#pls ignore needed to vent

[niallermybabe]

msorrymsorrymsorrymsosorrymsorry

#Pls ignore my posts please #i just need to vent #m sorry for clouding u guys dash with this

[ouchhq]

>:(

#i need to vent a little im sorry pls ignore this if u are bothered by my thoughts #SH tw !!!!!! #this morning i was supposed to have my weekly therapy session but i had to cancel bc my mom got covid and obviously stayed home from work #and i do online therapy and i didnt feel comfortable doing it with my mom around but i really needed to do it tbh #and then my professor replied to my email with all of the things ive been working on since august and didnt say anything about the material #he just asked to call me on the phone tomorrow and i started to spiral…. like Spiral with a capital s #even now thinking about it my stomach sinks bc i have this feeling that his feedback is going to be negative and i just know my #barely existent self esteem is going to break and idk what im gonna do with myself then #this afternoon while i was spiraling all i wanted to do was /hurt/ myself. i kept thinking that i wasnt good enough and i had done a #horrible job.. so bad that he couldnt even tell me by email but needed to do it on the phone and i felt like throwing up and i couldnt get #/​that/ thought out of my head and i could only cry #and all of this not even actually knowing what my professors feed back is going to be because this is just all in my head #but i was talking to my school friends and they were like oh its gonna be fine even if he doesnt like it u can still put the project in ur #portfolio hes not even our professor anymore and so on #and i kept saying that i knew that but i just could not handle that sort of feedback and rejection mentally #i was telling them that i knew i would crumble if i got real negative feedback and i was terrified of that and they just couldnt get it and #idk it made me feel really lonely #im a bit calmer now but i feel so depressed #i am really anticipating something that will hurt really bad

[paperlignes]

fuck today actually

I don’t know how to deal with death. With grief. I don’t know.

I found out today that an old friend of mine died. She was younger than me. I watched her grow up. Our families are very close but she and I haven’t talked in a while. She was a couple of days away from graduating with her masters degree. It’s devastating hearing how the family found out/dealt with it.

She was so young. I don’t know. I’ve cried so much because I can still remember her voice and she had so much ahead of her. I’ve wanted to throw up. I feel like I just got punched in the face. Life is so short. But it makes me more scared. It doesn’t make me want to live my life with no worries. It’s making me want to protect everyone I love and worry even more and I get so angry at the thought that I can’t control anything.

Am I overreacting? I feel so weak. I haven’t even seen her in a year or two and I don’t know if I even have the right to react so strongly?

Fuck.

#—personal #tw: death #pls ignore I just need to vent

[delicatestm]

so i was asked yesterday AGAIN if i'd transfer to another location

because they decided to put a store in fucking amish 'country' and can't get anyone to work at this location because again literally in the middle of fucking no where no pay raise or anything and my boss messaged me yesterday saying "id really consider it because i have to start cracking down and they're sending someone else in here" which okay if you've got to start cracking down (about time btw) why aren't you getting rid of the 3 people u have that don't do shit?? anyway i told my ex coworker about it she left us in february her fault btw but more power to her at this point and she said theyre hiring especially nights and weekends so i told her i'd be in tonight to fill in an application it's a $6 pay loss but it's still closer than the store where i'm at wants to send me to so she told her boss and her boss's boss that i was coming in to fill out an application and she said they were super happy about that so anyway i went in and filled it out so wish me luck

#* ˖ ·ﾟ ooc ╱ ooc ❣ #i needed to vent #pls ignore #thank u

[little--miss--stardust]

TW: self harm

It’s so fucking embarrassing to have an addictive personality that manifests in less common addictions. Like how tf am I supposed to just casually explain to someone that I’m fighting the urge to relapse against harming myself??

