#suda51posting

[malewifehenrycooldown]

YOU PUSH ME DOWN AND EXPECT ME NOT TO FIGHT BACK?

"When I said I wanted something interesting to happen in my life, I meant it in a 'breaking into the visual art scene' type of interesting. I did NOT mean it in a 'I picked up a second job as a ranked assassin', because I thought the fliers advertising it was a joke, so I signed it for shits and giggles. How was I supposed to know that it was the real deal!?"

> [ no more heroes self insert: shallow candy ] <

{ self insert uses she/her, they/them, fae/faer and pix/pixs pronouns }

image links below!

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#shallow.moodboards #self insert tag #self insert aesthetics #ok to reblog #nomoreposting #suda51posting #image described in alt text #moodboards #no more heroes self insert: shallow candy #🧁🍦 | not your sweetheart

[wingupingu]

everyone: FF7R... is so important

me:

#im going to begin suda51posting so i do not apologize for sounding even more incomprehensible than usual #solid shitposting #kill the past

[malewifehenrycooldown]

It took a while, but I finally made a complete reference for my NMH self insert 'Shallow Candy'!

This is actually a redesign of Shallow, and honestly I am vastly more happy with this new design over the old one. I had a lot of fun designing her! Below cut is some more details about her!

[ self insert uses she/they/fae pix pronouns! okay to reblog! ]

some details that are important to know:

has a big sweet tooth. please be wary of any confectionery you leave in your house.

she's autistic and has narcolepsy (with cataplexy)!

has space-time, portal creation and gravitational generation powers. she's not an expert with these powers and is still trying to control them. but the fact she has them does make her a unpredictable opponent to fight.

reason for her low UAA ranking is that she isn't the most active assassin in the organisation (which sometimes forgets she exists lol). that said she's not a pushover either!

good friends with bishop and travis. they have video game and movie nights together :3

works at Area 51/Airport 51!

has a big giant crush on henry cooldown, oops sorry travis.

Design Notes:

her skirt was inspired by this outfit!

her shoes are pretty much this pair of demonias lol (called GRIP 102)

#🧁🍦 | not your sweetheart #no more heroes self insert: shallow candy #okay to reblog #shallow.art #shallow draws #shallow does art #nomoreposting #suda51posting #self insert tag

[malewifehenrycooldown]

idk man but i think the touchdown siblings deserved better :/

#shallow rambles #shallow shitposts #nomoreposting #suda51posting #anytime i think about them i get sad :( #[r]: henry cooldown | we are finally cowboys #[p]: jeane smackdown | the path of revenge #[p]: travis touchdown | the crownless king #nmh3 spoilers

[malewifehenrycooldown]

a small post (read: long) of me rambling about the meta implications (kind of???) of Henry + THAT ret-con/reveal in NMH3 in episode: Flesh and Blood. (NMH3 spoilers!!! read at your own risk!!)

okay one thing about Henry that genuinely give me emotional pain is that fact that as a child (like. VERY YOUNG) he tried to save his siblings (Jeane and Travis) from their father who was a serial killer and decided to go on the run. It's not clear if their father was a serial killer in the literal sense, or that he was also an assassin too (it's not really made clear or elaborated on).

The worst part is that they got caught, and Henry, being the older brother who tried to protect his siblings took the fall for them. He had his memory completely wiped, and was taken in by the Cooldown family in Ireland and was basically raised as their own son. sure that sounds nice, until you realise that there's a high possibility that his serial killer father paid off the Cooldown family to raise Henry as their own and to keep his real heritage a secret. I'm not sure how Henry went down the path of becoming an assassin, but I have a funny feeling the entire Cooldown family are reputable assassins themselves (and have been for generations). Which if that's the case, has a lot of meta implications, that absolutely need to be addressed.

This also goes along with some previous posts I've made about NMH1. That some of the enemy characters have the same purple beam katanas and/or have the same ability as Henry (which is to create spheres of energy and use them to attack your opponent). This could be the result of people modelling their attack/style after Henry who has made a name for himself in the world of assassins OR, that Henry is being put into a position where he has to train other assassins, and thus have used Henry's training as a spring board for them to become legitimate assassins. Whether Henry is doing this willingly or unwillingly, is unknown, although I place my money on the 'Henry is being told to train a league of assassins with (several) guns pointed at his head'

Honestly, knowing that Henry tried to save Jeane and Travis makes the fight with him in NMH3 more heartbreaking, because Travis at this point has Killed Jeane (their sister) - because she was the No. 1 assassin in NMH1. Now, Travis is forced to kill the person that has saved his life before and was punished for trying to protect his siblings. Do you know how deeply fucked up that is??? completely forget Henry's incoherent ramblings, and focus on the fact that the narrative of No More Heroes is about how the cycle of violence, revenge destroys people - and in most cases that cycle is perpetuated not just by the system but also is unfortunately re-enforced by family history and inter-generational trauma.

