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chezlekipper · 7 years

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Need to Know Pt. 5

Woohoo update! @incredifishface @pinknoonicorn

Frostiron modern Corporate AU (security firm) featuring escort!Loki

Tags: NSFW, age-difference, prostitution

Pt. 1

Pt. 2

Pt. 3

Pt. 4

Tony is very rich, you know

Pool

"This building has a pool."

"Wrong." Tony, smug, stepped back to let Loki in. "It has two pools."

He hadn't been sure about Loki having his phone number but it meant he'd had some warning this time before the kid lobbed up on his doorstep.

"There's only one listed on the information board."

"That's the public pool, attached to the public gym, for building residents."

"And the other?"

"Is mine."

"You have a private pool?"

"I had to think of something to do with the rest of this floor." Tony took Loki's grey suede jacket and hung it up on one of the hooks beside the door. "Apart from my apartment, the guest suite, the gym, the cinema, and the games room."

"You own this floor?"

"I own the building, babycakes. I am ludicrously wealthy." Tony had never been one for modesty, false or otherwise. "Would you like to see my private, invitation-only pool...?"

"Nice." Loki breathed.

Three lanes wide and maybe fifteen metres long, the pool was edged around with a metre or so of dark wooden decking that went right up to the window. The rest of the floor was paved with subtly textured, light coloured tiles, a couple of metres on either side then extending all the way back the several metres to the door. A pair of padded sun loungers sat beside each other against the back wall, angled to face the window.

"No, don't turn on the lights." Loki said as Tony lifted a hand to the switch. "I want to enjoy that view."

Tony followed when Loki padded around the edge of the pool to the window. They stood shoulder to shoulder in silence looking down at New York in the evening. All those lights glowing against the deepening grey of the sky. It was a great view: Tony couldn't remember the last he'd really appreciated it.

"Can I go for a swim?" Loki asked.

"Sure. I can probably even find you a swimsuit."

"That won't be necessary." Loki was already stripping off his shirt, his pale skin gleaming under the ambient light from the neon outside.

"Why don't you have any tattoos?" Tony blurted the question out, like the smooth motherfucker he was. "Your brother does. Everyone does."

"You don't." Loki pointed out.

"Meant to. Never got around to it."

The expression on Loki's face became... impish.

"And how do you know about my brother's self-expression through questionable body art?"

"Pool parties." Tony shrugged. "'Questionable'?"

"Oh, come on." Loki had kicked off his shoes, was wriggling out of his jeans. "All that Celtic and Viking shit? So cliche."

"At least he picked a theme and stuck with it." Tony watched Loki hop down in to the pool, watched his face as the not-quite-cold water came up over his nipples. "So? Why don't you have any?"

"You said yourself, 'everyone does'." Loki ducked his head under, surfacing a couple of seconds later with a happy sigh, his teeth flashing white in a grin. "I'm not everyone. And I like that there's a point of difference between my brother and I."

"You don't look that much alike anyway."

"We have the same ears." Loki floated on his back, kicking his feet idly. His dick was a tempting roll of pink amongst his dark pubes. "And knees."

"Yeah, because that's the first thing anyone's gonna notice about the pair of you."

Loki has pushed himself upright again and, as he'd drifted over to the slightly deeper end, the water was now lapping under his chin.

"You coming in or what?" He challenged.

Tony was in his pool at least three times a week, but it was to do laps as part of his exercise regime, never to just... play.

He and Loki laughed as they engaged in a loose but serious game of tag, the object of which appeared to be getting their hands on the other's dick without being caught themselves. Loki was fast in the water, agile, twisting sinuously around Tony as he darted in and away. He was definitely winning this round, not that Tony - normally ultra competetive - minded that much, not when he was being teased in to a full-blown erection.

Loki pulled himself out of the water to sit on the window edge of the pool, the silhoutte of his shoulders broad against the backdrop of New York lights.

"Come here." He ordered softly, spreading his thighs. Tony went.

Loki reached over to his clothes, rummaging with purpose until he retrieved a familiar packet.

"You came prepared?" Tony stood between his knees and watched him slip the condom on.

"I'm always prepared." Loki said.

"Dyb dyb dyb."

Loki snickered.

"Oh my god. Were you a scout?"

"Shuddup. It was considered a morally improving thing to do."

"Uhuh." Hands on his head, Loki pulled Tony towards his groin. "How did that work out?"

"Not as well as you'd think."

