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Working Title - Chapter 3

Pairing: Dieter Bravo x OFC Belle

Rating: Mature, 18+

Word Count: 3.5k

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Chapter summary: We get another perspective of the encounter in the reception area. Plus, some production logistics talk (I don’t know how movie/TV sets work, but this is my best guess). Our two agents have a moment. You and Indy prepare to head off to Hawaii.

Warnings: This chapter has some swearing, allusions to cheating and toxic relationships, and drug/alcohol references.

“Mr. Bravo! So nice to see you! Let me check to see if they’re ready for you in the back, just make yourself at home.

I forgot how small this lobby was. They’ve redecorated the place, looks good. Dieter thinks to himself as he leans up against the reception desk checking his phone. Liz is nearby answering a bunch of emails that came in all at once.

“Mr. Bravo, I apologize, but they’re on a call that is just now wrapping up. It shouldn’t be too much longer, but if you’d feel more comfortable sitting down, please go ahead,” she said, motioning to the seating area.

“Oh ok, sure. Thanks. And you can call me Dieter,” he chuckles as he grabs his water bottle and heads toward the seating area.

Oh, there’s someone else here. She’s pretty. I wonder if she’s here to audition. Don’t stare Dee, act cool. He says to himself as the woman on the couch looks up at him. Holy shit her eyes are beautiful. He feels an almost magnetic pull toward her. He needs to be closer to her, so he decides to sit on the far side of the couch from her. He can sense that she’s nervous.

“Hello,” he says softly. Oh no, does know who I am? Is that why she’s nervous?

Dieter had grown accustomed to people being nervous around him. Early in his career, he hit the convention circuit hard, sitting on panels and answering questions from fans or signing autographs and taking photos for hours. He loved interacting with his fans. He never understood why people got so nervous to meet him, he was just Dieter. So he always tried to make people feel as comfortable as possible so they would have a memorable interaction with him. Giving them eye contact, a hug if they asked for it, and always asking for their name. The support of his fans always meant so much to him, especially through all of the trials and tribulations of his past.

“H-Hi,” she squeaked out.

“D-do you mind if I sit here?” Shit, get it together. She’s clearly nervous, don’t make it more awkward or weird.

“Uh. Um, yea, be my guest.”

“Thanks,” he smiles and sits on the far left side.

Despite appearing as if she’s fully involved in her phone, Liz has been keeping close tabs on what has been transpiring. If the lobby were larger she would have sat further away, but alas, she takes a seat in the chair next to where Dieter is sitting on the couch.

She has a beautiful smile too. What do I say? This isn’t like me, to be at a loss for words. This is weird. But I kind of like it. Stop staring at her.

Dieter moves his head back to face forward, although he’s still keeping an eye on the stunning stranger to his right.

Ok, think of something witty. Something witty.

“Mr. Bravo?” Dammit. “ They’re ready for you now.”

“Alright, Dee, let’s do this,” Liz says, patting him on the knee.

He lets out a breath and stands up. Should I ask her for her number or something? No, that would be creepy right? We’ve said like four words to each other. She’s probably going to think I’m some asshole actor who thinks he can bag any pretty girl. But she is beautiful.

Dieter doesn’t even realize he’s smiling at her until he sees her looking up at him again.

“Have a nice day,” he says. Ugh, that was lame. At least smile at her.

“Uh, th-thanks. Break luck. I mean, good leg. I mean, break a leg,” she says flustered before looking back down to her book. Ok, that was adorable.

“Thanks, I’ll break luck” he winks. She gives him another smile. She seems sweet. Ugh, I don’t want to leave, but I have to go before Liz gives me shit, or worse, embarrasses me. Dieter wills his legs to move, heading towards the receptionist who is motioning to the open doors. I wish I had more time.

He and Liz barely make it through the doors before he can feel her eyes on him.

“Say it and stop staring at me.

“You thought she was pretty, right?”

Rolling your eyes. “What, jealous Lizzie?” he teases.

