#that ive ever made. <3 these idiots are ruining my life and its chronic

[faunina]

happy TWO YEAR anniversary to everyone who attended the destiel wedding!

and happy valentines day to the rest of you guys <3 click the image for a surprise!

if you’ve ever seen that one post (i’ll link it in the replies) about the parallels between the rodeo scene in 12x11 and the movie “urban cowboy” and it entirely broke your brain, then this post is for you. and also i’m kissing you on the mouth

[ID. Digital art of Dean Winchester done in black and white. He’s is laid back on top of an electric bull. One hand rests on his hip while the other hovers in mid-air, fingers slightly curled, and he seems to be looking at it. When clicked, the transparency shows Castiel standing behind him. Castiel is holding Dean’s hand to his lips, while his other hand supports the back of Dean’s head. Castiel has a visible halo and wings that he has curled protectively around Dean. End ID.]

#destiel wedding anniversary #destiel #destiel fanart #spn #spn fanart #dean winchester #castiel #ficta et picta #a personal blogging experience #PLEASE NOTE THAT THE SURPRISE ONLY WORKS IN LIGHT MODE #if you clicked the picture and nothing changed then you're using the app/website in sth other than light mode and thatll just not work sry #anyway shoutout to tumblr users nottherealdean and sagegarnish ill hopefully remember to add their post in the replies in a minute #but thanks to them i have not and WILL never be normal about that scene. #nearly TWO YEARS this concept has been swimming in my head and now FINALLY i had the skills and idea to fully COMMIT #also im ngl this is one of those pieces that i only meant to quickly sketch out and then work on later #and instead it turned into a one-time five-hour sorta hyperfocus tunnel job #and i was so IMMEDIATELY pleased with the outcome and i still am. this has absolutely become one of my favourite destiel fanart pieces #that ive ever made. <3 these idiots are ruining my life and its chronic

[trickstarbrave]

been bitching abt my mom the past few days bc right after i graduated college (finally, i worked hard, and i was rly happy) she threw a massive bitch fit, ruined the whole day, and i had to drive home w a migraine after i cried all lunch. she not only made fun of the way i dress several times, said i was an idiot for not being able to have a job already (JUST graduated that DAY), told me i am fakng being disabled bc im lazy, yelled abt cars leaving a parking lot before us bc “they cant drive thats why” (WE WERE AT THE B A C K OF THE LOT PPL LEAVE B E F O R E US), yelled abt needing to eat and said we’re going to the first place i suggested bc she took it as a declaration thats where i wanted to go but ive never eaten lunch there, yelled abt how she didnt like the menu, when we left she called me rude as hell and yelled at me in the street that theres no normal place to eat and when i yelled back stormed off

then she demanded, in the car, we go to a place she suggested based on what a friend said. “its right over there we passed it” “yeah we passed it but its not there, we need to drive” “NO WE CAN WALK TO IT I SAW IT” “I HAVE THE DIRECTIONS IN MY MAP ON MY PHONE ITS NOT ‘RIGHT THERE’” “STOP CALLING ME CRAZY. (telling someone theyre wrong now is calling them crazy and gaslighting them when SHE WAS JUST REMEMBERING FUCKING WRONG I HAD IT ON THE MAP AND DIRECTIONS TO IT). anyways we get to the place SHE SAID WE WERE GOING TO. it wasnt what she thought it was gonna be bc it was a diner, she complained more, and then told me to stop fucking crying so i went and sat outside and then she said “brave is TRYING to just MAKE ME MAD and all of you WONT SIT DOWN AND EAT because NONE OF YOU CAN STAND ME ALL BC I NEEDED TO EAT OR I WOULD GET FUCKING SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

and so i went back to the hotel, packed up shit, and went the fuck home. and she made my sick grandma drive her (she cant drive she had 3 DUIs before so lmao) bc she refused to have my grandpa drive her. bc shes mad at him too and shit rn. and she also threatened to run out into traffic and then came right back and said “glad to see you were SO WORRIED ABOUT ME” BITCH WHAT DID YOU WANT ME TO SAY. STOP THREATENING SUICIDE TO GET UR FUCKING WAY.  

anyways rest of my family said “go hug her and tell her happy mothers day” no. she came into my room and went “do you have ANY idea what i went through having you at the age i did?? and you dont wish me happy mothers day???” fuck off. she can have mothers day another year. i will not get my bachelors degree graduation day again. youre a shitty fucking mother. you fucking suck. you abuse me emotionally, verbally, insult me, tear me down, called me a fucking dyke, say my friends fucking hate me and think im a freak, insult my clothes, insult my degree, call me a literal child, even fucking BEAT ME every time u can muster up the physical strength to fucking do so. i fucking cant STAND YOU. i get you’re chronically ill and mentally ill and disabled. I AM TOO. i fucking AM TOO. and i know it doesnt give me a right to verbally abuse ppl, threaten suicide, and act like a fucking monster and demand THEY apologize. fuck i didnt fucking ASK you to fucking GIVE BIRTH TO ME JUST TO USE ME AS A PAWN IN ARGUMENTS AND ABUSE ME MY WHOLE LIFE. i never ASKED to be BORN. start acting like a fucking adult before i treat you like a fucking mom. youre just a menace. you make other ppl scream and act like fucking crazy ppl bc ur just ABUSIVE. its not ABOUT your sad childhood and mental illness and disability youre just ABUSIVE and dont have the self awareness to know it and excuse your own behavior and play the victim and im TIRED OF IT. 

its fast approaching the day i just never speak to you again. and i dont care if you suffer. i dont care if you die at this point. find someone else to take care of you. ive been taking care of your ass since i was old enough to speak. i will not take care of you your whole damn life so you can scream at me and abuse me. i refuse to rip myself up more and let you hurt me your whole damn life all because you refuse to fucking be a better damn person. i dont owe you my well being because you gave birth to me. you’re a shit mom. all you care about is helping yourself. thats all youve ever cared about. ive done too much healing and growing to try and undo all the fuckin damage youve been doing to me for my whole damn life to keep your ass around. 

#abuse warning #abuse blogging #u kno the drill just reply #just multiple forms of abuse be careful and its parental