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Let's see how do I say this basically my mental health has slowly been deteriorating to what it was 3 years ago aka the worst its ever been and a large part of that is due to my living situation

I just had a 3 hour mental breakdown bc I got in a fight w my mom and moral of the story I really don't see a point to living anymore

And just the thought of me coming as far as I have just to be saying this literally is bringing me to tears rn 😭

#tw sui implied

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A/N: apologies for distant lately, this was somewhat of a meaningless free write, didn't expect it to be anything but thought I'd share it nonetheless. Let me know what you guys think <3

In the bustling morning, I passed a small Cafe on my way to work. Peering inside the cozy location, I wondered to myself if the fast pace atmosphere was worth the three dollars for an energy boost in my bland schedule. I decided it was worth it and as I heard the jingle of the bells atop the now open door, a shrill voice called out,

"Welcome to Jamisons!" I offered a small smile followed by a wave as I examed the scene in front of me before joining the queue of busy travelers. As I looked upon the menu for the first time, I decided to keep it cheap and simple and ordered a medium sized cappuccino for three dollars. It wasn't an overly long wait as I occupied a small table.

I checked my phone as I waited to no avail and became bored upon glance. I decided to study the scene in front of me instead of an electrified screen. I looked up and saw that the cafe was not only comfortable, but instead seemed to offer a trip back in time to the 90s. It wasn't expected but it was also welcomed. I felt as though a pair of orbs were resting on my shoulder as I shifted my gaze from en elderly couple to the table next to me.

There, I saw a younger woman looking around until our eyes eventually met. A blush dusted her cheeks as I let out a chuckle. She looked up from where her eyes had fallen to the sketchbook in her palm until they met my hazel occulis.

I looked her over, she had blue eyes that seemed to be the brightest part of her face, followed by a small nose with a ring on the right nostril and red cheeks that were aflame as she seemed to be trying to find something to say to me. She had short hair once brown, now died purple and was accompanied by a grey overcoat lounging on the back of her chair.

I looked down to the sketchbook in her hands and could safely say I was impressed. Drawings littered the page l, small bubbles floating from a fish's mouth with a hook through it.

"Thats a nice drawing you've got there," I said with a smile. She returned the smile as she seemed to light up.

"Thank you, I've been working on it for about a day and half. The only thing I can't seem to get right are the eyes," she said with a chuckle to which I returned.

"I draw as well and I agree they seem to be tricky to master. Some say they show people's souls, if you believe in that sort of stuff I guess," I say with a laugh as I stare into her piercing blue eyes.

"I've heard that as well, so how bout you? Do you believe in that sort of stuff?" She asks as she bits her lip, looking into my eyes.

"More of a two part question I suppose. First, if someone believes in souls, second if someone believes eyes show them. For me, I like to think that souls are based on who people are, and that comes straight from the heart," I offer a smile.

She gazes at my and for a moment, we just study each other. It's not at all tense, it's just.. nice. Silence speaks volumes and I can't quite figure out what hers is telling. Just as she's about to say something in response, I hear my number called. I look down to the sheet of paper in my hands before I rejoin her line of sight.

"That's me I suppose," I say as I hold up the number and begin to stand. I walk to grab my drink to go, mentally trying to prepare myself for the say ahead. Throughout my walk to the counter, I ponder on the conversation I just had, intriguing and amusing.

As I turn around to leave, I see her lean over the chair with a piece of paper in her hands, I look at her and she smiles.

"I know we just met but, if you ever want to do something, I dunno, draw eyes or whatever, have at it." She says with a giggle. I smile and take the note from her.

"Thank you," I paused, realizing I haven't learned her name yet.

"Melanie." She confirms with a smile to which I mirror.

"Melanie," the name feels like honey rolling off my tongue and past my lips, she's intriguing and I can't help but wonder if I'll ever put what I assume is a phone number on the other side of the note to use.

"Hopefully I'll see you around sometime," with that and a smile, I depart from the coffee shop, knowing that was the highlight of my day as I cannot for the life of my seem to get my mind off those blue irises as I continue my journey to my mundane life, knowing the girl in the coffee shop has piqued my interest.

#free write

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Damn im just gonna say staying up until 7 am really makes me realize a lot of my trauma🙃

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Anyone just ever feel a little down but don't know exactly why?

