atthekoreofitall

[atthekoreofitall]

She is the sky,

and i am the moon.

I tried to light her path,

but all I got was consumed.

[atthekoreofitall]

From my room to the hall, I ran.  From my feet to my knees, I dropped. Tears cascaded down my cheeks As my lips parted and my chest heaved, In its desperate attempt to breathe. My hands began to shake, Try as hard as I might, I couldn’t speak.  I couldn’t save you. 

A year passed and when I approached you, My legs began to shake, And my voice began to quake, “Has it really been so long?” I sat in front if you, All dolled up in stone. Hoping you could hear me, I whispered “Please come home.” The wind picked up my hair,  And I picked up my bag. 

I was laying in my room, When the sun rose, And my room turned light blue. I tasted the bitter sweet memories on my lips, And I thought of it, That first kiss.  I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, But you remained on my mind, You invaded my dreams.  My world turned sour as I remembered, Remembered your closed eyes, Your tight lips, Your stiff hands. My skin began to crawl, You looked so fake.  My heart stopped, As I flew out of my bed. The photos of you on my wall Smiled at me. And I remembered you really are dead. You really are gone.  I could have saved you.

#my writing #writing #2011 #maybe 2012 #poem #poetry #death #grief #grieving

[atthekoreofitall]

Whiskey on your lips,

My skin under your finger tips.

Grasping and gasping,

Exactly how I want you.

#my writing #writing #2018 #poem #poetry

[atthekoreofitall]

I think I've spent too many years on that table

Counting

I think I've spent too many years in my head

Blaming

#my writing #writing #2018 #about 2010 #poetry

[atthekoreofitall]

I close my eyes

& there you are

I blink

& blood

#my writing #writing #2018 #about 2010 #poetry #i guess

[atthekoreofitall]

Trace my knee

& tell me you love me..

I'll kiss your collar bone

& tell you 'let's go home'

Kiss me tenderly,

& bring me to my knees..

#my writing #writing #2018 #poetry

[atthekoreofitall]

Now I’m the sunset

Slipping away beyond the horizon

It’s my turn to leave

#writing #my writing #2009 #ex girlfriend #poem #poetry

[atthekoreofitall]

I’ve got that “I’m sick of this shit” silence

And you?

You’ve got that “great now she won’t fuck me” silence.

#2009 #i may have been bitter #he was a turd #writing #my writing #poem #poetry

[atthekoreofitall]

Forget her.

Forget her like losers forget how to win,

like winners forget how to lose.

Like saints forget how to sin,

like beggars forget how to choose.

#writing #my writing #ex girlfriend #shitty ex #stupid girl #jerkface #you suck #2009 #poem #poetry

[atthekoreofitall]

Everything is moving

Nothing feels right

I pull the covers over my head

Whispering 

“They’re not real

They’re not real

They’re not real”

#2009 #writing #my writing #musing #musings #poem #poetry #hallucinations

[atthekoreofitall]

Last night I said I loved her,

and her silence was enough to tell me

She’d never love me back.

#2009 #writing #my writing #musing #musings #ex girlfriend #poem #poetry

[atthekoreofitall]

I wish you hadn’t left

It’s been 8 years

I still hate trains

#writing #my writing #musings #james #death #trains

[atthekoreofitall]

I close my eyes and I can’t escape

The screams

The shouts

My hair is wet

My heart is pounding

Please make it stop

#writing #my writing #trauma #childhood #poem #poetry #2018 #about 2003

[atthekoreofitall]

Music fills the air

It helps me feel less empty

Why aren’t you here?

#writing #my writing #poem #poetry #2018

[atthekoreofitall]

Slide your fingers along my skin

Brush your lips against mine

All my life,

Where have you been?

#writing #my writing #poem #poetry #2018

[atthekoreofitall]

I’ve crossed mountains

I’ve burned bridges

and yet I can’t escape you

#writing #my writing #poem #poetry