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#society has failed us bad like they'll have everyone believe that the only way to deal with suicidality or severe mental health problems is
asiancatboy · 2 years
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i wish we lived in a world where talking about suicide and suicidal ideation wasn't so taboo, treated with the sensitivity it deserves but not overcautious to the point everyone affected feels like they can't reach out or talk for fear of being institutionalised against their will
#suicide#suicidal ideation#i've grown up passively suicidal for as long as i can rememeber and honestly me talking about suicide is rarely ever a cry for help#if anything it's the healthiest thing for me to do bc sure i don't actively want to die but bottling this shit up to keep everyone around#me comfortable at all times is isolating. and i don't mean talking about suicide like mid-breakdown wanting to die type talk like obv be#concerned there. but i wouldn't be able to talk about a passing thought or talk about my progress with combating said thoughts or even joke#about the fact i wanted to die today but didn't yay me without some bitch somewhere being like um actually that's so manipulative go to#therapy get a diary you are only making yourself worse by letting yourself think these things#like yes i agree. time place audience consideration & an understanding that the subject is sensitive & not always welcome. but also why is#that. could it be that our lack of willingness to talk about suicidality is contributing to the hostile reaction in the face of ppl who#experience it which leads to more involuntary hospitalisation and in turn makes vulnerable ppl feel worse and unsupported#society has failed us bad like they'll have everyone believe that the only way to deal with suicidality or severe mental health problems is#to lock everyone away and chalk it up to a chemical imbalance. not saying everyone should suddenly be fine with the topic or forget#how to be courteous with boundaries but i do believe we are collectively hurting ourselves by refusing to engage conversation entirely#7
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mind sharing your thoughts on gojo “god complex”? i like your metas :)
Thank you! :)
And yeah, I'd love to talk about Gojo's god complex, or lack of one really.
But first I wanna break down what exactly a God Complex is: namely it’s an inflated sense of self. Someone with one would be overconfident in their skills and status in life, while thinking that their feelings and experiences and wants are the only ones that matter/exist. It shares a lot of traits with narcissistic personality disorder, even though it's not an actual disorder.
That being said this is actually something that you could tag on to the personality that Gojo projects around others, but that isn’t at all Gojo’s real personality. I've already talked about how Gojo lacks a true sense of self in a previous answer (read: here) but we've also gotten so many examples of Gojo genuinely caring about the lives and circumstances of other people. He's protective of Yuuta, he's genuinely mad when Yuuji dies, he's attentive to Megumi's emotional hang-ups that stunt his growth, he feels bad for Riko, he grieves for Geto, he can't bring himself to hurt the civilians in Shibuya even if it means winning his fight against the Curses. His sense of pride toward his students' accomplishments also shows that he cares about people other than himself, which you simply would not get with someone that sees themselves as above others.
Even during his fight with Toji (which a lot of people cite because of the "I alone am the honored one" line) Gojo's going through shock during and after that fight. Toji even questions if he's in his right mind, which he isn't. But even so, Gojo knows that he should be upset over Riko. He knows that he should be grieving or angry, but he's been cut off from his emotions because of the trauma he just experienced and the understanding that he gained when he unlocked Reverse Cursed Energy.
Note: Sukuna also has the "honored one" line attached to him, which is a reference to Buddha iirc, but I wouldn't say he has a God Complex either. He's more of a hedonist.
I've also touched on Gojo being closer to a Curse in terms of his emotional empathy during and after the Toji fight (read: here) but as far as the God Complex argument goes, I think it's more that Gojo wants people to believe that he has a God Complex, that he is just as untouchable and unaffected as people expect him to be, because underneath that he's someone that's been hurt both by enemies and friends while failing to live up to the expectations that others have set for him.
He was born with the weight of the world on his shoulders and while I think that originally he probably did have too much confidence in himself and his position in the world, he found out that he's just as human as everyone else around him in the most brutal way he ever could have.
