#apparently most people don't care

[robynshaikucorner]

The hidden voices.

I think they were there. Speaking

Of my great secret.

#i just found out that everybody in my year knows i'm trans #apparently most people don't care #but some people have been making “snide remarks” #(that's a quote from the person who told me) #so yeah #i don't have a clue why i'm not more open #original content #original haiku #haiku poetry #original poem #original poetry #original work #haiku poem #haiku on tumblr

[neroushalvaus]

Koko the gorilla didn't know ASL but, like, you could say that without invalidating the existence of speech-supporting signs

#apparently english doesn't even have an established term for them so i'm not that surprised #but basically for many people with severe intellectual disabilities using individual signs without the proper sentence structure #that is obviously a part of sign languages #is a very important part of communicating #so yeah please criticize the gorilla and her handlers i literally don't care but there are actual people who actually use singular signs #and while it is not asl it's still important and it's still communication #edit:// and obviously it's not just people with intellectual disabilites; that's just the group i'm the most familiar with #but for example many non-verbal autistic kids use speech-supporting signs #and for them it's a very important part of communicating what they need #so idk stop acting like sign languages are the only languages on earth #where saying ''hunger eat food hunger'' doesn't communicate that you're hungry

[000marie198]

Rottmnt fans will give their boys ten thousand mental health issues and then complain and depict the 2012 as if they are the ones with issues

Rottmnt fans will write their Splinter as neglectful and parentify poor Raphael and then complain that 12 Splinter is a bad father because he actually cares about his little ones and does everything in his power to protect them

Rottmnt fans will keep complaining for a decade more that their boys were hated and then proceed to bash and nerf everyone except their favorites

Rottmnt fans will get a whiplash for not knowing how TMNT has been like for decades now and then assume everyone except their own is mean and evil

Rottmnt fans will Automatically assume rough housing equals abuse and destroy Mikey's character and write as if forcefully breaking apart a family is a good thing (seriously, this is something that should happen to them. Let Leon get adopted by 12 boys for once because everyone in his own universe canonically thinks he's an idiot and nobody cares about him pre movie)

Rottmnt fans will complain they are tired of Rise getting nerfed and 12 getting bashed and hypocritically proceed to write detailed multichaptered fanfic with a ton of research all focused on making Rise look all powerful & dangerous and nerf 2012 and bash their skills and depict them as spooked and terrified creatures and the entire reader fanbase of that fic would happily make memes about it

Rottmnt fans will create fanfics where Rise boys kill and then make them look all badass and every other iteration being terrified of them, completely forgotting that every other iteration EXCEPT Rise has canonically killed before and done and seen some intense gory stuff

Rottmnt fans will make everyone OOC in all crossovers and never even acknowledge it

Rottmnt fans will vote their favorite characters in every poll without even checking what the question is or if their answer makes the slightest of sense

Rottmnt fans will call every Raph unfairly angry, every Leo boring, every Donnie being beneath their own and depict every Mikey as weak and 'without a bite'

Best fanbase ever really

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #how to drive away the TMNT fans who were starting to lovw Rise? thia is how #can you tell i despise this fic? i don't care if u like it. i hate it #amd BEAST too #tmnt crossover #just wanted to get this off my chest #i used to love Rise. i still do #but... y'know #don't be surprised if most of us who didn't start out with Rise gradually form an aversion to it #reiterating cuz I'm going 2 take the main tag out since apparently Some People r unable 2 handle a single criticism 4 their beloved fic #anyways. i hate RR

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

What’s your take on BakuDeku? Bakugou and Midoriya from My Hero Academia, if you ever watched the anime/show to be honest?

i started mha but dropped it after s5 because i lost interest. i especially haven't read the manga so i don't know what the plot is at this point. however, i dislike bakudeku almost as much as i dislike catradora. bakugou is definitely just catra in another life, just angrier and for some reason, a hero. violent, prone to anger and not really considerate of the well-being of others - that's exactly the type of hero people want, right?

i've heard that bakugou gets a redemption arc and apologizes to izuku about the way he treated him. i would assume it's a good arc but considering the fact that i watched till s5 and couldn't see any real improvement in him, idk how they handled the redemption. he doesn't even have a valid reason to be the way he is, from what we see, his family is alright and he had a good childhood. he was just put on a pedestal since he was little and grew an inflated ego.

however, i don't think bakedeku will ever be canon so i can at least be comforted by that. i still don't like how they never have izuku stand up to bakugou and how a lot of the scenes where he's being bullied is played off as slapstick comedy. not to mention, bakugou is a jerk to literally everyone else, even the teachers. it's just absurd that everyone in the series kinda puts up with his behaviour and praises him for the bare minimum.