#haha cause same🙃

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Hello

Alice in Chains is great

Life is beautiful

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I wanna die I have mosquito bites on my ankles and had to go to work today I just got home and my ankle is so fucking swollen😭😭 it hurts so bad and I can barely move it🙃

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Teasing Him Part 2

That's exactly how Friday passed, anytime I would see Sapnap in the halls, I made sure to smirk at him or give him an excited little smile, enough to make the waiting that much longer.

Eventually, the end of the day was starting to roll around. I had one last period before I would enter a very long, undoubtedly pleasure filled weekend with my lover.

I was just about to enter my last class when once again, Sapnap pulled me aside in the halls.

"Baby, you seriously don't need to go to that class. It's just economics." I laughed at this.

"Oh Sapnap, don't say it like that, it's not just economics, and it is too an important class. Why are you so desperate to get out of here?" I asked him innocently.

"You fucking know why I'm so desperate to get out of here." He said a little too loudly, as fellow classmates passing by turned to look at Sapnaps little outburst. However, this outburst would catch the attention of his friends.

I giggled as they called and whistled at him. "One more class, I'll see you later." I said, giving him a parting kiss of the cheek.

"You're not getting away with this." Sapnap practically had steam coming out of his ears. I giggled as I started to walk away.

Later on, I found myself sitting in my economics class, just staring at the clock, waiting for the bell to ring. Maybe I had been teasing sapnap all day, but that didn't just affect him, it also made me crave his touch that much more. As soon as the bell rang, I booked it out of the classroom and into the parking lot, where unsurprisingly, sapnap was already there by my car.

When we got home, Sapnap pushed me up against the door and started to feverishly kiss me. I moaned at the sudden contact because I hadn't been expecting it, but soon enough I kissed him back with just as much force.

As our tongues wrestled for dominance, Sap rubbed his bones against me, causing me to let out a needy moan into the kiss. Sapnap chuckled quietly and picked me up, carrying me to my room. Just before he set me down on the bed, with our clothes still in tact he slapped my body against his crotch and threw me on to the bed.

If I was horny before, that just sent me over the edge. I lay there trying to catch my breath from watch just happened, which caused my already soaking cunt to get even more wet.

Sapnap crawled on top of me and began making out with me again. He soon moved to my neck where I'm sure he left so many marks by the amount of kissed he put on my neck, rough and harsh, just like I like it.

Lower and lower he went until he was in front of my soaking shorts, my cunt eagerly waiting beneath.

He liked a long stripe up my shorts which caused me to let out a moan and arch my back. I was so horny I might die.

"Sap, ughh, please," he smirked as he looked up at me.

"Please what?" He asked innocently.

"Please, please touch me," I moaned out. He reached up and undid the button to my shorts. He stuck his hand in and rubbed me through my underwear.

I let out a string of loud moans until he pulled both my underwear and my shorts down my legs and discarded them on to my floor.

"Uhh, Sap please use your mouth," I begged as he kissed my cheek.

"Nuh uh, sit on my face." I stopped.

"Wha-what?" He smirked as he climbed on the bed.

"Did I stutter? I said sit on my face." He grabbed my hip and yanked me towards him as my face went unbelievably red.

"But, won't i- what if i-" He cut me off, knowing I was insecure already. It was no secret that I wasn't the skinniest person and Sap knew I was worried about it.

"Baby, I promise you won't hurt me. I want you to sit on my face so bad, I've wanted it for so long. Please sit on my face," I paused before I reluctantly agreed.

I made my way up his body and cautiously hovered over his face, incredibly unsure of what to do. Sapnap started with his fingers by running one up and down the length of my pussy. To this I let out a small whimper and when he smirked, I knew he was enjoying this.

Sap reached up and roughly grabbed my hips, pulling me on to his waiting tongue, and leaving no room between his face and my pussy. I let out a loud moan at this and he started eating me out like a mad man.

The new angle of sitting on his face was causing me to reach my high much faster, that and the way sapnaps tongue kept running circles on my clit, causing me to reach down and pull his hair, which only encouraged him further.

"Sap, oh my god, oh daddy it's so good." The words were out of my mouth before I could stop them and it wasn't until Sapnap was looking up at me grinning that I was brought out of my pleasure.

"Say it again," I blushed profusely. He put his mouth back on my roughly, causing me to let out a loud, high pitched whimper.

"I said l, say it again baby" I bit my lip and he continued to eat me out.

"Daddy, please" I said as I tipped my head back, knowing I was close.

