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Solid advice for a career in the music business

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Topsi, baby, please just call me and let me know you're ok

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Challenging Thoughts

You want me to suffer

You dont expect anything of me

You dont think i can do anything

You think this is all my fault

You think you can decide everythibg for me

You dont know how hard i am trying to keep it all together

I could just kxs now if thats what you want but i dont do it because it would hurt you

Why should i bother trying if you dont like what im doing

I am doing a bad job of everything

I dont think everything would be better without me but i am havibg trouble doing this and it is getting too hard to keep trying

Yiu dont recognize how much work i have been putting in

Its not enough for you

I am only here because of you and i am not good enough for you

I want to cxs because i want to feel something different

I want to change myself

I want to be someone else

Cxs feels like a fine response to me but all pressure comes from outside

It doesnt hurt anyone else but it signals that i am feeling something and people have a problem woth that

Kxs feels like something to plan for that would have a finite timeline

Admitting i need help and asking for it would require several more steps

Asking for help, going away, being in a new environent 

The unknown

And the biggest issue is that i have to have the energy and the brainspace to keep working towards... something

Ideally aomethibg better but what even does that mean

How can i know for sure it will get easier and better

I feel like i am already trying ao hard and obvs not doing a good job of it so i guess i should try something else

I feel like everything i do is for this other person and i need her to love me and to need me

And when she says i am not doing a good job or that she is disappointed it feels like she is rejecting me like she doesnt love me and doesnt want me anymore

I dont feel safe and supported and valued

I am being asked and expected to do things that are very hard for me

If i cant do it it feels like failure

But she already thinks im going to fail so anything less than 100% is 100% failure regardless of the effort i put in

I could put in all the effort, show up to the thing, be there with her, and she would be happy i was there and I would feel like i want to kxs

I dont tbink there is anything wrong with wanting comfort and stability and i think its reasonable i would want to avoid stressful environments

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Katharine Hepburn as Joan of Arc (1934)

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The many sleepy faces of Eureka

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Day 1 of Year 39

The future is rad 😎

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This was tagged as butch bait, so I presume this is a jest post and I decided not to reblog directly from the original poster because of this. However butches and gender nonconforming women almost NEVER get shown as old in media, and our beautiful middle aged (and older!) butches never get to the public eye!

There is a future for butch and gnc women. We can grow old and be ourselves, without changing a thing. So I present to you pictures of older butch and gnc women!

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Godfather's of Souls