I'm not saying I want another story of NMH, but I do want a version of NMH where Travis has an epiphany and realises that his entire family is stuck in a cycle of violence and destruction. And decides to tear down the system and end it - He even says in NMH2 that he wants to tear down the United Association of Assassins, tear down the SYSTEM that makes up the organisation that's in the pocket of Jasper Batt Jr.

And as clumsy as NMH2 is with it's ludo-narrative dissonance - that line has stuck with me, especially with the fight with Alice Twilight and Holly Summers in mind (which have HEAVILY impacted Travis as a person). I want a story of Travis Touchdown, that looks back on his fight with his sister Jeane, and laments that he could have spared her (doing so is against UAA rules) - but realises that he can rectify that mistake by saving Henry from a system that is an ouroboros.

Travis made the decision to become an assassin - and he just so happened to become THE crownless king in the process. But Henry did not have that luxury, let alone a choice (assuming the Cooldown family is made of assassin), and so maybe perhaps Travis can repay the favor of saving his only other blood relative from a system that destructive and throws out tools that they think aren't of use anymore.

TL;DR: the Touchdown-Cooldown Siblings deserved better and definitely need LOTS of therapy to heal from the inter-generational trauma they have.

#anyways i hope henry killed main patriarchal heads of the cooldown family <3 #or is planning to with his little cult of emerald knights. because i'd be MORE THAN HAPPY TO JOIN HIM #i know this series is not meant to be taken seriously but sometimes you need to dig deep and analyze aspects that are worth #talking about #suda made this series yet there's still so little we know about the series from face value and supplementary material #for that reason. i'm going to play with it as if it was an open sandbox because it means so much to me #tbh this kinda turned into a real incomprehensible rambling/rant. i'm sorry i have a lot of thoughts about NMH. #[r]: henry cooldown | we are finally cowboys #NMH3 spoilers #shallow rambles #nomoreposting #suda51posting #abuse mention tw #inform to tag #this went from me talking about henry - to talking about how i want travis to tear down the system that crushed and used his siblings #and threw them away like old rusted tools #hmmmm sounds like a good pitch for nmh4..... #WELL. GUESS I'LL JUST HAVE TO WRITE NMH4 myself then / lighthearted jokes

[malewifehenrycooldown]

Me rambling about my ship with Henry + being emotional about a specific song from my self ship playlist with him.

click the keep reading if you’re interested looking over my incoherent ramblings!!!

GOD. Listening to Sleep Token’s Jaws really strikes a specific emotional chord with me that’s hard to explain other than THAT CRESCENDO of instruments is so powerful.

ALSO THE LYRICS. CRYING SCREAMING LOOK AT THE LYRICS!!!

JUST THE PASSAGE OF “show me those pretty white jaws / show me what you’ve lost / show me what wounds you’ve got / show me love” IT MAKES ME ALLL FERAL INSIDE JUST AHRRRGGGH!!!!!.

IT SHOULD be mentioned that again, this is just one of (MANY) songs that perfectly encapsulates my ship with Henry, esp. in context of NMH3 + Henry’s whole character arc (that’s running around in my head) is of him slowly recognising that he is more than an assassin, that he more than a weapon to be used by his family, and that with this new found freedom he can potentially carve out his own individual path without having to listen to the order’s of other people.

And yet after all this time in his life, it’s someone like Shallow Candy, who is the one of the few people he meets that takes the time to see him as a flawed, traumatised human being that is more than an assassin. She cares about him, she worries about him because she’s one of the few people who knows the true extent of his upbringing. She loves him regardless of his flaws, and that even after his disappearance in between nmh2 and TSA, she is still devoted and in love with him. She doesn’t give up on him, even if people in the assassin world keep telling her that he’s not coming back.

And when he does come back in TSA, she desperately wants answers from him, she loves him but god it almost broke her when he left; and when she finally gets the answers she needs and the he’s been doing this to protect her (and jeane) from the Cooldown Family’s grasp. She’s emotionally torn because she knows Henry is a man capable of anything but that she wants him to know that he doesn’t have to do it alone. Henry knows that deep down he doesn't have to take on his adopted family alone, but there's a part of him that wants to keep his personal and professional life separate. Plus in his mind, this is his problem to deal with (even if its not the most healthy decision).

