#it works for what i use it for (roleplaying with my hubby lol) but it would NOT be good for this

[isa-ah]

man i haven't written in earnest in years & years but the quality of.. most of these fics.... is making me desire to write what I want to read so it exists. hmm

#i think if i did write fics id post them under a totally different username LOL #id be way too shy to share #hm. #my current writing style is very intrispective but with the fics ive been reading it drives me crazy #when there are just like several paragraphs every couple convo sentences that add nothing to the story #i just scroll until i see more quotation marks and pick bsck up and i havent missed anything yet! #it works for what i use it for (roleplaying with my hubby lol) but it would NOT be good for this #there is someone whos fic has such a unique writing style it makes me want to get a pen and paper and study it #maybe i will?

[saltynsassy31]

ahh hi again:3 you mentioned Skipper has poisons?👁️👁️ what is it that he does with them? and i’m a little curious about what Cherry, El & Skipper do down there sow… if you wanna tell i’m up to hear all of it 👂 i know i already asked this buut i know theres loads more to it like you said so :D… i wanna know

Oookay, this is a long one so buckle up!

Cuz yeah, there is a lot more to it XD

So, I'm just realising that no one besides my friend I roleplayed with, and maybe mossy cuz they let me info dump once (which btw if you wanna know too, just ask and I'll drop it in DMs on discord cuz I can just copy paste it all lol), knows about this XD

But he is really good with poisons! His stage name is Venom because of that. His father is both a doctor and a botanist (more so as a hubby though) and since he was really close with his dad, he learned a lot of stuff about flowers and a person's anatomy.

When he started working in the black circle, he found ways to use poison to his advantage, his knife is laced with poison that can paralyse you in small doses but slowly kill you if given enough, though he also knows every poison's antidotes because he didn't feel safe with his boss (he lives together with him) and just in case it was used against him he'd have a way out.

As for what they do, well

I keep it vague intentionally cuz I have no real clue XD but I do?

Cherry does modeling work on the surface but she does that cuz she works as a spy for her circle, El was never part of a circle and worked free lance and only joined Cherry and Skipper later

Skipper worked as an underground fighter, basically people bet on who wins and since he always won, he made his boss a lot of money.

They also did turf wars as, although that is a surface job, having your name known in popular areas also made you more money underground as it made you "famouse" (same with modeling in Cherry's case) and thus mode money

A little bit more on El, he was a very well known hacker, an anonymously but still well known

#salty rants #salty answers

[cosmosrival]

there it is! kama interlude analysis by a kama fan!

WELL. LIKE IT SAYS IN THE TITLE: this is just my own thoughts!! youre free to think whatever u want !! i am just putting my own knowledge into words because i genuinely love kama, and i would like for kama’s depth to be understood by the NA fandom a little more!! i try to stay as close as possible to their character in everything i do because i believe that the more in character they are, the funnier/more interesting content ppl will produce. 

and hopefully i understood them well ???!!!! HOPEFULLY ?!

i will be screenshotting the translated reddit post under this read more and stop whenever something i find interesting to develop pops up ! or else it’ll get way too long lol if you wanna read the interlude for yourself heres the link!

with that said, let’s go!!

kama’s interlude begins with guda passing the hell out because of exhaustion and then waking up in a dream sequence where kama treats them to some relaxing adventures, stuff to take their mind off heavy things!! first dream sequence is kama roleplaying a highschool setting where they’re dating.

i like this because they openly admit that its an illusion, breaking the immersion but as long as youre okay with roleplaying, they’ll continue it LOL  at some point, caesar mentions the student council president and arjuna appears behind him 

since this is an illusion that kama made, i’ve been wondering about the fact that the way servants conduct eachother in this interlude is mostly because that’s how kama envisions they would act in a highschool setting, in an amusement park and finally with eachother (mostly for confirmed couples such as siegbryn, consort yu and her hubby etc...). suzuka and sei being gyarus is obvious, but arjuna as the student council president... is so cute???!!! i MEAN IT FITS ?! THATS A GREAT IDEA KAMA!!!! ANYWAY

this is kama’s first monologue and since they’re primarily the god of lust, all of the more vanilla stuff they mentions such as sharing a pair of headphones embarrasses them since its so tame. ITS CUTE !!! kama expects you to be horny in class !! what are you doing thinking about hand holding !!! medusa saves u from that tho with a direct reference to her relationship with kama’s vessel 

this is interesting !! and reassuring !!! i think that kama as a character has a lot of depth and just reducing them to “sakura” would be a waste and this interlude shows how different they are from her. but they’re also similar! sakura went through a lot just like medusa says and kama does have trauma related to shiva. its not the same circumstances but the same kind of suffering which explains the nuance here. and what i like about chaldea is that there’s been multiple instances where its been proven that servants can grow thanks to their relationships with guda (most common example: leveling up your bonds) BUT ALSO, saint graph evolution (alts). and as a kama fan i’d like to see them happy someday and this interlude as a whole is proof of their healing/coping because of the time they spent in chaldea and how they interact with others. more on that later ! here, they don’t recognize medusa which is normal since they’re not sakura (someone else entierly), but...

