#which isnt a lot but yk

[dyketubbo]

i remember seeing someone call tubbo a fully grown adult at 19 (obvs before he turned 20) and i gotta say. i think maybe some people have a really skewed idea of what constitutes as "fully grown". and also what constitutes as properly mature. thinking that at 18/19 (or hell even at 20/21) people are now fully grown and mature is insane to me like yall thats how you get people thinking their life is over at like 23 and that 30 year olds are senior citizens 😭😭 be fr

#this is a problem no matter where you look but i think a lot of ppl in the mcyt fandom esp seem to think once youre- #-considered an adult at all that it automatically means youre fully grown and mature and thats just nooottt really true for most ppl #which i think can lead people down to sort of dangerous paths especially because 'adult' is often defined by age of consent #and theres also some slight cultural differences like even just between the us and the uk where due to 18yr olds being able to drink in- #-the uk (and other places) i think it genuinely causes some dissonance #where i see often in the us that when youre 18/19 youre still treated (id say rightfully) as being rather young and not Truly a grown adult #hence. yk. the term Young Adult #but i think in places where the drinking age is younger it starts causing people to see younger people as more mature #which is also why a lot of predators like to push for the age of consent to be at a younger age like 15 or 16 #and why many lolicons try to point at japans age of consent (which for the record is complicated and not as simple as just 'age of consent- #-is 13') as a defense for how they act #because these sorts of milestones (having sex and drinking) are seen as marks of a true adult. which gets into a whole lot of other #complicated things #and often dangerous things and ways of thinking #ANYWAYS . basically 18/19 isnt fully grown 20 is also hardly fully grown itself #and theres ways to combat people infantilizing tubbo and other creators his age without acting like hes actually #fully grown and mature lol. i promise you humans are not fully grown at 20 years old are you kidding me 😭😭😭😭 #if youre in your 20s you still have a lot of time and space to grow i promise. do not fall for the idea that your life is done by like 23 #idk. im only 18 myself but it just feels insane to me that if i were a creator people would be calling me a fully grown adult #not that im not an adult but i dont think im mature enough to be seen as fully grown and i guess itssss. sad? #to see other people my age think that turning 18 means youre fully grown. just really not true #theres a lot of 30 year olds who still see early 20yr olds as being practically babies we have Not made it to full maturity yet i prommy #mask mews

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

didn't know laughingstock was a thing for the longest time but I have never been more quickly on board with a ship in my LIFE

...

(get it? on board? ship? im so funny)

yeeHAW welcome aboard the SS.Laughingstock, it's in a constant state of nearly sinking but not quite! there are no lifeboats!

#isnt it good? isnt it peak??? isnt it simply The Absolute Fucking Most??? #its one of those pairings where it doesnt occur to ya #until someone points it out and then its like oh. OH!!!! #godddddd theyre so good for each other #i think i once saw it referred to as a 'green flag ship' which... yeah!! #listen i love my unhealthy / disastrous fictional pairings but man. it feels good to enjoy something just so.... Good yk yk #like damn. what a healthy relationship. what a couple'a goofballs in love. waow #rambles from the bog #oh also i have to say the obligatory 'WE GOT ANOTHER ONE!!!' #my power grows.... #if you want more laughingstock #then uh krasytoonz posts a lot of em!! their stuff is like... my main outside source for the fluffy fruits #and theres uhhhhh #well fuck me i cant remember rn but! sometimes! something new appears in the ship tag(s)!!! #tis rare but! always enjoyable!

[storm-of-feathers]

damn why did i stop being an alcoholic being drunk rules actually i dont feel a single OUNCE of my burdens. i just feel the wine. and its pink.

#this post is mostly a joke OBVIOUSLY i dont wanrt to be a True Alcoholic again #ive been sober #(in the definition that i dont consider myself addicted - not in the definition of complete abstinence) #since 2018. and its been very good for me obviously #but damn i gotta remember that alcohol exists and i have some if i ever truly need to unwind #bc like. yk. i have a lot of trouble unwinding #i used to have this uhh #one of my grandmothers brothers. idk the word. #he always said that the world was so bright and loud and sharp. except for when he drank. #dgmw. i do think autism runs on my dads side #(and thats cool!! bc it proves autism isnt just a white thing!!!!! something thats unfortunately a popular belief :/) #but i think there was def a genetic susceptibility to it on my moms side too #like ofc i was going to be autistic!! look at my family!!! #which is interesting bc as far as anyone can tell my only biological sibling isnt autistic #i have two Additional siblings but thats a longer story. but i love them both just as much as my biological sib #i love having lots of siblings by choice #so many of my younger friends have said im like an older brother they need #and i love that tbh. i love that i get to be something i desperately needed when i was a terrified teenager #n e ways. if u read this far thank you its just wine drunk ramblings. #WHO want to run in the forest naked with me

