#ive been missing home. so much.

[jvzebel-x]

"And so the Hawaiians look at all of nature as important, and they look at the signs of nature as messengers coming from their family who has passed on. Signs come in rainbows, double rainbows, odd forms of clouds, they read the roll of the waves and some of the waves are signs that they look at, you know. Those are things that the Hawaiian needs to be aware of in order to fulfill its connectedness to, you know, to its ancestors that have passed on.

So we cannot separate ourselves to the trees, we cannot separate ourselves from the waves and the ocean, from the clouds and its cloud forms, from the mountains and the hills, the animals from the limu, to the pipipi, to the kūpe‘e, you know, to the manō, to the pueo, to the ‘i‘iwi, to the ‘o‘o, all of these are all signs upon which we had better be aware of, because it is through them that we get messages from our ancestors."

"Oh yeah, sharks do. Sharks, the significance of a shark, especially with the niuhi, the tiger and the white shark, they were compared to as chiefs. Kamohoali‘i, who was the brother of Pele, was a shark. That was his form, his other kinolau or his other form was a shark. Because of the ferocity. The same kind of attitude of absorbing and taking all with no consciousness to end result, the main thing is to consume. The same attitude is compared, comparing the shark to love. It’s all consuming. To the point where one cannot think consciously to what is being done. And so the Hawaiians have a saying:

Kūpau wau i ka manō ka manō nui ka manō nui kūpau wau i ka manō.

And it means, “I am finished to the big shark, all consumed by the big shark, I am finished.” It doesn’t mean he’s dead because the shark bit him. It means he is so deeply in love that he doesn’t know how to think, you know? So shark has that other side of its attitude that is used by the Hawaiians to describe the all consuming idea, without consciousness. And that is funny that the Hawaiians would also compare that to love. But they did that because they knew nature. Hurricane ‘Iniki, all consuming, it has no bearing on who’s the chief or who’s the commoners, you know. It’s all consuming. Hawaiians understood that, and they used that kind of proverbial idea, and I just use that to illustrate the insight and connectedness with nature. But in relation to the shark, that is how it is really used."

x. Parley Kanaka'ole, "Hawaiian Waters: House of the Shark"

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#:))) #so i found this interview from Hawaiian icon Parley Kanaka'ole&it made me so happy for so many reasons lol #so here are some of my favourite parts. :'))) the full interview actually talks a lot about the beliefs we have surrounding our 'aumakua #&is an incredible read. if you are kanaka reconnecting w the culture however i do have the warning that #he speaks rather definitively&heavy-handedly about how one can reconnect w your kūpuna+'aumakua #&just take it w a grain of salt. as w a lot of our older figures he has standards for kānaka that are genuinely not feasible sometimes #&its okay. it doesnt make you any less kānaka or make it impossible for you to commune&connect w your 'aumakua. #your geneology hasnt forgotten nor abandoned you for lack of attention+relation bc that isnt possible. #however w that one caveat in mind i highly reccommend reading the interview (&also the second piece by #Herb Kane who is a literal Hawaiian legend. his art is regularly used in classrooms to teach history&hes been actually dubbed #a Living Treasure of Hawai'i when he was alive. also he CAPTIANED the hokule'a. actual legend.) #ive been missing home. so much. #salt water cures everything. i have tears&sweat i just need the pacific lol. #♡ #yas

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

If there are things in the windows do you think that over time like every update we will start see them more clearly. I have the idea of just, frank sitting at their window, staring at us, unable to do anything but knows we are there with a horrified expression.

i have a feeling that that has some Merit, yes! cause i remember before the update, when i was scrutinizing every little piece of the map, i don't recall seeing anything in the windows. i like to think i would have noticed (but there's a real possibility that they were already there, my eyes just skipped over it. or they were there but just too faint to Notice yet!)

but that would be really cool and i wouldn't put it past Clown to sneak that in... terrifying to think about! i love it!

