#barbara deacon

[stoat-party]

Something about

and

and Deacon hiding his eyes for the next twenty years, because they’re the one part of him left that he can’t change.

#fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #fallout deacon #fallout 4 deacon #deacon fallout #deacon fallout 4 #deacon fo4 #fo4 deacon #deacon railroad #barbara deacon #Barbara fallout 4 #the railroad fallout 4 #Barbara fo4 #railroad fo4 #deacon #john d #john d.

[tunnelsnacks]

thinking about her (deacon's dead wife)

#i think i'll do a whole character sheet... #barbara deacon #fallout #fallout 4 #bee's art

[oldworldwidgets]

the lovers

my friends and i have been thinking So Much lately about our favs and ocs as the major arcana in tarot. because they hate me, they assigned deacon the lovers and i couldnt leave the idea in my brain. suffer with me.

#smile #im so sorry #it hurt the whole time and frankly it still hurts #i hope u like my very basic interpretation of barbara <3 #i love them both so dearly #anyway #fallout 4 #deacon #fo4 #deacon fallout 4 #fallout #oldworld.art #omg new tag??? #the lovers

[freddiemercurylegendabovelegends]

Late 70s - Freddie Mercury with Barbara Baker (wife of music producer Roy Thomas Baker) and friend

- Roy Thomas Baker, English record producer, songwriter, arranger, and Recording Academy governor, began career at Decca in England aged 14. Moved to Trident Studios. After co-founding Trident's record company Neptune, Baker began working with Queen whom he produced for five albums including the song "Bohemian Rhapsody" -

📸 Credit Photo © Barbara Baker

#freddie mercury #queen band #london #zanzibar #legend #queen #brian may #john deacon #freddiebulsara #roger taylor #barbara baker #thomas baker #late 70s

[countesspetofi]

Today in the Department of Before They Were Star Trek Stars, Majel Barrett guest stars in "Beaver and Violet," episode 32 of the third season of Leave it to Beaver (original air date May 7, 1960). Barrett plays the wife of Ward Cleaver's colleague Fred Rutherford. When the two families start socializing outside of work, Beaver is uncomfortable with constantly being thrown together with the Rutherfords' young daughter.

#star trek'star trek tos #star trek the original series #leave it to beaver #1960s tv #tv sci fi #tv sitcom #majel barrett #barbara billingsley #hugh beaumont #richard deacon

[angelhusbandry]

got a new tablet after my old one broke and immediately went through the stages of grief trying to transcribe my crazed visions¹ re: role playing video game characters²

¹ i considered writing up an explanation/manifesto re: the "deacon isn’t romanceable because you are (presumably) not a synth and he is a synth chaser" reading but i feel like "deacon pretends to be a synth and his ex is a synth so he retroactively views himself as connecting with her because she was a synth and would go after synths now" is a kind of simple read (but maybe im crazy)

² i am however compelled to clarify deacon (while misguided) is still a much better person morally than araj and bg3 is a much better quality rpg. i love all four because i am capable of great nuance and perhaps delusion

#baldur's gate 3 #araj oblodra #fallout 4 #deacon #astarion ancunin #paladin danse #danse is here because barbara has no canon appearence and im a dansecon propagandist #sorry this caption is so long i really feel like i need to justify my vision here to everyone who isnt like. julian and toby #my post #my art

[p-inkbrush]

Sometimes I get caught up thinking about the dead wife trope, especially in fallout. And I know it's something we all love to pick on, because the fridged woman to enhance the Man Pain is very tired.

But if you think about it with an in-universe frame of mind, it makes more sense for so many people, especially the older people, to have been married and lost a spouse. Yes the companions' stories are all emotionally fraught, but it would not actually be uncommon to hear. Lucy, killed by ghouls. Barbara, targeted by anti-synth hate crime. Nick Valentine's fiancee died pre-war! There's plenty of pre-war ghouls we get to meet, and I'm sure most of them have lost a partner along the way to the present.

I wish really that the death and loss was treated (both by fandom and canon) not as a man pain enhancement, but as a vector for exploring grief and hope and recovery in the worst of conditions.