Tony anchored himself around Loki's hip with one hand, holding the condom secure at the base with the other. He wrapped his lips around the tip of Loki's dick then looked up. Loki made a soft noise, like he'd been punched.

"Fuck, baby, that's - " He didn't so much trail off as stutter to a halt as Tony relaxed his throat and slowly took him as far down as he could. Which was pretty far, all considered, though not quite as far as Tony woud've liked. He was still not up to his previous standard, despite recent activity.

He switched it up, getting in to a rhythm, using his bouyancy in the water to get the tiniest of bounces going.

Loki was vocal in his appreciation.

"Fuck, you're good at this." He managed to gasp out. "Did you get a badge for cock-sucking because damn."

His fingers tightened in Tony's hair, stopping him moving, keeping him in place as he pulsed against his tongue. He let Tony go after a little while, after his dick was soft in his mouth.

"You are a fucking champion."

Tony pulled back, grinning, wiped his lips with the back of hand.

"Are you just saying that?"

It was flippantly phrased but, you know, accurate feedback was invaluable for the continued improvement of key performance indicators.

"Absolutely not." Loki murmured, cupping the back of Tony's head again and leaning down to brush a kiss over his lips, which was unexpected but nice. "There's too much bad head in the world to flatter any with undeserved praise." He kissed Tony once more, lingeringly this time. "What can I do for you?"

"Can you get it up again?" Loki had very eloquent eyebrows. "Yeah, yeah, stud, sorry to impugn your stamina." Tony smirked, looked him straight in the eyes. "What I want is to ride your dick until I see stars..."

Loki perfunctorily dried himself off with the towel Tony had pulled out of a concealed cupboard, before spreading it over one of the loungers. He settled back, watching with interest as Tony wiped himself down more thoroughly with another of the super fluffy, super absorbent things.

"May I?" Loki held up a couple of sachets of lube, retrieved from his jeans. "Over here." He patted his thigh. "Face me."

Loki was flexible and dextrous, managing to get Tony, straddling his hips, prepped with a minimum of fuss and without taking his eyes off his face. The long reach of his arms and fingers certainly helped.

There was something really, really hot about the constant eye contact that had Tony all but fucking himself on those fingers in anticipation. Also, Loki knew exactly where to press so Tony was seeing stars even before he'd got Loki's dick in him.

Fresh condoms all 'round and finally, finally Tony got what he wanted. He gripped Loki's shoulders as he was guided in to place, threaded like... like meat on to a skewer, or something. Tony almost laughed at the absurdity of the image but then Loki bottomed out inside him and he had other things taking up his attention.

When their positions had been reversed the last time they'd fucked, Loki had looked like he was dancing. Tony knew he wasn't anywhere near as graceful but he knew exactly how to position himself to get the maximum effect out of Loki's dick. He contemplated stringing it out, taking his time but no, he really, really wanted to come. Loki's hands stayed on Tony's hips as he single-mindedly pursued his pleasure, and he devoured Tony with those big, glittering eyes while murmuring how good Tony looked, how fucking fantastic he felt. And well, did Tony have a praise kink? Maybe a little. When he came his short, sharp exclamation bounced echoingly off the water and the walls.

Tony was a sweaty mess, gasping for breath, practically done in. Loki, however was still rigid inside him. Tony quirked an eyebrow and squeezed somewhat shaky internal muscles. Loki's abdomen and thighs jerked, but...

"I'm good." He said lightly. "The night is still young."

"Yeah but I have to go to work tomorrow." Tony wondered if he was being presumptious. Loki hadn't necessarily meant he was planning on hanging around here.

"I'll let you suck me off again before I leave."

"That's all right then." Tony winced as Loki's dick slid out of him. "I'm fine. Just sensitive." He said in response to Loki's frown. He flopped down on to his side with a satisfied groan.

"Tell me there isn't a fridge or a bar in here." Loki was sitting up, having removed his condom. He gave himself a couple of firm squeezes and Tony licked his lips.

"Two panels to the left of the towel cupboard."

Loki pulled a couple of bottles of water off the shelf though Tony had noticed he'd lingered briefly over the beers. He wandered back to the lounger letting Tony admire the long, languid length of him.

And then there was his body.

Loki stretched out facing Tony, who was very glad he'd invested in these luxuriously wide loungers; there was enough space that two people could lie on their sides together and not feel crowded.

"So. Any plans for while you're here?"