“Why were you being so awkward? That’s not the Dee I know. Is that why you aren’t going on dates anymore, out of practice?”

“Jesus, Liz, want to get a hammer to bust my balls even more?”

“I’m just saying, she was pretty, you’re you, you barely said five words to her.”

Ugh, she’s right. I screwed it up.

You, Indy, and Rhys settle into a booth at a nearby restaurant, opting for sushi to celebrate the occasion. On the way to the restaurant, Indy had been busy calling her mom and dad, and brother, so you hadn’t had a chance to debrief about her meeting … or your encounter in the lobby.

The server comes to take your drink orders and Rhys selects a few appetizers to share.

“Ok, so tell me everything and start at the beginning.”

“So when we got there, I went into a room and met Sam.”

“Ooo, how was that?” you tease, wagging your eyebrows up and down as Rhys scoffs. If someone were to design Indy’s type from scratch, it would be Samuel Garrett. Even though he was a few years younger than you both, he was everything she looked for. Tall, blonde, with a deep voice, and a Southern accent. By all accounts, he was a nice guy too.

“Cover your ears, Rhys,” Indy laughs, hitting Rhys on the shoulder as he rolls his eyes. “He was gor-geous. Holy shit, Belle, I’d climb that guy like a goddamn tree.” You both giggled.

“So I take it the chemistry was mutual then, right?”

“I think so,” she sighed. She has that look in her eyes you know well. When Indy falls for someone, she falls fast and hard.

“You definitely did,” Rhys chimed in. He was looking at his phone, trying to act like he wasn’t listening but he lived for these types of chats. He had heard many a conversation over the years and at this point, nothing really fazed him anymore.

“Ooo I forgot! I met Dieter in the hallway as I was coming back out. He was so nice! Did you see him?”

“Um…” looking down and playing with the chopstick wrapper, you were trying to decide how to get around this conversation.

“Belle…” giving you that tone a mom gives when she knows her kid is keeping something from her.

“I. Uh. Yea, I saw him.”

“Aaaand?”

At this point, even Rhys was looking up waiting for your response.

“Yea, B, what happened?”

“Jeez, you two. Nothing happened, really.” They both look at each other and then look back at you. “Ugh, ok I made an absolute goddamn fool out of myself,” you said, bringing your hands to cover your face.

“Oh, no!” Indy sat up straighter and reached her hand out to yours.

“He sat on the other side of the couch from me, but I couldn’t bring myself to say anything to him. I was literally in shock.”

“So, how did you make a fool out of yourself?” Indy asked, furrowing your brows.

“I couldn’t fucking think straight,” you were almost reliving the nervousness you felt. “ And when he got up to leave I couldn’t decide if I wanted to say ‘good luck’ or ‘break a leg’ so I ended up combining them both.”

Rhys starts to laugh.

“It’s not funny Rhys,” you scold him. Indy sarcastically punching him in the bicep on your behalf.

“And what did he say?” Indy asked, redirecting you back to the story.

“Honestly I can’t remember, I feel like I blacked out. I think he tried to make a joke or something, I don’t know. I wanted to crawl into a hole…but I do remember he winked at me.”

“Oh em gee!!” Indy shrieks, clapping her hands. “He’s basically in love with you.

You give Indy a deadpan stare. “Stop. That’s not funny. This was so embarrassing and you know I’m going to think about it and replay it like every day forever.”

“Oh stop it. That story sounds endearing as fuck. I’m sure he thought you being flustered was cute.”

“I was a totally starstruck fan. The poor guy probably just wants people to treat him like a normal person and here I was fumbling over my words like I forgot how to speak.”

“Stop spiraling. I’m sure it wasn’t as bad as you think it was.”

“Wait, do you like think he’s hot or something?” Rhys asks. You can tell he’s genuinely asking and not trying to make fun of the situation.

Indy rolls her eyes and dramatically twists her head to look over to Rhys, “Where have you been? She’s been in love with him since we were like, what Belle, in high school?”

