#yes shes a goofy kid still yes shes a silly lil guy but also shes a traumatized lil guy who is in a deeply fucked up situation

[arolesbianism]

Let it not be forgotten how much I love Abby. She is the character of all time. 2 me. It's me and my needlessly in depth Abby hcs against the world

#rat rambles #wendy may be my favorite by a significant amount but I still spin around abby in my head at lightning speeds constantly #she is so. *explodes* #idk its just like. shes dealing with the weight of all of wendy's problems while also being one og the causes of said problem and thats #because she in fact did literally die only to presumably have to watch her twin grieve and be the reason that he got stuck in an endless #death cycle and despite her best efforts he does die over and over again and theres nothing she can do to truly save him #and not only that but before meeting the other survivors she was his only light in this fucked up bullshit and she probably knew that #and goddddd theres just so much to unpack there do you see the potential do you see why she makes me wanna bite someone #abby is a fully fledged character with complexities and issues to Me ok #yes shes a goofy kid still yes shes a silly lil guy but also shes a traumatized lil guy who is in a deeply fucked up situation #I just like the idea of contrasting abby and wendy's ways of coping with all of this #especially with how much wendy almost worships abby and their bond after getting contant'd #it just. sounds like a lot of pressure for anyone to deal with let alone a child #and who the hell is she gonna talk abt this stuff to most of the time she cant just get wendy to ask someone to die for a sec #also man being shown again and again that she has like no chance of being alive again is pretty messed up huh #she surely cant be the strong one forever. cracks her like an egg #both in a mental illness™ way and also in a trans way #anyways eepy time gn

[gorgugplushie]

BAD KIDS GAMING HCS

Nobody asked but i cant stop thinking abt it so

Fabian - canonically doesn't know what mobile games are, much less actual videogames. He sort of sees them as pointless (why do quests and adventures in a videogame when he could just do them in real life?) Of course the bad kids pull him into their gaming sessions, though he spends most of them asking what the controls are again and raising an eyebrow at their shenanigans. Ragh sits him down and makes him play some sport based video games which he does enjoy, he can get really into it if you give him time (he yells so so loud) he also gets into ddr style games bc he likes beating the other bdkds at them. Videogames are a good excuse to hang but he'd rather go out and play football irl.

Kristen - coming from a heavily sheltered and what i assume monitored family, kristen probablyyy isnt all that into videogames. At most i think she'd have some mobile games like idk candy crush on her phone, like fabian she'd get confused and spend her in game time running around and just watching the others play, she goes along w the others shenanigans v easily tho and loves doing silly bits while playing.

Riz - Riz is the type to play window games on their families shared computer for hours on end. Stuff like sudoku, pinballs, or solitaire. He'd love those games like the nancy drew mystery ones, or those games where you find items like I Spy. The only downside is he gets unhealthily fixated and will spend 3 days getting to lvl 100+ on Tetris if you let him, obsessed w 100% games and making funny number go up. Surprisingly good at rhythm games.

Adaine - into open world games, like fallout or outerwilds. Will spend days writing and churning out backstory and lore for her in game character. Veryyy picky and wants every decision to be true to their newest ocs backstory, will spend a solid hour on the character creation screen. She also loves more violent shooting games, although playing online with strangers gives her anxiety and she cannn get gamer rage, she'll get fixated on getting stuff like headshots and Winning and Being a good teammate that she'll start shaking and have to step away from playing for a bit. Single player fighting games w blood where she can turn her brain off and just fight are more cathartic for her. I feel like she ends up doing insane shit in them like saw and hack off limbs and go full dark story mode route and then regret it so so much and lie awake at night not sleeping bc of it and delete the save file. Its her dark secret shell take to the grave.