#im already feeling a wonderful sensation of Dread for the characters #& i say that genuinely. there's real dread and then there's fun-enjoyable-dread-over-fiction #i wonder if anyone else will come out and say hi... what might be revealed in this way? #GOD I LOVE THIS PROJECT SO FUCKING MUCH ITS SO GOOD #THE LAYERS!!!! THE LAYERS!!!!! #WELCOME HOME I AM EATING YOU ALIVE #rambles from the bog #homebogging #ah yes... this is the feeling ive been missing lately... #the joy of discovery the Feral Delight the searching... reveling in how delicious the pieces of the project we have so far are...

[citrlet]

the amount of cc i've been missing while i'm gone...

p.s i miss you guys 😭

#im in utah seeing my dad for the first time in a year and a half #i was worried about it because of something that happened last year but its been a good time so far! #anyway i go home next week and im do excited i miss my house and my kitties so much #also 👀 ive started seeing someone 🙈 its a liiiittle rocky but im cautiously hopeful #oh and ive gotten some asks while ive been away i promise to answer them when i get home! #dl

[hackfurs]

i think a month long vacation in washington would fix me

#i havent been in over a decade and its the only place ive ever felt at home #i know its basically a stereotype that furries move to seattle but ive been going there since i was a small child nearly every summer #while growing up and i have such a deep appreciation for the land and the mountains and water there #the weather #there's a hole in my chest in the shape of an ice cold drink from the cafe my mom works at #there's another in the shape of those cool nights with the window open #watching the ferry cross the sound while you take in the sea breeze #i miss it so much i cry whenever i think about it #i left something behind when i got on that plane back to chicago when i was 16 and i need it back

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#there's something really beautiful about experiencing the weather patterns of a new place #where i live now. its not like where i grew up. not like the foothills of Appalachia but its more familiar than the Chihuahuan desert was #when i go home to ohio everythings so green. so green. unimaginably green and the towns are in the woods. the hills roll #and trees billow deciduous and packed so tightly the treeline is like a wall of plant matter. here there are trees but they are tall and #evergreen. patchy in places like shrubs in the desert. the grass grows green but also pale tan and dead. houses are routed in valleys #between mountains. they're made of wood and not stucco but they still look strange and the landscape is crumpled together tall. and there's #water. it rains. days can be dreary and gray with drizzle. i forgot what thats like. when a single low stratus cloud blocks out thewhole sk #and fog clings to the trees. my school bus used to drive by a lake where thr fog was so thick i didnt kno how the driver could see the road #but somehow i forgot how much joy suspended water vapor gives me living in a place where when it rains it pours so hard the streets flood #and the greedy ground drinks the landscape dry. but there are new things as well. here smoke rolls up over thr mountains and gets stuck in #the valleys so that the weather forcast reads: Smoke for days on end. im used to tornado warnings and heat warnings and dust storm warnings #but ive never expected Smoke as a type of weather. and im sure there's more to experience. ive only been here like 3 weeks. its not as gree #as home. the storms dont seem to get quite so violent. the woods are so full of bears that its an active threat. but its not the desert #and while ill miss the shapes of desert plants and little lizards. when i look up at the pine and spruce trees i feel like i can breathe a #little easier. well see how i feel once the long cold winter sets in haha #but i dunno. part of me still longs for a violent thunderstorm. one where u can feel the temperature drop and u csn feel it building all da #one that bends the trees and smells like ozone. it was never like that in thr southwest and im not sure that happens here #but maybe thats just a desire for chaos and violence as a product of my pathological internal control. i cant be spontaneous so let nature #bring the fear to me. some of my favorite memories are watching lightning strikes #so it goes i suppose #unrelated #listen. is it fucked up to have ohio nostalgia? maybe so. but in my defense i grew up in the pretty part of ohio lol

[painted-lemon]

so ive seen a lot of posts saying somthing along the lines of "(enter song here) is the perfect Enorace ship song, and there all fine and dandy, but i feel like yall are missing the obvious

like im still not sure about this ship but come on (its growing on me fast thogh ngl there are some good fanfics out there, im looking at you @dragonsdendoodles )

#im not usually much of a shipper so it kinda feels like ive been kidnapped #this ship is holding me hostage lol #send help #and angst fics #mphfpc #miss peregrine book #enoch o'connor #horace somnusson #enorace #miss peregrines home for peculiar children #Spotify