You nod, looking down at the wrapper you have folded and unfolded like a hundred times by now.

“Well, shit, sorry!” he laughs. “I just didn’t realize it I guess. You both know I’m friends with his agent, right?”

“What?!” you both practically shouted at him.

“Rhys, what the fuck? You are like the worst wingman ever.”

He was a great professional wingman, always knowing the right things to say to get Indy an audition or find roles that she would be perfect for. Heck, he had even helped you out over the years, finding you jobs from magazine shoots to TV shows to help style. When it came to personal matters, he wasn’t as astute. The poor guy was a bit dense in that arena, so it’s really not surprising that he hadn’t made the connection.

“Can we change the subject please?” you plead.

Your server showed up at the perfect time, spreading out your appetizers between the three of you.

“Ok, let’s talk about logistics,” Rhys said as he scooped a few edamame up from the bowl.

“Yes, please. Where do we need to be and when?” you ask.

“So, we have about six or seven weeks give or take before you both need to be in Hawaii. That way you can travel, get settled, and adjust to the time zone, heck maybe even explore a little bit. I think one of the producers is going to want to get the whole cast and crew together for a kickoff party or something. He’s really into making the set feel like a family atmosphere. Could be a good opportunity for you to meet with the rest of the hair and makeup department in person before shooting officially starts,” he says motioning to you with the carcass of his eaten edamame.

“I’ll have to put you in touch with the head of hair and makeup for the shoot,” he continued. “Her name is Meredith … shit what was her last name….” he said as he reached for his phone to check his notes.

“Meredith Barton?!” you corrected him.

“Yea, that’s her!”

“Holy shit, she’s like a legend!” You couldn’t believe that you were not only going to be on a set with your best friend but working for a multi-award-winning hairstylist.

“I hope you don’t mind, but I already shared your portfolio with her. She was really impressed with you B.”

“Of course she was!” Indy beamed.

“I’ll get you and her connected. She mentioned that in these next few weeks, she wants to get you and some of the other stylists together to talk about a plan for the overlook of the shoot and the individual characters,” he stops to take a gulp of his drink. “Which reminds me, Ind you’ll be needed for some pre-production meetings, I’m still waiting on the schedule. And we’ll do some test shoots just to make sure the looks the stylists come up with are going to translate on camera.”

“Ah, this is all so exciting!”

“Thanks so much for setting all of this up Rhys,” you added.

“I’m excited for you both,” he smiled.

“Wait, where are we going to stay?” Indy asked.

“So, it sounds like the producer is setting up the whole cast and crew up at a nearby resort. He’s a part owner of it I guess so he’s buying out like half of it for the production. I think they’ll even shoot some exteriors at the property, it’s beautiful,” he said as he pulled up some photos on his phone to show you.

You and Indy lock eyes immediately, both coming to the same conclusion almost telepathically.

“Let me get this straight,” Indy starts. “We are going to be living at a beautiful resort in a paradise, for months, with the whole cast and crew…”

“The entire cast and crew?” you gulped.

“Uh, yea. I think so. Why are you two being weird?”

“Jesus, Rhys. Do we need to spell it out for you?”

“Umm…” he gives you both a confused look.

“There is going to be a love connection, I can just feel it!”

“I’ll be back, I have to go to the restroom,” you butted in. You needed to go collect your thoughts.

Once you were gone, Indy leaned over to Rhys, “So, how well do you know Dieter’s agent?”

Later as he’s driving back to his apartment, Rhys hears his phone ring. Seeing who it is, he smiles and answers.

“Oh hey, Liz! How’s it going?”

“I think congratulations are in order kid!”

“Hey, thanks! Yea, I’m really happy for Indy, she’s been working toward something like this for years. I really think this will be a breakout role for her, I can feel it. We even got her best friend to work on set for hair and makeup too. Great to hear that Dieter is signed on too.”

“Yea, he seems excited about this one. I honestly can’t tell if it’s the script or the prospect of being in Hawaii for a few months.”

“How’s he doing these days?”