Fig - plays a large range of games, mainly more colorful and silly goofy ones she can play with the badkids. Shes sort of a little nuisance in games tho, she will troll and grief a lil bc she finds it funny. In singleplayer games she does love being a huge stinker and do silly stuff like pickpocket and get caught or accidentally set a bomb off in the middle of a cutscene or glitch her character to a-pose, she does a bunch of shit and laughs and doesn't take it seriously at all. Like adaine she also gets gamer rage. she gets them both banded from online for a month bc they team up to cast a spell on someone thru the screen. LOVESS shit like guitar hero and skater games sooo much, also into those wwe type games. Cant stomach horror at all but will make the rest of the kids sit down and play horror games w her so they can laugh and scream together.

Gorgug - he tends to like more older games, say in the style of star fox/loz and stuff. His parents gave him and older gaming system when he was younger n he still has it around and collects games for it, its seeing a lot more use than it originally did bc now he has friends to play with. The type of guy to still carry their ds around. I feel like hed also modify and rom hack stuff for his friends. He likes going to the arcade in person and playing there than sitting in front of a computer.

Ayda - yes im including her shes a gamer girl in my heart. I feel like she loves life sims/complex puzzle games, stuff like slime rancher, portal, animal crossing. She has 1000+ hours into a single sims save file. She spends hours and hours building and working on the most elaborate farming system for whatever new sim shes getting invested in. She especially loves organizing in games, she gets a bit antsy playing more survival based games with the bad kids because they leave their systems so unorganized (shes def the type to redo the entire base from top to bottom in dont starve while the rest die off screen). neat and orderly decoration is soo fun for her and the bad kids try not to step on her turf too much. refuses to play multiplayer if it's with anyone else but the badkids, but if anyone would start a gaming channel its her. will do obscenely gay cutesy stuff w fig n game. They build their own little base and junk and pretend to hosts weddings n stuff. Shes also very into speed running and breaking games with glitches to figure out how they work.

#fh #fantasy high #gorgug txt.

[robotsafari]

i will literally never be over the kh pilot. everyone has already moved on. wow what a cool novelty. sucks that it got canceled. okay im just going to never think about this ever again lalala~ (or its weird. or the art is bad. or its got too many inaccuracies. whatever.)

but me? no. im insane. this thing is too insane and amazing to just end the conversation about it. i will always think about this thing. i will always think about the massive loss the kh community never even knew they had until recently.

while i will never know what the full creative vision was. this pilot tells us that THEY. WERE. COOKING. they lean into the fact that sora is just a kid, (SOME FANS FORGET THIS) and he now faces this burden of being a hero when all he really wants is to see his friends again. the !! even though its just a pilot and riku was probably put in agrabah just so they can introduce him to the audience. i would’ve LOVED more riku encounters. traverse town, neverland and monstro were great. but in my opinion? not enough! though the only thing i would fear riku’s more frequent appearances would do is distract from some of the disney stuff (you dont wanna get rid of it. but you dont want it to take over. its a delicate balance) so maybe use him a lil sparingly but god. put him in more situations, okay?

while kairi plays a more proactive role in kh1 and thats fine (shes not useless. i hate when people call her that) i still would’ve LOVED more scenes with her. whether it was in destiny islands or near the end of game. im just liek YES !! you go girl. prolong the heartless sora segment if ya have to. do it for her. it would’ve been fun to see kairi and sora hollow bastion hijinks. waauughh please kairi my good friend kairi. liek. what we’ve seen of kairi in the pilot was already awesome. kh2 hadn’t even come out but the energy has always been there guys. she wants to take an active role and she hates sitting back!! love that the pilot wanted to give you a glimpse of this by having her kick a damn shadow in the faceee!!! you will always be famous forever kairi god bless.