But he also can't be what Jujutsu society wants him to be --needs him to be-- if people know that he can be hurt. If it becomes common knowledge that he has weaknesses, that he cares for the people that are close to him, then that knowledge will inevitably be used as a weapon against him. So he pretends that he doesn't and he makes sure that people know not to cross him, even if that includes being hated or feared by people that have never even met him.
TLDR: Gojo's using his "God Complex" as a shield, but he doesn't actually have one. He just wants people to think that he does so that they'll leave him alone.
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Edie & Liam
Edie: [Okay, so a school trip moment for Edie for Politics and Society where they've gone down to the local courts to probably watch the most boring cases of people paying parking fines etc lol so have fun with that babe] Liam: got the hots for any criminals? Edie: the dude refusing to pay his child support is just my type Liam: pity I don't have any 👶 I've binned off for you Liam: all I've got going for me is how willing I am to catch a charge Edie: We're gonna snatch one, already decided Edie: daddy issues withstanding, no one here is as interesting as you Liam: when I find one with 👀 like yours Edie: 🥺🥺🥺 Edie: I'll make one for you Liam: would you? Edie: I'd do anything for you Liam: I'm just testing you, baby Edie: Test away Edie: my brain is dribbling out my ears over here Liam: don't lose it, we need it Edie: I need you Edie: what are we doing later to bring back my will to live? Liam: anything you want Edie: I might have something Liam: am I guessing or are you telling? Edie: I don't wanna get your hopes up Edie: but I heard rumours, some kid in my year reckons he's found an empty Edie: and that his brother and his mates are gonna squat in it Edie: but it's in a really fuck off big house in a decent part of town, so idk if it's bullshit or what Edie: but it'd be fun to trash if it isn't Liam: we could kick them out, stay for a while before we do Edie: yeah? Edie: play 🏡 with me Liam: somewhere nice to take the 👶 to Edie: Wonder how many rooms there are Edie: can have a playroom and everything Edie: lucky bastard Liam: do you think there's a garden? Edie: even if it's really in town, they'll still have a perfectly landscaped backyard, patio, room for a swing Liam: sandpit for our buried treasure Edie: and the dogs 🦴s Liam: great idea to blame the dog 💀🦴 Edie: I think so Edie: failing that, the previous owners Edie: clearly left in a hurry because the body count got out of control Liam: won't look suss that all the little pussies from your class who are looking at you now when they shouldn't be are in there Edie: I can think of a thousand reasons they deserve to die Edie: yours is the best though Liam: it's the most important one Edie: I don't want anyone else to look at me Liam: put your jacket on Edie: [stealth selfie 'cos p sure you are not meant to have a phone in court lol] Liam: you'll feel better now Edie: 🤏 Edie: what lesson are you in? Liam: maths Liam: about to stick a pencil through my own eye Edie: save one for me Edie: I love your eyes too Liam: right or left? Edie: left Edie: it's the side the tattoo is on Liam: 👌 Liam: [a selfie that he's edited to get rid of an eye] Edie: my cyclops Edie: still hot Liam: eye patch isn't as useful as a fake leg but I knew you'd be into it Edie: you can stash some in the socket Edie: or a 💎 Edie: can't bury all the treasure Liam: 💍 Edie: 🥰 Liam: when can you get out? Edie: when do you want me? Liam: I wanna find the house & make it nice for you first Edie: [screenshot of this kid in her year going off about it/inviting her with the address etc] Liam: I'll go now Edie: I'll pretend the cases have upset me and ask to be excused when I get the chance Edie: then I can go into town and steal all the stuff we'll need for the house Liam: don't forget the 👶 Edie: I'll look in all the prams for the bluest eyes Liam: has to be a girl though Edie: they're always decked out in all the pink Edie: even if I've left some of my brain on the seats Liam: get some clothes too then Edie: your babies would be so beautiful Edie: not like pink screaming blobs Liam: if she looks like you I don't mind her screaming, can do whatever she wants Edie: I'm in love with you Liam: I know you are Liam: & you know how I feel about you Edie: yeah Edie: you take care of me Liam: I'm trying to Edie: you are Liam: I want this to work Edie: then it will Edie: I'll do whatever you need me to Edie: be what you need Liam: you're perfect Liam: he knows that's why he invited you there Edie: but I'm going to be with you instead Liam: who is he? Edie: