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moonytoast-x · 4 months

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my lovely collection of fanfic recs summarized by yours truly <3

✨all the young dudes✨: canon, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/10057010/chapters/22409387

dress up in you: muggle au, remus is a hot bassist and sirius is so gay for him, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/13990401/chapters/32213229

atyd sirius pov: self explanatory (complete work) https://archiveofourown.org/works/34577035

text talk: muggle au, text fic, remus has chronic illness and sirius texted the wrong number, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/1651109/chapters/3501239

you wouldn't like me: muggle au, trans sirius, wolfstar, set in like 2005, very vibes, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/45502642/chapters/11449071

blends: coffee shop au wolfstar <3 (complete work) https://archiveofourown.org/works/7869079/chapters/17970910

on another ocean: wolfstar goes on a trip across europe together and has incredible sexual tension, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/39128118/chapters/117226243#workskin

choices: jegulus/jegulily, mostly canon compliant, takes place during hogwarts years all through the war (REALLY FUCKING SAD WATCH OUT), complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/30170643/chapters/74332617

tigerlily and wolfsbane: lily pov of hogwarts years https://archiveofourown.org/works/33079969/chapters/82118059

wading in waist high waters: gbbo au wolfstar, sexual tension, sirius used to be in a boyband, remus is a welsh nerd (I love him), complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/36896740/chapters/92052442

dear your holiness: remus is a priest and a bassist and sirius is incredibly gay and also confused, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/35105491/chapters/87450694

the hand that feeds: canon compliant dorlene (be prepared to sob), complete work, theres also a part two that focuses on emmeline vance and mary https://archiveofourown.org/works/38287942/chapters/95669569

nothing fades like the light: zombie cowboy jegulus, shortish, so sAD, has some black brother feels </3 (complete work) https://archiveofourown.org/works/43550415/chapters/109497873

bury our secrets shallow: marauders+slythershits muggle small town au with black brothers sorting their shit out, also wolfstar and jegulus I think (complete work) https://archiveofourown.org/works/49550836/chapters/128345881#workskin

bird set free: wolfstar figure skating and all the sexual tension (major second hand embarrassment but it's kinda funny the second time you read it), complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/44271820/chapters/112378375#workskin

like real people do: muggle au where remus has epilepsy and works at a coffee shop, and sirius is raising harry bc jily still died (😭😭😭) and they fall in love, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/44399764/chapters/111670651

crimson rivers: hunger games au, really long, really fucking angsty, SO GOOD, complete work https://href.li/?https://archiveofourown.org/works/39760044

we can take it out back if you promise to give me a kiss after you take me down: rosekiller muggle au, wip, they're dramatic little shits and theyre going thru it https://archiveofourown.org/works/50777170/chapters/128269429

just lovers: no war au with starchaser and marylily and rosekiller and wolfstar and general happiness and wholesomeness, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/38344720

intermission: cute rosekiller side plot from just lovers (your honor I love them), complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/39437451/chapters/98704770#workskin

I'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you: rosekiller trying to stop barty from getting into an arranged marriage, in canon-without-the-war, lots of slythershit shenanigans, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/41378289/chapters/103762113

annoying: rosekiller wrong number text fic (like text talk but even funnier and less wolfstar), complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/44115820/chapters/121605580#workskin

kill your darlings: college hockey au, jegulus and wolfstar and marylily and barty x evan x cerci, very angsty most times, truly amazing, complete work https://archiveofourown.org/works/40038048/chapters/100269270

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spacehostilityy · 10 months

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My NNT rewatch s1ep19-24

Ps these are backlogged lol I watched fast but then ran out of time for work. Posting this now bc I'm going to Appalachia to visit family and will have very little wifi lol

I know Elaine is pretty underdeveloped (nothing a little fanfic can't fix), but I do love how even in flashbacks, she's more serious and responsible than king

Why was Diane still like 6 after hundreds of years ?? Like why wouldn't they just show her aging?

ITS BEEN 500 YEARS? Meaning only a couple centuries before present?? WHY IS DIANE SO SMALL? HOW BAD WAS HER GROWTH SPURT???

