Kili: Hey Uncle, can we go with you to Erebor?
Thorin: What did your mother say?
Fili: She said no.
Thorin: So why are you asking me?
Kili: Because she's not the boss of you.
Thorin, internally: it's a trap it's a trap it's a trap it's
I remember the last time I miss someone was when I was 7 or 8 years old. I had moved pretty far from my hometown and we didn’t have phones yet. I remember crying for days because I missed my bestfriend. After that, some stuff happened and my mental health hit rock bottom. Year by year went by as I slowly recover my mental health. Since then, I have never felt how I used to feel, never have I missed anyone the way I used to. The feeling to want this person’s presence is there, but it has never affected me the same way again. It made me question myself am I really recovering after all those years?
Recently, someone completely new entered my life and I instantly love the person. We met each other frequently for about two to three months, almost daily, and we enjoy each other’s company. But then their job required them to move away quite far. I had said that I would be fine with the distance and time of being separated (talking from experience of my first relationship). I was wrong. I was wrong it actually surprised me. The feelings from when I was a child missing someone I love came back. I’d cry again when I miss them, when I had arguments with them. It’s so strange to be feeling like this after years of feeling little to no emotions yet I’m relieved I get to feel such big emotions again.
Yeay finally done! Nie Fenhua, my precious baby, and Lan Enhui her half sister in Sunshot Campaign. Their story is rather difficult as they share the same mother but were born in different clans with high statuses.