#and it is very hard to pinpoint

[nonbinarycharmybee]

for movieverse Espio, would you want him to be more of an adult like Vector or him to be a kid who acts his age

Nah I love Espio being an actual teenager. Yes he's more emotionally mature than most adults yes he's probably a trained assassin. Yes he listens to mcr and has a personal vendetta against naruto. They can coexist <3

But fr, I'd want him to be sort of like movie-verse Knuckles, especially since they're the same age. Knuckles is more than capable of taking care of himself, but the important thing is that he doesn't have to.

#forgive me espio's one of my weaker characters :( #i like him a lot he's just very different from me so it's hard to grasp sometimes #like there's a balance between 'extremely skilled ninjutsu master' and 'teenage edgelord that thinks he's so cool for being a ninja' #and it is very hard to pinpoint #anyways sorry for rambling #ask #anon

[fox-guardian]

today i am thinking about tim's freeze response.

in ep 104, in his statement about danny, he beats himself up over the fact that he couldn't bring himself to move when he saw "danny" up on the stage in the covent garden theatre

[ID: A transcript screenshot reading "I always tell myself there was some force there. Something that held me in place and meant that all I could do was watch. But sometimes when I think back, I remember how my legs shook, and maybe I could move. Maybe I’m just a coward." end ID] ~~~~

and then in ep 39 sasha had to Tackle Him to get him out of prentiss' way after his whole joe spooky bit because he just Didn't Move apparently

[ID: A transcript screenshot reading:

SASHA: Behind you! Run! TIM: Oh… PRENTISS: [Slowly intoning over worm sound] Do you hear their song? SASHA: TIM! [IMPACT, WORMS AND SCUFFLING]

end ID] ~~~~

worm sounds and a full sentence after going "oh" and sasha STILL needed to tackle him.

i don't really have anywhere i'm going with this i'm just thinking about it really hard

#ramblings with major #the magnus archives #tma #tim stoker #this man will be the death of me #also YES these are the bits i wanna animate if you simply Must Know #also i wonder if each OG archive person has their own main fear response #if i had to pin one to each character i'd say martin is fight tim is freeze ig jon would be flight and idk about sasha #there's also fawn but i don't really get fawn vibes from her #her fear response is 'roll with it' jasdlkajdkj #sasha and jon are hard to pinpoint cuz they're very. they lack self preservation but anywhoodle

[r0semultiverse]

well, this all looks rather familiar...

#the llama or alpaca gem literally looks like one of the gems from the ice king crown #though thats interesting because I thought the ice elemental guy got it from a lava monster #also the wizard looking guys on the part about the magic beans remind me of those things shown in the cosmic imagination explained vids #those ones by paxw on youtube & other creators #im getting a bit tired pardon me if I miss on names & things im still reeling from the 7-8 episode experience; thank you to the AT crew #the next slide looks a LOT like the land of Ooo though I can't pinpoint where; im already terrible with irl geography #this man has been fixated on cursed objects since like day 1 lmao #doomed by the narrative fr #petrigrof got me crying though im ngl #im gonna miss my partner a lot when I go to finland :((( It might be a few years before I can see them in person again because travel #is very expensive 😭 thats probably partially why this hit so hard for me; I'm gonna miss our dates & adventures #mine #op #adventure time spoilers #adventure time fionna and cake #adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov

[rawliverandgoronspice]

still a hardcore believer in the "totk was absolute development hell" theory btw, even if I know it will never be confirmed or denied, but all the signs are there honestly

#thoughts #totk #totk critical #when will my brain return from the imprisoning war... #the fact that it does not take 6 years to make a game like this #that they used the covid excuse (the game industry took like a month to adapt tops) #that the game was postponed eight billion times #that there are very clear signs that there was a pretty brutal rewrite at some point #that no writers/quest designers are credited??? as far I can tell???? #and also and that's... kind of impossible to prove or to pinpoint or rationally explain #but this game feels like burnout to me #it tastes like hollowed gamedev soul who switched off their enthusiasm and went “content mode” just to push through the finish line #OH YES also the lack of dlc #I have a hard time believing they have nothing they could potentially add if they wanted to --and maybe they just don't want to #it just... feels like exhaustion packaged around a genuinely brilliant feature #hoping its brightness would camouflage the thinness of everything else #again perhaps I'm projecting but the game *feels* deeply familiar to me in that way

[hood-ex]

Does anyone else find it difficult to write Dick, Roy, and Wally in the same scene without giving them the same voice? Because fuuuck me. The three of them start to blend together in my brain and it's very hard for me to make them sound more distinct from one another.