#i've kinda gotten desensitized to fans latching onto the most toxic duo so eh #as long as it's not canon i don't care about it #like people ship azula and ty lee from atla #it irks me but it's not canon so whatever #mha #mha critical #anime #overall i feel like mha is a missed opportunity for many reasons #there are so many characters with interesting quirks but they focus on the most boring ones instead #super strength and fire/ice powers have been explored enough already #i wanted more of the girls but anime is allergic to prioritizing women apparently

[password-door-lock]

“Do you ever play match three games?” 

Saeran tears his gaze away from the wall he’s been staring at for the better part of five minutes. What kind of a question is that? “No.” 

“Oh,” you slump against the stiff chair you’ve claimed for yourself since the two of you arrived in the waiting room. This is the first trip the two of you have taken out of the bunker without Saeyoung present, and although you're trying your best, it's still a bit awkward. “Can you help me anyway? I’m stuck on this level.” 

Saeran rolls his eyes, but holds out his hand for your phone anyway. What else is he going to do? You insisted on showing up a full twenty minutes before the start of his appointment “in case there’s any paperwork” (there was none), and the magazines littering the coffee table in front of him interest him about as much as the drama rerun playing on the blocky old TV behind him— which is to say, not at all. “Whatever.” 

You beam at him like it matters that he’s agreed to “help” you with your mobile game. Maybe it does matter to you— maybe in your head, this is an indicator that Saeran is healing, or maybe you’re just irrationally invested in the game. “It’s just match three,” you reiterate, as if that would mean anything to Saeran. Once, several months ago, he looked at the games section of the app store. It couldn’t have been two minutes before he became overwhelmed and frustrated with the sheer number of seemingly identical options available and decided that until further notice, his phone would be for accessing the RFA messenger app and playing with search engines only. 

Your phone, however, is apparently for all kinds of nonsense outside of those basic functions. When Saeran accepts the device, he is greeted by a screen full of colorful orbs, dispersed in a seemingly random alignment against a pastoral backdrop. He stares at them, transfixed, trying to figure out what the hell he’s supposed to be doing with them. This is fun for you? Really? After a few moments, a strange grey cartoon character pops up in the corner of the screen to scold him for his inactivity. Its ears are large and round; its elliptical nose takes up half its face. Try this move, it urges, and two of the orbs begin to glow. Is he supposed to swap them? That would make a row of three green orbs. “What’s with this mouse?” Saeran asks. 

He follows the creature’s instructions, and indeed, the green row disappears in a burst, though it is quickly replaced by new orbs which cascade from the rows above. “That’s a koala,” you explain, “Not a mouse. They’re marsupials, I think, so they live in Australia. They eat, um… leaves, from… I think it’s a eucalyptus tree? And either only koalas can eat eucalyptus or eucalyptus is the only thing koalas can eat, I don’t remember.” 

Saeran shakes his head. This is not the first time you’ve presented him with contradictory and confusing “facts,” about which you seem decidedly unsure. Once you’d answered his questions about common house pets and local fauna, Saeran’s inquiries had apparently exhausted your animal knowledge, which proved to be severely limited from the start. “I’ll just look it up later.” Maybe he will, maybe he won’t. That depends on a lot of things, like how he’s feeling after his confrontation with the dentist and whether he’s still bothered by his ignorance about koalas when the two of you return to the bunker.