How do you even begin to talk about how you were addicted to cutting and now when things get really bad—despite the fact it’s been around 8 years since I’ve last done it— that urge, that feeling comes back. It’s like my skin is buzzing and something needs OUT. It’s a release from all the adrenaline and trauma that my nervous system/body constantly stores. I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I HATE IT. I just don’t wanna feel this way anymore. I’m tired of it. I’m so sad and tired and just want something to make it feel better. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I wanna cut. I WANT TO CUT!!!!

I’m not gonna do it. I’m not gonna do it. I’m not gonna do it. IM NOT GOING TO DO IT. IT’S NOT WORTH IT—IT DOESNT FIX ANYTHING AND JUST MAKES ME MORE SAD AND ASHAMED FEELING AND I DONT WANT MORE SCARS.

I’m stronger than the impulse/urge/addiction. I am worth recovery and self love. This too shall pass. This too shall pass. This too shall pass.

Ughhhhhhhhhhhh >_<

#I’m okay I’m not gonna do it #ignore me pls #just needed to vent and get this outta my head and I’m too sad and lazy to write it on paper rn #personal #vent

[takethemonetandletsgogh]

my male coworker keeps acting way too comfortable with me like touching my back and stuff I hate him

#ignore pls I just need to vent somewhere #last week he insisted on kissing me on the cheek (like in France we do the “bise”) but even tough I stepped back he went for it #and he keeps saying stuff like kisses instead of just saying goodbye #he makes me feel soooo uncomfortable like I'm not your girlfriend I'm nothing to you stay away from me #i hate being touched so much

[bobfloydsbabe]

You ever just feel gross about yourself? Like you’re just uncomfortable in your body and the way it looks and moves and feels? I don’t know, I just don’t feel good today.

#helena rants #pls ignore me #i just needed to vent #I’m usually pretty body neutral but I feel like garbage today #also I didn’t get the job I interviewed for so that doesn’t help #it’s a bad brain day I guess

[murdochia]

Lads, I thought I was in a real fanfic scenario and I'm obviously not 😓. I know I haven't been very active, and this isn't the content yall signed up for but, I've been living life during the hiatus. I'm friends with someone that I had a crush on who then offered to kiss me and cuddled me and totally took it back the next time we talked . Which, btw, is fine because we are still friends but now I'm even more touch starved and love-lorn to the point of going through the process of making tinder and then right before finishing my account realized it was stupid. I'm in the middle of nowhere where im related to half the population with no car and with my job being what it is there is no way I want to be on any dating apps. Also, I'm not really a dating app person, I fall in love in a weird way and I thought that was happening and it was not, at least not on his end. How do you do love? How do you do life?? I'm really hoping the new 911 season will bring me out of my funk🤞

#personal #i had a near death experience a little over a year ago and my brain decided it wanted love #i really wish it didnt do that because i am now a broken bitch #how do i get out of this slump? #sorry but needed to vent because im feeling perticularly lonely tonight #negativity #pls ignore if you want ill try to get more active soon #love all yall for putting up with my shit #also two family members passed in the same week this happened #i also got a huge dental bill that weekend #then the tooth that i paid the huge bill for broke in half #life keeps fucking me in the ass and not in the fun way

[kaiserkisser]

ouch haha i might have gotten my first fracture today

#🔮rambles~ #vent beneath pls ignore i need to get it out #everytime someone asked me i always replied with a dont worry im fine ill be better soon #like ouch. i have been. smiling through the pain the entire day. #acting as if im not in agony inside lol #i mean im probably making like a huge deal out of it im kinda embarassed lmao #but it hurts. #its in my foot too so like i cant even walk. literally. #ugh i cried a bit too wtf #and a tear or two slipped out IN FRONT OF THE TEACHER gosh i hate myself for that #thank god the lights were off so i dont think she noticed #but still #ugh. #i hate thissss the last time i experienced acute physical pain was around 3 years ago when i fell from the cycle haha #dhdhdgdhhdtdhsjsjshd #ik my mom thinks its probably a fracture bc the skin around has like swelled up. but shes trying to make me feel better #tysm for that mom #we'll be going to the doctors in the evening probably #sigh lets see how this works out bye #delete later

