#this should be my new alarm

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

*tries to organize my thoughts*

*remembers i'm not in school and therefore beholden to neither heaven nor hell nor any man's grading system*

*joyously shredding & tossing all my carefully arranged 3x5 mental notecards into the air like so much beige confetti. raising my arms in victory, cheering raucously until i accidentally inhale bits of homemade confetti*

(*coughing up itty bits of paper like a cat evicting a hairball with a firm understanding of tenants' rights*) wait wat happens next

#i marie kondoed my thoughts and *i* feel great. but now my stream-of-consciousness has escaped containment #so many innocent bystanders at stake #every time i try to organize my thoughts i run out of plastic bins and have to make a trip to the container store where i get even more dis #racted so. you can't just hand me THIS brain and NO catalogue OR library classification system #and expect me to single-handedly sort through all this nonsense? bad form but fucking form not in my job description #aNYways. formal education sure did a FUCKING NUMBER on us huh #(a number i measure not in gpa or dollars of student debt. #but in the number of therapy sessions & medical debt it will take to recover.) #seriously folks. our education systems are...innately traumatizing for a huge number of students. and we NEED to address this. #the fact that it is culturally common for adults to have anxiety nightmares about school/exams...even decades later? #that is not cute. it is Alarming. #no one--much less entire generations--should be spending their developmental years in an environment of chronic stress & pressure & strain #and yet that is the reality for millions and millions of pre-teen and teenage and young adult students #this isn't healthy and it serves and empowers NO ONE #...except of course the many exploitative educational & financial & debt-collecting institutions thriving from the current balance of power #and of course it's a nefarious and powerful way to sabotage/erase the middle class #which billionaires and the wealth-inequality creators they finance couldn't possibly have any noteworthy interest in whatsoever #it's not like there's an elite group of people with huge financial incentives to drain/steal resources from the masses... #anyways sorry for going all Conspiracy Theory on you. #obviously the billionaires who control the vast majority of our resources and news and political campaign funding #are not tied to every single itty bitty social issue and i'm a silly billy to imply it #please tell elon musk to ignore this tweet i am so subservient and acquiescent #mr musky u r so good at inheriting slavery-built mining fortunes & buying other people's companies #& building rocket ships & fancy cars that do NOT explode/catch fire & also NOT running billion dollar companies into the ground #mr musky u r so talented genius billionaire playboy with 10 kids and ex-wives who find you creepy af babe u r basically iron man

[deus-ex-mona]

totes grateful to be alive btw thanks lxl

#in other news i completely forgot that i had added this song to my commute playlist #so i got the shock of my life when the ‘LOVE CHU CHU’ blasted into my ears at near full volume lmao #. ok wait. this song could make for a very good alarm clock actually #starting the day off ✨right✨ with a full volume ‘LOVE CHU CHU’ to annoy your family and neighbours #i should try it tomorrow lmao sorry upstairs + downstairs neighbours 6am is now love chuchu o’clock— #染BODY ONCE TOLD ME—

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: April 15

"Something in the Way She Moves" by James Taylor

#song of the day #it's been two weeks + two days since the last song of the day #the issue is you see that I started the songs up again in December because my insomnia was fucking up my perception of time #and I wanted some kind of regular marker to help me keep track #and then what happened two weeks + two days ago is that I lost all track of time and subsequently the songs of the day failed #I'm gonna see if I can keep up again for a bit now that I've re-restarted without an alarm on my phone #but if I miss any this week I'll just give in and turn the alarm back on #updates from the last two weeks are going to sound so chaotic let's see #I got a new project at work /and/ I got demoted /and/ I got added to a higher access level /and/ I'm in charge of a new database #yes all of those things together. I'm to be an accountant now! not instead but in addition to my other stuff. should be interesting #I didn't get April Fools off like I was scheduled to because all my scheduled vacation got unapproved #(I was here for about twenty nonsequential minutes to boop people and I'm glad I made time for it. extremely fun to boop) #I lied shamelessly to get eclipse day off and we went on a full-day roadtrip and it was wonderful. everything I dreamed and more #I killed one of my baby succulents through clumsiness and rabbits ate my pea plants but my sage and cabbages look promising #got a massive pot of mint flourishing on my porch and the horseradish is gorgeous #got Duncan lights and plants and a filter system for his frog tank but we haven't set up the substrate yet #so there's just potted plants sitting inside a terrarium. very amusing honestly #I've been playing a little Stardew and eating a /lot/ of hot sauce and tofu #drinking tons of klass aguas frescas--especially the soursop one. holy shit is it good. the mango and hibiscus also #and these past few days I've been sleeping better #for most of those two weeks I was getting a handful of twenty-minute naps each workday and then crashing unwillingly on the weekend #I haven't read any comic books since February :'( this weekend we're going to costco and then I'm reading comics until Monday #what have y'all been up to? I've missed being around #edit: oh shit the actual song part. anyway this is James Taylor! makes me happy and helps me settle. good vibes songs #I'm half-panicked about work all the time recently and then also today was tax day (Nick's taxes. blegh) #James Taylor doing some heavy lifting round here