"Oh god, don't you start." Loki grunted.

"Sore spot? Sorry."

"What are your plaaaaaans, Loki?" His voice was high-pitched and mocking. "What are you going to dooooo?"

He suddenly looked very young with that adorable pout. Tony wasn't dumb enough to mention it though, besides he remembered being young and feeling the burden of other people's expectations.

"Why do I have to have plans?" Loki grumbled. "Can't I just have fun? Jesus."

"Thor's convinced you're going to stay around this time." Tony ventured, after a few seconds of aggrieved silence.

"Well, I haven't decided." Loki hedged. "We're currently in the honeymoon phase of our reunion, where we're both careful what we say to each other. If it follows the usual pattern we'll be deliberately goading each other within a fortnight, then I'll piss off again."

"Okay, so what's the circuit breaker to this cycle?" Tony asked, feeling amazingly like a grown-up. "What would interupt the pattern?"

"Thor needs a distraction, something outside of work, that'll take his attention off me. Because that's where it always starts. When he takes an overbearing interest in my life." He grinned slyly at Tony. "Wanna help me get my brother laid? I'm pretty sure that's not a regular occurance."

Tony suspected Loki might be right: he couldn't remember Thor boasting, talking about or even hinting at any sort of sex for several months.

"On reflection. " Tony said. "Rogers is the obvious candidate."

"Is he interested in Thor?"

"... yes?" Tony said after a moment. "I'm not sure, to be honest. He keeps himself wrapped up pretty tightly."

Most of his colleagues did, to an extent, except Fandral who was happy to let everyone know who and what he was doing.

"Right then." Loki drummed his fingers on his thigh. "We have a target, one that I know Thor will happily pursue. What we need now is a plan."

"Oh, I know! We could trap them in the elevator together! Or a cupboard!"

"Nope. Bad idea." Loki laughed. "Thor's claustrophobic."

"He is?" Tony was genuinely surprised. "His office isn't that big and he doesn't complain."

"One wall of that office is entirely made up of window." Loki said dryly. "And how often does he close his door?"

"Hardly ever, now you mention it. And he always takes the stairs!" Tony shook his head. "I thought it had something to do with his fitness? I mean, we're only five floors up but that's a ways to go several times a day."

"He does it at home too." Loki said. "Taking the stairs. Have you been to his apartment? Lovely big open living space. Lots of windows and lights. Bedroom and bathroom doors he never shuts." He shuddered. "I've seen more than I want to."

"Hah, me too!" Tony laughed. "He doesn't close his bathroom door here either. But if he's claustrophobic that's perfect! Lock the pair of them in somewhere, Thor freaks out. Rogers comforts him." Tony aimed finger guns at Loki. "Perfect."

"I'd rather not do anything that sends my brother back to therapy." Loki was rueful. "Anyway, I've already planted the idea, it just needs a little bit of a nudge. You think you can nudge from the other side?"

"Rogers or Thor?"

"Whichever, as opportunity dictates. Can you be subtle though?"

"I'm the master of subtlty."

Tony should have been offended by Loki's burst of laughter but how could he when it lit up his expression and made him look so darn cute...

#frostiron #fanfic #tony stark #loki #loki is a bossy little shit

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punkscowardschampions · 5 years

