#again. this does not matter at all lol

[irrigos]

i like to bring up the fact that i was one of the two Minister tier backers on the MotR kickstarter because. well mostly because i think its pretty funny. but ive got the overly defensive internet brainrot and also i have seen people get actively harassed because they said they bought like. a new sofa that was $1k. so im worried that people will either think im some sort of mr big dick moneybags thats posting from my second yacht, or that im shamefully bad with my money. not that it matters either way, but.... im neither rich nor irresponsible but a secret third thing (has a budget)

#again. this does not matter at all lol #but one time i mentioned i was trying to play every ES and someone was like 'wow that must get expensive' #like. i guess. but i dont buy any other games #so the money other people are spending on AAA games. or like. idk final fantasy. i just spend on fl #and also when the kickstarter came around i got a huge windfall. it was luck lol #im not normally dropping that much money on ANYTHING #anyway this post is entirely unnecessary bc i dont know if any of you were actually thinking poorly of me because of it #and also. genuinely what do i care #but still. here we go anyway lol

[blujayonthewing]

#I've played with irl atheists and catholics and everything in between #but it rarely feels like faith is a real factor for anyone-- DM or player #outside of‚ again‚ divine spellcasters and Big Epic Plot Things #I mean there are a couple of 'RAAAHGH FUCK THE GODS >:C' edgy backstory types but #no one is just Normally Culturally Religious and it's WEIRD #like it's not even a matter of faith in dnd! the gods are LITERALLY OBJECTIVELY PROVABLY REAL #so what does that MEAN for the average person! how does it shape language? business? culture? #where are the people wearing holy symbols like amulets-- or the way modern christians very casually wear crosses? #blessings over meals? prayers before bed? burnt offerings? #and like I enjoy thinking about world and culture building but I know that's A Whole Thing but even just like... #it doesn't feel like anyone believes in gods at all except clerics and paladins #like they DO because they factually exist but in the same way I 'believe in' like. the president of france. #like yeah he exists and is important to some people but has no bearing on my life whatsoever #that's such a fucking weird approach to the DIVINE in a polytheist world where those gods are YOUR CULTURE'S GODS?? #I am bad at this myself but I'm not religious so it's harder for me to remember what Being Religious All The Time Casually is like lol #funny enough my character with the most intentionally religious background in this sense #is one of my ones who's ended up wrapped up in Big Plot God Things lmao #'aubree starts the campaign with a holy symbol of yondalla because of course she does why wouldn't she' #'oh okay well she's gonna get deeply and personally entangled with a bunch of death gods immediately' fdkjghkdf oh!! welp #you don't really pray to urogalan unless you're breaking ground for a new building or someone just died so it's STILL weird for her lol #but at least I had the framework there of 'oh yeah the gods exist and matter to me and my everyday life and culture' in general #about me #posts from twitter

[sskk-manifesto]

Proof that bsd would be a lot better if they just let it pass the Bechdel test more often

#It barely counts too since the conversation between Kyouka and Kouyou verges a lot on men but eh that's the best we can offer #Idk I just really like Kyouka's arc and think that in this episode too it was well developed. #Her relationship with Kouyou really is one of the most interesting of the whole franchise. #About that I LOVE LOVE LOVE KOUYOU WHY AREN'T WE TALKING ABOUT HER ALL THE TIME I want her back as soon as possible 😭😭😭 #And her va is k/l/k's Ryuuko va aka my favourite va ever from my favourite anime ever. God I love k/l/k an inconceivable amount #Which is funny because k/l/k also does have a villain mother figure #The Kyouka / Kouyou dynamics are a lot like. The very watered down version of the Emma / Isabella dynamics. #(I'm once again saying read t/p/n) #I just think. Kyouka's interior struggle is really interesting and we don't talk about it enough!!! #Also FINALLY SEASON 2 ATSUSHI HOW I'VE MISSED YOU!!!!!!!! #I really don't know what's up with anime Atsushi every time he's on screen I'm hit by cuteness aggression. It's an illness. #Next. Can we agree Reason Living is the best b/sd op of them all both music wise and visuals wise #MAYBE on par with True Story for visuals but that's it. #Again I really can't vibe with Granrodeao but that's intrinsically a matter of personal taste ////// #MARGARET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MARGARET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #Also Akutagawa voice cameo eheh <33 #There'll probably be a lot of screaming over characters this time lol sorry in advance. Unfollow me now etc. etc. #random rambles