You watch over his shoulder as Saeran tries to play the game— tries being the operative verb. He switches orbs at random, more to see what will happen than because he has any strategy in mind. He isn’t even sure about the intended objective of the game, let alone the goal for this level— is he just supposed to get rid of as many orbs as possible? Instead of offering gameplay advice— which would, doubtlessly, vex Saeran to no end— you merely observe, occasionally cheering him on when he swaps some particularly important orbs or beats the koala to the punch with choosing a move. Normally, having someone hovering there would bother him, but… with you, it’s different. This is your phone, after all, and anyway, even if Saeran doesn’t trust you with his deepest, darkest secrets (he’ll probably never trust anybody with those) he has grown comfortable with your presence in his space. Maybe that’s a mundane thing for other people, but it’s monumental for him, and he knows that you don’t take it for granted. 

He loses, of course. You probably play this stupid game all the time, and if you couldn’t pass the level, Saeran doesn’t see how you could expect him to do any better. “Sorry,” you grin at him, “I couldn’t set the difficulty level any lower for you. I’m pretty much a pro at this game— did you know I’m internationally ranked?” 

You’re joking around with him now, treating him like a normal person despite the things you know he’s done and whatever you can guess. Though it doesn’t make much sense to him, Saeran can’t say he minds. “You play it, then.” He puts the phone back in your hand. He watches you lose six times before the dentist calls him, at which point, he rises, leaning in to mutter to you on his way out, “Maybe you should set the difficulty level lower for yourself.” Your laughter, loud and abrupt, draws a few stares from the other patrons of the waiting room— but in the scheme of things, Saeran is grateful to have made you laugh.

#here's some consolation fluff from the vault for the wedding people lol #I know 0 people voted for drabbles on my poll but I don't care #Also I seriously needed a break from writing angst #And in case anyone was wondering koalas can eat other plants besides eucalyptus but very rarely #And apparently there are also other animals that can eat eucalyptus but it's still toxic to most animals so give MC a break #mystic messenger #mystic messenger drabble

[transfemswagbracket]

are people really mad about team rocket winning because its "just going oh gender!" because that is not true. vivian is canon trans but meowth was for nearly a decade voiced by a trans woman (maddie blaustein) that credited the experience to part of why she was able to come out! a significant amount of the votes towards team rocket will be a result of this (and the common man in a dress jokes around james, something that while intended as just a repeated punchline is commonly reclaimed by trans fans.)

YEAH no absolutely, couldn't have said it better myself

#i think every single 'fanon' transfem on this bracket deserves their spot and most have significant transfem readings #my friend's whole essay about the transfem coding in tavroses story #anne's 'I think the reason I don't want a new look is because I'm finally happy with who I see in the mirror right now' #hunter's story about being controlled for so long and eventually being able to escape that and reclaim their own identity #marco being genuinely intended to be a trans girl before disney said no #june's complicated feelings about having to grow up into her father's ideal of a Man and hating it for reasons she doesn't understand #mob apparently really envying a canon female character and wanting to be like her (taken from my spreadsheet ive never seen mp100 LOL) #hornet being the only gendered vessel and being called 'the gendered child' #jenny picking her name and wanting to be seen as a girl and hating her body and her old name #miku's general existence as an icon for all trans people #team rocket's constant crossdressing and meowth's voice actor #even the sillier ones or the ones that i don't understand cuz i'm not familiar with the source are like... who cares! this is just for fun! #transfemswagbracket #qna

[raifuujin]

It’s done!

The directory of all the various DC related books (that I own) has been completed!

Not all of the scans are mine, when other people have shared for the main series and spinoffs over the years, but a very solid chunk are my scans of all the ‘unimportant’ material. (If other people had good scans, I opted to save my own time, even if I could scan my own copies, basically.) And now it’s all fairly organized in one easy access list!

Includes: Conan, Kaito, Yaiba, the novels, movie manga, educational manga, activity books, tokubestuhen, archives, game guides, etc.

Now that it’s caught up, I’ll try to keep it up to date when I get more books in the future.

