#a place to live? money

[valerian-chai]

Feeling so incredibly sad and hopeless and defeated these days and this time i can’t even blame it on being a teenager. I cant just “grow out of it”. It’s real now…

#and im not really sure what to do about it #i dont have anyone i can talk to that isnt also dealing with a lot #they say money doesn’t buy happiness but literally money would solve every problem i have #broken computer? money would fix that #credit card debt from my mom? money #student loan debt? money #the cap on my tooth that is loose? money #a place to live? money #proper care for the migraines i get? money #clothes that fit? money #access to space where i can take care of my body? money #no jobs near me? money for a car and gas and insurance #im real tired

[cemeterything]

hey man, what kind of tattoos do you have if you don't mind me asking?

two dragons on my left ribcage and the sagittarius constellation on my right. i kinda dgaf about the constellation anymore, it was my first tattoo and at the time i just wanted to get a tattoo to prove to myself that i could more than i cared about the design, so i figured i might as well go with something that reflected me as a person, and my star sign seemed like a safe choice, because even if i grew out of it (which i did) it's harmless and not too specific. plus it's not that big or complex, so if i really wanted to i could probably get a coverup to replace it. but the dragons i will love forever. i even named them (annie and mallory).

#i want to get more tattoos but i havent had enough money for a while #now theres a tattoo place opening where i live though ill probably save up and get the angel wings i want on my back #also you may be wondering why i chose rib tattoos when they hurt so much. and the answer is because if i went for the most painful #options first any future tattoos would be less intimidating by comparison.

[chrollohearttags]

I just want biden to know that him being a ‘trump alternative’ is not a sufficient enough reason for him to be re-elected and he can stop making that shit his only personality trait.

#should’ve never been elected in the first place as quiet as it’s kept #I personally believe we don’t need a president if those two assholes are the options #building your entire campaign on student loan forgiveness and stimulus checks but not giving either is insane #then using ur citizens money to fund genocide while they live in poverty is sick #approving billions to harm innocent palestinians and having unlimited money for war but none for the homeless disabled or sick #I’ve said it a million times but fuck him fuck this country and fuck Israel #I’m so sick of it #‘he’s the lesser of two evils’ lmao is he really? or are they both terrible ppl? #cherry chats 🍒 #every time I see him my blood boils #I hate that man so bad

[bananonbinary]

somewhat kicking a bees nest here, but hear me out-

"homemade and handcrafted goods should cost hundreds and even thousands of dollars" is why attaching a monetary value to esoteric concepts like "time" and "skill" (and, you know, "a human being") is a bad system.

now, before the pitchforks come out, i am not bitching because i want a handcrafted quilt for $20. i do recognize that it would be unbelievably unfair to the quilter. but like...doesn't that sound obscene? that we live in a system where things that used to be pretty mundane are now only available to the upper class, or the creator just fucking dies? where in order for someone to make anything artistic, they need to be independently wealthy or ONLY cater to wealthy people?

again, i am not suggesting that artists should sell me their shit at a horrific loss. im not really suggesting any solution at all here, we're between a bit of a rock and a hard place. but it feels really inherently fucked up to me that the only options are "Artists taken advantage of" and "only rich people get art."

anyways, UBI huh

#like i see these arguments about rising videogame and movie and tv costs as well #and like. yes! i do think those artists deserve a living wage! #but also its grotesque that that means only rich people have access to art #a ubi wouldnt solve EVERYTHING but it sure would make literally everything easier you know? #i hate the idea of art as career #not because i dont think its important #but because i feel like its TOO important to attach to that fucking carrot/stick you know? #whoever controls the money can control the art and that's real stupid. even if it IS how its always been. #but taking it further than that. i guess i hate 'career' meaning 'reason you get to live' in the FIRST place #so i dont hate artists that make it their career. that's fine. #but i think a society that forces you to attach a dollar value to everything you care about in order to live is very sick

[strawbebbiesart]

chimckens 🐓🌽

#sasha's art #traditional art #acrylic painting #artists on tumblr #chickens #i had a whole Journey with this one we cried we laughed (cried mostly) #i know this one isn't as good as my other stuff maybe? i don't get to paint a lot and it Shows lmao #HOWEVER #this one was also an Emotional one for me #i wanted to do something about the childhood Adventures i got to have with my maternal grandma #who always felt like we liked her Less than my other grandma cos of all kinds of insecurities she had #mostly related to money and class #but we were children we just loved her #and i regret not knowing this before she died and not letting her know how much she meant to me #anyways #this painting will live at my parents' place cos my dad asked if he can have it #and i am really glad my bf urged me a few years ago to start sharing my art with people again #first with friends then family then online #the encouragement from everyone means so much and i Love that my parents love my art and want to display it and show it to everyone #ough #anyways!! hope you enjoy it! i know i do!!!! even tho it's not Perfect!! #the joy of Creation overpowers the fear of imperfections!!!!!!!!!