[httpiastri]

me: *has a bad week*

oscar: say no more, i know how to fix it

#i would crush them both in a card house contest lmao how are they do bad?? #so** #there’s something so sexy about men covering their their faces with their hands. so big and so…… what else could he do with those?...anyways #i find it so interesting how i still to this day look at his neck and get surprised by how good it looks #like seeing it for the first time all over again #he’s so prettyyyy it hurts me so bad #and at the same time heals me #when i look at him i feel like i’ve never been sad in life #except when he’s sad #his smile :((( #the way he looks at lando……. is anyone surprised? #@ lola !! the gif on the right !!! #looks SO much like my friend that i told you about #she does those exact expression whenever she does something she’s proud of like that lol #anywayssss i love oscar #and lando for that matter #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #oscar piastri #mclaren racing #osc hands osc neck osc arms

[mamawasatesttube]

i wish it wasn't so normal for people to complain about unfinished wips or fics that take a long time to update. because sometimes i think i have a really fun idea for a fic but it'd take a while for me to write, and i like talking about my work as i do it and i don't like writing entire fics over like 20k without sharing, because i lose steam. so if i were to write and post that cool fic idea, it'd be as a wip. and then i think about all the people who just refuse to engage with wips, or all the other people who would just go "update pls" all the time, and of how people only really comment in the first 24 hours something is posted and then it's lost to obscurity, and then i just go "actually whats the point in going through the effort writing this out? i'll just daydream about it now and then and be done with it." and then i don't write it. alas!

#rimi talks #shoutout to that one person who followed me from resi fandom and commented on one of my dc fics like ''pls update that resi fic'' #also shoutout to all those tumblr posts about how theres nOthInG wOrSe than finding a GoOd FiC but its uNFiNIsHeD #i used to really like writing longfic but these days i kind of shy away from it bc it rly does get discouraging #like they say ''write for yourself'' and i do but i certainly dont share just for my own satisfaction yk??? #anyways. i already have space fic and theres no need for me to start another fic. even if it would be fun. #ive also just been in a Mood about writing since yesterday and thats not helping matters 😔 #but it feels like a stupid thing to be in A Mood about. idk. whatever jdlksk hopefully itll pass and ill be normal tomorrow :/ #bc talking to duck earlier today we came up with a really fun mermay fic premise. but. writing? me? multichap again? lol. lmao even #like i would love to!!!!!! having two ongoing multichaps wouldnt kill me i like to pingpong between wips #but dealing with people whining about update times or telling me they refuse to read bc its a wip...... dunno if i can do that again fellas #okay. enough woes and whining. i guess i will go play a video game

[im-no-jedi]

there’s literally been years of discourse between Hunter stans and Crosshair stans, arguing about who’s in the right and who’s in the wrong, usually with one side actively hating the other character

meanwhile, I, who greatly sympathizes with both characters and can relate to them both, am just standing off to the side like 🧍🏻‍♀️

#like it’s genuinely funny to me at this point #what are y’all trying to prove #also does no one consider the fact that BOTH of them made mistakes?? #and that those mistakes were mostly out of their control?? #like… come on #use your braincells people LOL #and again I relate to them both in many ways #mainly Hunter but also some of Crosshair #so maybe that’s why I can see both sides #but still it shouldn’t be this big of a deal #the Empire is the true enemy in the end; that’s all that matters #my dark and broody bandana man #Mr Snarky Sniper #star warz

[esoulix]

I'm really intrigued by Uther and Merlin's dynamic because Uther actually sees Merlin as a human being? And it's really weird because Merlin's a peasant and a servant but Uther looks at Merlin and confides in him and asks after his son like Merlin is a person worth listening to. And this is Uther 'Just Get Another Servant' Pendragon. I think after the Poisoned Chalice he realized how much Merlin mattered to Arthur and was like. Fuck I guess so. Plus he was Gaius' nephew and also Morgana liked him so-

