#im pale as hell compared to the rest of my ppl and its just kinda weird to think back and remember that I was once so ashamed and

[possumteeths]

when i was in middle school i was just obsessed with having white skin. i googled a thousand things, went to the asian beauty store to get skin bleaching products. I took weird fkn lemon baths and stuff. And like i guess I never realized how fucked up that was?

Every time I come across the term porcelain skin I want to throw something. Bodily descriptions in books these days are much much better than they were when I was twelve but fanfic is still very much in the past. Obviously i’m not inserting myself in everything I read, I like to be like fifteen steps away from the story but someone exceptionally beautiful is always described with such white centric terms and often the stupid term porcelain skin. Its annoying and stupid and can we stop saying this dang phrase lol.

#even the whitest goddang person isnt porcelain #im pale as hell compared to the rest of my ppl and its just kinda weird to think back and remember that I was once so ashamed and #embarrassed of my skin color id cover every inch of my body and had long ass hair to hide my face #and everyone was like lol ur goth but like nah! its much worse #i also understand this might just be a me problem but like i think there is something to be said that something beautiful or lovably fragile #is always goddamned described with white ass terms #Also u need to be conscious of the way u describe side characters when ur main character is ~porcelain~ and white #If ur mc is so cool and badass sexy u need to be so conscious of the way they speak and the terms they use and the terms you use to describe #their thoughts and actions #U need to be conscious of how u describe side characters as well its just important to understand the indirect ways that your privelege has #affected you #Yknow also its important to understand the way the world has shaped your thoughts and your person esp when ur a white person writing a poc #I dont rlly feel like idk explaining this in detail but I guess im saying that people need to be more conscious of the way they indirectly #come across and the way that certain terms are outdated and just about harmfull #if ur describing a corpse sure use porcelain skin lol but dont have every instance of bodily description circle around their whiteness #and especially dont have poc characters described in any less affection #if ur white mc is porcelain and beautiful and ur supporting poc character is described rough and u talk abt their scars and etc its weird #cause like CLEARLY everyone on this earth doesnt have perfect perfect skin #its much more interesting to describe ur characters skin and the minor imperfections they have because it tells me about them #it builds something yknow? if ur character is porcelain then theres nothing that tells me abt the character other than that you as an author #find this to be fitting as a descriptor and it says a lot #and like this goes for poc also like poc can write just as harmful things as white ppl #Anyways I read a mass effect fic that described sooo many things soooo bad

[distressed-kitty]

why vriska isn't bad

this is a late night discovery that I made while looking at the Hemospectrum wiki to see what blood color The Flash would be, when I saw something that opened my third eye. (this is long so I'm putting it under the cut, if you want to know why some people stan vriska, or if you stan vriska and want validation or a more in-depth explanation of why shes likable; read this)

okay so, I never understood why there were vriska stans, I always thought her excuses where stupid. bc it mostly was “I'm forced to do this because of the culture I was raised in”(my counterpoint was always, other trolls lived in the same society and they didn't go out of their way to kill anyone), and how she “regrets every harm she's done” (but in a way that pities herself rather than the victim), and I felt bad that she ended up being moirails with Terezi bc I thought Terezi deserves better. we all know that trolls have different physical characteristics depending on where there are on the blood spectrum: “Trolls lower on the hemospectrum are more likely to have psychic powers, but are more psychically susceptible as a result. On the other hand, trolls higher on the hemospectrum seem to be physically stronger. Some castes have further distinct physical differences.“ -from the wiki page about Hemospectrum. everything here is based of the wiki.

but reading more i found that the differences arent only physical: “Equius remarks that Gamzee has the highest blood possible for a landdweller and is as such more prone to violence and murder than the rest of them, and that he dreads to think what he would be without the pacifying influence of his moirail. This implies that trolls gradually become more violent the higher they are on the hemospectrum and is mostly in line with the twelve trolls followed in Hivebent. The only exception seems to be Feferi, who, despite being at the very top of the hemospectrum, displays no negative tendencies, although she might only be suppressing them by force of will, since she was screaming while attacking an imp here.”

