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yknow, i keep thinking 'ugh, i need to get a better paying job' but the shit my mind keeps drifting to, i don't think i'd actually enjoy

i don't necessarily hate retail. outside of having to deal with Customers, bleh, and the social anxiety/feeling like a lonely emo kid dynamic i feel like i have with my coworkers (which is largely on me, but thats neither here nor there) and the general way capitalism makes this kind of job a drag (understaffing, unrealistic expectations, wage isnt the best, etc etc) i actually am kind of okay with it? i like that i'm moving around p much all day and sometimes i get to do planograms (which are like little puzzles, which is fun) and outside of the customer service style shit, it's all pretty okay, if a bit monotonous

my heart kind of wants to do something with computers, whether IT desk shit or coding or something, but then a desk job sounds fucking miserable. plus i'd have to..... learn the stuff, lmao. maybe a trade would be more my speed, at the very least slightly more active, but... again. kind of have to learn a trade first and i feel like getting my foot in the door to learn would be hard. or maybe more scawwy than difficult, idk. job shit is hard, man

#i mean. what jobs are there? #white collar jobs in general feel like they'd make me miserable #dont vibe with warehouse jobs in general #i dont think i could cut culinary at any level lmao. even fast food. just thinking about it makes me anxious #i think construction would be cool but a) no experience. at all #and 2) im a weak noodly armed little nerd :( #idk. im not gonna think *too* hard about this bc im not really seeking a new job #it's just kind of a 'would be kinda nice if i got more money' pipe dream thinf #kinda hard to actively consider job hunting when you have no real marketable skills/degree/job experience anyway lol #to the void with love

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He's literally a walking :3 face

#he is so babey #vash the stampede #best boy tier #trigun #anime and manga

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#rothko #other people's art

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#tried it for a spell back in jr high #maybe the summer between 8th grade and freshman year? cant really remember specifically when #wanted to see what the fuss was #failed to do so lol #polls

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Yaaaay Radar yaayy!! Everyone clap!

#\0/ RADAR!!!! #m*a*s*h #tv tag #other people's art

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ok i’m curious

#<3 #cant beat the classic tbh #also not inclined to use emojis in general outside of when i want to evoke a v specific mood #polls

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Out of curiosity and also guilt over my own coffee intake. I wanna ask:

Now I'm not talking about when you're studying and so you drink 3x the usual amount or something like that. This isn't me asking what your record is. I'm talking about the most basic, average day, how many coffees you drink?

#coffee? zilch #not a coffee drinker lol #now if it were caffeinated beverages in general then 2-3 #cant live without my energy drinks #i mean. i guess i technically could and my wallet would thank me bc that shit adds up but...... #polls

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cashiering shifts are literally the worst, i'm meant to be moving and climbing and grabbing shit off shelves and throwing them into carts and so on, not standing around waiting for people to refuse to use self-checkout for whatever reason >:[

#not sure if it's worse when it's dead or when everyone and their mom decides to checkout at once #at least when it's dead i can step away and refill candy and such #i rarely get thrown up here which is nice. but then when i *am* scheduled for front end.... #i cant help but wonder if im being punished for something lmao /hj #to the void with love

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Love this flying guinea pig potato so much

#<3 #my fave lil guy~ #patamon #digimon #anime and manga #other people's art

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#also for me #im like 'how do i reply in a way that i get a good grade in responding to people?' and fret over that for so long #that it gets to the point where it'd be weird if and when i finally figure out what to say #so. yeah.... #it me #memes

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Dale Cooper + 👍

#i think i thumbs up so often irl bc of him lol #dale cooper #twin peaks #tv tag #gifs

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b....based gitar....

wait, shit, i might get my bass today, according to the tracking information :0

#to the void with love

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Alien (1979)

#alien #flicks #gifs

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HE’S HERE!!

wait, shit, i might get my bass today, according to the tracking information :0

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though if i were to ever become famous for something art related, i would be way too terrified to ever properly answer any questions related to influences

can you imagine if you said 'oh, yeah, [x] had a big influence on my work' and then [x] came out with a response like '...ew'? i'd shrivel up and die

#imagine someone youre inspired by telling you to go to hell man #the psychic damage..... #to the void with love

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...ugh, i know i'm setting myself up for disappointment. i'm already looking ahead thinking 'oh, this is gonna be great, i'm gonna learn this instrument and i'm gonna start writing songs and it's gonna rock!'

it's like, my guy, you own three instruments already you never took the time to learn. you know fuckall about music theory and writing tunes, your ability with words has atrophied to the point where your lyrics would sound like they were painted on a cave wall by grug and associates, and anyway, what do you even have to write about? temper thine expectations

#one of my earliest 'when i grow up i wanna be....' was Rockstar #i have no illusions about becoming any kind of Star at this point #but maybe tempering my expectations to the point where i expect nothing of myself is uh.....detrimental #draining. even. #so how does one achieve balance? #to the void with love

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wait, shit, i might get my bass today, according to the tracking information :0

#i was lowkey freaking out bc i thought it'd come in like wednesday #and like a fool i had it shipped directly to me vs doing pickup from fedex location #and theres a chance i'd have a bass and amp and so on sitting in front of my door for hours lmao #but. no. i might have it today. and soon...... #to the void with love