#thinkin bout this one again

[todayisafridaynight]

journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit

#snap chats #im lying i physically could not marathon this i got school LMAO BUT IMAGINE #my god speaking of school i signed up for a japanese history class. because of course i did #i also needed an extra class and i didnt know what else to put LMAO but i might swap it or somn #thinkin i should get back into theater..... i got like two months to decide anyway #i was thinking about how im gonna play IW during streams... if the lord will let me i might stream for 2~3 hours or so #im putting such a small time limit due to Aforementioned School but also idk if my computer can record any longer than that #when i tried saving the video to my flashdrive it only lasted about two some hours right ? maybe 3 if i remember right #i decided to record to my computer's hard drive instead of the usb since it has more space so maybe i can record longer #ill prob do a test run later today and record a nonsense video. i WILL delete it i just wanna see what the limit is #cause my plan is to just Record One -> Upload It -> Delete OG yk. Lazy Susan type of plan #didnt mean to type out my whole gameplan in the tags LOL BUT HEY I WANTED TO TALK BOUT IT AT SOME POINT #my final message is that ive Hopefully preordered the ichi statue. i say Hopefully cause i am once again doing it through jp rabbit #and i didnt get the confirmation it was successful yet so I Will Simply Wait. #point is it was a lot cheapter than i thought it was going to be <3 yay <3 #ok im running out of tags tl;dr im gonna marathon IW until my eyes bleed BYYYE

[millenniummmbop]

LOVE how kaiba would rather just openly admit to everyone that he has a psychotic disorder than actually believe for a second that ancient Egyptian magic could actually be real

#thinkin bout that one kaiba line #'oh great i'm hallucinating again 🙄' #he's really out here every day like 'yeah NO SHIT there's something wrong with me but there's clearly something wrong w all of u as well' #*experiences vivid flashbacks of his ancient Egyptian life* #'yeah it's just the mental illness don't worry about it it happens 🙄' #'i saw a fucked up melting dragon back in duelist kingdom we don't need to talk about it' #LIKE THAT VERY MUCH WAS THE MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT ALSO MAGIC IS ALSO REAL #LIKE I GET WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM KAIBA BUT MAGIC IS VERY MUCH REAL IN THIS UNIVERSE

[shoezuki]

Should be studying but im writing more divinity au thing.

Im tryna think of Who would like. Know sampos a weird lil guy. Like some of em absolutely know theres some wack shit goin on w sampo. Altho its not like anyone clocks him as an aeon i mean thats Too Crazy. No way.

Pela 100% is suspicious of sampo and thinks theres something More goin on w him but not in a 'hes not human' way but more in a 'he is totally obsessed with gepard' way. And it would make her coo n be totally cute n romantic if gepard wasnt an idiot and keeps shooting down all her theories n suspicions.

#divinity au #in the bones #i should be doin hw.. #but hand hurts a lot. #anyways im thinkin bout this a lot again #natasha is probably the only one who suspects sampo is divine in soem way

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

something about the way that killing vamped-up lucy is a full on Boys Adventure that seward recounts from being in it and of course impressed by van helsing’s command and also one of the most violent & gross scenes in the book, and then for the death of dracula - the big bad! the titular role! - we spend the scene with mina, watching with the old man from a distance through the snow… idk what to make of it exactly but it feels like it says something ultimately about what kind of book this is. and of course i love that mina is the one who gets to bring the story home - and the cleverness of the fact that we know they win the second we realize with relief she’s writing again, which must mean she’s been restored to herself.

