#today has been much better too :)

[chrollohearttags]

this whole Drake situation is the equivalent to when the popular kid got exposed for sum and everybody starts to turn on him like ‘I always knew he was weird’ after enabling their shitty behavior for years lmao. Grown ass niggas acting like high school.

#cherry chats 🍒 #I ain’t really care too much abt none of em tbh #just thought it was funny #like how long has he been sucking the culture dry and being a diet kite syrupy misogynist #and nobody said shit? Including kenny boy #where was that ‘you stole my culture’ bullshit for him? #or was that reserved for cardi bc his lil fellow bestie couldn’t make a hit anymore #this is why I only listen to independent artists outside of the women #they all make my coochie itch lmao #so y’all knew he was propositioning new female artsis for sex and stealing from them #y’all knew he was texting 15 year olds and attending high school bball games #but nobody said shit until *check notes* he dared call himself the top dog and y’all felt threatened? #unserious ass genre and unserious ass race of ppl I can’t dhkshdj #woke up in a haterrific mood today #as you can tell #anyways Meg I love you #you started this and had a better diss than all of them

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

WIFI IS MINE ONCE AGAIN as i sit on a mattress on the floor

#it feels like ive been without it for so long... #it has been... three and a half days... i am Weak.... #nah jk i wouldve been find without it for much longer #but boy howdy am i Glad to be able to use my dear beloved laptop again #i am In The New Place i am Beginning To Settle #tomorrow i begin unpacking my own stuff!!! exciting!!! #i cant wait to admire all of my Things! #ohhhh and i finally have a spot on the wall for my combo whiteboard/corkboard.... #im still very stressed and i want to lay in a hole but!! #i am doing slightly better than a few days ago! #the weather has been nice... cool and rainy... i am not used to cool and rainy #its also cold and i am - unfortunately - a desert creature #suffice to say i am wearing hand warmers a hoodie and a blanket #absolutely unprompted #the place's last owner Didnt Fucking Clean though #so there have been many spiders. and cobwebs. and general Grime we will have to scrub #like seriously today i was dusting the ceiling. THE CEILING. #had to dust & vacuum the windowsills... gonna scrub my bathroom tomorrow... #theres a large tear in my bedroom carpet too... #ugh and the cabinets are Small so organizing all the spices and shit has been Rancid #stuff has to go out of place and you cant see it all and MY ORGANIZATIONAL SYSTEMS ARE CRUMBLING #sometimes it feels like my adhd and autism are fistfighting but during a move? #lockstep babeyyyy. they are Streamlined. lots of things and lots of sorting & placing and eeheehee #i have also killed most of the freakishly huge mosquitos in the house so! things are better! #that first night was Rough! its better now! this shell is becoming a House!

[mando-abs]

Guys, I’ve read the Wild Robot

And let me tell you, if I hadn’t recently taken a Children’s Literature class in college, I would’ve said this was the best middle-grade book I’ve read since elementary/middle school. I almost read this book in one night (I was sleepy 😴) like I couldn’t put it down.

The heart behind this book is astounding and it never shies away from showing complex and difficult concepts. You will fall in love with Roz and her gosling son along with all of the other animal on the island.

If you’ve got younger ones, I highly recommend reading this to them or having a little book club moment with them. However, be prepared for whatever hard questions may come your way (i.e. circle of life and climate issues). You know your child and how much they can handle/understand. If you’re like me and much older, it’s a quick read and a great way to finish off a long day. It’s a part of a trilogy and you bet I’m patiently waiting for my hold on a copy at the library.

If the movie is anything like the book (which, given a rewatch of the trailer, it’s looking like so), we are in for a special treat.