[n0maku]

ANYWAY despite how I usually throw up a bunch of screenshots and such of undertale/deltarune news stuff when it comes out- I’m probably not doing that this time since I don’t really have anything to note/add to any of it haha There’s a lot in this Papyrus Q&A (and thus screenshots) and it is very lovely and charming! It’s nice to see those skeletons again. For those who haven’t looked through it and have interest, here’s the link to the Papyrus Q&A answers page

#papyrus q+a #nomakuposts #nomakuspeaks #fun fact my highest note post is one of my posts on the alarm clock dialogue hahaha #...lot of bot activity on those though siiigh i found a LOT to report from my alarm clock dialogue posts #oh well. it's in the past now. #anyway if it turns out people have interest for some reason i COULD slap my new screenshots into a post for yall? #geez i don't even know how many fellas followed me for undertale nonsense #nowadays i mostly hide in the void queueing reblogs #making original posts (like this) once in a blue moon #maybe i should post more ramblings and such on here sometimes #talk more on here n such #i've been pretty quiet here the past whatever number of years haha

[sirfetchd]

i followed an artist i like and they followed back and then almost immediately unfollowed. thats so embarrassing was it the oc posting

#the fact that my terrible art block is coinciding with my new oc obsession is causing my opinion of my own ocs to drop at an alarming rate #like i went from loving them yesterday to regretting their creation today 😭 #i should just stick to rose and aspen huh #🎤

[mite75]

Guys I dont think 7 hours of sleep is actually the right amount for me.

#this is the first day in maybe a month or 2 i didnt set an alarm for myself to wake up at a reasonable time #and i slept extremely peacefully from 11 to 11 thats 12 hours of sleep i also feel good??? like not exhausted from oversleep??? #i do work 6 days a week... but like that could be worse i could not have a day off at all and i need the money #and i refuse to go to bed early theres already so little time in the day i cant waste it on sleep ughhg #crossing my fingers that my new job works out but thats also gonna mess with my sleep bad for a good while #body why are u so needy!!! 10 hours of sleep is unreasonable!!! i get it that 5-6 is too little #but 7-8 should be normal we should be fine what is up girl!!?

[eggthew]

constantly waking up feeling wrecked and more tired than when I went to sleep is not something I want continue to do

#and yet #also yeah waking up was very disorientating with my bed in a new place #also my phone was plugged in charging at the foot of my bed and scrambling to find it to turn the alarm off sbdbdhd #i should probably just turn off the alarm anyway they don't work #egg talks

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! <3

#waaa my alarms didn't go off so I'm up a little later #like it said i snoozed them but i don't recall them going off in the first place?? #so that's odd #anyways exploration time today! :3 #finally get to go to the new region and have fun #might do as much as i can before starting the new world quest just so i have teleports should i need them #but anyways #it's gonna be a fun day ^^ #and i hope you have a good day/night! #(hopefully i'll post the discord post i made if my silly social anxiety lets up but we'll see) #morning rambles

[tj-crochets]

Hey y’all! Weird question time! What’s the difference between a muscle cramp, a muscle spasm, and a knot in a muscle? Like, what do they feel like when you experience them, how do you tell them apart*?  I’ve heard all three terms used (in addition to ones that I think are related but am unsure about like pulled muscle, strained muscle, overextended muscle) but I have no idea how to tell which one I am experiencing or how to differentiate between them, even though I’ve looked up definitions a few times over the years? The definitions were not helpful. It’s like acid reflux all over again (any time I asked doctors “how do you tell if you have acid reflux?” they’d just say “if you had it you’d know” without giving me any information to connect symptoms with a name) *my whole sodium georg thing means I am very prone to having my muscles hate me and have bad cramps and/or spasms if I don’t take enough electrolytes, but I suspect I am not using the correct words when describing them to doctors. Which is it when a small part of a muscle (like a 2″ ish patch of your thigh) starts twitching and keeps twitching for hours even if the muscle around it is totally still? 

#the person behind the yarn #medical mention #should I make a tag for questions like this? #like weird question time or something #I hate with medical things when I can look up the definition but it does absolutely nothing to connect it to how it feels to have the thing #like...thanks! now I know why it happens and what is technically happening #but what does it feel like??? #I have cardiac problems that are well under control and still alarm every single new doctor I go to #and no cardiologist ever thought to tell me that your heart beating irregular or skipping beats feels like a flutter in your chest #until I was like 'hey sometimes I get this weird flutter in my chest and then I can't help coughing but it doesn't feel like my lungs' #and he was like 'oh that's your heart skipping a beat and an involuntary cough to force it back into rhythm' #that's unrelated to the current question though lol #I'm having muscle...cramps? maybe? that suck #and I know I can make them better with a lot of water and electrolytes and some light stretching and time #but I am supposed to report the symptoms of electrolyte imbalance to my doctors and I am struggling with the vocabulary #oh for anyone new I am sodium georg because I have a probably-adrenal problem that means I process electrolytes Very Wrong #sodium most severely but also potassium and probably magnesiu #*magnesium. constantly low. I take meds for it and also salt pills

[catididnt]

the last outfit of those Links is from the dlc! you have to find the pieces around the castle.

