#school makes me feel like a failure

[silenthillbunni]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[pluggedintosaverockandroll]

you know it's exam season because i'm questioning all my life choices

#you know i don't mind going to classes actually but studying and taking exams makes me feel like i'm a cog in a machine #as i got older i started caring less about school actually not because i don't think it's important #but because it makes me feel like a product of capitalism #why did i choose this major? #do i even still like it? #do i want to work in this field later? #like i think that no matter my feelings on my major i'm not gonna change it #bc 1 i already got this far 2 i don't know what else i would wanna do and 3 i couldn't live with the feeling of failure #i just have to make it through another 2 and a half years of uni at least #and right now i just have to make it through the next week and a half #god i want exams to be over #i don't have any motivation anymore and i don't care about the classes i have to study for that much #anyways can you tell that my last exam didn't go well ? #i should be nicer to myself bc it's weekend and i am never that productive for uni in weekend anyway #anyways thanks for coming to my rant #kj post

[beechersnope]

craving death

#feeling so demoralized by everything rn #idk how i'm supposed to make friends or date when everyone is so much younger than me #i'm also starting to feel like pushing me to go back to school was just a convenient way for my family to get rid of me lol #anyway being 30 and feeling like the decisions you made at 16 put you on a permanent path toward failure is just great #love that i don't know what to do about any of this!

[sketchdeath]

thinking about how i legitimately have a learning disability that was never ever caught despite [insert all the horrors] and now im an adult who has barely an elementary school childs basic grasp of math 😐🤨‼️👍

#slipping thru the cracks like water #sorry i just had a random memory of like. all the times thruout my entire life that i just. couldn't do it and thought that i was going to #grow up to be a failure. #debatable rn to be honest‼️👍 #mine #i feel like i cant even talk about how little i know too. i feel like ill be ridiculed. because i have been lol! #yes ive made the effort to learn yes i went to tutoring. i just got pushed aside the majority of times because well. lol. i was coasting. #and now even doing basic math makes me actually legitimately panic. its like im reverted back to trying to do it in school and not being #able to. #i can not do mental math. i can only do some very basic stuff #i can not read fractions or decimals #i can not read big numbers #it is difficult for me to count things in a row especially if those things are very similar #i can not properly measure time or estimate the time it takes for me to get ready/leave for things. i have to plan things in advance to #extreme lengths #cant calculate a tip on the fly. very bad at estimating that. have to preplan. #struggle with coming up with how much things will cost when put together/estimating cost #super fun stuff that makes me feel infantalized as an adult 👍

[raplinesmoon]

i think the thing that no one tells you about being forced into being a high achieving child/teen is how much it comes to fuck you over later in life when you can’t do anything without holding yourself to an insane level of perfectionism and then you realize it’s basically leeched all the fun out of any hobbies you created for yourself and left you with a shell of a personality

#like I was having this convo with my mom about how I used to do so much in high school and college #and granted a lot of it was to look smart or well rounded for college and dental school apps which is I guess it’s own thing #but now that I don’t have another goal to work towards my life feels more stagnant and I guess I feel like more of a failure? #even though that’s absolutely not true I just see other people always on the grind and feel guilty for not wanting to do as much anymore #bc I’m tired and burnt out from everything #and the worst part is that it extended into my hobbies too #like I used to love baking and painting and being creative until I just set such insane standards for myself #like if something wasn’t perfect or aesthetic or worthy of being displayed as like a trophy #my effort and the process and time invested into it counts for nothing #not to be controversial but sometimes writing feels that way too #i think it’s a mental battle I have with myself but it makes me sad how many hobbies I used to have and enjoyed #that were then destroyed by burn out and perfectionism and imposter syndrome #this turned into a rant #will probably delete later #but I just had to say it somewhere #isi rambles

[fragglez]

highly gifted sister versus developmentally and multple learning disabilities disabled brother