Damn king rlly said mercy kill

The Druids having the technique Enslavement of the Dead is actually really cool because it shows us that the goddess race really was that fucked up from the very beginning. Like the characters realize that Ludociel and Nerobasta are not all there made out to be eventually, but we can see just from the types of abilities the druids (aka those closest to and led by the goddess race) possess

Hendrickson saying "bien, princesa" or EVEN BETTER "THAT'S A GOOD GIRL" LIKE ASDJSKFJSL hes evil and a little annoying but so fcking hot

Ban telling Meliodas he loves him and then trying to kill him while meliodas is just like bitch I'm busy we can do this later is so funny

this man gives zero fucks

Ban being the first to realize (after merlin obvi, but she always knew) that Meliodas is a demon and also being the first to accept him means so much to me. This is why I love their relationship. No matter how horrible the other seems to be (or is lol), they stand by each other. I mean not in this specific scenario, but Ban only cares bc the horn of cernunos told him to, so I don't think it really counts. (im delusional)

also I'm typing this on my laptop now and I forgot that I can type this fast ehehe AND i found a way to screenshot so no more taking pics of my laptop for meee

Something about characters begging for death (ban and meliodas) makes me become obsessed with them (i am mentally ill)

MELIODAS BEING WILLING TO LET BAN KILL HIM (if he can do so successfully lol)😭 I know he would just come back, but he would be stuck in Purgatory ASJDKFJSL I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCHHH

every day, i find out just how i much i am capable of shipping them and every day that limit is surpassed

straight besties that would literally die for each other is the ideal fictional relationship

esp bc melizabeth (my actual main ship) doesn't get rlly good until she regains her memories/is a flashback

AJSHDFKSDB FNFKS BAN PICKING UP GIL WHILE MARGARET AND VIVIAN SOB AND JUST TELLING THEM "im borrowing this"

bro i totally forgot dreyfus fucking dies how does he come back??

ok ban is having his MOMENT after finding out hendy has been using the corpse of the red demon HE killed 20 yrs ago

also I know ban is like 43 and the whole twilight argument is edward is basically just a 100 year old man so following that logic, Ban is middle aged BUT as someone who is close in age to Ban from before he became immortal, that man is the most 23 year old man to ever 23 year old man. He is chronically in his early 20s frfr

king realizing in that moment judt how wrong he was abt the destruction of the fairykings' forest is the biggest oh fuck moment lol

also i may have 🏴‍☠️ed the bandit ban ova to hurt my own feelings

hendy taunting ban by saying his demonic powers are all thanks to him and ban just saying he's "always happy to help" is such a mood honestly

hendy gets hotter with every demon transformation😔

Meliodas and Ban mourning hawk actually makes me so sad wtf

elizabeth is such a bad bitch when she awakens her power i love her

also hendy being like wow such a powerful druid as if he himself is not a druid and should know this power (and her eyes) is goddess level 🤨

i bet meliodas was shitting himself trying to see whether or not re reawakened her memories tho like damn he was actually probably so scared he would lose her in 3 days without the chance to break their curses

Diane and Ban having the exact same expression is actually rlly funny to me

LAST EP OF SEASON 1!!!!!

WAIT OMG IS HE GOING TO REVENGE COUNTER👀👀

wow i remember so little of season 1 lol

them all just beating the everloving shit out of meliodas is entirely too funny to me

HAHA i was RIGHT about revenge counter im literally a genius

😏 face down ass up babygorl

this is one of the cutest frames in the whole show fr fr😌

Diane: "Sorry we didnt come for you sooner!☺️" King: "Yeah we've never kidnapped a princess before haha :}"

so in the very last after credits scene, gil, howzer, and griamore are all standing around Dreyfus's work table staring at the drawing of meliodas's demon mark as. But as we know from other characrers later on, can have lots of different marks. Meliodas, Zeldris, and Estarossa all have the same one, but maybe this is a family thing? But if it is, why would demon!Hendy have it?? is the grey denon somehow a relatuve of the demon bros lol

anyway I FINISHED SEASON ONEEEEE

ill do a mini ramble over the ovas that netflix likes to call season 2 then move on to the read deal

#seven deadly sins #tess rambles on her nnt rewatch #nanatsu no taizai #nnt #7ds #tess rambles #meliodas #elizabeth liones #elizabeth nnt #ban nnt #diane nnt #gilthunder #howzer #hendrickson #melban #melizabeth #demon mel is best mel

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pokemonispain · 1 year

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Kavetham anon again!!!!

Omg chronic illness Kaveh 👀

Would you mind sharing every single headcanon so I can read them in bed at 3am and sob 😭😭😭😭

So sorry this took so long anon, I didn’t forget I’ve just been swamped irl. But here they are:

HaiKaveh/Kavetham hc general and sickfic etc

•So between the two I figured that Kaveh’s hands would feel a bit rougher because of how much hands-on work he does as an architect. Also probably has more scars on his body than Alhaitham because of work accidents be that at the build site or from working with his actual drawing/sculpting tools. That actually doesn’t stop him from like taking care of his skin though. Like Kaveh is definitely the one who owns like 15 different types of skin care lotions etc 😂😭

•Alhaitham’s hands I figured while he would have callouses on his fingers they’re mostly from either his sword fighting/training and how much writing he does from his job as a scribe. So just like light callouses.

