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Our house in Taylors photographed by Susannah Coleman.
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I thought I could describe a state; make a map of sorrow. Sorrow, however, turns out to be not a state but a process. It needs not a map but a history, and if I don’t stop writing that history at some quite arbitrary point, there’s no reason why I should ever stop. There is something new to be chronicled every day. Grief is like a long valley, a winding valley where any bend may reveal a totally new landscape. As I’ve already noted, not every bend does. Sometimes the surprise is the opposite one; you are presented with exactly the same sort of country you thought you had left behind miles ago. That is when you wonder whether the valley isn’t a circular trench. But it isn’t. There are partial recurrences, but the sequence doesn’t repeat.
C. S. Lewis, A Grief Observed (p. 50–1)
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The Aspirant
Packing your well-wishes behind the tongue
The painting starts crawling away
Your morbid ascension
Your favorite lessons in a perceived sickness
I spy a possibility- a slow-building loyalty
Tokens to pay for the variety of consumption it takes to keep the world turning.
Our league remains unseen
The catapult declaring our suffering
Quickly evaporating days
A breakdown- moving further away colors the persisting dream.
Illumination burning its way
Through every space you've stopped to think.
Can you afford the adaptability it would take
To simply hang up your old suit
And slip into something new?
Because here they wait impatiently- halfway into shoes that will never fit
Questioning the capability of the aspirant
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The lower the organism the less it responds to irritation; the higher, the more sensitively and energetically it reacts to reality.
Chekhov
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Tranquil Laundry Days.
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Living room.
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Cracked doors.
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We migrate to the tune of what we suspect we already know.
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Living Room.
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Bedroom Sunlight.
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Book ends
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I wish You would swim away
Leave with the ghosts around the conference table.
All of these strange rooms-
Museums and diners
Greens and oranges For every checkered-floored waiting room starts playing the soundtrack of our childhood.
You asked if I knew You exist
I believe. I believe it's eating me.
Filling up to the sense of Your movement
Less than the answer: More that You're asking.
I haven't worn a mask for days
The flesh feast takes four days to turn the page
But at least I'm trying.
You thought it was a yes because You never heard a no
Grabs me by the arm-pulls me to the sign
We're at the party in the clouds above the airport
You said You gave Your son up and he tracked You down just to give a speech about
How he could never love You
You held onto one another and cried afterward
You were the prettiest and
I opened my eyes in Your bed
My blood locked in the centrifuge "how did You ge...t...he..."
Just having a peek at You, half-dead
Waiting to disappear in the smoke.
I was just too many people
All at once
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Ownership that's difficult to track. I can't say that she was lounging in the thick of it-
Or lied to by the leasing agent...
Memories DO shift.
I quit regarding that with plenty others.
Pretty colored lights from which you may drink your fluids straight from the bulb- Imagine that!
I was looking at You in every heavy-lidded situation. As reasons rotated all but You
Eliminated themselves from circulation.
So, this is Christmas! And all the days surrounding leave
Risidual smoke and wretching.
Standing just around the crater where the first meteor of death came and went through
But comes and comes again.
Now you sway. Now you pinch your time and pennies. Running capable nails through my truth.
Both sides of the moon and fundamentally high afternoons. Scuttling through houses. Sirens screeching. Flex cables rot and break. "You may enjoy your solitude" -They will say
"BUT have you ever heard of MONEY?"
Is there a more obnoxious way of sinning than to make a great deal of mess just outside of the laundry? Involving You in the way I'll work it out. Adding text until fully round.
Someone invites us to the alter and offers to lead us in silent prayer
But then he starts strumming his acoustic guitar.
As I push toward the eventual the now scrounges up energy.
The market drowns itself in the love of the present eco-system
I allow it in the name of balance, destruction, and purpose. In the name of the questions you may ask yourself before you resign to blowing your world up.
What good are these critiques? Have you taken all you can drink? Night after knock you rattle the locks.
Another solitary soul to protect your own. Some dusty, hateful corners beyond the best view.
That precognition of the relatively near youth
Where you must merge, again or change your path.
Flood the astral maps to grind the walls out. Have mercy on You: Caught in the waves.
I AM I AM I AM DISPLACED.
Weighing the days and nights to pretend that what you've had before has somehow become intangible.
Trying desperately to focus on the sound of me: Rain falling into a well at which you sit at the bottom
Like a wish too alive to be drowned.
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Here I am!
Calling in at my point of exhaustion
there is only to work your way out.
You never knew how aware you'd become of those sitting out of the frame
But the absence of the silent soul chattering
Tears your waning supply to shreds
On the subject of practiced positivity:
The feelings haven't disappeared
The stereotypes are still cut as cookies
Fumbling around with your hot button issues
Cold calling your Knight in Shining Armour
Vessels sucking the air from your collapsing dream
Leaving no oxygen behind to cut through this atmosphere thick with emotions unfelt and abandoned by their owners.
The man married to the ever transitioning moon finds himself tasked with righting his relentlessly inverting cross
Topsy Turvy-gravity is gone.
That lightning sponge of a moon!
That clear white electrocution zapping out revivals until depleted.
Rushing away from the hose
Performing within the suction
AM I AM I AM I
AM I ABOVE IT?
Excuse me- some stanger picks a bad time to ask about restrictions.
It's a holiday and it will always be!
Shuffling through the roads
Side stepping sleepy drivers
Soiling your mask of sanity with this
Babbling
Bubbling
These times when your words slur: These times are quite troubling.
You come home, again
Just as the black water rising
Starts my roots rotting.
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Silver Lake Farmers market.
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