#it's not great but I'm trying smth

[stonefaced-skink]

going to keep making goofy dragon doodles until morale improves (i land on a style i like)

this is loam he was born on july 7, 2014

#flight rising #yeah the doodle is messy thats why its a doodle WHAT OF IT #getting used to digital art still #aaand i feel like i'm not great at drawing “my version” of stuff that's already art #like #if i draw smth from life then it's already in “my style” #i feel like if i draw a creature that exists only as an image #i either cleave rly closely to its style . which is what im actively trying Not to do #or i make a shittier verison of it lmao #gotta experiment #and i have no shame any more so i will b sharing them

[dawdlecentric]

Yeag...

#boniji #bocchi x nijika #hitori x nijika #am I allowed to be cringe over a rare ship on tumblr dot com in the dwindling months of 2023? #like I didn't expect this pairing to become my recent comfort ship in these trying times #one time I got curious and decided to read some fanfics back in February (?) It didn't click to me yet. I just think it's cute and moved on #but months later it came back to me full force in July and the next thing I know I went into a gay trance (just like Bocchi in ep10) #and starts searching for fanarts and obsessing over them #this ship is seriously my coping mechanism during a stressful time #sometimes a ship is what keeps a fixation (sanity) going #gathering the crumbs from both anime & manga 'Mmm...scrumptious~ 🤤😋' #episode 8 my beloved 👐💕 #fr what's with me and rare pairs. I'm not that even big of a shipper #but this is actually my first time where the tag of the ship (on tumblr) is basically inactive #or only sometimes gets tagged when other ships are involved 😭 #like I know there are some great art in the tags but it's just...not enough #it's tough to fixate on smth that's barely have any content for it #well there's one way to fix that... ◉⁠‿⁠◉ #I'm about to be annoying on the tag of this ship #I was gonna tag the main tag but I chickened out. I'll just stay in my niche corner brainrotting over a rarepair 🤐😶 however... #btr #<- using this obscure tag instead lol #my ramblings

[shima-draws]

Currently in my banging my head against the wall phase. Hope you all are well 🥰

#Doc told me to schedule another MRI on Tuesday. They said they sent the order over on Tuesday. #I call on Tuesday to schedule the appointment. They don't have the referral yet #I called yesterday to try and schedule. They STILL don't have the referral #I message my doc and make sure they actually sent it over to the right place. (They did.) #They say they'll fax it over again! Great! #I call AGAIN today. They STILL don't have the referral #Bro I just need to schedule this fucking MRI so I can find out what's WRONG with me #The girl on the phone was like 'Oh yeah we're real busy we get orders all the time it must not have hit the system yet' #BRO IT'S BEEN THREE DAYS. HOW HAS NOBODY SEEN IT. TEARING my hair out #I went to their website to try and schedule online. Guess what? THEIR GODDAMN SCHEDULING ASSISTANT IS DOWN FOR MAITENANCE #SCREAMS #Anyway yes so in my banging my head against the wall phase. I'm so tired #And still in pain! To nobody's surprise!! #They can't fix what's wrong with me if I can't even get in to get an MRI. Hello. PLEASE #This isn't really smth that can wait a couple weeks #I should've been in to see them like YESTERDAY. #My pain is so bad I had to stay at home today. And I go and ice my back every hour or so #Bc I can't sit down for more than 45 minutes without wanting to kill myself ;)))) #Shima speaks #I'M SORRY I'm just so. I've been over this for months. And now that I'm THIS close to getting answers #I can't. Seem to get these people to schedule an appointment for me #Grinds my teeth

[beastblade69]

I cannot describe how much I fucking ENVY people who can write a story/dialogue w already existing characters and it won't seem even slightly off the character. LIKE GUYS UR INSANE HOW ARE Y'ALL ABLE TO DO THAT, IT'S SO COOL

#I'm prolly never writing a story of my own tho I can draw but I can't develop an interesting story without clichés #I'm sure I could develop the skill for storytelling but idk man it has to be in you already I guess #every story I've ever written became too boring to me because it was too huge and required too much energy #but if I can't create smth great I don't think I want to create smth at all #and ik great doesn't necessarily mean something huge and flawless #for example Sarah kane's plays weren't long but the stories were always incredible and insane in a good way #in simple words her plays are impressive shocking even. but they don't leave you emotionless #but I don't have a vision like hers that's why her plays were so unique like she fr had her own perception of everything #so I just end up creating a messive huge idea and become overwhelmed by the amount of thinking I have to do #and then I abandon this story #won't hurt to give writing short stories a try tho #ig I will try sometime idk