"Please what?" He asked.

"Please, I wanna cum on your dick daddy, so fucking hard." He smirked as I felt the pit in my stomach growing rapidly.

"I want you to cum on my face baby." I moaned loudly at this.

"Daddy, it's so fucking good, eugh, please I wanna cum on your dick. Please, oh my god, please can I cum daddy?" He only seemed to eat my out harder at this. I was a moaning mess, so close to the edge, but I wanted to cum with him inside of me.

"Daddy, please, please can I cum on your dick?" I was begging, trying so bad to not tip over the edge and cum yet.

"Don't worry baby, you'll get to cum on my dick eventually, but you're gonna cum on my fucking face first." He smirked as he starting eating me out again.

I was practically suffocating Sapnap at this point, but it just felt so fucking good, I couldn't stop myself from arching my back harder and pushing myself down on his face more.

"Daddy, i- oh god, daddy im cumming." I got out between breathy moans. Sapnap only increased his pace as I fell over the edge and came hard on his face. I was a shaking moaning mess, pulling sapnaps hair so hard I don't know how it didn't hurt him, bucking my hips while I rod out my orgasm.

As I came down from my high, I leaned over, slowly making a show of dragging myself down his body until our crotches lined up.

"Oh daddy, that was so so fucking good. Thank you," I smiled as I started making out with him, until he started lining up with my hole.

"Your welcome baby, but tell me, does this mean you'll sit on my face more?" I breathed out a laugh as I could only nod. I started kissing him again, until I felt him push into my hole, to which I broke off and let out a shaky moan.

When he was all the way in, I sat up with my hands on his chest and started riding him as his eyes rolled back into his head.

"Fuck, baby that feels so good." I smiled as I leaned down to suck a hickey on to his neck, my hips never faltering.

"Tell me how good it feels daddy," I whispered in his ear. He let out a deep moan, one that brought me that much closer to the edge.

"Fuck baby, you like riding Daddys dick huh? Such a slut like you no wonder you're so good at riding this dick." This only caused my moans to increase along with the speed of my hips. Sapnap started thrusting up to meet my hips and I swore I saw heaven at this point.

"Oh, daddy, you're gonna make me cum. Oh fuck." I screamed, he was fucking me so good I couldn't stop moaning.

"Baby, pull my hair, please," oh.. so that's how it didn't hurt, he likes the pain. I gently pull his hair, some what teasing him but also seeing if he did like the pain.

"Harder baby." He said in a more demanding tone, at the same time he sped up his thrusts. This caused me to let out a loud moan and pull his hair hard.

"Oh fuck, daddy, can I please cum? You're fucking me so God damn good, please can I cum?" He moaned at this.

"Yeah, is daddy fucking you good baby? Huh? You wanna cum?" I nodded as I moaned

"Yes daddy, I wanna cum so hard, please daddy." Sapnaps thrusts were so fucking good I was gonna die.

"Cum on my fucking dick," Sapnap said straight into my ear which caused me to tip over, cumming so hard I saw stars. My orgasm must have triggered Sapnaps orgasm because quickly after I started cumming, he flipped me over on to my back and thrusted so hard I almost came again. Sapnap thrusted into me until he went practically limp on top of me, the only sound was the sound of us catching our breathe.

Saonap pulled out agonizingly slow until he crashed on to the bed next to me. I was so blissed out I didn't realize that Sapnap had left to get a washcloth to clean up with until I felt a cool sensation between my legs.

I flinched away from it so hard with a whimper.

"Shh, baby, let me clean you up," Sapnap said, knowing how sensitive I was. I reluctantly agreed for him to clean me up and again flinched when the cool rag touched my pussy, but way less than the time before.

After Sapnap was done, he gave me some water to drink and then he climbed in bed next to me. I rolled on to my side, curled up next to him as I began to press gentle kisses to his chest, leading up until I reached his lips, to which I kissed him with so much love and passion and I could feel it reciprocated in the kiss he gave me.

"Thank you, Sapnap." I smiled as I hugged him closer to my figure.

"Thank you baby, although I should make you go again for teasing me all day." He smirked as I laughed.

"Not again, you can get back at me tomorrow," I smiled as I buried my face in his chest.

"Oh I will, for now rest." I smiled as I kissed him once more and then fell asleep in his arms.