“Oh he’s amazing, I’m so proud of him.”

“That’s awesome,” Rhys replied. He knew how much Dieter’s previous ways had taken a toll on Liz. She cared for him like a son and it tore her up to see him hurt himself and descend into a dark place. She always kept the faith that he would turn it around.

“Wait, did you say one of Indy’s friends is going to be doing hair and makeup?” Liz asked.

“Yea! She’s in town right now, Indy kind of thinks she’s her good luck charm,” he chuckled.

“Was she there today at the offices?”

“Yea, she rode over there with us and waited in the lobby. Why?”

“We kind of ran into her.”

“Wait. Oh shit, yea I heard that she met Dieter.”

“She did. Wait? How do you- never mind. Yea, the guy got all flustered,” she laughed. “She’s a pretty girl.”

“Ha, yea she is. From what I heard, she got flustered too.”

“Shit, I’ve got another call coming in. But I just wanted to tell you how proud of you I am and of Indy too. You’ve done great work for her and I know she’s going to be amazing in the role.”

“Gee, thanks, Liz. I learned from the best.”

“We’ll chat soon, gotta go!”

Six weeks later

You’ve spent the last six weeks getting everything in order to be gone for four months. You ended up running into your landlord when you got back from LA and he asked about Ryan, saying that he hadn’t seen him much. You recounted what happened and that he had moved out. Your landlord was never a big fan of Ryan, always preferring to deal with you on things related to the apartment. Once he heard about what happened, he let you break the lease without penalty.

“Get yourself a fresh start kiddo,” he said.

So you started selling pieces of furniture and other small things here and there online as you started to pack. You were truly starting to feel like you were closing one chapter and about to embark on another.

You had frequent Zoom and FaceTime calls with Meredith and the rest of the hair and makeup department, along with the wardrobe department. It was so exciting to be on this side of things; preparing for what the talent would look like on screen. You could already tell Meredith was going to be a great boss. She valued your opinion and listened, but also commanded the attention of everyone; she was a true force.

On a recent call, she told everyone that she decided that instead of assigning one person to a member of the cast, you all would be trained to float.

“I want you all to be able to work on anyone who sits in the chair. That way we can be nimble if production switches things around on us, which inevitably they’re going to do. I believe in all of you as artists and this is going to be a great opportunity to challenge yourselves each and every day.”

“Doesn’t Dieter have his own hair person?” Indy asked during your latest FaceTime call. You were set to board a plane the next day bound for Hawaii and decided to treat yourself to a night in a hotel room ordering room service with a Real Housewives marathon going on in the background.

“He does. Apparently, she had a baby recently so she’s on maternity leave. From what Meredith said, Dieter is still paying his hair stylist, as if she was still working. That way she and her partner don’t have to worry..,.” you recounted.

“Well isn’t that nice,” Indy grinned.

“Yea.” You desperately wanted to switch the subject away from Dieter. You had been thinking about him nonstop since your interaction. In reality, it probably lasted all of two minutes, but you replayed those two minutes over and over again. You were going to see him again and did not want to have another awkward moment.

Sensing that you wanted to move on to something else, Indy asked about Ryan, although frankly you would have rather awkwardly try and talk about Dieter than rehash the Ryan situation.

“Ugh, well, we kind of had a bit of a blow-up the other day. Our landlord sent him back his half of the security deposit, so he showed up.”

“What the fuck? He showed up?”

“Yea, he was asking when I was planning on telling him I was moving out.”

“And…”

“And I told him that he made that decision for me. I reminded him that he was the one who left.”

“Hell yea you did!” she snapped her fingers.

“I have been talking with Carla again, so it’s been helpful. Honestly, without her, I’m not sure how the hell I would have dealt with him showing up.

Carla has been your therapist for the better part of 10 years; you first met her when you lived in New York. Luckily because of technology, you had been able to stay connected despite the distance. In recent years you had not been the best about keeping in touch. Deep down, you knew it was because of the situation with Ryan. You weren’t prepared to talk about him to her. But when you were in the airport coming back from LA you shot her a text and you both chatted the next day. It was nice to have her back, she always managed to make you see things more clearly.

