#and they both got me presents too!

[kirby-the-gorb]

(No Obligation Whatsoever but if you *want* to give me a birthday present my kofi is in the pinned post or you could always draw a kirby :> after all I started drawing him every day in the first place just cuz I think low key simple kirby drawings are fun and there should be more of them!)

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #my wife bought me tasty cake and my partner made me tasty pasta #and they both got me presents too! #I haven't had presents to *unwrap* on my birthday in a long time #(I've still had presents most of the recent years but it's all just like the 'hey buy me this' 'here you go love you' type presents) #(and my wife has been working for the whole day on my birthday the past few years too :c ) #(but today she was done at a reasonable time and got to hang out with me!) #(so was our other partner!) #(it was nice :> ) #(for real tho zero obligation re giving me things for real) #(like money's kinda tight right now but it's not like an emergency or anything) #(mostly thanks to our partner) #(and my wife thinks she'll be employed again by the end of the month) #(so probably any money I get will either be saved for emergencies or spent on replacing 15 year old clothes) #(rather than like groceries or whatever) #(any kirby drawings I get will probably be gathered up on monday or s/t in like a special edition reply roundup) #(anyway I'll stop mumbling now <3 ) #favorites

[totheidiot]

i want one thing to happen in tmagp and it's that breekon and hope are normal, human delivery men who live their normal and human lives. none of them are dead, and they will not die. also, they shall be married and live together. maybe they will have a dog.

#🍂 arian's shit #the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #got to tag both fandoms for this #rusty quill presents: this man has too many eyes. #rusty quill presents: the lack of Eyes is causing me unease. #breekon and hope #breekon x hope #tma podcast #magpod #tmagp #oh and adelard graham and oliver cameo #that's it #i don't want jonah or jmart i just want them

[wifegideonnav]

tbh when mitski said “you’re my best friend/now i’ve no one to tell/how i lost my best friend”

#my freshman year of college my best friend and I were both a wreck #and on opposite sides of the country #during winter break I made the decision to share certain information with their parents bc I was actively concerned for their safety #they were deeply upset about me betraying their trust like that and asked for a break in our friendship #(a few months later (which happened to be early March 2020. lol) they did shrooms and realized they wanted to talk to me again lmao) #(so we talked and cried and now we’re still best friends almost 4 years later) #and my birthday is in january so it fell right in the middle of the period we weren’t talking #and my friends at school actually put together a really lovely party and it remains to this day the best bday party ive had #(most of my bdays have been sad and shitty lol) #but i just remember being drunk in my friends dorm room with my friends all around me #it was the end of the night people were just kinda chatting in little groups or whatever #and i was lying on my friends bed just miserable bc all I could think about was how my best friend was supposed to be there too #bc my parents were going to fly them out for the weekend as a present #and obviously that just got dropped #and id been talking to my friends about it kind of but all I wanted was my actual best friend #I left them a very embarrassing drunk voicemail that THANK GOD they deleted without listening to #but it’s just. the quiet agony of being angry and sad and hurt because your person doesn’t want to be ur person anymore #and still wanting to talk to them about it. still needing them to comfort you and give you their advice and insights #i don’t want to talk to anyone else about it. they’re not you. #sigh. anyway. ive actually lost several close friends for various reasons ranging from reasonable to bullshit #and it always blindsides me how much I want to talk to THEM about it #so thanks mitski for expressing that so artfully #op

[sysig]

*blows a multidimensional kiss* For Scarab (Patreon)

#Doodles #Fionna and Cake #Prismo #Scarab #More things I cannot believe but this time me edition: I didn't even?? consider?? shipping these two until I saw other people doing so?? #The heck they have such fun cat and mouse dynamics and Scarab is so cute #I dunno I guess I just thought he was standalone hot lol - which he is! But I've always been more for relationships huh #Well no time like the present! #I love how not subtle the everything FnC is about how they knew Exactly what they were doing when they designed Scarab lol #But he's also got that goofy nerdy-looking alt form when his face opens up! He's got a little bit of something for everyone lol #For me it's the shoulder-chest-waist measurements but his tongue is good and gross too lol #As for Prismo he finally gets some company! Hopefully it'll keep him more accountable and Scarab will get to goof off a bit #I think it's a good arrangement for both of them honestly I hope they're very happy together haha #Even if it's just in a silly friend/coworker flirting kind of way I think it'd be good for them to be silly together :)

[grey-has-rusted]