I think it was the perfect storm for him to look a this farm boy and see a human being tbh

#bbc merlin #I think the weirdest thing that really highlights this is the Witchhunter episode tbh #When Aridian demands to search Merlin's chambers and Uther fucking looks at Merlin as if in permission #That's the fucking genocidal king of Camelot and he said 'merlin?' as if Merlin had any say in the matter #Plus he let Merlin plead Gaius' case afterword like ik Arthur advocated for it but still #Also the amount of times he let Merlin off the hook is insane. #Like when Merlin let the goblin loose? He was like don't let it happen again. And that was a fucking magical creature? #He was going to burn Alice for the same reason basically #Anyways feeling insane about the amount of liberties Merlin was allowed to take with the royal family lol #Also also the Sophia episode when he was scolding Merlin and was like if this was wartime you'd be flogged #And Merlin replies 'but since it isn't you'll let it go just this once?' SIR THAT'S THE BLOODKING OF CAMELOT #And all Uther does is put him in the stocks?? #I feel like Gaius and Morgana and Arthur were all working overtime for this boys safety tbh

[swordmaid]

this dialogue path im so 😭😭🤭🤭

#shri’iia going like you weren’t THAT good 🙄 as if she didn’t come multiple times bc he’s probably more attentive than her matriarch #like I imagine her matriarch being a very selfish lover and she always receives and never gives and shri’iia being so used to that #so when the act 1 forest sex scene comes and astarion performs as he does and he’s very giving and thorough and more focused on her own #pleasure than his shri’iia is like ?? brakes screeching noises in her brain she’s not used to this btw #not to mention she’s already drunk as fuck and trying so very hard to ignore the pain in her chest from oath breaking #so she gets even more confused and she just lets him do what he wants to do #cue the morning after .. ‘you weren’t THAT good’ whatever you’re just saving face 😭 #anyway. I like this dialogue path too bc you get an insight on astarion’s pov where he says he was holding back and making his excuse #when he was probably dissociating / feeling disgusted at having to do his routine again #but then it’s all part of his plan so he gotta do it. also that’s what he knows how to do so he has to do it and liking it is a diff matter #but when he says the ‘how dare you’ like it feels more playful so I think that kind of dynamic where they clown on each other is what they #both like. I also think that in the second time they sleep together it’s a bit more playful bc they’re getting that kind of dynamic more #based on the flirting scenes you can get prior the second time he offers to sleep together again #but to me when they overtly flirt / or when they fuck is when the seeds of the romance are planted .. it only develops when they start to #hang out with each other lol. like this whole romance that’s built on deceit and using each other #gets developed bc they actually like being in each other’s company 😭😭 idk that’s so cute to me #and when they’re actually together it’s like. this slowburn where they’re not putting any labels on it #they just hang out with each other for the next couple of hundred years and occasionally get married #multiple times for the attention and gifts lol #actually have more thoughts abt astarion/shri’iia 😭 they’re infesting my mind like mold #shut up about bg3. #bg3 spoilers

[vaugarde]

god it still feels so good

#the rule of pokemon journeys is that youll go through a ton of painfully mid episodes #and then once in a while theyll smother the audience with catharsid #catharsis #i skipped the previous two eps just to get here faster tbh idc ive seen them recently it doesnt matter #‘’ohhh but iris didnt make enough achievements in the original to justify being the champion-‘’ shut up she deserves this after the bullshit #all the bullshit the fandom and show sometimes put her through #i love you iris you deserve better and im glad the writers recognized it #also seeing her do the kid joke again reminded me how so many ppl missed the point of the gag bc its so obvious here #shes like ‘’ha ha youre so excitable like a kid :)’’…. when beforehand she turned her champion announcement into a surprise #and was all giddy and cute. shes literally in a fairytale getup here #the joke is that shes not above ash at all and she immediately gets shut down whenever she indulges in this #like here she does it and it devolves into a childish squabble and drayden tells em to shut up lol #the joke is not ‘’ha ha ash is cringe’’ (altho he is crimge in bw tbh so i guess i can see how ppl came to that conclusion) #echoed voice #jn lb

[sysig]

Well work on it faster! (Patreon)

[Panel 1] Prismo: ...It wouldn’t have stopped you from trying.