#“oh your sister is so so smart she's got a learning iq of 141 blah blah blah” #me thinking about what my routine will be when I get home 😴 #i know shes really smart and gifted and it makes her different from her peers but pleaseeeee #let her be a normal child dont make her believe shes this young Einstein because shes literally just 9 and when school starts getting #difficult i dont want her to feel like a failure #i also know theres a lot of stuff concerning iq stuff #(I don't understand it fully) #but my iq was just below average and hers is like way above average #we're opposites #but she is still my biggest fan 💥💪 #take that dad #your new child might be smart and talented but she wants to be like her super cool mildly stupid brother (me B)) #my job is to be funny and make her laugh

[713-4th-ward-g]

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#now my aunt is in remission... #a lot is happening and i feel the loneliest I've felt since high school #I've only been getting worse since my family denied what i went through and sat there and told me i wasn't probably remembering it correctly #i know what it was like growing up even if it comes back to me in spurts.. #but they really have started to make me doubt myself and its the worse cause they never apologized for the neglect and abuse #and they all took their side and acted like i was mistaken and said “ i never saw it happened do it didn't happen #and now i dont even talk to the only two friends i had cause i dont feel the same #if i don't text them first they never ever message me first or even check on me #and im always the one being there for them and listening to them and im just tired lf it all #i dont want a future anymore and im slowly losing my grip ive held on do tight even at my loneliest and now i feel like im losing #i was never anyone's best friend and everyone of the people ive called friends were always closer to someone else #ive only always had myself but im losing hope for the future and i just feel so extremely empty again #i just want to end this feeling and the weed isnt working anymore and working out doesnt work... i need God ive been so far away from him.. #Im just slowly losing it more and more im tired of being the friend everyone goes to for advice and laughs or enjoyment #im tired of it so much #the only time i feel joy is the bliss i feel when i sleep and even that joy is never truly felt cause i constantly fight my sleep #i only sleep when my body forced it self to cause i can't naturally just go to sleep st s set time anymore.. #im so tired of being people's escape or advice person I'm probably only saying this for the overwhelming feeling #of being a colossal failure and disappointment even so i still try snd try and fail some more #why don't i quit I just dont know why its just something in me that has some glimmer of self hope ive only tried to kms once and failed #maybe ima bit glad i failed but apart of me laughs cause i even failed at kms and find it ironic cause i fail at so many things #im so incapable of salvaging some semblance of normality or consistency #Mr.inconsistent that i am and have been but i refuse to let myself end that way i have to fight for something even in this haze of mine.. #i just want to be better why cant i get better and stay good.. maybe it hurts more than i let on finally speaking of what happened #and for them to deny it may have really affected me a lot snd i am just now seeing it manifest it self now ... #i just gotta live with it and just TRY to do better every single day snd in every single situation snd action i take...

[cheekblush]

me today 💤

#no i did not end up studying 🫣🤐🤥 #the ibuprofen did help with the migraine but i still feel so drained like my energy tank is on 0 😞 #and i'm tired of beating myself up for not constantly studying like why do i always have to neglect my health for school?? #idk how other people do it bc i know others get way more done than me & have way more responsibilities but i just don't have that kind of.. #energy i'm sorry it takes up all of my energy just to survive and exist in this world 😭 #i feel like such an immature crybaby but once again that kafka quote comes to mind: #i could have built the pyramids with the effort it takes me to cling on to life and reason #also my mom recently pointed out to me that i have been studying for 21 years of my life & i just went shocked pikachu face 😯 #like that is absolutely INSANE i've been in school since i was 6 years old it's honestly a miracle i didn't kms yet #and all of this studying for what??? you'd think i'd amount to smth but i'm an utter failure 🙃 #literally haven't achieved anything the only things i got in my name are mental & physical health problems </3 #well this is getting depressing let me stfu #so instead of studying i ended up watching sailor moon & dragon ball while eating chocolate covered strawberries <3 #i actually wanted to take a nap but i just couldn't fall asleep even though i feel so exhausted #i need to survive 3 more weeks of exams before the easter holidays... i'm on my knees but i'm crawling... #i just need to pass everything... no need to have perfect grades just make it through these next 3 weeks alive #i just know i'm gonna have a breakdown soon & cry my eyes out bc it's all getting too much again 😮‍💨 #☁️

[volinare]

i called out... like right before my shift too. i am truly a monster. like they're going to have to find someone to cover my trucks. i just can't. like yesterday wasn't even that bad and i've been having fun, i enjoy the job i enjoy working and i just.