#the wild robot #children’s literature #pedro pascal #did I get the book on the off chance pedro might have been casted - yes #but from what I learned in my kid lit class is that middle grade fiction in much more nuanced than ya lit today #ya lit has better potential of being good bc it has more room to work with #however ya tends to lean on tropes more heavily than middle grade #middle grade is much more focused on learning topics and issues than playing with them #making them more tightly knit #also with the decline of media literacy I think this book is a wonderful counterattack #it’s not shattering by any means but def a big step in the right direction #especially for those who have a harder time getting interested in books #and once again I’m so pleased with how carefully curated Pedro’s projects are amidst his growing stardom #he truly cares about the message and thought provoking-ness of his work #and it makes this writer/literature nerd so proud #(yes I know there’s no true messages behind his recent gladiator and marvel roles other than it sounded like fun to him but I support that #- too… the man must have his fun purely for fun’s sake)

[bigmammallama5]

gonna go get the new covid booster tomorrow ya girls gonna feel like SHIT

#stupid rant is stupid #yeehaw #i mean like hopefully i wont feel like shit for too long #we'll see lmfao ugh #better do my chores and cleaning today and tomorrow before i crash #also for my new people #i am a case where my body had decided to make me feel like covid when i get the shots #like the second shot of the first wave of vaccines put me down 5 days lol #that time has since reduced but its been a year since my last booster #so #mmmm #trepidation lol #but i would much rather feel like shit for a few days than make my current problems worse with getting sick or long covid

[shorthaltsjester]

honestly as someone who has been in various fandoms for a long time now and who also watched campaigns 1 and 2 without really getting into cr fandom it isn’t Shocking but it is annoying how often people will look at the stories that cr tells and make absolute claims about the goodness of characters (goodness here meaning Moral goodness, not I Like This character and think it’s well made goodness, which is a separate post entirely). particularly regarding the gods and pc parents. and honestly like, typically in fandom i get annoyed by people bending over backwards to woobify characters who are active in their choice to be unkind and generally horrible but in the cr fandom it’s tended to be the opposite where like. a character is just. a human being (in the sense of being Average not in the sense of Fantasy Races) and huge swaths of the fandom act like that’s the most unforgivable thing someone can be. and maybe it is, but one of the most powerful things about fiction is that it tends to encourage people to expand their empathy and exercise their ability to forgive. because fictional characters, no matter how much people like to project onto them, tend not to cause anyone harm, so it’s easier to learn how to forgive and accept things you don’t understand without also villainizing them.

this is mostly prompted by the recent 4sd and the fact that matt’s response to what’s up with the dawnfather was a very insistent “He’s not bad!” and also seeing the online reaction to the mention that the matron would punish vax for saving keyleth that has taken the as usual completely bonkers tune that the raven queen (Who When Met With A Brother Asking A God To Kill Him In Favour Of His Sister, Gave Him A Job, and Later Extended His Natural Life To Help Protect The World And Have More Time With His Family And Allowed Him To Visit His Sister On Her Wedding Day) is a horrible evil abusive bitch of a god. like. can we grow up? can we understand the world and fiction that represents the multitudes of experiences found in it in shades of grey? is that too much to ask (i know it is).

but also specifically the like Extremely Adamant way that both matt and laura were like no no no no relvin isn’t Horirble he’s average. he’s not good he’s just. he’s A father, not a good or bad one. and on the surface it’s hilarious that they’re both so like. enthused to point out that he’s Average because typically when people respond to a claim of a characters badness with the level of immediacy they both did it’s a rebuttal of “no, this character is good actually.” but it was just to affirm that relvin did harm imogen, but not because there’s some aspect of his character that is inherently cruel or especially Bad. and like. yeah actually. yeah you should react like that to a claim that this average person who Has hurt someone, the way that nearly every single person has hurt someone in a way they cannot repair, with immediacy to say this person is a Person and thus imperfect and capable of great harm, but that isn’t some all encompassing judgment on their morality or capability to also do good or be fine.

anyway this is kinda just a rant post but also is just me saying i’m very grateful that when surrounded by a fandom that tends to paint characters as Good or Bad and even while using a game that can encourage that with its alignment system, cr has always told stories that see goodness as a persistent choice that might sometimes falter and that can be chosen even after a lifetime of Badness. i can’t remember exactly what the quote was so forgive me if it’s incorrect but when jester is talking to caleb after he claims he’s not a very good person and she says “good people do bad things sometimes. even bad people do good things.” that’s it! that’s one of the most consistent themes across campaigns. and yet.