[wyverncult]

just finished aria + now playing dawn of sorrow! i like soma :)

#castlevania #aria of sorrow #dawn of sorrow #soma cruz #my art #JUST A QUICK SKETCH #im not great at backgrounds so im trying smth :) #my playthru of the cv games are going well! 👍 after dawn i have 4 games left :] #i had fun with a lot of them i definitely feel like i'll be replaying sometime #im so sad i accidentally drew this on a tiny canvas somehow so i had to try and salvage the quality #well tumblr will probably ruin it again anyway honestly #i absolutely hate jeans and long-sleeves so looking at soma's outfit i'm like . How do you live like this #drawing the shirt like Wow i would never wear this #There are no mistakes. dont look too close

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

mainly on my Tales blog lately so if you're interested in/know the franchise feel free to drop me a message (if you have my Discord there is fine too) if you want to follow it (this includes non-mutuals!).

I suck at keeping up with more than one fandom at a time so I try to keep this blog active with at least one post a day, but it's harder to invest deeply in two fandoms at once (and not long ago I was juggling three at a time x.x).

just be forewarned there will be a lot of gushing about Fluri and Richbel as well as Vicious and (individually) Yuri, as well as assorted playthrough nonsense like I have here and lengthy thoughts as I do here.

I'm not dropping this blog or leaving it to go inactive - just giving a heads up that my activity took a nosedive because my hyperfixating brain struggles with hyperfixating so hard on two or more fandoms at once.

I have stuff drafted here that I may eventually get to (some Houses/Hopes and some RD); I just haven't had the brainpower for it because all my brainpower is going in very specific directions atm.

#I tend to go back and forth with both these franchises and like... usually it lasts a few years and then I go back to the other lol #granted Tellius never really /leaves/ my peripheral interest so I may absolutely still post abt it here #not to say I won't be playing any FE games or smth bc I have no idea how that'll go #since I'm replaying Tales games and hoping to go through a chunk of 'em #also wait what is with characters named yuri having a canonical m/m pairing i love that for the yuris #including yuris fire emblem himself (get it it's his jp name and my comment still fits him good for him) #anyway you can still expect to see me here and at the moooment I don't actually close my dash on this blog #if you have not tried out sessionbox y'all should try it it's great

[briankang]

at the end of the day sometimes ur man makes music that sounds like he should be a soundcloud musician or like he should be transported back in time of like 2012 because for some reason that’s when his brain absorbed all of his music information for himself personally and u have to accept that. that’s real love. THAT’S stand by your man.mp3. thank u. 

#the real lesson here is christopher is a top tier producer #but i am using my songwriting degree to fly to korea to help with everything else #in eng specifically he's great at cleaning up lyrics/coming up w/ hooks that are CATCHY and his ear for melodies is amazing #but the lyricism itself is soooo cheesy and directly inspired from its sources sometimes it's hard for me to take seriously #esp in FULL songs like this #IM NOT TRYING TO DUNK ON HIM BY THE WAY LKSJDGLKDS i realize. this sounds insane coming from someone who LIKES HIM #LOVES HIM A LOT EVEN #but also it's just smth i've noticed #tay talks #ANYWAYS I'M DONE W/ THIS NOW I PROMISE LMAO #obv i still think he's the most talented ever but we all have our weaknesses!!!!! and i think that's good

[ahxiang]

actually one last thing before i go to bed bc i just can't shut up, but it's salty so it's going in the tags

#be on cloud #don't get me wrong i love jeff and i love barcode and i think their show will be great #& while i don't care for reality shows i like that they're trying to give young actors a chance and that p'pond cast yet another gay person #but what the fuck is up with job nodt perth ta us jj pong and ping getting nothing?? #this is the same problem i have with gmmtv #they keep trying to add new faces and leave the ones they've had this whole time in the dust #i get that biblebuild jeffbarcode and mileapo are their main pairings and their moneymakers #but goddamn give the others a chance!! #for actors with v little screentime their fanbases are huge!! and they're already well set up for more pairings (jjus basjob tongpong etc) #i did like to see that tong and bas were key players in man suang (fingers crossed for some tongbas action) #but don't the others deserve to have their moment too? #i know making series is hard and i totally agree with what p'pond said. they're not a series churning factory #and i get that they need to hop onto the main three couples while they're hot and generating revenue #so i just hope that 2024 sees the rest of our cast in the spotlight #and that hopefully they get to be in smth outside of boc series this year since they won't be busy with the tour and such #but srsly a reality show to find your next pairing for their own series in a main role?? GIVE YOUR ALREADY EXISTING ACTORS MAIN ROLES #okay NOW i'm going to bed #tea talks #boc 2023

