#im sure others find it relatable and have it worse ✌️

[florasolarsystem]

System Roles and Jobs

To clarify because im terrified of miscommunication- system roles are their general role and title within the system that their jobs fall under. The jobs are more specific tasks that they do to fulfill their role.

The variety of jobs within systems? I love it. Even looking at the most general terms how that role specifically works within a system is so fascinating to me. No system is the same and how one protector operates and their job within a system can be so entirely different from another. For us a lot have hyperspecific or seemingly random roles and tasks within the system in order to help us. It's also partially why even if they're defined as (for example) a protector we tend to have to go into more detail due to their specific jobs.

Some examples of jobs within the system that I find cool:

Our main protector has a variety of jobs but one of the daily ones was helping us walk to and from school, especially with crossing roads in general. We've always been bad at it and genuinely put ourselves in danger accidentally repeatedly, and when we're struggling mentally it's even worse. So he's join us in co front of take front and just chat with us as we walked and made sure we stayed safe. There were a few other situations like people's dogs not being locked away properly or strangers offering us rides- lol- that he handled within the role.

One of my headmates her role is genuinely just to like things in moderation and has a few jobs that fall under that. We have issues with hyperfixations and obsessions over things we like and damaging our mental health due to it (and occassionally physical stuff due to things like forgetting to eat or not sleeping) and so when she fronts or is nearby it's easier to take breaks from things or she'll redirect us to new tasks or things like eating and help us stay focused on them instead.

We have one person who just helps us communicate with each other in different ways. It's normally by finding ways externally to communicate and then helping remind and encourage us to use them. Some of it has been through helping people write excerpts about their day or life or goals (normally masked as fanfiction), finding songs people relate to, starting a lil system of notes and reminders on our mirror for example.

Someone helps us establish boundaries by having alone time. It just means she fronts and does her own thing for a bit but doesn't reply to texts or talk to anyone unless it's urgent which is something we really struggle with.

One person's role as a protector is to just share violent and scary thoughts with those who can handle it better, in order to help us find coping skills for when one of our irl friends does something similar. His main job is literally to say scary things about harming people-

But yeah, none of this is gonna be a ground breaking revelation to hear but I find it cool all the specific jobs and ways people do their roles. If you have any you'd like to share please do, I could go on abot this for ages. ✌️

#sysblr #system shit #osdd did #dissociation #actually did #system roles #system jobs #protector #persecutor #im so fixated on systems always you dont understand i need to know everythign about our system/lh

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quarantine schedule!! :D

- wake up/get ready

- attend zooms

-try to do work

- cannot focus on work for more than 2 seconds

- doomscroll

- stress

- self hatred + 10 babeyyyy

- doomscroll

- stress

- stare at work unable to do anything because my brain has dissolved into a cloud

- zone out/doomscroll

- actually i'm constantly zoned out no matter what i'm doing here

- laugh at literally nothing for no reason

- doomscroll

- stress

- hit my head in the desk cuz i've been trying to focUS FOR 3 FUCKING HOURS JESUS FUCK

- eat lunch 2 hours late because i forgot to earlier

- doomscroll

- look at screen not even trying to work anymore but if i do anything else i'm gonna feel so bad about not doing work i'll be nauseous

- stress

- doomscroll but hate myself more for it this time

- "well something must be wrong with you!" says my family, who despite this still refuse to let me see any sort of professional because they "hate those people on 'crazy pills'"

- actually try to work but fail

- stress

- respond to teacher emails about how i'm being lazy and not working (i'm just catching up, i'll be passing in a jiffy, teach! ^_^)

- stress

- eat dinner

- doomscroll

- stress

- zone out trying to work

- it's 2 am

- try and fail to work

- fail at sleeping because i'm too stressed to calm my brain down for 2 seconds

- and sleep! ^_^

#starkidding-posts #online school #vent but ok to rb #im sure others find it relatable and have it worse ✌️ #hnnnnng #tw caps #tw swear #tw ableism