#tbh tho this is just being weird at myself >.<

[todayisafridaynight]

i dont get how daigo could be bitchy and moody while wearing a puffer like . my brother in christ do you even know how silly you look rn trying to be emo in a puffer

#snap chats #looked at myself for too long and was about to have my Daily Required Evil Monologue but i just look too goofy with this thing on LMAO #its cold as hell. all the time. if i draw daigo in his puffer at some point this will be why #but yeah bro i cant sulk when i look like the michelin man like cmon #thats how i know daigo aint been around a mirror in Ever...... #ough i wanna play gaiden now wait. coliseum calls to me...... #i should eat tho UGH i dont know what to eat tho. #my heart always tells me to go with the pork floss onigiri but i already had one today #technically i eat two a day so i colud make another one but it'd feel weird only eating One.. #but then i'd have had three rice balls and i dont like the number three... do we see my overly-convoluted dilemma... #ill prob cave and make two anyway. if im so tbh. #Come What May tomorrow my kirby onigiri case is coming in :) oh yeah i bought one of those. after being influenced. by bestie </3 #OK BYE what the fuck am i gonna do oho my god i wanted to draw but now coliseum but now food bu

[justablah56]

damn I miss playing wolves in my friend's back yard .... rb to play wolves with your mutuals in their back yard<3

#just blahs #i dont really think this needs any other tags sbhsjsjs #but i am going to kinda vent in the tags still feel free to rb this tho :] #i miss my friend tbh #she was my best and only real friend for like 3 years and then she moved away and now we only talk 2-3 times a year #and i dont.... know how to change that #i just want my best friend back #but i dont want to seem clingly because what if shes moved on ? #what if shes gone and shes doing just fine where she is now and she doesn't miss me like i miss her #what if shes perfectly content with me just being someone that she talks to a few times a year #meanwhile i have nights that i literally cry myself to sleep because i cant just go see her #she doesnt know that i want so badly to turn 18 just so that i can move to the same state and maybe live near enough that i could see her #and i dont think i can tell her that because what if she doesn't care that much. #what if im being ridiculous and i should be over our friendship that should have ended the moment she moved years ago #that i should have just moved on and it's weird that i haven't #anyways sorry for the vent in the tags of my silly goofy post #mutuals come play wolves with me in my backyard <3

[sawtrapx]

love getting a new hyperfixation but then u have the problem of do I make a new side blog just for this or contaminate one of my current blogs.chewing biting killing where do I put my silly man images

#I’m talking to myself in the tags ignore me #my likes r full of man from fall out boy it’s getting embarassing and I need to inflict them on my digital footprint #idk where tho I don’t want to infect the saw blog :(( beloved sawtuals forgive mee #last year I just made this saw blog which was great bc saw community is so fun and chill and nice #but tbh just from scrolling thru a couple fob blogs it feels like the tumblr fanbase is. not very fun #I’m just seeing a lot of hostility and elitism over minor obscure shit and being weird to other bands/fanbases #like I do not have the energy I don’t want to join ur little club if ur like that 😭😭😭 #donno. anywey. sorry sawtuals if I end up inflicting my silliness upon yous

[magentagalaxies]

in an unexpected turn of events i'm having to edit down the content in my aubrey monologues so that i can actually fit all four of them in my final performance for my standup class and on the one hand it sucks bc i really love some of the jokes i have to cut but on the other hand someday i'll be able to write more monologues and possibly expand upon this cut material so i can get a whole monologue on a topic that would've just been an aside

