#and he loses all agency

[motleyfam]

So, in the fic where Tim gets his appendix out, Jason tells him that he usually freaks out before he gets put under, not after. Now that Tim knows, how would he comfort Jason? I'm thinking, like, imagine that Jason breaks his leg badly on patrol, so urgent surgery is in order. Would Tim try to prevent him from freaking out? How?

P.s. i said i a thousand rimes bur I love your works!! You're amazing!!

Ooh so I've actually answered a similar question pretty recently (although that was focused more on the needle aspect than the anesthesia/loss of control aspect which I headcanon to be Jason's main issue with being put under)

Honestly? I think Tim would be the worst family member to try to comfort Jason through something like this. Not for anything that Tim is doing right or wrong, just because anesthesia is something that really freaks Jason out, and his response to being freaked out is a) to angry cry, and b) to lash out at people. Because he knows this about himself, and he's also extremely protective of Tim, he tries not to let Tim see him when he's not fully in control of himself. So while Jason would totally be great in a crisis involving Tim, he does terribly when the roles are reversed.

BUT that being said, if Tim was the only one available, I think Tim would end up offering his hand to squeeze, and Jason would hesitate at first but eventually take it. He'd probably also be trying really hard not to cry, which Tim would very intentionally act as through he wasn't noticing because at the end of the day, Jason needs his dignity more than anything.

#settle our bones #might not really be the answer you were hoping for but i think jason gets suuuper cagey when he's feeling vulnerable #and nothing makes him feel vulnerable more than when his inhibitions are being forcibly removed from him #and he loses all agency #like while being put under #Dick in this series has a LOT of practice brushing things off #and meeting Jason where he's at #but Tim isn't nearly as well versed in it so it trips him up a lot more #but he's also growing and learning and making progress the more time he spends with the Waynes #so while in the 'everybody gets the hell flu' fic he was suuuper wigged out by Jason's trauma responses #he gets less and less so as time goes on and he starts to understand his family more #even in the migraine fic i just posted recently he feels comfortable enough to argue with Jason while they're both in a stressful situation #which i see as progress for him #anyway thank you so much for your kind words and I really appreciate the question!!

[dramarants]

i only want love triangles if it's whatever fucked up polygon junmo kicheol and euijeong have going on

#the worst of evil #ranting #idk how to articulate how juicy it is #junmo's fierce protectiveness of his wife - he trusts her but can't help his jealousy fear or frustration while trapped in the situation #euijeong hurting but putting her own life on the line worried for her husband while unpacking the memories of her first love #she can't help but sympathize with kicheol and what he's endured; haven't seen much of how she feels rn but it must be c o n f l i c t e d #(not necessarily even in a romantic way but wanting to root for a person chasing their goals who was once so important to you) #(all while grieving her mother without the support of her literal goddamn spouse by her side) #and kicheol. also grieving and trying to establish a place for himself and his crew yet drawn to junmo despite the red flags #his panic and desperation when jungmo bled out on him which must have triggered his own memories of losing taeho #junmo who has every reason to despise kicheol barely concealing his general rage but protects him like it's second nature at every turn #all while conflicted as a bystander to atrocities (and now willfully leaving another cop to die to protect himself his wife and the mission #getting mentally and physically pummeled left and right just bc his superiors demand it from him #all to please euijeong's family by using the promotions to prove himself and get rid of the stigma weighing him down #like !!! #and haven't even touched on kicheol wooing euijeong against his buddy's wishes and in such a pure heart fluttering way #accepting the risk for a second chance to bathe in the bright light she used to shine on his life #OMG AND BIBI'S ENTRANCE!! junmo realizing her interest gives him leverage and agency but struggling to use it to his advantage #it's soooo messy and i'm obsessed #that funeral arc is gonna haunt me for years #as is the tension during the pat down which def was supposed to be like a gang pride/dignity/lack of power against the jp folks thing #also testing their relationship and responsibilites as leader subordinate #but felt charged around whether kicheol would protest or junmo would accept the manhandling in totally different 👀 ways #goddamn i wrote an essay and this doesn't even scratch the surface of the meat of the show #tldr; i have many many feelings and for once the 'love triangle' isn't making me gauge out my own eyeballs #it's about power it's about raising the stakes and revealing things about the characters w/o dominating the plot