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Nancy & Rio

Nancy: I know you're here Nancy: So wherever you're hiding, Ollie, Ollie Oxen Free Nancy: You can come out Rio: Okay Rio: Do I need to wave my white flag first? Nancy: Depends if you wanna see my brother or me Rio: I want to see you Rio: If you will Nancy: Sure? I think he'll need you after that convo, if he ever does Rio: Right Rio: Purpose of me not being there was so it could be just between you two but Rio: are you both okay? Nancy: I don't know how you want me to answer that Rio: Just honestly Nancy: I have no idea how Buster is Nancy: I don't know him very well these days Rio: I know Rio: Don't worry about him, how are you? Nancy: Do you actually care or are you just trying to feel better? Rio: Of course I care, Nance Rio: I wouldn't be here if I didn't Nancy: You'd be here for him Rio: Yes but we're here to tell you Rio: Because it matters what you think, to me and him Nancy: That may be true of you, but he's never cared what I think Nancy: That matters Nancy: You not knowing better what he's like Rio: I know he's done things, lots of things, that would make you think that Rio: and righly so Rio: but he does care Nancy: Maybe. But not enough not to do this Rio: We didn't mean for this to happen Nancy: He never means for anything to happen. That's the problem Nancy: He's hurt you and leave you and ruin everything, don't you know that? Rio: He could Rio: but if that happens, it happens and I'll deal with it, it doesn't need to change anything else Nancy: He will. And I'll be in the middle again Nancy: That's what he does Rio: That's not totally fair Rio: Chloe wasn't totally his fault, a lot of it was her Nancy: He still could've said no instead of thinking with his dick as per Nancy: And what about Erin. Look how long that lasted Rio: I know, and he knows too Rio: He regrets that for a lot of reasons now but he can't take it back Rio: He was trying to do the right thing with Erin, what he thought everyone wanted Rio: doesn't make it right but again, it wasn't just what it seems Nancy: She didn't deserve that. She was nice. Nancy: And you definitely don't deserve what he's gonna do to you Rio: True Rio: I trust him, and I don't want to not be with him on the chance that it'll end badly Nancy: Okay Nancy: He says you love each other. Do you? Rio: Yes Nancy: That's new for him Rio: That's what he told me too, yeah Nancy: Maybe I should be telling you not to hurt him Rio: You can Rio: I promise I'm not going to Nancy: How can you promise that? I'm not trying to be a bitch, I just don't understand Rio: No, its totally fair Rio: I know I've not got a spotless history, neither has he Rio: but no one can promise that and know without a doubt they won't Rio: but I love him, I only want what's best for him, to make him happy Nancy: Okay Nancy: I get that. Love, I mean Rio: Yeah Rio: You know this hasn't just come out of nowhere, right? Rio: Its been nearly 2 years, and we stopped ourselves from going there a long time before that Nancy: I know you're not me, pulling feelings out of thin air Nancy: He explained as best I'd let him Rio: I didn't mean it like that Nancy: It's fine, that's all over and done with Nancy: And nothing to do with this Rio: Okay Rio: I know its Rio: well Rio: unbelievable but Rio: it is the truth and it is happening Nancy: Yeah Nancy: Unbelievable things can happen, I know Nancy: I held onto it for a long time myself Nancy: And if he's willing to say out loud to me that he loves you it must be serious Rio: Yes, I think it is, know it is Rio: We truly wouldn't be putting this out there if we didn't need to Rio: and not just to save our own skin, I don't mean Rio: if it was just a fling, there would be no need Nancy: I understand Nancy: When it's serious, keeping it a secret, that hurts Nancy: I can't blame you for wanting to be honest, it'd make me a hypocrite Nancy: Chloe turned on me for being gay but I couldn't lie just to stay friends with her Nancy: Even if she'd been as good of a mate as I thought she was once Nancy: What happens next? He tells mum and dad and you tell yours but what then? Rio: That's how I was feeling, exactly Rio: it isn't the same thing, not saying it is Rio: but it was making me...sad and bad and just insane, keeping it in Rio: I think we're both better off for her attempts at bitchery, yeah? Rio: Hopefully, everyone is okay with it and we can be together properly Rio: That's all that's changing Nancy: It's essentially the same. People are gonna be judgmental as hell to you for it too Nancy: And nobody wants you to feel sad for something you can't help or change Nancy: Because it's like you told me when you were there for me about Sian, we don't get to decide who we love Nancy: But don't get me wrong, I'm not doing cartwheels that you acted on your feelings when you didn't have to, just like I didn't Nancy: That was a decision Rio: I'm just glad you get it Rio: I'm not expecting any more than that, honest Rio: Its harder to not act, when you know the other person feels it too Rio: Still a choice nonetheless Rio: One I can't regret, I'm afraid Nancy: I don't know, but I'll take your word for it Nancy: I know Buster when he wants something Rio: You don't hate us forever, then? Nancy: Nothing's ever that easy, just like nothing comes out of nowhere Nancy: I'm tried so often to hate him and I still don't Nancy: But if Jay gets hurt over this, we will have a problem, yeah? Rio: Could you tell him that? Not now, if you don't want Rio: and not even in so many words Rio: but I don't think he knows Rio: Trust me, I'll be the first to come for me if I let that happen Nancy: He's a straight man of course he doesn't have a clue. So oblivious Rio: Mhmm, its a fulltime occupation caring for 'em Nancy: I don't want to imagine Nancy: If you were going to fall for one of us, you could've made better decisions like Nancy: I'm a catch Rio: Duh, s'why I've gotta let an actual