#dracula daily #thinkin bout mina and her ‘man’s brain & woman’s heart’ #& that bram quote i can’t find rn where he’s like ‘will the world ever believe a man can have the heart of a woman’ #idk the book is violent & gory & scary but also in many ways it is startlingly soft and gentle #there’s a real fundamental sweetness at its core #and the fact that it chooses to close the story proper through the perspective that would most bring that to the fore…. #like in some ways it almost feels like it ‘should’ be jonathan right? #jonathan brought us into this world; jonathan takes dracula out as his final revenge for his half year of hell #but he’s not the one who sees the story to its end; it’s mina who watched it all go down #mina who after everything finds relief in glimpsing an instant of piece on the monster’s face…. #idk!!! in its final pages this novel has once again found a way to genuinely surprise me

[springcatalyst]

something about merle and daryls relationship to religion (particularly christianity)

oops this turned out long. readmore time for yalls sanity and my dignity

it's never actually mentioned, but they both seem to have had a rather christian upbringing. it's safe to assume, because they're in the deep south, but its evident in the ways they interact with the presence of religion and with themselves.

when merle is handcuffed to the roof, hes crying about how he deserves this, about how hes being punished, hes been bad and this is what he gets. he pleads with god for mercy before ultimately telling him he doesnt need his help. this is something we can imagine he is familiar with. hes used to the concepts of divine (or otherwise) punishment, violence and pain as something deserved, a consequence of behaving badly. he seems very used to "this is what you get." and ultimately when he pleads for mercy his prayers go unanswered. this is a familiar script, or at least it was. god never helped him before. hes been punished before. he'll get out of this one on his own, just like all the rest. (he uses the exact same line "I ain't gonna beg" with the governor before hes killed: this is something familiar to him). merle quotes from the bible with hershel in season 3: he knows it. not only knows it, but remembers it. he's held onto it

and then daryl. who is so averse, so mocking of christianity and those who follow it. his casual snide remarks whenever hes in a church, making clear his distaste for the whole affair. his disdain with gabriel for a long while after they meet him. ("the word of god is the only protection I need" "sure didnt look like it.") he sees the lie in it all, while it seems like merle still buys into it, even if he doesn't try to follow it anymore, he knows the punishment that will catch up to him and to others. merle frequently damns others to hell. he inflicts punishment, or the deserving of it, as easily as he understands it for himself. daryl, though, has been disillusioned, at the very least. he sees it as nothing more than a tool to manipulate and lie to the people that believe in it. best case scenario, religion to him is a false hope that will never reach fruition. worst case, it's a manipulative power play meant to keep people in line where 'in line' means subservient. its foolish: a waste of time, to him.

theres a deleted scene where he finds a man dead in a prayer room, and he mocks him for all the good his prayers did. for all the answers he found for his trouble. in season 4, after the prison falls, he says something along the lines of 'faith never did anything for us.' he and merle, though their reasons are different, both see prayer and faith (and as a tangent, hope in general) as a useless tact, nothing gained, nobody will ever answer, you're just fooling yourself. nobody is going to save you but you. and when you say it like that, you know exactly how they got there. these are two characters who frequently have been only out for themselves, only able to rely on themselves, anything outside of that is bound to let them down, to variant degrees of harm. plenty of their own prayers must have gone unanswered. nobody saves them but them.

I legally cant talk about the dixon brothers' relationship to christianity without also talking about carol. she has a lot of similar perspectives as the two of them, but we see her in both sides. when the show begins she still appears to believe in god, and when sophia goes missing she takes that time in the church to pray to him. she says god can punish her however he wants as long as he doesnt hurt sophia. she, too, expects punishment in the form of violence and grief when she behaves badly or, in this case, even thinks things she supposedly shouldn't. here, she had a similar relationship to religion as merle does- she still believes in god: more specifically, a wrathful one. as the seasons progress, though, we see her lose that faith and shift to something closer to daryl's perspective. we see her disillusionment in real time as she sees worse and worse things and is subject to worse and worse environments. but she never really stops behaving as if she is deserving of punishment.

her and Daryl are similar in this way: while merle outright says it, accepts his supposed punishment, and then continues doing whatever he has to and whatever he wants to, carol and daryl operate under the same kind of threat but they dont really realize it. when they do things they deem worthy of punishment, whatever harm comes their way as a result- or even unrelated but soon after (and it's the walking dead, things always happen)- they kind of accept it. daryl allows himself to be treated the way he is in the savior compound, yes because he had no immediate out, but also because he felt like he deserved it. dwight gives him that photograph to really hammer home how he got here, and daryl lets it happen, to an extent. after Henry's death, carol goes off the deep end and doesnt care what happens to her. if not for lydia, she would have gone right over the edge of that cliff because it's what she felt like she deserved, like a righteous end to a life shes been leading poorly. they live under the same eye as merle, but it's more abstract with them. rather than being punished by god, they're being punished by fate, or karma, or luck. it's very 'you get what you deserve' with them, because their disillusionment prevents them from blaming an entity, so in its place they blame themselves.