#detective conan #magic kaito #dcmk #reference #The pinned post has been updated as well; to encourage using the list first; though the drive in general is still an option #If anything is wrong with scans; just let me know #Page missing or messed up scan is an easy fix #Though also let me know if like. A file isn't there at all #I direct to other people's folders when it seemed fitting; but that means I don't know if they disappear at some point #They've been around a while but it's always a slight concern #Even if scans aren't mine; I do own anything on this list. I've saved stuff a few times over #Later tag: I've beein going back through the folders and. Will probably make changes #Eventually #Most things need the covers scanned; and that's fine to have skipped and more for conformity #But I apparently just scanned the manga part of science books which #Fair to my past self because the informational sections are the least cared about #But I would like to actually have everything #...But I'm taking a break after a solid two weeks of scanning so #Just a list for now

[stillcominback]

𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙻, 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝙳𝙸𝙲𝚃'𝚂 𝙸𝙽: as a lot of you may know by know [ if you've caught any of my previous posts about it ], i'm moving with my parents back to california from texas -- where i've been for about 30 years -- because overall? it'll be good for me. i'm sick of texas for the most part, i literally can't afford to live on my own [ and honestly? i like being near my parents and would just have more security and better quality of life in CA ], and i just think sometimes a change is good!

i've been waiting to see if my job will let me keep my job [ and continue to pay me dirt, even! ] ... all i was asking is that i can live in california and work remote. well, the owner has decided he will not allow me to do that. is there a good reason? in my opinion: no. he's framing it [ in his conservative white man rich business owner brain ] that I'M the one making the choice to move because i could apparently just as easily stay in texas and get my own place etc etc etc. so it's on me! unfortunately, it's just not that simple, but i guess from a guy who runs a family business and has multiple homes, it's just hard to really grasp that concept.

i'm literally so furious and so heartbroken at the same time. i know it's not the best company, and yeah i guess, we can say this is for the best in the end? but that doesn't make it hurt less. i've been there for almost 11 fucking years. my ENTIRE career out of college. through ups and downs, i was always working my ass off and being a great employee ... shining reviews and reputation with literally everyone. it just hurts that that ultimately means nothing when i'm finally asking for something in return. i take the poverty wages, take the working in the office when i hate it for the most part, i've taken having to hear misogynistic, homophobic, transphobic, every-phobic thing over the years ... then i ask for ONE thing in 11 years [ that's literally not even a big ask ] and it's a ✨no✨.

i feel so lost. like i don't even know how to be without this job, and as much as people tell me YOU'RE SO TALENTED! YOU'RE SO GREAT! YOU'LL FIND SOMETHING SOOOO MUCH BETTER! i wanna believe it, but my brain just ... doesn't. maybe it's imposter syndrome or just how fucking down on myself i feel right now. i still appreciate it because i literally don't know what i would do without my friends and family's support right now like ... even if i can't see it for myself, it means the literal world to me.

plus sides [ i guess ]: i should be able to keep my laptop [ but i'll lose adobe cc so ... i may need some recs or help on how to at least get photoshop cause idk how i'll carry on without it lmao ]; my manager who is a literal saint and one of the best people i know [ she actually pissed the owner off going to the mat for me lmao "he doesn't like to be questioned" ... insert the biggest eye-roll of my life ] ... but she said she would help me with literally everything from linkedin to my resume to a portfolio, and i know that'll be like everything to me while i just .... try to navigate all of this ON TOP OF trying to move.

ALSO: i think i can work until i leave, if that's what i want to do ... i'm still trying to figure all of this out because honestly? even though it's not much? i need the money. but then i'm also like i don't wanna do the owner any favors by having me work while they maybe start putting out feelers to replace me, yknow? BUT THEN AGAIN, i'm hurting my boss more than him [ and that's the twisted, frustrated thing about all of this ... it hurts us way more than it does anything to him but he still gets to make the choice for us ]. SO! i dunno! i may just use all my PTO and see how far that gets me lmao but i feel like at the end of the day, i have to look out for myself and maybe just trying to pull in as many paychecks as i can [ since we also don't have a hard 'we're moving!' date at the moment ] is the best idea ... even if the idea of going into the office and acting normal like literally makes me so ... 😤 but i dunno! my brain is a mess! afjhksdfda