[Panel 2] Prismo: Would it?

[Panel 3] Simon: I don’t know. Maybe.

[Panel 4] Prismo: Simon.

[Panel 5] Prismo: You can’t fool me on this one. Why else would you come to me? To look for her.

[Panel 6] Simon: ... You couldn’t, so I had to.

[Panel 7] Prismo: •sigh• ...Look, you’re right. I should’ve told you.

[Panel 8] Prismo: I’ve just been really...distracted. Simon: Hah.

[Panel 9] Simon: Was years of my no-longer-immortal life not enough for you?

[Panel 10] Prismo: C’mon, man, you know why. Simon: Hmph.

[Panel 12] Simon: You still have to make this right. Prismo: Yeah, I’m working on that.

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Fionna and Cake #Prismo #Simon Petrikov #Get his ass Simon #And Prismo for that matter lol - neither of you are free of sin! You're both culpable! The situation proves it! #It's mostly on Prismo of course but it's not like Simon is Completely innocent haha #His attitude is entirely warranted tho you're slipping Prismo get it together #He needs more friends #As does Simon! They're both just tired hurt people who are tied together by mistakes and misintentions #I do love Prismo turning it back on him and The Guilt™ sets in for Simon haha #He knows he was doing something bad! But how's he supposed to keep going if not? #This was a forgone conclusion but that doesn't make it any easier for either of them! #Simon is doubly sore at being forgotten for so long now that he's fully human again #Deemed unimportant! Ouch #It's not that it wasn't important it's just all the everything - being locked out and then falling into his own grief #They're both sad! It's a bad situation for everyone #Prismo's mostly giving lip service - telling him wouldn't have actually fixed anything #Maybe he could've sent him on a quest but hmm! Fionna and Cake is the way the cookie crumbles #He gets to go on his quest eventually :) They'll both make it as right as they can

[uncanny-tranny]

Trans people, please don't rely on other people to tell you if your experiences or identity is valid.

It is a very human thing to seek understanding and validation (humans are social creatures and whatnot), but seeking people to tell you that who you are is valid places a ton of power in others. What happens when somebody tells you that they don't think you're valid?

And at the end of the day, it doesn't matter if your identity is "valid" or not to other people. What matters is if your identity suits you. You aren't a robot who lives at the behest of others, who can change the core of your being at the drop of a hat. You will continue to exist as you are with or without validation and with or without permission.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #when i was young i sought being told i'm valid because my environment told me i wasn't... #...but then i felt distress when i was told i wasn't valid because that's what i've been told all my life... #...nobody should have the power to take away your identity or anything like that... #...and i gave people the power to do that. i put way too much trust in strangers and they decided if they wanted me to hurt or not... #...this is why i personally dislike the posts saying '[x] is valid!'... #...it indirectly implies there is a point where you can slide into being 'invalid' and it does the same thing i used to do... #...i think more people ought to embrace that it doesn't matter what OTHERS think of who you ARE. that's shit you can't change... #...i can't convince people i am valid if they think i am not. i'm not wasting my time and energy and safety in order to fight people... #...if you think my identity is 'invalid' or 'valid' is of no consequence to me. you don't hold the power to make me change... #...i will continue to exist as i am and so will you... #...learn to embrace the idea that nobody can or should hold power over you to tell you if you're right in your identity or not #this is a really oversimplification but i'm trying to type this out as fast as i can before going to work again lol #this is NOT meant to disparage or shame people who want validation. it's more a warning or reminder #there is NO shame in wanting validation. that is a VERY human thing to need. you are NOT a bad person for wanting validation #i just want to caution people to remember that giving undue power to other people to validate who you ARE can have consequences #but it isn't your fault if you sought validation and were hurt instead. that isn't your fault. you don't deserve to be hurt

[liquidstar]

Oh noooo I just realized pascha this year is on the same day as mikuexpo 😭 I can still do both but I'll be soooo tired 💔 but I refuse to miss either