• I also hc that while Alhaitham is probably stronger than Kaveh the other is no slouch either, like he won’t be fighting against Cyno anytime soon but I figure he can at least lift his claymore by hand and Alhaitham if he truly wants to, he’d definitely mumble curses under his breath depending on the reason surrounding the latter too🤭

•Another one for Alhaitham is I swing between the hc that he’s deaf/hard of hearing or that his hearing is really sensitive. Another reason for wearing his headphones in crowded places.

•A hc I have for Kaveh is that he was probably bullied a lot as a kid, because I also hc as chronically ill and kinda susceptible to getting sick easier (sick Victorian maiden Kaveh😂😭) I also hc that he may have grown up in the desert as a kid to some extent (watch this be wrong when he releases) so he probably struggled a bit more than the average person.

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Now for the more sickfic type hc

Alhaitham first:

General illness stuff

•out of the two of them Alhaitham takes better care of himself and usually realizes when he’s gonna get sick. So he’d definitely take time off to try to rest etc at a moment's notice.

•Kaveh would definitely know Alhaitham is sick or at least that something is off from the sheer fact that Alhaitham would seem like he struggling to process anything Kaveh is saying. So he’d just ask Alhaitham what’s wrong & why he’s home early.

•Alhaitham would probably just shake his head and mumble that he’s sick before walking to his room because he’d just want to sleep and lay down.

•may try to read a bit while he waits for himself to fall asleep. But eventually realizes he can’t process what he’s reading and stop.

•Kaveh would definitely do his best to make as little noise as possible when Alhaitham’s sick, because he knows that Alhaitham can be more sensitive to noise when he’s not feeling well.

•may even gently knock on Alhaitham’s door and come in his room to ask him if he wants anything like water or something to eat. Would bring him something if he asks for it.

•unsurprisingly while Alhaitham would do his best to stay in bed and rest etc he also would probably get out of bed because he wants to read something but with his books being everywhere he’d need to go looking for the one he wants, would be dizzy and nauseous just from getting up without a doubt.

•Kaveh would know he’s going to try to do this because it’s not the first time he’s taken care of Alhaitham when sick, plus he knows how Alhaitham is. Would have to kinda guide/make him get back in bed and tell him to stay there while he gets the book and to not get up.

•for some reason I feel like Kaveh gives off a mother hen-type energy when Alhaitham is sick. He doesn’t like crowd him or bug him without reason but does check in on him often, mostly just checking his temperature and bringing him things he needs. I figured Kaveh would know how to take care of someone really well considering he’s so used to getting sick.

•I also feel like Alhaitham probably loves having his hair being stroked while trying to get to sleep when he’s sick. And between the two of them he probably is the one that gets clingy when sick as well, so if like Kaveh lays down beside him to keep him company Alhaitham pretty much wraps his arms around him and just clings to him. Soooo cute

Speaking of temperature taking:

•for that I like the image of Kaveh having to stand on his tip toes a bit and reach out to pull Alhaitham down a bit to press their forehead’s together. All while Alhaitham is wondering what he’s doing, since Kaveh just grabbed him without saying anything.

And Kaveh just telling Alhaitham he feels warm. It’s really cute and makes me giggle 😭

But I also just like the thought of like Kaveh placing his hand on Alhaitham’s forehead.

•Alhaitham’s fever rarely gets really horrible ie need to go to the hospital now type horrible. Alhaitham has probably had fevers like that probably a handful of times in his life. Although the first time Kaveh seen him with a fever that high, definitely scared him/worried him.

Mainly because Alhaitham was delirious and occasionally whimpering for his grandma, and could barely recognize Kaveh. So cute😭

Now for emeto headcanons for Alhaitham when sick:

•Usually his nausea would be going on for a while. But more just lurking in the background while he’s trying to read or lay down.

•he seems like the type to try and make sure he has a trash can by the bed or makes it to the bathroom about 98 percent of the time because clean up would be a bitch.

•I do figure that his stomach gets pretty bloated when he’s nauseous. (The thought of this and that fucking sheer top he’s wearing rots my brain🤤)

•For Alhaitham it’s probably hard for someone else to tell if he’s literally seconds away from being sick, because he’s always quiet however he may burp occasionally right before he pukes/his nausea is really really bad. Otherwise, he’ll just sit there seemingly as quiet as usual, just staring at the floor or whatever is in front of him, so he just looks like he’s thinking about something.

