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Perhaps I should update everyone who came here all those years ago. My starting diagnosis was BPD, and I could not find much material on it at all. So this blog was started and I did not expect for it to head in any direction, other than just to express how it felt for others to know.

Later on, my diagnosis was changed to CPTSD, so therefore I learnt as much as I could and adapted it to my new diagnosis. Learning why I did the things I did, every small part of my growing up allowed me to understand what I became, to know the very fragments of what made me.

A melting pot of sharp glass, soft bubbles, cigarette ash and pastel evening clouds. I was damaged, but still alive, and with hope. Little bit by bit I have arranged all of the ingredients into a badass, magical agreement. I've picked up the pieces I wanted and shattered the ones I didn't.

Life spun into a whirlwind romance, I married my long term partner, discovered I was non binary, and spent the early morning of my 25th birthday (August 2020) at the side of my deceased mother, who was stolen away by cancer.

Nothing prepared me for the surprise I encountered on new year's day. I found out that I was to become a mother for the second time. Upon reading my blogs back, I come here as a recovered parent, and no longer the victim of a toxic household. My blog will now become a safe place for those abused, and I will extend my parenting towards anyone who can find me. You are safe here, I promise.

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I wrote this several years ago when my mind couldn't find its way. It resonated with a lot of people, was shared across multiple platforms, and a lot has changed since then ♡

Signs you grew up lonely

- Chasing people who don’t want you

-Making up lots of stories and worlds

-Overtalking whenever there’s someone to talk to

-Excessive reading

-Daydreaming

-Clinging emotionally to others

-Being the ‘disposable’ friend in the group

-Excessive baths

-Talking to oneself

-Obsessive friendships

-Excessive helpfulness

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Hi!! I came across a post on Pinterest that I believe might be yours-- It's titled 'Signs You Grew Up Lonely'. I just wanted a link to the post maybe so I could use it properly to help with my creative writing? Sorry to bother you if I've contacted the wrong person! Good day uwu

Hi there! I haven't used Tumblr for a couple years but yes, that is my post :) ♡

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I am incredibly bored of the "everyone is so easily offended" thing. People are allowed to be offended. Complaining that you have to grow by learning ways to be a better person seems like a very backwards way of thinking.

Folks who were previously walked all over have now found their voice and are speaking up against the invalidation and gaslighting they've experienced. But instead of learning from it, some people are behaving like petulant children who were told off for hitting. All because they can no longer be a demeaning bully and get away with it.

"I don't have to be mindful of other people's feelings," is basically how this sounds. We should all be accountable for our actions, strive to a better person and stop expecting everyone to have a thick skin just so people can continue to be rude.

#just saying #just some thoughts #just a feeling #society #do better

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I’ve seen a lot of people talk about how they want to be okay, feel better, and I’m gonna drop some knowledge on you right now. Just the fact that you want to feel okay means you’re getting better. You saying ‘this isn’t where I want to be in life’ means you are looking forward, looking to get better. And just that little bit of motivation means that you are okay, because you’re still alive and still looking forward. You haven’t lost hope yet, and I’m sure that’s better compared to where you used to be. I believe in you. Keep getting better.

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Abandoned buildings

#abandoned building #mother nature #nature #haunted #gothic house #gothic #gothic building #architecture

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Hey aspecs!!!! I love you!! I’m proud of you!! I hope you have an awesome pride month!! Cause you deserve it!!

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What would you do if discrimination against you just didn't exist for one day?

Be that anywhere between transphobia, acephobia to racism to body shaming.

#questions #asks #world #deep thought #deep #curiosity #curious #you are loved #love quote #love

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Hi, so you had a post about signs you grew up lonely and I think I checked every item. ugh. How do you think I could fix the unhealthy behaviors?

Baby steps. Flowers don't bloom in a day darling, be conscious about what you're doing and think of a way to improve it. Let's say you want to do something but are worried about what people think. Instead of choosing not to do it, find a compromise. If it were wearing an outfit, try wearing it round the house first. If it's going to a party, go for an hour and see how you feel. Not going or going for seven hours could do you worse. Life is all about balance.

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Sorry for all the asks, but I wanted to say this girl is finally getting herself some serious help for her anxiety and turning her life around! It took the absolute worst week of my life to open my eyes and give me the courage to get myself the help I needed. I'm so excited because things are looking up and I can start truly smiling again. I wanted to thank you for all of the advice you've given me throughout my harder times, because you've helped me pull through. Thank you so so much!

SQUEEE I'm so happy for you and so proud. My darling, I hope you're proud of yourself. I came to tumblr in a huge grump and your news cheered me up so much. Love and consented hugs 🖤🖤

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Brooke comforting Plastique 💕

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Highlights from Episode 5 of RPDR Season 11

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HEY MONSTERS 

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Apologies for those wondering where I've got to. I'm in the process of moving home and recieving CPTSD support (after more than a decade of fighting for it). Things are slow but will pick up. I hope you're all well on this day.

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I've finally started to better myself when it comes to my mental health, and I've made leaps and bounds of progress. I've stopped my self harm and, with the help of my love, I've found so many reasons to keep getting better. Recently, I had my first rough night in a long time and I'm afraid of spiraling again. Do you have any advice for me?

The key to remember is that progress of any sort will not always be 100%. Setbacks will happen, but it doesn't automatically mean you're doomed, remember an arrow must be pulled backwards in order to shoot forwards. You cannot be great and well 24/7, and you should in no way feel any pressure to be. Be gentle with yourself, any progress is good progress and you should be so proud of yourself. Much love 🖤