittalk each other constantly in private but be super sweet to each others faces. also they would hatefuck. no im not taking criticism bye

i rlly love everyones backstories also, and i find it interesting that weve gotten to hear/see at least some of all 4 of the MCs backstories. theyre all compelling and interesting and i cant wait to dive in further

also calling it now but kurapika is totally gonna get way too absorbed in revenge and get fucked up/disregard their own life (maybe in the style of robin in one piece?) we’ll see but i feel like it aint gonna end well. i could be wrong, i really havent been spoiled at all, thats just my guess

hbahjfbshjf the ep that was called ‘hisoka x is x sneaky’ was SO funny that reads like a dora the explorer ep title

also i had no idea the ep titles were formatted like that w/the x’s and thats rlly funny

ok but the part where leorio - who seems to be pretty bad at fighting - tries to fight hisoka - whose literal first appearence involved him effortlessly dissolving a dudes arms - is so fucking funny. leorio rlly b a premed w/no brain cells....same bro.

also i loved the Cutthroat Kitchen portion of the hunter exam and how not a single contestant was any good at it lmaoooo. do they not have the cooking channel in hxh-verse earth

ok i love how the main characters are all intuitive in different ways depending on their own skills, like how killua can immediately guess that kurapika has never killed anyone before after they didnt kill evil-franky

kurapika joined killua in the Edgy Corner during that part also. like, they both have legit reasons to be edgy, but the shots of kurapika sitting in the darker tunnel part was kinda funny

also killua, a literal 12 yr old, calling out kurapika for being a murder virgin was pretty hilarious

ok also i didnt know that madhouse animated hxh which is rlly funny but w/e i love the animation especially the occasional chibi parts and the facial expressions (like killuas ‘i love murder’ catboy expressions)

oh also when killua murdered those 2 guys and his hand was all vein-y and his nails were pointy, his hands looked like hisokas do...i wonder if thats a legit connection or it hisoka just b getting his nails did

kurapika talking abt how even seeing a regular spider makes them rlly angry was both very sad and kinda funny. kura u have so many issues god bless

kurapikas smackdown on evil blue franky was fuckin dope tho. and the red eyes reveal was SPOICY

rlly love how the individual fights highlights the characters strengths/morals/motivations/whatever....the writing is already really strong tbh

ugh ok ive ranted enough this is a Lot lmao its so disorganized but w/e

basically i love this series so far and im rlly curious whatll happen next. also everything seems pretty chill and upbeat so far (relatively) and i know this shit gets dark and im NOT FUCKING READY.

til next timeeee

#i think readmores are broken? sometimes? anyways i hope thats not the case and if so then im sorry everyone #im gonna schedule this for like 3 am this is just for me to ramble lmao #anyways i need a tag #uhhh #lj watches hxh #hxh #bam there we go

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dandizettes · 6 years

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lets go lesbians im watching the lizzie boot

- bridget is not even bothering with the accent and i think that is VALID

- the band appears to be having. a bit of trouble. following the singers

- i really like the gal playing liz so far! her voice is pretty

- ok. well i dont really think she uh. y’know BROUGHT IT for this is not love? like. the intensity just uhhhh wasn’t there. hm. her voice is lovely but just feel like she didn't hit that peak u know

- I LOVE THE ARRANGEMENT OF GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE WOW - ok liz is lookin better here! certainly more intensity

- GUYS they really FIXED gotta get out of here oh my god it sounds so much better w/o the heavy metal distortion

- but then. on the other hand. without the heavy metal distortion u really gotta RAMP IT UP vocally 2 get that same feeling and uhhhhhh i dont really feel like its there, tbh

- im not sure if its the singers or the band but SOMEONE is messing up the timing a little

- blocking is a little weird? liz keeps pacing for like no reason

- ALICE PLANT YOUR FEET PLANT YOUR FEET YOURE SHIFTING YOUR WEIGHT ALICE ITS VERY DISTRACTING

- awww no one is doing the “hhhhhh-ahhhhh” back up vocals in this version

- aw alice keeps trying to comfort her and she keeps pushing her away :(

- liz is doin a good job being super panicky though!! alice just wants to help. oh man she's trying so hard

- i think it was a little down tempo or the drums weren't loud enough or the actors weren’t keeping the intensity but something was a lil. off about the whole number