Thanks! I didn't get the dlc, though I was very tempted

#I also didn't like the castle #the alarm noises the spider-machines make freaks me out too much #and I kept running into them! #my brain freaked out every time #I wanted them to be unpossessed and turn to my side and blow up ganon for making me listen to them #they're supposed to be on my side!! #I want to fight the battle that happened 10000 years ago when they invented the machines #I feel that any 'ancient' battles at this point should be previous games and am always disappointed when it's new legends instead

[arcadian-vampire]

PAKIGE DELIVERY!!!!!!!!!

#pikaposts #PACKAGE PACKAGE PACKAGE PACKAGE #it's a new planner so i can keep track of the passage of time again. and colorful star stickers #my depressed autistic ass likes getting a littol reward for each day. And it gives me reason to check my planner every day #i did it w my last planner until i tragically ran out of gold star stickers. very sad #anyway if you're ever feeling like your problems are rather childish. consider childish solutions. #can't keep track of when you should eat? set alarms like you're in school and need bells to signal that it's time for lunch! #lack the coordination needed to cut food with a knife? get a nice pair of kitchen scissors to just chop things up! #can't handle feeling the carpet beneath your feet? lay down blankets or get some nice fuzzy slippers! #this has been Autism Hours with Oracle. tune in next time for 'help girl i can't handle eating mashed potatoes'

[cats-in-the-clouds]

sometimes the innate human desire for God just screams so loudly through the things they say that i soooo desperately just wanna point it out to them

#shoutout to a longtime mutual on my old blog who posted something like #’trying to live for myself isn’t working but trying to live for other people doesn’t work either…’ #there’s stuff like that all the time from her but that in particular really rang all the alarm bells in my head #bc i was like YEAH CUZ THERE’S A THIRD OPTION YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO LIVE FOR GOD #funny enough she later did post ‘maybe i should pick some specific god and pray to them instead of just yelling to whoever’s in the void’ #so bad news is. threat of pagan worship. good news is at least she’s looking back into religion at all sooo #severe christian trauma tho (isn’t that everyone tho) so it might take a REALLY long journey for her to find her way back home #i was like ok it’s mega huge prayer time this is all i can do

[al-ghoul]

I am a notoriously dumb fuck today, seems to me.

Have to collect some saliva for tests.

Was told to do this "Immediately After Waking Up If You Wait Ten Minutes It Won't Be Correct!!!1"

The next one goes in 30 minutes and the next one in 60. And then not to go back to sleep for the whole day, and then do one before going to sleep in the evening.

Chew on the cotton for 1-2 minutes, put it in the tube, write down the time. Simple, yes? No!

Woke up, tried to contemplate did I actually wake up or not yet, got scared it's taking too long, grabbed the cotton, start chewing on it like a good boi I am, took the phone to write the time - turned out I was sleeping for only two hours, it not the morning yet.

Freaked out that I fucked up the tube, went to frantically google where to buy a new one, while deciding should I just go for it and call it a morning, when came back to my senses turned out I was chewing on the cotton for 20 minutes now.

The test is for stress hormone. (ba dum tss)

#well I am stressed all right! #good news is there's a lab nearby that might sell me one #so my good researcher won't be inconvenienced after all #why couldn't I just sleep for my eight hours like a normal person? #(because I'm not one) #you're supposed to collect it on weekend #when you're not stressed by the work and alarm clock #so I can't put an alarm on to signify the morning for me #and how should I know if it's morning or not without lying around for much more than 10 minutes? #I'll ask this later when I get the replacement tube thingy #wouldn't like it to fuck this up for second day in a row

[unusualshrimp]

hm i think i will just Not listen to tma 2 or engage with news about it and wait to see what people are posting. and ONLY listen if the posts are mostly positive/reassuring

#i think. i need to trust my instincts more when it comes to this #tbh it reminds me of wwdits with the Colin dying episode and how i stopped liking the show after that #but with the new season i though Hm what if i was overreacting. it could be better now #- and then it wasn't. I judged it correctly and it's just not a show that cares much about its side characters #which isn't a Bad thing‚ just. not to my taste #anyway that's unrelated but im trying to say that i should trust my feelings about media more. #rn i have a giant alarm in my head going ''tma is going to get Hunger Games Movie'd'' #and im going to listen to it. this feels Wrong it's like resurrecting someone yknow #++ the way jonny seemed Done with tma in the post s5 QnA and his complete radio silence now..... doesn't bode well #also. they dropped the tma 2 news literally the day of his new book release??? #which doesn't really mean anything tbh but i think that was a bit. Strange.