#all of this because i was thinking about how deacon being a widower is not actually why hes unromanceable #he isnt unique in his loss #maccready is right there being a romantic partner #deacon is different because he views himself as an almost ghost. hes not human anymore. he lost the right to live when barbara died #bc he feels guilty for her death and has turned himself into a hollow shell; only alive for one purpose #if he strayed from that. if he loved again and let himself hope for *his* future. it'd call all that down in his head again #he has to *earn* the right to love again. he has to pay his penance first #(ofc this is not true but it would take more than 3 affinity conversations to convince him of it( #bumble buzz #fallout 4 #hi... normally wouldn't bother putting this on tumblr but my wife was at the store

[fallout-terminals]

#fallout 4 #synths #fallout #deacon fallout 4 #barbara

[margarita-life]

12 Monkeys | TRUE ENEMY

link: https://youtu.be/cfrbXo-bZV0

"...Until finally, you will lose the very last thing you had left. Yourself..."

#12Monkeys

#12 monkeys #emily hampshire #12 monkeys season 2 #12 monkeys season 1 trailer #12 Monkeys #12 Monkeys (TV series) #Aaron Stanford #James Cole #Amanda Schull #Cassie #José Ramse #Ramse #Kirk Acevedo #Theodore Deacon #Deacon #Todd Stashwick #Jennifer Goines #Emily Hampshire #Katarina Jones #Barbara Sukowa #red forest #12 monkeys trailer #12 monkeys clip #12 monkeys part 1 #Youtube

[violavpurple]

I want to do a painting of Deacon’s Barbara because from when I first heard of her I always envisioned her dark skinned.

Then I get thrown off when I see her being white.

#fallout 4 #deacon #deacon fo4 #Barbara x Deacon #Deacon x Barbara

[stoat-party]

From a narrative perspective I really prefer to believe that everything Deacon tells you in his final affinity talk is true, because 1. Even though he cares about the rest of the Railroad, it’s clear you’re the only person he’s gotten close to in a long time, and 2. It’s as real as he ever gets with you in-game, showing an unprecedented amount of trust (and causing you to question just how much of an act he’s putting on before and henceforth). But I’m newly charmed by the idea that every part of his story was true… except his wife just isn’t dead.

Yeah she’s totally fine. They found out she was a synth 15-16 years ago, and it was pretty traumatic but they’re all good now. He took out the UP Deathclaws, not out of vengeance, but just because they were too much of a threat to leave alone. The Railroad got the wrong idea and Deacon just went with it. Even if someone’s trustworthy, the Institute has ways of getting information from people, so it’s just better to act like she doesn’t exist, y’know? They miss each other, but she knows his work is important, she runs a small farm or business and financially supports him.

Deacon does make a comment about having people to protect after you use his “recall code.” And I think it puts a funny spin on why he’s not romanceable — he’s just Actively In Holy Matrimony.

Maybe just south of the Commonwealth, there’s a nice farmgirl with suspiciously lasting youth, whose neighbors gossip about how often she swaps out her lovers (who, come to think of it, all share the same height, build, and penchant for shades…). And I don’t know her name, but I can tell you it probably isn’t Barbara.

#if you take him someplace beautiful he’ll sometimes say ‘she would’ve liked this’ and his voice is so gentle aah #i know this theory is ridiculous but it’s a nice and somewhat plausible au #it diminishes his relationship with the player character somewhat. but you have like 11 other friends. #fallout 4 #fallout #fo4 #deacon fallout #deacon fallout 4 #deacon fo4 #nothing wrong with the name barbara #he would just definitely lie about that if she were alive #fallout 4 spoilers

[zirawrites]

Chat GPT wrote a Deacon/Barbara fan fiction

I’ve never used an AI before, and was messing around asking it to write me a short fan fiction about Deacon and Barbara from Fallout 4. So tell me why it decided to break my heart with:

Deacon sat alone in his makeshift shelter, his eyes fixed on the lone candle flickering in front of him. He had been thinking about his wife, Barbara, a lot lately. It had been years since he had seen her, but her memory remained fresh in his mind. He missed her more than he could ever express.

Deacon had always been a loner, never really settling down in one place for too long. But when he met Barbara, everything changed. She was the light in his life, and he would do anything to keep her safe.

He lit another candle, and whispered a prayer to whatever god might be listening. "Please, let me be with her again."

Chat GPT.... wtf.