[obihoe]

god, the ichibi truly is the most terrible bijuu of them all huh. like he's not even that strong, among the bijuus at least he is the weakest but he seems to be so much more terrible to live with than the others. and gaara ... he is not even That strong either? at least not at first, he breaks down all the time. and his jutsu repertoire is not all that various either, his main strength is his defence but after lee breaks it, all the other opponents he faces afterwards manage to break it as well. gaara i think is the epitome of a failed bijuu-host relationship .. his bijuu might be willing to help him by sharing his power with him but that power is too much for him and moreover, the ichibi doesnt help him exactly either, he moreso just uses him as his marionette to sate his own bloodlust .. as opposed to the other, non-jinchuuriki ninjas, gaara has an INSANE level of power and chakra but he cant channel it properly and its too much to handle for him. the image of his sand shield around his body cracking is fitting i think cuz his power quite literally breaks him apart

#posts #gaara #just remembered this draft .. was watching his fight against naruto (or team 7) recently and god .. #its just so insane i think the way gaara is CONSTANTLY in pain and his powers seem to overwhelm him #like he partly transforms into the ichibi or he gets an arm like the ichibi has #half his face transforms into him. and sometimes he's screaming while it happens #but yknow what also just occured to me? might be a bit of a reach #but when i re-read the 'his power is tearing him apart' .. it reminded me a bit abt mdr .. bc mdr #he also in the end ends up torn apart by his own power. and his power ALSO belongs to a different consciousness #or being or whatever (kaguya) and she has an agency with him. she has a goal that she pursues and she uses mdr for it .. #mdr is in control of the power. he's not breaking down or transforming into something when he doesnt want to #except at the end!! in the end mdr ALSO transforms into someone else without wanting to and he cant stop it from happening #and the power is also too much ... ive talked abt this before but for me the kaguya transformation/manifestation is heavily laden #with symbolism. as in mdr's quite literally ripped apart by the power he has. kaguya pulls in more chakra as she is manifesting #and the amount of it becomes so great that it rips her host (mdr) apart .. the same way that gaara's sandshield cracks #even tho the cracks in the shield do not mean that the ichibi breaks him #but it looks a bit like it does. and when he becomes half ichibi half him. the ichibi is taking control over him #.. in a way. like gaara does want to use him but its more so the other way round. temari is scared the whole time #that he'll lose his control #anyways i feel like im rambling a bit. maybe this isnt rlly going anywhere after all SGDGDS but its interesting to #compare the first blorbo w the current one. maybe the message or commonality or whatever is #that both of these 'bijuu'- host relationships fail. the ichibi doesnt want to be trapped in a human. and kaguya (or all the bijuus) #do not want to be servants to mdr either. in gaara's case its involuntary for both parties. gaara doesnt want to be a jinchuuriki #and the bijuu doesnt want to be trapped in him either. the one who suffers from this here is mainly gaara #bc shukaku dominates their relationship. in mdr's case it is mdr who dominates the bijuu #and its mdr's hubris (his thinking that he will be able to control all of them. can just use them however he wants) #that turns out to be his demise. in both cases i guess its humanity's hubris to think they can take over and use supernatural powers #that do not belong to them and use them for their own purposes. and it both ends with the bijuus who that power belongs to #forcibly taking it back from their hands and destroying their hosts in the process ... something like that #hmm. im just rambling and forcing interpretations into this at this point i think. but yeah

[likesummerrainn]

SurrealEstate 2.03 The Butler Didn't

"Why do all of August's machines look like what people in 1953 thought machines in 1997 would look like..."

#SurrealEstate #syfyedit #syfysource #my gifs #oh this episode broke my heart #the ones where it's all a misunderstanding always break my heart the most #ALSO???? can we talk about luke and susan being sooooooooooooo. cold to each other???? #LIKE!! #Luke loses his powers and all of a sudden he's a bitch and a half about it meanwhile susan has been better than him this whole time!!!!! #you know i bet they're gonna do something like. susan starts her own agency... #i don't want this lil family to break up :/ but GOD do i wanna see luke be put in his place. #also. would love to see more about what actually is going on with him you know. #ALSO CONGRATS ZOOEY GOT HER REAL ESTATE LICENSE SHE'S MOVING UP IN THE WORLD SHE'S GONNA BE SO GOOD I KNOW IT!!!!