[fatcowboys]

hrg family vacation was going very well until exactly ten minutes ago when apparently me saying that i wanted to go kayaking in the ocean repeatedly was not clear to my mom and she said oh i didnt know you were serious about that and now the One activity i wanted to do on this trip i might not get to do and trying to intervene from a meltdown (ive already failed)

#scream. ive literally been saying thats what i want to do i dont understand why mom is confused by this #and i brought it up today bc tomorrow is wedding so i assumed tomorrow time will be difficult and she was like oh? u do want to do that? #?????? what do u mean. #anyway. been in here for an hour now. having a bad bad bad time. #wpuld rllynlove to tru and talk to my mom abt this but its so much harder to do on this trip bc theres two extra people i dont know floating #around that im not comfortable with and cant unmask around for hard stuff #scream. just had a big i miss my friends and home cry. i love them. i will see them soon.

[gayvillains]

they were sick for this. i think

#personally. #ive been ruminating on e6 so much and every single aspect of it feels like a stone in my chest!!!!!! i love them all so much!!! #and i dont agree with the theories that skeen decided to betray them when nemik died i think he was going to do it all along #and i think it's extremely unclear on purpose whether he really truly cared about nemik or whether it was just a performance #but personally. personally. i think he did care about nemik so much #and he was still going to betray him #cuz the difference between cassian and skeen was that cass can't betray the people he loves. can't sell em out #not for money not for his own safety. cant even sell out people he's known for three days #i do very much agree with the post about skeen and nemik being like cassian's shadow selves and that's why they both had to die #but also just fucking hell. MY BOY!!!!!!!! BRING HIM HOME!!!!!!!! #I MISS HIM SO FUCKING MUCH #andor #skeen #nemik #skemik

[ilonacho]

i miss having time for fandom😔

#btw i forgot to mention i went to see saw x recently #i went to a dead mall after work and i was COMPLETELY by myself in the theater it was the best ever #movie was also the best!! no spoilers but def up there w/ saw n saw vi #but anyway. kinda on that note watching saw has p much been the only halloweeny thing ive had time for this month. sigh #i hate how much of my time work takes like when i come home i have to take care of shit n shower n eat and then its already 8pm #so i only have a couple hours before i gotta go to bed to do it all over again #even if i have a couple hours its not enough to draw :( i miss drawing #ive been working on some oc stuff at work and by that i mean thinking of lore and drawing quick doodles on receipt paper #but thats abt it lol #weve been catching up w/ the great north (god its so good. i forgot how damn good it is) #n bobs burgers n the simpsons. and theres still more were behind on #but i miss it!!! i miss drawing fanart and my faves n my sonas lmao!! #especially my simpsona😔 2020 was something id never had that much lore for a sona #AND I MISS IT!!!!!! #ughh dont mind me just been on my mind a lot #stupid capitalist hellscape

[todayisafridaynight]

Okay I can't post it until next week at the earliest and NEED to get this off my chest between now and my next longer reply because of stuff we were talking about:

Confirmed in one of my livestream clips there's been actual consideration towards Mine having survived. It's just a matter of his voice actor's availability and wanting to do it right if they end up doing it. We really could see Mine back in the main series.

And I recorded that clip based on something I misheard and didn't register that part at all until now. How Are We Doing Tonight

(Speaking of, get well soon!! I was sick myself the past couple of weeks, it's awful)

me waiting for the absolute millisecond yokoyama drops the 100% Mine Survived The Fall statement

#snap chats #ON THE REAL THOUGH HELLO ? #hang on i need to put my thinking cap on after i threw it across the room excited #OK so i recall yokoyama(? im p sure it was yokoyama lik 99% sure it was him) talked about the concept of mine being alive #i think i still have the tweet bookmarked and while he didnt blatantly confirm it he did kind of allude to it #EITHER WAY ive gotten hope from the idea of mine being alive before #BUT IF THIS IS CREDENCE TO FURTHER CONFIRMATION i might just explode. i MIGHT just be even MORE insufferable #this is such a funny case though like i love how the status of mine's mortality is treated like an actual missing person's case sometimes #Area Man That Went Missing In 2009 Has Finally Been Found Alive #im holding off on the Mine's Alive memes until theres a Confirmation confirmation #i dont even care if he comes back in the main games (yes i do im lying) just the idea that's he's out there would satisfy me for now #if mine was just a local cryptid in the rgg franchise that would be JUST as funny oh my god actual zhao in judgement type beat #BUT THANK YOU FOR THE INFORMATION I CAN SEE WHY YOU'D WANNA SAY SOMETHING NOW #IF YOU GET THE CLIP OF THAT READY LIKE OBVI ID LOVE TO SEE IT ?? MY STARS #gonna think of this all night.. mine should come back so i can be even more annoying #and thank you- i hope you're feeling better from your sickness now ! #i think im starting to feel better- i just have to stay inside more i guess #when i was at school there was pretty much no foliage so my allergies werent as bad #but back home theres nothing But foliage im gonna throw up ☠️