they care about her ! because of sakura’s influence being a part of the servant called Kama(assassin). the difference here is important !! but i’ll come back on this in a bit. quick mention to the greek cupid <3 kamadusa nation we were fed (i clap by myself because im the only one who has 57575757557 kama rarepairs-----)

kama is a delinquent whos horny in class but still takes a few notes, enough to do well on their tests! and thats tea<3 smart horny lazyass !! theyre a gift

SO ARJUNA WAS OUT FOR BLOOD ????? ANYWAY, this is right after the actual fight against weirdo terrorists, and im happy to know that kama DOES enjoy a good fight (as proven in their voicelines as well) but theyre not a farming unit because it’d be too much work (single target NP..)...!!!!!!! lavish god of love.... 

FINALLYYYYYYYYYYY THE REAL DEAL !!!!!!!!!!!! “it feels wonderful to be your girlfriend” christ, kamadeva was so used to being a husband and a good lover, it reflected in their servant version.... but ree what do u mean by servant version???

I MEAN THE OBVIOUS !! kama explains it very well in the screenie just above ! 

“You know very well how servants work.”

KAMA ASSASSIN (the servant in your chaldea) is neither KAMADEVA or SAKURA MATOU or MARA. they’re a MIX OF PARTS OF THE THREE. creating an entierly new person(in this case, servant) !!!! it might sound like i’m repeating myself, but this is important!!!!!!!!! i will say this multiple times so people remember it !!! and if u already had this figured out: GOOD JOB I LOVE U !!!

Kamadeva (the god) has many stories, ones where he was born from concepts (dharma and shraddha), one where his parents are brahma and sarasvati, one where his parents are vishnu and lakshmi, stories about his reincarnation after his death where his parents are krishna and rukmini, his love with Rati and so on. We all know Sakura’s backstory since this is nasuverse. And Mara is a demon, an entity that tried to corrupt Buddha and prevent him from reaching enlightenment/stray from the path. Kama assassin has parts from all of these entities which explains why they have a vague longing for Rati, why they have a soft spot for Medusa and why they have an affinity with Kiara(and also like talking about corrupting u !). 

they then mention how a japanese highschool setting is fun and all i have to say is: i’m gonna make an indo fam delinquent vs student council au out of this one folks !!!!!!!! i gotta !!! 

OK next

TIME FOR THE SECOND DREAM SEQUENCE WHICH I WAS VERY VERY VERRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYY AFRAID OF BEFORE THE TRANSLATION CAME OUT.

THE PART WHERE KAMA ACTS LIKE YOUR CHILD.

well with their stage 1 it was expected but without the translation i have to say that i was scared shitless! because people hate thinking! and even if kama clearly tells you that it’s a charade, u know a JOKE. A DREAM SEQUENCE. DONT BE A CREEP. KAMA INTENDED FOR IT TO BE WHOLESOME. i know some ppl wont use their brains. but u know its fgo and degenerates are everywhere. 

anyways. family bonding time ensues until another monologue appears!!

exactly like before, kama mentions myths that belonged to kamadeva. Meaning that the Kama in our chaldea isn’t the Kamadeva we know and is not Pradyumna either but the fact that the writers chose to have kama acknowledge it is very reassuring !!! Because it means that they’ve chosen to make it a part of their (complicated) history. Kama says that Pradyumna is the myth about themself they know the least, once again proving us that the Kama in our Chaldea (Assassin) is a different entity and that they were summoned to the throne upon their death, the moment they were burned by Shiva’s flames and became Ananga, in any case they’re still familiar with all of their own myths. it allows us to keep heroic spirits separate from their original myths. Obviously! And in the case of pseudo-servants, it allows us to keep them separate from their vessels. Cuz this is a fanservice japanese game. Andddd the fandom likes forgetting this fact quite a lot i’ve noticed. As a person who loves thinking about tons and tons of headcanons for fun, this allows us a lot of space ! Because this is fate/grand order at its base. Nasuverse. 