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! <3

#wanna write smth #it's been too long lol #+ my brain's being mean and that usually helps #hopefully i can find some kind of a plotline to write smth to :3 #anyway! i'm making progress (ever-so-slowly) on hsr's story so I'm happy there ^-^ #+ kafka's banner is today so that's exciting (I don't think I have enough wishes to pull her after trying for blade but hopeful anyway) #i hope you all have a great day/night <33 #morning rambles

[daz4i]

oh no. bad brain day

#woke up very Off bc of nightmares and shit and not feeling great before falling asleep i think #and then remembered i have plans for today but I'm kinda. too tired for that #it'll be good for me to see people but I'm scared I'll be rude and unpleasant to them and i don't wanna hurt anyone :^( #idk what to do. maybe I'll tell them to do a session without me i dunno :( #update: ok yeah I'm staying home today. I'm less stressed now #might try to write later or treat myself to smth tasty idk. #hope it'll help 😔 and if not. maybe chilling is enough

[bonetrousledbones]

i want to post this next fic chapter so bad but every time i plan on editing it or drawing the promo art for it i get a fucking migraine

#trousled rants #at least i Think they are migraines. cant be sure bc I NEVER HAD THEM IN MY ENTIRE LIFE UNTIL I STARTED THESE NEW MEDS >:/ #i have a checkup on monday so i'm gonna see if i can try smth else at least. which is great bc they arent doing actually anything anyway ghh #did a net total of Jack Shit today on account of that fact that i had to lay in bed with all of my lights off until like 6pm #but this fic will get finished if it KILLS me i SWEAR #maybe i'll get super powres and finish its next and last chapter before the year ends that would be sick as hell i think

[pestilight]

travelling with li.nk timeline where rau.ru lingers and follows them off the sky islands, still spectral in the physical sense but very present! cannot be seen or interacted with by others unless they're spiritually touched, inclined, supernatural themself, have a secret stone, etc. because so much of his remaining energy is spent on ensuring that li.nk's right arm ( which is also where his spirit returns to when it disappears into wisps ) works in all capacities

tends to manifest just as an incorporeal voice when they're on the road, unless things are quiet and he believes that visual distractions can be afforded! suddenly ran out of coherent thought so i'm gonna. have to leave it here at rau.ru reckons with a lot of misgivings, grievances, and anxieties throughout the journey but it's ultimately almost healing, being able to see this Big Takedown occur in real time without being able to do anything about it. like ah...[taking psychic damage from being restricted to some bystander position but is so very grateful that he Believed hard enough to hold onto this era] they really do have it handled

it's not an easy conclusion to reach, esp. when he realises certain Things, but when he witnesses just how steady the peoples of this land remain.....how the world goes on despite his hubris anyway. this idea that all that he and his loved ones did and sacrificed being enough for this generation to live on....he's absurdly proud, in a way he honestly didn't think he could ever be with everything that's happened, even while he simultaneously mourns

genuinely waning now so i'm fr gonna leave it here at congrats! it's an arm, sorta-dad, and complicated feelings you didn't ask for bundle!

#* light of blessing / study. #* brightbloom / ooc. #there's just smth about rau.ru's arm helping li.nk out....his secret stone helping zel.da out....that i have to include his spirit too #i'll majorly tweak this post at some point later when my verses page gets fully written....but for now....this will have to do slkfjdkl #i'm so sorry guys i'm feeling real incoherent today #i'm still trying to capture his voice so i'm sorry to the people i sent things to if he's a little off :') #will write more things...tomorrow #would also like to figure out more canon-divergences tomorrow sdlkfjdkfl #thanks for making it a blast of a first day for me here <3 #goodnight lovelies! have a great rest of your day/night!! #totk spoilers

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

still working on that lightxlightxlight shit but i need it Perfect and also my ability to draw goes wayyyyy down when i have slept more than 6 hours and i have shit to do :/