[moeblob]

do you draw other fire emblem characters besides three houses and hopes?

I do indeed, as shown 3 days ago when I doodled Sharena. And on Aug 18 when I draw Sharena wearing other outfits (Felix and FRobin's day if devotion dress). And on Aug 13 when I drew Ephraim and FRobin. I spent years drawing for Fates and enjoyed my time drawing Xander/Gaius after the support system in FEH came out.

I like to draw Camilla/Balthus for FEH content as well (though half is 3H).

I have only played 13/14/16/16.5/17 for FE though so it really limits who I draw. And as a Camilla and Saizo enjoyer it's upsetting to see tags sometimes by people who aren't fans of them. But most of my followers showed up after I drew 3H stuff and I know many times people told me to draw what I want... but it's easier to default to 3H on very low energy days cause I'm still used to it.

Also did stuff for Engage though not as much as I wanted.

#moe talks a lot #not art #i draw daily and low energy days normally mean 3H because im used to them #i wouldnt mind going back to fates and awakening art but im rusty #so i default to what im more used to #and when everyone seems to send asks about the 3H cast its hard to draw say #an awakening character to reply to the 3H ask #so yeah its not really something i dabble in these days even if i miss em #and when i draw my home boy Kellam and get so many tags about a blank canvas #it further ruins my mood bc tgats who i relate to most #and ive been overlooked so much and people forget im around irl #im like a walking jumpscare bc people are able to tune me out #so..... that puts a big wet blanket on me wanting to draw for someone i relate to

[bootyful-seventeen]

hey y'all, anyone have any good stress relief tehniques or habits they'd like to share cuz I've been more stressed in the last 3 weeks then I was in the last 6 months

#to cut the long story short my mom had to sell the old house cuz her broke ass couldnt afford to keep it up #eventho it is a whole ass hoarders house and was in shambles with a flooded basement a collapsing ceiling in at least 2 rooms plus mold #and the stench a dirt and dog piss and shit all over the floor really made it worse then it was #but yeah so shes been staying with me and my grandma and its been awful #she hasnt been taking any of the medicine the doctors gave her when she snapped and started a fight and also started screaming at neighbour #so shes been terrorizing us here while the house has become her second hoarders den since she dragged so much crap here #my backyard side entrance and front porch are full of her shit and my grandma hates it since she can barely step into the house #so since she kept looking for places way out of her budget i had to go do house hunting since my useless sister is busy getting lit again #so ive been showing her shit in her price range that was under 420k cuz im not a moron who looks at 800k homes when i have 570k #and each time she has a new complaint saying its too expenive or its too small or its too old when she said she wants to do renovations #but shes saying she wants to renovate a newly renovated place instead of an old one #so i just showed her a house near my sisters uni and she liked the inside & backyard but she complained that 400k for newly renovated 3 bed #that is literally a 9 minute drive from my sisters uni is too expensive when shes the one who was looking at an old ass unrenovated bungalo #that is a street over from us that is 800k and she says it looks like garbage cuz an old lady previously owned it before dying #like no shit it looks old cuz older people lived those decades and like it and she just keeps doing her bullshit again & again #cuz when i tell you her mind is gone i mean it is GONE and she starts up all these wild stories to just explain some shit #like something goes missing? the neighbours are hungarian and stole it and left the hoard of junk in her old house #she has more stupid stories to harass and stress us out with but if im gonna share that ill have to write a book about it cuz fuck #and you know its bad when no one else can stand being in any contact with her cuz she starts screaming at people about it #so the only one who even likes her anymore is my sister and thats cuz shes deep in denial about just how insane she is & how abusive she is #so yeah i need some stress relief help that maybe isnt constantly hitting up maryjane cuz i dont do weed often especially since shes here #cuz weed 'burns your brain & makes you crazy like this' when shes the only one whos ever infuriated me to astronimical levels #i know retail therapy helped before she came here but i dont want to keep spending money i dont really have #it would be great tho but shes refusing to give me the 70k she said was mine from the house sale so i can cut her out for good