#first of all i already bought the miku tickets secondly i want that lamb and tsoureki so yeah im going to both if it kills me (it might) #i clarify pascha specifically bc its not a different day than easter. tho its more or less the same thing w slightly different traditions #if it was ''regular'' easter it wouldnt matter to me bc we do not celebrate that so. it does not impact me LOL #regular in quotes obviously bc again its just a different version but ppl here generally think of the catholic easter as The easter #hence. clarifying #spring break is centered on when easter is but a week or two later we'd have Our easter (pascha) so i got more days off #to like go participate in events leading up to it. which is annoying on one hand but also on the other to me as a kid it was like #epic win. spring break 2

[azurechicken]

It always gets me how Justice did not change at all, like, he is not corrupted at all. It makes everything more tragic than it already is. The only thing that changed was his perception, which of course, naturally came due to the change of hosts. I'm mostly taking Awakening Justice into account and how he acts because that is where we can carefully observe him by himself, without Anders' influence on the matter. And his influence is everything on the point I am trying to make.

When we first meet Justice, he is fulfilling his nature of bringing justice to the people he thinks that need it. He is very outspoken about it, and is already ready to take action with or without Warden's help. For a supposedly peaceful spirit that Anders claims to have ruined with his anger, Justice is acting pretty angry here himself (This is not the only time either). This is one of the first things I want to point out that did not change much about the spirit. Justice was always fierce about his cause. However, what stands out to me in these scenes is when the witch calls him out on his idea of justice.

Justice, is that what you are calling it? What of their punishment, burning my house to the ground and with me in it?

Well, in this case, the witch is a demon and mocking Justice for funsies. But what she says actually gives a bit more insight about what kind of a spirit Justice is. The actions do not speak louder than intent to him, as long as it is within the lines he set for himself. In a way, he was always okay with a few… casualties in the name of justice. Even though it is as simple as burning down a house this time. Isn't violence for violence vengeance after all?

While we are on the topic of vengeance, let's not forget the way he is eager on avenging Kristoff, vowing to kill every darkspawn for his cause (I mean the way he literally calls it avenging is enough debate for some people but I want to continue). So how come wanting to take revenge on the offenders that wronged not only his host but many other people, is any different? How did this route did not take him to the road of vengeance but attacking the templars, who are also offenders that wronged his host and other people, is corrupting him?

The answer is of course, that it is not, it did not. There is no difference between those two for Justice, there is no difference between vengeance and justice. Punishing the ones who deserve it is all there is. There is no gray area for spirits the way there is in the mortal world, and we see this clearly in the way he judges Velanna and Nathaniel for their crimes. Despite what I said about him seeing intent before action, now he cannot see beyond their wrongs. This simply shows that if the intent is as clear as violence for violence, he understands. But he does not understand the gray area of Velanna mistaking the innocents as guilty, or Nathaniel taking back what used to be already his.

 

There might be none for Justice, but there is a difference between darkspawn and templars for mortals. For one, darkspawn are generally mindless, and has no moral compass for us to judge. Whereas templars are just people with different ideals about life, to put it kindly at least. (Which is worse, being a mindless cruel monster, or having the mind and morals to choose to be something else but going for being one anyway? Lol another discussion for another time). Templars are the gray area that Justice lacks the understanding of. When he vows to kill every templar like he did with the darkspawn, he does not suddenly turn into a demon, he is simply punishing the ones that were doing wrong, as he does.

From here we can say that spirits' judgments and mortal's don't exactly match up. Though, there is one idea that seems to match better than others, and that is corruption. As far as we learn from Justice, spirits do not know about corruption any better than we do. Spirit do bad, spirit go bad, right? So, when Justice starts to feel things that are associated with demons, such as envy, he starts to fear corruption. He says he does not want to learn how a demon feels, but he also states that he does see the wishful thinking of a demon wanting to cross the Veil for this world. He is conflicted at best about the whole thing. Still, he does not consider himself corrupted regardless. I think that the reason behind that is simply the fact that generally, the Warden can ease his worries when Justice confides in them. And that is another thing that says a bit about him. He seems to accept the lack of understanding he has in the world, and chooses to listen to someone who does. Though, not just a random anybody, someone he deemed just.