If he’s already sick it would be even harder to tell because he’d already be pale. However, depending on how sick he feels or how bad the nausea is, he may have a slight grimace on his face. It is hard to tell when he’s in distress most of the time. (Love him😭❤️)

•if he’s in bed and Kaveh is talking to him, and there’s no like trash can nearby he would definitely interrupt Kaveh to tell him to bring him one. Has also startled Kaveh by suddenly scrambling out of bed to rush to the bathroom when he knows opening his mouth and trying to talk will make him puke instantly and he usually makes it to the bathroom.

•those very rare times where he hasn’t been able to make it to the bathroom or the trashcan isn’t nearby, he will do everything he can to avoid puking on the blankets or carpet. Although he has puked on the hardwood floor or just leaned over the bed with his hands cupped beneath his mouth.

•Cue Kaveh panicking but also asking Alhaitham why he didn’t say anything. Which is usually what Kaveh says when Alhaitham is sick enough to puke.

•I feel like Alhaitham sounds like he’s in pain while puking, his retching is harsh and violent, he’s coughing and sounding like he’s trying not to choke, can barely catch his breath in between waves. Tears in his eyes. He is a gross mess. (Kaveh would be internally trying not to cringe)

•would definitely be sitting there afterwards with his eyes closed, dizzy and drained trying to get his barings doesn’t even try wiping his mouth yet. Kaveh would be gently rubbing his back and Alhaitham leaning into his touch. Having to get Alhaitham a wet wash cloth and help him lay down why he cleans things up.

•if Alhaitham did make it to the bathroom though Kaveh would need to try to coax him back to bed, especially if he still feels nauseous because Alhaitham wouldn’t want to risk moving.

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Kaveh’s turn😂 :

General illness stuff

•Kaveh gets sick a lot, it’s a combination of his immune system already being trash and the fact that unlike Alhaitham he’s prone to overworking himself and stressing. So skipping meals and sleep while too engrossed in his work. Although if Alhaitham notices that he looks like he’s wearing himself too thin would encourage Kaveh to eat by bringing him something maybe sleep. Kaveh probably would eat what Alhaitham gives him but probably doesn’t get some sleep like he should.

•Between the two of them Kaveh is definitely the one who is prone to hiding the fact that he’s sick whether on purpose or by accident. If it’s on purpose it’s because he knows that Alhaitham will practically force him to rest; he will keep the fact that he’s sick under wraps.

•This normally goes one of three routes, either Kaveh collapses or winds up throwing up which lets Alhaitham know he’s sick and woke up sick. Alhaitham notices that Kaveh has been acting strange or looking off. Or Kaveh does rest but Alhaitham finds him laying on the couch or in bed or even sitting at the kitchen table with a fairly bad fever.

•If Alhaitham finds out he’s sick before Kaveh collapses or something it’s 9.5 times out of 10 because Kaveh is strangely quiet . And he would know that if Kaveh is quiet something is wrong.

•I figured Alhaitham would just reach out and feel Kaveh’s forehead if the other is closer enough to him. While Kaveh is just kinda surprised and confused at why Alhaitham is suddenly touching him.

•definitely makes Kaveh lay down and rest without a doubt, would probably even carry him to bed (Alhaitham’s own more than likely 🤭) .

•Kaveh would definitely be confused and annoyed too and may even tiredly put up a fight especially if he has a deadline he needs to complete. But Alhaitham would encourage him ie force him to lay down and rest.

•All while this is going on Alhaitham would definitely be worried and show it in his own way.

•I can definitely see him basically taking a few days off from work, getting Kaveh whatever he may need, even sitting by Kaveh’s bedside and reading or trying to get his fever down the best he can.

•Although I figured he’d be used to Kaveh getting sick, that doesn’t make him any less worried.

•Between the two of them while I hc Alhaitham getting nightmares usually when he has a fever that doesn’t mean that Kaveh doesn’t get them as well.

And Alhaitham would definitely stroke his hair, and hold his hand while stroking the back of his hand with his thumb. May even climb into bed with Kaveh to calm him down which typically results in Kaveh snuggling up to him and holding him.

•Alhaitham has definitely seen Kaveh with high/really bad fevers and it terrifies him each time.

poor Nari getting woken up in the middle of the night because the Alhaitham needs him to tend to Kaveh🤭😌

•I can also imagine that there has definitely been one or three times both when they were in the Akademiya together and when they lived together later in life that Alhaitham in his panic has brought Kaveh to the shower/bath tub in a desperate attempt to get his fever down which is just the absolute cutest 😭😌

•if Kaveh’s fever isn’t bad enough where he spends most of the time in like a hazy delirium though, he would be complaining and whining most of the time for sure.