#on fandom #cr tag #i just. maybe it’s the philosophy major in me but. good grief the shit some of y’all say about morality and then turn around and ignore #what you’ve just said. good grief #lately it’s specifically been the people who support liliana (i too love evil women) and act like she tripped and fell into her current #position. and then turn around and call relvin an abusive devil #like. sorry which one has been manipulating imogen. which one abonded her? #that’s besides the point. my point is. the words good and bad are meaningless. #the good placeism. is this character trying to be better today than they were yesterday #this is the imogen temult problem actually. like yes she Chooses to be good. but that is only a choice because we have Seen her be selfish #and cruel and manipulative. if i had to choose to call imogen good or bad i’d of course choose good. but that undermines so much of #what makes her ‘goodness’ actually compelling. #honestly same with fjord. like his character as a charismatic paladin who fights for Good™ is comtextualised by having seen his journey #like. otherwise he’d be boring. #like. if any cr main character was just Good or just Bad. i promise it would not be as popular as it is #critical role

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[hermanunworthy]

(strokes normals cheek) hey baby normal? its gonna be alright

#the fucking emotional WHIPLASH from the previous episode to this one #NORMAL GENUINELY CARES ABOUT HIS FRIENDS. YKNOW NOT EVERYTHING IS TO MAKE HIMSELF FEEL BETTER #i understand where lincoln is coming from though i have a normal bias but ik that kid has projection issues bc i see them in myself #and lincoln on a deeper level is just concerned about normal and how healthy his coping mechanisms are #i need those two to. when they have a chance. sit down and really talk things out #theyve been through too much #sorry i keep normalposting today #normal oak #lincoln li wilson #dndads #dndads spoilers #dndads s2 spoilers #siren says

[missingn000]

#sorry for posting so much today omg but i feel like i owe it to you people #work has just been CRAZY and i’m still in one piece hell so….. #but things in life are getting better!! i’ve kinda been going thru it i wont lie #i hope to update tpg sometime late this month or early next month. sorry my break has been so much longer than anticipated #i didn’t realize how bad the burnout was BUT i’ll be back to the story soon with a renewed fire & some #ABSOLUTELY UNHINGED new ideas and plans #it’ll be worth the wait i swear #in the meantime if we’re mutuals/friends feel free to ask for my pers IG #i’ll try to be online more too!! #thanks ily alllll<3333

[shima-draws]

MANNNN my anxiety won’t QUIT. Send me some asks perhaps 🤲

#Long story short work has been REALLY fucking stressful #Like. I’ve just been completely buried for what feels like months #And I can’t keep up #And I keep getting chewed out for things that aren’t even my fault 😭 #Talked to my coworkers today and they’re in the same boat #Me: Did you get chewed out by [boss name] too #My coworkers: Yup lol #I’M GLAD IT’S NOT JUST ME #That made me feel a little better #But I’m still just. A ball of stress #I can’t calm down 😭 #I really need to learn how to leave all my stress at work once I walk out the door #But no she follows me home like a stalker. She won’t leave me ALONE #There’s only so much I can do. As one person. As one human being who only works 8 hours a day #Lies down #I’m so tired. I don’t want to be anxious about this but apparently my body is making the rules! Damn her!!! #Shima speaks #Just remember you’re not alone Shima…your coworkers are as stressed and overworked as you are…

[unproduciblesmackdown]

"winston quant billions: like anyone else, an entire universe" or "the good news is it's just that everyone's been terrible to you, the bad news is it's just that everyone's been terrible to you"

#one thing you can do now that billions has an overall conclusion: fight it to the death w/your bare hands & anything within reach #go ''anyway.'' look at taylor mason being in there and out here like wrow.... #come get your thee most special little fella on earth created by this series by nonzero layers of happenstance babeyyy #and people will have been terrible to them in general / more than not / perhaps always #meanwhile i'm turnt on album recording amphibian that high note oh my gott #and have been snapping metal in half thinking about orvphil material like hhrrhgh #and in this case have been like ''sure making this coloring Busier and Noisier...'' then been like ''yep'' and continued apace #can't be too much in his cosmos. and also: yolo #winston billions #corned beef #also spent many words for many minutes Just Today going on & on abt [christ the winston material + billions more broadly] in the dms lol #typical sunday....it's truly not Not. the verbosity will simply manifest thusly now and then. s/o to my fellow connoisseur #and now. need nappuccino #oh and also the way the whole universe that is oneself? needs no external acknowledgment abt this; is not deficient or insufficient; etc... #winston deserved to flip tf out & not in a way everyone liked & respected #&/or every day on a simmer just be more of a bitch; cause problems on purpose; etc #meanwhile they just handled his material like ''well you can only ultimately throw him in the trash'' but like welp #he in turn can only be better off removed from [all other characters on this show] lol like team ben / tuk exception maybey.... #he already so Arrogantly has any sense of self worth/confidence. and he needs more. More!