cute gay girl net you Rio: I like dick and the men attached to 'em, for my sins Nancy: Gross Rio: 😂 Nancy: Does that mean you don't wanna stay here with me for a while? Rio: I wish I could Rio: I don't think we can trust Chlo to let us enjoy some peace and quiet, though Nancy: Or trust yourselves to keep it PG so I don't throw up in my mouth Rio: I mean Rio: You brought it up Nancy: Disgusting Nancy: Do you want me to tell Billie? Nancy: Or June? Rio: Are you okay with that? Rio: Because if yes, then it'd be a help Rio: My plan is to tell my 'rents and let them tell all the sibs, let them know they can come to me if they want/need Nancy: Are you okay if I don't keep my heterophobia to a minimum? Nancy: Because I can't always control that Rio: Do what you must Rio: Lay it on thick with June, he doesn't need the deets there either Nancy: I will Nancy: He'll be shielded Nancy: Sweet boy Rio: Truly Rio: Do you think they'll all be okay? Nancy: I don't know Nancy: But they still need to know Nancy: If you're coming out there's no point keeping one foot in the closet Rio: I know you're right Rio: I don't want to fuck up things with them but Rio: I just have to hope they'll be okay with it, because I'd not turf them out over this if it was the over way 'round Nancy: And they'll know that Nancy: They love you and it's mutual Nancy: They may not throw you a party like we all want when we come out but they won't ever go too hard the other way Rio: It's okay Rio: Been partying hard enough for everyone Nancy: It's a relief though, isn't it? That someone finaly knows Nancy: And you can talk about it Rio: Absolutely Rio: and don't get me wrong, it'd be nice for people to be happy but I know I can't ask for that Rio: so I'm not gonna expect it Nancy: I'm happy for you Nancy: That you're happy, anyway Nancy: Maybe I wish it wasn't with my brother but I still want that for you Rio: Thanks, Nance Rio: Back at cha Rio: not that I think you and Junie are an item, I'm not that obliviously straight, don't worry Nancy: He is my love but Nancy: I'm so mad I didn't realise what was going on with you two Nancy: How dare Chloe figure something out before me Rio: You're such a stereotypical gay Rio: Wanting that tea before anyone else Rio: She's obsessed with your Brother, she probably knows when he shits, like Nancy: Before her, thank you Nancy: If I was a stereotypical gay I'd be trying to get you and Indie together Rio: Oh hell no Rio: that'd be so wrong Nancy: How is that wronger? Nancy: You love Buster Rio: I know how it sounds Rio: but she's a child! Nancy: I'll give you that Nancy: I'm not letting Jay date until she's like 35 Nancy: She might have taste which turns out the same as her mum's and yours Rio: Very Freudian Rio: Saying nothing *sips tea* Nancy: I'm saying no fuckboys allowed Nancy: That's all Nancy: Or girls Rio: We can but hope, babe Nancy: Whatever we have to do. It's a team effort now. You're in this Rio: I don't want to be too dramatic or presumptious Rio: but even as a pseudo auntie/whatever the hell I am Rio: I really care about Jay Rio: I'm going to look after her Nancy: She makes that happen Nancy: I tried really hard not to care about her before she was here but as soon as she was Nancy: I'll be dramatic and say I'll do anything for that girl Rio: Yeah, same as Buster really Rio: You can't not Rio: well, I don't see how Rio: People manage it Nancy: Don't tell him I'm still on his side Nancy: He's got a big enough head Rio: Secret's safe with me Rio: you know he just talks a big game though, yeah? Nancy: I do fucking hate him a lot of the time too, that's no secret Nancy: Don't we all Nancy: I could say I'm busy in answer to how I am and you're leave it there because it's true enough but it's not everything Rio: Do you wanna say more? Nancy: Now's not really the time Nancy: That'd be such a stereotypical gay move, make it all about me Rio: Trust, don't mind Rio: Not just 'cause anything to take the heat off, like Nancy: Just making my peace with dying alone, as standard, when even my prick of a brother won't Nancy: Casual angst Rio: I thought the NYC gay scene was poppin'? Nancy: It is Nancy: I'm not Rio: Babe Rio: Want to go hit the town before I have to go? Rio: I'm the best wingman Nancy: It'd take more than you Nancy: Oblivious hetero, remember? Rio: What would it take? Rio: You're a catch, remember? Nancy: But it's not about what I look like Nancy: I'm also an oblivious gay Nancy: I can't read signals. Or trust myself. Rio: Fear of straight girls Rio: Hit up the specific apps and put yourself out there Rio: Let them come to you first Rio: Then you can't make that mistake Nancy: Mhm I could Nancy: It's about me not them Nancy: Just because they want something doesn't mean it's the same as what I want Nancy: And anyway, all I want at the moment is to not get my heartbroken again Nancy: There's an easy solution there Rio: I feel you Rio: Some things not as easy to find as others Nancy: And when you want conflicting things, like not being lonely but also not getting hurt, it's just Nancy: Stupid Rio: You aren't alone on that one Rio: and I'd certainly be lying if I said I had any useful advice Nancy: How did you do it? Nancy: Put yourself out there with Buster of all people Rio: It didn't start like this, obviously Rio: Sometimes you put yourself out for less than you're after, or think you want Rio: and you still end up where you wanna be Rio: not saying that was my plan here but do you get me? sometimes you just have to see where shit takes you Rio: I know its hard to allow that when you've been burnt before Nancy: Sometimes that's so dangerous Nancy: Especially when you're an idiot like me Rio: Preaching to the choir, babe Rio: think, what's the worst that could happen? Rio: its probably happened, yeah? Rio: and like, arguably, this situation with me and Buster is really bad but Rio: doesn't feel it to us, so Nancy: I just don't think I can do it Nancy: It hurt so