#like i put up with deep open sores on my ankles for this job. theyve only just now healed #and that didn't drive me to quit #but the last week has just been. like i didn't even go in that much because i hurt my knee last week and monday was labor day #my knee is fine now and i'm fine but i like had to leave early on tuesday because i was about to start fucking sobbing #and my brain was like . going joker mode. #i feel like. i have failed. #well actually i feel like a failure but i'm going to try and not be a bitch about this #i just want to have a job i keep and that i can go to while still like... feeling okay. and this is certainly not it #i guess i still had hope that this was... sustainable. because it was fun and easy #and really i'm being a baby like im not injured or anything #god being a quiter used to be so much easier before i like. realized i was doing that thing #that greg does in school in crazy ex girlfriend #he sings a song about it #like 'well i failed cause i didn't try' #and now im like. i tried. and i still weh weh weg #im also quitting before i like worked my self to the absolute bone and for some reason that makes me feel like i actually didn't try at all #do you think that black and white thinking is autism or bpd? vote now in the comments #i feeling like carving something pretty into my skin #wehhhh i made this whole post hoping to feel better after i vented but i still feel bad #i hope i die in my sleep #and the timing you know? the timing like this is just so fucking embarrassing but i dint fucking care #like congrats you got what you wanted there was a retard within 2 feet of you and now there's not

[aroacesigma]

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#ramblings #stressing tf out rn so quick rant ignore whatever just need to get it out usually makes me feel better #my school has its awards ceremony in two days #and this year theyve decided theyll only tell you if youre getting award not the ones youre getting #which is fucking stressful #as bad as it sounds i dont really know what im going to do with myself if i dont get top of the grade #i know it sounds really fucking full of myself but like #at this point i feel like if i dont get it im a failure absolute fuckup because ive gotten it 3 out of 4 years #really all i have is mya cademics yknow im pretty bloody useless otherwise #anyway this year has been . yeah . #like ive done well but i dont know if ive done the best #they never tell you who got top of the grade until the night but you can usually tell from who gets the most subject awards #but now theyve changed it and i genuinely have no clue and its so sosososos stressful #oh and all this makes me feel like im so incredibly self obsessed and full of myself which is wonderful #whelp itll be over in a few days i guess .

[j-esbian]

i know it’s a common millennial gripe that kids are coerced into picking their life trajectory so young, that a lot of people pick college because they feel that it’s What You’re Supposed to Do, rather than what’s right for them, but like. despite all of that, i really thought i was different

#it’s like. i had a Situation so i was like ‘no college is totally my choice’ but even then #really not a lot of thought went into it #not that i regret it but i just wish kids had access to different kinds of guidance #honestly very little info about anything beyond ‘which college will you go to’ #assumed that you already know what you want to study #my high school was pretty focused on. either you’re gonna study the humanities or you’re going into healthcare #i know i have these moods every few months where i entertain ways my life could be different #lately i’ve been thinking. i barely even know what engineering as a profession MEANS #i like to make things. i’m not opposed to math. i just never even considered it as an option #because i liked to read as a kid and that’s what all the english majors said #i’m just. tired. and i feel so bad realizing the fact that #multiple generations say the same thing. and yet nothing changes. because kids still feel like #they need to get their life planned out at 18 #i don’t know a good way to get through. because kids always feel like ‘rip to you but i’m different’ #and maybe they are!! but we need better education and guidance imo #idk. i just feel completely lost still scrambling for a path to not feel like a failure #and i have no idea what that means because i’ve already exhausted the option i’m familiar with #catch me. a grown adult. going to a career fair for high schoolers just to scope it out #the good thing is i could probably pass for 17 #mine