[deus-and-the-machina]

you know the contrast between how Vergil is presented vs thinking too hard about Vergil’s story is pretty funny. Man’s reputation is this iconic badass, the pinnacle of what video game rivalries can be, the coolest guy to play as, the guy who breaks every game he’s added to,

and then you go to the story and like. man’s lost his free will and autonomy at 19 and then came back a fractured man half of which was a lovecraftian eye beast the other half of which was a chronically ill goth man. and then he reunites and hes in like his 40s now I believe but legit the last time he was actually in a game where he wasn’t being mind controlled when he was 19 which is both sad but also thinking about how this guy who’s considered one of the top badasses of gaming has never really lived life outside of being a teenager.

Anyways this is the secret comedic potential of post DMC5 for Vergil because not only has the human world probably changed a fair bit in terms of technology, if he’s sticking around Dante he’s gonna actually have to learn in depth how taxes and grocery shopping work. Amazing.

#thinking about dmc seriously for the first time in a while...I never stopped the occasional canary reblog but hmmmmmmm #like I imagine post 3 Vergil was probably similarly doing mercenary/demon killing work to get money like Dante was and thats sorta shown in #the novels. but like before that when he was a young young kid just post attack he was probably just living feral in an alleyway or smth #with just the yamato prolly similar to how v at the start of visions of v was. that child mugged and dumpster dived ok #point is while obviously he got to a place where he wasnt like. broke and homeless by the gilver era hes probably not had to think much #about money besides it buys me food and clothes mans was confused by one goaland power and yada yada while guess what buddy now you're #gonna be consumed by adulting. I dont even think he'd be that bothered by Dante not paying the bills at first but once he settles into human #living and gets a firsthand experience of what a cold shower when the heating is off feels like he is ON his ass about it #he pretends hes sooooo above human concerns until he has to live them lol and nowhes in charge of devil may crys finances prolly #nero taught him how to do taxes I bet #devil may cry #vergil sparda #vergil

[anglerflsh]

wow ive been kind of off lately I should take a day to rest an[explosion]

#[.art] #self #complaining tag #I'm good. I needed to draw about it but I'm good. it's fine. whatever #love it when I barely ask you for money to Live outside of gifts and 30 a month. and then you withold the gift SOMEONE ELSE GAVE ME #that's fine it's totally not as if I told you I need that money before. and you decided I was a bit too mean #about you compiling a document I Need To in order to keep the room and board in the place I am living in. by the way #she proceeded to change topic completely to the weather and forget about anything ive told her on the clothes I have here #or about the courses I follow. she takes notes for my sister's classes but cannot be bothered to remember i dont have exams in april #that's fineeee it's fine. it's fine. I know my sistser needs the help and I don't. I would rather die than ask for her help anyways #you can at least pretend to forget about both of us equally instead of telling me I should graduate in two years because im smart enough #which I am not. by the way. At least when I will fail at something I'll have the opportunity to tell her I told you so thank god #dont get me wrong i know her giving me compliments is a good thing I just sort of wish the were things actually about me #and not about the idea she has about me being some kind of prodigy that's simply too lazy to actually be exceptional. anyways

[oifaaa]

Who’s your favorite anon

Not to sound financially motivated or like you can buy my love but also you can definitely buy my love so its that one anon who keeps sending me money single handedly financing this whole operation

#ask #anon #we are living in hard times #so when people give me money #i really fucking appreciate it #but yeah #second place goes to my long lost love #french anon #and then i guess all my anon children

[s-dei]

one of my reasons to keep going and thrive is to see international shipping again, so I can send a huge ass package with a fun things to a random mutual overseas

maybe i was spoiled with this earlier, but i just fkin love people and I love sharing. If to think, even in the age of globalization it still feels like a little miracle to send something to the far place of the Earth where a real person will recieve it.

had this thought today at work and felt my eyes wet

#sdei spam #if you don't know and curious why i can't: i live in russia #yep i can send a huge ass package within my country #and it will be great and cool too #it's just my inner child who is always curious about the places unknown #this year is also gonna be a mess in terms of job for me #so i'm better to save money #so i will try to live the dream again

[marzipanandminutiae]

“akschually, it’s classist to say people shouldn’t visually modernize Victorian homes!!! what if they can’t afford restoration?!?!?!”