much losing someone who didn't love me back Nancy: If someone did and I messed it up Nancy: I think I'd die Rio: Yeah, its scary Rio: you know the old adage exists for a reason though Nancy: Does it? Rio: Definitely Rio: What's life without love? Rio: Not just romantic though, of course Nancy: True. Always got that fuckboy brother of mine Nancy: Like it or not Nancy: Teach him some respect would you please, lord knows I've tried Rio: And the rest of us Rio: I'll do my best Nancy: Jay's already helped, because he's that stereotypical straight man Nancy: And he's getting another daughter soon so Rio: He'll get there Rio: He's not as bad as he puts on Nancy: For your sake he better not be Rio: Come on Rio: I might be in love but I still have self-respect Nancy: Just checking, honey Nancy: Making sure you're still in there Rio: Please Rio: No man's changing me Nancy: Glad to hear it Nancy: Unless it's for the better, my mum vouches for that so often I wouldn't be surprised if that's why I'm gay Rio: 😂 Rio: Such a natural-born rebel, babe Nancy: Who can compete with a love that real? Best not to attempt Nancy: Or to look at it another way, I win, because I'll be the greatest without ever letting a man touch me. Sorry mum. No offence like Rio: That's the spirit Rio: Sure she'll be proud Nancy: We can only hope Rio: You don't think she is? Nancy: Maybe when I finish uni. I haven't done anything 'epic' yet Nancy: Haven't had two children though, so by degrees. Sorry Buster. No offence either Rio: Less black marks, for sure Nancy: We've both made it this far, she'll be happy with that Nancy: People have dropped out over less than what Buster's had to handle thanks to Chloe Nancy: So much drama Rio: Yeah, I'd bet on it Rio: She's no fool Rio: Some of us never even start, like 😜 Rio: Chlo must be fuelled by it, no other need to love it so very much Nancy: She is Nancy: I've never known anyone better at twisting things than that girl can Nancy: Hence I gave up punishing him fairly quick. She's better at it than I'd ever be Rio: Can't disagree Rio: She's got a knack for it Rio: and a lot of time on her hands to dish it out Rio: Bless her Nancy: How much did she see? Nancy: I don't want gross details I'm just trying to figure how she'll spin it Nancy: If she decides to Rio: Nothing like that, you're precious gay sensibilities are safe Rio: I don't know, obviously she was early and unannounced so we weren't on guard Rio: I clearly looked too comfortable for her liking? Nancy: God forbid you weren't hanging from the ceiling like the villain she thinks you are Nancy: And she'd be the type to bring your clothes into it, not being happy unless you were wearing a turtle neck or something Nancy: As if that can't still be sexy, excuse her Rio: Nail on the head, babe Rio: Your teacher fetish is showing shh Rio: but yeah, I'm basically a whore of Babylon here and she is taking the moral highground as a 'Mother' to act like that's why she's angry about it Nancy: Stop. I have to avoid the library and claim it's down to the dyslexia Nancy: Yeah Buster said she called you a prostitute Rio: Its chill, I've got hundreds Rio: and you're legal now, way more of a sexy grey area Rio: Not the first time I've heard that one Rio: Never from anyone I give a shit about though so, meh Nancy: Buster was so angry Nancy: Far from meh Nancy: I haven't seen him like that for a while Nancy: He must care Rio: I told you he's not that bad Nancy: Time will tell Nancy: The baby's due soon. How do you feel about that? Rio: I Rio: I don't know, to be honest Rio: Excited for him, glad Erin won't be as much of a nightmare about sharing as Chlo Rio: but I'd be lying if I said that didn't make me a tiny bit insecure, because she isn't as obviously not right for him, you know? Rio: He's done his best to make me not feel that but its still there, shh Nancy: I don't think she wants him back but it won't be easy having her on the doorstep Nancy: And newborns are harder work than one year olds so they really are gonna need each other Rio: She doesn't Rio: Yeah, I know Rio: I'll have to deal, like Nancy: She doesn't have the same family support as Chloe from what I've seen Nancy: I think there's just her mum Nancy: I don't know where she lives but it's not here, just Erin's uni is Nancy: I feel bad for her Rio: Yeah Rio: She hasn't done anything wrong, of course Rio: and I'm not going to begrudge her the help Rio: not that bitch Nancy: Get me saying here like I'm still a Dubliner Nancy: You're good, too good for him, but I can't stop you loving the prick Rio: Can't deny that heritage, ginge 🍀💛 Rio: Nah Rio: on both counts 🤷 Nancy: I really can't, everywhere I go in this city they go on about my accent Nancy: Well, I surrender. Just be happy, alright? Rio: Oh, Yanks Rio: How many of them have told you about their roots like you give a fuck? 🙄 Nancy: Honestly Rio: On it, you too, yeah? Nancy: I'll do my best Nancy: I can't help loving you, but it's platonic at least. No need to add to your drama Rio: The love triangle no one asked for Rio: I love you too, lots and lots Rio: Thanks for being you and decent about this Nancy: That or, Me, the librarian and the cat Nancy: Has a more lesbian phrase ever left my mouth? Nancy: Thanks for being you and not letting Buster turn you into a prick Rio: Never change Rio: and I won't either Nancy: Great Nancy: We can definitely go from there Rio: ✌💋 Rio: Lemme know when you fancy hitting up dem gay bars and I'll be back to party Nancy: I'm not bringing you, you'll turn every head Nancy: Especially if you borrow my clothes again Rio: N'awwh! Rio: I'll wear my own whorey attire, don't worry Nancy: That's not better Nancy: They'll all want you or think you're the stripper Rio: I can work with that 😏 Nancy: Face it you aren't coming and stealing my thunder if and when I decide I wanna bring it Rio: FINE Rio: Just tell me all about it yeah? 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2020