^me when i am a sensitive person

#ramblings #i hate feeling lonely #it literally hurts my heart #i have such a hard time forming connections both irl and online #idk how many times ive cried just this past month bc i felt lonely #and even when i am included in things im always an after thought #its been months but im still thinking about stupid christmas #i know the whole point isn't to get gifts #but i got one present. while i spent hundreds of dollars getting my family gifts #they even asked me what i wanted too #helped my cousin decorate for her christmas party and last minute i found out it was a secret santa #i got invited but was the only one not included in that #so yeah.... #i dont have anyone to celebrate holidays with #my birthday was sad #i cried then too #not looking forward to tomorrow either #and i try to make friends and talk to people #but i feel as though i always initiate #and nobody seems interested in talking to me #which... i dont expect everyone to like me #but it really does hurt and it makes wonder what's wrong with me #also why cant my brain focus on something else #like doing something productive #its been ages since ive drawn anything #ive just been sad. that's the whole post. #bye now

[aeide-thea]

i wish there were more images of men photographed the way people so often photograph women, or women photograph themselves—soft, sensual, romantic, highlighting and enjoying underappreciated parts of their bodies in a way that felt like a lingering, loving, holistic journey and wasn't just an artless zoom-in on muscles or cock or whatever

#this isn't even that well-articulated but. idk. wish there were more space for men to be and feel pretty and luxuriate in that #probably there are some spaces where this is happening and i'm just not in them #just feels like. so much of the way we (or like. i guess i mean cishet america) conceptualize men is so‚ idk‚ utilitarian #like i guess there's the sort of quasi-hellenistic kouros sort of thing but that isn't exactly what i mean #not that i don't like it but. idk. what if the fuzzy and fleshy got lingeringly rosily romanticized too #although to some extent that's femme-inizing and like. i do want men to be able to be femme #but also i wish there were like. a model for the kind of aesthetic appreciation of looks femmes get‚ but for non-femmes #like. i used to get compliments when i presented femme and now i don't. even though i'm still thinking about aesthetics #and like. there are a lot of other factors there. but in general it's like. a particular kind of presentation that elicits rapturous praise #i don't know. maybe fundamentally certain things have to go together and certain things can't. i don't want to accept that though. #anyway this is a little about me but mostly abt wanting men to have access to a wider range of expression and affirmation #both bc i think they deserve it and bc i think it would be sexy‚ lol #anyway.

[brittlebutch]

The 'Enjoying watch you suffer' line in Broadcast has always been hard to pin down; Tim's leg getting broken is the biggest incident in Entry #35, so it's natural to want to tie the two together, but it seems to fit so indelicately into what we know about the timeline of totheark's internal relationship that it almost causes more problems than it resolves. However, even though it's very blink and miss it, Tim does actually manage to stab Alex in the arm before he gets knocked down -- we hear Alex cry out in pain, can see blood on the blade when Jay picks it up, and then in the recovered corrupted footage from that tape that Jay posts as Entry #36 Alex says "I did what I had to... he'd just stabbed me" -- and that injury being what totheark was trying to call attention to, to me, reads a lot more clear and consistent than anything else does

#N posts stuff #marble hornets #it's so hard to figure out lol bc Tim's leg is The Thing so it feels like they should be linked but like it just doesn't seem to flow #and the timeline of s2 is so mangled by the mix mash and retreading ground of all the tapes #ie; Present!Jay uploading Past!Jay's (and Past!Alex's) tapes and commenting on them while Present!TTA responds to both #that it's hard to figure out if TTA is still working together in that Present!Time or if it's Only in the old tapes and they fell out like #Immediately after Jay got the code for the safe from them - which is Possible? We do know that Tim and Brian separated #like Right after they'd managed to separate Jay and Jess but IDK if that separation would account for the kind of anger implied in #the sentiment 'enjoying watching you suffer' you know? And Jay doesn't get Tim's medical records until s3 - which we KNOW #is the Final Death Knell in TTA's relationship and i don't think Brian would have sat on those for so long so i feel like he hadn't #found them by this point in s2 - that must have come later. so That makes this line feel so out of place in their relationship #BUT if Brian is paying more attention to Alex than Tim at this point then it makes A Lot more sense if it's directed at him #and since the creators Specifically included that corrupted footage that makes Sure to get 'he stabbed me' clear in audio AND #in Jay's subtitles - I wonder if that's an attempt to draw attention to that injury and maybe clarify the TTA upload a little bit? #OR you know maybe I'm reading into it all too much but hey. with this series that's actually a pretty solid living so #mh lb #i'm rewatching bc i'm about to start giving the Bleed More fic another attempt at getting finished and finalized so. keep an eye out :3c

[disdaidal]

I got accepted to a school! 🥳✨ I should be starting my studies as a playgroup supervisor on August.