- i like alice’s costume and hate everyone else’s lmao

- i think alice’s mic is off? or no one is miked? idk but she's real quiet

- piano player is making some weird choices

- alice hon COMMIT to the head voice

- oh god here we go its soul of the white bird

- lizzies doing a good job so far

- weirddddd blocking decisions. real weird blocking decisions

- liz is weirdly far downstage? while she does the “never let the boys come” part and its. detracting from the whole experience. like she's not the focal point which makes no sense because this is an important part

- oh actually i think liz did a good job with That Part of the song. u know, with That Part being what it is

- emma is still center and lizzie is up left and its still real weird

- the band is really not bringin it

- liz has good intensity here but. theres no BUILD to the intensity so it feels jarring

- OH SHIT SHE WAS GONNA JUMP. THATS THE “lizzie don’t!” in the recording. she was going to jump off the roof

-emma babe fuckin YELL fuckin SCREAM get MAD

- literally what the fuck is the bassist doing

- emmas getting there. a little more mad now

- never mind its gone now that she's singing

- i think they're choir ppl. not theatre ppl. thats the problem

- band is doing weird tempo things again. i think it should be swung or something? idk much about music but i know this sounds off despite not REALLY being off, tempo-wise, u know

- OOOOOOH THEYRE DOING THE DRY ICE THING

- is. is bridget wearing nikes with her dress

- this whole thing seems. under-rehearsed

- not enough PAUSES everything is too FAST

- alice is doing GOOD with will you stay

- YES BABE HIT THOSE RUNS

- the piano player is BAD

- liz initiates the kiss the second time!! i think thats important

- mmmmm why are all these heads off. not nearly enough chaotic energy

- oooooh man some VOICE CRACKS. but they powered through it!! good for them

- piano man WHY

- mercury rising was underwhelming bc of bad blocking and piano man playing WAY too fast, but they HIT those harmonies

- OH SHIT THOSE ARE WEIRD CELLO NOISES AT THE BEGINNING OF SOMEBODY WILL DO SOMETHING!!!! I DIDNT KNOW THAT

- cellist killing it with those weird screeching rat sounds HELL yeah

- OH FUCK YEAH BRIDGET STEPPED IT THE HELL UP

- SOME!BODY! WILL D I E E E E !!!!!!!

- oh my god it is SO UNDER TEMPO

- ok. we need the distortion for this one folks. it sounds like Lizzie Does Indie Folk without it

- well at least the drums are finally kicking in

- BRIDGET FUCK IT UP HELL YEAH

- oh these poor girls the band is playing SO SLOW

#im splitting this into acts bc i have. many things to say #lizzie

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two-face-has-two-faces · 6 years

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TumblrFrostbite's AU Question: If Harvey Dent NEVER had his face scarred, no thanks to unfortunate circumstances, how different would Harvey's life be if he's still a district attorney and ally of Batman and Gordon now? Note: This scenario could take place in any DC canon. ANY DC canon.

Ok. This is literally the first ask I ever got on this blog, and there’s a reason it took me so long to answer. This is like, a huge question. So apologies for putting it off so long, and I hope this answer satisfies, @frostbite883.

Note: there are a couple of my own assumptions in here, but don’t let that detract from the main point.Note Note: im on mobile and can’t create a cut off, so long text incoming.

Harvey Dent before getting scarred was a tenacious dumbass. He was the DA, and he did his very best to clean up the crime in Gotham, despite being threatened with bodily harm multiple times. This is the dude that purposefully snapped photos of known Mob people’s license plates, despite being warned Not To Do That by the Gotham crime families. Fuckin wild man.

He was like. Batman If Batman operated in the daytime and lawfully. As DA, he had a high conviction rate cause this guy!! Had!! Evidence!!! He was against wrongful convictions and he did his gosh dang best to keep criminals behind bars, and the innocent on the streets.

A regular rising star! He was insanely popular (amongst the normal, non criminal people), and he was a very good friend of Bruce Wayne. The world was his oyster. Then he got scarred and it all went to shit.

But suppose he didn’t get scarred? Suppose he didn’t have that mental break? Well let’s discuss.

Firstly, I don’t think he’d like. Immediately ascend to position of mayor or something like that. He’s a popular dude, but I genuinely believe that he would want to stay in law, where he could measure his own impact in the city. Conviction rates and evidence? That’s all tangible.