#the actual standups in my class who have only ever done a tight five having to stretch their new material to fit the 20 minute final #vs me‚ an extremely extra fag who's used to writing full-length scripts‚ realizing the 3 monologues i've timed already add up to 20 min #and i'm working on a fourth one that works better as an opener than any of the existing pieces so it has to get in #(it'll be short tho i'm making sure of it. it's just like ''here's some material about aubrey's relationship to zir mom!'') #(then immediate segue into the uncle reg bit) #got the catcalling monologue down to 5 minutes and 30 seconds when the first draft was nine minutes #(tbh i'm fine with most of those cuts i think they were mostly filler) #(there's a bit about androgyny that i liked that i cut but tbh it doesn't work as just one paragraph it needs more nuance) #the uncle reg monologue is having the ''dumped at the pride parade'' thing trimmed down which is funny bc that was the original premise #tbh i could probably stretch my toronto pride material ft. uncle reg to a full 20 minutes bc the first stream of consciousness was so long #i wrote it right after i myself got back from toronto pride and tbh i actually wrote it as the outline for a sitcom episode #so the monologue version is very reduced down bc there were so many details that didn't fit in #and i'm realizing the material about the person who dumped aubrey should be its own monologue that i'll do another time #and maybe even add in the rest of the sitcom-style story at some point bc tbh that's some of my favorite aubrey material i've come up with #and the cishetman monologue is getting the intro part about facetime trimmed a bit bc it meanders #and the ''sugar and spice and everything nice'' joke is being cut even tho i like it bc i actually have a ton more material in my notebook #that's just me riffing on how weird those expressions are. and the material isn't polished but i could make it something later #the song isn't being trimmed bc it has a very specific run time and imo is the strongest. so that's my closer #anyway thank you to everyone reading my aubrey updates i'll be sure to post the final 20-minute-special on youtube #and i hope i get to do more monologues soon so i can put the other ideas mentioned here (as well as some i haven't) out into the world

[the-kipsabian]

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#feeling really weird in my body tonight so im going back to bed #idk just.. have had gender and identity issues today. its just. a lot #like being ngc and not out of the closet cause i dont wanna talk about it is so exhausting and im just. yeah #not to mention the whole aroace thing #just been thinking a lot today. idk. i know im not faking any of it but bringing it out to ppl is just. so much sometimes #i have two irl friends who know. one thats thankfully very careful about it around other friends cause he knows im not out yet #but its still exhausting. especially when the conversation goes on those rails while undermining specifically my identities #without these ppl knowing about it. and i dont wanna talk about it cause technically its irrelevant but like.. #idk. im just afraid of being left alone. being called awkward and weird and faking it and that its just a phase and... yeah idk #idk where this is going im just complaining now. i would just like to exist as myself without having to explain shit #cause these are terms and things i would have to explain. oh whats an agender? then why do you still look feminine and not enby(???) #how do you know youre ace if youve never dated? or aro?? as if these things dont work the other way around #im just already tired of it but i feel like eventually i should break it out. these ppl are my friends. we have a trans person in this grou #and ppl understand him and his perspective. i guess part of that is the thing im afraid about tbh. that they think im following a trend #or an example. that i havent been dealing with this for at least like five or six years before they came out as enby and later trans to us #but.. idk. its just hard. these identities are so hit and miss with ppl and them understanding and being hurtful later on #aaaand now im crying. this is so stupid im going to bed good night #night is an absolute mess on main #(tho be clear tho ive known im ace for over half of my lifetime now. the five to six years was about being agender/enby. fyi)

[star-wars-multiverse]

S3 ep7 spoiler ahead!

Well.

1. Loved the “Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes (x infinity)…”

2. Sadly used the fast forward button a lot in the middle. That “…, lady kryze” sentence was low-key weird and didn’t really sound like smthg Din would say? Maybe they could’ve phrased it better??? And idk, I still don’t feel completely convinced about a redeemed Bo katan. Just bc Din sided with her in this ep, doesn’t really make it okay? I wished they had done a better job to make it seem like she truly redeemed herself? It just felt very surface and begrudging.

3. I mean. Did they have to linger the view on Paz at the end for this much longer than necessary? No, the answer is no. Like, I get it. You broke my heart. Don’t hurt me like this, Disney. And did they really have to do this? I really liked the developing support between Din and Paz, it felt like Din was finding his place in his covert and finally has someone to fall back on too. They better make his death meaningful and worth it in the next ep, else I’d probably never forgive Disney for taking a brother from Din.

4. I mean, the episode was okaaaaaaaay I guess? Idk man, I fast forwarded it so much that the plot didn’t really hit me. I just, cannot trust the story right now until they give me the season finale. Idk bout u guys but ep 6 really broke my trust towards their story writing. Not saying this was bad, but it’s not enough yet. There is hope still!