#personal #i applied to three different schools #the one closest to me rejected both my applications #the next one still hasn't answered so i'm waiting for their response #the one that accepted me is ofc located at the furthest away from where i live #which i dunno could be a slight problem #since i have no desire to move anywhere from where i live now lol #i've got everything here so #anyway i accepted my position as a student there for now #there are still some things i need to do. or may have to do #so i'll see how it goes #maybe i can find a place to study closer. or arrange it somehow that i wouldn't have to be present every day #that way i wouldn't have to move or at least my traveling wouldn't be too expensive #the summer's still ahead so #maybe i'll figure something out #in any case i'm still happy about this opportunity #no matter what happens

[southernvampire]

uterus has been yeeterused

#so i had a hysterectomy about two weeks ago and it's insane how much better i feel not only physically but mentally #i havent felt this in tune with my body since i was a kid #i finally feel like im on the path to how i want my body to be like and i never understood just how much i was affected by #both gender dysphoria and physical disease (endometriosis) until i got almost everything removed in there #im solidly sure im nonbinary now instead of having conflicting feelings about it #i feel much better about expressing my strange femininity and being perceived as feminine #i feel more spiritual too?? idk how to describe it #im just confused a little about why this had such a big impact on me since yeah it did give me dysphoria to a degree but i didnt think it #was THAT bad #i feel more in tune with my child self; like i feel like a grown up version of my 9 year old self and more confident #my mind is much calmer and i just feel so present and one with my body. i finally feel like i could meditate comfortably withouf wanting to #escape my mind or body?? idk idk it's so so weird #anyway im also in much less pain despite not being able to do much of anything and still healing from surgery #and i know that having this done isnt a cure but god i hope i get lucky and that the endo doesnt come back anyway #it's amazing to be able to love my body instead of being mad at it because it causes me pain and does things that i dont want it to #idk if that's a fully healthy mindset or not but that #that's what's been going on in my life so far

[lionblaze03-2]

sometimes I think about writing and singing music not because I’m an incredible singer but because no one has my fucking voice, especially in popular music, and its disheartening to be born a girl, told you’ll only get girl roles or try to voice match other girls, or ‘sing with the girls’ and then only be able to match male voices because you’re a fuckin tenor and not anything higher. I can’t think of any girl Broadway roles I can hit all the notes on. Most songs I love I have to pitch down for myself or use falsetto for singing along to. It bothers me a lot less now because I’m an adult who’s more secure in myself but as a teen in kids musical theatre it FUCKED with me, BAD style. And I know for a fact that even now when I hear people with a voice like mine singing I get excited and immediately invested in their work because they’re like ME, finally, for once. A brother in this world of being afab and having the voice of a recently pubescent boy forever. Maybe I should be that brother too.

#Using randomly gendered words because that’s me now but hey #Regardless of if you were born afab and are a girl 100% or if you were born afab and are someone else #It STILL sucks to always be grouped along with ‘girls’ just because of your voice and realize #You CANT hit that. You can’t hit the mark for ‘girl’. You’ll never achieve that without like. Hrt #Just say THE VOCAL CLASS. Like. Sopranos sing with this. Tenors with this. Bass with this. Etc #Then it doesn’t hurt! But nooo instead they’re looking or ‘sing with the other girls’ and you fucking can’t #And it gives you a crisis at age 14 #Anyway all I know is when other people who were assigned female at birth and aren’t on something they changes ones voice #and just happen to have born with the same deep ass voice as me. It makes me proud to hear them use it #Because not enough people do. It’s like we’re all collectively embarrassed or something #I see so many sad posts from teenagers posting their dream roles and the reason they won’t get it is ‘girl’ #and it’s like. I remember being that kid. Never able to get a female lead because of my voice. Never able to get a male lead because of gir #Even though my voice and appearance could easily swing male. Nope! You’re GIRL. So you’re doomed to background forever :) #I got 1 lead role and it was when I was at my most feminine and was also for a villain that was a fat hag #I LOOOOVED playing her im aunt sponge forever. BUT. Never getting one again after that… showed me. Something #More gender blind casting and more songs just written for tenors please #doing just ONE of those things would probably solve the issue #But both please because I’m greedy and I want what I couldn’t have for every kid today #(And also me in the future in adult community theatre. Haven’t had time/too intimidated so far but I WILL go back) #And before anyone questions the language on this post. I STRUGGLED with how to word it #TERFs begone. I love trans people. I am nonbinary and some form of intersex (pcos). #I just word it this way because of like. Where we all start #Whether we stay GIRL girls or realize we’re somewhere in between. It crushes us either way to have the ‘wrong’ voice to do anything #Because it did me at first. And I’m otherwise GLAD to be confusing #I’ve come to love my deep voice it baffles others and they never know what to call me it really helps the whole ‘what am I’ presentation #But. In terms of certain things. Like being in theatre in the deep south #It certainly does not help and can be disheartening #Especially back when I was younger and more self conscious #lion’s lair