“Well, I’m proud of you. I know seeing him in person wasn’t easy.”

“Yea, it sucked. But honestly, it was a bit cathartic.. It also helped that I threw the rest of his shit out the window,” you smirked.

“You did not?!”

“I did. I may have left that part out when I told Carla the story,” you laughed.

“Bahaha. Well, it’s our secret them,” Indy says motioning like she’s zipped up her lips.

“This trip could not come soon enough. I’m so excited to see you!”

“Me too! I’m like nervous, excited, and scared all at the same time.”

“How have the pre-production meetings been going?”

“Oh, they’ve been great. It is starting to feel so real, that I’m actually going to be a lead for a show. It’s crazy.”

“How has Sam been,” you had tried to pry details of their interactions, but she had been unusually tight-lipped.

“G-good. Yea, he’s so freaking nice. And he smells so good too,” she giggles.

“Well, I can’t wait to meet him.”

“Yea, you’re going to like him I think.”

“Oh shit, Rhys is calling. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow!”

“Sounds good, I’ll text you when I get to the airport.”

After you hang up, you settle in your bed, sinking into the plush mattress. When you board the plane tomorrow, you are embarking on a new chapter. You didn’t know what the future would hold for you; you had no apartment to come back to in Orlando. You had not made any plans for after the shoot, you were just going to take things as they came.

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cankersaurus · 5 months

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I wish Dee was a little more developed as a character, like i feel like she often falls back on being Dennis's twin, like theres lots of times where she kind of just feels like she's copying Dennis , I feel like its most obvious in her golden goddess rant in the gang gets new wheels.

Theres definitely unique things abt her, yknow her acting aspirations, her scammy nature and the way the gang just kinda shuts her down and all collectively use her as a punching bag nd hate her probly more than everyone else

But I'd actually argue that the rest of the gang constantly shutting her down could be seen as a cop out on rcgs part so she's not talking long enough for ppl to realize that they dont rlly know how to write her-

Though i feel like its likely a subconscious thing like i highly doubt rob charlie and glenn are sitting around their writing table hands evily together saying "lets make sure dee isnt talking almost at all"

But i do often think about this one interview around season 2 or 3 where Glenn talked about how he nd the guys originally wrote Dee to be the voice of reason but Kaitlin was upset with this and glenn said something like 'yea well we dont know how to write a female character' and like- that kinda is going with my point yknow? Nd for "sweet dee" 's audition she literally was just reading one of Dennis's lines and i think that also goes along with my points

#not dee slander this is kinda just slight rcg slander #i think i might sound silly with this one #you guys get what im saying right?#im gonna sleep now #sweet dee #iasip #dee reynolds

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cruiseshipmoment · 7 months

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Charlie Kelly and Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder: Part Two

See here for part one, which contains an introduction and the first part of the criteria for Neurodevelopmental Disorder Associated with Prenatal Alcohol Exposure as applied to Charlie Kelly.

Criterion C1. Impaired self-regulation as manifested by impairment in mood or behavioral regulation.

Charlie is often irritable. He shouts a lot, even compared to the rest of the Gang. Chronic irritability is not a pleasant state, so it's safe to say that Charlie struggles to shift away from that emotion.

Charlie also has behavioral outbursts that vary in intensity and are out of his control. He needs Dennis' help to calm down in "The Gang Gets Extreme: Home Makeover Edition." He hits his head on the wall and screams in "The Gang Gets Analyzed," which is classic uncontrollable meltdown behavior. There's also the scene in "Frank Shoots Every Member of the Gang" where he screams and bashes the landline into the wall. The existence of Charlie's "bad room" suggests that these outbursts are a frequent occurrence. The most dramatic example is the biting when he gets really wound up, which Mac says has been going on since they were in kindergarten.