#kinda funny seeing the parallel of grogu being kidnapped in season 2 and now Din is being man-napped ngl #I just can’t find myself agreeing with this weird new thing between din and Bo #this was still better than episode 6 tho tbh #the mandalorian #the mandalorian season 3 #the mandalorian season 3 episode 7 spoilers #din djarin #grogu #bo katan #paz vizsla #IG-12

[bingobongobonko]

thinkinn im havin one of THOSE days but it makes me distressed when i feel disconnected from the world in general. why wouldnt it yk, i just dont really feel there. haven't done much today, nor moved admittedly. guess ive just been overwhelmed and im feelin it now. i dont feel like a person and its a little scary

#fool's monologue #ill be good tho tbh #just havent dissociated so promptly in a while. real weird waking up and sitting there and feeling like im on autopilot and not consciously #choosing to do things #i sat in my bathroom for 3 hours with my dogs #and didnt realize it til after #srry for being mentally ill i am perpetually in a losing battle with myself but i am trying to be positive about it but #sometimes its real hard to wanna do any of this. even just being spoken to makes me on edge #feel like a wounded animal who dont wanna be touched or something idk man #i dont know what to do

[nomaishuttle]

its hard being a girl who just likes things that smell nice and shiny things bc its like omg i loveee good smell i heart candles and incense and then i look up incense and see whatever this is

and then im like uhmm.... ok anyways..... Well what if i got shiny rocks i will look at pictures of shiny rocks now and theyre all tagged some shit like vaginal purification women energy witchy vibes aura blah balh blah and its like ok lets all kill ourselves

#its also hard being a girl who does just in general like a lot of like.. witchy imagery #i love moonphases i love cluttered places i love celestial imagery in general as mentioned i love crystals and stuff. and yes i like #mushrooms and i think cauldrons look awesome and tbh i love witch hats but i literally cant bc tiktok and tumblr witches are the most #annoying people on this entire planet god i hate yiu ppl. Not to mention how racist most of them are and judt generally shitty and weird #basically yes i hate 99% of wiccans and pagans And im allowed to say that bc my moms wiccan and i hate her too. mildly joking on that last #part. love my mom but also ambiguous disorder and also the wiccan shit is so annoying . and my dads one of Those atheists #and yas im like Atheist but lord . i dont like t call myself that bc of how shitty ppl who ccall themselves atheists are... #agnostic is ig a better word bc i am like. yk ... i am open to learning about religions theyre very interesting 2 me im open to hearing abt #ppls beliefs yk. it just.. idk i genuinely cannot. believe in it. i just donot have faith FJDJFGNHJ i think of it the same way i think abt #like. sports. like i just wasnt raised with that as a big part of my life and i dont fully understand why its a big part of ppls lives but #i respect it yk. and im glad that it works for them and that they enjoy/take comfort in their interests/beliefs.... #idk if thatakes any sense DJFFJF. i was an annoying atheist when i was a kid so now i try 2 be like. Normal LOL.even tho religion just #doesnt click in my mind

[m0rsart]

I am a stressed because of guy being weird and incelly.

#he text me after I didn’t respond to him being like ohhhh you don’t understand how hard it is and sent a stupid joke to me hour later and I #was like sit with ya self for a while and he responded he was soooo lonely and hated being single and wanted someone to hold again mind you #before this he’d be like I’m lonely and I hate sleeping by myself and going home is horrible like duuuuuude I have know you for six days #over the course of like three month you’ve had my number for three days and every conversation is revolved around you and your interest like #stoppp #I’ve talked to like three four people and I’m gonna see if it’s worth being up to my boss but my mom being like that a normal conversation #is throwing me off my moms weird tho #she got off tatse in men like very odd tasted I gotta not listen to her on what’s normal #everyone else is like nahh and my gut is like he might kill himself or me since he obsessed with gun 😒 #I’m half way concerned about being murdered it’s just a nervous thought #I’m not talking to men folk for a while y’all are weak links #mind you he not even ugly I have no clue what going on with his brain he doesn’t read social cues for real or if he doesn’t he’s just #rude tbh #this is what I get for trying to make friend fuck people 😂

