#it's abnormal that i worked taht hard and it did help me get out from my parents and stay out. but im also tired ect

[donnyclaws]

I was gonan make a post apologizing for lack of regular art but I feel like jts already clear im sporadic and in and out of it bc chronic pain and circumstances. So for now I'm gonna hibernate, get my health steady again, deal with money issues, and art will happen when it happens.

#i do feel kind of worn down by it. i wish patreon and commissions didn't feel so taxing even with accommodations ive made for myself #maybe it'll feel better in the future when less is going on but rn it #places this barrier of management in front of art that makes it less relieving to do #cause there's always a part of my brain reminding me it needs to serve a purpose and needs to pay off in some way #which isn’t a new feeling for artists obviously. maybe doing it all since hs js also why it's tiring. and patreon changjng the way it does #working part time now too. idk if maybe id like to step back from it #it's abnormal that i worked taht hard and it did help me get out from my parents and stay out. but im also tired ect #idw let people down by not being able to keep up with a self imposed expectation or #be irresponsible and remove sources of income for myself. redbubble inprnt and patreon all suck in ways that bother me hugely #i only really enjoy itch.io at the minute #not to say anything bad abt patrons or commission clients you've all been excessively kind and patient and understanding always #i wish i could make them better i feel like there's no way how it is at the minute is of value compared to my output as an older teen #but yknow. self imposed worry. im just worn out and id like to just make things without the management and the fretting and the #i havent made a comic post for patreon in ages or this or this i havent made a speedpaint or a song or #yadda yadda lmao #sorry for the impromptu ramble #this isnt to say id never do commissions or a store or anything again or i want to not make money off art #god knows i will need to be grinding out comms once im well again but ex #i feel like im getting less and less able to manage it and then putting out less and less #and hoping ill somehow get very healthy and active again one day and make it worth the wait yknow. #it's not a feeling i want my art to carry in me. #part of me and the parent in my brain is saying it'd be selfish to give up income but the rest is like #that's cruel. i want to feel good and healthy

[zuffer-weird-girl]

This might be OOc? Yes definitely. This might had got like trash and utterly garbage since I was the one writing it? A LOT! BUT WHO CARES?!

Something was... wrong.

You couldn't exactly tell that what your boyfriend was doing bothered you on the slightest... but he was a mysophobic. He despised touch just as much as heroes in general.

You thought that he might had gotten sick, since he only acted like a portion of this when he had his beautiful ass drunk or he had caught a pretty bad flu. But nope. He was normal like always. No signs of fever or other symptoms.

Then you checked his actions towards others, to see if it had changed even for a bit. But surprises! It hadn't. But when you asked Chrono about it, he looked at you with a eyebrow lifted up in question before answering that Overhaul didn't had changed one single bit at least around the yakusa.

You only had one last hope. Pops. And the man laughed in your face.

The only thing the elder did asides that, was pull you onto a hug, thanking you for only god knows why the reason as he told you how you were such a rare jew.

You were even more confused after that conversation.

All of this fuss was about only one thing...

"(Y/n)." You hummed from where you was, following the sound of your boyfriend's voice to his office when he called you into the room.

"Anything wrong? Kai?" You asked innocently before he stopped typing on his computer to look at you properly, shaking his head with a no before he mentioned with his palm for you to get closer.

You walked and he signaled for you to be by his side, and when you got he just hugged your waist out of no where and brought you to sit on his lap, nuzzling his face in the crook of your neck and chest.

You yelped while he only ignored you, hugging you closer than before.

That. That was why you were so worried sick about him.

"K-Kai? Y-You-"

"Is cold." Was his muffled response while you only deadpanned.

It only took him to order someone to warm up the air or to at least grab his jacket... he didn't even bothered to give you a fair excuse.

This has been happening a lot lately and you were getting worried. Chisaki was never once to like touch, prefering to have his own space and that was okay since he showed now at then some affections.

But now? Overhaul sometimes acted even like a child demanding affection at any possible reasons.

You decided to ask him once if he didn't got hitted by a quirk, his response was a very disgusted look, a shake of his head and a 'who the hell you take me for?'.

PDA was still a struggle. But he was holding your hand. That was the first red flag that you had noticed.