my good friends donald and goofy. wtf did nomura do to you. one liek = preyer for teh toons /silly. yeah so liked how their fighting was actually toony in the pilot. goofy literally beating all the heartless while knocked out and donald getting messed with by a shadow like a typical donald short is just perfect (THINKS REAL HARD ABOUT HOUSE OF MOUSE.) and ofc!! the heart’s there too!! donald and goofy are so sweet to sora!! THEYRE HIS DADS. they’ve done playful ribbing to sora in the games, and thats not exactly a bad thing.. but sometimes i feel like it gets TOO MUCH. ESPECIALLY IN KH3 GOOD LORD. donald and goofy are sweet. yes donald. hes only gets mad because people mess with him. if you’re nice to him hes super sweet. some playful teasing from donald is okay, but too mean or too much and then its not him. mickey has a pretty minor appearance in kh1 unfortunately but omfg. if i rant about how nomura writes him then we’d be here for a while. the real mickey would not have left aqua in the realm of darkness. just know this, okay? idgaf if you don’t believe me.

it’s confirmed maleficent possessed riku in that scene. you know the one. someone said riku was lying.. NUMBER ONE. his eyes turned completely white and idk about you but thats liek. the textbook sign of being fucking possessed. riku didnt know wtf was going on!! just just grabbed the lamp and suddenly things happened! im sure it was supposed to be interpretive, yes, but the dialogue and visuals suggested possession and also kearsley confirmed it himself on deviantart. (you can search it up yourself) NUMBER TWO. maleficent asks riku if sora believed him. implying that she wants to use riku to manipulate sora. imagine if she used this possession again, in more subtle ways. riku sounds like a sopping wet sad cat too, whatever he does anyway is just so that he can get everything back to normal and undo his mistakes. maleficent doing MORE active villainy would’ve been. SO GOOD. god bless.

oh wait this is the part where i start talking about ansem huh? teeheeeee weheheheee. yo imagine if he was in house of mouse. OKAY THATS NOT A JOKE BUT THIS ISNT SUPPOSED TO BE WHAT THIS PART WAS ABOUT. ERM. i just hope he would’ve still been voiced by billy zane thats all ask for. in this awesome alternate timeline where the cartoon wasn’t cancelled. i think ansem was perfect in kh1 i dont think they needed to add or change anything really.

in short. i have autism. goodnight.

#robo ramble #if the kh cartoon pilot has no fans then im dead.

[milkchu]

joe mazzello as a dad ♡ headcanons.

pairing: joe mazzello x fem!reader

warnings: just some swearing, kinda long???

a/n: i actually made being married to joe headcanons before this so go ahead if y’all wanna read!! 💓

so it’s no secret that this man would be 1000000% dad material

we’ve all seen pics of him with kids and it’s fuckin adorable

so imagine his face when you told him you were pregnant

he would be s o b b i n g

though it took some attempts

you had so many cute ideas and plans on how to break the news to him

like putting a bun in the oven or doing the whisper challenge thingy

but he just wouldn’t get it for some reason

so after like 938382728537 attempts

you decide to straight up say it to his face

“joe i’m pregnant”

his reaction brings joy to your heart nonetheless

he just pulls you in for a tight hug and buries his face in your shoulder

“i’m gonna be a dad?” his voice bREAKS bc he’s crying aw :(

and you just kiss his head and stroke his hair

“yes joe”

you also couldn’t help but tear up bc you know he loves kids so much and he’s been wanting to have his own and he can finally have a family with you 💗 uwu

ofc joe was with you through every step of the way

he would cook you breakfast and bring you literally any craving you had without question

“what do you wanna eat for lunch, babe?”

“pizza ,,, with mac ‘n cheese on top ,,, smothered in ranch ,,, and a milkshake with peanut butter in it ,,, lots of it.”

“ok gotchu babe”

he would also talk and cuddle your bump as much as he could

late at night he would make sure you were asleep (sometimes you weren’t so you pretended to be asleep)

and just talk to your bump

“hi there, mommy and i can’t wait to see you”

“i don’t care if you’re a boy or a girl or both or neither”

“i’m still gonna love you with all my heart and soul and protect you at all costs”

then he softly kisses your bump and goes back to sleep

you tried so hard to contain yourself bc you just wanted to squeal and drown him in a billion kisses

omg imagine when both of you went to award shows or premieres

showing off your baby bump like an icon™️

joe would be so silly when taking pictures on the red carpet

like he would just point at your belly and be like “i did that *wink wink*”

nonetheless both of you just looked so amazing like the ultimate power couple you are

when the due date finally comes OH BOY

all hell breaks loose in the house

“jO E m Y WATER JUST B RO KE“

and he would panic a bit but he would be prepared

like he had an emergency bag with your clothes and some essentials in it

he would guide you to the car

“yeah that’s right baby, you’re doing fine”