SO YEAH. i just wanted to update you guys because i do consider you friends. whether we talk a little or a lot, i appreciate all of you so much and just wanted to keep folks in the loop with where my life and my head's at right now. not the best but ... just trying to keep it moving. honestly nooooo clue when writing is gonna happen here again??? i do miss / enjoy the distraction of plotting and talking about all this stuff so don't be shy, i just don't know when i'll have the time or capacity to just write here [ maybe once we move and stuff settles a little bit? ] -- but yeah, in the meantime, please come chat with me, let's plot dynamics and all that shit because it still makes me so happy and lets me take my mind on a little vacation lmao love you all, truly! ❤️

#** reblogging on some of my blogs to pass it around but! applies across the board: you can find most of my blogs in my pinned post here! ** #been on and off crying since like 4PM yesterday so it's been a ride lemme tell ya! #nothing like feeling like you wasted over a decade of your life at a job that never really cared about you #like MY boss does but stupidly she doesn't get to make all the decisions for HER own team #even though the owner is barely present and doesn't really know anything about us or the day to day so ... very cool of him #to make big decisions that can hurt a lot of people (and don't affect him one bit either way) #he just really doesn't seem to give a shit at all that it makes our lives so much harder for NO reason #it's just that he literally doesn't “like” remote working and doesn't want to set some kind of company-wide precedent #even tho i'm like moving isn't THAT easy lmao people aren't all just gonna mass exodus out my guy #(also we have a C-level employee who lives / works from new york but ... apparently that's SUUUUPER different because she lived there when #she was hired ........ *stares into camera*) #anyway!!! i'm just really frustrated and hurt and fucking terrified #and i appreciate literally anyone who bothered to read all this! lmao #i'll be around on mobile as per usual ❤️❤️❤️ #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[little-mouse-adventures]

The Artemis Fowl series isn’t actually about a boy learning how to make friends and save the world with the help of fairies, it’s actually about a boy learning to become a fully-fledged necromancer.

#Artemis fowl #Book 1 he learns fairy healings can pull someone back from the brink of death #When Holly saves Butler after the troll fight #Then book 3 tests the limits of revival using magic and even “long term” death can be fixed #As long as there is a body present #And bodies can be made easily according to book 4 #But by Book 5 Artemis learns he can steal magic and transfer it around even without a physical form #Book 6 shows more of the same as well as immortality apparently being in reach if Opal is close to achieving it #And then book 8 has Artemis learning about time spells and maintaining the spirit #So he combines all his knowledge and uses magic to suspend his own life force and use a new body to house his soul = necromancy #he probably adds like...“NEC” onto his business cards #and most people don't notice it in the deluge of other acronyms and initials and whatnot but those that DO think it's just a weird flex #to specifically point out that you have certificates and honors that are Not Elsewhere Classified #anyways vampire artemis is all well and good but let's see some absolutely unhinged grave robbing behaviour #eventually butler dies and his will and standing orders are very clear that the DNR clause stands for both #'do not resuscitate' AND 'do not resurrect - yes artemis this means you and no i don't care about your reasons'

[erabundus]

all  shitposting  aside,  ren  generally  doesn't  care  what  other  people  think  of  his  appearance  because  he  doesn't  feel  like  it's  something  that  necessarily  belongs  to  him.  the  face  he  wears  was  crafted  purposefully  —  and  it  was  made  in  the  image  of  SOMEONE  ELSE.  going  by  that  logic,  he  doesn't  see  it  as  his  own  face.  he's  also  similarly  apathetic  towards  all  compliments  or  insults  regarding  his  looks  in  general.  objectively  he  is  quite  pleasing  to  look  at.  he's  graceful.  he  has  an  ethereal  quality  about  him  that  seems  to  come  completely  effortlessly  —  but  you  can't  actually  point  that  out  and  expect  to  receive  a  POSITIVE  RESPONSE.  at  worst,  he  may  grow  genuinely  irritated  by  what  he  sees  as  shallow  praise.

he  isn't  above  weaponizing  his  appearance  if  it  benefits  him,  but  as  far  as  ren  is  concerned,  that's  the  only  USEFUL  THING  about  it.  if  you  actually  want  to  compliment  him ( or insult him, for that matter )  you  need  to  focus  on  something  more  substantial  than  just  looks. 