•if Kaveh thinks he can get away with it will definitely try getting up to work on his project when he thinks Alhaitham has left him alone to cook dinner or something.

Usually gets caught though💀😂

Now for emeto Kaveh hc:

•when it comes to nausea for example Kaveh isn’t good at hiding it at all although he attempts to out of embarrassment. He is very aware of his self image and how people view him after all and worries about it often.

•definitely gets fidgety when he’s queasy and nauseous, usually things like bouncing his leg slightly etc.

•Kaveh is a messy puker, has definitely puked a lot from being sick or drunk. If he’s aware enough he does his best to make it to the trash can, sink, bathroom what have you but it rarely works.

Due to the fact that he he’s been fighting it for so long it’ll usually be pretty violent when he finally does puke, so coughing, spluttering, nearly choking when it sprays from his mouth and nose.

•has definitely puked in his sleep and it’s gotten in his hair, has also puked on the carpet and Alhaitham as well by accident when the other was helping him.

•Kaveh definitely seems like the type to hiccup a lot when he feels nauseous and he’s puking. It’s gotten to the point where if Alhaitham hears him hiccuping and Kaveh is sick/drunk and clearly looking pale he’ll grab the trash can or a bag or something because he just knows what’s gonna happen. May even try to get Kaveh to go to the bathroom.

In the last case he’s definitely made the mistake of just picking Kaveh up quickly to help him get to the bathroom only for it to be too much and Kaveh winds up puking on him.

•I feel like Kaveh also gets tears in his eyes and whines/whimpers when the nausea is really horrible as well. So he’ll just be laying in bed, on the couch or even slumped against Alhaitham with his face buried in his shoulder while the other strokes his hair.

•Kaveh is definitely a loud puker as well primarily due to the fact that he tries to force himself to be quite but when he does puke everything is kinda uncontrollable. A lot of harsh gagging since he pretty much loses control of his gag reflex when the nauseous reaches its peak.

Harsh retching and violent waves/spraying. Like it just goes everywhere and usually makes a huge mess since again he did everything he could to hold it back.

•afterwards Kaveh would just kinda be slumped there weakly gagging in front of the puddle of vomit or trying his best to get an apology out if he puked somewhere he shouldn’t have. So most of the time🤭😭

•he wouldn’t decline if someone rubbed his back for him or held his hair. Either definitely love’s comfort when sick😌

•definitely carries ponytail holders on him normally just for tying his hair back while working and stuff. Alhaitham would probably carry one or two on him for Kaveh in case one breaks, which can come in handy for this as well.(I do love the image of him having to hold his own hair back or Alhaitham holding it for him , too though 👀😌)

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Some fun random hc

•we don’t know wtf that gem on Alhaitham’s chest is and will probably never get an explanation. But occasionally I hc that he gets energy through it via sunlight just because it’s cute and funny to me.

•Main hc I have about it though is that it reacts more like Albedo’s birthmark but also glows/can pulse in time with Alhaitham’s heart beat, it’s more common when he’s sick. But Kaveh does gently stroke the gem because he knows it helps Alhaitham calm down when he needs it.

•when drunk I feel like Kaveh has a habit of gently pinching Alhaitham’s cheeks because they’re soft and he still has a baby face to an extent which is just adorable😭

•also this hc is a self indulgent but I definitely hc Alhaitham as an Emetophile specifically for Kaveh. Like Alhaitham probably kinda realized that he’s into Kaveh puking specifically because of how much he drinks and the number of times he’s had to hold his hair for him while he’s throwing up in the bushes or something.

But he especially loves the moment afterwards as well, whenever Kaveh’s eyes flutter tears clinging to his lashes, Alhaitham having to steady him while Kaveh slowly wipes his lips with the back of his hand trying to get rid of the threads of bile and drool while looking completely out of it and dazed, feeling Alhaitham’s eyes on him but too drunk and nauseous to say anything. (I love this hc so much it makes me feral, may write another fic for it soon🤤🤤🤤)

But yeah this is most/all of the hc for now anon😭 again sorry it took so long😭🫶

#authors note #intermission #brain rot talk #haikavetham #headcanon #my writing #emetophilia #genshin emeto

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jasntodds · 1 year

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I am SO late to doing this, I’m sorry 😭 I know I didn’t read A LOT in 2022 but the fics I did read were amazing and I wanted to take the time to mention them in a post!! You guys are so talented and brilliant and creative. I hope I get to read more of your guys’ fics this year!! And I hope all of you have an amazing 2023 💕

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No Place Like Home Series (Gar Logan x Fem!Powered!Reader x Jason Todd) by @pinkchubbiebunnie

The Titans taking care of their chronically ill Partner during a flare up by @pinkchubbiebunnie

Also includes Dawn, Dick, Hank, Kory, and Donna (I just didn’t make a separate card for them yet

The Sweater Song by @pinkchubbiebunnie

Summary: You knew he had to leave, but somehow that made it hurt even more. Even though it was the best thing for him - the best thing for both of you, it still hurt more than you could say. You lived in his sweater until he came back and just hoped your shirt would make it impossible for him to forget about you.