[unproduciblesmackdown]

that moment when: everyone's lives are restricted and constricted and these imposed consequences are attributed to anyone's continual individual failures to seek, find, and follow the Correct Path through Life, and so everyone is left on their own to only be seeking & finding these failures as well as the only answer to how their lives can be better....versus Not seeing the world as the free marketplace meritocracy of everyone's personal failures/successes, nor everything in your own life, and thus not forever having to scrutinize Where You Must Be Bringing It Upon Yourself by fucking up or at least failing to do the correct thing, and exist only in perpetual punishment for your ongoing failure and occasional temporary reprieves from it. recognizing everything that wasn't & isn't & wouldn't be [this is because you're bringing it upon yourself] and thus having more capacity & capability to look at the realm of your personal individual self, reality, experiences, life through the perpetual instances of seeking, finding, and following your own needs/wants through one's inherent personhood and exercises of autonomy and recognition of where & when & how one recognizes moments of their existing freely & in more resonant genuine alignment with themself, you know? endless examples to be found in endless fractals of [where & how are people's lives made smaller]. and that of course this doesn't preclude the ability/option at any time to question one's choices, since you'll be able to find more Actual choices available to you (and, also crucially, find more actual choices made by others that are in the pursuit of limiting Yours) to look at, and people getting to exercise their autonomy isn't the same as "everyone doing anything they want regardless of how it affects others" since that [how does it affect others?] element instead being Regarded would be able to lead to recognizing that, in fact, an effect might be the infringement on others' autonomy, hence: There's A Problem....like the ability to just go ham with [questioning???] anything in existence, certainly including oneself, b/c the "norm" is such that rather you're only supposed to be able to question yourself for your failings (or those positioned as less than, thus, beneath you) and not even have the language to express a questioning of aspects of life beyond that b/c stop calling anyone "cis" they're just Normal, Just Be Normal and it would all be fine

#brought to you by: i think one of my feelings lately of A Shift is in my less than ever running this like continuous background function of #looking for Thee Answer (just like the black suits) in any & everything that could serve as the Key to like. whatever could fit into place #to like set things on a [hell yeah. life? better] path. juxtaposing this recent sense of things with the [lol. in retrospect i Do see a new #context wherein i can Recognize smthing abt myself] past going on of like. granpa greentext story be me be fifteen i'm in college b/c i hat #school i also mostly assumed i'd probably fail out freshman yr but didn't. i've never known what i'd wanna major in & as a sophomore i'm de #supposed to figure it out in time for scheduling my jr yr classes (though Ideally have known from the start / been scheduling thusly) & so #many evenings during dinner i'm furiously perusing the daily print news as i've been doing for some yrs to Keep Up W/Current Events but now #also consciously like ''boy i hope in the course of doing this i stumble across some info that sparks some eureka moment of Getting what my #major should Obviously be so i can understand the rest of my life around [do job] b/c i sure as hell don't understand it around [be married #much less [be parent] so one option remains obvi'' whereas now i realize like lol you Were figuring out a guiding light in doing so & that #perspective being honed was one of Having A Political Analysis times....which also provides another Example of [only being able to interpre #what makes your life & your world the way it is: via Your Personal Failures to have already Had Better] in that just like i often forget i #misguidedly (but also reasonably; clearly also using & seeking that autonomy & freedom) tried to have a better existence within the #situation i was in by Coming Out As Trans to parents via an email that was then not directly discussed ever; b/c any legitimate discussion #was not permissible like how so many matters of [supposed correct existence] are Unspeakable so as to be Unquestionable #languaging that succeeds & sustains itself having to be expansive / flexible / creative / evolving too. Making Up Words hell yes #anyways so i also forget i Did try to propose majoring in things that Did more approach what i was suspecting were things i'd wanna do #but even the first like expression of anything on the periphery of that was met with ''no you'd hate it b/c you'd have to deal w/Stupid Ppl #every day'' (by which was meant; with believed inherent synonymity: poor people) & then i also will oft forget i pushed for it any further #which i Know i did b/c of it next being met with angry & aggressive ''i've never heard you talk abt that interest before So'' #(wonder why? withholding info to protect yourself=finding room in one's life for existing more freely; exercising the autonomy to Do That) #but it's easy to forget b/c The All Encompassing Perspective was rather [i'm sure Failing to just Know my major for the sole possibility fo #defining one's entire life: The Correct Dream Job] & then Failing to push it or just express it & be understood ''correctly'' even if i Did #have any ideas in that realm. vs seeing how i Was succeeding & was recognizing shit & pursuing it & looking out for myself & etccc #it's undeniable lol like the framing even that Blaming Oneself is an autonomy seeking response. b/c your autonomous power in your own life #sure Would be more immediate if Everything Really Was Your Fault (when ofc really this is abt obscuring & denying the responsibility of ppl #who have the power over others' lives & then have to act like this is all the fault of the Others; they themselves have never Truly Chosen) #no victim blaming no condemnation of anyone's ''passivity'' here babey #re: the undeniability it's how like. maybe you've only Just realized you're not cis but in doing so it's like ''oh That's what i already #recognizing in various ways throughout my whole life'' it's all always Been there/going on & perspex shifts + new lenses can reveal them