#sapnap #sapnap smut #sapnap imagine #mcyt sapnap #sapnap mcyt #sapnap x reader #sapnap x y/n

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Teasing him

A/N: felt inspired to write so here ya go. Like for part 2!! Hope you enjoy 😉:)

It had been a long week, finally Friday was here, and me and my boyfriend, Sapnap, could not be happier about this little detail. I had barely seen him all week and I've been stressed beyond words due to finals and my job.

I saw him in the halls Friday morning and went up to him with exciting news.

"Hey, I have big news," I told him to which he looked at me suspiciously.

"Mmkay, what's up?" He asked me cautiously.

"Well, since you don't have plans tonight, and it's my off weekend at work..." I took a step closer to him, "and my parents will be gone for the entire weekend, I was wondering if you wanted to come over," I whispered.

To this, he smiled and his eyes seemed to have darkened a shade.

"Is that so? Well in that case I would love to come over tonight." He said as he took a step closer to me and put his hand around my waist, pulling me into him. "And what exactly will we be doing?" He smirked

I bit my lip. "What do you wanna do? I figured we could play some board games, watch a movie, maybe," I said.

"Well, I wanna do whatever you wanna do, and oh, so much more," I giggled quietly.

"Well, what if I told you, that, I-" I put myself right against him, leaned into his ear and whispered, "I want you to fuck me until I only know your name, and I want you to use me for your pleasure," I bit his ear and sucked on it as I heard him take in a sharp breathe.

"Fuck, baby. Why don't we skip right now." I pulled away and saw his pupils were almost completely dilated. I didnt even need to look down because I could feel his raging hard on against my thigh.

"Haha, nice try." I said as I let my arms fall away from him. "I unfortunately have to go to chemistry today, otherwise maybe I would." As I was turning to leave, he grabbed my arm and pushed me against the lockers behind me, not harsh, but enough to know he was aroused.

"You cannot say something like that to me just to leave right away." I giggled as I bit my lip, pouting slightly.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I promise it'll be worth the wait." I smirked at him just as the bell rang.

"Whats going on here?" Mrs. Norberry came into the hallway and Sapnap took a step back from me. "You're both late to class," ratty old bitch I thought in my head.

"Sorry, I'm on my way there now." I smirked and gave Sapnap one last kiss and I snuck past him to go to class. He just stood there and glared at me.

"And you?" Mrs. Norberry turned to Sapnap.

"Yeah yeah, I'm going im going." I giggled as I made my way to class, knowing the hell I just put him through. This was going to be a very long weekend.

#sapnap x y/n #sapnap x reader #sapnap smut #sapnap fluff #sapnap imagine #sapnap mcyt #mcyt sapnap #sapnap

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After some consideration and multiple asks, I have decided I am not going to make a second part to this fic.

It was never meant to be anything more than me working through my trauma, that situation was something I truly went through and it doesn't have a happy ending or even a bad one, I just wrote the situation as it happened to me.

Henceforth, I am not continuing it. Sorry to anyone who was looking for a second part but there isn't and won't be one ;)

#unlikelymilkshakedream asks #anon #unlikelymilkshakedream works

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I'm sorry but it needs to be said

Three days grace members are literally so fucking hot 😍😍

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I feel like it is only time I make a stoner fic🤗hope you enjoy!!

*tw*: use of marijuana, stoner thoughts(im so sorry😵‍💫), if there's any more pls lmk and I'll add them!

It was no secret amongst the school that sapnap smoked weed. He talked about, he posted on social media about ut, he even got caught once smoking it in the back parking lot.

So when my mind was desperate for a chill out moment, he was the perfect person to help. I messaged him in search of a good time.

Hey, do you think I could buy from you?

What are you looking for?

Quarter ounce

Meet me here

2848 hasbul drive

He set the date for tomorrow night at 6pm. I requested enough that I could use tomorrow as well as this weekend so when j went to the location, and saw his car I climbed in with the money.

"Hey you got the cash?" I nodded as I hand him the money in exchange for a green bag.

"Quarter ounce?" He nodded as I opened the door and returned to my vehicle. Before I could even open the door he was gone and my phone rang.

Let me know how you like it

I left the message opened and didn't bother with a reply as I got in my car and headed home.

Upon arriving I see that all the lights are off which is good because it means everyone's asleep. I soundlessly slip inside my room and pull out the bag along with my pipe. I proceed to pack it and grab my lighter.

The first hit always hits the hardest so I have to take a minute to not let my coughs get too loud.