I’m glad that the interlude explains it so clearly, it’s very good !! Because the majority of myths from every culture are confusing, family trees are confusing, names are confusing, powers and attributes are confusing... its a mess !!!! the fgo characters we know are just cut from their own respective timelines/historial figures so the writers can organize themselves more easily. Like cutting halves from a big cake. Kama (Assassin) is the Kama that died from Shiva’s flames and became the universe ONLY. In Nasuverse, Arthur Pendragon is a woman. Anastasia Romanov NEVER had a demon familiar named Viy in real life despite the creature being part of russian folklore. u know ! im russian i can testify dude !! 

hopefully everyone got this bc i wont be explaining this any further dude, its exhausting !!!!!! bangs my hands on the table !!!!! 

ANYWAYS kama mentions “eternal pain that turns [them] into ash” being their key element. Their trauma is at the center of their heroic spirit self, what they are as a servant. This suffering is tied to everything they do, why they’re so lazy, why they’re so lax, why they’re so detached from their job.  But they’re not detached from their role. And “job” and “role” have different connotations here. They refuse to work as a cupid because of obvious reasons. BUT. They’re not detached from their role as the God of Love, as the God of Passion. The embodiment of those feelings. This whole interlude is proof ! They’re giving u free therapy because they Love you. Passion. They feel your love. Passion. They acknowledge how much fun you’re having. How passionate you are about certain things. They might seem extremely detached and hateful, but they aren’t. They’re one of the most empathetic servants there is. And their ability to love everything, even the things they hate is what makes them so miserable. Because it’s a part of them. Because the concept of Kama in hinduism is linked to them. Be it lust or simply the passion born from anything you do where you’re enjoying yourself. (quote:  “ the term also refers to any sensory enjoyment, emotional attraction and aesthetic pleasure such as from arts, dance, music, painting, sculpture and nature “. R. Prasad (2008), History of Science, Philosophy and Culture in Indian Civilization )

... I’d like to say that this contrast with Mara is interesting. And that i’m glad the writers chose to add in Mara to the kama assassin Beast mix. 

Because the anger Mara feels can become a drivepoint for Kama. I’ve always believed that anger and sadness are two sides of the same coin, it’d explain how layered Kama is and how valid their emotions are. Constantly torn between love and hate. An eternal grudge (i don’t deserve to be hurt like this) and an eternal misery(maybe i do deserve to be hurt like this). 

i wish they were my roommate <3 oh fuck ree got emotional wait where were we.

OH YEAH

i think kama saying that they dislike being involved with other indian servants because theyre linked to shiva is a feeble attempt at trying to keep up a strong front because they still love them in the end. cuz that’s how kama is ! after a while they’ll get bored of bullying ganesha and ashwatthama. they’ll get interested in rama because their respective mythos are linked even if their servant selves have no connection. hell, at the end of the interlude they talk about parvati and how they themself changed and realized things. BUT OH WELL, THATS STUFF FOR ANOTHER POST HEHE thats just ree wanting kama to b happy yall move along !!

.....THIS ISNT A COLLEGE STUDENTS ROLEPLAY BUT ITS A CUTE JAPANESE COMPANY BOSS/UNDERLING SETTING AND ITS CUTE SO I THINK KAMA WEARING A PENCIL SKIRT AND POURING U ALCOHOL IS CUTE. CUTE.

further proof of kama’s overflowing affection and what i detailed above!! hopefully u all knew this one simply from reading this interlude/their profile page and dont need me to write it down for u. HOPEFULLY !!!!!

(I START BEATBOXING VERY RAPIDLY AND RUNNING TOWARDS YOU) KAMA IS A SADIST AT THEIR CORE AND I WILL NEVER STOP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they’re easy to fluster because theyre not used to being so vanilla, but whats underneath is how they truly are !! a beast turned servant, the sweetest sadist !! theyre very mature and this interlude is so well written (wipes my teears

this is directly linked to what i explained above, by burning you away, you’ll melt into nothingness just like they did. When they were the universe, they felt both everything and nothing. 

But was it really relief ... ?

... IT WASNT.

AND PARVATI SAVES THE DAY !!!!!!! phew!! thank u paru, it’d still like to be able to touch kama’s huge titties and i cant do that if i turn into ashes (falls down the stairs

ok she summoned lovey dovey canon couples to annoy kama since they’re exhausted of seein them!!