#𝟎𝟎𝟒 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥. ◟ hc .◝ #( though to reiterate he still doesn't care about most people's opinions.... he is his own biggest hater after all. ) #( man doesn't even brush his own hair half of the time but he was just made divinely beautiful so most people don't even notice ) #( apparently i have to download an extra update because i play on ps4 and hoyo hates me smh )

[obstinatecondolement]

Trying to look this up, because I am on a hot streak of getting annoyed at YouTubers for being wrong about things and I want to make sure that I'm not wrong (or that maybe we're both right), but like... is 'wivvern' an accepted standard pronunciation of the word 'wyvern' in any dialects of English that you are aware of? I've only ever heard it pronounced with the y sounding like 'eye' rather than like 'ih' but I've heard two people saying 'wivvern' today alone and I'm starting to wonder if this is just a thing I didn't know about.

#like how covvert is the standard pronunciation of the word 'covert' on this side of the atlantic apparently #or at least it was #most people my generation or younger would say it like they do in north america I'm pretty sure #see also: we're supposed to spell tires‚ jail and groin #as tyres‚ gaol and (this is the worst one) groyne #I'm sorry but I will never ever willingly have groyne be my go-to spelling of that word #not if I live to be a thousand years old #and I don't care if this makes my spelling inconsistent

[icewindandboringhorror]

my personal Media Genres tier ranking and also Neopets Species tiers. put together in the same post just due to being adjacently related because they're on the same website lol

links to the specific tier makers: Media Genres --- Neopets

#(might have to right click open image in new tab to zoom and see some of them. tumblr always makes screenshots tiny) #Also I think this is why I have trouble finding things to watch/just don't watch media very often since I'm so so so hyper specific and #particular that I just end up disliking or neutrally not caring about like.. SO MANY things ghfg #Even being aware of my particular-ness I was still surprised to see how many were in the 'dislike' and 'not care' categories lol #Also it is so so so hard being an Action and Romance genre hater YET being a Fantasy and Historical genre lover ghhjb #EVERY fantasy story is also an action romance.. every historical story is a romance.. ouch oof taking psychic damage always #KIND of like how I LOOOOVE point and click mystery puzzle games but I also generally dislike the horror genre #but many point and click puzzle games I used to see would have horror elements or be 'scary' in some way #and it's like HHRgghh.. I just want to navigate a creepy old dilapidated mansion collecting secret codes from books but NOT in a scary way! #just like I want fantasy & historical content but NOT in an action romance way!! #Also.. NEOPETS.. I think my two favorites are both one of the most common choices and also one of the least lol #like EVERYONE loves aishas pretty much. I think they even won a favorite neopets poll on tumblr. But then nobody talks about vandagyres #or even cares about them (seemingly) and they have like so few clothes or good options because they're just irrelevant apparently #also I know it seems very uncharacteristic for the neopet that's basically A Cat to not be in my favorites but I just gjhjhbj #the eyebrows of the wocky bother me. it doesn't match everything else. Even in different paintrbsuh colors it will be #nice and cohesive and pastel or something and then two big dark lines. I aesthetically love thick dark eyebrows on people it just looks wei #rd on a cartoon cat. ANYWAY.. fun to think about #I love ranking things always #also curious to know if anyone has similar opinions... my fellow vandagyre lovers.. and action movie haters.. cutthroat kitchen fans.. :0c #AND as someone tired of romance in general & ESPECIALLY cardboard cutout cishet romances. yes I would of course like to see more lgbtq+ #stories in media etc. The genre is just not placed higher because so much seems to be Modern Young Adult Romance which of course I hate #those themes lol.. We need some drama comedies with a cast of gay 300yr old elves in victorian costume. please.. ghjgj.. (and like ACTUAL #300 yr olds. NOT 'is immortal bt still acts like an irrational 15yr old bc plot'. what abt jaded eccentric elder romance? hmM? lol) ANYWAY #always manifesting a 'high fantasy historical mystery comedy drama satire psychological character study (with vampires)' into existence lol #if I could make a tv show set in my world... the sheer power I would have.. and nobody would watch it because it would have NO action or #romance (at least none that was serious/was not framed as lame/goofy/comedic) & would have intricate complicated worldbuilding and be very #VERY broadly unmarketable.. but I would finally have a show that meets my tastes lol