[todayisafridaynight]

Every guy in Yakuza seems like they have enough social awkwardness for Tien to role his eyes at…

there's no feasible chance on earth any man can be more awkward than mountain man tien I'm Going To Hide From My Friends Every Other Year And Then For A Decade After Telling Them I'd Never See Them Again For No Apparent Reason And Only Coming Back Cause the World Was Literally Ending shinhan

#snap chats #i already hear someone go 'what about kiryu' girl he didnt last five years before getting involved again #jo's prob a contender tho. tbh. #anyway i just got back from the fnaf movie #first off please remind me to stop going out to places with kayla i might as well be going by myself #does not help that she walks slow as shit like bro dont make me walk this turtle-ass pace #good things came of the trip tho :) first of all im broke 🧍‍♂️ since when did movies get so expensive I DIDNT EVEN GET FOOD #i did get a kirby gacha tho :) inflation's starting to hit the gacha machines now too tho what the fuck 😭 #last time it was less expensive than the time before and now this is the most exp its been...... #wow its not just luck on what you pull its luck on how much money youre dropping BYE #whatever i dont need groceries anyways. really i dont i swear i did all my budgeting this month already #on the bright side i picked up 25 cents collectively today :) might as well call me a millionaire already #ANYWAY someone give me an excuse to post the new kirby he's cute and his feet are a weird color #o my god i didnt even talk about the movie wait. fuck. #watching jp movies and media has been terrible for my us viewing experience cause it just makes it so abundant how. #AUDIBLE us movies are. and the camera cuts jesus fucking christ i could turn it into a drinking game #what's my verdict tho ????? tbh i thought it was cute. im still in awe of the suits tho if anything i give the movie full props for that #heh. props. get it. fr tho i love practical effects and yk what ill take it. cupcake was goofy as hell ngl but ill take it #highkey forgot coreykenshin was in the movie so it was cute being reminded he was there :) love him.. #honestly it really was a movie for fans of fnaf already and i aint gonna act like i wasnt a fan of the series in its early years #def not a movie to watch on its own- not that the plot's incomprehensible otherwise but it prob just wont hit #like matpat and corey being there was neat and the credits song took me WAAAY back to when that song first dropped on youtube LOL #sorry ive turned these tags into a fnaf movie review. kayla didnt talk about it with me so i wanted to get my thoughts out somewhere LOL #im running out of tags Anyway i solemnly swear to only talk bout movies that ft mates that star in rgg henceforth <3 #im lying of course. i dont know how to shut up <3 but ill shut up rn im making dinner. movie made me hungry for bacon....

[mxwhore]

I'm this fucjing close to doing an asoiaf/tma crossover where jon is a spooky king and martin his sworn sword or some shit

#sorry for being cringe on main. im still owed a satisfying conclusion to the fucking mess that was got #grrm get to fucking work u old bastard #wolfman jon. azor ahai dany when #ok i watched. 4 eppysodes of house of the dragon #good cinematography. very good acting very well scored #but the writing uuuughhh #its missing a good portion of the nuance of got (when it was good) #and some of the story beats are so fucking corny i found myself mouthing 'what??' many times along the way #and also where is the dread? the consecuences are lacking weight for me #and also i cant relate to rhaenyra at all. must be the marvel ass writing #she is lacking the oh wait she actually sucks lmao energy from fire and blood #i keep seeing people saying 'oh i support the blacks! no i support the greens!' which im like YOU IDIOTS #you shouldnt be rooting for anyone!! thats the point of the books!! their war is dumb as shit!! #there is no room for magic in the world men have built #that being said i like what they did to alicents character. better than just the classic MY CHILDRENS BIRTHRIGHT!! stereotype #also weird flex giving viserys leprosy tbh wouldve rather had a fat king with gout or something #sorry idk when this turned into a hotd criticism but i guess i had opinions stuck in my throat #the dragons are cool tho i love dragons #tessas txt

[theloveinc]

Weighted blanket helps with depression anxiety and insomnia

Also you can train your brain and rewire these neuron paths to be more optimistic.. One way to do so is to count 5 blessings every day no matter how small... Like I'm happy I have a roof above my head.. Etc. Do that everyday and you'll feel happier

that one line in hairspray in the song Miss Baltimore Crabs when tracy is like, "um. thank you?"