After about 3 or 4 hits, I sit back for a minute and just stare at my lights which are colored red.

I wonder what it would feel like to be floating right now. I bet it would feel nice. I have to make sure to thank sapnap for getting me this weed.

Wow, sapnap is such a great guy, his hair is amazing, he's so fucking cute but I can't tell him that because he'd never feel the same way. I wonder what he's doing right now, I wonder if he's thinking of me.

As I continue to think about him, I just feel myself getting happier. I want to talk to him right now and be with him, I want him to be with me. He would make this experience so much better. I should call him and tell him.

I dont need to call him, I can see him right now, he's in the room with me. That's concerning how'd he get in here, oh shut up logic. Come here lover boy. And if that doesn't work.

*I was gonna wait til I was high to put genuine stoner thoughts but I have none and haven't smoked in a couple of days.*

The next day at school I'm pissed and it's known to everyone except a certain someone who can't keep his hands away from me.

"Hey, how'd you like the za?" I shoot him a side eye to which he furrows his brow.

"I bet you would know wouldn't you," I say as I shove past him.

"Why are you mad at me? I helped you out?" I scoff.

"Helped me out? Are you shitting me?" I turn my voice lower as I look around at on lookers. I grab his arm and pull him to the side of the hallway.

"You fucking laced it." His eyes go wide.

"What the fuck do you mean?" He asked bewildered.

"When I smoked it and started feeling it, all I saw was you. So what the fuck did you put in it?" He looks like he's seen a ghost or he's listening to someone speak gibberish.

"What do you mean all you saw was me?" He asks

"You, your face, your body, as if you were in the room next to me. And there was this weird feeling in my chest, my heart was pounding." He takes a breath, and then starts to... laugh.

I stare at him as if he's disappeared before my eyes.

"What the hell is so funny to you?" He chuckles a little before talking some calming breaths.

"Sorry, sorry, I'm done, I'm done" He coughs before continuing. I stare at him expectantly.

"I hate to inform you but thats not laced weed. You have a crush on me."

"Are you fucking stupid? I don't have a crush on you, you fucking laced that shit." He smirks before taking one step closer, making our bodies practically chest to chest.

"Its ok, I like you too. When you asked to buy from me I wasn't surprised but I was a little disappointed that that was all you wanted from me." I stare at him, shocked.

"No, i- I don't have- wait what? You like me?" He smiles and puts a hand on my hip.

"Yeah, I've liked you for a while and I've tried to flirt with you before." I think back to the math class I have with him.

"Wow, I'm an idiot." I look at him and he says nothing.

"You're supposed to disagree with me." He laughs.

"Sure thing, whatever you say." He smiles and we walk to class together.

#sapnap imagine #sapnap angst #sapnap x reader #sapnap x you #sapnap fluff #sapnap #sapnap mcyt #mcyt sapnap #dsmp sapnap #sapnap dsmp

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I wish I could unmeet a lot of people

#i wanna forget everything

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Smoke away the pain 🙃

#help

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I'm like heavily in my head rn

So basically what happened is yesterday I went to my brother graduation high and I ended up freaking out lowkey and texting one of my ex best friends

Now this isn't that big of a deal however like I said ex friends so I regret texting her

On Monday we smoked together which was really nice and I found myself wanting to do that again but I realized I'm not ready to be best friends again at least not right now

So like you do last night I got high and texted her apologizing and I told her straightforward I said I'm not ready to be friends and she said no one said we had to be again

I also told her I wanted to be friends again and all she replied with is that's fine. Not me too or hey I feel the same way, just thats fine.

And I was like shit. Because basically this reply had me going back to the worst part of our friendship and in two seconds like that I was like fml I feel like she's shitting on me again (which she did for a ling time)

But now I severely regret ever texting her back in the first place

And on top of all of this, I feel like the vibe between us used to be she was sorry and I was mad and she was in the wrong which she still is but now it's shifted to how it used to be where I feel lower than her or I feel like it January again and I have to walk on eggshells with her which really fucking sucks

And so now i am regretting ever texting her and I don't wanna be friends with her again however I felt like this before in a situation which is why I'm now like am I being paranoid (probably) and maybe just over thinking

But I kinda never wanna talk to her again maybe just out of fear that it won't be the way it was but I also don't ever want it to be the way it was again bc the way it was was hell

Idk I need to get high later

#sorry for my rant

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happy pride month🤗❤🧡💛💚💙💜