The mood and behavioral regulation issues are likely compounded by Charlie also having PTSD and substance use issues, both of which can also make people irritable and prone to outbursts.

Criterion C3. Impaired self-regulation as manifested by impairment in impulse control.

Charlie does a lot of things on impulse. There's the kidnapping a bar critic in "Paddy's Pub" The Worst Bar in Philadelphia. Like Dennis, he got engaged on a whim to someone he didn't really know. Mac tells him to stop pulling his teeth out when they're on the run, but Charlie keeps doing it. The entire restaurant scene in "Charlie and Dee Find Love." He sometimes says things before his brain can catch up, like going, "Beak!.. no!" in "The Gang Misses the Boat." There's the time in "2020: A Year in Review" where Charlie fired a rocket launcher in the bar and only afterwards realized he shouldn't have done that.

Like his emotion regulation difficulties, the impulse control issues are likely compounded by his substance use.

Criterion D1. Impairment in adaptive functioning as manifested by communication deficit.

Charlie struggles with both expressive (saying things to people) and receptive (understanding what people are saying to him) language.

There are multiple incidents where other characters comment that Charlie is listening, but he's not really absorbing the meaning of any of the words. Sometimes he can't follow the conversation at all, like in "The Gang Recycles their Trash." When he doesn't understand, he'll often try to cover by repeating the words back in a different order (see: "The Gang Gets Analyzed"); this is very common in people who have some kind of difficulty with language. He has trouble following verbal directions, such as Mac's plan in "The Gang Gets Held Hostage." He also sometimes has trouble determining what definition of a word is being used, like the groom confusion in "The Gang Goes on Family Fight."

Charlie will often use words that are close to the one he wants, but aren't quite correct. Sometimes he goes off the sound of the word, resulting in things like the philanthropist/full-on rapist debacle. "The words get blocked up in my mouth and I don't say it no good" from "The Waitress is Getting Married" and his frustration at trying to explain his side of the argument in "Sweet Dee Gets Audited" are both big clues that Charlie has trouble saying what he means to say.

Criterion D2: Impairment in social communication and interaction.

Charlie has some difficulty conversing with people who don't know him, as seen during the blind date incident. This is also noticeable during "The Gang Group Dates," with his struggle to find socially acceptable topics. When Frank is your coach for socially appropriate behavior, that's a pretty big sign of social interaction difficulties.

Charlie's most significant social communication issue is his difficulty understanding social consequences. His entire dynamic with the Waitress before season 13 hinges on him not understanding that she does not and will never reciprocate his feelings the way he wants her to, nor is his behavior towards her going to make her feel anything other than scared or angry.

Criterion D3: Impairment in daily living skills.

Charlie struggles with hygiene. His oral hygiene is nonexistent, which is why his teeth are falling out. Mac says he's never seen Charlie wear deodorant in the entire time they've known each other. He showers in the bar urinals.

Supplemental Notes

There are indirect signs of FASD that Charlie exhibits that are not in the DSM criteria, but they're definitely worth noting.

Charlie meets the criteria for pica, a disorder where people eat things that are definitely not food. Pica is more common in people with FASD.

Mrs. Kelly says Charlie was born three months after the failed abortion. There are a few explanations for this. Either the doctor performed an extremely shoddy dilation and extraction, or Charlie was born at least a few months premature. Babies with FASD are more often premature than babies without FASD.

People with FASD are at high risk for struggling with substance use later in life, like Charlie does. On a related note, up to 60% of adults with FASD have been involved in the legal system, which is true of Charlie.