dunno, he's barely in any of my classes Edie: Craig something, his brother is called Sean, you've probably seen him at shit, even though he's been out of school time Liam: yeah, previous raves & shit Edie: right Edie: just think he knows I go to that shit too Liam: I just need to broadcast a bit louder that I'm with you now, everywhere Edie: How do you wanna do that? Liam: can't let you out of my sight if it means you're in theirs Edie: I'm not mad about that Edie: I want to be with you all day every day Edie: but I'll stab my eyes out before I look at anyone else Edie: you know that Liam: it's not you I don't trust Edie: if anyone touches me, you'll kill them Edie: and we'll bury them in our sandpit Liam: I test you, they test me Edie: you can handle anyone, you're so above them, everyone Liam: I don't know what I'd do if things changed Edie: things will only change if you want them to Edie: I'm not going anywhere without you Liam: tell your ma you're staying at mine, I don't want her trying to get you back Edie: okay, I will Edie: you're the only one who's allowed to tell me what to do Liam: it'll be home until we don't want it, barely a lie Edie: it doesn't matter Edie: I'm never safer than when I'm with you Liam: you can stay at mine too, any time you want Edie: I can? Liam: yeah Edie: 😄😄😄 Edie: I'm now leaving Edie: very, very devastated about the lady driving without insurance 💔 Liam: who can afford that shit, heartbreaking isn't far off Edie: it's a scam Edie: speaking of, how am I gonna liberate some sleeping bags 🤔🤔 Liam: 🤰 Edie: 💡 Edie: pram would actually be perfect Liam: didn't leave any of your brain behind Edie: don't wanna live that young mum stereotype too hard or I'll be right back in that place and I've only just escaped Liam: you won't Liam: the baby won't need to steal it from you, it'll be smart & talented & beautiful in its own right Edie: and you'll love it Edie: and always look after it too Liam: everyone says there's nothing like it, I'd have to feel something Liam: you know that's all I want Edie: I think even if you don't love your kid Edie: you must still be scared for them Edie: and for your own life, how they'll save it or destroy it Edie: that's something Liam: we could be a family, it's been so long since I had one of them Edie: all we'd need would be us three Liam: if my ma won't let us make my sister's room into one for the baby then we'll find our own place Edie: there's room at mine Edie: well, we could make it Edie: with her track record, that's the one thing she can't not be cool on Liam: mine's not cool on fucking anything, but pretend I didn't say that or you'll never wanna come over Edie: she won't like me Edie: but I'll still come Edie: and I'll try to be more what a ma would like Edie: in front of her anyway Liam: she's up for me having a girlfriend, in her words finally Edie: better not disappoint then Edie: what's she like? Liam: she's a lot but she's been through a lot Liam: maybe that's where all the shit I'm supposed to feel went to Edie: maybe Edie: that's the kind of thing a mum would do Edie: take it all on, for good or bad Liam: she does do that, since both the baby daddys she picked turned out to be losers Edie: same with mine Edie: the only person who helped her out was another chick but she died and then there was another kid to take in so Edie: I'd hate to live like that Liam: you won't Edie: I can't Liam: we've got a plan, yeah? Liam: stay with me Edie: we can be different Edie: we are Edie: don't you feel it, around everyone, all the time Liam: yeah, I do Liam: I used to hate it Edie: it's lonely Edie: was Liam: I wanted to be more like my sister, everyone knew her & liked her Liam: but she got lonely too, in the end Edie: people are selfish Edie: they couldn't deal with her pain, even though it was hers to go through Liam: she used to beg me to stay with her & I did but we weren't in the same place Liam: I couldn't go there Edie: you weren't dying Edie: that's lonely Edie: people waste their time alive being alone and not doing what they want whilst they can and for what Liam: they don't wanna live too hard in case it kills them Edie: at least that way is quick Edie: you don't have time to think about it, or wait in that place Liam: yeah Edie: it's bullshit, all of it Edie: what happened to your sister, your mum, you Edie: we'll live by our own rules and it won't be like that Liam: it was bullshit, everyone acting like there's peace & acceptance & she'd feel super chill Liam: she was angry & lonely & fucking terrified of falling off the edge Liam: exhausted from fighting to stay on Edie: why would there be, or should she be Edie: it isn't okay Edie: kids with everything ahead of them