[arolesbianism]

Yet another beautiful day to have the Maxwel tag blocked (can't see half of the posts in the Wendy tags)

#rat rambles #starve posting #maxwell posters have lost any semblance of tolerance from me ages ago Ive yet to meet a maxwell fan who's just like a normal person #and to clarify I actually do like maxwel as I am the number one just some asshole whos in too deep enjoyer #but dear god are ppl just absolutely incapable of being normal abt this man and everyone around him #and even beyond that ppl just do not get this man like please he is indeed interesting but not because of some 'retconed redemption' #like pls we can live in a world where he is not an irridemable monster and is in fact just some guy while also still being a flawed person #like the fact that he is so deeply flawed in ways that he never actually properly adressed and challenged is the interesting thing to me #like look at me. he went through horrible shit he didnt deserve. that didnt inherently make him a better or worse person #it just made him a more miserable person #and he didnt escape because of some change of heart or character development #and afterwards he teamed up with wilson because of necessity #I do think on some level he genuinely cares abt the other survivors and he does have genuine regret for how things turned out #but again those things dont inherently mean he moved past the flaws that got him here it just means he has the ability to recognize that #shit sucks and that he wish none of it happened #its why encore is one of my favorite animations from a character perspective because it shows some juicy charlie and maxwell stuff #mainly it shows both that charlie has not forgiven his ass and is manipulating him and that maxwell is still susceptible to it #which isnt a sigh of them rolling back development it's just a sign that maxwell is easy to manipulate with the right cards #which adds up considering his past and his present very well in my opinion #this is a man whos historically always ran away from his problems and is always on the hunt for a sense of control #and charlie tapped into both that and his ever present guilt #its in fact very unsurprising and not out of place for him to fall for that sort of manipulation #and it also makes for a great set up for the inevitable betrayal from charlie as maxwell is hit by the harsh reality of his situation #and that whole situation would lead to some yummy tasty parallels when charlie inevitably gets betrayed herself (I hope) #the ways charlie and maxwel are so similar yet so different facinates me deeply I love how much charlie doesnt realize shes kinda fucked #I want her to be betrayed so hard and left in the dust with no ground to stand on I want the rug pulled out from under her feet #her composition comes from her confidence in the necessity of her actions and the moral superiority she feels over maxwell #so having her sense of superiority be revoked would make for a super fascinating dynamic as she tries to justify the situation in her head #I wanna see her siral and then maybe change her pronouns idk

[desperatecheesecubes]

So back in the day in 7th grade our English teacher had the Gifted Kids in his class make read The Outsiders and then he wanted us to make a short movie based on it and all four of us (there were only four in our grade in the program) has to contribute. I was big into making AMVs at the time so I knew basic video editing and in an effort to not make a fool of myself I front of the other three who were all in the popular crowd I volunteered to edit it. Anyway I never heard of any plans to make this fucker until I came into class one day to see it being played and my name in the credits. I got an A for work I didn’t do because the other kids didn’t like me enough to work with me. I wasn’t even upset i was excluded that’s the easiest A I’ve ever gotten

#mine #that was the year I got bored enough to write essays for other people for free too #and i took AR tests for anyone who was about to come up short #that English teacher fucking HATED me Lmfaoo #I remember one assignment was that we had to do a book report #but for some fucking reason the gifted kids had to memorize and recite the entire snowy road poem #and I was shit at it and didn’t want to so I did a book report for a girl I barely knew because she hadn’t read one and I helped her #present it and everything and the teacher went ‘yes hmm hmm I’m sure you both read that #but cheese you still have to receipt your poem.’ #so I ended up doing twice the work for no fucking reason #I do still have that poem memorized #and the older I get the more I feel the ‘miles to go before I sleep and miles to go before I sleep’ tattooed on me #I don’t remember if I put the words ‘want to get’ in that sentence whoops #but I am also still bitter