[in-styx]

Not really Dc/Dp but I cannot get it out of my head

The general supernatural public keep trying to do soul contracts and stuff for favors and like… most of the cultists already gave him their souls, and if you’re dead but not yet a ghost he kind of already has your soul unless it’s already been sold to a different buyer before you died yknow

But they need something for the contract to be binding, so he tries to make it easy when he wants someone’s help. So sometimes it’s just, like, a dollar. He doesn’t have high standards.

The problem is, for the people who actually appreciate his help, they feel like that’s not appropriate and started up-charging their own contracts. So for the ghosts that understand money, they start doing heists for him. A lot.

#this manifests in him being able to have no student debt and a mortgage #and it’s so funny bc like #theres just a ton of reports internationally about a bunch of money going missing #with literally no trace #and every intelligence agency and their mother is losing their mind #trying to find this mystery mastermind #Danny seeing this shit on the news #connecting the dots #‘oh. that’s how they were getting it.’ #and Sam and tucker are just like WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU THINK IT WAS COMING FROM #Danny just shrugs like MAN . MAYBE THEY HAD GHOST MONEY OKAY. ITS BEEN ROUGH #anyway it gets to a point after he pays for all of his friends tuition #that he just bans it #so now they give him stolen textbooks and quizlet pro #which he accepts . memberships are Spency and maybe he’s ghost rich #but Still. #anyway #danny phantom shitpost #danny fenton #danny phantom #dp

[jihef03]

For my money Peter vs Harry/Hobgoblin in Usm comics really gets into the heart of Harry's conflict as a character yet simultaneously loses the nuance and "Spice" of Harry Osborn as an antagonist.

#harry osborn #peter parker #hobgoblin #ultimate spider-man #one hand it's raw because of Peter's inner monologue is so well written and the art is so good #one other they zero on Harry being a victim of his father abuse so much it sorti takes away his agency as antagonist #harry 616 hurt pete because of his actions as the goblin were informed #he *chose* to mentally traumatize petzr #he *chose* to dunk himself on goblin soup #he *chose* to do the parent plot #you lose all that if you make harry just a puppet

[dnangelic]

i would never wave around 'he's just misunderstood </3' but like within canon he really.... literally is misunderstood. all the time. he just doesn't care about the fact.

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #'but couldn't he explain himse-' he's not gonna do that. alskjasjlfkj #his self image is also poor he has no reason to defend himself. ever! #he is hurting people he does hurt people he is a curse he is a monster #he's estranged he's denied intimacy he speaks as if he's above everyone but is painfully. acutely aware of his being below and insufficient #but sometimes. just sometimes. he can be so kind. he feels grief when others lose themselves (hiwatari) #or die (the hikari overall. the artworks. innocent people) #he's legitimately COMPLETELY respectful of other people's agency and individuality #the chaotic good man #breaks the law over and over everybody's positive he doesn't care about anything but himself #and it's true. #but at the same time. all he even really. truly. literally has -is- himself. and his other self. his host! daisuke! #dark absolutely loves. but his is just. so distant. it has to be. he can't love anybody or the world in any other way #for all his flirting the most he can ever do is stand and watch the world while remaining a beautiful work of art

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

underrated genre of character playlist entry: songs a character would relate to because they do not understand their situation, themself, or the song itself well enough to realize it is not accurate (and might well straight up be a callout for people like them). which song is your blorbo's fight club