I think that's the only other option they see, and its part of the reason they are both so different from merle. merle can still blame this outside force, can shove all his problems onto something out of his control that isnt his fault but can be resented for it, so he becomes this hateful, violent person because the one thing hes really angry with is untouchable. daryl and carol lack that, and cant blame anybody else because they are the only common denominator, so it instead turns inward. they hurt other people less because of this, but it's still not healthy, and so in their place they're hurting themselves more.

I have to think they are all intimately familiar with god as a reason. as a justification for damage or an unattainable perfect form that when fallen short of, is punished for. merle still operates on this warped justice system, on punishment for bad behavior (reinforced by his many experiences with prison and the military), while daryl has rejected it entirely. merle still buys into it, but daryl sees it as nothing more than that justification, than that false sense of security. neither trusts god, or religion, or christianity, but the difference I think is that merle still feels the eye of it, while daryl feels the absence.

#the walking dead #daryl dixon #merle dixon #carol peletier #watched more twd with the roomie. thinkin bout CHARACTERS #i wrote this forever ago actually but i decided u get it now. because im thinkin again #hmmmmmmmmm ANYWAY #Merle literally sucks so much ass but he's SO INTERESTING. fuck him but hes a fascinating character #and u KNOW i love analyzing sibling dynamics. ESPECIALLY unhealthy ones. ehehehe #anyway bedtime now. i work in the morning yeehaw

[osoreruna]

the first day toshinori was able to step foot outside of might tower and not be recognized by a single person the ENTIRE DAY — it did something to him...

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #this has been on the brain for a few days. n i'm workin on a draft that's got me thinkin bout it again... #how it didn't take long for his body to really start changing after the afo incident #because ofa is such a demanding quirk and he just physically couldn't supply what was needed to wield it properly anymore. #any time it was activated was like pulling the stopper on a full bathtub. meanwhile the faucet could only manage to drip... #it's literally killing him — to an extent. because of his condition. #smth i expand on in another post tucked away in the drafts #but i digress. #because of his deteriorating physical form and what that'd do to the symbol of peace if the public knew #for the longest time he REFUSED to leave the tower unless he was working. as ALL MIGHT. #i mean...for over a YEAR you did not see that man outside of his uniform. #then the ONE DAY HE DID VENTURE OUTSIDE — being called a simple “sir” by the waitress...by the man at the gas station... #to be stopped on the street not for an autograph — but for directions to the train station... #to be the one in need of HELP — practically picked up off the floor by some random man at the grocery store #after tripping and falling over someone else's cart...to be brushed off and left alone almost immediately after... #THAT day ? that day was WILD. #and then he refused to leave the tower again for another week and a half. ASLDKFKJ

[butchdykekondraki]

thank you dante alighieri for inventing selfshipping

#[ren] #thinkin bout dantes divine comedies again #good on him for writing biblical self insert mary sue selfshipping fanfiction #love him or hate him he kind of went off with that one

[fujimousee]

when usopp was on the boin archipelago during the timeskip right. how much weed do you thinm he found on the island and how fucked up would he have gotten. like if theres a ton of plants there had to at LEAST been like a field of it. he had to have like. at least tried

#one piece #this just shit i be thinkin bout frl #sorry #usopp #he would roll TERRIBLE joints #he would hate it #puff once and never again #period! #hit send post button

[aria0fgold]

Also btw I have a name for the isat oc now! Its name is Soleil, so yall know what that means? They are becoming real! I'm gaining a new fandom oc! They are few and far between...