Harvey is a tangible dude for sure, let’s be real. Part of the character’s appeal is his intensely held beliefs of right and wrong. As his darker inclinations are not given a Literal Face like in canon, I think it’s fair to say that he’d still have a bit of an internal crisis morals wise.

The interesting thing about Two Face was that he wasn’t an alien. He wasn’t some dark force. He was Harvey, the parts of Harvey that he always tried to suppress. Just because Harvey wasn’t scarred doesn’t mean that Two Face wasn’t lurking beneath the surface.

So let’s break this down:1. Harvey Dent has a high profile, high pressure job. It’s hard for him to ‘turn off’ work mode- we know this because people close to him are constantly telling him to tone it down and take a dang break.2. We also know that the Sal Maroni case (where he was scarred in canon) was an especially important one. He would have been more stressed than usual.3. In this hypothetical scenario, we’re gonna say Maroni still attempted to throw acid on him. We’re also gonna say he’s either a terrible shot or Harv was just able to dodge the shit out of that.4. Either way, there was still an attempt on Harvey’s life. He’s already in the public eye (which can be stressful for anyone- Harvey included), and now that his case has been partially derailed by the shit show that is him almost dying. Not to mention the fact that he’s already under a lot of pressure to do well due to his position as a rising star who’s yet to have a scandal. That’s. Really overwhelming.5. Two Face’s appearance in canon is directly linked to Harvey’s own mental weakness (read: stressed as fuuuck), but he only got as much power as he did because he was physically there, a literal manifestation.

But for this AU, he’s not scarred. So let’s analyse this new behavior:1. He’d be irritable following the attack. Two Face is repressed emotion, and while he remains safely locked away his influence would still be felt. Harvey would probably be grappling between keeping up his public ‘golden boy’ persona, and dealing with an onslaught of negative emotions that of fucking course he’s feeling! Dude probably has some form of PTSD and I’m not even getting into that!2. His relationships with the people in his life would be strained. He and his wife (I don’t think they’re fighting or anything) are talking less, he’s isolating himself. He and Bruce are still friends, but Harvey would try to keep Bruce from worrying by over compensating how 'fine’ he feels. 3. He’d be reckless too. From the very beginning this man has been reckless but this takes it to a new level. His sense of self preservation is all over the place. He’s paranoid (that people will realize that he’s not as ok as he shows himself to be), but he’s taking tremendous risks all the time. His conviction rate goes up, as does his tendency to courtroom drama. Two Face was always the one with an eye for the ridiculous, and I think this seeps into this Harvey.

Eventually Bruce and the others close in his life are gonna meet up and be like: 'yo Harv’s acting bananas’. It’s intervention time.

So Bruce, Harv’s wife, Gordon, and some of the people in Harvey’s office trap him one day and there’s a huge intervention. Everyone can tell that Harv’s been off since the failed acid attack, and they’re worried as shit. Harvey would try to deflect and deny, but that wouldn’t last long.

The dude likely breaks down, and there’s a big group hug or some shit, and they all get Harvey to promise that he’ll go to therapy to deal with all of these things he’s feeling. And to to therapy he does! Cause his friends and family aren’t dicks and there’s no mental health stigma!

And then shit starts to look up. Harvey goes to see a therapist twice a week for a few months (and then once a week for longer after), and he learns healthy coping mechanisms. Two Face (or rather the emotions associated with him) are not repressed, but they’re dealt with in a manner that is healthy mentally.

Harvey starts to keep a journal or something so that he has an outlet for his emotions, he talks things through with people he trusts, he tones down some of his nonsense at the office and in court, and he works with Gorden and Batman when he has the time.

That’s another thing he works on- he has to learn not to overwork himself. He keeps a schedule. One day a week he forces himself not to do anything case related. Usually he spends it with his family or Bruce. Beyond that, he keeps the amount of cases he takes down to a sane level.

All of these things make for a healthier, happier, and more productive Harvey Dent. But Harvey does keep up his old tricks. He’s still after the crime families in Gotham, and he’s still dedicated to improving life in the city. He is by no means not a threat to the evil in the city.

Working with Gordon and Batman, the trio’s success rate for exposing and dealing with extreme criminals raises exponentially.

Maybe I’ll write something on the politics of that in another post, but I’m keeping this Harvey centered.

Tl;dr: Harvey Dent may avoid scarring, but Two Face is more than the scars. He’d have to go through therapy before reaching his full potential, especially after a life threatening even like an acid attack.