#whosebaby talks #general fandoms tag #shitposting #genuinely this is one of my favorite things to put in a character's playlist #for one thing i seem to like characters who listen to The Plagues and go WOW COOL BLOODTHIRSTY VENGEANCE FOR A WORLD THAT'S WRONGED YOU #and miss or ignore the part where it's meant to be tragic and moses is devastated because they're people and it's his home too #pericles is the first one that comes to mind because the autisms are autisming all over sdmi currently #but he's definitely not the only one #the only thing is it makes me a little itchy because it makes me wish i could put a little note when i share a playlist that #'no this playlist is not about them being a misunderstood hero they just have a severely distorted view of the world' #sometimes because 'misunderstood hero' would be uh. uhhhhh. it would sure have Implications with some instances #but also because No That's Wrong!! the distortion in their pov is what makes them a good character!!! in my own interpretation or otherwise! #pericles loses So Much Depth if you just play his understandable and even admirable traits as unironic instead of twisted and warped #and gone horribly wrong thanks to how his flaws and external life circumstances t-boned those positive/reasonable traits + motivations #where did he make his own choices to lean into it when he did have the agency to do otherwise #(see: i think in the newniverse; without the entity's influence; the very things that make him such a terrifyingly effective force) #(which are his primary expression of being an evil piece of shit due to his trauma and external circumstances and his reaction to them) #(and the choices he makes about them; would make him an equally effective force for good because they'd make him an *amazing* activist) #'i am my own definition of a vengeful righteous hero dishing out justice against real evil' is his extremely warped idea of what he's doing #he thinks he's the main protagonist of hell's coming with me and he's. not. he's just enough steps to the left to be a horror instead #anyway i love him and i love assigning songs like this your honor #professor pericles #SDMItag

[beyblaiddyd]

People literally dont understand what words mean

#cocoa talks too much #i mean i would argue even ethan is pushing the definition here #but how the fuck did he lose to the #happy ending agency story of undooming themselves and taking back their lives guys #the guys who's story is all about power over their own lives and #getting back what they lost #they are maybe some of the least doomed by the narrative characters ever written #how did they beat mold idiot

[dramarants]

Wanting more homoeroticism in the tension between the show’s leads as the narrative introduces greater intimacy and higher stakes between them, especially in a landscape that lacks queer representation who isn’t a villain or dies within one or two episodes, but also recognizing that core values/motivation for these characters lie in their relationships with one of two major female characters in an on screen sausage fest where the only other woman is a morally reprehensible femme fatale and erasing and/or vilifying female leads in favor of conventionally attractive males is a common practice observed in fandoms that’s rooted in misogyny and justified under the guise of rejecting heteronormativity, thinly veiled double standards, or claiming the woman is simply not interesting enough and not wanting to bolster that mindset

#the worst of evil #you know who’s not interesting enough? haeryeon!! bibi’s acting the hell out of her and slaying while doing it #but idk anything besides she’s willing to subvert her dad for dick and values money over everything else #and also she’s hot which is great for me!! but also the male gaze #and I also get it - we don’t know much about euijeong in her limited screen time besides her relationships to junmo/kicheol #but she is given so many traits that are silently conveyed like compassion and bravery and sacrifice #she brought a fucking gun to her date with kicheol like the conflicts and motivations here are SO JUICY #her exasperation guilt and despair with the investigation; esp after listening to the voicemails #what’s the self respecting thing to do; do I still love my husband if he loses himself; can I continue a game I never wanted to play #at the cost of my life or my family’s life? #even though a lot of her choices are for her marriage she’s using whatever agency she has in her own terms #kicheol works to be an honest man and make a difference partly bc of her #not trying to place the burden of fixing men on her but ignoring her impact in the boys’ lives is wild #ship whoever you want hate whoever you want but don’t deride a woman just cuz ‘she’s in the way’ ya know #all this being said; kicheol bringing junmo home after he RAMPAGED seemingly on his behalf - literally who else is doing it like them #the yearning all around - I get it now; we need gangster mob!throuple to get any shit done around here (and for all 3 to stay alive 🫣🙏) #but the reality next week is gonna be so so bitter

[jaekaicx]

i just finished playing in stars and time the other day, and because everything has to come back to amphibia, im thinking about the calamity trio and timeloops.....