“fine? FINE??? i am totally NOT FINE JOSEPH”

then you finally arrive in the hospital

before you could even get down from the car, joe just picks you up and carries you to the emergency room

he holds your hand the entire time

after you finally give birth he just gives you tons of kisses

“you did so well, baby”

the nurses hand the baby over to him and he’s just looking at it with glossy eyes

then he shows your child to you

“he/she’s so beautiful”

“just like his/her mom”

he would def post a picture of the three of you on his instagram right after

proud parents™️ :’)

if you had a son, you would definitely name him after joe

like when you’re calling for one of them, “hey, joe?”

and they both turn their heads and say in unison, “yes?” lmaooo

“that’s it i’m calling you joey”

“oh god moOoOoOoM”

so the first few months of taking care of your baby was tough ofc but you both got the hang of it as time passed by

thank god you both took parenting classes

both of you would have this silly competition on who could put the diaper on the baby faster

or who could cheer your baby up first when he/she starts crying

but you still had your sweet fluffy moments

one time you woke up in the middle of the night and joe wasn’t beside you

so you went to your kid’s room and saw him on a chair, holding your baby :’)

the baby woke up crying so joe went and checked up on it

he was talking to it so you just hid behind the door and watched

“hey tiny person”

“it’s okay, it’s okay, shhh”

“daddy’s got you” :’)

then the baby would start smiling up at him, gurgling

and you swore you heard “dada” come out the baby’s mouth and it wAS U G H just brought tears to your eyes

you literally had your hand against your heart bc it was such a beautiful sight uwu

so you couldn’t help but approach the two, putting your hands on his shoulders

“oh sorry, did we wake you up, babe?”

“no, the bed just felt cold without you”

he chuckles, “be there soon, have to take care of this little one first”

you both just spent a few minutes together before you suggested to bring your baby to your bedroom

so you all slept together with your baby in the middle :’)

you also had a lot of picnics together !!!

your kid was about three years old and you would watch him/her play around in the grass (bonus if you have a dog!!!)

while you had your back against joe’s chest, his arms wrapped around you

“he/she grows way too fast” he grumbles and pouts against your shoulder

you turn your head to peck his lips, “that means we did well, right?”

he continues to have this cute pout on his face, “but he/she’s gonna grow even more then he/she’s gonna be an angsty teen, rebel against us, go to college, have a job, get married—“

you just cut him off with a kiss, you giggled, “and i’m gonna be by your side the whole time”

“enjoy the moment while he/she’s still small” 💗

then your child comes running up to the both of you, flailing around with cute lil chubby arms and legs uwu

“mommy! daddy! let’s pway!”

and you just spent the whole day playing around in the grass with your beautiful family :’)

when you have get togethers with the borhap cast

lucy would definitely be all over your kid, “sorry, guys. he/she’ll be staying with rami and i from now on”

also when you talk with the others while your kid is on your lap

joe, not paying attention, is beside you making goofy faces at your kid, giggles coming out from them

and oh boy expect lots of instagram posts from joe

one time he was alone with your kid while you were at work and both of them were missing you

so he decided to post a selfie of the both of them, making cute pouty faces

“it’s so lonely in the house without mom 😪 @(y/n)”

then you send joe back a selfie with a scrunched up face, “i’m at the grocery store buying food so you two babies don’t starve to death”

another is your kid’s first day of school !!!

you took the picture, joe was kneeling down, hugging your kid tightly

“it’s this little troublemaker’s first day of school! don’t burn the school down!” 😂

joe is definitely a dedicated dad

schedule a meeting at 3? no way man i gotta pick my kid up from school

omg when he arrives at the school too early

he parks his car first and decides to make a random video for instagram

y’all already know what it would be

then your kid, already a teenager, comes to the car and just finds joe like this—

“what the hell are you doing, dad?”

lmao alright that’s all i have for now !!! def making another part in the future!