...............(I TAKE OUT A KNIFE) TAKE THAT BACK. DONT TALK TO THEM LIKE THAT. TAKE THAT BACK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

ohhhhhh im obsessed i love when theyre angry<3 i love when theyre fighty <3 i think they should beat the living shit out of a boxing bag DAILY to let out some of this steam. they’d be a monster on the ring... aaa kama in training boot y shorts aa a .. .uughg hg ouu... (you all shove me into a locker)

ok this is interesting !! i think that the interlude showing us that parvati feels a semblance of guilt is character dev. proof for what i mentioned before!! in ookuu parvati felt quite ..unsympathetic to me, even if kama is a beast who wants to annihilate humanity, when u think about it, at their core their grudge is because of her and shiva’s betrayal. and here, she properly apologizes for making kama so upset. this is heartwarming to me since i dislike thinking that members of the indo fam hate eachother :( same goes for arjuna and karna, at some point i’d like for them to act like bros normally and finally be comfy. but anyways !!

u wake up from the dreams and da vinci, mashu and paru are here to tell u whats going on. But its fine bc u remember everything and u have to go thank someone for helping u out!!!

CUTE !!!!!!! THEY CARE ABOUT U !!!!!! but whether it be because of their role or because theres a deeper meaning is entierly up to your own interpretation because...

of what they say here. 

and here !! 

ohhhhhhhhh this is so important !!!!!!

this is actual proof of kama’s growth as a servant and how servants evolve in chaldea !! chaldea is not the same as a grail war, its a special, cut-off place and thats what makes it even more relaxing to think about. Everytime u summon a servant in ur chaldea u give them a chance to have fun with you, to have fun with other servants, to make amends, to start from scratch, to discover things they would’ve never known in their time (movies, video games, tons of different foods etc...), u give them a chance to relax. to grow !! this is the headcanon that im most attached to and im glad to see it be confirmed in the interlude of a character i love tbqh i had to stop and talk about that.

everyone say thank u kama !! can we roleplay a college roommate coffee shop slowburn au next time <3 

ANYWAYS if you’ve read it this far: thank you !!! im sorry if you expected something very serious, im not that type of person hehe im jus here to have fun and look at things i like, and the interlude itself was quite lighthearted and refreshing. By talking about the myths and all of kamadeva’s stories, the writers basically gave lore nerds a huge thumbs up like... “its ok now !! u can go ape now !! go be insane<3 love u<3″ and all of this kama characterization GENUINELY makes me so happy because i think they really needed that. kama assassin... (i blow a kiss to the sky) is a little mess of a servant... a god, human crumbs and a demon... a total mess... im in love with them...

..............tho now the wait for a summer alt where they interact with the entire indo fam begins (im sitting in a chair unmoving)(i have a gun in case minase begins acting gross

#ree's fgo hcs #kama #WONT TAG THIS ONE AS A WHOLE BC IM... A LIL SHY TO BE HONEST #its just a kama fan rambling bro....... jus a kama fan liking the interlude man..... #like i said at the beginning of the post its just my thoughts<3

[hannah-deactivated20220725]

Please do it with your OCs! I'm trying to learn about your works without feeling annoying or like I'm spamming so this is actually a ton of fun for me too!

I have 38 listed, and that’s right off the top of my head ^_^;; so let’s just use those ones.

Omg of course I got one of the characters I know the least about... sigh.

So I got #17: Juma.

Juma’s name came from the Finnish word for goddess (jumalatar). She is the goddess of my roleplay world/DHaF world and HD world (all 3 of those take place in the same world).

Juma THINKS she’s in charge of who goes where in the afterlife, but little does she know... Ikuisuus does what she wants lol.

Juma is super sweet and understanding but she has no problem sending someone to hell just for not wanting to spend eternity with them

(I feel the need to say that hell in this world is NOT like the one you learn about in the bible... hell is just a party in a REALLY hot place, basically)

I have literally never thought about what Juma looks like, so she has no appearance as of now

Juma is best friends with Belinda & Ikuisuus, though she isn’t really seen in the adventures on DHaFN (the Death Has a Face Novel).

Unlike what a lot of religious text says about the gods of the planets, Juma is not all-seeing or all-knowing. That’s Ikuisuus’ job

Juma created demons and sent them to hell to keep the souls she didn’t want to be around company, basically

I’m not really sure what else to say, but for now, I guess that’s it. I’m heading to bed. Hubby’s ready for bed and I’ve been drinking some whiskey, so... for now, I’m gonna wish you a good night! Alex isn’t off til 6 tomorrow so I’ll have about an hour at home before he’s home.

For now, goodnight. Thank you for all the asks! This has been a lot of fun.

BTW, just to remind you, if these were for PP, PP isn’t til next week because I changed it from every week to the 1st and 3rd weeks of the month every month!

Alright, goodnight, Galaxy! Sweet dreams.