[red-eft]

good god i love writing research papers. at first it kinda sucks but the moment i find usable sources for the topic i go wild with it and it's the best thing ever

#txt #i'm writing one about ambassador animals & the benefits/drawbacks of direct interaction with guests #i used to attend a yearly summer camp at the zoo in my hometown where they had a ton of ambassador animals #when i was little i'd listen to the presentations and be allowed to pet/hold the animal #as i got older then i started being the one to give the presentation #being on both sides of that experience makes it such a fascinating topic to me... #tbh that's one of the reasons why i got my bdfbs! i gave a presentation with them for a college class #and although i didn't have to do it having the animal in the room made everyone so much more interested and sympathetic towards the beetles #i didn't let anyone handle them but just seeing an animal can have really positive effects on an audience. it's so cool....... #but there are also some very serious drawbacks that i feel like people ignore and/or don't account for too #i could talk about this for hours sorry (<- not really sorry)

[emily-mooon]

I haven’t mentioned this yet but ya girls going to see Echo and The Bunnymen live in a few months 😎

#it’s also going to be my first concert too! #my dad got us both tickets as a Christmas present #I’m super excited! #i don’t think they’ll play nocturnal me but hey I can dream #they’d need the string orchestra for that #again I’m excited though I do have to listen to their later stuff cause I’ve only listened to their 80s albums #gonna skip the album Ian isn’t on cause idc about it #I’m also nervous since I’ve never been to one and I have fears of something bad happening cause I have shit garbage luck #but I think I’ll be ok

[akkivee]

me: *going about my day*🙂

the brain: hey remember how you said ichijiku and ramuda are the only two people we’ve heard crying over a loss of life and purpose???? ramuda had this whole character arc where he came to terms with hating everything he’s done now that he sees he has better options and ichijiku is going thru the exact same thing with nemu telling her that they could be better which makes ichijiku and ramuda parallels of each other—

me: 🫠

#this is vee speaking #LIKE THE LEVELS OF WHICH THAT GOES TO BRO 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ichijiku always saying ramuda is a failed project because he has emotions when she herself killed hers off to be otome’s bastion!!!!!!! #‘if it’s otome-sama’s will’ GIRL YOURE THE PUPPET TOO 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ramuda was a spy reporting to the government and ichijiku was a whistleblower reporter and both sure as hell got burned by it!!!!!!! #and even more subtle ig character traits parallel ramuda is a cutesy type but would prefer to present himself more masculine #whereas ichijiku presents herself as a boss btch but would love to just be a soft femme!!!!!! #THE!!!!!!!! THE WAY THEIR MICS BOTH FEATURE CHAINS AND BOW TIES BRUH #∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿ aight so we have otome parallels with dice and ichijiku parallels with ramuda #which would mean nemu parallels with gentaro and GEEZ OH MAN THATS NOT LOOKING GOOD FOR SAMATOKI TBH #YUMENOBRO GOT SNIPED (metaphorically) FOR TRYING TO TAKE ON THE GOVERNMENT REMIND ME WHO MADE IT HIS GOAL TO DESTROY CHUUOKU #chuuoku is in Trouble rn so maybe samatoki is safe????? #idk man there’s still the fact rio possibly will have the only mic that works during this arc #*dying* august 23……………………….. three months…………………… 3️⃣……………………. #c: ichijiku #c: ramuda

[vulpinesaint]

encouraging literacy and gender nonconformity in my coworker’s little toddler son who likes dresses by getting him a little fancy nancy book for his birthday

#local man shocks absolutely nobody by buying a present that is exactly the kind of thing you would expect from him #sorry for being a transgender english major. can’t help it #AND A FRENCH MINOR. FORGOT NANCY WAS A LITTLE FRENCH ENTHUSIAST #shoulda got the pinkalicious book it would’ve been less on the nose as a Gift From Me haha #anyway. enable transgenderism in three year olds. never too early to let them know that they have options #got him a little like. not boy coded but less girl coded book too. for balance #they both ended up being about saving money though? so. kid’s gonna learn to do chores to save up for what he wants ig 👍 #gonna start being terrible about it sorry alex. showing up to work constantly with new books for your three year old #valentine notes