[adore-gregor]

my football team is so hopeless

#not dortmund lol i mean the club i play at myself #it makes me want to quit ngl #there are just so many things i'm fed up with #at times it's not fun anymore #i like playing football but there's just a lot wrong with this team #but i'm mostly just hanging around because i don't want to let my coach down like he cares and genuinly seems like a good coach #the only thing which gives me a bit of hope #and i hate letting people down 😅 that and also i hate giving up #but i have never seen a team more hopeless or felt more hopeless playing a sport 😅 #and he apparently thinks i'm kind of important to the team which i kind of get but also it doesn't really make a difference... #we're just so hopeless i can’t turn this around lol #i always start and i hope it continues but there's not much i can do #we just have too many people who don't care last match so many have given up #some of our team just refuse to run or move at some point it's awful #like why can't you try #we always loose so high like what's the point but still don't give up #besides that the endurance (and also sprint speed) of most is awful which could be trained to a point #but whenever the coach tries to do that almost no one shows up 💀 #and i usually play wing or outside midfielder but i'm supposed to also be a defender apparently what #whenever we get a goal on my side and i'm not back in defence someone moans at me like that's my fault #i get working back but i can’t be everywhere especially when some people don't move #and i actually try to get the ball foreward or try to get the ball back in the front because i don't give up when we're behind #i want to score goals and not settle with loosing and only sit back to do defence anymore #naturally there will be open spaces when i try to do that but how is giving up better even when it's hopeless we could still try scoring #and i can't be everywhere they should try my position they would never last 90min running like i do #besides i'm already exausted each week from my training before like i do sports 2-3 hours 6 or 7 days a week #unfortunately i have to because once again i'm trying some entrance exam (for sports to become a teach in sports and english hopefully) #asides from that i don't like most of the people at my club 😅 it feels a bit like highschool again and i didn't like highschool #so many are ignorant and judgemental #like the girl i told you about with her comment about the cleaning lady instead of wanting to clean up her stuff herself 🙄

[musical-chick-13]

Nothing will alienate you from the people around you faster than hating a popular fictional man.

#it's not 'i jUsT cAn'T bRiNg mYsELf tO cArE aBoUt mEn' and it's not even 'I'm too gay for this' it's #'the trends always coalesce around a certain type of man and I'm tired' #like I don't care about what people do this is NOT the most important hill to set up camp on but it's just...very telling #who we spend the most energy on and when I say 'I would like to spend my energy on something else' that apparently disconnects me #further from humanity? like I don't...I don't get it. #(and then sometimes people will act like my evasion of this is because I'm a lesbian when I have done a LOT of self-evaluation to #determine that I am in fact A Bisexual. and I ALSO don't understand this idea that the reason you wouldn't care about someone #(real or fictional) is that you aren't attracted to them? or that if you aren't attracted to one SPECIFIC example of this gender then you #must not be attracted to that gender at all?) #ANYWAY. if you ever want to ask me about my favorite fictional men feel free.

[wickedhawtwexler]

speaking of adhd meds i'm very excited/nervous because my doctor and i are going to talk about switching to a non-stimulant adhd med (so i don't have to cry on the phone to my pharmacist every single month 🥲)

#i've been considering this for a few months and i think now is the best time bc i'm going to be unemployed #apparently it takes a bit to build up in your system. and now it's like who cares i have no job anyways!!! #nonstims don't work as well for most people but this focalin has been doing shit for me even when i've taken two at a time so 🤷🏼‍♀️ #wellbutrin is also an antidepressant which uh. i definitely need currently 🥲 #i tried to get adderall this month so i could be medicated for this job search but it's hopeless lmao. nobody has it. not even my baby dose #and i'm just like. i cannot deal with this right now lmao. if this works even slightly better than focalin i will be happy #m.txt

[theokusgallery]

Merry crisis and hap new yer

Merry crisis to you too ! May nothing change on January 1st

#new years' celebrations make me unbelievably anxious. i'm glad i didn't see much of that this year! #apparently most of the people i know don't care about it which is the best thing that could ever have happened to me #thank you very much for the wishes though :))) right back at ya ! #ask #neonordream