On meetings he would have you by his side as his arm circled your waist as he talked nonchantly... but god forbided if someone bumped into him or poked you without permission.

One time even you were in a rush and didn't gave Kai much... attention on that day due to personal problems that you had to deal with. You had gotten home and Rappa was screaming for you to help him and even dared to hide behind you as a very infuriated Chisaki came by... his hard and murderous gaze changing back to hsi normal one the moment he saw you.

"Ah. Angel you're back." He said nonchantly while you looked at Rappa from behind you that was shaking more than a leaf... since WHEN Rappa had fear of Overhaul?

"Yeah...? What happened with-" he picked your hand on his and started to push you along with him.

"Nothing to worry about. Is just Rappa being a thug as usual."

Later on that day you found out that Kai was in one of his worst moods... and only because you didn't had even gave him a kiss.

Those things were getting so abnormal sometimes that whenever Chisaki was about to get pissed off, Chrono immediatly barged into your room and dragged you to where Kai was... and the man quickly got calm again.

Pops declared you as 'Chisaki's medication' after he took the knowledge of what was happening.

You were so confused and just about to question Chisaki again... if it wasn't your curiosity speaking louder when you were passing by a hallway and heard the voices of the said man and Pops on a chat.

"The precepts do indeed apreciate your partner Chisaki." Pops spoked while you heard Kai's humming nonchantly. "... My boy, mind me asking something?"

"It depends."

"You only answer if you want, but I have to kill my curiosity. What is been going on with you and the sudden need to be so close and hold (Y/n) at any possible moment that you get?"

You heard nothing for a bit of seconds before Chisaki scoffed.

"I have no idea what is that suppose to mean."

"Chisaki. I am getting old, not dumb. You were always bothered with germs and dirty, and lord forbided taht someone touched or touches you without permission.... now you're almost glued with-"

"Is... complicated." Kai interrupted with a very uncomfortable tone of voice, only peeking even more of your interest.

"Well. I have all day."

"... (Y/n) is clean. A pure soul on thsi society Pops. First it started as only mere touches that I thought it was rather irritating... but after some time... I started to crave for it."

You furrowed your eyebrows as you got your ear touching with the door.

"Is just so... different. Her touch is just so soothing and gentle. I can't help it."

"Well. It does seem that you are in love." Pops chuckled while you heard Chisaki's growls "I think is something more there as well. Years of denying others touch and got past your 20 without any might caused some damage sometimes."

"I did my exams. I am not sick." He hissed while the old man laughed.

"That's not what I meant Chisaki." The man chuckled for a bit longer before returning his talking "Maybe is payment. After all, everthing you gone through before I took you as my own child... I think the universe decided to bless you a little."

"... maybe. Even if I'm not worth of it... I do enjoy (Y/n)'s company."

"Oh shut up young man. Admit for once that 'love' word for once!"

You stiffled a giggled before quickly getting out of there, hearing and guessing that they had gotten up and were getting close by the door.

Kai had told you about his biological parents, what he had to go through before Pops took him in... the reason why he wanted to repay the man so badly. You couldn't help to curse out his parents, his dad the most to blame... but the man was already dead... so what was the use of hating him?

You smiled to yourself, the words you just heard and remembering what Pops told to you once.

"My dear. Chisaki has a hard skull and is difficult enough to make him change his mind... but you were capable of breaking down his walls. Only for that, you are very special to him already, even if he doesn't know or admit it."

You giggled a bit before yelping at the voice of your lover from behind you.

"Can I know what exactly you're giggling about?"

You turned a bit and smiled at his monotonous gaze, looking down at you with a uncared look.

"Nothing. Just remember a joke."

"Spare me from those atrocities if you wouldn't mind." He sighed in annoyance before cupping your cheek on his gloved hand "I finished my work for today."

"So I have my devil all to myself?" You asked innocently while grabbing both sides of his face on your hands, rubbing a bit your thumbs on his cheek softly as he closed his eyes and sighed in bliss through his nose.

"I expect that you at least washed your hands."

"As always." You giggled while Chisaki hummed in aproval, subconsciously melting by your touches.

... you could get used to it with Chisaki being like that.

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