[obstinatecondolement]

I'm not going to put anything up publicly, because my mama didn't raise no person vulnerable enough to be a beginner in public, but I started teaching myself to draw for the nth time about five days ago and it's been going much better than it ever has before.

#largely because I found out that I was holding the pencil the wrong fucking way before #also because I was too focused on rendering and not at all on modelling #I've mostly just been practicing making lines and simple shapes #but I have done a few sketches from reference photos and they're like... not Good #but also are more or less proportional and are 1000% better than anything I've managed to do in the past #and are pretty consistently trending up #although I did stumble a bit attempting to draw clothed figures today #learned my lesson: nakey for now #but like basically I had the thought 'if I had money I would like to commission fanart of X' and then was like 'I'll just learn how to draw #and then I actually committed to it for a good few days in a row #I don't want to be too premature in celebrating here because I flake on so much #but this has been nice and I'm having fun

[knifegremliin]

hey do you guys want to see the new fucked up cat i bought off ebay

#🔪.text #it's really really cool #it wasn't supposed to get here til tomorrow #and then this morning i got an email saying it'd be here at close to 6 pm #and then it got here at 3 pm #i finally opened the box at 4:40 and ohhh my god it's so much better in person #i'm so in love #i think this may be my favorite purchase yet #i've been completely miserable for most of the day and for most of yesterday too. #getting it today was definitely good timing and good for me #i really needed something to lift me up lol #not sure what i'm gonna call it yet #the company it was made by has the name boone for the original plush #but this thing's been modified and so i'm not sure i wanna keep the name boone for it

[gibbyslounge]

things im still not over (as someone who was mostly inactive since mid 2021):

mask and change my clothes!! i dont think i was active on tumblr when change my clothes was released, but the way i ascended when i heard his soft sweet singing voice <33 mask is my favorite song of his and it still makes me emotional to think about what the song meant to him. his creativity is one of his greatest strengths and i am endlessly happy that he found a way to share more of himself in a way that he really enjoys

DREAM TEAM MEETUP tbh i really did not know if these days would ever come. its so so so crazy to think that florida man dream texas cowboy sapnap and british george are really all living together and existing in the same space. seeing them be THEM irl is still very surreal and makes me pause for a second without fail. so so much of the community centered around them not having met each other irl

DREAM FACE REVEAL!!!! this one i REALLY HONESTLY didnt know if it would ever come, just because the courage it takes to face reveal after building one of the largest audiences is fucking crazy. i thought that even if they did end up living together, dream might’ve found that he is happy to just be with them and not want to face reveal anymore. ig never doubt dream- he’s such a “go big or go home” type of person. i love him regardless but now he is also a big bear who wears cat beanies and has the prettiest eyes and im emotionally attached

dream pics before his face reveal with a big emphasis on suit pics, swt halloween, and strawberry dream. his white hoodie posey pose and the ones with the blanket and patches have a permanent home in my heart but these had me convulsing and i didnt get to gush about them here </3

#long tagsss #why does it feel like no time has passed yet SO MUCH has changed #i feel very very late to everything i think in some ways i am still kinda stuck in the past #it was just today where i officially really matched dream to his voice and that was rlly cool #he has always been very cute and dorky kind generous and open hearted #and you can see that when he interacts with people in irl streams too #ik i kinda left wo saying anything and sometimes i wish i had still been active to freak out abt everything w everyone #but basically it just got more stressful than fun bc my hpfx became unhealthy and i had to move for college and learn to be on my own #im back home now after transferring and my mental health is a lot better #sm has changed in my life too!! #being active here still makes me feel nostalgic abt all the old times though #however it really is just the beginning and i keep thinking abt how dream spoke abt things speeding up and im v v happy that i get to tunein #dreamblr

