despite one very minor annoyance, i'm finishing off 2023 in the rpc in a pretty good place i gotta say
things have drastically changed from the years when i first began writing here ( probably around 2010 and beyond ) but not all of it is bad change. sure, the website is in shambles and all the old functions i was so familiar with are gone. the ease and comfort of old tumblr can only be found in xkit now, but... aside from that, i feel as though the website has actually significantly mellowed out from all those years ago. i mean i could sit here and list you off the horror stories from back then.... being irl stalked, being plagiarized, every day there'd be some kind of new senseless callout drowning out the actual predators, etc
i dunno things just feel.... different, and in a good way. i think every place has it's bad and it's good, but coming from someone who's been using this website now for almost 14 years, i can say that the good here far, FAR outweighs the negative by a significant amount. and now that i'm older with much more life experience under my belt, there's a lot less that affects me and i'm a lot less tolerant of the bullshit than what i used to put up with back then.
god i remember getting ridden with anxiety over the smallest of things, and now i'm like. if you've got a problem with me and you're too much of a coward to talk to me about it, then it just isn't my problem and i think that's a mindset that would benefit a lot of people tbh. you have to remember; you're not a mindreader and you can't solve any problems if someone isn't willing to bring it to you. it sounds a bit harsh BUT you are only one person and you can only do so much. communication is a two way street, and if someone isn't willing to make that first step, then why should you worry about it? it's not your problem, it's THEIR'S and it's their responsibility, not your own.
you can't fix something you aren't even aware of. and if there's one thing i've learned in the many, many years i've been on the internet, it's that if you want to keep healthy, long term friendships & relationships, you have to be willing and comfortable to voice your feelings with someone else as much as you have to be willing and comfortable enough to acknowledge when you've fucked up. to apologize and rectify that behaviour, and accept the consequences.
'cause if you can't, you're going to be stuck in a stasis for the rest of your life, and it's something i saw VERY RAMPANT back in the early days of the rpc on this site. people unwilling to communicate, and when they did, the other party unwilling to apologize or fix their behaviour. changing names, pronouns, aliases... the works. i'm sure it still happens, but i haven't observed much at all since being back other than having a dash full of very wonderful people. :> so thank you for making my dashboard such a lovely place, and thank you for letting me end 2023 in such a great spot ♥
idk what the point of this whole post was i was just rambling to myself mostly LMAO imma write now, i got plenty of time to since it's another rest day for all of us on the vacation pfff
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gently screaming... kicking my feet.... father time is in my brain right now demanding attention.... smfh... another side muse on this blog thst I've mentioned maybe like twice?? Written once (in an ask thing) and I 👁👁... I know he wpuld likely be short lived but YALL if I don't feel TEMPTED to give him his own blog ... I don't wanna figure out a url and graphics n stuff tho (maybe later dkabfkf)
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Ooc : realizes I have a bad habit of adopting new lights (mainly hunters) and sending them off to raise hell
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What’s your upper limit preference for things like hyper cocks.
//What for like Sollux himself? Don't really have a limit. Obviously it gets harder to write the bigger you go but if you check out the tag megido-mischief or anything with aeonianadipose you'll see ive done ludicrously big before and it was fun. He's basically big as needs be for the entertainment of both writers.
With no outside considerations he's usually kept at the obvious size for the shtick.
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honey is by far the least Dramatic™ about it by comparison to other muses, (which is an INCREDIBLY rare thing to say about honey– less dramatic? than who?)— but folks who know me and my kids know that i am a sucker for writing characters who are “half” something, or otherwise “caught in the middle between two worlds” by nature.
honey and hesper, (an even older OC who is currently un-blogged), are the children of a mortal parent and the ethereal-immortal-something that fell hopelessly in love with them— which is, of course, another favorite trope of mine— and both navigate the... complications of that birthright, to varying degrees. whereas emké ( @sabuleum ) wasn’t quite “born” into their position, but the role they take on definitely creates similar... layers.
i’m sure there’s a lot to unpack as to why i like this trend so much, but scratching the surface: exploring identity, what it means to be human, to belong, and learning how to feel “whole” when you’re constantly reminded of being “half”— not-quite-[x] but not-quite-[y]... mmm.... it scratches my funny little brain...
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❦ woe guda be upon ye
Send a ❦ if you'd consider shipping our muses. // @voidfragments
Stares at Mara. Stares at Mara even harder. (She mrrp's grumpily.)
I say Yes Absolutely but also... good luck Guda she's the hardest of my main muses to ship with :')))
(Not that it'd technically be hard to drag her on dates etc but... gl getting her to care enough to read into it she's a free teddy bear if she Likes you yk)
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((Got some plans for a human college student and a goblin to add in. Probably gonna get them in tonight))
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