So, let's see. A fade spirit with identity issues and an anxious spirit healer walks into a bar…

When they merged and Justice accepted Anders' cause for himself, and when they went all crazy on the Templars, Anders was scared. He feared the worst immediately because he is taught the worst about possession. He knew that Justice was angry because of him and his ideals about mages. So he blamed himself, called it a corruption he caused. And as I mentioned, Justice is accepting of the fact that he has a lack of understanding of some things. Plus, he was already scared of corruption. So, when Anders, who is an educated mage about possessions and corruption claims that he is slowly corrupting the spirit, they held onto it.

Everyone in their life from this point on, do nothing but egg them on about it, on top of it all. They might not corrupt each other, but everyone else does by pushing them the idea that they are now an abomination. Anders starts to fear the nonexistent corruption more, and Justice is confusing the inability to just wipe all the bad out with sloth. We are talking about a being who comes from the Fade, which can be bent at will and a place of immediate action. This works well in Awakening because we are already fighting darkspawn nonstop, and we are in the middle of a war. But in Kirkwall? Everything requires planning and suspended ideals. Templars bring injustice everywhere they go, yet there is not much they can do. After many years of being held back, it is no wonder Justice is surfacing more and more, itching to fulfill his purpose. Because he was always outspoken, angry at the injustice in the world and eager to bring justice. He did not change, but Anders' morals and his' just did not align the way they thought it would. They forgot that in Justice, there was always a part that was vengeance.

At the end, Justice was one of the most stable parts of Anders' story. He couldn't count his vow in Awakening complete without reaching the root of the problem, which was the broodmother. And he could not do so in Kirkwall without getting rid of the Chantry. Because chantry is the root of the Templars, and being a bystander while you can help solve everything easily is unjust all the same.

Anders and Justice had the same cause, different morality and they were just confused because they didn't know any better.

#going through awakening again made me so annoyinnnng i cant stop thinking about justice #listen i have so much more to say #justice didnt become a corrupted spirit when he went on a vengeance run on the darkspawn #and he didnt become a demon when he went on another vengeance run on templars #but once people were included they became confused #and this kinda goes to show that spirits' morality is all about their awareness of a wrong-doing imo #spirits' idea of doing something “bad” could mean something totally different like they need to be held a different judgment on the matter #demons could be just confused beings with too much feelings they couldn't understand so they became them #if they embody their name as much as spirits do there is nothing they can do about it #they cannot simply be bad because the emotion is not the bad part about such things they are the natural part #the bad part of negative emotions are the fact that they cause actions that we mortals would count as bad #at one point what of the nightmare demon eating away the fears we would be glad to be rid of is so bad? #and justice going as far as a boom for his virtue isnt something we could judge him bad for its just his nature #y'know? does that make sense? #they were right to blow shit up tho lol #im sleep deprived #i wrote this for myself but u can also have it lol #justice #anders #justice positive #anders positive #dragon age #dragon age awakening #me own

[otogariado]

i get why people would opt to say walter was a terrible person since the beginning, but i think that's like, the most boring takeaway you can get about his character. he was already insecure and prideful from the start, and it's what would hurt him and keep hurting him. but like, being insecure and prideful are regular traits any regular person can have. the actions that he makes because of these traits, which in turn keep fueling his ego more and more, are what makes him an interesting character. and he was already pretty capable of hurting other people, but he wasn't doing it out of malice, but more because of careless selfishness at first. what makes walter terrifying is that the more he does it, the more he becomes aware of what he's doing, and the more he keeps going and keeps being more and more meticulous and deliberate about what he does that hurts people and even to the point when it was specifically to hurt people.

i think the traits were there in walter from the beginning—the pilot did a pretty good job of establishing how powerless he's felt all his life and just how susceptible he is to letting this newfound perceived power get to his head so easily. he even says this explicitly in 5x06 "Buyout" when he tells jesse "i'm not in the money business, i'm in the empire business". but saying he was this monster from the start kind of implies he didn't undergo through a character arc throughout the show when it's quite literally what he did. he got worse. so much worse. through mostly the fault of his own fragility.