*gif not mine!

tags: @b-hardys // @hunterswearingplaid // @livingforrt // @bensrhapsody // @jennyggggrrr // @little-weirdo-13 // @kemeryyyy

#hardyzello #joe mazzello #joe mazzello x reader #joe mazzello imagine #borhap #borhap imagine #borhap cast #dad fic

[alyjojo]

20 memories & isms I love about you.

1. He sent me flowers at work. Twice 🥰

2. He left work to help me fix my tire, outside my ex’s house. Never drove on a highway before that day. (no I shouldn’t have dated the guy, but that particular Gemini is the asc degree of our composite chart, he’s the reason we ever met at all, and hubby is the reason we broke up so...lesson learned)

3. He made me eat his mom’s food. Not only that but excitedly. He’d be like “mom is making hot spaghetti and you’re gonna come over and have some”...I’d say no thx 20 times but he wasn’t hearing it. Hot spaghetti day. I felt weird having someone’s mom cook for me. She probably felt weird too tbh, but he was so over the top happy about mom, food, and me, that it didn’t seem to matter and worked out fine 😆

4. He’s so forward, and bold as hell. I’m irritatingly shy and very guarded. Literally the only way he got me was because he’d act before I could really even think about it or think myself out of it. Winners mind.

5. He moved me into his moms house. I was not ok. Not not not. My pride is...well it exists, and burns like fire whenever help is given. I will never ask in all my life and idc, feels better that way. Will gladly die first. My rotors were broken though (I could write a book just about car problems fr), I needed two and it was gonna take awhile. I’d be in the city and he’d be way out there. He’s like nah. You stay. He insisted...and I stayed. Staying was not a me thing, he changed that.

6. He gave me a baby. After all of the years I didn’t have periods, needed pills to have a normal body, all of the times I talked myself out of that sort of life altogether because I clearly didn’t have the guy (ex was not a kid guy) or the working body parts to even do that, must not be for me. First time in our new apartment, boom baby.

7. First time in our slightly bigger and nicer apartment, boom baby 2. We started actually using protection after she was born. Clearly we can.

8. He worked stupidly long hours and put up with so many people that just had no fn clue, it put a strain on everything, most of all him. When he got the offer for Indy, I pushed it. And pushed it. And pushed. May as well have pushed him right out the door, we were going, because those people suck and you’ll never get the chance to be seen while you’re doing that glorified delivery guy’s job for him. We’re going. So, we did, and he got me out of this damn state. At least once.

9. He loved getting lost with me, and it was my favorite thing. Indiana is a beautiful state and I encourage anyone to get lost there, on purpose.

10. I forgot work. He caused some serious change. Everyone else lost their job, including hubby’s favorite person ever, Jonathan. Today he’s the sole survivor of a mom and pop shop, and I’m so unbelievably proud of him. The best part though, is two of the guys from work used to come see me at my new work all the time, with all their bar bitches 😆 They were my favorite people, I was always so excited to see them. Hubby tried to get them back on, and did for one of them. And when the bigger boss needed a new smaller boss bc hubby was leaving the state, hubby fought like hell for Jonathan. Like Highlander, there can only be one *sksksksksksk* They looked at a couple and hubs was like no only Jon knows the ways of the force. They hired him back, Jon has sent him some of the sweetest thank you messages...it changed his life, and hubs still loves him very much. It’s adorable.

11. Screamy baby Shmoo, she was a screamy baby, and so very beautiful. Baby Bam was like a dream, she was the perfect baby in every way. My screamy baby Shmoo was also a perfect baby, with a pitch that could break glass and sometimes she just wanted to practice for hours. Usually I got her to bed with mama snuggles & milk, singing Alison Krauss and rocking. Sometimes though, on the roughest nights, it’d be over an hour before I’d open the door with screamy baby still in a fit, and he’d take her. He’s so warm and calm, he’d win every single time, and I’d be like...zzzzz tysm ily tyty zzzz....