Based on Sweater Song by Hedley.

Waking Up After A Night Of Partying blurb by @slutobrien

Exert: You groaned loudly and moved to roll over away from the sunlight peeking through and shining across your face.

Birthday Boy by @buckybarnesandmarvel

Summary: It’s your lover’s birthday!

Say It Back by @softholand

Summary: sometimes certain words are harder for some people to say, yours just happens to be the infamous i love you

I Don’t Know Where I Stand series by @cutetomholland

Summary: it’s summer, and you’ve just moved into a new flat after a bad breakup with your now ex-boyfriend. when a celebratory trip to the nearby pub turns into an awkward meeting with your childhood best friend tom, old feelings you thought were gone gets brought back.

Who You Really Are (Shang-Chi x Reader) by @americaswritings

Summary: You find out about Shang-Chi’s true identity after he saves you in an alley.

#i'm sorry it took so long for me to do this!!#2022 fic recs #kaylee recommends

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Hello ! This is pukey Saeyoung anon.

I’m comin off anon bc honestly that shit is too much work. Pretty sure being sick this long has fried any last sense of inhibition or shame in my brain and I think everyone deserves to know how much I love Saeyoung smh. The extent to which that is my Mans. I will publicly gush if I so please. 😤😤

Plus! I’m pleased to report that I haven’t actually thrown up in about two weeks! So like. Hashtag recovery life I guess. 💀

But that’s what I came here to update you about. :’D

I feel like I kinda left you with a cliffhanger there with the whole bone cancer thing. (If it makes you feel any better, the hospital did too 👁👄👁)

November was very much,,, a terrible horrible no good very bad type of month. I spent nearly two weeks waiting for them to get back to me about my dumb bone marrow autopsy only for them to cancel my appointment last minute. And in the meantime I was just getting sicker and sicker… I ended up in and out of the hospital again a couple times,, but by the third time I was scared to go back bc the second time I went they didn’t even admit me overnight. They basically just charged me $700 to take a four hour nap. And cha boy doesn’t have that kinda money. 😭

But it got to the point that I really physically couldn’t take it anymore… I have never been in so much pain and discomfort in my entire life. Which unfortunately with the life I’ve had,, that’s a high ass bar lmao.

And it was just CONSTANT… I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t look at any screens. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t stand. I was literally too weak to even pull a blanket up over myself. I literally was spending every night sobbing/shivering/barfing myself to sleep. It was baaaaaaad.

Luckily my roommate at this point had probably started to get annoyed by hearing me crying from pain all night and was like “dude I’m taking you to the hospital again”

And my third hospital visit !! They FINALLY gave me an answer as to wtf is going on!

Good news is…? Not bone cancer. I don’t have to enter my Deadpool era Quite yet.

Bad news…? Apparently I’ve got fuckin Lupus 🤡

Which is super cute and fun because,, you know. Incurable lifelong chronic illness. I’m literally gonna be dealing with this shit for the rest of my life. :)

But like. It’s a perfectly livable disease. As long as it’s, you know. Actually being taken care of and treated. Which I now have enough info to actually do haha.

(Hit the self-loathing so hard that even my own fuckin immune system was like, oh shit we gotta take this bitch DOWN 💀)

I’m soooo glad to be home and back from the hospital… but it’s been very strange too. I’m still really sick and I can’t really do much on my own and,,, my brain physically doesn’t know how to process being like,, taken care of. Honestly it kinda sets off alarm bells in my brain 😳 but I’ve had to accept pretty damn quickly that,, I don’t really have a choice rn. I’m so used to just being on my own pushing through all my pain and just. Waiting till it goes away on its own. But if I do that in this case… the pain will just get worse and my body will quite literally shut down on me and I will literally die. Sooooo like,,,, 🤡 I guess maybe I can stand to be taken care of for at least a little while.