shouldn't fucking die Liam: I should've Liam: before I met you Liam: instead of her Edie: you would've if you could've Edie: the universe doesn't do trades and that's another fucked thing about it Liam: I need you to help me fix it Liam: nothing's how it's supposed to be Edie: Okay Edie: let's do it Liam: you'll really do anything for me Edie: I swear Edie: it's right Edie: it's what I'm meant to do Liam: how do you know? Edie: because I want to Edie: and if the universe is pure random, chaotic chance Edie: then you have to follow the right strings Edie: or it goes wrong, like you said Liam: & this is right Liam: the only way I have Edie: is it? Edie: for you Liam: you're all that's left Liam: I can't do anything else Liam: if this doesn't work, nothing will Edie: then it's settled Liam: you're gonna love this 🏠 Edie: what's it like? Liam: huge Liam: bigger than the one my ma rents for real Edie: no way Edie: can't believe he wasn't lying Edie: let's keep it Liam: baby, there's so much space Liam: haven't hit my head either Edie: 😱 Edie: let's stay forever Edie: we'll deal with any estate agents or potential renters who come Liam: under the floorboards Edie: bet they have loads of unnecessary storage we can use too Edie: wine cellars and pantries Liam: 👶 do have a lot of shit they need though Edie: how many bedrooms are there Liam: 4 Edie: it can have a playroom and so can we Liam: you'll be able to finish that song about me Edie: I'll write whole albums Liam: you can write one for the 👶 every milestone, like a less shit Adele Edie: 😂 Edie: I will Edie: 👶 will feel so loved Liam: I want it for my birthday Edie: have you done the maths? Liam: not in that lesson any more, give me a sec Edie: 🤞 you've not given me an impossible task 😿 Liam: [does the maths even though we don't know when his bday is or what time of year it is rn but pretend we do] Edie: okay Edie: we'll have to get moving Edie: I'll put these condoms back Liam: give them to that lad, he don't need to be having any kids Edie: seriously Edie: his brother already has some he doesn't see, right Edie: gross Liam: I got some 💊 off him that didn't do fuck all Liam: waster in every way Edie: such a loser Liam: we're gonna have to be clean Edie: me at least, when it's cooking Liam: I'm not gonna keep going without you Edie: serious? Liam: you're willing to do anything for me, I can stop taking 💊 for you Edie: I love you Liam: hurry up, you have to see this place Edie: Okay, okay Edie: there's a lot of stuff this baby needs too Liam: I need you here Edie: then I'll run Liam: you can lie down as soon you've made it home Edie: I got us dinner Liam: gutted I don't have a real 💍 in my eye socket Edie: I'll have to use a ring pull Liam: it'll work for now Edie: were your parents married? Liam: nah, but she married my sister's dad Liam: she liked him better all round Edie: that makes sense Edie: same with mine and the others dad Edie: hence she went back to him Liam: dunno what your ma was thinking but in fairness to mine he was less of a twat for a while Edie: can't help who you love Edie: some people are unlucky with that too Liam: yeah Liam: & some people never get to be in love Edie: some people don't let themselves Liam: like we said earlier about not living Edie: yeah Edie: I guess it is scary but what's the alternative Liam: I used to properly feel things you know Edie: before your sister died Liam: if it was there before, it could be again Edie: definitely Edie: I know it Edie: we'll work it out Liam: you'll be happy here Liam: [a pic of the cute shit he's been doing in her absence trying to make this place nice for her] Edie: 🥺🥺 Edie: it says I'm nearly there Liam: I'll come out so I can carry you in 👰 Edie: you know I'd die to make you happy Liam: but that isn't what I want Liam: I'd prefer if you lived forever Edie: then I'll do that Edie: we can have hundreds of babies if that's what you need Edie: or do all the drugs in the world Edie: or go on the longest killing spree Liam: I think that'd take a huge toll on you physically, which I don't want either Liam: I'm not trying to ruin you Edie: you might make me actually cry Liam: stay beautiful, that's what I need Edie: Come get me Liam: [does] Edie: [lowkey laden down with all the essentials be careful boy] Liam: [literally take a sec to imagine them going from room to room planning their lives like adorable nerds] Edie: [this is all so bittersweet we're so mean] Liam: [I'm totally fine and not gonna sob] Edie: [I think if they made it look lived in, it'd make the squatters go away, so then it's just when the landlord/estate agent moment shows up eventually, but I think that would give them a bit of time to do it, even if it's