#aria rants #i have only like-- 4 fandom ocs with 2 of em am planning to taking away from the media. again. yeah i uhh... recycle em #i actually have 5 that i recycle once im not tooo fixated on the media theyre supposed to be the oc for and i just either put em #in the back or use em for a different media. i have one for prsk. omori. mhyk. and now isat. the other one at the back rn is the #2nd prsk oc that i decided to pluck outta there to just focus on one. also the ones im thinkin of pluckin out the media #is the remaining prsk oc and my omori oc. am thinkin bout it but until i decide what to do with em theyll just stay for the time being #for now ill be thinkin more bout what i wanna do for sol. only born last night (when i thought bout the name)... poor thang

[todayisafridaynight]

What’s a genuinely sweet moment with Jo?

LOL

#snap chats #if you talkin rggjo then him meeting up with mitsu at the bar was kinda sweet #its my fave scene cause i still think him ambiguously forgetting his wallet is funny #but if we’re talking y7 uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhLOL #he really just a sad asshole #the notion he was ready to give up everything for masato once he realized the extent of his conditions kinda sweet. ig #ughhhh no wait jo being like ‘i couldnt kill arakawa how could i’ does make my kokoro go doki doki a lil.. #thats pretty sweet…. #another thing thats Weirdly sweet is just how insane he is about masato during chapter 1 #yk scolding ichi for being late and saying killing him a thousand times wouldnt be enough if ichi left masato hanging #even more so because jo knows its masato’s actual birthday that day #even if no one else acknowledges it its sweet jo still wants masato’s real birthday to be good #following up on that its Again sweet how irate he gets at ichi over the notion ichi stole from masato #I MEAN. INSANE. LIKE CALM DOWN. but its the sentiment behind it considering Everything #all things considered jo can be a sweet guy… just violently lol…. love him…. #wahhhhhhhh now im thinkin bout jo bruh how am i supposed to eat these pancakes now…

[legendoftherisingtide]

tilín was the only egg he didn’t want to kill. tilín was where he drew the line. ​he wanted to massacre them all. but not tilín. never tilín.

he promised.

#thinkin bout her again #and I was rewatching the rampage and I realized that the only egg he never wanted to hurt was the one that died to his blade. #qsmp #qsmp spoilers #qsmp slimecicle #qsmp tilin #I Fucking miss her and flippa

[trollbreak]

Ichour :3

#full of tireds today due to picking up my bed on my own a bunch yesterday but I’m proud of my success and minimal injuries (I scraped one #knuckle and that’s like it lol) #but um. fucked up ghost lady <3 #Thinkin bout how she tears herself apart for the bit again #she realizes dex can see her and goes oh. oho. ohoho. playtime >:3 #give that non-binary nightmares even when she’s not tampering with his sleep #wyn is just immune to it due to. used to her bs and also on sleep medication #character rambles #ichour whisps

[meowjings-arsb]

Was gonna experiment with style things and then I guess a couple of them just became redrawing myself with expressions/poses from animatics and other things that I liked?

#the way I draw my hair is never 100% the same and it bugs me sometime but eh.. #my stoof #milly’s arts #the first piece’s top right one is cursed and I intend to smite it from existence and from happening ever again- it’s too cursed— #signatured #me #Milly #thinkin ‘bout it. I don’t think I’ve drawn myself to where you see one side or my back often.. #prolly because I dunno how to make the glasses and hair work that way hmm

[soliusss]

As the certified Ion and Bumaro lore expert, what are some things you think they agree on and some they heavily disagree?

Cant really think of anything they'd actually agree on. Narrative foils, yk.

#thinkin bout all the scenarios in my head that ive dreamed or come up with for one shots #none of em are scenarios where they agree on something to work together #both dont like yaldabaoth #is the only one i can think of #solius asks #but even then #ion sees the gods more or less as stepping stools of power–a stream into the higher pool #bumaros incredibly devout to his god #therefore ion considers Yaldabaoth as a tool more than anything #while bumaro sees her as a greatest evil #so even then they really dont agree #i am rambling again

[bigidiotenergy]

hello guess who is deathly afraid of hospitals 😌

#it's quinn #been thinkin bout it and how he would never willingly go to one again #he rather bleed out #hates the setting and hates feeling useless there #OOC.

[thefluxqueen]

god i love lip gloss

#spain speaks #lip shiny :) #also thinkin bout that one shanastoryteller post again