When the Flesh and Blood episode in NMH3 happens, it utterly pains her to see Henry in such an emotional state but god her heart still aches for him. And although she isn’t the same naive 20 year old lady in NMH1, she does insist on showing Henry that there are ALWAYS other options, other choices that Henry can make that aren’t self destructive. Shallow wants him to know that he doesn’t have to go through such mental and emotional torment like this alone, that there are people who would be happy to share a part of the so called ‘burden’ and help him get back on more healthier path compared to the one he’s going down.

Her unconditional devotion and love for him, is what keeps bringing him back to her even if he fears that returning to her could potentially put her in danger. He doesn’t want to risk losing someone like Shallow, because for most of his life he’s never really had any semblance of proper control of his life, and now that he does have that freedom, he doesn’t want to risk having those things ripped away from him again. That’s why he’s so distant in TSA and NMH3, it’s his messed up coping mechanism that makes him believe that he’s doing the right thing when really it’s as the major cost of his own mental well-being. He does want to come back but again that fear of placing those he cares about in danger haunts him day and night, to the point of genuine exhaustion.

And so when Shallow accept him back into her life, he almost wants to fall part because so much of his assassin training has made him internalise toxic and harmful rhetoric. Its to a point where Henry kind of has a hard time comprehending as to why Shallow would still love him after all these years and would wait for him for SO LONG until he came back. And honestly she just believes the fact that people are complicated, that even if you’re an assassin, you are a human being with their own life, personal problems and it still comes as a complete shock to him that Shallow is still so deeply in love with him, despite the fact he's left her and the people he cares about for SO LONG. But honestly a more simple reason for her to wait for Henry for SO LONG, is that she wants to do is to help him. She wants to be a shoulder that ze can lean on and just… spill out his emotions. That he doesn’t have to maintain this cold stoic facade around Shallow, or anyone else. he doesn’t need to listen to orders of other people anymore, he finally has the power to take his life back and be control of his own destiny. He can finally just REST for once and be in company of people who care about him genuinely.

LIKE IDK HOW TO SAY THIS, but like. Paradise isn’t a place or a feeling. It’s a person. A person you want to spend your days with, through the good, the bad, the ugly and everything else in between.

Anyways. I’m just going to sit in a corner and cry and scream about this (internally) because goddamn I have SOOO MANH EMOTIONS ABOUT THEM . JUST ARRRRGGGGHHHH

#I AM SOOOOO OKAY RIGHT NOW #god if you somehow read all the way through I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH /platonically #💘 The Redemption I Seek is with You #nomoreposting #suda51posting #[r]: henry cooldown | we are finally cowboys #no more heroes self insert: shallow candy #nmh3 spoilers #shallow rambles #image described #blood tw #🧁🍦 | not your sweetheart

[malewifehenrycooldown]

anyways, I’m back home from my trip and I made the silly decision to play NMH1 again (on mild & with new game+). I’ve already defeated like. Four bosses already. I am not looking forward to Holly’s fight <- had a bad time trying it the first time.

#really my excuse for this is to record mini videos so I can make gifs of them when I have the time #<- mostly talking about recording my favourite scenes #or screenshot ring stuff that I think is interesting #*screenshotting #<- for lore reasons #shallow rambles #nomoreposting #suda51posting

[malewifehenrycooldown]

im just here to say that finding someone else that likes nmh on here is sick af and youre cool thats all ok byeeeee

NOOOO DON'T RUN AWAY AWAY !!!!! ///jokes

OKAY SO LIKE. no more heroes is THE MOST NICHE piece of media I know of and it's ALWAYS nice to see other people who like it! I'm VERY open to talking to people about the series fullstop. it doesn't matter if its about the blorbos we have from the series or discussing the series text in general.

I'm also kinda into Grasshopper's other stuff like Killer7, Shadows of the Damned and Killer is Dead (the game, there's also a short story set in kiler7 called killer is dead lol).

I've thought about getting into The Silver Case + The 25th Ward series although I don't have $70 to spare unfortunately because i want to play them myself :(

but if you ever want to talk about the series with me, lmk I'm ALWAYS open to talking to people about the series (this goes for anyone really!!), it's a silly little interest of mine and I like to overthink it's meta lore implications and stuff <3 /genuine.

#answered asks #answered questions #dreamlandwarriorr #nomoreposting #suda51posting

[malewifehenrycooldown]

So…. I made playlists for the touchdown siblings sorry!!