then how the hell could they afford to IKEA-fy the place, Deborah? you have to pay contractors to do all those major modifications, after all, just as you would to restore

nobody’s mad about temporary, cheap wall-to-wall carpeting to make the floors warmer. that can be removed whenever someone else wants it gone, down the line, and the wood underneath will still be there

we’re mad about knocking down all the interior walls, replacing sconces and chandeliers with recessed can lighting, and painting the whole place greige

#old houses #permanent alterations beyond making the place basically safe to live in are what piss me offl #(and accessibility is fine too obviously) #not temporary measures that are reversible #and in my area the IKEA-fication actually jacks up the price so #nobody's doing it to save money

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

job applications: this is entry level! anyone can apply!

job applications: ...as long as you've done at least six months of highly specific work, or have this exact degree, or if you kissed a chicken during the last moon of 2012-

#im back in the trenches bois its Not Looking Great #gonna apply to this stupid thing anyway but #it looks like stockin grocery store shelves is the way im gonna go #unless i get Very lucky or manage to bullshit my way into this job #college isn't necessary but Man a lot of places want you to attend. no <3 #but noooo instead i have to like. work. till i die. and never make enough money to live comfortably. sigh #sometimes i think to myself 'i should make video essays on youtube and see if that goes anywhere' #and sometimes i think 'i should scribble up things that people would buy and make a shop' #and sometimes i think 'what if i killed someone with a stick. would that be fucked up or what' #absolutely unprompted #AGHHHHHHHH THE BOXES WE AS HUMANITY HAVE LOCKED OURSELVES INTO IM GONNA LOSE IT #i was born to be a handsome decoration / weird little artist for eccentric wealthy people #i was meant to drape myself across a beautiful philanthropist woman's lap and doodle lil animals for her #while she rambles and feeds me grapes #yk. if i did make a shop i could have an extra section for small crochet things #coasters. small hand warmers. tiny shapes. simple cat toys. that sorta thing. quick and easy stuff #i could make them w/ specific colors so that they're subtle fandom themed #i literally have a coaster in damian's robin colors... a black/red SB square... #hm. thinking #oh shit i gotta work on that new commission sheet #OH NO. I FORGOR SOMETHING I SHOULD NOT HAVE FORGOR. I HAVE MADE A LITTLE FUCKY WUCKY #excuse me everyone i have something to finish

[amuhav]

Hope y'all had a FANTASTIC Christmas 💖

and wishing you all a Happy New Year (+ personal update lol)

It may seem like something so small to get emotional over, but Christmas Eve, I burst into tears at having something ~resembling~ a living room for Christmas, AND seeing my desk space finally all set up and running. It has been a heck of a rough time these last 17 months since we moved into our new place, not to mention the 2 rough af years leading up to it. I included some images below from throughout for anyone curious (or just wants to see my cat in a t-shirt 😻), but big ol' venting rant under the read more, sorry if you open it but you've been warned LMAO.

We moved here in August 2022, and these pics really are only a small fraction of everything we've had to deal with. From plumbing leaks and years' worth of water damage, to mould-filled walls and a condemned boiler. TWO GAS LEAKS. One dangerously malfunctioning stove. The fear of potentially dry rot-infested joists. From ripping up and re-laying multiple floors (with more to still do...), to ripping out a fireplace and rebuilding entire walls. Having no bathroom to call our own and having to share my mother-in-law's tiny annexe en suite for 5 months. Having to ask permission to have a shower. Having no bedroom for 4 months and having to squish three of us into my daughter's room—the confinement of which stressed out my cat, Mina, so much that she overgroomed herself to baldness and required a shirt and then a babygro (even if she looked beautiful in them LMAO). THE FLEAS. My god the fucking fleas the previous owners left here.....

From a family of starlings deciding to nest in our eaves and wake us up ~every morning~ with the dawn chorus, to finding (no pics, I promise!) FIVE mummified rats in the attic and needing the whole thing ripped out, sterilised, re-insulated and re-boarded, two pigeon skeletons behind the fireplace (complete with a moth invasion that had been feasting on them 💀 nature, man... so fucky). Needing to get a whole-ass loft hatch installed in our bedroom ceiling because mice were getting in and we had no access to deal with them. R A T S. RATSSSSSSS. *shudder*