Doc says with all the damage that’s been done to my organs and stuff this past year, they caught it early enough that the damage is reversible. But I need to undergo a really strict recovery treatment,, and they estimate it’ll be at least 18 months before I’m able to get back to my ~normal healthy baseline~. Which is insane… like am I really gonna be out here living like a sickly hermit for a damn year and a half?? I’m gonna keep feeling better, I know. And I’ll slowly be able to do more again. But I can’t go back to my job. It was causing me waaay too much physical and mental strain. :( so that’s gonna be fun to figure out.

They also put me on literally 12 new medications when I left the hospital to help control my symptoms. Each of which I have to take 1-3 times a day. So that’s super exciting. Love a big bowl of pills for breakfast every morning.

It was torture at first because I hate swallowing pills. But it’s been about a week and I’m honestly getting used to it already. And better yet? Even after only a week… they’re noticeably helping my symptoms… and I’m actually starting to be able to do things again… I *almost* feel like, 60% of a normal human person again,,, maybe even 65%! I’m slowly starting to regain my appetite finally… and I can do little things again… like play the new Pokémon game, or watch anime, or draw, or call a friend on the phone. Which… god what a relief 😭 words cannot describe how good it feels to be able to do those things again… frankly,, it was traumatic having to spend the last few months watching my body physically deteriorate in real time… so now that I’m starting to feel like myself again, if only a little. I’m like. Hey?? I actually love myself so much???? I think I’m a pretty cool fun interesting person. Thank GOD I’m making a comeback 😭😭

Saeyoung of course has been a great source of comfort for me throughout all of this… he always is one of my biggest sources of comfort in life… literally even just imagining him being in the same room as me is enough to put me more at ease…

When things were at their worst a big part of how I dealt with shit was vividly daydreaming about making up silly stories with Saeyoung to distract me. This is something I’ve done for years when I’m too upset or stressed to sleep,,, it’s been a reliable source of comfort for me for a hot minute. But it’s never gotten to this extent haha.

We have a whole ass story going,, I’m actually starting to get pretty attached to the story and the characters… which is stupid AF because it’s literally just. Me and Saeyoung Choi as fantasy self-inserts wherein he’s a court jester and I’m a knight and we’re going on a quest to ~find a cure for my mysterious illness~

But a part of me is like 🥺🤔 what if I actually wrote the story tho? Lmaoooo

Amongst other coping mechanisms and distractions,,, I’ve also been falling HARD into my online shopping addiction. But also, idk, can you blame me…? I’m a material gowrl at heart and I haven’t been able to go shopping in person for months 😔😔 I need little treats to get me through the day.

Mostly I’ve been spending an UNGODLY amount of money on plushies. Like… idk if I could count them and I don’t even wanna THINK about the prices fhdhdjd-

Mostly Pokémon and Sanrio characters. But a few other random critters as well.

And tbh?? I don’t regret a single purchase. They’ve literally all helped me feel more comfortable and joyful these past couple months, which I’ve really needed. So, even if my bed is starting to look RIDICULOUS from sheer volume of plushies…. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’m living my best life

A few days ago I got a giant charmander plushy… and like. Ordinarily I’m not even the biggest fan of charmander (shut UP ABOUT CHARIZARD GAMEFREAK. IM OVER IT. GEN 1 IS POPULAR WE GET IT)

But I swear to god this young man is changing my life. It may be the softest squishiest most huggable plush I’ve ever encountered. I’ve been carrying him almost everywhere,,, starting to feel like the “ahh yes. Me, my partner, and their life sized mareep plushy” meme for real 💀💀

((How do you think Saeyoung would feel about me turning our bed into a literal mountain of plushies? Or having to compete for attention with my charmander? Hehe. ))

THERES ONLY ONE MORE THING I WANTED TO SAY…

If you’re actually taking the time to read all of this,,, holy shit thank you. And thank you for providing lonely bitches like me this outlet c’: to be able to talk… and share comfort… and express our deep love for these characters without fear of judgement. It’s really just such a lovely blog and I can never thank you enough.

But the last topic I wanted to touch on!!!

Ugh,,, I read your answer to the ask about Saeyoung with an MC into pastel goth fashion and…

That made me so happy 😭😭❤️❤️

I love fashion,,, so much. Truly one of my greatest joys in life is getting into a really cool fun outfit and strutting around Knowing that I’m cool as fuck and I look like a sexy badass 😤😤 it’s simply the most powerful feeling.

Love when I’m wearing an outfit I know looks fire and I can’t stop smirking haha.

And I just,,, love being flamboyant and silly and having fun with it. I’m 100% the type of person to walk into a store and go “this is the ugliest thing I’ve ever seen. The colors and patterns are such a mess they’re practically nauseating. I NEED IT.”

