takinglifeabreathatatime

[takinglifeabreathatatime]

I love my life right now. I wish I could pause it now! :-D im not a statistic! I fucking winnnnnnn!!!!

#depression #anxiety #ptsd #dissociation #bpd #borderline personality disorder #ocd #former anorexic #suicide #child abuse survivor #DV survivor #MS warrior

[takinglifeabreathatatime]

disappointment 

Fuck yo..Dan told me that his feelings are not reciprocal. whatever. but I know its my fault for divulging soooo much...idk what's wrong with me...im not doing it for attention or a pity party. idk what the fuck is up with my dysregulated brain...whatever

Then I'm like well I don't wanna try women again. Tasha fucked me up bad and I never want to go through that again.

so maybe ill just be single and rich :-) but I at least want a friend

[takinglifeabreathatatime]

session 10/3/2022

Session with Susan was amazing today!

She asked me why I kept talking in 3rd person about myself. I didn't realize. she asked me if I was ever diagnosed with DID. and I said no but I used to think I had it but you told me in 2013 that it was parts not identities.

She told me to journal and I said ok! I will.

Me and Dan are fucking done. he's the one who told me he doesn't have feelings for me. wtf ever. I'm not heart broken. disappointed yes.

do I wanna go and take drugs drink until oblivion YES!. but I won't bc I'm doing well rn so why would I go backwards.

Steph loves life too much and is too happy to be here!