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winter

2021

Going from friends house

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Kyoto

Around 2019/08/04~

Green green everywhere

Yet again I cannot fall asleep

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During the night I can feel sadness creeping in. What do I want? This life or something else? To be alone here or there?

Some street views ~

#japan #japonija #fukui #pictures #city #night #lanterns #travel

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2018?

Visiting Japan trough memories.

Can I go back and just start from the beginning?

Eiheiji/Fukui

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2020/?/?

I think of him, idealizing and still shaping him in bright soft light. Asking what could have been if?... Stupid decisions cause it won’t change anything and it will hurt me even more. I say to myself-leave it be. It was wrong. It was bad for you and you have suffered dearly. The best thing that you can do is to forget him forever. And I will. Yet I catch myself going back to past and remembering every bit of him. What would have happened if it worked out? Would life be easier? No yes

It’s just a way of me spilling my sorrow. I am nothing at that time and I am everything. I rose from dead. I did. He stayed dead and I woke up saying somebody died tonight. And it was him. He is dead to me. That’s how it supposed to be but look at me tonight-sorrowful and sad, crying over someone so wrong, so spiteful and evil. I do believed he is evil. All he did was to hurt me and never said sorry. Idea of him made me gag. But now I am the same. I didn’t changed at all. Maybe a little. But still what if..

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2020/02/?

So tonight is so long and lonesome. No wonder why I am going backwards to the past. I remember too much and I crave for tiniest bit of that pink mist that was floating in my head for months. I remember and remember and for the thousand times can’t get it off of my head. Now I know that something was real. At least my heart was real.

I can’t say it to anyone. Nobody wants to listen and even saying it to someone will make it less important. And my heart still aches. Silly to think about it, silly to hope and all I can do is wish him the best. I am still in love? Yes, I guess. First true cruel love. Almost poetic but way too painful.

#love

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2019/08/12

Japan/ Fukui

The moon is beautiful isn’t it?

Yes, I could die happy now

#japan #japonija #fukui #pictures #city #photography #urban #福井 #福井県 #photooftheday #words #japanese #perfect #moon #sky #pastel #pink #aesthetic #wallpaper #radiant #evening #memories #romantic #i was in love once

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2019/08/13

Japan/Fukui

Per jauna

Per kvaila

23 vasara

#japan #japonija #fukui #pictures #city #photography #urban #福井 #福井県 #photooftheday #summer #sky #pastel #radiant #cool #memories #good bye #last time

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Japan/Fukui

2019/08/13

I haven’t been posting in a ling time.

But today I felt how memories and pain from the past comes again. I feel like I lost something again.

Never mind, sad heart, rain and hard work will ease your pain

#japan #japonija #fukui #pictures #city #photography #urban #福井 #福井県 #photooftheday #bugs #butterfly #night #travel #adventures #alone #cry #sadly in love #memories

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Nagoya Japan

2019/07/14

Famous Miso sauce katsudon and some ice cream

#japan #japonija #pictures #urban #photography #city #photooftheday #food #nagoya #nagoya food #desert #名古屋 #日本 #写真

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Nagoya Japan

2019/07/14

The moon is beautiful tonight isn’t ?

#japan #japonija #pictures #urban #city #photography #photooftheday #japanese #日本 #名古屋 #nagoya #Nagoya #urbanity #travel #ferry wheal

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Nagoya Japan

2019/07/14

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Nagoya Japan

2019/07/14

Nagoya castle.

Gold color is in the air. If you breathe in deeply you will smell luxuriousness

I wish I could go back in the past and see people living their everyday life

#japan #japonija #pictures #urban #city #photography #nagoya #castle #paintings #gold #nagoya castle

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Nagoya Japan

2019/07/14

This is the best day!

Nagoya castle is overwhelming. This is far the most beautiful historical place I have been.

#japan #japonija #pictures #city #photography #photooftheday #nagoya #castle #名古屋 #日本城 #castles #nagoya castle #beautiful #history #oda nobunaga

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Peachy evenings

2019/06/~

Japan/Fukui

I wish I could easily change what’s going in my heart but there are things I can’t control.

Life is settling down. Now I have no real future plans. I’m almost 23 years old and I have already did what I dreamed about when I was little. What’s now? I need more dreams. I need more challenges. Otherwise I will sink into routine.

#japan #japonija #fukui #pictures #urban #city #photography #福井 #福井県 #photooftheday #roses #scenery #streets #福井大学 #日本 #radiant #photos #actually very inaka #pink #peach #colorful

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2019/06/15

Japan/Fukui

During these hot and humid days of summer I try to stop the time. I am at that point of my youth where nothing is happening and I am at peace. I need no lover to remind me how adorable I am. And I need no money to have fun. I am stuck in this circle of night and day. All I want is happiness to others.

But this mood swings back and forth too quickly. Now I see how pathetic I was and how silly I am now. I try to imagine myself as person worth others time and love but in the end all I have is bitter taste in my mouth.

Yra žmonės, kuriuos galime stebėti tik iš tolo, yra dalykai, apie kuriuos tik pasvajosime. Aš vis dar negaliu su tuo susitaikyti.

#japan #fukui #japonija #urban #福井県 #city #photography #pictures #福井 #mine #hydrangea #japanese #福井大学 #紫陽花 #words

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2019/06/16

Japan/Fukui

Unreal colors and I feel like floating in the mist.

All I know that it is so hard to live

#japan #japonija #fukui #pictures #urban #city #photography #福井 #福井県 #photooftheday #night #street #evening #日本 #福井大学 #radiant