[evansbby]

continuing from my prev post bc I reached tag limit which I didn’t even know was a thing

#continuing my venting #anyways I can see my family being like at a loss with me #like they don’t know what to do or how to act with me #and I don’t want to be that person #but emotionally I haven’t felt this all over the place that even the smallest thing sets me off #also no I’m not pregnant #idk I feel like maybe it’s bc I feel like such a failure rn #and I think everyone hates me way more than usual #and I’m trying to compensate that by doing so much stuff trying to help #but it’s never enough and then I lash out #and scream and accuse people #and then I sit in my room and wonder why I said sll those things #and I know I should’ve left this sort of behaviour in secondary school #and I swear I’m not normally this bad #but March 2023 has been so…. weird #like I feel like a stranger to myself #and idk what to do about it #i don’t know how to make myself snap out of it #i don’t want to get worse #idek if this makes sense I’ll prob delete it but I had to write it down I just feel so emotional

[astrxealis]

damn i never thought i'd get into stardew valley this much but here we are !! makes perfect sense tho

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #heyy this adds to my roster of games that actually have Evidence #gotta play more soulsborne legitimately soon so i have more evidence of my range LMFAO ... #i love how my. taste in games is really broad tbh! i'm willing to try anything out but i do uhh am less inclined to the more popular ones? #unless i get into them by way of. personal. or without outside influence #but if there's a certain something that makes me dislike a media yeah ... i do end up more indifferent tho. ultimately #i think sdv is another huge example of how me and lune really go all in when getting into smth #like terraria. but we end up forgetting about it pretty soon after. oops! #it depends tbh on how bored we are? how much we have to do. so yeah #xiv was That for a very long time bcs we didn't really have anything else uhh insert hashtag xiv was there for us when nobody was #aaa so thankful to xiv fr. idk. i think about what it has done for me sometimes and i get really emotional! #also funny how things connect. i got back into tumblr bcs of jjk and then connected w others mostly thru gi. and then twt thru a friend i #met thru a school event wholy thru chance. who got me back into twt where i connected with others thru ff(xiv) #and i find it fascinating how people make friends irl! i think its easy for me to feel that way 1. its just who i am lol its in my nature #2. im more of a bystander so. yeah. ez for me to study people and people-watch. idm that much tbh #it's funny... hmm interesting? a bit sad too. wnvr i want to. Take A Step Further. i end up not caring anymore LMFAOOO but tbh it's really #nice in the long run! my outlook on life is pretty weird tbh like uhh... idk. hard to explain. complex #whenever i face a problem i'm. absolutely confident i'll get over it. and unfortunately i feel like that... sense of confidence is rather ra #rare*? idk. and the fact i've always known (always!) i'd love myself no matter what. even if sometimes i would be really insecure. i never #truly hated myself and i sincerely doubt i ever will. but the fact i often suceed and rise from my failures that sometimes they don't feel #like failures doesn't mean that uhh i'll end up facing my downfall through. naive confidence? i try to be self-aware and do my best for no #regrets and it's fascinating how my values in life are shaped by my past. not just me. everyone. damn. i think the formative years of a #person are so goddamn fascinating and also i'm still unsure what i want for college but it's already fucking march HELP #anyway wow. i dont want to be too harsh on myself if the What If bad scenario/s end up happening but i'll really try my best #my aunts on my dad side both got into up diliman and i'll be damned if i don't. i know i can do it. i just gotta put in a ton of effort. #okay rambles bye bye #also i've been staying up until 3/4 ever since break LMFAOOO SDV HAS RUINED ME dw i'll be good again next week lmfao