#also roy's dialogue is very hard for me to pinpoint #because sometimes he uses more slang/has a more laid back way of speaking #but then other times he has more confident/mature/commanding diction #and That's when it starts to get hard to differentiate him from dick especially #but dick is typically more quiet and serious/intense than roy is #and dick's habits set him apart from roy as well #but it's just ahhhhh #like it's not as easy as writing idk dick and damian. because damian's voice and attitude is veryyy distinct #so yeah idk actions/habits/demeanor kind of have to take the lead to really show that separation of characters

[star-ocean-peahen]

I was watching one of those reddit reading videos (i'm pretty picky about the channels i watch for those because it's really easy to tip into misinformation and shock entertainment as opposed to the Tea and some reality checks) and I'm crying right now because I just read one about a kid whose family destroyed all their unicorn memorabilia because they thought it was "satanic", and when the mom came to her senses and tried getting the kid some unicorn trinkets along with an apology the kid just. stared apathetically and said they didn't want it anymore. and fuck, fake story or not, that's fucking real. the guilt and self-loathing and self-denial that comes with being told you're in danger of becoming evil if you love the wrong things or you love something too much is traumatizing. it's so hard to let yourself care about things after that, when you're supposed to weaponize your own joy against you.

for me that seeped into every decision i made. sometimes it just made me uncomfortable, other times i would punish myself for wanting food when i was hungry.

i watched the movie Big Hero Six once with some youth group friends, and after the movie i asked one of my friends what she thought of the movie. the first thing she said was "Um, I thought it was kind of heretical." she was referring to the credits song, which is titled "Immortals". the song is about feeling invincible when with a person you love. but it had the word immortals in it, so it would lure me away from God and ruin my life if I listened to it. (she did like the movie btw she wasn't being a jerk thats just how we were raised)

I loved that song. And I hated myself for loving it. Every time I watched the movie or heard it somewhere, I would fight a painful internal battle of the part of me that enjoyed the song and the part of me that was afraid of doom and annihilation.

I thought by not rejecting the "worldly" joys, i was rejecting God and the infinity of good things he represented, because I was just that stupid that I would pick a momentary joy over eternity. I believed I was choosing my own death by loving non-Christian things.

I don't really have a good end to this. I guess my point is that this kind of thing doesn't automatically seem so destructive, but it really can be.

#i was even raised relatively freely #nobody invaded my boundaries to enforce this #nobody ever told my the state of my soul rested on my ability to love the right things only #they actually tried very hard to impress upon me that things you do aren't going to send you to hell its faith not works and all that #and ngl that messed me up a lot because i couldn't pinpoint a reason why i felt that way #hhhhh #i really feel for the person who wrote that story if theyre even real #i get it man #i get it #tw christianity #tw religion #tw religious trauma #tw religious abuse #lassie vents #vent

[zhaenya]

#notmylouis

#who is this white man and what is he doing in my story #i'm not looking forward to rereading some parts of this book already not gonna lie #but here we go #it's just mostly because i'm used to seeing jacob as ldpdl and he's the only louis i love and adore and cherish so this is just very #unfamiliar #it's the struggle i keep facing while reading this book #it's especially hard when i get to the lines they pulled from the book because i know exactly the way jacob says them #i watched the show so many times at this point i can pinpoint exactly what they got from the book as i see it #and i can hear and see the scene in my head #THE STRUGGLE IS REAL #i just need to keep book louis' appearance in mind as i read this #constantly #tvc #iwtv

[songsintheattic]

diagnosed with weak spine disease so i am trying to strengthen my core and this man almost killed me

#even reducing to only 15-25 seconds depending on how hard the exercise was i am still going to die #it is very helpful though because immediately you can pinpoint your weakest areas #one day i will do this whole thing without dying but not today #Youtube

[chronomally]

I'm rewatching The Birdcage and there's something about the like incisive satire of queer comedies from the '90s that are so thoroughly unconcerned with the feelings of cishet audiences