[dreamdancerdotfile]

(x)

#redraw of the b-side cover yk #oooooo you want to listen to arc so badly ooo #I'd add lyrics but there are none #e_e_ #morf's art #stex #starlight express #espresso #pendolino #espresso the italian engine #everything everything band #if I had a nickel for every national engine that I slapped on an ee cover I'd have two nickels #which isnt a lot but I can do it a few more times

[urgrossdaughter]

Guys im gonna be really inactive from now on :( like even on dms i wont be very active. I might come on here to post and stuff, but not to message because i have exams coming up 😭 hope you understand why i wont be replying😭

#dont hate me #i will probably post a lot and reply to some asks and comments #but i wont be messaging #it takes energy and tjme that i cant afford rn yk?? especially because like i get really distracted and sidetracked #ill stay up til like 3/4am just messaging ppl back #which like.. isnt normal but esp not with exams!

[incorrectskyrimquotes]

I lied about going to bed and against my better judgement decided to check the tag One Last Time before actually sleeping and okay I'm actually truly genuinely touched by the amount of people defending me and the poll and telling Certain People off for the ridiculousness that was my inbox today. I am going to bed on god fr now but. God. Thank you.

#sorry sorry ik this isnt haha funny or even me being mad at stuff #if you dont follow my like MAIN main (not my asking blog. like my actual main) but i was um #i was actually upset to a point of tears earlier #partially bc i hadnt eaten a lot partially bc im very tired #(i have since eaten dw) #but i was. yk. upsetti spaghetti as the kids say #i spent WAY too much energy today deleting asks which shouldnt take more than like a second #but hundreds of them make for hundreds of seconds yk. and its a lot. #but the tag rn is both people having fun (WHAT I WANTED IN THE FIRST PLACE) #and people defending me. and its genuinely just so touching and so much #thank you. from the bottom of my heart and soul thank you.

[thompsborn]

i know i’ve said that being able to do the stereotypical insane ao3 authors notes is fun and amusing to me but can the universe NOT take that as a challenge to add more shit to my list of things to add next time i post ???? like. fucking. Calm Down Please.

#situations keep happening and i am TIRED #had to restrain a kid at work today which was AWFUL but he was trying to run into the road so i literally had to #almost cried bc of it but got the situation under control #but then when on my way to meet w coworkers to carpool to a meeting #my tire popped #super fun times super awesome super great #i mean my mom helped and we got it all fixed and handled #but basically from noon to like 6pm my mom and i were dealing w it bc everything had to be COMPLICATED #so i only just got home like 45 mins ago ish and i am SO tired holy fuck #but im eating left over orange chicken and then gonna shower and then just gonna be lazy and read and maybe write #if i have the brain power i will work on hb chp17 #but i also have a 4 hour training for work tomorrow so yeehaw #its 12:30-4:30 which isnt that bad but still #im also going to my dads afterwards to stay the night and visit him and my siblings #which is a good thing dont get me wrong i love visiting them #it just means i wont have a lot of freetime this weekend to work on writing and cleaning and stuff #not the end of the world and definitely worth it to see my dad and my baby siblings #but i wish it was a 3 day weekend so i could also have a day to just stay home and do things that i havent had the time to do yk #oh well. tis life. adulthood. having to handle situations and finding the best out of shitty circumstances. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

ik realistically i never got a lot of love for jensen and bryce bc oh my god a queer pairing of color?????? fucking tragic i know but also i like to pretend its just bc they are too complex for the mere cishet choices player to understand 😌 

#no bc fr otherwise ill just be sad :') #on one hand i love laying everything on the line from day one #my first fic was a demiro bryce fic which scared off all the bryce romancers bc god forbid i go against the general consensus hc #and like sure i dont want them there if they cant appreciate or try to understand other hcs #but on the other hand like how fucking disappointing is that??? #like its just so fucking tragic #this fandom is such a non queer friendly place #and not usually in the literal bright red im queerphobic way #but in the small ways that are so obvious #to queer people but maybe not the rest #and idk i just.. miss a lot of the people that were here when i started ig?? #like ik im the one who bothered to stay this long but also like i just want people to enjoy media/hc bc theyre good??? #like not bc they fit a trope you like?? #idk im just wishing for something that isnt a thing here #and i Know it #but still #to have friends who love the characters i do would be so nice #just to gush about them yk #but the second i came here with a different hc it immediately set me too far apart from everyone else #and on one hand i Am annoyed #but on the other i just ignore it bc if i paid attention to it i might rip somebody's arm off #n e ways that was a nice mj ramble for you all youll never get it again