#*sighs* sleep deprivation is the only way to succeed in life #but i really like the composition i am just. so pissed w linework atm #u ever try to do art and your hands like. start feeling weird. esp w certain movements #every once in a while when i'm typing or drawing my hands will feel weird and then i'll start getting nauseous it's not great #and it makes me so pissed bc everything i need to do needs hands but like. if i can't even type or write or draw what can i do? #thinking it could be a nerve thing? idk i'm not a doctor. i should probably go to a doctor one day for it #also i need to work on smth for today bc begging pegging and gun/knifeplay???? that's some good shit #but again. i'm busy and also my hands hate me atm #ughhhhhhhhhhhhh life hates me and i looove to complain

[gigagasp]

God is putting me through trials LMAO

#currently in Boston helping my wife move in to get apartment #drove for 6.5 hours to get here 😭 helped her move stuff out of the truck and clean up the apartment washed the dishes drove us to target #the target in question? NO MOPS... we came back with half the groceries we were looking for- on the way back? got lost twice looking for #the parking lot and then looking for the entrance to the apt building 😭 whole time I'm late for DnD which started at 7 #i was drove her back and got on the call at like 7:38 or smth-- played DnD on my PHONE in my CAR in a GARAGE that smelled like PISS #because her parents were also there at the studio apartment she was moving to 😭 then the next day we went to get groceries at GreatWall #bought train tickets coolcool first time swiping in? ERROR. try again. then it works on the other gate but I swiped twice??? how can I #swip a second time before the gate closes 😭 god HOW #BUT WAIT when we went to target the day before I couldnt leave the garage because I came in through the delivery gate and couldnt get out #the exit because I didnt have a TICKET.... so I had to call assistance and they buzzed me out after paying the full price 😭-- back to GW #GW is CLOSED? under renovation which we didn't realize until we walked the block twice 😭 no worries off to HMart #HMart is open! Godbless. We get 4 full bags of groceries that fit in dear's totebags and lug them back to the train and to the apartment-- #girl... the HEAVIEST bags you've seen including rice 😭 I'm carrying 3 bags like a refugee through these streets including like a 10-15 min #walk from the train to the apartment- after missing the apartment entrance AGAIN and walking an extra block 😭 but its okay we get back and #take a break for a bit before going back out for lunch-- Udon was great! found a REAL target and then visited the Boston Public Library gr8 #We head back and take a break for a bit- Wifi is now on!! also win. Then we head out for dinner and I need to get my car jumped because ha #while I was playing DnD in the car with the AC in (but the engine off because I was in an underground garage) I used up my battery LMAO BUT #We called for assistance and got it jumped thank you random attendant time to head out but OOPS I LOST MY TICKET LMAO OK #have to ask for help again and oh no its the same attendant I'm so sorry I'll pay full price 😭 oh its extra because I stayed overnight? #no prob boss just let me pay oh god stop explaining it to me just let me pay and be on my WAY... the price? $109 LMAOOOOO #BUT we head to dinner and happy days! theres a parking lot nearby with the gate up! Could I risk parking there for free? I did. And we had #great Thai food :) The waitress even asked if we wanted more water- yes please! julie's water gets refilled and then waitress leaves HUHHH #no water for me then LMAO AND? WE FIND TWO HAIRS IN OUR FOOD??? No worries king 😭 the one entree is free thank you #God willing my car is still in the lot (not towed!) and the gate is still up so we drive back to the apartment and park- get it- in the #same lot as before 😇 I CANNOT PARK ANYWHERE ELSE!!! THIS IS THE GARAGE NEXT TO THE APARTMENT AND BOSTON PARKING SUUUUCKS #we get back to the lobby and oh? is that a coffee machine? lemme check it out.... OH? Hot chocolate? I deserve a hot chocolate lemme get 1 #HAHAHAHAHHAA JUST KIDDING! THERE ARE NO CUPS. BITCH. YOU DONT DESERVE HOT CHOCOLATE!!! #me on the elevator up to the room on my hands and knees apologizing to God for whatever I'm being punished for LMAO yall... #please pray for me 😭 🙏🙏 #booboop

[tencalcoffee]

Having to perfectly time my meals to avoid tummy rumbling in class. I need to just starve the entire time I'm alone and that have something small when I've got classes. Its so embarrasing when everyone can see and hear the fact that I'm not eating properly

#started fasting instead of cal counting and I'm trying to only break the fast with coffee before leaving #and then bringing something small to have before class and during breaks #(its a long commute so i gotta eat there if i want minimal intake. and bringing healthy food will stop me caving and getting a muffin) #they have these protein drinks at coles that would be great. especially since i tend to get there pretty early #gonna have like. vitawheats or smth for lunch