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #🌕 #Very very tired today... I managed to sleep maybe 4 hours last night and then I had a 2 hour nap today... #You'd think only getting one hour yesterday would mean I could get a little more than that but..... #My brain really hasn't been working the last couple of days... #I hope that gets better but I'm getting the feeling something is seriously wrong with me... Trying not to panic about it though.. #Still waiting to get my blood tested but they're making me do it next month even though I feel like I'm dying now nn; #Hopefully tomorrow I can at least get something to help me sleep more... #Not got any plans for today other than to try and rest... And to try not to freak out too much about all the health issues... #Anyway..... This song has been my latest obsession hehe.. Had it on repeat since it came out #I rewatched Madoka Magica with some friends the other day too... It was their first time seeing it which was fun hehe.. #Might have a nap soon if I can... I doubt it but we'll see nn; #Let's try and survive today...

[snoppy]

I'm sorry but I think its good that tom is saying stuff that makes you all uncomfortable. I think everyone is a little too willing to make him the hurt innocent underdog

#not able to articulate it fully which is why its in the tags #but however downtrodden he may appear he's still one of the large club of white men governing the show #and the gay shadowing and his relationship with shiv made him oversympathetic to most of the audience watching #but this man is not a victim like whatsoever 💀 building on that post i reblogged today #the entitlement is something ever present in the way he interacts with shiv #and something interesting i notice is how its only ever with shiv and greg #who are people he can control in a romantic and professional sense #especially because greg is kind of a foil to shiv when it comes to tom #“i will not let go of what is mine” etc etc #and the subservience to shiv only lasts as long as she's his only way into the family #as soon as he has an in with logan (janitors of idaho id say?) most of that stops #even in s1 as soon as the ships scandal comes to his attention he's all too happy to hide it + the ravenhead issue #my point is he's never been a good person and idk why any of you are surprised. especially don't know why the shiv haters have been arguing #what is basically reverse sexism 💀💀 #as if it wasn't abundantly clear from s3 that he exercises just as much & more control as her if he wants to #with the period tracking and the baby thing. #idk maybe i will make a better post clearly i have thoughts

[early-october-skies]

Me when we don't speak anymore by bears in trees

#lizzierants #had a sudden unplanned job interview today. i wanted to cry the whole time but managed to keep it together and now the anxiety has suddenly #caught up to me and it feels BAD the sudden thought of that what if my friends just dont actually like me and they like me purely because #theyre worried for what would become of me if they stopped being friends with me when purely of course id be fine eventually but i worry #that cause im on antidepressants people just think im automatically suicidal when something bad goes wrong which is not the case im doing #good i dont want to die but what if all my friends hate me what if this whole time i have loved them so so much and they just tolerate me #someday my friends will die and i had that i hate that someday we wont be friends even if its decades in the future i love all of them with #my heart that sometimes i feel it is overfilling i love them i love them and what am i without them i am everything i have ever loved i am #overthinking however i cannot stop this what if my own best friend is avoiding me? why am i thinking this? what evidence do i have to back #this up? nothing only for the fact my own brain feels as though i love people too much and they are uncomfortable with it i feel awful wtf #i have learned to keep my emotions from people because i dont want them to worry. i dont want people to do something or not do something bec #ause they think it will upset me i want people do do as they please i want to be open for my friends to share their issues i want to help #and im sitting here wirrying if they hate me so i turn here to shout in the void because the only person i know irl who follows me on here #most likely doesnt read these tags and if you are please ingore this i misjudged your terrible attention span also i love you very much #anyway a few weeks ago i realised my worst fear is no longer death. but the death of my friendship with my beloved friend. and thats fucking #terrifying prospect however if they were to be like yo i dont like you anymore id respect that decision and id be okay because their happine #is the most important thing to me and thats okay but i couldnt bare with the fact that they feel like they had to be ffiends with me because #they have to. i hate the prospect of them feeling trapped in a friendship theh dont want to be in. all the while i feel i cannot communicate #this to anyone because how would i go about it im very anxious i am shaking i am having a bad time very bad time actually im going to start #crying but its okay <3 crying is good for stress and health and its been a while since ive cried so maybe this will help me feel better <3 #i will heal and ill be okay <3