#fallout 4 #fallout 4 deacon #deacon #deacon fallout 4 #fallout 4 barbara #barbara fallout 4 #i dont entirely support ai writing and art but this was too savage not to share omg

[oldworldwidgets]

i think one of my favorite deacon headcanons is that he only lies:

when the lie is so patently inconsequential that it doesnt even matter that he's lying (ie ricky on the bridge), or

when the lie is so obvious or the person he's lying to knows him so well that it's honestly more of a bit than a lie (like the synth thing. i just know he was gigglin in private waiting for sole to open that stupid note and call him on it).

almost nothing in the game indicates that he's actually a good liar when it matters. in fact, if he really was a good liar, it wouldn't be such common knowledge because no one would catch him in it. des immediately calls him on his lie when he and sole come back from the switchboard, he get flustered when you confront him in bunker hill, hell he barely chokes out a believable lie when he's trying to get clearance for the prydwen.

but because he maintains so insistently that hes such a liar, no one trusts him anyway. his reputation negates any necessity to actually lie, and if a liar knows anything, it's that the best lies are the ones you don't even have to sell.

#being a silly little guy who likes to run bits with his friends does not a master deceiver make #also im a barbara truther idc. my favorite liar man is haunted and u can claw that from my cold dead hands #fallout #fallout 4 #deacon #fo4 #deacon headcanon #fallout headcanons #deacon fallout 4 #fallout 4 companions #oldworld.txt

[sleebyconfy]

Jitterbug Jam is a children’s picture book by Barbara Jean Hicks and Alexis Deacon, about a young monster named Bobo who is afraid to go to sleep, convinced that there is a human boy hiding under his bed!! This was one of my favorite books growing up, it is perfect for Halloween but can be enjoyed any time of the year!

#I tried to add alt text to all of the pictures I really hope it’s all understandable!! #jitterbug jam #barbara jean hicks and alexis deacon #children’s book #halloween #my post

[ihateclaws]

Deacon/Barbara angst Drabble

That turned out quite fluffy if you ignore that it didn’t end up well

Lately Barbara had been talking about kids.

It wasn’t actually such a bad idea, thought Deacon, because he had already settled down, they were together, and he loved her. She loved him. It was incredible. Maybe he did deserve a family.

“If, hypothetically, of course, we have a baby boy, what would you name him? Hypothetically,” Barbara giggled. She was always giggly after sex, or when she was talking about kids. It was really cute. Deacon kissed her temple, hid a smile in it, and then kissed her again for good measure.

“I don’t know, really,” he closed his eyes and tried to picture a child, and an image of a certain quiet dark-haired boy appears instead. He made a face fondly. “But I do know what I don’t want to name him, and how I hope he wouldn’t turn out to be, etcetera etcetera.”

“You’re a hater on every topic, huh?” She poked at his cheek, “makes you so real and lovable, though.”

Lovable, he thought. I am lovable. A kid like that boy will actually be just fine; I hope they don’t turn out to be like me. Barbara thinks I'm lovable.

———

He tried to tell her once, but the whole concept of his years in UP Deathclaw weighed too heavy for him to utter. He remembered the harsh words they used to throw around, the cruel laughter when men and women broke down into tears, and, yes, though he hated to admit it, his friends. They had been friends, he and the gang, real friends, with genuine friendship and everything. He remembered how good he was at it, he was subtle, how he used to break things with the slightest twists of words, and how good it had felt, he had felt so powerful, and for the first time, he had felt he fit right in.

He ended up murmuring about how deathclaws reminded him of his misspent youth. Barbara assured him that he was here with her now, and he was a good person; he tried to tell himself the same thing.

Barbara in turn told him her life story, probably trying to lighten the mood. Her family had been farmers, and she had a love-hate relationship with it. She tried to run away during her teenage years, and only ended up settling down on another farm. It all turned out fine, she said, and life is awesome with him by her side.

He supposed it was. He supposed he could just be a happy farmer, married and so so in love with his wife if he wanted. And he wanted. He wanted that more than anything.

#fallout #fallout 4 #deacon fallout 4 #my oc is in it... #deacon/barbara #fluff&angst #deacon #fallout 4 fanfic #hy writes! #this is as good as it's gonna get because I can't continue

[esmeralda-juniper]

also thinking about the angst between mira and deacon and how it seems too soon for either of them to be moving on from the death of their previous spouse

#not sure how long it is between when deacon meets the soul survivor and barbara's death #but its just a few months from when nate dies when mira starts to think of deacon as more than a friend #and how that goes down between them. the guilt and embarrassment they feel for feeling so deeply for another person so shortly after #their last love of their life has passed #which is why deacon and mira never say i love you for years after even if it is abundantly clear they care for each other to everyone else