12. His jokes. He’s not funny (yes he is don’t tell him). He thinks he’s funny. He jokes all day every day about everything always. The girls know when dad says something to be skeptical bc he said they gotta go outside and till the land with tiny shovels, and when I roll my eyes they know he’s full of it. What’s funnier, his mom was the kind of person that took things literally always. Every time him and his goofy dad were being sarcastic, I’d have to tell her that because they’d have her believing crazy stuff. My kids share a lot of her isms, that’s one. My son absolutely does not joke, he is quite literal (so far), and I always have to scold hubby or tell lil guy nooooo he’s kidding. I don’t talk about his silliness nearly enough and I should, that’s him ❤️

13. His relationship with his mom. His mom was always on the...I wouldn’t say weaker side, but older, regular pain, on disability. He was her BABY. Her eyes lit up like Christmas when he entered the room. She loves him so so much. His sister... You know the kind, or...just imagine, probably close. He hated it. He got his job pretty young and just kept it. Always had money, always offered to help his mom, always was like IM FINE MOM. She just wanted to do for him, and he’s always been the kind of guy that wants to do for himself. And she was so funny, she’d slip $20 into the diaper bag and tell me “don’t tell him”, putting it on me. So we’d get in the car. And I’d be like there’s $20 in the diaper bag, knowing he’s gonna be pissed if he finds it (she needs it). And he’d get it, run into the house, set it on her table, and run out the door while she ran after him hollering protests 😆 Lots of other stories too. I miss her so much, I can’t even imagine how much he must.

14. His relationship with his sister, and other whirlwind people. He’s like a rock. I’ve spent lots of time with his sister, but not at once. The one day I did, I came home and my brain was so full of her bazillion ideas and impulsive let’s do this and just one thing, opposite thing, different subject, back to the subject, hey let’s do this, omg I have an idea. I love her to death but I had to sit and just...dump my brain. Ask myself for my own input bc I’d lost wtf...what were we doing again?!? Him though? Doesn’t miss a beat. No...no...no...I’ll think about it...no...no..change subject. No issue saying no. Back then I was like thank god, girl would have me on a cruise to Aruba tomorrow with costume jewelry and black face before I could even think to protest. Not him.

15. Making up. The difference between Taurus moon and Sag moon is that Taurus moon stays mad for the rest of their lives (hello...) and Sag moon wakes up in the morning like nothing happened in the history of ever. This was something that irritated me THE MOST. Don’t make me laugh, I’m pissed at you. Over the years, it became the only way we’d talk at all sometimes. Is certainly the only reason we made up, countless times. He never stopped trying to make me smile, even if I wanted nothing to do with it.

16. Acts of Service. Is not mine, which is either words time or touch and I really can’t decide which. All. He speaks a whole other language. He will let me nap, or take the kids somewhere, he will spontaneously clean or go grocery shopping, walk the dog, mow the lawn, hang out at the birthday party. It didn’t start right away, more and more as he learned my isms. He’ll make me coffee as I’m coming down the stairs. I rarely have to ever ask for any practical thing. He knows my orders for anything, recently there’s been twice that he literally read my mind before I spoke. I try to do the same for him as much as I can, because I know that’s his language and I really appreciate him.

17. Bedroom games. The man knows my body like a map, no, an Excel spreadsheet 😭, and how to get every reaction he’s looking for. He is the only man to ever satisfy my insatiable ass. He made me a whole new person in that regard. He says the same about me. Never an issue there. It’s this far down the list cuz it’s not the most important, but it’s pretty important too so there that is.