[temeow]

shout out to media ..... its really interesting to look at how graphics and layouts and stylisation develops over time and what influences it (lots of analysis in the tags)

#temtalk #i was comparing 1957 vogue to 2023 vogue #and u can see its very much based on pictures now #rather than back then it was lots and lots of words #esp in the first issues where it was so many paragraphs #and its also very fpcused on advertising despite when the article itself isnt #for example one on margot robbie (photoshoots n stuff for barbie) managed to work the branding into the little snippets of text #which ur bound to read bc of how small they are n how they stand out on the page #as being the only text so naturally ur gonna read them #its in the same paragrah no line break or anything #backstory on the image then BOOM brand name #and it has the brand name first which is interesting #like [brand] shoes rather than shoes by [brand] #bc if u were reading for backstory on the image itself u would see 'shoes' and stop reading #but by having thr brand first . boom . right in ur face wether u like it or not #which id obviously what a lot of advertising does bc yk. no one likes it. so they have to force it at u #also also also. i was considering #yk how tumblrs layout look so much like twt now #thats fascinating to me #bc why would u want to go with the crowd rather than maintain ur image which already sticks out somewhat #lots of social platoforms are looking more and more similar #which. is fascinating like i mentioned #bc being unique is a big part of marketing #so its probably playing to the popularity of twt? possibly hoping to draw in more users with a theme thye already recognise #which i mean. this is known as being a 'dead' website #heavy on the quotation marks #so maybe its a case of trying to revive it somewhat by pushing it into the crowd #even tho. its not dead #IDK IDK its all rlly interesting to me!!taking media in school at the moment #and im rlly enjoying it so

[ltsmoving]

currently closing art requests and i may possibly get less active on the whole- lots of art and writing to catch up on, executive dysfunction, and not feeling too good overall.

alongside the chaos, though, i am trying my best to sort out commissions, something i am completely new to and so may take a while. i will be doing both sfw and nsfw.

i'll be completing the two other requests i have lined up but after that i may go a bit quiet temporarily

hope that's all good <3

#eddie rambles #just in a funk rn but ill get better #lots of art fight and toyhouse stuff which isnt necessary but i love doing #im currently brainstorming a comic im trying to write #im scripting a long-form essay #its just a lot that ive not really been keeping on top of yk

[oathofkaslana]

also. Hm. tbh'es. the idea of putting such ridiculous standards for what someone who wasnt a bigot would actually do is kinda. extremely fucking awful for anyone struggling w moral ocd lol.

#believe it or not. fandom 'activism'* is a very small part of yk. activism. and isnt very indicative of your #morals at the very end of the day. #personal #edit: *by this i meant a type of 'activism' that was a lot more concerned w semantics than actual activism #of course activism trickles down to every aspect of your life! #i'm just saying that these semantic-defined activism aren't indicative of your genuine morals #and can often be harmful to activist movements #<- ie: spreading this simplified idea that absolutely anyone who has prefers male characters over female characters is a misogynst #obv it can definitely be indicative of some misogynstic beliefs (even if unintentional or small) #the thing is i know its simplified!! i highly doubt anyone genuinely thinks like that!! #but when you spread that simplified idea around so many young children who want to do good but don't exactly know better #will get wrapped up in the semantics of it!!!! #which leads to activist causes being watered down to a pass fail litmus test that isn't actually effective

[torahtot]

transphobes are so lying abt the denying biological reality brainwashing kids thing like have you ever met a child. i have a 'boy haircut' but at work i don't pass and i wear a skirt and have a girl voice and a girl name and kids still do not realize until i explicitly tell them. even after i tell them im a girl a lot of them insist im a boy because "girls have long hair." this happens almost every day with multiple kids, they have no idea

#this kid today was really funny #he also thought i lived in the office and had always been there and was shocked to learn i have a mom #so his grasp of reality is not very reliable in any area #this also might be affected by growing up in a community where no men have long hair and it's very rare for girls have hair as short as mine #but either way so many kids just fully think im a boy bc of my hair even tho im obviously not so idk #also a lot of kids think everyone has the same genitals as them until they have a baby sibling around & they see something #they fully rely on presentation instead of 'biology' #which isnt good either but yk it just goes to show it's all made up #nachi speaks

[atypi-cals]

I'm so glad the placebo effect works on me so well tho like yesterday we were on the bus in pain and Annie took a few pills out of our Assorted Pill Baggy and Val from the background was like "Those are lactose enzymes" and Annie was like "Shh! Don't tell me that! They're the same shape and size of painkillers I've had before" and it. I mean it fucking worked well enough tbh.