the higher the trolls are the more violent they are, which everyone already kinda knew, but it's not because of the culture, its biological. “ On a possibly related note, Aradia starts displaying more violent behavior after entering her blue blood-fueled Soulbot. “ even Aradia started to be violent when she was powered by blue blood, which shows that the higher the blood color, the more aggressive the troll becomes, no matter what culture they were raised in. 

that leads me to my next point, “other trolls lived in the same society and they didn't go out of their way to kill anyone”. low bloods aren't aggressive in their nature, so they wouldnt want to go and kill random ppl unless its necessary. so we cant compare their actions to vriskas. but the trolls that are higher than her;  Equius, Gamzee, Eridan, and Feferi. still didn't do as much harm as her. which leads to the greatest point of all, explained by Equius: “ Equius remarks that Gamzee has the highest blood possible for a landdweller and is as such more prone to violence and murder than the rest of them, and that he dreads to think what he would be without the pacifying influence of his moirail.”

he implies that friendship holds high bloods back from harming others. Equius had Nepeta, who was a stronger moirail then any US marine, and Equius never harmed anyone. Gamzee had Karkat, and only killed when he was mind controlled by cal. Edrian and Feferi had each other, but Feferi also had other trolls in quadrants, such as Sollux, which was the only reason Edrian killed (bc he lost his moirail/crush).

Vriska didn't have moirail, she didn't have relationships that lasted or were healthy, and most were kissmesis or Auspisticism who were unbalanced or onesided. she didn't have anyone she cared for, anyone she was willing to change for. but we do see that she could have changed, could be more passive for her significant other (pale or red). where do we see that? 

that's right motherfuckers!!!!!!!! (this was pointed out to me by @minitayarts  @minitay666)

when vriska finally got someone who cares about her and she cares about them, she completely changed. this version of vriska is actually one of my favorite characters in the comic. she was finally happy, she learned peace ;-;.

the only thing a high blood needs, is a significent other, pale/red (don't know about kissmesis and the other one, haven't seen much evidence towards it helping). and virska got it in the end, when she forms scourge sisters with terezi.  she was toxic yea, but all highbloods are toxic, but they get help, they form healthy relationships. and so did she, terezi needed her as much as vriska needed her. without each other their life was hell. I thought vriska didn't deserve terezi, that terezi needed someone whos a good person to be friends with, that I forgot the raw power of friendship that this comic radiates. by becoming friends, vriska and terezi changed for the better, learning to love themselves and be happy.

vriska is a flawed person, who did a lot of bad things. she was born with natural aggression and temper, hating herself and acting like shes the best to hide it. she was angry that she was aggressive, blaming her biology. which a lot of people irl do or experience, being raised in a bad place/way and developing a temper, and not being able to control it later in life. or hating yourself and feeling you are a bad person, acting superior to hide it. and in general, being a flawed person in their youth. seeing vriska brings back that self-hatred, she reminds people of a worse version of themselves that everyone has. but she changed, she got help, she found friends and a place where she belongs. she proved she is more than her temper. she is a person. people who dislike vriska see her past acts as unforgivable. people who like her see hope in change.

this is a tribute to @starship-one , whos constant stanning of vriska made me look into why that would be.

this may not be accurate for every vriska stan, maybe u like her just bc shes a pirate. but if your a ‘vriska did nothing wrong’ stan then this is more for you. im not sure how accurate it is about why ppl like her, but it is quite accurate (if i do say so myself) about why vriska cant be blamed for her actions. its like comparing a feral cat to a house cat, saying that one is better then the other. even when the feral cat got adopted and became nicer, but still kept its feral tendencies. where was I going with this metaphor? anyways the post is already done, shoo, why are you still here.

#vriska serket #homestuck #terezi pyrope #hiveswap #fuck im not gonna tag all the trolls #not art #mine #text #theory #i guess #thanks for coming to my tedtalk