#isat spoilers in the tags #gonna ramble a bit in the tags but before i do that #isat is a really cool game that you should totally check out if its ur type of thing #and i wanna talk about spoilers #so consider this a warning #anyways. i keep thinking about specifically marcy and siffrin #the way that they both held on so tightly to their closest and only friends #how they were both so scared of losing those friends and the extremes they went to in order to make sure they wouldnt #but then also how all three of the calamity trio were so codependent towards each other at some point #how they all held so much fear - in some shape or form - of losing the others. of being left behind #like im very biased towards marcy so he's always gonna be my first thought #but also theres that one sasha timeloop fic that left a permanent dent in my brain #and theres all the sasha and siffrin parallels... how they both were so desperate for control #for some sense of agency. for security. #....i feel so bad about not adding something about anne #but. i'll be real. marcy and sasha are the main ones that are. in my brain. with this. #but uh. yeah #the isat brainworms. the amphibia brainworms. theyre plaguing me. #(​i hope this doesnt show up in the main tags-) #j rambles #k.txt

[psalmsofpsychosis]

Thinking Luke&Leia thoughts today

Like, they're two halves of the same experience, their life lessons and their victories and their losses compliment and complete each other, you cannot tell Leia's story without telling Luke's, and vice versa.

The Skywalker twins are a tale of triumph over seemingly impossible odds, but they each portray a very distinct facet of victory, one that is so foundational and yet so incomplete without the other facet's wisdom to work with.

Luke's story is the journey of triumphing over evil by the way of acceptance. Acceptance not as in defeat, not as in a docile act of passive submission, but as in a conscious, holistic acknowledgement of  a context. No nuance left behind, no line left untold, no truth lined out– Luke embodies what it takes to face evil and not flinch: he looks Vader in the eyes and says, "you, as well." He does not try to bury and wipe out the existence of the fear that makes Vader, or the existence of Vader himself. Instead, he finds a path through evil by refusing to simplify and detach from evil out of fear. He holds Vader's grief, Palpatine's greed and his own goodness all in the same picture frame, no parts of reality obscured or lined out. Because this is life; it is all part of the same tapestry, and no part is unaffected and untouched from the other, no matter how uncomfortable and distressing the thought might be. Luke looks at evil and says you too, exist. You too, are part of humanity. No good OR evil, but good AND evil AND everything inbetween.

So what about his goodness? What makes Luke Skywalker a good person despite unapologetic acceptance of evil?

It's choice.

This is where Leia's story weaves seamlessly into Luke's. Leia is a story about agency. You make choices and your choices make you. Leia's story is about conscious self responsibility and embodied choices, making your own fate and stnding by your own values. Leia is Leia Organa by choice, she weilds her agency in every step and works in tandem with the resources she has to further what she believes to be right. She doesn't quite wait for the context to suit her; she makes the context suit her.

Luke Skywalker accepts life as it is; no parts torn away, and he's a good person because he chooses goodness, he chooses to be good anyway.

Leia Organa is an affective leader because she too chooses goodness, and works to adopt to the nuances of her environment. The Skywalker Twins are a story about triumph and you cannot hope to triumph with acceptance that's void of agency, and choices that are void of inclusion and understanding.

#which is to say #any star wars story attempting to separate Luke and Leia as identities and as narratives is doomed to a smelly dumpster fire experience #i'm looking at you sequels #entirely reversing each twin's point of transcendence ya fuckwits #Luke completely losing his point of agency and succumbing to some fucking unknown fate #and Leia entirely failing to be understanding and inclusive of Ben as a person #anyway sequels are dead we dont talk about sequels in this house <3 #or any variation of a luke skywalker narrative in which he's not accepting of life as it unfolds and all the nuances of it #*sides eyes TBOBF cgi Luke* #i dont know these bad depictions of my fav archetypal characters and they're not invited to this tea party #luke skywalker #leia organa #star wars #star wars meta #star wars original trilogy #skywalker twins #character analysis

[benetnvsch]

Guys who are normal about their favorite songs,,,,,,,,, yeaaaa

#ANYWAY DO YALL WANT AN ESSAY ON HOW GARAMOND BY CANDIAN BANDS ARMS LENGTH IS KNKDZ CODED? #I SWEAR ILL WRITE ONE LMAO #it just think it’s very them (says this abt all my favorite songs and characters/ships) #if my favorite characters don’t fit my favorite songs I’ll make them fit #jkjk #but uhh anyway yeah garamond hours oughhh #it’d be Kunikida’s POV to Dazai cuz it makes sense #the second verse especially #‘who will die in my lifetime’ (<- Kunikida struggling w/losing ppl on the job) #‘you’d rather pass in ur sleep’ (<- dazai wanting a painless way to die) #‘I’m losing my ways with word- sentences scattered and slurred’ (<- Kunikida struggling with following his ideals and being able to protect #everyone he cares about) #‘hope the last breath I breathe is a sigh of relief’ (<- Makes me thing HEAVY abt the whole “if ur comrades die ur ideals do too and you’d #feel relieved’ or however it went cause idk it feels like a very Kunikida thing to prefer to die with his comrades than live on aaaa-) #‘with ur past on a pedistal’ (<- literally just Dazai joining the agency and doing good based on Oda’s dying wish) #ANYWAY I could go on forever abt this #but I won’t #maybe I’ll make a whole edit to it #maybe I’ll draw something who knows….