#please feel free to ignore this #I'm watching The Birdcage #It reminds me of a couple of articles and critiques I've seen of media ostensibly geared towards queer ppl and/or POC #starting in like the '10s #where it feels very much like it's constantly trying to make white and/or cishet audiences feel included in the joke or the action #or stops short of satire that may hurt their feelings #The Birdcage goes all in on satirizing the hypocrisy of conservatives and the Republican party #But I'm a Cheerleader mocks gender roles and conversion camps #I remember reading a few articles comparing The Proud Family to the remake #and talking about how the new series feels like it constantly brings the action to a screeching halt #to turn to the camera and explain everything for the hypothetical white audience #vs. the original that was speaking specifically to Black/brown audiences and if you were a white viewer you could keep up or not #It's very easy to blame this on streaming but it's hard to pinpoint why #I guess sort of just the rising obsession with viewership/metrics #If people stop watching because they don't 'get it' then that's Bad because what if they unsubscribe or whatever #Changing the channel is no longer an option

[beskad]

me every day: yes, I understand that I have ptsd. yes, it will frequently disrupt my life in sometimes (seemingly) random ways. sometimes this will necessitate leaving work or disclosing things about myself to a supervisor or friend or bystander because it's freaking them out and THEY are now panicking and often wanting to call me an ambulance. this is just a fact. it's fine. i'm dealing with it. most years are easier than the ones before them. it's fine.

me when my ptsd is actually triggered: what is happening right now. why can't I breathe. why can't I stand up. why do I feel like I'm about to throw up and die. oh, I know!!! I must be having an allergic reaction to something!!!! I'm suddenly coming down with the flu in the span of 3 minutes!!! this is so weird!!!!!!!

#EDIT: talk of PTSD proceed with caution #it's morphed a little over the years lololol #used to present as very obvious and unmistakable panic attacks with crying and hyperventilating #10 years later and it's quieter. 70% of the time the whole world just shrinks to a 1 foot bubble around me and everything goes dark #at least i didn't actually throw up this time around #and i was able to pinpoint the trigger about 2 hours in #once i was able to think again #and it was a song. 30 seconds of a song. #noticed right away that something felt wrong so i hit stop #but it was too late lmao within 5 minutes it was hard to breathe and the room was spinning and within 10 i crawled upstairs and passed out #but yeah like in the moment i often don't understand what's happening #i don't realize until I've passed out and woken up again #i had to lay down on the floor in the backroom of my retail job once and it scared the shit out of everyone #i usually stay somewhat lucid but i rarely realize I'm reacting to a trigger until after I've recovered #which means then I'm laying on a floor woozily insisting I'm fine #and then have the SUPER FUN TIME of having to explain everything after the fact once my brain and body are working again #I have a few long time coworkers who realize I've been triggered before I do lmao #They're like. Bro. You need to sit down. Right fucking now or you're gonna fall #rray.txt

[thethingything]

I have tasks to do but no our brain's too focused on being painfully nostalgic and I also keep getting the vibe that the stuff we got upset about last night is gonna come up again and like, okay yeah I need to process some emotions apparently but can I at least get something done while that happens...

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #our depression feels different at different times of year and in the summer it comes with this vague nostalgic feeling #that can get really overwhelming and often includes a feeling of everything being very transient and fleeting #and we've been hit very hard with that so now I'm trying to get our brain to chill out a little bit #because yeah okay this is just what it does but like I still need to function #also I've got what feels like homesickness but it's not for anywhere we've been to and it's not really for source stuff #I mean I am kinda homesick for source stuff too but I'm also homesick for like... places I've seen that we've never been to? #and for different time periods and for a bunch of vague stuff I can't actually pinpoint #I'm also aware that we're very close to some anniversaries of stuff including trauma from last year #and that'll be making our brain freak out more than usual

[self-shipper-snowdrop]

holy shit is storm single

HJVHVHJDFVHBDBHJDVFVFD LMAO

She is currently, but you may want to rethink because she has. Problems.

Namely that she is not a cleric of Mystra by choice.