LMAOOO i have a weighted blanket and i don't really like it, unfortunately!!! i think because it doesn't match the size of my other blankies and constantly falls off me at night... but i don't really mind since i usually have a comfortable amount of weight on me, anyway<3

and i also actually have a gratitude routine, too! i'll def bump it up to five, but i already do at least three blessings per day whenever i'm writing my daily schedule. it's really disappointing bc i don't think it's made me any "happier" (which, hmmm), per se, but it has helped like. put a lot of situations into perspective, i think? like i'm less hung up abt the little things bc it's easier to just be like "well. this will be over soon" or whatever.

but it's not made me like. any more content or confident, which i think is my real issue, at the moment. i used to write down a daily affirmation, too, and do it in special colors and all that... but that planner had water spilled on it and the replacement i got didn't have any space for them (although did include it's own) so i stopped (hence why i switched to the gratitude journal/list)... but just today i was searching for a little journal so i could start them up again. maybe even do some bulleting, too.

but that's just to say i've tried everything here! tho i appreciate the suggestions!

#under a read more bc its just my business oN BLAST #super boring really #tbh tho i just need some f*cking therapy #and my insurance is being super weird abt it #for strike reasons LOL and pandemic reasons and also because i'm not about to [redacted but it starts with kill and ends with myself] #tho tbh once i did ask to be hospitalized and my dr said *glitter* #no. #but it's a work in progress and it's gonna happen eventually #my medicine has helped a lot tho! like i'm totally functional just #miserable inside my head #this is such a strange message tho like #LOOOOOOOOL i wanna be mad but i just cant #my doctor just emailed me today... are you her?? #ig its obvious im not doing too well but the fact i literally do everything here sdfjalsjkdfaksd #who are you #why did you think i needed this #even tho the thought was ... nice. i think. #also i do love a good opportunity to talk abt myself #WOO HOO #im such a good person i do my cbt (yes coque and ball torture) SO WELL #and yet. AND YET. #anyway #caitie blabs #mental health tw

[jrueships]

thots on jimmy and tyler herro??? jimmy is obsessed with that weird white boy

tyler herro is so fucking fuck fugly and i cannot CANNOT get behind him (both literally and figuratively) or i will DISintergrate and everything he does against ME and MY teams should be registered OFFENSES !!!!!!!

but i let him live because he is keldon's boyfriend. Who is also .. Jimmy's boyfriend 😭 but jimmy is NOT keldon's boyfriend!!!!!!!! let's make that VERY clear ‼️

in all seriousness tho... i think he is ugly NOno im kidding i mean . im not 😐 but i am 🧍🏿. BUT FRFR i think the jimmy tyler dynamic is VERY interesting in the way that all it took to take down commitment fearing sexy mink butler was one white boy goated with the sauce (and not even rlly ... jimmy just deludes himself that Tyler is an ethereal being. He lukafies him. And for what reason???? Tyler does the bare minimum and suddenly he's got Jimmy humping his arm shouting glory to the gods above like LEAVE THIS MAN ALONE???? you could literally find another one who looks and acts exactly the same buying a hot pickel at a gas station. Why is Tyler the chosen one..) it's very interesting to see the pickiest man in the world desire a salt lick for dinner. When bam is RIGHT there ?!??? it's INSANE !!! .... it's Jimmy. i'm afraid..