Been a while since I have written- a blog at least or a diary. I was early on blogging having written on a now defunct site in the early 2000s. But with all going on in 2020 and mostly for my own sanity have decided to try my keyboard at it again. As in the history above I don’t expect anyone to actually be reading what I put down here. If you do good luck and be safe and sane (ok just safe).

I strongly believe that Neil Howe has captured the current global narrative (fuck I hate that word) in his 4th Turning and suspect that we are at the very start of a decade of change and turmoil. Change that none of us (or very few) are actually ready for; less know what the changes will be. I do believe that the world as we knew it has changed. SIgnificantly. Here now in 2020 we are all still in the somewhat honeymoon period. The period where things are changing we still can blame Covid and the changes and look through rose coloured glasses and hope and believe that the future will not be bleak or that it will return to what was normal before.

As I sit here in Victoria and on the verge of going into Stage 4, I find myself considering a strategy consultant advising myself and other small businesses last year and earlier this year. When I and some saw things happening in Wuhan and CHina I cautioned that we should be careful as had never ever seen something like this before and we should prepare. I was poo poo’d. OK. Move forward to May and was told I need to step up as with others and look to expand aggessively that it is over and the time is now not to fall behind. I was insensed. I was and constinue to be stongly of the view that it was incumbent upon businesses to be conservative and prudent. Retaining cash and looking to support existing business and clients and staff as best we might. That one could not determine the future week by week let alone month by month or half year or year ahead. I feel for all that followed her advice squandering resources that will be needed now during lockdown and following it. It stressed to me personally that even so professed experts do not have a crystal ball and “gurus” are great when there is a bull market. Now is the time for taking it slow being careful.