#it's complex story but... Mystra basically 'drafted' Storm to be a priestess and cleric for her #Storm worships a different goddess entirely and wants to find a way to be set free of Mystra #unfortunately. it's proving very; very hard for her #and Mystra's reasons are mysterious; as gods overall are. It doesn't help that it seems out of character for her so nobody can pinpoint WHY #from daydreams to text

[deityofhearts]

I just want attention but I want for people to actually want to give me attention without me having to all but beg for it (and even then I end up begging for attention, that’s what this post is)

#deity dialogue #I can’t exist without some form of attention and if I’m not receiving attention and interaction then everything just seems pointless you #know? I don’t expect constant attention from any one person that’s absurd and not like someone’s job #I just hate the feeling of loneliness and being unwanted or a burden #I know there are people who do like me and my presence and like hearing from me and i and very very grateful to you all #so hi hi if you see this post I love and appreciate you #I’m not making this post to diminish the affection and attention I receive from others #I guess just to voice that I’m constantly hungry for attention like some sort of attention vampire #blah blah I could pinpoint why exactly I’m like this but it would do no good #just like the feeling of not getting enough attention or feeling like I’m unwanted when o do recieve attention or try my best to get peoples #attention #I’m just tired of being this way but it hasn’t changed yet I try so hard to not be bothered and to not care and to not keep craving #attention or like going out of my way to get peoples attention and yet #anyways sorry for my depressing late thoughts I should go to sleep but once again I cannot #I did however make myself cry because my own thoughts (again) #I’m gonna go check on my forehead and then like idk #resume reading the stupid vampire webcomic or like make myself try and sleep #I need more sleep medicine but I don’t have the money to spare for that lmao #any money I have rn is in savings for my impending phone bill #i can just sleep during the day. also like a vampire

[paintedkinzy-88]

Hello! I just want to know precisely how old most of the sans is from the winged universe? Just curious. :P

Oh god oh god don’t make me think about timelines AHHH—

Look, okay, if we are not counting the mess that is Resets/Loads and multiverse time shenanigans, most of them I always see like. Late 20s, early 30s. Blue and Cross are a little younger, so probably more 23 ish? But otherwise a lot of them are in that general zone. Which I feel like just isn’t very old for skeleton monsters, I’ve always headcanoned them to live a couple hundred years or so XD

WITH the multiverse shenanigans, way too complicated to explain right the fuck now, but I can give general age order for the main ones, specifically the immortals and the OG:

Nightmare, Classic, Reaper, Dream, Ink, Error.

…Dream’s younger cuz I feel like the hundreds of years in a stone prison should not count wheeeze.

#sorry for the very general answer :w; #it’s hard to pinpoint an exact age when they’ve hopped through millions of AUs all their lives #all with Resets and different speeds of time and shit ahhhh #if y’all really wanna hear the whole ass timeline of the multiverse #I CAN explain it as best as I can… #but I figured that’s not what you asked so this is the best I can provide XD #asks #undertale #undertale multiverse #winged au

[kindlyanni]

Hello! I just want to say I adore your Sandman art,it's so pretty!!I have a question do you have any tips on drawing male heads or male anatomy?

Why thank you!

Oh gosh, I feel like I'm terrible at giving tips or anything since I don't know where to start or what's... kinda fundamental uuhhhh. It's usually said that masculine features are more angular, bone and muscle structure are more prominent. Feminine features are rounder and softer. But it has so much variety depending on stuff like race or age or body type or just.... because people are different.

I always suggest doing life/figure drawing if possible. The point is to train your eye, observe the forms and shapes and put on paper what you see. The more you do it the more you start to see patterns and when you have just a couple of minutes to draw the pose you figure out the key shapes. I hope that makes sense. There are some websites for practicing figure drawing, like Line of Action and Quickposes and I guess there are pinterest boards dedicated to these sort of photos as well. And when you see a photo with a nice face or a nice body, save it and draw it.

#was this useful at all??? I don't know #I've been drawing for forever and I draw dudes a lot and I just.........draw them?? idk I'm so bad at this #I've learned from so many very specific tutorials floating around the internet over the years and it's kinda hard to pinpoint what would... #...be a good tip to share. #doing image search on buzzcuts gives good results on young adult head shapes :D #hair cut results in general too #or image searching mens underwear for body reference #I wish I could have HQ screenshots of that clip of Tom Sturridge training as refs so I could draw those muscles

[whateveriscatchy]

x

#do you ever have days where u are just so drained but u dont want people to know so u try so hard to seem normal #but ur just so very tired #but the thing is theres nothing in your life that you can pinpoint it to??