#I have way more thoughts on this but this is stupid long as it is #thank you for the question and I'm sorry this is SO fucking late #there's a certain headspace you gotta be in to answer a question like this- and I don't think I answered it ENOUGH #there's a lot to unpack here #if y'all have questions leave a reply!! I'll answer those questions under the name 'green-217' because that's my main but that's me #I'm happy to discuss any of this #feel free to reblogged if you're so inclined #Harvey dent #asks and answers #mine #@frostbite883 #Harvey Dent rant™

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conorpmaynard · 7 years

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All Started With a Song Part 6// Conor Maynard

Word Count- 1559

Summary- conor sees your cover and contacts you

A/n- (feel free to change the friends name I was just too lazy to write y/f/n that may times) ahhhhhh! its finally up! i hope you like it. im sorry it took soo long, but i promise its worth the wait. i have the next few parts planned out but havent written them yet. part 7 will def be up tomorrow and maybe 8. hope you enjoy. (also sorry if your name is sabrina)

“What?” you laughed, half scared about what they were going to say.

“He needs to be taught a lesson,” Alice said simply.

“And how do you plan on teaching him this lesson?” you asked. “He’s famous!”

“Oh honey,” Olivia put her hand on your cheek. “Do you know who your best friends are?”

“Apparently not,” you scoffed.

You were right. You had no idea what they could do. They had sent the video of you singing to both Anth and Alex Aiono.

They were determined to get payback on Conor. And you wanted to tell them to stop, that he didn’t deserve it. But every time you went to defend him, the image of him wrapping his arm around the unknown girl would pop up in your head.

You understood the likelihood of you getting with Conor was rather slim, or even nonexistent. But he had contacted you. He was the one interested in singing with you. So why did he blow it off like it was nothing?

So you sat there, hanging out with the girls and not feeling bad about what you were doing. Part of you knew neither of them would reply so didn’t feel that bad.

You had ordered pizza and decided to watch a few movies. You weren’t that into the current movie, so you relied on your phone to keep you detracted.

You were scrolling through stories on SnapChat when you realized something.

“He unadded me,” you said flatly.

“What?” they asked in unison.

“Conor. He unadded me on SnapChat.”

“Why?”

You gave Alice a look that said ‘how do you expect me to know.’

“Check Instagram,” Olivia suggested.

You opened the app and went to Conor’s page. You clicked on who he’s following and started to type in your Instagram name.

No users found.

You assumed they could read your facial expression because Alice then yelled, “That fucking asshole!”

You turned off your phone and tried to watch the movie. But Olivia paused it.

“Are you not mad?” she asked.

You sighed, “If he doesn’t want to work with me, then fine. I don’t care, honestly.” You said, looking at your best friend.

“But he’s being an ass, you shouldn’t let him treat you like this.” Alice insisted.

“Please just drop it,” you did not want to cry over a dumb guy.

“Fine,” Olivia said playing the movie. “Just don’t know why you’re letting him play you like this.”

You stood up, annoyed. These girls were supposed to be your best friends yet here they were, trying to make you sad.

“You think I’m letting him play me???” you said, voice rising. “I’m not letting him do anything! He’s just doing it! How do you think it felt to see him have no guilt as he stood next to the girl he so clearly fucked the night before?!! Huh?? How do you think that feels? Would YOU want to talk about it? I didn’t think so! Okay? I’m pissed, and angry and upset and frustrated and mad and sad and confused and I don’t know what to fucking do about it! But I know that I DON’T want to talk about it right now!” you screamed at them, not caring that they were taken aback. You gulped in a huge breathe.

“Y/n…”

“I’M NOT FINSIHED!” you belted. “I don’t want to relive that moment again. Ever. I am done talking about him. I don’t want to hear his name very again. Okay? I’m going to go take a shower and cool off, I suggest you two leave. Please,” you sighed and walked off to your bathroom.

You immediately regretted it, because now your throat hurt. You didn’t regret yelling, because you really could not stand hearing about him for one more second. Sometimes you have to scream to get your point across.

When you got out of the shower, the girls were gone. You felt somewhat bad, but in the end you just couldn’t bring yourself to give a fuck. You were stood up and it hurt, you needed time to heal before you could talk about it. They didn’t understand that.

You were snuggled up in bed with your laptop sat on your legs. It was playing an episode of Criminal Minds, and you were rather intrigued with the plot.