like a week] Liam: [there's just something so pure about this, like it really reminds me how young and broken they are, casually playing pretend like little kids here] Edie: [mhmm, like because she's technically smart everyone expects her to be cynical and realistic but she can't be and is like genuinely if we try hard enough this will all work and be real] Liam: [just reminding me of my pure baby angel Carly in a way I did not expect to be hit by, excuse me] Edie: [when you're more like her and Billie is more like Ali don't mind me] Liam: [I don't know why I love that so much but I do] Edie: [just live your best lives huns, all the ridiculous things you've got for this home moment, also some kind of baby doll 'cos we didn't steal a real child] Liam: [we don't need either of you getting in that much trouble when the fams are gonna be annoyed as is, they should totally film something with it during this week because those hoes] Edie: [creepy, cryptic video in response to where you are like soz for scaring you all half to death it's just our brand] Liam: [and she should practice tattoo designs on it for him like do you like this one or nah] Edie: [definitely covered in biro] Liam: [put your treasure in it's eye socket] Edie: [there's so many sick designs tbh] Liam: [are we saying they still go to school or purely hole up] Edie: [probably hole up 'cos 1 why not but 2 at least you'd know they were together even if not where lol] Liam: [it adds to the vibe of their own little world so I'm here for it] Edie: [like truly why would you go to school, maybe when you're pregnant and we need to win people 'round lmao] Liam: [he wouldn't stalk Rio all week that means #proudofyouboy] Edie: [we're all thrilled] Liam: [actual progress for real because he's been doing it for years and he didn't force Edie to go to school so he could] Edie: [it truly is, when you're just having fun gah] Liam: [proud of you for living real life again boy, speaking of, we know the vibe but is there anything you wanna write down here as defs happening this week other than what we've said?] Edie: [hmm, so let's recap real quick and then we can add anything if we think of it, we've got homey things and he's made it cute and we're playing house so the squatters don't come and wreck it, which is so cute, we're planning our family and life like this is absolutely nbd, doing all the biro tattoos, making our ARG and making a weird/scary vid for the fam lollollol soz, just clearly getting to know each other intensely and bonding and cementing this plan] Liam: [do write some songs gal but I also think they should try whatever drugs they want to that they haven't before they get clean for this pregnancy moment because adds to the bonding that they don't even throw a party they just do it together] Edie: [i vibe that because it isn't about the party of it all, it's the feeling things, so it makes feelsy sense] Liam: [yeah I felt it, and it's so cute that they're doing all these domestic things while sometimes high af] Edie: [like you said, we don't need to be saints 'cos who is even when they have a child but it's very noble that you're like okay let's get it out of the way lol] Liam: [literally ruster are still living lavish and partying with their champagne and coke when they have theirs, tell me I'm wrong] Edie: [mhmm, y'all are very sweet actually it's pure] Liam: [neither of them seem like they would be so sweet and pure and that's why I stan it] Edie: [maybe they can do things they'll do when they have the bub like the park etc so like normal childhood things which he probably didn't get to do much] Liam: [boo how dare you, that's so cute] Edie: [like again, bittersweet but also childlike vibes again and he can enjoy it] Liam: [also I vote he gets on this roof and shouts about his feelings like he said he was gonna on the school roof] Edie: [a mood, and you can be a bit destructive inside, just got to keep it looking respectable so every loser in town doesn't crash your fun] Liam: [OMG but what if that's towards the end of the week and he says he loves her then because he has not like literally shout it from the rooftops but genuinely] Edie: [need that tbh 'cos as in this as she is and not turning back, she's obvs noticed he hasn't like she knows she's still out here trying to make him feel not like oh yes, I have succeeded lol] Liam: [it just is real like when you're pissing about at first but then the feels carry you along] Edie: [oh you two]
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animentality · 6 years
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In 2100, assuming human society still exists at all, Disney is the only known government still standing.