So many IKEA furniture building sessions lmao. 10 new doors installed throughout the entire house (with 2 more still to go). New boiler, new water tank, new radiators. New carpets fitted throughout upstairs. Every single room repainted. Cutting and fitting skirting boards and coving ourselves, the latter during a bad bout of medicine-induced low blood pressure, 0/10 do not recommend lest you want to almost pass out standing on a ladder over a flight of stairs... 💀 Honestly the number of things that could have literally killed me this year. Like the incorrectly wired socket that the live wire fell out a centimetre away from my finger........ EVERY SINGLE job we've done to fix or improve this place has been hindered and tainted by the incompetence and cost-and-corner-cutting of the previous owner, taking way longer and costing way more than it should, and/or literally endangering us all. Pretty much everything above was caused by them. Eg. The leak in the bathroom coming VISIBLY through the living room ceiling that they left unfixed for 4+ YEARS MINIMUM that they PROMISED us they'd fixed 🙃🙃🙃

And through this all, we've had no living room or really any downtime space, apart from my husband who has had his office. I've had to move my "desk" (an IKEA table that just about fit my PC+Monitor that bruised my knees to sit at) around like playing musical rooms, until our bedroom was ready, then me and my daughter "relaxed" in there for the last 9 months. The only TV we've had was "shared" with my mother-in-law in the kitchen (aka it's all hers lol).

A lot of this is complaining about first-world problems, I know, I know. We have a roof over our head and are surviving a cost of living crisis that is destroying the lives of many others. But tbh, the last 2+ years of my life have ~rewired my brain~ entirely because I have been in a permanent state of stress combined with an unrelenting limbo. Just... existing. Seeing the light at the end was impossible at times just from the sheer overwhelming amount needed to be done. We are still not finished. But having a living room, unfinished as it currently is, finally feels like that turning point. Having a SOFA HOLY SHIT. Having a space for me and my daughter and my cat to properly ~unwind~ each day. Just being able to have a Christmas tree and presents under it, even if it's not the full-size one we were meant to have, it's still not the tiny 2-foot one stuffed into the kitchen corner we had last year. Mina finally getting free roam of the place the last few days has lifted my soul so much, she's so happy just getting to sit with us and chill.

Bonus; in the new year, I'm finally getting my heart condition fixed permanently, AND then should be starting medication for ADHD.

So yeah. Here's to a turning point, a New Year's start that feels, for the first time in a long time, like a hopeful one. And I really, really hope that translates to more time here going forward, because what little I have been able to do has kept me sane. It'll likely still be spotty for a while, there's still so much to do, but I'm on track now lol.

Now, for anyone that got this far, a bonus happy kitty pic :3

#nonsims #saviourhide #blog PSA #anyway lmao TLDR #it has been... ~a time~ lmao #I am finally getting places with renovating this stupid fucking house #and I can FINALLY sense the light at the end of the tunnel #it literally feels surreal to be typing this at a REAL DESK #in a room I DON'T ALSO SLEEP IN #I can BREATHE. #starting to feel like a home #and not just a money sinkhole #a place to live and not just ~exist~ #also. I laid that living room floor and I am so fucking proud lol #why can't renovating be as easy as it is in the sims #those fuckers don't even lift a finger

[uncanny-tranny]

By implying that children are too stupid and rude to learn about the world and learn how the world works and how to interact with others, you are casting responsibility away from the people who are responsible for that child's upbringing and placing the blame on the children (who don't have the autonomy given to them to be allowed to decide what they want) who can't help what they do and do not learn, often.

If the children aren't okay, then investigate why before turning to thought-terminating clichés of, "Well, the kids are just stupid and dumb and aren't even worth the effort because they're lazy!"

#youth liberation #i was really bothered when i saw this clip where this person was saying almost verbatim that... #...'kids [these days] are too STUPID and they're teachers are scared!'... #...why is the blame placed on the kids who have no control over school curriculum and what their home life is like or if they have money... #...it's because when you place the blame on the people with no power or control you don't have the responsibility to change circumstances.. #...you essentially keep the status quo while simultaneously belittling a group of vulnerable people... #...and thus you feed into the cyclical nature of the broken education system #the kids these days AREN'T okay but it ISN'T THEIR FAULT... #...it's the fault of late-stage capitalism and poorly-funded education and a world that wasn't even built with them in mind... #...they had NO PART in the creation of the world which is hostile to their entire existence #don't mind the incorrect usage of their in the second tag i was so focused on how pissed i was #also remember how a good chunk of these kids lived through *checks notes* the fucking PANDEMIC LOCKDOWN #which was a clown show in terms of supporting kids and their parent/s #some places handled lockdown in the US better than others but holy fuck in my area at least it was a nightmare #what do you expect from parents who are now working full-time and teaching part/full-time and parenting full-time? #what support exactly are you expecting they recieved? because you'll likely find they got either a little or NONE #hilarious that i used the wrong their in a post subtweeting about education LOL #look i was focused on how PISSED i was lol cut me some slack here

[worm-in-a-trenchcoat]

Mutuals!!! Beasties!!!