18. We share the same goals. We judge the same way, like why did they wrap this like that it looks sketchy. We parent the same. We decide the same. We critically think and weigh ideas the same. We walk the same line in the same direction. If anything he’s too negative sometimes, but that’s his own personal thing. Can’t be full of Capricorn and not lean more toward pessimism (not “realism”) sometimes I think. If it’s worth it, I’ll try to coax him to middle ground. Sometimes it’s a battle, but only if I’m really sure. Usually, he’s right, so I just let him lead.

19. When I was pregnant with my son. Initially. It was hell. His car was trashed, mine was broken and thousands of dollars to fix (this particular car in this particular year has this and what a coincidence it was particularly my problem...cars, I’m telling ya). I was two feet out the door with his shit, but his sister’s issues led to my heart. Because her kids. I love them very much, of course they can stay here and not with some strange person hell no. I cannot describe how angry I was at him. HE strapped backpacks onto his back and walked to the nearest store. Hauled so much crap in a huge backpack and just his arms. Over the course of two months. He quit drinking. He went above and beyond to do get offer or provide anything I could even imagine. More romantic then I think I’d ever seen him before. At least...it had been some time anyway. Of course...he was lying to me. The whole time. To what extent idk. Regarding the work shit, idk. Thus the question and the dream and the crazy and the...crazy 😞 Wanted to piss me off boy he got that tenfold. His actions during this time period are 💯 why I stayed. He was clearly trying like hell to prove to me he could try, and it’s more than anyone I’ve ever known has even bothered to “bother” with. I was impressed, and proud. Respect counts for a lot more than love sometimes, and at the time I respected him.

20. He’s an amazing father. There are so many stories I couldn’t possibly write them all. Our son though, he chose daddy, right from the start. Nothing like our daughters, nor any kid I’d known. He’d scream, FOR his dad. He’d only sleep on his shoulder. Hubby held this baby for hours on end. If he didn’t baby would demand it, but it was very natural to them both. Baby wanted a bottle, and hubby to give it to him. It blew my mind. Hubby got his little teammate and together they’ve changed my life and perspective in ways I couldn’t have ever imagined.

I’ve spent so long sporadically venting on here that I don’t think I’ve ever posted the sweet things. So many great memories and daily...everything...are missing, so many years and little moments. That would take forever. Its always been my frustrations, which was the purpose. This is my heart. No matter what happens, all of these things will always be true.

#I love him with all my heart

[dearxstangelicaa-blog]

Helpless (Part 2)

Plot/storyline: You knew that getting a job at Hamilton: An American Musical as an ensemble member would be challenging. You didn’t mean to fall for Lin and now it’s just another part of your life you need to fight to keep in control. * I know this changed a lil from the original but the original intro was sorta shit so i decided to make it sound a lil better. Disclaimer: I’ve had experience backstage and onstage during musicals and plays so i know kind of what I’m talking about and the rest is made up. I don’t know what kind of work gets put into a broadway musical and by no means trying to make it seem easy cause show biz is super hard. Also I’m pretending that the obc is still together at this time.

Lin x Reader

Warnings: Some swearing, like two swear words.