It believes in tenets of strong family nuclear structure, cooperation, love of humanity, joy in living, and fear of the disorder.
All may choose to reject the order of Disney, but none may disobey.
All news and entertainment is decided by Disney, as knowledge is power and power must not follow the lawlessness of mobs.
Family is key. Happiness is key. You have family. You are happy. You know joy.
Cultural appropriateness. Freedom of speech is important, and guarded, for it is the ultimate expression of love, but those who would tarnish speech must know peace, by force if necessary. No crudeness or distasteful speech is required or tolerated in the public sphere although private sphere inappropriateness is allowed so long as an appropriate percentage of wages are dedicated to the support of the company, in the best interest of the moral community.
There are things children must learn, values of peace and love and tranquility and acceptance, which must be transmitted carefully and lovingly from mother and father, and from Disney sponsored official, an impartial and integral third party outsider. Learn that values are subjective, yet absolute. There is only goodness in the world. Society works as it does because it works. There are no broken parts. You are not a broken part. You are good. You are useful, never forget that.
As long as you remember to love one another, the world is kind. Life can be fair. If you understand the rules. If you understand fairness the right way.
Idols. People to celebrate and cherish. Perfect people and faces and diversity, of course, love everyone, love the world. Diversity with a familiar face, that is, otherwise it's not diversity, otherwise the message of diversity becomes polluted by diversity and has no meaning at all. People of different skins and cultures have no theme or moral lesson to offer if they are not rendered meaningfully, observe the proper performance.
Movies. Tv shows. Carefully constructed chaos and cheer, good people and bad people, triumph the kind, triumph the compassionate, fail the evil, the selfish, and unjust, who demand the truth. Pity long gone regimes of evil, end the glorification of decay, glorify innovation and evolution, the adaptation of culture, the success of the modern. Music, toys, family friendly, everything tasteful, everything considerate, passionate about people, for people, there is no evil person, not in blue, white, or pink. The evil lies in shades of gray, black, red, and purple, in hazy indistinguishable endlessness, where the whole spectrum once feared is entirely gone.
As long as you remember your function, and continue on the path, there is no need for fruitless struggle or emotional roundabouts. No need for discomfort, ever again.
Resistance for the sake of resistance is expected, but there need not be substantive reason. The glamor of being the underdog is never to be underestimated when the new god is forgiving and defiant, not all powerful but all humbling, courageous in his inferiority, and made even more heroic by the oppression of the odds against him. Fear not, for the future holds many heroes, heroes who stand against the odds, who are pitiable and small like yourself, but never to be underestimated or ignored. The people find their place on the silver screens and need not be anywhere else. They exist where they are allowed to exist, in colorful acceptable coded places. The young here, the old there. The passionate here, the passive here. The upset do not exist, and if they do, it is comically, in a way that does not threaten or unbalance the delicate balance of the fourth wall.
Exist as you are, unless you can't.
Don't forget to smile, or love one another.
You'll regret it. They'll be gone one day, and you'll be sorry.
Don't be angry either. Don't be sad. There's no reason for it. No need to be upset. You'll only be more upset if you let yourself be upset. Don't be upset.
The answer is love, of course. Love and compassion. Acceptance. Good people deserve good things. Good people will get them.
Be patient.
Find strength in the screen. Know the news, if you must, but do not seek dispute.
Love Disney.
Love tolerance and the strength of family and friendship and kindness and the underdog, the triumph of stories and a superior culture of understanding.
Know nothing else.
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