Before you critique my music choices, I just want to say ‘you don’t understand them like I do!’ /LH. (But seriously, Feel free to ask why I chose specific songs, artists etc, I’d be happy to explain my thought process /gen).

[travis touchdown playlist]

[jeane smackdown playlist]

[henry cooldown playlist]

#shallow rambles #to tag later #nomoreposting #suda51posting #queue awaits you at the garden of madness

[malewifehenrycooldown]

TW for slight mentions of henry’s emotionally abusive parents + big warnings for those with tokophobia as this post is a decently indepth discussion of fankids.

HHHHH OKAY. So. I’ve been sitting on this idea since April, and only now I’ve felt a little comfortable talking about it since I’ve mentioned it to @eris-ships. But also the developments that occur in TSA/NMH3ms narratives have def made me a bit more confident in my decision to talk about having fankids with Henry. Like look. I don’t want to have kids myself (it’s a whole can of worms that’s basically just: ‘I can barely take care of myself, how do you expect me to raise a whole human being from scratch?!’).

Anyways what kinda spurred this was from NMH3’s peculiar ending + these images [one, two and three] and the third one particularly made me want to throw my phone because it triggered my baby fever BIG TIME but also just the thought of Henry being a good dad made me so happy 😭😭

But also at the same time it’s so sad too especially With knowing the implications of his backstory and how his own childhood was taken from him, and so that’s what makes the thought of him being a dad SOO appealing to me. To me, he’d do anything to make sure his own kids don’t experience the same horrors and trauma he did as a kid. It’s like. Him making up for lost time that he never got and. GAH THAT MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL?! [I’ve made an entire post about this here if you’re interested]

OKAY ON TO THE ACTUAL FANKIDS IN QUESTION:

Amelie (on the left) and Rhys (on the right). Before you ask, yes Amelie is named after the film ‘Amelie’ and it’s important because that film was like a special date night for Henry and Shallow.

The reason that they pop up in NMH3 is that they’ve time travelled back into Shallow’s present bc. Henry has gone on a destructive path and that if he ends up permanently dead, it would result in their own existence being erased by the universe and they don’t want that to happen.

Oh yeah, I should mention they’re on their tenth try to make sure that their parents and future selves are saved. Which is at odds of the (known) time-space rules put in place to keep abilities like this in check. If Rhys keeps resetting the timeline, the more imbalanced and fragile the fabric of space-time becomes - and that could just jeopardise the entire fabric of the universe itself. So yeah. The two are kinda at the end of their rope in regards to options, and honestly causing timeline paradoxes is the least of their worries at the moment.

Amelie is a bit of an odd one out in her family as her personality is a lot more sociable and outgoing. While she does wear a similar fashion aesthetic to her mother, but specifically takes a liking to ‘yami-kawaii’ subculture. her abilities as an assassin are more so from her father. She particularly has her own version of Henry’s ‘barrage mode’ and additionally a beam katana that’s similar to Henry’s Vosmir.

Rhys, is more so the quiet, reserved one much like her parents. They are more comfortable wearing suits, and more masculine attire, but xyr abilities are more so from their mother. Rhys is… kinda responsible for their current journey of doing time travel to secure their future existences + correcting the main course of the timeline in general. Much like their mother, they wield a dual set of beam katanas, but it should be noted that they also use military grade knives + can pack a surprising punch when in close combat.

Before anyone asks, no they’re not twins. Amelie is born first, and she’s about 2-3 years older than Rhys, who is the younger sibling - although they are both younger than Jeane Cooldown. I should stress that they aren’t assassins either but have been trained by parents, but even then their appearance in NMH3 is just two university students trying to save their parents, and this is while the fabric of space-time hangs in the balance and it’s not made any better when your dad was the one to bring aliens into the equation [which has kinda fucked with the main timeline that was put in place to begin with.]

Amelie uses she/they, Rhys uses xe/they/it pronouns.

Picrew one (LINK) and Picrew two (LINK)

#HHHHH DONT LOOK AT ME OKAY!! #shallow rambles #nomoreposting #suda51posting #💘 The Redemption I Seek is with You #no more heroes oc: amelie cooldown #no more heroes oc: rhys cooldown #[r]: henry cooldown | we are finally cowboys #no more heroes self insert: shallow candy #🧁🍦 | not your sweetheart #tokophobia tw #fankids tw #queue awaits you at the garden of madness #nmh3 spoilers #this is the shortest way of saying ‘CONGRATS TRAVIS YOURE AN UNCLE NOW!!’ #undescribed image

[malewifehenrycooldown]

okay i've been having a specific NMH thought, and honestly it could be just me turning into pepe siliva. But i should probably put it out there just in case to get off my chest.