[dykesbites]

:( i feel so drained and empty today

#yesterday was really rough #yall know i was forced to quit winterguard well. i still am allowed to teach my old high school colorguard and we had a comp yesterday #the group that i used to be a part of was also there #seeing all my friends performing without me being a part of it was. really fucking painful #they were all nice to me but like. nothing will ever make this better. #they were all great they hugged me and let me cry and i miss them so much #had a huge scream cry sesh in my car after it was all over #i havent told the kids im not marching anymore and i just dont want to let them down #idk i feel like such a failure #and im going to have to see my winterguard group at every single competition that my kids go to #im dreading it i cant keep bawling at every show

[magentagalaxies]

idk why my brain decided folding laundry while listening to rollercoaster by bleachers at 11:26pm was the perfect conditions to finally process the fact that other girls is going to be finished in less than three weeks but im genuinely gonna lay motionless on the floor letting all these feelings wash over me rn????

#i'm just. no one will ever be able to comprehend how much this show truly means to me #even *i* can barely comprehend how much this show means to me #i keep trying to put it into words. the show itself is me trying to put that feeling into words #but it always sounds like hyperbole when i say other girls is the most important thing i have ever done and may ever do #most of my audience is only seeing the final 1% of what this project has been for me #and that's the part people should see bc it's the finished product #but also like. this is the same show i thought was going to genuinely kill me when i was eighteen #i worked on this for three years because every time i got close to completing it something took it away #and i realized it's more empowering to remake it on my own terms than give up on it even when it hurts #this show has seen me through my school almost being shut down. my first major depressive episode (and my whole recovery process!) #and that's not even to mention having to cut off multiple toxic friendships with the very first cast i had in 2020 #when i got into my dream school senior year all i felt was anxious because i thought other girls was never going to happen #and i thought that meant i would never make it as a comedian (don't ask me how that works depression makes you believe weird things) #and in the years since i've found my way at this school and realized my worth as a human being doesn't depend on other girls #and that other girls belongs to me and not the other way around #and i was able to take this source of shame. this perceived failure #and turn it into a production far bigger than i could've imagined back in 2019 #it gave me a chance to connect with a cast and crew full of some of the most incredible people i've ever met #and most importantly i'm able to make the show i wish i could've seen when i was young and alone #other girls is just a love letter to my younger self. like even though i know you can't hear me i just want to tell you you'll be okay #anyway side note i'm gonna get to talk to paul bellini again tomorrow #SPECIFICALLY because he said he wanted to talk to me before other girls is out bc he thinks it's really cool and wants to hear more #and he asked me to send him the video as soon as it's up #so year other girls is honestly the wildest ride i've ever been on. going from crying in my room at 3 a.m. over hating the ending #to chatting about the production in less than 3 weeks with one of my comedy heroes #nothing is ever going to top this