That said, I do believe that fortunes will be made and lost this decade. THis is not the same as going out and pumping your micro business and using ones limited cash resources. It is carefully considering potential avenues. Saving resources and if need pivoting or changing altogether. Now is the time to consider to watch to keep eyes and ears open. To think, to ponder.

There is soo much data too much information. Most of it is misinformation - fake? who knows what is or isn’t. I do know that the overload is turning most way from trying to inform themselves. Reading is limited. Viral videos the norm. Makes me think of the anarchists and the coffee houses in London (which incientally gave rise tot he propaganda what tea is British). Resulting more people being uninformed or misinformed than arguably at any other time in history. Ignorance is at pandemic proportions. Conspiracy theories rule. Sadly Ponzi schemes will follow, and subsequently unwind.

I do believe that the world map will look markedly different for my children (2 1/2 and 5) when they grow up. I believe that the next several years (and likely decade)will strongly inform their generation. Some good. Some bad. But it is what it is. We all make the best.

What the map will look like I have no idea. I hope it has democracy, I fear it will have more totalitarianism. I fear they will live in a world which looks more like 1984 BigBrother than we feared. I fear for my children.

Yes I have grave concerns about the individual and issues such as increasing deprivation of liberty, covid apps, lockdowns etc. However; I believe that so long as people are aware these are of lesser concern than the social media titans - the Google, Tiktok FaceBook and others that we have enmasse handed over our lives and data to. The Amazon and Alibaba’s of this world. These are the real threat. We fight facemasks when there is a real need and hand over our lives in return, both figuratively (to the FANGS)and literally to the virus. Few think!

I suspect that the current financial system will need to implode or close - where how what happens I do not know. I do believe the levels of debt and negative interest rates are absurd. Will it be gold or some other exit? I do not know - if I did I would be a rich man. I do suspect that Erik Townshend is correct in thinking it will be an Orwellian digitial currency of some sort. Not BTC. I increasingly believe that BTC might have been an experiment by a [US] govt organisation or quasi-governmental. or at the very least they have been a major holder since at least the takedown of Silk Road. Am I right - who knows.

There will be increasing unrest and revolutionary activity around the globe. For eg, the BLM protests have little to do with Floyd and more to do with the increasing sense people are feeling that the system is broken and cannot be fixed. In the US the black pop is amongst the most economically disadvantaged - I am not going into reasons or why.

For a long time I have seen analogies between prior to WW1 (incidentally I often refer to WW1 and WW2 as being part and parcel of the same conflict - much as one refers to the 30 year war. Many might argue against this) and increasingly I see analogies to the pre-French revolution and similar. People feeling disenfranchised, the haves in their own disconnect getting wealthier at expense of the working class. This will get worse until it breaks.

As I am fond of saying of late - wait until the protestors realize what they are, in fact, protesting - then the fun will really begin.

Thus it is not only the economics that is due to change it is politics as well. Wil Democracy survive? I don’t know. Those that know me, know that for a decade or more I have been of the view that sometime in the future people will look back and say: Democracy was a nice experiment. Pity it didn’t work. I dont think human nature and democracy work well together. Sadly the ructions seem to be proving me - sadly! Very sadly!

I just didn’t think it would happen in my lifetime!!

Now I realise (and yes I am switching between UK and US english and often misusing caps). how presumptious of me that was. THings change and not have major change in my life was probably the abnormal rather than the normal. Oh what a wonderful life I have lived.

I am a dreamer, unfortunately of late (and prior to Covid) my dreams have often been nightmares. People think of me as a dr doom. Unfortunately, that is, I believe, incorrect. Rather, I do not believe we can benefit or deal with the future - which is happening now - without trying to understand it and prepare and deal with it, with understanding. Not jumping in and drowning. Unfortunately, few wish to think. Now more so than ever. Those that do will do well. Many will sink.

As history tells, it is in the interests of the few to keep the masses uninformed or misinformed. This remains. Our schools have failed abysmally and society is reaping what it has (not) sowed. As Whitney sang - the children are our future. Well if we had focused on history, reading, science, biology, geography and maths above shit like “psychological preparedness” and “pc” bull shit we might have had a better informed youth that might be better placed to understand the issues. They might even have bought into the political process and helped change the system. We will have revolutions and beware of the outcomes. Trump will look sane.

Enough for today me thinks

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