Words: 1137 (told ya it would get longer) You walked in to your first day of rehearsal feeling as nervous as you would on the first day at a new school. Would they think you’re talented enough? Would people like you? But most importantly, would they laugh at your dad jokes? You meet Lin outside the theatre and you feel like your anxiety about meeting the cast starts to subside. “Don’t worry, Y/N, the whole cast is going to love you”, he said with a huge grin on his face. “ I just feel like the new kid at school. I really just want get along with everybody”, you say somewhat anxiously. “Nonsense, I feel like you’re going to be one of the cool kids here”. You couldn’t stop yourself from snorting over that sentence. Yes, you weren’t exactly a loner in high school but you were by no means a “cool kid”. You guys had made your way through to the stage door making idle chit chat before you got onto the stage. You saw all of the cast sitting either on the stage or in the audience ready for today’s rehearsal. The conversation came to a halt when you and Lin entered the room. Lin walked in front of you before announcing “ Behold our newest ensemble member, the incredibly talented Y/N”, you heard a huge round of applause and some whopping and felt yourself starting to blush. As the applause stopped you heard Chris Jackson come up to you and say, “ that’s a beautiful name Y/N”. Before you can stop yourself you hear your worst dad joke slip out of your mouth, “Thanks, it was a birthday present”. If you weren’t resembling a tomato before you knew for sure that you were now. You start to hear Lin laugh uncontrollably and so does the rest of the cast. “That was the best joke I’ve ever heard”. You smile, thankful that you didn’t mess up your first impression with the cast. “Alright kids, let’s get this rehearsal on the road shall we”, says Alex with a grin on his face. You pick up the dance moves easily and soon you are seemingly flowing with the rest of the ensemble through out the choreography. You soon realise that your initial fears of the cast were ridiculous and you find yourself incredibly comfortable with the whole group. Although the overall thought of talking to Lin made you sick you got along really well with the most of the cast. You weren’t trying to avoid Lin but you also weren’t trying to talk to him or gain his attention. Although it seemed like he kept praising you through each of the scenes which made you feel like dying.  You were standing in the wings when you heard Pippa start to say, “someone’s got a crush on you”. “What are you talking about Pippa, I’ve been here one day. There is no way someone has a crush on me. Unless you want to admit something to me” you say as you wriggle your eyebrows. “Not me silly, Lin”. “No way in hell could he like me. We only just met the other day” you try to sound convincing but a small part of you wonders if Lin could somehow remotely feel the same way you do. Pippa smiles as she says, “trust me, I’ve known Lin for a while and I’ve never seen him look at someone like that”. “What are you even talking about, Lin literally embodies the heart eyes emoji whenever he looks at someone”. She tuts at you before she goes onstage to sing helpless. You know that Pippa is probably just making something out of nothing. Besides, this is just a silly crush, you’ll probably be over it in like a week maybe a month tops. You had faced to much heartache to let yourself go through that again.

Update, you did not get over said crush in one week. Although you were too nervous to actually start a conversation with him, you always saw him smiling and laughing in rehearsal and it honestly made you swoon. You, an adult, female, independent woman, swooning over some guy at work. You throwed yourself into rehearsals and by the end of the week you had already memorised your ensemble parts. You still needed to learn Eliza’s parts but you already knew all the lyrics so all that was left was the blocking and choreography. You came to the theatre early to practice in the solace of the theatre, when , you heard a loud booming voice speak up behind you that gave you the shock of your life. You turned around to see no other than Daveed Diggs standing behind with a devilish grin on his face. now, over the course of a week you had grown closest to Daveed. He seemed to understand your jokes the most, liked the same shows as you and was the only one who shared your embarrassing love of MC HAMMER. “Fucking hell, Diggs. You scared the living crap out of me”. “Good”. Said Daveed with a grin on his face. “You know just as I was starting to like you, you turn out to be a complete jerk”. You turn around and pretend to be angry with him, but he wraps his arms around you and starts tickling you. Now, to say you were ticklish was an understatement. You started to giggle uncontrollably and didn’t realise that you were on the floor crying with laughter with Daveed on top of you until you heard someone clear their throat. “Uhm, am I interrupting something”, Lin says with an unreadable expression on his face. “Come here Miranda, help me show Y/N why she shouldn’t call people jerks”. He says with his goofy grin on his face. “No, please stop, I surrender, I surrender. Diggs you are the best man I know and the best human to have existed”, you say with a grin on your face. “That’s what I like to hear”, he says his smile still on his face. Through out this interaction you miss the part where Lin looks like his about to punch someone because he saw some other guy wrapping his hands around you. Not just some other guy, one of his best friends. “Hey, you ok man, you seem kind of quiet”. Lin didn’t realise that Diggs had come up next to him and saw him clenching his fists. “Perfectly fine.” Lin says as he puts his bag down. You wonder why Lin is being so quiet, he’s normally the most abundant source of energy in the theatre and today he seems almost empty. The other cast start to trickle in and you start to rehearse the show but you swear, it sounds as if Lin wants to punch Daveed in the cabinet battle.

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