We went to an antique mall today for my birthday and look at what I found!!

The whole top floor was full of vintage toys and dolls/Barbie’s, I wanted to buy everything 😭

#monster high #the tall ghoul on the counter wasn’t for sale I wanted her so bad 😭 #the one in box on the shelf was for sale but she was 250 bucks #I’m definitely going back there when I get paid they can take all my money #they also had an oddity room where I also wanted to buy everything 😭 #10/10 today was a good day #the lady who worked this part of the store is also autistic/has adhd #and she said one of her hyperfixations is Barbie and dolls #I swear this woman info dumped about dolls to this girl who was looking for 80s Barbie’s #for a good 30 minutes #I wanted to talk with her so bad I’ve never seen someone else info dump about dolls before I want to be her best friend 😭 #we’re going back there some time this week so maybe I’ll get to talk to her next time we go #if you live in Virginia this place is in VA beach!

[soldier-poet-king]

Im...happy?? Even temporarily???

Woke up and laid in bed longer than I should have, but less than I usually do, and while filled with dread, it's LESS dread than usual

Walked to mass at new church, completely bland generic sermon & bland generic music, which is perfect, nobody knows me or is trying to rope me into things or expects things from me, I don't have to pretend I don't absolutely loathe so much of catholic parish culture, I can just, go in, go out, be a nameless face in the pew which is Safe and Uncontroversial. There was even the coolest looking older butch in the pew with me. Docs and leather jacket and all.

Stopped and read on a cafe patio with a coffee and pastry. The sun was out. Nobody was constantly texting me asking where I was. It was me and my iced coffee and silly vampire book.

Checked out the main shopping area, saw all the local grocers and bakeries and small local businesses. I'm not in a suburban box store desert anymore. I may pay slightly more at small businesses but if I want the luxury of this kind of area that's a cost I'm willing (and newly able) to pay. Plus living here means I don't have to own a car and am saving so much on that front that it still works out in my favour financially

Stopped by a little florist, tiny hole on the wall, met the nicest man and his nephew and got tons of plant advice based on my apartment layout and some recommendations for what should be unkillable given my brown thumb. Will absolutely be going back for more plants once I'm fully set up + some for my office

Like. This was unthinkable a year ago. I desperately need to keep my job. So I can keep this. I forgot how good it was to live in an area like this, not endless detached housing sprawl. I can walk everywhere. I lived in an arealike this in uni but my budget was nonexistent (grad school funding woooo). Now that I have a (very small admittedly) degree of financial flexibility??? Im allowed to sit on a patio with a 5$ coffee once a week??? I can pop into little florists and grocers and bakeries if I want?? Nobody is going to judge me for "wasting" money by not buying the absolutely dogshit quality cheapest thing possible??? Or not reporting on my location at all times? I owe no accounting of my every trip out the house?

#the duality of fran #YALL IM. i might weep a bit #anyway #i got an ivy and a zebra pothos at this guys recommendation #he was SO nice and helpful man i could've stayed in his shop all day #WHODVE THOUGHT. COMMUNITIES VS SOULLESS BIG BOX STORES #like putting my money where my mouth is viz community based living and small businesses #also i dont have to online shop constantly #i can GET THINGS NEARBY #if i never have to go to walmart again. God bless #and i can volunteer. theres a food bank nearish by! i can hop on the subway and hit up any number of places to volunteer at #i can donate my knitting! i can be good #my mother is like oh no theres a homeless person #yeah its a city and not a suburb and yhe govt is failing our residents #HENCE WE NEED TO DO SMTHN ABT IT #but i CAN now that im local. not spending 3+hrs a day commuting

[piplicious]

im allowed to have a diy rarepair too

#sits you in front of me . yknow most parents would probably be curious about their childrens JOBS and stuff #and i dont think the girls working at raisins have vwry good families .or let alone financially stable families bc yd their kids w #work then . esp in places like that. #ok actually rhere can be other scenarios like maybe smb likes attention and wants extra money apart from their aprents money or what #BUT THATS NOT THE POINT. the point is that i want to put these two girls together and add some contrast between their lives #i want rebecca to be curious about the FREEDOM about the stuff thats UNACCEPTABLE IN HER FAMILY #SEE MY VISION *blasts you with beams* #south park rebecca #sp rebecca cotswolds #sp rebecca #rebecca cotswolds #south park raisins #sp raisins #sp porsche #southpark porsche #south park