#my ocs #about my ocs #juma #about juma #dhaf #death has a face #death has a face novel #my wips #my roleplay #Origins of the Hybrid Species #humanity's demon #hd #writers of tumblr #writeblr #writeblr community #asks #my ask #books of lunacy #OHS

[thefirstawesomegirl]

Answer all the questions

1. Are looks important in a relationship? Not really, no. It’s about the personality for me.2. Are relationships ever worth it? They are. 3. Are you a virgin? noooope4. Are you in a relationship? Yup!5. Are you in love? I am~6. Are you single this year? nooope7. Can you commit to one person? I mean, yeah.8. Describe your crush. I have a friend-crush, does that count? Otherwise I’m just gonna talk about my hubby a lot.9. Describe your perfect mate. Willing to try new things with me, pushes me to do things that scare me, loves me completely.10. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not exactly, no.11. Do you ever want to get married? Already am~12. Do you forgive betrayal? Unless you’ve gone too far13. Do you get jealous easily? Kiiiinda14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Once again, if a friend crush doesn’t count, then HUBBY TALK TIME15. Do you have any piercings? Just my ears, though I’m considering a few others16. Do you have any tattoos? One so far. A white semicolon on my left wrist17. Do you like kissing in public? Mhmm ^^20. Do you shower every day? Yeah, but I wash my hair every other day. Can’t ruin the dye x.x21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Mhmm ^^22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I think so, yeah. Pretty sure he’s waiting on me to finish.23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Mhmm24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I hope I still am x.x25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? Already aaaam26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yeah 27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? Nope28. Have you ever been cheated on? Yeah...29. Have you ever cheated on someone? ....yeah...30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Nah, I don’t need to change myself31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Ooohhhh yeah32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? I have.33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Yup34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? Yup!35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? I have indeed36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yeah, but each time it didn’t exactly work the way I wanted.37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? OH YEAH38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yuppers~39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Quite a few times, actually.40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? I have41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yup!42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Depends on the person and the mood. I like just kissing sometimes43. How long was your longest relationship? 3 1/2 years so far44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? uhhhh...... 45. How many people did you kiss in 2011? UH I’m really not sure x.x46. How many times did you have sex last year? LOL do people keep track of that?47. How old are you? 2148. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Go for it! I just want the people I like to be happy.49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? I don’t think I can pick just one thing50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? No. Never. Never never. If I did, I want @phen0menal-woman to shoot me in the head. Please and thank you.51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Mhm~52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? Yeah, but I don’t think we’re gonna go there.53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Nope! But there was at the very begining54. Is there someone you will never forget? Quite a few people55. Share a relationship story. I once had a relationship that lasted exactly 1 week, and we only started dating because we didn’t want to go to the haunted house alone, and people just kinda made us go together.56. State 8 facts about your body: I have Hazel eyes with a gold ring. I’m covered in stretch marks that I thought would bother me. My chest has gotten smaller since I had kids. My butt has gotten bigger (go figure). I try to avoid leaving my hair its natural colour. I thought this would be easier, but I got nothin.57. Things you want to say to an ex. Fuck you.58. What are five ways to win your heart?  Food, bad movies, bad jokes, being cute, and just hanging out together~.59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!) UHhh, my icon^^;60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? almost 6 years, I believe. He was a creep.61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Their smile62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Blind folding me, and teasing me to completion.63. What is your definition of “having sex”? Being physically intimate64. What is your definition of cheating? Sleeping with someone who isn’t your partner65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? Being blindfolded, and being teased and denied.66. What is your favourite roleplay? I don’t really have a specific roleplay, persay, but I do kinda like the master/servant or master/pet dynamic.67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Netflix and foooood!68. What is your sexual orientation? Pansexual69. What turns you off? _drool_70. What turns you on? Biting, low rumbling voices, exposed skin71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? I might have recently had a dream of being double teamed by two of my dear friends and WE’RE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT WHO IT WAS BECAUSE IT’S WEIRD AND I DON’T CONTROL MY DREAMS OKAY72. What words do you like to hear during sex? Please73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? Cook me a homemade meal, and then WASH THE DISHES74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? A good smile75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Drove me out to my favorite star gazing spot and laid there for hours with me76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? I made this really cute shadow box thing with memories for him ^^77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? So long as it’s legal, and both are consenting adults, I see nothing wrong78. What’s your dirtiest secret? UHm...79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Honestly, I can’t remember80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Like, 1 minute ago81. Who are five people you find attractive? There’s way more than 5 tbh82. Who is the last person you hugged? My husband83. Who was your first kiss with? Trace Taccchi. Because he knew I was scared to be kissed and I had just started dating his best friend, so he decided to teach me how kissing worked.84. Why did your last relationship fail? It was never really in it to succeed tbh.

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? I have before