I have a collection of tacky button up shirts that could probably blind a man lmao. And JACKETS?? Don’t get me started on jackets. Boots,,, cargo pants,,, earrings,,, big colorful sunglasses. Ugh. <3

Since I’ve been so sick I haven’t been putting much effort into my appearance. My outfits were so joyless for a while… and then, well. I’ve spent the last month and a half wearing exclusively Pajamas and Hospital Gowns 😭

Considering that my main fashion inspirations ordinarily fall somewhere between Elton John, Lil nas x, and Jojo’s bizarre adventure…

Quite the glow down haha

I don’t think I realized fully how much I missed that until I read your ask…

You inspired me to go looking for some fun new clothes online. And now I’m feeling so excited and impatient for them to get here because I can’t remember the last time I got to put together a fun outfit… I actually wanna like,, get up and get dressed for the first time in so long c’: if only to waltz around my apartment a little bit and take a few selfies.

I’m not sure when I’ll be able to get back to my FULL level of glamour,, my inflammation is still pretty bad so my face and body are kinda weird and swollen and lumpy right now 🥴 and again,,, standing and walking are still very much a challenge. Idk if I could wear heels right now haha I’m wobbly enough on my feet already.

But I can’t wait to get back into it…

Like you were saying in that ask too… another part of why I love fashion defs has to do with my gender expression… and I LOVE LOVE LOVE when people bring that up with Saeyoung 😭 it always makes me grin and fills me with so much adoration to think about Sae getting to have fun and experience that euphoria with clothing and fashion as well… and especially the thought of us getting to do it together….? c’:

Literally a concept that is SO important and special to me 😭❤️❤️

Idk what kinda wonky matching outfits we’d be putting together but I know that we would look so fuckin cool and hot 😤😤 and best of all we could have so much fun. Which… tbh, there’s nothing more I could ask for in life.

Plus of course,,, there’s always the added fun of self indulgently getting to imagine Saeyoung admiring and complimenting me on my fashion :’D and like,,, thinking I’m cool or whatever 😭

Anyways! Those are all the things I wanted to say.

If you’re still reading this,, //what’s wrong with you bahaha I’m such a rambly mess

But like. Thank you. And deadass if this is too long to read or respond to feel free to leave it in your inbox or just delete it.

Honestly it was just really nice to be able to type out all these thoughts just to sorta. Get it out and decompress, ya know…? c’:

I hope you have an absolutely beautiful day.

While I am happy to hear that you have a better understanding of what's going on in your life, I'm sorry you're going through this transitional time when you discover that you have chronic illness. That has to be the most difficult time for a lot of people. You have to make a lot of adjustments and make changes that you may not be happy with to make sure that you're taken care of. I empathize and understand this because I deal with multiple chronic illnesses. If you ever need a safe space to vent about it, this is always a safe spot. Whether you want it to be posted or not, you can always scream into the inbox.

I hope you don't beat yourself up over the new limitations and changes that are coming into your life. It'll be hard for a little while to get used to everything. But it'll be okay. I can't promise that it'll be easy in the long run. This journey is a lot different for everybody. I think what helps when you feel lonely and isolated in that regard, is to find comfort in the things that make you happy and if that is this video game, then I'm glad that you have it. It's been there for me through all of my experiences so I'm also grateful for it.

I know what it feels like to be lonely and afraid. Having my blog like this... it’s a place where I’m able to help everyone’s dream. It’s simple, it’s small, but I know even the smallest response of “Yes, your favorite character would do this for you today!” means the world to someone on their worst day. I hope that you’re able to find some spoons to dress up and feel good very soon. It’s hard to find a good day sometimes, but you’ll have soon, I’ll cross my fingers for you.

Imagine that, I mean, imagine Saeyoung gushing over you because you found the energy to get up and show off your new outfit. There’s dazzling sparkles in his eyes as he looks at you. His hands are pressed to his mouth, and he looks like he’s going to keel over in delight. He’s absolutely enamored and in love with the sight of you. “You’re so handsome! I can’t take it! I’m in the presence of the best lover! I think I’m the luckiest boyfriend in the world!” Cue him pretending to faint before you ask him if he’s getting dressed, too.

That’s when he springs back up: “Wait, wait, wait, I’ve got the perfect dress that’ll match this. I’ll even let you pick my hair style for the day!”

#longpost #long post #queue #ask #pukey saeyoung anon #mod kait #clownishpossum #also don't worry I've got plenty of daydreams about saeran.#we're coping. this is fine and dandy.#so you and saeyoung? valid.#grief and anger are the things that I felt most at the start so be gentle with yourself.#tw chronic illness

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