#carys.exe #which is why i take a lot more 'typical' painkillers like ibuprofen yk. #the placebo effect works really well on me just in general and i may as well take advantage of it by letting anything kill my pain #tfw youre so avoidant your pain thinks something MIGHT try to fight it and it fucks off #this isnt to say my pain isnt a very real problem like if i let it get too far even real deal painkillers don't fuck with it #but if i catch it early its like. heyyy body i medicated you stop hurting now 👍 #oh okay yeah you totally Took Pill Im Okay Now 🙂👍

[hnrye]

hm. mha is pretty good maybe.

#watched a video essay about it and was like huh. i watched that in 6th grade and it was mid. #and. well. hm. i think im having more fun making jokes abt the show than actually watching it #but also it is like. a lot better than i remember. which isnt saying much bc i remember it being boring as hell but. yk. #maybe its bc im watching subbed instead of dubbed idk if thats making a difference. and i just like anime a bit more than i did then. #annd i get to think abt MY superhero oc at the same time. and how much cooler they are than this loser. #yea. maybe i will watch more. if i rb stuff about it well. just look away alright. #shut up henry

[nomaishuttle]

perhaps a lot of my b*tw issues are actually due to my own expectations for the game and by extension my dislike for botw fans

#b*tw fans will sct like its the sinoge best zelda hame and like its leagues above and its like #its fine to like it its fine to not like the other zelda games (through gritted teeth) #it is a totally different genre. to me. yk. it feels like a new game which is fine thats what they were going for i surpose #its a huge rebrand for the series n i cn appreciate the aspects of it if i dont try to force it into my personal mold of what A zelda game #is. #also this doesnt include the orientalism with the gerudo. that shits fucked up no matter what #ir is NOT a botw specific issue #but yk. b*tw ws a very. disappointing game 4 me #bc i love older zelda games n botws whole thing is that it. breaks the format entirely andis different from every other game #which is fineee its allowed to do that and im allowed to not like it and other ppl r allowed to like it.. i just have trouble #and also it annoys me that a lot of botw fans r like. Just botw fans. and not loz in general fans.. But still use the loz tags #not that like. idk i dont wanna sound gatekeepy obv th main loz tag is like. botw is a zelda game (even if imo thats in name alone) #but ppl will cross tag botw specific posrs with every other zelda game like. it annoys me #and also i think the fanon portrayl of botw is so fucking annoying i want all of you to jus to bee hornets #and i blame fucking l*nked *niverse that racist fucking cunt. GDDDD #whatever though #its like. its very well done. it can be pretty (personally the art style doesnt appeal to me a ton) the music is very original while also #being a good callback to former games. the sound design is Actually phenomenol #it just isnt for me i think. n yk. it sucks bc like #idk. there will be zelda games after totk #and i hope theyll be. different. and a return to formula #idk... #i do also appreciate like. as much as i say that botw doesnt feel like a zelda game to me #zelda is deeply personal to me.. n i recognize that it Is a zelda game #and i like all of the small references to other games.. i appreciate that #i cn tell the team rly love the world of zelda n im glad for that.. just personally i love the like mechanics and gameplay of former zelda #games. yk.... thats all #n ik. i literally am just going I want more tp. but i do wish we could have more like that...sigh #its ok. i will just rewrite oot in my brain #and botw too i accidentally said oot. i do need tl rewrite oot though bc .. um anyways

[caruliaa]

typical late night miseries but literally so sick of feeling like this always

#like iv been feeling this way in some way throughought this week and i thought i had stopped but i kinda havent lol #and ik its stupid but just idk. im just always in my stupid feelings abt the idea that like ohh i always care abt other ppl then they do me #and like !! the thing is ik it tht that isnt true or at least not laways true and i do have people who really do fully care about me #and like. that really means a lot to me like so so mucch but idk sometimes it just like #i feel like the way that i care abt other people is so like intense in a lot of ways and like idk. #its just such a big thing for me and i feel like i put so much of my heart into it and like sometimes ill find myslef getting so intensely #emotional about it to the point of crying and almost feeling sad and writing stupid bad poetry and it just feels like the huge #vulnerable thing for me so often and i just feel like it rly isnt for anyone else or at least not for the people ik abt me #and like the thing is i dont even want them to feel that way bc ik they do really care about me sm as is #but yk like. idk on a selfish level tht means theres a feeling that its all one sided which really really doesnt help at all with it #to the point were i do sometimes wish tht others cared abt me the same amnt/way bc then i wldnt be alone in such intense feelings #and then i wldnt feel like im the only one not worth caring abt tht way but idk ik im selfish thinking that #its not even fully that i want other people to care more its that i want me to care less #but i just. fucking cant and i just really hate it sometimes and im sick of feeling miserable over such stupid things #and now im acting like annoying and obnoxious. whatever #its 4am im going to go to bed now. goodnight <3 #flappy rambles