[fireis-catching]

I got a lot of compliments on my shirt today

#me #my face #selfie #I get compliments every time i wear it actually #i had a rough day and would really appreciate if someone could put me out of my misery pls and thank you #my senior dog is sick (i think it’s time for me to come to terms with the fact that he’s not living forever) #i was up on and off with him all night #worked 11 hours today on 4.5 hours of sleep #i feel like absolute shit #and tomorrow i’m working 12 and i can’t wait for Sunday so I can sleep all day #pls just ignore me venting in the tags i just need to get it out because i feel like i have no one to talk to these days #so just ignore me bitching and focus on how pretty i look on 4.5 hours of sleep

[ccuriousmischieff]

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#Just me venting pls ignore me #This week needs to stop being terrible. I’m tired of this #Period/blogs got deleted/grandma is back in the hospital/ found out today that one of my dogs has to be put down tomorrow #Physically I’m in the moment but mentally I’m so checked out

[saturnsorbits]

Dear Creativity,

Please, come back soon, and while you’re at it, can you bring Motivation back with you.

Yours… Desperately,

Saturn.

#[Minor Whiny Vent in the Tags - Pls Ignore 😘] #I’ve been trying to write for days now and I can barely get through twenty words at a time… #My drafts are getting fuller by the second; bc I can’t even string a sentence together for a comment. #I know I’m burnt-out; but fuck me this is awful. #I really wanted to get everything back on track for April; but idk if I have it in me… #and I know in the grand scheme this stupid little blog doesn’t matter to anyone; but 🤷🏼‍♀️ #Maybe I just need more time. #… And another nap.

[echoes-of-the-unknown]

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#ignore this #ima vent #my younger brother is finally going through his vain hair phase but still has me cut his hair because he doesnt want to spend money #as anyone could see #this causes problems #I’ve been cutting his hair since the pandemic #im not a hairdresser #been getting better at cutting hair but not a professional #surprise to no one he doesnt like it #my brother in Christ you have the funds just go to the barber why ask me??? #make me go through the all the effort for you to throw it back in my face #bruh moment #litterally #its the nicest hair cut I’ve given you pls just use hair product thats all you need #but nooooo #want to shake my gremlin of a little brother

[yunwooz]

delete laterrrrr u can ignore

#luna.personal #dl #i just need to vent and get this out #TTTT #im feeling some type of way i think its bc im pmsing TT #so everything feels like 10000000x more #i hate pmsing so much legit like girl. why you feel like this. get a grip. #i just sometimes #(often) #really wish that some people were less obvious about #....disliking? #...not caring for???? #just??? all around not liking ig #idk i know its not important in the long run #and there are so very many people who do care for me and care about me #so it shouldnt matter #but im the kind of person who wants everyone to like me TTT #i just wish like if ur gonna ignore me or if u don't like me then pls just unfollow me instead TTT

[aastraeus]

the only good thing about this summer has been the constant rain - i hope it never ends

#spending your entire summer working 10 hours shifts will make u exhuasted #im soooo tired #and then i will have like maybe 1 week off before uni starts again #thank god im not working as a substitute teacher this year #i deadass told the school to not call me again bc i will end it all #so it’s just gonna be uni and working part-time and maybe i get to feel alive again #sweet sweet august you cannot come soon enough #pls ignore this #i just sometimes need to vent or ramble about dumb things #i use the tag #astra.txt #so block that tag if u don’t wanna see my occasional word vomits #anyway off to work i gooooo

[peterthepark]

gonna bang my head against the wall i hate college and the struggle of being the daughter of immigrant parents who cant really help bc they’ve never been to college in america and theyre just as in the dark as you are and AJXJJSJAKSK im gonna scream

#reign talks #this got personal but #im sorry i just needed to vent #about reign ! #ignore me pls