[ingrid-marie]

i think all i want is a place where i know i will live for many years to come. to not worry about the next step and next move. just a place to root myself fully.

#i keep sitting in this half furnished apartment looking at the empty spaces #thinking its not worth to do anything with it because we dont know how long we will stay here for #(also the apartment is way too big for the two of us. we dont need this much space) #with this being said i think i have come to the realization that i do want to move back to stockholm #ive been so homesick since after christmas. i miss my family and my friends #so the plan is to maybe move back after summer? and hopefully buy (!?) an apartment that we will truly call our home for many many years #me talking

[theblehthatbloos]

I'm out of the hospital, turns out I have some kind of emotional trauma that's making my body try to suffocate itself, honestly same but what a bitch way to do it. Making it so I can barely breathe but I still have 99% oxygen and my vitals are good. Fuckin' hell dude. Anyways wish me luck in figuring that out, didn't make a lot of progress crying in the parking lol at 4am while waiting for an Uber after the news that my mind and body have disconnected or something, but check the bracelet swag

Nice

#hell yeah #im going to explode #literally i was so chill #i do get stressed at work but i love my job #i had a really bad dating experience the month before but that's not it i think #i was waiting for my uber home while still suffocating and some random dude started playing music #i have no idea what the lyrics were #i dont even think it was English #but i was thinking about how frustrated i was and i felt my face get wet #just uncontrollable tears #4 minutes straight of crying #head looking up and wiping away every few seconds #paused so my driver didn't see me sobing but they did here me sniffing and trying yo breathe. not the best look #got upstairs and home #picked up a back of nerd candy and i fell apart #ive been chill for atleast a week #yeah i couldn't breathe but nothing came up #alll of this to say... #it was April 2nd #and unless my bodys a prankster #the only other thing from today was the end of the boop #i miss the boop so much #not it but holy shit it brings a little silly smile #boop

[vainvex]

i went to my first drag brunch today and the queens who performed were both SO sweet and talented. we talked during and after the show, and they were so so nice :-)

#vv.txt #im in toronto rn for the first time since i was a kid. and i never even knew the gay village existed back then?? #i didnt know it could be like this here. it's a side of the city i never saw growing up and staying with my dad here every summer #ive been out comfortably for years but i havent been able to go anywhere this unabashedly queer before #there are so many drag bars and sex shops and dispensaries it fucking rules #and they were HAIRY QUEENS TOO!!!! like me!!!! #they were both so gorgeous #it was genuinely an amazing set and i hope eventually i can be able to go places like this more often.... #<(lives in a rural area) #my partner and i are only here for a few days before we go home and im going to miss this so much

[jvzebel-x]

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#the heater is fixed. #the poi isnt perfect but there is A Lot of it&its making eating... easier. so much easier. ppl give poi to their babies #bc its so easy to eat+digest&its also calorically dense&super filling. #&now i have some again. i have been missing home... so much. so very very much recently. &this is... enough. more than enough right now. #im going on an adventure tomorrow. i have a phone that can actually take decent pictures+videos. #i havent done a gratitude journal post in a long time. too long really. #but i am almost in tears right now over how grateful i am. #i am just... so incredibly grateful. #i spent a lot of today in a near constant state of panic for no special reason at fucking all. #&its incredible to be. calm right now. to feel safe. to know that everything that is constantly stressing me out hasnt disappeared #but its okay bc life isnt falling apart around me right now. i have actual time to untangle it all. #i realized earlier that this is officially the longest ive lived in one place since i was. 10? maybe? we could never keep a (rental) house. #how fucking wild is that? #im just. very very very grateful to be alive. #'i have so much more to tell you about being alive'.