[naggingatlas]

i looove putting spark over songs about like heroes and saving the world (tom cardy's 'level clear', uncle outrage's 'saved the world' <- nice voice hc for him!. and 'my superhero movie'.) when he like. Did. Not : ) funney.

#sprksplrs #gaia talked about spark wanting to be desired yesterday and while i think he's too much of a Lone Wolf... for those kinds of wants to #even surface. at least in my interpretation of him. its hilarious to think abt him getting. just a tad insecure abt fark's status as #a real like. superhero basically. just for a second in the far back of his head. oh i want to be as cool as him. im not good enough #tho again in my characterization he only wants to do that to be able to love himself. i first got this thought when ruminating on #oh god. what kinda games he n fark like to play respectively? and said 'if he ever does pick up hardmode or a challenge level #he will only do that to one up himself and himself only.' he only proves stuff to himself. he only cares about himself. #and the things that do the most mental damage to him are all scenarios in which his self is attacked. #in which his agency is taken his independence. losing a job to someone something that copies him and does it better than him #something that even copies a really dear object to him thats been with him throughout the years - his jester hat #an attack on individuality. and then being merged into the sim. idk. the yaoi moments when he does work together w fark become even more #potent. this way? and. it contrasts really well with how selfless (at some point in his life very literally) fark is. and how confident in #his self. he turns out to be in the end. as micah said 'how he moves with so much more fluidity in his organic body #the body he created himself because he's no longer afraid of it being fake'. citing that as the bible but yea kinda. #i think spark grew up quite ostracized maybe even self-ostracized and really needs a distinction between himself and everyone else #to be better than everyone else. there is some personality disorder shit happening under that piss yellow scalp. #and he fucking loses it when the events around him hammer in that the facade he builds for mostly again himself is. yknow. untrue. fake. #idk thoughts. i love exploring the antisocial aspect in fictional personas with how shipshipship focused fandoms and 'analysis' #in them is it's not something i see all that much. seems like only people whove experienced it ever bring up that topic. #is it so uncomfortable for others? who knows. ramble over

[frozenhi-chews]

I love how I wwas near hyperventilating when I first saw Spamton, but coming out of his shop my first thought was how uncanny and terrifying he was.

I just love him even more now

Gosh his backstory hurts

#knowing the reason why hes like this #knowing how he came to that state #hes gone through so much trauma from the phone to being turned into a puppet to losing his friends to losing his home and all his money to #even his agency. #hes been through so much #hes so messed up and so damaged and im standing here like 'im gonna get you some therapy and maybe even meds' #he's seen stuff. hes been through stuff. his life was a nightmare #m a n #self ship stuff #spamton <3 #the cake doth speak

[heller-castiel]

Shhh dont let the crazy loki fans hear u hate the dark world

he’s literally the only good thing about this movie and that’s it. he can’t redeem this mess

#NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE WHY DOES THE VILLAIN WANT IT TO BE DARK??? HE JUST DOES!!! #also at the beginning odin is like #NO LOKI WE’RE NO BETTER THAN HUMANS WE LIVE AND DIE LIKE THEM #and like. 10 minutes later he meets jane and is like WHY IS THIS HUMAN HERE GET THIS FILTH OUT OF MY KINGDOM like??????? #women lose agency all over the damn place here #and they explain the convergency like. 7 times. YOU DONT NEED TO EXPLAIN THE PLOT SO DAMN MUCH ONCE IS ENOUGH #also the weird obsession with shoes??? this movie thinks shoes are HILARIOUS #this is my third time rewatching this movie and #asks #anon