#idk if i put it into words right but i'm just musing #was walter a good person when brba started? up in the air. but his family genuinely adored him. despite feeling like a loser teacher #some of his coworkers actually really liked and respected him. he was just as much of a regular person as anyone else was tbh #you know it's interesting that he and gale basically have the same motivations. why jump to meth of all things. why go from 0 to 100 when #it sounds COMPLETELY ridiculous. but they were both very passionate about chemistry who felt like their potentials were wasted and felt #like they were finally putting their skills to good use again. getting to flex their muscles and shit. whenever they cook better purer meth #than most other people. i think it's a really genius idea to have this premise for the show lol #cz as much as walter is motivated by him feeling like he desperately has to take control of his own life he also is a scientist at heart #who desperately needs to apply his knowledge and skills somewhere where it would feel gratifying #seriously dude you could've tried to get a paper published or two or something. djhdidhd #but the academe has its own Politics and whatnot. so one could only speculate why walt didn't get to pursue that any more #(aside from the whole grey matter industries thing) #anyway uhhh i hope i get the post across lol not to sound cheesy cliche but brba is a corruption slash character deterioration arc #quite literally the whole point is that he Didn't Start Off Like This And He Gets Worse #again. he already had some of his bad tendencies and traits but it's like. we all do that's not necessarily inherently make or break #it's what he DOES and KEEPS DOING. CONSCIOUSLY that turns him into the horrifying man he is by the end of it all #so i just think if your biggest takeaway is Walter Was Always A Monster then you're just missing the whole damn point #op #brbaposting

[artemispanthar]

This is like the most nothing thing ever but I'm watching the 90s/00s Outer Limits (S7E21) where there's folks on a space station and this guy gets a video call and the little noise the computer makes when he starts the call is identical to the little communicator chirp sound from Mass Effect 2.

And, like, I know this because I use that sound for my phone notifications and when I heard it I instinctively picked up my phone to check.

I played the sounds back to back and they are like exactly the same. I'm not 100% sure where in Mass Effect the sound is played because it's just in my phone as "ME2 - Blip" but I'm pretty sure it's the communicator. The sound in The Outer Limits is in Season 7, Episode 21 "The Human Factor" at the 28 minute mark.

Like, is it just because there's limited ways a computer chirp can sound? Did they both just get the sound from the same sound library? Did Mass Effect take it from the show? Maybe the place I got the sound clip from took it from The Outer Limits and not Mass Effect and it's been a while since I've played so I didn't notice? The world may never know.

Anyway, like I said this is probably the most innane nothing fact ever but it's completely blown my mind lol I had to share it somewhere

#artie's personal life stuff #this is very much something that does not matter at all lol #i should play ME again soon

[ironmanstan]

I am coming to the realization i have been slowly killing myself with work i think oops

#m thinking now and im like #i havent read ... anything consistently .. or watched anything .. or had time to like do anything #in genuinely so long #and i was like kinda becoming ok w it #my brain issues .. nothing matters i dont need anything all i need is me i dont need to have anyone or anything with me <- bad. stop it #part of this was the i need my dad to be proud of me braincell but well i win award i have 4.0 gpa and he still yell at me #deciding now to stop caring so much (i still do but ill ignore it) i need 2 be alive again i dont care #im so mad i dont even know .. im so viscerally angry like actually i dont even know what to do with that lmfao #my brother does shit all and u give him sm slack have NEVER treated him as bad as youve treated me #and nothing i do NOTHING is good enough or changes how u look at me #like idk he called me and i cried so much i got so fucking upset i fhkdhdkf ok. ok. #he will b like omg im so proud of u i love u so much ive always believed in u and i just think back to when #he yelled at me once like fiiive years ago and i was like u just make me feel so worthless all the time #and he was like yeah bc you are worthless #and im like hmmm idk bestie i dont think youve ever changed from looking at me like that and it is insanely obvious lmao #i dont even know bro im crazy. m insane got given an inch and tried to take a mile like omg i can actually be recognized as worth something #nevermind ill stop killing myself for that pipe dream now lol #m not even upset im just mad lmao i dont wanna hate my dad and i dont but every day i feel more and more like i should #vent