So when your phone buzzed you were slightly annoyed. You paused the show and picked up your phone. Olivia was calling you.

You answered, “Hello.”

“I know I’m the last person you want to talk to right now, but Anth’s manager messaged me back. I can forward it to you, if you’d like,” she was very hesitant and it broke your heart.

“I’d much rather you show me person,” you smiled even though she couldn’t see.

“Really?”

“Yes, apologies are useless over the phone.”

“We’ll be there in 10!” she squealed and hung up.

About 15 minutes later you heard knocking at the door. You opened the door and there stood Olivia ad Alice.

You flung yourself into Olivia’s arms, “I’m so so sorry Liv. I didn’t mean to get so mad. I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry too babe!” you were both crying, clinging to each other for support. When you separated you engulfed Alice into a hug as well.

“I’m sorry Al.”

“Me too Y/n/n.”

“Okay, okay. Tell me what Anth said!” you squealed, following the girls to your couch.

“It was his manager. Here’s the email,” she handed you her laptop.

To: y/f/n/y/l/[email protected]

Hello Y/n! This is Anth’s manager. I sent him the video of you singing and he loved it! However, he is currently in LA for a project. If you’re still willing to do the collaboration, let me know and we can book a flight for you!

Have a great day,

Sabrina Adams

“Holy shit,” you gasped.

“You’re going to LA!” Olivia shrieked.

“Help me reply!” you smiled.

This is what you ended up sending:

Hi Sabrina,

I am so willing to come to LA to sing with Anth! Would it be possible for me to bring 2 friends? If not, that’s okay. If you could please send me the information for my flight that would be great. See you soon :)

Thank you,

Y/n Y/l/n

She replied about 2 hours later. She said you were allowed to bring friends. But you decided you were going to surprise Alice and Olivia.

The next few days were filled with you and Sabrina planning the trip to LA. The plan was for you three to arrive in LA on Friday. Then you and Anth would film the video on Saturday. Then you could spend Sunday and Monday exploring, heading back home Tuesday morning.

Making sure Olivia and Alice didn’t make plans and not ruining the surprise was harder than you thought. They were getting frustrated that you kept interrupting their lives. You felt bad, but you knew the surprise was worth it.

It was currently noon on Wednesday, and you invited them both over so you could tell them the good news.

“So how are you girls?” you asked, grabbing a handful of popcorn.

“Really good! Sean and I talked about getting a puppy,” Olivia said, wiggling her eyes as she sipped her drink.

“That’s great!” Alice smiled, patting Olivia’s leg.

“How about you Alice? Any boys catching your eyes?” You ask. Everyone knew Alice wasn’t over your brother, that she was determined to wait. But he hadn’t contacted her since he left for Australia about 7 months ago. You had talked to Brandon about it.

“She’s hurt Brandon,” you sighed.

“So am I Y/n!” The sadness surrounding him as evident, even through the phone.

“Why are you ignoring her?” you asked, staring out the window of your apartment.

“Because I love her…” he trailed off.

“That doesn’t make sense. You don’t ignore the ones you love.”

“I can’t go a year without her, it will hurt too much. I need to break it off, but I can’t,” he sighed. “I don’t know what to do.”

“If you love her, it will all work out. But please don’t mope around Australia for a year,” you laughed.

“Thanks for the help,” he laughed as well. “I miss you so much y/n.”

“Miss you too big bro.”

A week later they ended their relationship.

“No,” she stared at the ground.

“Have you tried?” Olivia asked.

“No,” she repeated.

“Alice…” you dragged on.

“Please, you don’t want to talk about Conor and I don’t want to talk about Brandon. Okay?”

“Okay, I understand.”

“Thank you Y/n.”

You stood up, trying to hide the smile on your face.

“I have something to tell you guys.”

“What is it?” Alice asked, confusion written on both of their faces.

“Okay, so you know how I’m going to LA on Friday?”

“What about it?” Olivia asked.

“Well, pack your bags because you guys are coming with me!!” you squealed, jumping up and down.

“What?!” Alice jumped up.

“We’re going to LA? Together?” Olivia asked.

“YES!” you smiled, she jumped up and hugged you.

“Oh my god! We have to pack!”

“Yes, because I want you guys to spend the night here tomorrow so we can leave early on Friday.”

“How early?”

“Like 3 in the morning early.”

“That’s insane, but hey, were going to LA!” Olivia shouted.

“We’re going to LA!” you laughed.

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