NMH1 spoilers! also warnings of abuse, esp. to a child, so proceed with caution please!!

I find it a bit strange that a nothing burger of a character like Dark Star, knew about how Travis's parents died and knows that his sister Jeane was the one that killed them.

like Dark Star does absolutely NOTHING, he's teased to be the final boss of the first game but is killed by Jeane (who is the actual boss).

Like on one hand I get it, it's supposed to be a nod to Spaceballs/Star Wars. but also..... how did he get this info.

like i would understand if it was covered by the local news, but how did he know Jeane did the murder because, that doesn't seem like something she would talk or boast about to other assassins.

She would probably say 'I killed my abuser' but its in a way that doesn't imply or suggest or state that her father was her abuser. (Also I should stress that said abuser was Mr. Touchdown Senior, who is also the serial killer father Henry tried to save his siblings from).

Like again this could all be a throwaway piece of plot that doesn't matter but also it brings up so many questions about how Dark Star knows this piece of information.

#like yeah sure dark star literally does nothing but like. how did he know all this info??? #stick with me. I SWEAR I'M GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THIS #nomoreposting #suda51posting #shallow rambles #abuse mention tw #abuse tw

[malewifehenrycooldown]

I know I talk about how much I love and adore Henry, but I say it when I mean I absolutely fully embrace this new interpretation of Henry, no matter how pathetic he is - I don't care. I love his stupidly inconsistent hairstyles, I love his coat, I adore the fact he has a little cult comprised of his own clones that back him up, I love his overpowered abilities (literally the hottest thing about him), I find it adorable that he's so angry that he refuses to die, I love his ridiculous cross sabers, and that silly forehead marking is perfectly kissable.

what i'm saying is:

#I DID IMPLY i would not stop babygirlifying this nearly 40 year old fictional video game character <3 #shallow rambles #shallow shitposts #nomoreposting #suda51posting #💘 The Redemption I Seek is with You #[r]: henry cooldown | we are finally cowboys #thank you suda the new henry gives me so much serotonin <3 #RIP 2021 ME WHO HATED THIS DESIGN WHEN IT WAS FIRST REVEALED BUT I’M DIFFERENT NOW <3 #image described #thoughts on queue #queue awaits you at the garden of madness

[malewifehenrycooldown]

sometimes your new fictional dad just needs to be an old British man who is a 'retired' assassin who's trying to live out the rest of his life in peace. until some punk kid comes along trying to take your spot as the tenth ranked assassin.

#he is my (new) dad! boogie woogie woogie! #'my child is fine' your child views a fictional video game character as their dad who is better than you #shallow rambles #nomoreposting #suda51posting #[f]: death metal | count townsend #[familial tag] #undescribed image

[malewifehenrycooldown]

Say it with me everyone!! Intergenerational trauma was the REAL bad guy of No More Heroes!! /srs

#image described #nomoreposting #suda51posting #nmh3 spoilers #CRIES THINKING ABOUT THIS #trauma mention tw #intergenerational trauma tw #tone indicator: srs = serious #this is my hot take sorry!!!

[malewifehenrycooldown]

the best thing about NMH is also it's biggest weakness. the bosses are amazingly designed. and I'd love to know more about them.

I'd love to know their dreams, their hopes, their story of how they got there, why they went on this path to become assassins/intergalatic war criminals.

but also i realise filling in the details would make these characters lose their aura of mystery and that some things are just better left unexplained and up to viewer interpretation.

#nmh is the anti-dark souls/elden ring. it doesn't have super concise lore about its bosses aside from breadcrumbs #shallow rambles #nomoreposting #suda51posting

[malewifehenrycooldown]

A disadvantage of marrying Henry is that other assassins in the industry would constantly refer to Shallow as ‘the second wife’, which would then be immediately followed up by ‘you’re much better/more nicer than Sylvia’, and they obviously are well intentioned and mean it in a more… positive way. But also… Shallow is just standing there like “Hey, I have a name. Please use it, it’s not that hard!!!”

#shallow rambles #was torn between referring to me/or my self insert but really we’re just one in the same so it’s not really a big of a deal #💘 The Redemption I Seek is with You #nomoreposting #no more heroes ​self insert: shallow candy #suda51posting #queue awaits you at the garden of madness #this has been stuck in the drafts sorry