#OF COURSE im sure tyler has more personality but because im an uncarer i do not decide to delve into it LOL #BUT that DOESNT mean i hate the ship in fact i LIKE it ! and its dynamics! it's VERY interesting #im willing to hear more abt it ! i just wouldnt create content for it myself AND THATS OK! some people 4get u can just enjoy things #without actively taking a part in it #and when i call tyler ugly i dont rlly mean it hes rlly not that bad 😭 when i call millionaires ugly it's bcs theyre millionaires #and they dont fall over dying all bcs tumblrman ted thinks they get no pusspuss. they get pusspuss!! #thoughts back to tyler tho i think hes honestly more toleratable oh i did Not spell that right but anyways #than jimmy TBH i think jimmy puts him not exactly on a pedestal but definitely a microscope for every observation possible #i think.. hm. if u get into deeper thought it's a Little idk irky behaviour but idk ive just never been a fan of giving 'white boys swag' #4 like the most mundane shit like can people just people??? bcs it can create those that seek out shit thru stretched acting BUT AGAIN #BUT THATS A WHOLE OTHER THING n i dont have the profoundness to discuss it justice #SO IN CONCLUSION... a guy like jimmy being fascinated by a guy named tyler is very funny to me #and i would have a lot of fun reading more abt it from a person who knows more abt the relationship! #'that weird white boy' LMFAO #tyler is honestly cool in my book until he starts shooting threes. then he is The Enemy and i Hates him 4ever . #ted asks #jimmy

[korattata]

i wish tumblr would let me put 2 videos in one post so i could post a comparison of how Chicory was acting normal and then 48 hours later was acting. not okay.

mostly so i could just point at it and go 'why are rats like this'

#thankfully she is doing better after i have given her a few doses of some of kyle's medicine #because. the way she was acting weird. makes me think it's probably also a pituitary tumor like he had :/ #i know i'm being that annoying person that vets hate by diagnosing my pets myself #but when you have had 27 rats and your vet isn't able to see your rat until like 5 days later anyway #i think you should be allowed to do this. it took her 48 hours to go from completely fine to wobbly and lethargic #i can't just wait 120 more hours to hear what's actually wrong. she'd probably just be dead by then. #i haven't given her any of the cabergoline yet because i wanted to be sure she would actually improve with the pred #therefore making it more likely that i am correct on that being what's wrong. but i'm gonna try to give the last pill of kyle's to her #tomorrow morning. i don't have the good stuff that he would take it with tho so i hope she is much less pickly lol. #either way based on how long it took Kyle to show symptoms > when he got to the vet #Chicory. should hopefully. be okay. not sure what i'll do if she's not tbh!!!!!!!!!! #like ffs sakes couldn't you guys have at least waited a whole month. it's not even been a month since Kyle. #new rat ramblings #*new creative post tag here*

[astrxealis]

my tita's taste in video game characters is so silly i love it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #uhh i am more aerith but she is more tifa #and she likes therion and so do i #and. that's mostly it i know. sobs! uhh she's doing black eagles route bcs she knows stuff from online a bit #but i know she likes dimitri. haha. she literally said herself she likes pretty boys... me too..... #raghh i need to do homework asap when i get home. tbh i'm not stressed. i'm good #i just need to do stuff asap is the thing! but break is so soon... happy #really excited for our lil trip vacation early april. + prom. fkbskdbsjd #gay friend of my other tita who is in the U.S. is coming too n apprently uhh he is Nice #a normal guy who happens to be gay. smth like that. but hes the only gay guy adult i really know #thats close to my. family? somewhat? just my tita but my other tita and lola have met him and hes nice #i am excited to meet him bcs as a lgbtq person. JDHSJDNS YEAH..... also american so mhm i am very curious #not in a weird way okay. just really really curious as it is in my nature to be very curious. yeah #im also very nervous tho haha i really am not good with talking to people i do not know!!! too quiet too shy #ive gotten better tho? mostly bcs im a lil energetic usually n jumpy n just myself. so its been a bit easier #idm being the one to speak up for me and lune or whatever now uhh b4 i used to be really annoyed it was usually me #but it is Fine. teehee also RAGHHHHHHHHH YOU KNOW i love going outside tbh every sunday uhh #i do not want to Go Home early but gotta feed stray cats which is >>> to malls. so yeah #sooooooooooooo. idk. bye! #going to finish homework asap. funny i've done a lot of the few left but they're due like. uh. nah nvm actually #havent worked on that one due tmrw lol but ive done the easier ones mostly. oops! i gotta improve with that still #and a lot of stuff. getting there <3