#it's always sunny in philadelphia #iasip #charlie kelly

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denniisa · 6 months

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okay so i'm going to go off about this scene from season 7 episode 4 ( sweet dee gets audited ). first of all i am going to start off by saying this is a half silly, half serious conversation. yes, they are talking about getting laid but i think you can learn a lot about dennis from this scene. i will be writing out what is said in the video but i highly encourage watching it if you have the time ( it's just a couple minutes long ) because there's something about dennis' tone and frank's tone in it that is very very important.

okay first of all let's just take a look at the beginning of the conversation between dennis and frank here.

dennis: it’s important to me frank !! and i know what’s important to you is money and power but i don’t want real power because with real power comes real responsibility and i don’t want any of that shit !! i just want the money and the illusion of power … and puss. frank: what !?

first things first, this is the closest we get to dennis admitting that he likes the illusion of power, not actual power. he often manipulates people to get control over a situation, get the power, keep the power, ect. he wants all of this power and control without the real responsibility behind it. i think that dennis doesn't want the real responsibility because it actually means showing up, caring for people. he had an incredibly difficult time expressing and processing his emotions and that's not even a headcanon. he has admitted that in canon.

something that is really interesting to me is that frank is genuinely confused by his answer, and he really wants to know what dennis is thinking. frank and dennis have an incredibly complicated relationship. this is the man he thought was his father for 30+ years, the man that raised him ( quite terribly mind you ). this is a man that has traumatized him over and over again and frank is actually wanting to hear him out. dennis pushes back, doesn't want to talk about his emotions, but frank pushes him. and then we get this.

dennis: hell i don’t know frank, i don’t know man. frank: what ?? tell me, tell me. dennis: i need something. i mean i got this uh ... this giant gaping hole inside me. and i’m always trying to fill it with something. i like to call it uh … my uh god hole. and i think a lot of people in this world they … they fill it with religion but i don’t believe in god. frank: but you wanna fill it with pussy ?? dennis: yeah.

i'm gonna get into the meat of this in a second but i want to talk for a moment about how sincere frank is here. he is actually trying to understand dennis more, he's actually wanting to listen and learn and help. instead of just pushing dennis away, saying he doesn't get it, he pushes. he even puts his arm on dennis when he ways "tell me". i think this really shows that in some warped way, frank cares so much for dennis and loves him. i think frank is honestly trying to make amends for all the times that he was absent in dennis' childhood. he didn't give dennis an opportunity to talk about his feelings in the past, but he's giving him the opportunity to talk about it now. because yeah, dennis is talking about wanting to get pussy, but it's clear that he is distressed. so instead of just joking around and talking about getting laid, frank wants to listen.

now we are gonna jump back a little bit to season one because i think it's important. in season 1 episode 2 dennis is having a conversation with his sister, dee.

dee: are you actually going to throw away all your convictions for a chance to get laid ?? dennis: i don't really have any convictions.

dennis is known for being this master of women. he's charming, attractive, and can get pretty much any woman to sleep with him if he wants to. it doesn't matter what it takes, he will do it. i believe that part of this is a mask that he puts on, a role he thinks he needs to play because that's what men do. they get laid and brag about it and talk about their body count and how impressive it is. i do not think this is what dennis wants.

back to my original point.

dennis is chasing after some feeling of being whole by sleeping with people over and over again and it just never comes. he feels empty, hollow. he is trying to fill this "god hole" with anything, anything that gives him validation and temporary relief. so he fills it with sex, alcohol, crack, whatever will give him his fix. he lives with mac, someone that is so full of faith and chases after gods validation. dennis cannot find that validation in religion. i just think it's so interesting and how difficult it must be for dennis at times to listen to mac go on and on about how great god is when to dennis he feels like god failed him. like there is no god to begin with because if there was why would he feel so empty and why would so many terrible things have happened to him ??

dennis reynolds is an empty person. he is broken and hollow and he doesn't know how to fix it, he doesn't know what to do. he has no idea how to get help. he continues to surround himself with people that perpetuate this cycle of self destruction. the whole gang is broken, they all are seeking comfort in vices to get them through the day. i think, for some of them, they do not realize that this is what they are doing. i think dennis is fully aware of this self destructive cycle he is trapped in. he recognizes it, but he doesn't know how to get out, or what to fill his emptiness in that is healthy and safe.

#long post //#SORRY THIS GOT LONG #suggestive text //#drug mention //#alcohol //#addiction //#introspection.#religion //#ask to tag.

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